Just in case y'all haven't seen it, this fanvid did me in completely. This song is just everything, it goes so hard. I've been listening on repeat for 2 solid months.
i like to think that Ghost is actually softer than he lets on. It’s only natural for him to be defensive, what if somebody uses information about him against him?
But when Ghost truly knows that he can trust somebody, I think that he turns to putty.
Putty in the sense that, he’d mold himself for them, to accomodate them in his life. Making sure that he covers the corner of the table when you bend down to pick something up. Watering your plants that have mysteriously not died in 3 months. Restocking your favourite sweets.
While it may take a long time, his caring tendencies last a long time as well.
in addition:
He thinks you’re oblivious to all this, that you have no idea what’s going on. In reality, you play the part of being oblivious because you know that he enjoys caring for you in subtle ways since he hasn’t mustered up the strength to do it boldly.
Purposefully leaving the Sunday newspaper for him so he can do crossword and sudoku. Eating new sweets so you have an excuse to feed him some. Giving him a really quick peck on the cheek before leaving.
In the end, it’s the small, sweet nothings that amount to everything to him
Trying to remember the last time I played hide and seek. The last time I said hi to everyone on the street or saw the girls I spent every day of six years with. The last time my dad picked me up, or my mum brushed my hair. When was the last time I dressed without consideration? There is so much to think about now. I remember falling on the grass at school and making stories with the clouds. Hanging upside down from the swing and realising how big the world was. I wonder on the path of growing when we stop feeling big. I am taller now, smaller still.
little blue bird from the pillow flew (2020) \\ first i must clean the keys of the piano with milk (2022) \\ the black bells of a distant new mexico (2023) \\ an echo trapped forever (2023) \\ sweet velvet flower there is no time/ I ask to go back I wish you were mine (2021) \\ two butterfly lovers (2021) \\ untitled (2022) \\ nectar for honey (2021) \\ red i (2022) \\ fountain lies the sun (2017)
So, I love my name but I don’t at the same time. Like ever since I was little I would find a different name that I preferred but none have stuck like the one that I’ve literally been wishing was mind for almost three years. And what I started out as a joke is becoming super serious and I’m tempted to look at asking some to call me the name but I also don’t know because if I love it then I am sure that it won’t end well with my family.
Because my parents gave me a name that is cute and all that. But like, it doesn’t feel like me if that makes sense. I originally used the name for my alter ego with writing and all that but I really, really wish it was my name and don’t know what to do anymore. I told a coworker and they told me it was so much more fitting than my real name and that it wasn’t that different. But like... I want it LOL. So I will just keep stuff for writing with the name I wish was mine 😅