-buys blue light glasses for migraines/ headaches
- Wait a week
- See that they arrived
- the delivery person left them in the broken mailbox
- Can’t ask for help due to late hours
- Get a headache from stress
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I’ve had a long day that involved walking halfway home Don the movie theater with my partner because his mother was running late and I’m exhausted so my Halloween had been. I guess a little exhausting but at least wr had fun at the theater
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hey y’all i’m so sorry and i know it’s the second time in a fortnight but i do not have the time to write a fic tonight i don’t think 😭😭 i’m going to get up earlier to give it a go but honestly i doubt it :((
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Sigh
I’m so tired.
My dad asked my sister this weekend if the reason I don’t come by anymore is because of my brother. And since she can’t lie, bless her, she muttered something sort of the truth. That yes, it is sometimes the reason
But it’s not the entire reason. Because it’s not just my brother - although even without the rest of this dramatic bullshit, I still wouldn’t want to go to their house anymore simply because he’s there. He flat out refuses to use my real name and pronouns and I don’t deserve that kind of hateful person in my life
But how do I even begin to tell them that THEY are part of the problem too? All they want to do is talk about the monster of a creature they call their dog. Untrained, big, triggering all of my fear of dogs and all they have to say is that “he’s so cute”, all the while talking about how annoying it is that it’s not trained. And when I try to set boundaries - any boundaries - I get yelled at.
I’m SCARED of dogs. They didn’t know that because they’ve never cared to know. I told my mom and she looked like I’d slapped her across the face. And now every time I try to control the dog, they yell at me. “Stop grabbing him!” HE IS LITERALLY BITING ME. I keep him still until he stops biting. I don’t kick or scream at him. I praise him when he’s good and I ignore him when he’s not. Like you’re SUPPOSED TO DO WITH A FUCKING DOG
But this isn’t just a dog. This is the “fix it” child for them. Mom is lonely, dad is exhausted and doesn’t want anything to do with her, my brother needed something to do. They got the dog. Now it’s horrible and awful and it isn’t the dog’s fault - it’s theirs. And I don’t want to be anywhere near people who yell at me for setting boundaries
I don’t want to be near anyone who makes me feel small and wrong and like I don’t matter. Like I’m in the way and need to change my entire person. Like I’m just an annoyance they have to put up with
I don’t want to be yelled at for trying to be kind to myself. I don’t want to force myself to be with people who have told me to shut up and go away my entire life
I don’t want to stay with people who won’t make an effort to talk to me, to get to know me. People who treat me like shit.
But my fucking god.
I miss them. I miss the garden, the weekly dinners. I miss drinking a beer with my dad, I miss telling my mom about my day even though she barely listens. I miss playing with my sister’s dogs in the garden. I miss being able to be in the same room as my older brother. I miss seeing my baby brother, I miss fetching a handful of sodas and getting teased that I forgot the kind one of them wanted
I miss my family
I miss being part of the family
And it’s tearing me apart but I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep breaking, again and again, simply because I love them. Because they do nothing to show me they love me back
They never have
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Customer service is emotionally exhausting and it’s going to kill me
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I’m so sick of live action shows being allowed to have all the seasons they want but then animation getting canned as soon as it starts to gain a following. Stranger Things is getting a fifth season while Infinity Train had to struggle for its whole existence! Animated shows are getting cancelled left and right!! These companies are just driven by money and greed and they’ve turned art into commercialized entertainment. Well, I’m sick of it. I wish that those companies would realize the value and beauty in animation
And on a similar note, why is it that good shows get cancelled almost immediately while garbage shows get to continue on for as long as they want?? Dana Terrace didn’t deserve to be silenced! She should have been able to tell her story the whole way through!
I personally think there’s not much worse than cancellation. It’s a story and if it’s cut short it can’t be told the way the creator wanted it to be
In short, I am sick and tired of everything that’s been taking place over the last couple of years in animation. I used to want to go into animation. Not anymore. Not to a company that will kill my dreams and steal what I love. I want to support indie animation, games, movies, anything. Indie creators. They’re doing what they love. Yes, it’s hard. Yes, it takes a lot of work because they’re not on an actual show- or movie-sized budget
But it is so, so worth it
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i couldn’t afford vyvanse (~$400) so i switched to concerta. turns out there’s a shortage of that and also every other adhd drug, and nobody knows when there’ll be more.
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It’s always nice to get a seemingly automated “thanks for applying, but no thanks!” email. I love knowing that an actual human didn’t look at any of my thoughtful responses and therefore didn’t see how fucking qualified I am.
Even better when the application was for a volunteer position.
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So here’s the thing that’s really getting to me right now.
For decades, the idea of Roe v Wade being overturned has been wielded as a political threat by the democratic party. Vote Blue No Matter Who or else the republicans are gonna take away your rights.
So we did! We voted blue no matter who! And look where the fuck that got us.
The party has been overrun by spineless centrists and literally just republicans under a different name. Very little meaningful progress has been made lately. All they’re willing to do is temporarily halt the conservative backslide.
And here’s the worst part: this overturning has made it very clear that our votes don’t actually do anything. Right now, the democrats have control of the house, the senate, and the presidency. But we still lost our rights, because the conservative judges who we didn’t get to vote for, appointed by a president who lost the popular vote, made an arbitrary decision. We the people have no power, and it turns out that the ones we elect into power don’t have much power either.
I don’t want to be apathetic. I’m still going to vote this November. But isn’t it all starting to feel a bit pointless?
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I wish butch n femme balls existed. Not to b a fucking sap n a massive dyke but wow. Ugh even. Just wanna wear a gown n stilettos n have my honey greet me w a bouquet before we leave n we wear matching or complimentary jewelry n spend hours on my hair and makeup to impress. N then when we get there my honey will spin me around the room for a brief dance before grabbing something to drink, wine for me n whiskey for her, as we chat w other dykes n celebrate butchfemmeness. Or whatever
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