"It's about letting go of ego for something larger"

happy birthday kurt ʕ•̫͡•ʔ♡*:.✧

We had to let our sweet girl Ziggy go today. I try to comfort myself with the knowledge that she’s not in pain anymore. She was only 5 years old. 🥀

“I know that in time you will agree

It is a kindness you do to me

Although my tail its last has wagged

From pain and suffering I have been saved.”

Happy birthday tyler

today is going to be the hardest day of my life but i’m going to get through it

Alone, maybe it's to early or maybe it's to late..

No home, maybe s\he is struggling

.....are you counting her intake...

Alone, maybe s\he's depressed or

Maybe it's a phase

No home, maybe it's just something that we can't explain

It's like the more i try

The more i seem to be alone

It's like the more you say

The more i believe there's no home

You would look me in the eye

While making up a lie to pretend

That these things were alright

But i know it wasn't what you intended..

I am devastated.

not only did we loose techno, it all was such a long journey filled with extremely strong emotions.

it was 4:37am when I read Sapnaps tweet from the notification. I scrolled through twitter horrified and had to accept: this is not a prank, nobody is joking around.

and this broke me.

I won't lie, I'm not the biggest fan of him. I occasionally watched his streams & videos, that's why I was so suprised, that this loss seems like it'll be the one I might never recover from... I spent most of my morning crying, with the phrase "technoblade never dies" going around in circles in my head.

work will be rough today.

it's breaking my heart into a thousand pieces, I am so sad that he's gone. he was such a pure soul, he was funny & he loved his fanbase.

it's so fucking tragic that he passed away so early. nobody deserves this. I am so sorry for his family, closest friends and the whole mcyt community.

rip technoblade.

you'll never die in my heart, we will all miss you until we meet you on the other side.

not again...

Dear A,

I don’t understand our breakup. I don’t understand the why. And I fear I never will. I will never get the closure I deserve.

I know we were on borrowed time. I know this was never going to be the long run. But I thought we had more time than this. I thought I had more time with you.

Getting to have you for the last year has been the greatest experience of my life and I am truly grateful for everything that you did for me whether you realised you were doing it or not. I haven’t felt this alive in the longest time. I have never felt so seen and accepted before. You taught me so much about myself that I didn’t think I would get to know if it weren’t for you.

I would never have survived 2023 without you. Looking back at how far we have both come from this time last year I am astounded at the changes we both went through, supported each other through, because I would never have made it through all of that without you.

I was fine before you and I will be fine after you, but for now I’m going to let myself revel in the hurt and the joy that has come from you.

You will have a piece of my heart forever.

All my love,

Chlo 💕

Now I’m alone.

I do not wear jeans anymore 😭😭

Those words.

story in two parts but im posting them again together cause its funnier

You have driven me to write.

You have driven me to paint.

You have driven me to bleed endlessly and stain all my paper white.

How do I appease you?

Will you finally be happy when you have shepherded me off the edge of a cliff?

Fine.

Be happy.

It’s all I’ve ever wanted.

I still keep your birthday present with me. I have tried for three months to be rid of it. It will not leave me. It will not leave me in the same way you have not left me, like a curse.

You who are and are not here, I curse you with memory. You, blessed with forgetfulness, I wish memory upon you.

Remember.

Remember me. Remember who I was.

Remember who you were and what you did.

Remember.

for as much as I love and adore stories where the power of hope and friendship is a blinding wonderful light, full of happiness and ease and laughter, something hits different about the way hope, in ffxiv, looks like this

covered in blood and dirt and limping forward. It’s probably been said multiple times before but isn’t it a reassuring image to know that hope drags itself through the mud just as much as you do and keeps fighting when it can hardly stand. and amidst deepest despair, light everlasting

i wish i could go through your minds still and see what your thoughts were. i wish we still hung out all of the time because of the love i always felt, even if it was fake. i wish my bestfriends were still my bestfriends, but it will never happen for so many reasons because as much as i loved you guys, my hate is bigger. i hate that i was never taken seriously and seen as childish. i hate that my name was never said, something else i will never feel is me was put in its place and you guys called it friendship. it wasn't. time i will never get back and promises that were ripped away from me. i have my faults as well and maybe i'm just so in denial that i let my anger excuse my hate. but i don't care enough to look too deep into it. i will mourn every friendship i cared about at some point, but this will be the last i speak of it. just my last little goodbye to that group, though you'll never see this. everyone talked about groups of threes never working out and id make jokes about how a group of four would. but it was never a group of four, it was always you three. i hate you, but i hope you're doing well.