genuinely cannot think about this without feeling ill
the fact that he chose to include this in an album that appears to be very much about his relationship w fame and music and very little about love and romance. the turner-esque way he hid it in there by describing a setting and a feeling rather than a person. the IMPLICATIONS of that .
how many of the other weird vague lines in this album are about things he feels very deeply about that no one would be able to guess? probably every single fucking one of them. this one just happens to be very obvious if u know abt his History
Izzy ‘I have love for you, Edward and I worry for you and I will protect myself and my crew from your psychopathic tendencies while in excruciating pain because my leg has rotted and been amputated hours ago, but I will only shoot you in the arm because I don’t have it in me to actually kill you’ Hands
and
Edward ‘I loved you the best I could, but I still scoffed at your confession and I’m only saying it back after I think you’re dead and definitely not to your face and I still cut off three of your toes, threatened to cut off more, shot you in the leg, threatened you to kill me and then yourself while blaming you for everything that happened to me’ Teach.
STAB ME. GUT ME. CURSE MY PILLOWS, THROW A DEER AT ME. IM NOT OK. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? I AM NOT OK RN. Y’KNOW WHY? I MAKE A POST TALKING ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO SEE IMPROVED FROM DC, ONLY A FEW WEEKS AGO, ONE OF THOSE THINGS BEING, GUESS WHAT, BRUCE NOT BEING A SHIT DAD? IKR? SO FUNNY?? HAHA HA??
AND DO YOU KNOW HOW DC RESPONDS?
FUCKING BATMAN 138.
WHAT IS HAPPENING. BRUCE. EXPLAIN YOURSELF. WTF ARE YOU DOING TO JASON.
IM SOBBING. IM SNIVELING. I CANT DO THIS. WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS TO US??????