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So like I said if nothing has changed with Jimin's next album, then I'll have to accept that certain members which includes him are happy with where they are and with one member being favoured. And if that's the case then I don't see why I should be be bothered about something he isn't bothered about.
I think one thing we have to remember now more that ever is that whether Jimin (or any of the others) is bothered or not by these things or has even tried to address them, there is likely very little he could do about it. Regardless of whatever influence or power people expect the members to have within the company, we are now very clear on the extent HYBE can go to to attack a person if they don’t do as asked.
While we have to accept that the truth of this situation lies somewhere between Min Heejin’s and Hybe’s statements, I do think that Min Heejin gave us a LOT of info about the dynamics at Hybe. All of this is happening to her because of a history of disagreements (whether justified or not). She didn’t act the way they wanted her to, she complained about unfair requests of theirs and they wanted to put her in her place. This was just the moment for them to find actual ammunition against her because she decided to poke around and mess with ILLIT (and bruise Bang PD’s ego).
So if they can do this much damage to a top executive/creative who spearheads one of the company’s most successful groups because of disagreements (and big egos), why would they not do this to one of their idols? Again, I do not think that BTS members have even a fraction of the influence everyone expects them to have within that company which, just like this Min Heejin situation, sets a very concerning precedent.
You're right and that is exactly my point. If the members themselves can't make a change probably because they don't feel too strongly enough about it to make that change then why should I care?. If Jimin and the others feel like their situation was unbearable then they would cry out right? Or at least push hybe to give them something better. But while their current situation might not be the best, they seem to not care enough to change it so why should I be worried on Jimin's behalf?
The support will always be there, but like i said I will not be advocating for anything if we have a repeat of face era. I will enjoy the music and ignore every other thing. No essays, no screaming at hybe, nothing. There's a lot of mental and emotional energy being invested into doing these things and running a blog like this. During face and especially set me free pt2's release I was at the forefront telling everyone it's going to be ok and Jimin's debut will be one for the books, regardless of how weird things seemed at the time, and it was but I was actually affected by the whole thing. I always felt anxious and I couldn't eat (I'm not joking), because it seemed like as much as I tried to remain optimistic everything seemed to be going wrong at every turn. Sorry but I don't ever want to go through that again. I will just have to accept everything as is... for now at least, because I know if Jimin doesn't get what he deserves this year he would still get it eventually, his solo career isn't coming to an end and he is destined to be known as more than just "Jimin from BTS".
But this time, I don't think I have it in me to be as emotionally invested as I was with face. I will be here but I don't know how many more "Hybe hates Jimin" and "he's being sabotaged" posts I have left in me.
But regardless of hybe not doing their job,he is still going to do extremely well, that's for sure. But the thing is face also did well, that didn't stop the chaos.
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beloved mutual loud-whistling-yes please tell me the story on how pearl found your blog I am so curious now /nf
ok its been like 2 years since this happened i barely said a word about it but ok whatever pearl probably forgot about it i think i can say it now
October 24th, 2022
Pearl announces the release of her dl plushie
It's several months after dl's finale and 2 weeks until my birthday
My mental state in this period of time was solidly parked in the Pearl Insanity Zone
I want- no, I need that plushie
It's 138 ringgit
The plushie is 138 fucking ringgit
My mother refuses to let me buy the plushie
Not even as my birthday present
Not even if I offer to pay with my own money
I was this close to chewing up the furniture
I am not allowed to chew up the furniture
I choose instead to scream and cry on tumblr about it because well where else was I gonna cry about it
In a moment of stupidity and plushie-mourning grief
I maintag the post for personal sorting reasons
October 30th, 2022
It's exactly one week until my birthday
I get an ask in my inbox
It's tumblr user pearlescentmoo
Wait
TUMBLR USER PEARLESCENTMOO????????????????
I check the blog to see if this is a troll blog or something
NOPE
IT'S REAL
PEARLESCENT FUCKING MOON JUST SENT ME AN ASK
She says she feels bad that I can't get the plushie cause of the price
She wants to send me a discount code so I can get the plushie for free
Wait what
SHE WANTS TO SEND ME A DISCOUNT CODE SO I CAN GET THE PLUSHIE FOR FREE?????????????
I distinctly remember feeling like I was gonna throw up on my laptop
Oh yeah also losing my mind on whatsapp with my irl friends who have no idea what the fuck was going on
Problem is
She sent this to me via an ask
I'm pretty sure her DMs were closed at the time
Look man I wasn't gonna blast the fact Pearl's giving out plushies for free all willy nilly like that I have standards
I tried responding to her via answering the ask privately
The answer gets sent
I never get a reply
I'm pretty sure that tumblr, in it's true tumblr fashion, ate the ask
I never got the plushie
And that's the story of why Pearl definitely knows that my blog was titled "pearl my blorbo skrunkly poor pathetic meow meow"
It's been 2 years and I still want to die
#asks#IM NOT MAINTAGGING THIS EVEN FOR SORTING REASONS IM NOT REPEATING THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN#anyways she did reblog more of my art after that but this event was what really shaped me
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Lazarus Rising (4x01): Castiel in Every Episode (favorite shots) [105/?]
#screaming crying throwing up about this new html setup#series 3#spnedit#spngif#Castiel#Castieledit#spn 4x01#Misha collins#supernatural#my gifs spn///#also I just found one of my old Mary sets doesnt show up on any of my blog tags so thats fun
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Brotha, ya got me FROTHING at the mouth over here with all the sweet (and utterly horny) kazumaji comics. I will literally go insane /pos
Thank you for the meal 🙏 🙏
no problemo 😌💖 as a simple dick peddler, the appreciation makes my heart so full 🥺
#sometimes the fruits of my labor are consumed without savoring the flavor but the love from fellow connoisseurs is what truly matters to me#is talking about sweaty ass cock and balls lmao#what's really important is kazumaji being oogy boogy gushy for each other and how I scream and cry and pound on the walls over them#blog mod#my art
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these forging bonds are making me explode
(full version of last panel under cut)
this is like. REALLY messy but i just REALLY wanted to make something wrt sharenas dialogue in rosados forging bonds. i drew most of this last night around 3 am. im gonna cry now
#fire emblem#fire emblem heroes#fe sharena#fe alfonse#feh sharena#feh alfonse#tortilla arts#AAa. screaming crying throwing up.#i have many thoughts on these forging bonds but no Words so i drew instead 👍#sharena#alfonse#veronica#zacharias#lif#zenith#those are for my blog because they show up briefly but oh well
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#screaming crying throwing up#thank you guys sm#ilysm#I literally started this blog with no intention of actually gaining followers dam#So seeing this makes my heart warm af since I was legit just yapping in all my posts#Yall actually like my loser self 😭#thank you#200 followers#I have to make an intro post I just realised that I hadn't made one sksksk
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yakou furio's character is so tragic to me. i wanna meme about how they used the fridged wife trope but other than that it's like. he lost his family and later all of his coworkers and just. existed alone for years.
looking at the state the submarine and especially his bedroom was in, with everything being a mess and all the cigarette butts in his bed, yakou was clearly depressed. he wouldn't even take on any interesting cases to fulfill his passion as a detective because he was so afraid of the peacekeepers. instead he just kept his head down. surviving but not actually living.
and then he finally gets some new detectives to work at his agency and the first thing he can do is fail to save most of them from dying horribly. but the five that yakou did manage to save latch onto him and he starts getting into a leader role! even if his new coworkers are all rowdy and get into trouble they still respect him as a leader and look up to him.
the detectives keep picking fights with the peacekeepers that yakou has been trying so hard to dodge. and usually the resolution is kind of messed up because the victims die but the detectives prove themselves capable of handling the peacekeepers! they're helping people! for the first time in a while, yakou comes toe to toe with peacekeepers willingly, to help his new friends. he realizes that he is able to stand up against amaterasu corp, with the help of the others.
but by the time he realizes this, the stage has already been set. the letter from yomi turned his grief into anger and a thirst for vengeance. although yomi gave him the information and opportunity, yakou was ultimately the one who chose to murder the man who murdered his wife.
yakou has already rebuilt his life after his wife's death. the detectives at his agency look up to him and he would do anything for them. it would never be the same as the life he had with his wife but yakou had the chance to turn over a new leaf with a new found family who cares about him.
but instead, yakou plans a murder. he needs to die, over and over, in order to access the man he wants to kill and he accepts it. he needs to trick two kids, who look up to him and who he cares for, into becoming his accomplices to the murder and he accepts it. in the wake of forcing his detectives to witness his murder, he needs leave them in a lab filled with peacekeepers who want to kill them and he accepts it.
and it's not that he doesn't care about his detectives. yuma and halara disobeyed his orders and assaulted several peacekeepers, and he was willing to be arrested himself before throwing his employees under the bus. yuma and fubuki were implicated in terrorism and yakou and the others solve the case for them, then prepare to fight an army of peacekeepers to protect yuma.
for his murder plan, yakou only needs desuhiko and fubuki's powers. but he brings halara and vivia along as well because they would be able to protect the two younger detectives and fight their way out of the lab after yakou dies. he enacts his plan on a day that yuma wasn't around because he won't be able to help fight peacekeepers, so it's better to just keep him out of this mess. he covers up his murder-suicide to protect his detective's feelings, but also because they would be implicated as his accomplices if his plan was revealed.
and yakou probably expected that the other detectives would be fine. if they'd left him behind to die, the other detectives probably would have been able to either fight their way out or hide out in the lab a bit longer and figured out a good plan to escape. if yakou had his way, he would have gotten his revenge and his detectives would have gone home grief-stricken, but unharmed and forever unaware of their roles in his death.
but yakou doesn't account for the fact that the other detectives would try to save his life. yuma doesn't run after the hitman and escape the peacekeepers, he stays behind to beg yomi to help yakou. fubuki uses up all her energy to rewind time to try to prevent yakou's death instead of helping the others escape the lab. halara, vivia, and desuhiko not only have to fight off peacekeepers, but they also have to carry yakou to a hiding spot to give first aid. and instead of calmly planning their next move, everyone is desperate to solve the case so there would be any chance of getting yakou to a hospital as quickly as possible.
one major theme of rain code is that despite tragedies that may have happened in the past, people can work together with those they care about to live a better life in the future. and yakou could have had that. his wife's death should have stayed in the past, and he should have continued to mentor the other detectives, solving mysteries together and enjoying each other's companies.
but yakou couldn't let the past stay in the past. he had every chance to not go through with his murder. he has new people he loves, but he manipulates them and puts them in danger in order to get back at the person who killed the last person he loved. his victory was a pyrrhic one. he got his revenge but in return, he destroyed himself and his detectives' trust in him. he enjoyed his revenge momentarily before dying and leaving his new family, who he used their love and trust for him to his advantage, to pick up the pieces.
yakou furio had lost everything in the past. but in trying to pursue it he destroyed everything he had in the present. that's the tragedy of his character to me.
#shut up pandora#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yakou furio#character analysis#yakou is one of my favorite characters btw#hes a good person at his core though he fucked up#but also you dont have to be a good person to be a really good character which i think he is#this is @ ppl in youtube comments slamming on yakou for being stupid in chapter 4 btw#like thats the point#thats whats good about his character#would you have preferred if he were JUST a fun dad who gets fridged#thats fucking boring#we do nuance in this household and by household i mean my personal blog#but also what he did was pretty fucked up especially for the kids that he actually got involved#vivia was screaming crying throwing up bc it was a vivia chapter but i wanna see what fubuki's reaction was to the whole thing#bc man is she never gonna want to use her forte again#tragic anime dilfs will scar their kids for life in an elaborate and painful murder suicide instead of going to therapy#i like to acknowledge both sides of characters in general#but yeah while yakou was a really good mentor for the others at the agency and definitely loved them all very much#he put his want for revenge over his love for his found family#and died before he could reconcile to said found family about it
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You might be delulu, but are you I’m-still-waiting-for-this-cursed-film delulu?
[the article]
#they can’t keep rising my hopes up and then do nothing#I have been waiting since I was 12🧍♀️#screaming crying throwing up#Star Trek#star trek 4#chris pine#jim tiberius kirk#Spock#bones mccoy#my blog stuff
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a quite simple outfit, trying to use the little blue and white apron thing (which is actually a dress I think, that I just leave un-buttoned in the back and added an apron-like tie to lol)
#self#mori kei#jfashion#NOT really but like.. it's.. adjacent I guess.. forgive me .. I may try using tags again though I kind of got out of the habit ghhj#I need to be... Seen to some degree. I want to start selling clothes and sculptures again to recoup the costs of having to euthanize my cat#and stuff . but that won't be very successful if I have like.. 15 people to sell to lol...#the eternal Hermit Conflict where you hate attention and Being Percieved in general yet in todays capitalist society it is nearly#a necessity to have some form of social network or media presence especially in creative fields. etc. etc. ... kicking screaming wailing#sobbing so on and so forth.. tearfully punching the cold mossy stone walls of my evil wizard tower...#I was also thinking of maybe opening a few sculpture commission slots and maybe Tumblr Blazing that post or something#but.. again.... sobbing crying interacting with the general public oughhf ouuch -500 HP#why can't I just be approached by some wealthy 65 year old woman who is nonsensically infatuated with my art for no#reason and gives me like $10.000 a week for food and art supplies and etc. and I can go fuck off into a cabin in the middle of nowhere#in the uk and just be left alone to work on my projects without even needing to build any form of connections or social presence because I'#already set for life and can just get funding and connections whenever lol.. WHICH not to be ungrateful like obviously I still appreciate#anyone who follows and interacts with my posts. I dont mean it in a 'grrr fuck all of you imbeciles I wish I could delete my blog!!!' or#whatever hhjkjk.. I just mean it more in a like.. I am very socially inept and my mental illness gives me severe social issues so any situ#tion where I'm expected to self promote or network or interact with others generally is nightmarish and stressful for many many reasons#and if I could somehow skip that part and just go straight to being a famous author or somethin.. that would be cool. Which I know EVERYONE#hates networking and stuff but I mean like.. on a level most people could not possibly comprehend.. I am not just an 'introvert'. I am like#doctors declare me incapable of functioning in general society very poor mental health prognosis probably should have a caretaker at#some point type Hermit lol.. ANYWAY ghbhj... alas.. I also feel weird about the sculptures in terms of what to charge for them#and always have which is part of why I stopped selling them. If I charged a fair even like $15 an hour many of them would be like#close to $150+. and nobody is going to pay that for a decoration. that doesn't even factor in like.. supplies or time spent communicating/s#etching the concept (if a commission) etc. etc. I thought it'd be better to just auction them then and let people pay what they want inst#d of a set price but etsy doesnt allow auctions and is it weird to just.. link people to an Art Ebay or something lol..#AAAANYWAY.. the outfit.. I still love these shoes. they're nice and a little Older Style looking. always into pastel florals too lol#(everything is thrifted as usual. excited about the shirt because it's so puffy! it was in the halloween section though ghjhj.. like when i#s october and they make the special aisle in goodwill for 'Costume' clothes even though theyre all just normal stuff I would wear ghg)
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Watched the new spiderman for the third time and drew me and my bestie's favorite meow meows 😜
Im so normal about the spot. Hes so normal about miguel. We're normal.
#miguel o'hara#the spot#across the spiderverse#spider man 2099#spider man across the spider verse#spider man#screaming and crying because i accidentally posted on the wrong blog 😭😭#im so angry rn#i love this movie#it changed my brain#i didnt steal this i promise im just a dumb bitch
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ugh i love the way people have organized tag systems for people to find stuff ugh you're all so organized and put together and so helpful for your followers. my tags are for me yelling and me yelling ONLY and i'm so sorry
#ofmd#our flag means death#i stay screaming crying shitting in the tags#you can't find shit on my blog#survival of the fittest
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i'll fucking gut myself if i'm not your favourite whore<3
#bd/sm blog#bd/sm community#bd/sm kink#rough kink#corruption kink#mine#no one else can make you feel as good as i do#no one else will cry pretty for you like i do#no one else will bleed for you like i do#no one else will scream for you like i do#cleaning out my drafts
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#delusional#female manipulator#coquette#lana del ray aesthetic#kate moss#girl blog#this is what makes us girls#just girlboss things#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#lily rose depp#blair waldorf#gossip girl#hate him#i hate him#screaming crying throwing up#my heart#i want him
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BESTIES IM BACK
#fjckicjcjd#im crying fjchfh#bro#fjcnj#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP#OMG WHY DID I WEAR MAKE UP TODAY#MY DUMB ASS IS CRYING SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW#I GOT MY BLOG BACK MY BABY OMG OMG
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I don't tag my liveblogs with the main tag on purpose to avoid it spreading further than you guys, which is the secret to a super relaxing fandom experience <3<3<3
#the moment one of them breaks containment i get ppl in my notes correcting me and explaining their side and i am like NO I GET IT I ALSO#THINK THAT I JUST DIDN'T MENTION IT BECAUSE IT'S IN OTHER POSTS#i am NOT a theorist or a meta blog WE SCREAM AND CRY WITHOUT RHYME OR REASON ON EERNA DOT COM#eernatalk#shakes and shudders. i know which post will be in no 1 this year and i dread it
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okay but i can't stop thinking about the way that bobby — bobby who knows about eddie's will, knows that buck is chris' other dad, knows exactly what buck means to eddie and vice versa even though they haven't quite cracked it for themselves yet — told eddie, you don't seem to have a problem committing to certain things. the way he pointedly mentioned everybody but buck. the short pause before and long pause after he says shannon.
the way that eddie sits and thinks about how to best respond before talking about how, despite the religious trauma and catholic guilt, he loved being married to shannon... but not saying that he loved shannon (even though he did, in his own way). the way that bobby lets eddie know that he can't tell eddie how he feels about marisol, how that's for eddie to know, and how eddie makes a face and shakes his head in response.
part of me wants bobby to stop being such a dad and just give it to eddie straight, like eddie's begging him to. part of me wants him to tell eddie flat out that he knows he has feelings for buck, and that buck has feelings for him, and that it's been that way for a long time. but a way bigger part of me knows that eddie would not be able to hear or receive it anyway. he'd just recoil further into his denial and add another lock to his closet door.
#911 spoilers#i'm just having a lot of thoughts and feelings#this is fairly pointless and incoherent#but i will not apologize because it's my party (blog) and i'll cry (blab into the ether) if i want to#bobby nash#eddie diaz#the way that scene just...... clenches fist#bobby the omniscient#eddie the repressed#makes me want to scream
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