telling my truth,, i hate toxic (s5) (gcv)
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how do you study/code everyday? Genuinely asking, like how do you maintain focus and not get distracted or stop when it gets hard? Ignore the following question if you live your major and school and all that: how do you not get sad? And if you do what do you do when that happens?
With love and admiration, a fellow computer science student who is struggling so much
Heyy and thank you for the ask!
Honestly, I get very distracted a whole lot. Like 50% of my days are procrastination bc I don’t want to do things. And I don’t study every day, but most days just bc I’m bad at taking full days off bc of The Guilt lol. Waking up early has helped me a ton, bc even if I procrastinate the morning bc don’t want to start doing things, it’ll still be early. The annoying thing to say, but it rly does feel like u have more hours in a day that way.
For stopping when it gets hard: I have this one playlist that’s like 30mins long, and everytime I wanna give up, I put that on, and it’s like a ”okay just gotta work until this playlist stops”-thing. And sometimes I do just stop after bc I’m getting nowhere, but sometimes that ”permission” to stop doing things actually makes me want to get them done. And sometimes u luck out and figure out the thing in that 30mins. (Sure a timer would work as well but I time my time with music a lot of times idk)
And yeah I get sad, bc like who doesn’t. Idk, I feel like the key is to try move on the second u can. You had ur bad days and can’t do anything abt that now, so wallowing & feeling guilty about that is not gonna do anything. It’s a marathon, not a sprint, and a week or so won’t ruin things. Trying to not get stuck in it, the cycle of ”I’ve fucked this up ohno” and getting more depressed from that and then continuing to not being able to do anything is very real. At that point, u gotta remind urself that any little bit helps (if that’s either towards the school things or like washing piled up dishes; anything to move anything along helps to get urself out).
Also big thing that has helped me; no social media when it gets bad !! All that ”respect the grind” ”that girl” ”grind mindset” etc. makes it feel way more shitty. But also the mental health awarness side sometimes makes it too easy to be ”yeah so im sad, im not going to even try to do anything” (it’s fine obv when u just can’t, but when u notice 2 years have gone by bc ”i’m just having a bad day today” everyday, it’s no longer selfcare). So idk, what helps for me is to have the bad days just by myself in the bubble and at some point getting up and doing a thing. Which sometimes/usually snowballs into a couple things. And never underestimate the power of taking a good long shower. Everything seems more doable after a shower idk why. Also I think I say this in about every ask but WALKS !! Are so good !!!!! For everything !!
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Uhmm…HI EVERYONE
soo, I haven’t been active on tumblr for quite a long time..months to be somewhat exact..that’s because uhm, *cough cough* some..complications occurred and I’d like to apologize to everyone who sent me messages or asks..I’m so sorry I couldn’t reply or answer your asks. I’ll certainly look into that and try to catch up with everything. Once again, deepest apologies to all my followers, & my dear moots. hope y’all understand <3
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Nine people I’d like to know better
Got tagged by @neurotraum :))
Last song: mouthful of diamonds by phantogram
Favourite colour: burgundy
Currently watching: supernatural 🫣
Last movie/tv show: the end of the fucking world
Spicy/savoury/sweet: depends on what the thing is
Relationship status: single on purpose
Current obsession: ginger snaps, umbrella academy
Last thing you googled: ‘can you own a monkey in (state)’
Tagging: @really-sheety-ghost @marypsue @sweaterghost @blurrycow @horrendoushag @lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks @sharkneto @bloodyfinalgirl @bewildereye
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about the headcanons thing, i have a few!
i’ll start with tighnari because i love him so much and he’s underrated <3
as a lee, his ears are definitely ticklish, i will never stop saying that. i could just imagine him holding in giggles when people touch his ears in a way that tickles and his ear starts unintentionally twitching away
if he’s in a lee mood, he’d be the type to provoke the ler into tickling him by either being the sassy mf he is or poking the ler until they snap and wreck him
as a ler, he totally would swipe his tail across the lee’s side/stomach to get a reaction, he just can’t help it (rip aether cause his whole belly is out)
sneaky tickles are his thing, and it comes when you least expect it. gives the lee a pinch/scribble and when they spin around all blushy he just smirks at them x)
next, scaramouche
probably didn’t know what tickling was in the first place until he saw paimon tickle traveler for fun or something and was very confused
traveler had to explain what it is to him and he acts unbothered but in reality is really interested
definitely secretly hopes someone will tickle him so he can find out if he’s ticklish or not 😭😭 (spoiler: he is-)
acts all tough and teasy as a ler telling his lee stuff like “wow, look at you giggling like a baby, i thought you’d be tougher than that”
this facade quickly crumbles down when the lee gets revenge lmao
since he’s not too used to physical contact i think he’d be hella sensitive and ticklish just about everywhere (rip scara)
“psh, im not ticklish so don’t even try. w-wait, what are you- PFT- WAHAHAIT-“
acts annoyed afterwards but in reality i feel like he would crave that feeling again 😭
damn this came out so long i’m sorry lol i hope you enjoy my headcanons! and i hope you’re having an amazing day <3 seeing your art always brightens my day it’s literally so amazing skfjdjf
Wahhhh-!
I keep finding gold at the bottom of this ask box I’m sorry I didn’t reply sooner ;-;
Scara just being genuinely confused, shocked and curious about what tickling is I’m..(; ; )❤️)) he has like,, probably never really received any ‘playful’ form of physical affection. And him seeing paimon getting traveler would have him thinking about it.
I also like to think he’s really awkward as a ler at first. But careful, he’s a quick learner.. and he didn’t know he himself could giggle like he does when getting tickled~
And Tighnari… he is one of my personal favorite lers because let’s be honest.. he can be both nice and mean about it.. depending on the situation : ) he’s also pretty playful I’d imagine, and careful with his tail.. it’s very effective✨
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Hello! I had a question! for the commissions do you still do like the one shots/short summaries for free? (I sounds so rude, I'm so sorry T-T I'm not allowed to get a job so I can't pay for commissions
if ur talking about writing then yeah that stuff is for free! (I’m assuming ur talking ab those) it’s only the drawings ppl will pay for is my art. So dw! U can still request one shots and shit idc
👍👍👍
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hey, ur so cool, do u happen to have any kurapika (from hunter x hunter) edits, I wanna make a playlist for my gf using one of ur edits as a cover 😭🫂
hiii that’s so cute omgg
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UM hi i just wanted to send a msg of appreciation for being a whiplash fanart poster. ur service is greatly appreciated by the five people in the whiplash fandom <3 I adore your art soo much ok byee
WTF TYSMMM Unfortunatley the fixation has ended (I still love my little imaginary whiplash world) but I’m happy to have provided fanart services for those in need even if temporarily ❤️ if you want more content I highly recommend this fic on ao3 which I had PLANNED to do fanart for but then uhhh got into something else ..! It’s very good and carried me tbh
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My dog likes to lay on me and for whatever reason he just happens to get comfortable in the moment I need to get up
Then I feel bad 😭
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