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books-and-dragons · 3 days

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Please imagine Takemi putting Akira on pain meds post-interrogation and it leads to somewhat comical conversations when he's high as balls

"Ryuji would you still love me if I was gay"

"You already--ykw, whatever, yeah"

Akira, sobbing "I love you so much"

asdfg june this concept is absolutely hilarious to me, you just know that a blitzed-out-of-his-mind akira would be the most comical (and chaotic) sight

his usual quiet demeanor? gone, this boy isn't shutting the fuck up. or, if he is it's like having a cat- peace and quiet is not a good sign; silence rings from upstairs, not a mindless chatter to be heard and the rest of the pt freeze downstairs and share the same immediate panic: akira what the fuck are you up to now (especially since he should be RESTING but now he's trying to climb out the window and roofjump across yongen. seriously, someone needs to be on akira-watch constantly)

at some point akira starts chatting on about the velvet room, and igor's long-ass nose, twin child-wardens and the persona executions, and the team just think it's more of his high ramblings. you'd sure think, huh....

and he calls sojiro 'dad' the entire time. no, those aren't tears in sojiro's eyes, he's just very tired from staying up all night tending to akira. that's all.

futaba has it all on film, and akira's in for the lifelong fight of his life to keep that shit private. younger siblings will younger sibling.

#ask #how is it i can picture that scene with ryuji so vividly in my mind #its perfect #also with the amount of shit akira has gone through and all his trials with dodgy medicines how have we missed THIS possibility until now #persona 5 #p5 #akira kurusu

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simgaroop · 16 hours

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I think I am neurodivergent.

There is no official diganosis and at this stage in my life I probably won't look for one. But in recent years I've started to think I probably am one. I even thought about asking my therapist about this, just before she released me a couple years ago. But it just felt like I was making things up at the moment. Besides, it is pretty stupid for a mental health specialist to self-diagnose, so that's why I am not saying this with complete certainty.

Huh, this is one of those posts I should be writing in Spanish.

Anyway, why am I randomly posting this in my Sim blog? Well, because I am exhausted. I've spent the last two months carrying a huge figurative boulder on my shoulders and just pretending (or masking) non stop. If you met me in person, the most likely impression you would have of me is that I am a very calm, warm and sweet person, who has her shit together, is the voice of reason, a great listener, someone who is eager to come up with solutions to any problem. Someone who has control over her emotions, who likes "normal" everyday stuff. People look up to me and I am constantly been asked for support, both in my professional and personal life. I am so nice and adaptable, that I was able to practically live in a hospital for over 5 weeks, just leaving it to go to work.

However, deep inside I am a very anxious woman, who is triggered by thoughts of death, disease (of loved ones), doctors and hospitals. I need to have my time to be alone. I prefer (almost need) to sleep in a very dark room and listening to movie or videogame podcasts. I've always been into videogames and animated shows, and I tend to obsess about those topics. I used to write a lot of fanfiction and loved it, but have never told a soul because I am so embarrased by it. I prefer to be alone, I hate to make and answer phone calls and when I get a notification on Whatsapp I really need to take a moment to even read the message (and it is even worse if it's a voice message). I am socially awkward in situations that are not related to work. I used to stimm a lot when I was a child, and I still do it when I am stressed. I was a picky eater. I used to be the lonely child who preferred to be by herself and only made friends because my parents were worried. I do not watch series on Netflix, but I can browse Youtube for hours and watch Lets Plays and documentaries about shows. I've always wanted to share my nerd tendencies, but I can't, because I am a woman in her forties, and my family and social circle look down on that stuff. So I constantly pretend and only when I am alone at night I can browse and look at the stuff I like, which is honestly very innocent, but I feel like I have to hide it.

And these last weeks I have had to constantly hide myself in my "social" and "professional" self. And I am exhausted. I feel like my heart is heavy. And it is even affecting my work performance.

So I come to my nerdy spot on the Internet to vent. To the one place in which I can sort of be myself and hope like someone might read this and understand.

*Reads Post* Wow, this is why I mostly lurk. I sound like a 15 year old and my urge to pretend that everything is fine with me is screaming that I do not post this. 😥

#non sims #definitely deleting later #delete later

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x-liv25-jamieswife · 2 days

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sorry if you’ve already done this 😭😭😭 but could you do Avery and Gigi headcanons!! Like when they meet and become friends ((((:

avery and gigi head canons

OMG YES! i honestly didn't think of making head canons for those two, but now that you mention it, i'm extremely intrigued. might not be as good as my other posts considering we don't know a whole bunch about gigi but i'll do my best. i've also been working on requests/posts for literal hours so my brain might be out of head canon making power. hope you like them though <3.

gigi is always asking questions about avery's childhood bc avery has the weirdest stories ever bc of the way she grew up.

avery taught her self-defense after some guy tried to come after her. gigi is now better than avery and will most definitely end you if you try to hurt her (she may or may not have also learned self-defense in order to kill duncan)

gigi loves talking to avery bc she doesn't really talk often which allows gigi to spill her guts out. she always has so many different stories to share and stuff, but most people don't spare the time to listen to her.

gigi forces avery to do tiktoks with her (dances, grwms, etc) bc avery looks so awkward and uncomfortable, and it makes her laugh.

she will steal avery's coffee bc no one allows her to have any. avery knows she steals it but doesn't say shit.

gigi forced avery to talk about sheffield and what he did to her. gigi now despises (but still sort of loves him cause he's her father) her father. she didn't think he had it in him to do smth like that to a literal child.

she encourages avery to talk about her emotions and let everything out. gigi is like the mental health advocate (for everyone but herself)

gigi loves ice skating and wanted to bring avery to the ice rink with her. avery didn't know how to ice skate though so gigi taught her how to (their lessons involved a lot of falling, near death experiences, concussions, etc)

avery is like an overprotective mom. if gigi is getting bullied or smth, she heads to that person's house/school or whtv and beats the crap out of them (verbally). they always run away in fear and never bother gigi again.

gigi buys avery clothes all the time. she thinks avery is really pretty and likes dressing her up.

avery gives gigi her credit card and tells her to spend money on whatever she wants (gigi calls avery her sugar mommy)

for some reason, avery is a really good twerker (is that even a word) and gigi forced her to teach her how to shake ass.

gigi feels comfortable enough to open up to avery and ask for advice/vent. she finds avery to be really non judgmental and straight forward which she appreciates.

avery and gigi will constantly gang up on grayson and pull pranks n him (they once replaced all of his expensive skincare with cheap shitty drugstore skincare and he actually screamed)

avery helps gigi with her homework when she's struggling. gigi is convinced avery is a saint bc she always explains the stuff to her better than her actual teachers.

gigi is bi (at least in my head), and avery was the first person she came out to.

they both talk about how much of a fucking coward grayson is when it comes to his feelings for lyra(?). they'll be watching grayson and lyra and they'll be saying things like 'omg how fucking dense can a man be, like, just fucking confess', and gigi will be like 'i fucking hate men'

avery bought her a cat (idk if its been mentioned in tbh if gigi actually has cats or if she just likes them, but if she does own cats, just pretend avery bought her another one)

they go out together and buy her cat(s?) cute little outfits (tutus, gucci coats, bows etc).

gigi has (not anymore though) a tinder account, and avery found out about it. she absolutely freaked and deleted the account telling gigi that it was dangerous and that she'd find a man for her if she was that desperate.

avery never got to experience things that most kids got to experience (she grew up too fast/didn't have the opportunity), and gigi finds it sad, so, she brings her out to like trampoline parks and stuff. it makes gigi happy seeing how happy avery is.

avery is always apologizing to gigi about her father. she blames herself and thinks she should've found another way to escape (when she was kidnapped). gigi reassures her by telling her that there was no other way and that, after everything her father did, he sort of deserved to die.

they shit talk men. they fucking hate them.

in my gigi and grayson post, i mentioned gigi loves knitting. avery knows this and buys her yarn all the time. when she's out with max (or alone or with gigi), she goes to stores that sell yarn and looks for smth cool for gigi.

gigi and her family don't have much money after what happened in tbh. avery gave them all a huge amount of money. acacia feels bad, but avery insisted. when gigi found out, she was so fucking happy she literally knelt on the floor telling avery she was a literal god. she then cried in her arms.

gigi gets her to dress up in the most scandolous shit ever. she somehow found out avery's bra size/underwear size and buys her lingerie whenever she goes out. avery secretly loves it but pretends to be scandalized.

#the inheritance games #jameson hawthorne #grayson hawthorne #avery grambs #xander hawthorne #nash hawthorne #gigi grayson

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highlifeboat · 5 months

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You can say that new plant cost Liza... An arm and a leg! 🤪

You wanna know what's fucked up.

I completely forgot that happened when I made that art *WHEEZE*

#my bad #i was too caught up in the Little Shop of Horrors of it all #that i forgot the crucial OC lore that Liza has two missing limbs #the songs were so catchy and the ending caught me off guard #god that movie is so fucking good #asks #horror lady00 #i watched that shit constantly as a child #that and nightmare before christmas made me who i am #also princess and the goblin and bartok but we dont have to talk about those but i relate to the goblins a lot

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 4 months

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If watching true crime has taught me anything; it’s that the criminal justice system very often does jack shit about obvious cases of child abuse, and only takes it seriously after the parents kill the child.

#It’s disgusting how literally dozens of people all living in the same apartment complex can all make the same reports #about the same apartment for the same reason (extremely loud sounds of child abuse)#and neighbors can even make RECORDINGS OF THE CHILD’S AGONIZED SCREAMING to give to the cops #only for the bastards to take one sweeping glance at the apartment and go “welp… looks fine to me!”#death tw #child abuse tw #For the record: I’m specifically interested in crimes against children because I work with kids #When I am at work; I view them as my own babies #I’m extremely protective of them; so I want to know how bystanders and the system failed other kids so I don’t make the same mistakes #I want to know what abuse looks like from every angle conceivable to mankind #I want to be prepared to Handle Shit if I have to.#Which is why I’m constantly vigilant not only about the kids in the playground; but also the area outside the playground #Every few minutes I do a visual sweep of the area outside the fence to make sure no one’s there #If I see someone; I watch them like a hawk and make it clear with my body language that I am watching them just as much as the kids #even if they’re not that close to the fence

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running-in-the-dark · 27 days

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#currently crying because I'm alone with my husband's 94 year old grandma and I'm the only one who ever lets her talk about certain topics #so she just talked about her childhood and youth for one and a half hours #which means. the war #I'm not gonna go into it but it makes me cry every time even though I've already heard it all before #how can you not cry about a child who lost two of her teenaged brothers and had to watch the third one very nearly die too #the stories about how careful they had to be because the police constantly went to every house and checked everything #how they had to hide some of the milk from their cows so they could make butter because they couldn't afford to buy it #and how dangerous that was.#idk I'm so tired of people dying over senseless and unnecessary shit forever and ever and nothing ever changes and no one ever seems #to learn from it #or at least the ones in power don't #as long as there's disposable people (men) to send to war it doesn't matter. and now that's not even necessary anymore you can just kill #people from far away and. I'm just tired #and I'll shut up now and not talk about these things again as usual. it's not because I don't care it's because it (literally) drives me #insane to think about it and I know it's weak and pathetic but I have to choose to stay just barely sane enough to stay alive #can't stop crying. 🙃#anyway. shouldn't talk about it so. bye

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constantvariations · 4 months

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If K. A. Applegate had been RWBY's writer from the get-go, it would be the greatest show to ever exist

#rwde #watching a video on animorphs and how brutal it is and holy shit i forgot how bananas it is #they dump 17000 defenseless yeerks into space. they commit a war crime. and it's hard to argue its the wrong decision #the series constantly hammers in how *young* these kids are while also never holding back the horrors of war #the juxtaposition is a key feature of the series #rwby could never #mostly bc its an entirely different genre. complaining abt child soldiers in shonen is like complaining abt kissing in romance movies #its just par for the course here #if i ever get time im rereading the whole series bc i love me some morally complex plots

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thebleedingeffect · 22 days

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks.#ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

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proudfreakmetarusonniku · 2 months

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the minecraft YouTube fandom is a morality ocd saw trap in and of itself.

#like not even just people thinking every mcyter is an awful person for some reason like they literally just. play minecraft. on youtube #but also the constant barrage of bad shit and conflicting shit and insane toxicity and constantly bringing up triggering shit #it’s made me start developing like ocd rituals of intentionally punishing myself for watching people that turned out to be bad like 10 year #later on like I’m not even talking about modern mcyt literally stuff I watched as a young child.#i just wanted to watch video game not get literal hourly thoufhts of such severe guilt it’s hard not to self harm that’s wild

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angelnightrose · 6 months

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All relationships (yes, even your friendships) are built on a system of give and take. You give, they take, they give, you take. You should be getting back the energy you are putting in and vice versa. If you feel like you're in a point where all you've been doing is giving and not getting anything back, it's time to rethink where you put your energy.

#kind of a vent thing #i'm just frustrated with things #okay nvm this turned into venting #vent in tags #but also like remember your energy is precious #if you're constantly giving your energy to someone they should probably return the favor at some point #it's one thing if they're going through shit and dont have energy to give back because that's understandable #but when it's been going on for years and you watch them give energy to everyone else #and they have the nerve to preach about spreading good energy and can't be bothered to do it themselves even to so called “friends”#that's when i get pissed off #so yeah fuck off #i'm done spending my energy on you and being treated like a child in response #the only reason i'm even still in your server is to talk to other people lol #like i do not care about your opinions anymore because you clearly don't see my shit as its own thing that i put so much heart into #you only see it as something to boost your stupid ego when it has nothing to do with you and i'm tired of it

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junkiee · 1 year

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She’s a 10 but she falls asleep to creepy pasta narrations on YouTube every single night

#i have had an obsession w creepy pastas since i was a child #I’m literally constantly watching true crime or creepy rabbit hole/deep dive /iceberg vids every day all day i just love them #legit can’t sleep without watchingc shit like this before bed

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flamejob · 2 years

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a weirdo ass gore blogger reblogged my covered in blood post and it only took like a minute of scrolling to find images of literal child abuse like this is why ppl can't take your interests seriously you're fucking weird. i obv reported but it was jarring to see alongside typical like medical gore stuff

#i think looking at/watching gore is natural and humans are naturally curious #but ppl who constantly only consume that 24/7 and think nothing of look at child or animal abuse images are weird #like i like watching plagued moth vids occasionally bc i'm interested in stories n circumstances #behind the images and videos but i don't like actually looking at them #but like. literal child abuse. how do you justify having that on your blog you sick piece of shit die die die #tw child abuse #tw gore

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mercymaker · 2 years

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me, trying to stay as objective as i possibly can (considering the contractual obligations and circumstances atm) in the greens vs the blacks conflict, seeing alicent rock up in full christian authoritarian cult lady gear the next episode

#gie watches hot d #mamma mia what in the WHAT #i'm TELLING you this is blending my 2 aunts who rly fucked me up as a kid/teen into one hella pancake #i don't think i will be able to keep my wits about me when miss alicent will keep on representing the worst women in my life yikers #like... one of my aunts is a religious fanatic who would literally demonize me and scare me as a child saying shit like #i'm about to be possessed by a dead girl or she'd tell me to stop listening to music i liked and was singing #(it was literally sweeney todd the musical at the time but WORK i guess?)#and then one time she dropped a banger of 'i'm talking to this exorcist about you and we're praying constantly about you' like !!! girlies..#and then the other aunt is just a massive asshole who always acts holier than thou #and would treat me horribly as a kid #like.. she would single me out from all my cousins and stuff #because i was simply a lil weird yaknow and liked to climb trees and look at bugs and stuff lol #ANYWAY i derailed from my original post BUT #i saw the new caps from the upcoming episode and it made me feel some type of way

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lilrobotman · 1 year

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I don’t really get much out of videos over analyzing shitty people but every now and then I go through a short phase where I can sit and gleefully watch people dunk on Sane Dawgson

#i think i dislike him so much bc he very much reminds me of who I was as a teen #except he's a 30 year old adult #who clearly doesn't really care about his impact or the consequences of that he made #so i have little sympathy and will gladly watch gays rip him to shreds #also this is a personal reason i dislike him but him constantly joking about his lack of hygiene really bothers me #probably bc when i was a depressed child i didn't take care of myself at all and i would never joke about that shit #being unwashed and gross surprise makes youo feel gross and I would never broadcast that to millions

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bibluebutterfly · 3 months

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Hoo boy. Now I've made it known multiple times on my blog that I LOATHE the whoobiefication of Vox, but lets get into why/how Vox is NOT a good person nor a baby that needs protecting and why he's all the better for it. Buckle up ladies and gentlemen, this will be long.

Now, why isn't Vox a good person? Easy. Because he (along with the other Vees) is supposed to be the bad guy of the story. Shocking, I know. Vox was NEVER intended to be a good person, and some of y'all just need to accept that.

Now for the long part: HOW is he not a good person?

Well, first of all, his literal introduction is an ad selling drones HE DESIGNED specifically for stalking,"peeping on the neighbors has never been more stylish"

Right off the bat, this tells us he doesn't care about people unless he can profit off them.

Which is also backed up by the point that he ADVERTISES Val and Vels "love potions" which are basically just roofies.

Again. This man ONLY cares about profit first and foremost, screw the people who can get hurt/SA'd by his products.

Next, he has a power of hypnosis which he is NOT hesitant to use. He can take away someones free will at a glance and uses that to his full advantage.

He's also very willing to give Val his lowest earners to shoot. Notice that he does so with no hesitance and no regret.

Also, (and most significantly) he's a huge, HUGE enabler. This guy has cameras EVERYWHERE, ESPECIALLY when Valentino is involved. He's got cameras in Val's room, Angels old room, at Vals corner of the club (which moves when Val does), there's NO WAY he DOESN'T know that Val is a r@pist.

And DESPITE that, he still sleeps with the man, is very likely in love with him, and oh yeah, FUNDS HIS WHOLE DEAL. The cameras Val uses are Voxtech cameras.

Val may be the one who does the dirty work but Vox willingly and knowingly makes a profit off of that. He doesn’t just know and do nothing, he actively HELPS Val out and obviously has no second thoughts nor regrets about it.

This is not a look of disgust or discontent, this is fondness. Genuine fondness. For Valentino. As a PERSON. Let that sink in.

There’s also the implications that Vox is jealous of the attention Angel gets from Val. Angel gets abused constantly by Val, Vox KNOWS, and still hates Angel because of the sheer fact that he takes up so much of Vals attention.

Not to mention the HEAVY implications that he gets off on watching people suffer.

“Well Vox can still do better than Val!!”

While I’m at it, I guess I should bring up the fact that BOTH Vox and Val are MASSIVE red flags.

With Val, aside from the obvious, he’s also a huge attention whore for Vox and isn’t afraid to break Vox’s property if Vox doesn’t pay attention to him. Yeah Vox gets frustrated with him, who wouldn’t be when their lover is throwing temper tantrums every other day?

With Vox, again, aside from the obvious, isn’t afraid to handle Val roughly when he’s mad, and literally screams about how watching his arch nemesis/obsession get the crap beat out of him is better than sex. Right in front of Val by the way. In regular circumstances, 9.98/10 that’s gonna get your ass dumped in a second.

Not to mention the mutual condescension ation towards each other.

And as much as fans (including myself admittedly) like to shit on Val for being a man child, Vox is literally no better.

Plus the explosive tempers.

Seriously. Vox LITERALLY cannot do better than Val. Vox is the only one who can put up with Vals BS and vice versa.

OH YEAH and lets not forget one last thing: VOX ALSO ABUSES HIS OWN EMPLOYEES.

This dude is scared of him, and it’s NOT because he’s worried about getting fired.

So yes. Vox is not nor HAS EVER been a good person.

And for me personally, I love that. I love that he’s entertaining yet awful. I love his dynamic with Alastor, and I love his relationship with Val even more.

If you’re wondering why I personally love Staticmoth, it’s because basic couple rules do not apply to them. They’re both toxic narcissistic red flags and therefore they can be as awful as they want to each other, and the other will simply shake it off. Yet there’s still heavy trust between the two (never being scared of each other) and they still have little moments together where they’re genuinely happy. It’s unique, and something I’ve never seen in media before.

Basically, if you liked Vox better when you thought he was a poor little baby being abused by Val, read a fan fiction. There’s a lot of them out there.

But people really just need to accept the fact that he’s an awful person. Always has been. He’s not better than Val by ANY means. He and Val are both evil pricks who deserve each other.

And guess what? LIKING AN EVIL CHARACTER DOES NOT MEAN YOU SUPPORT THEIR CHOICES. IT’S OKAY TO LIKE VOX EVEN IF HE IS EVIL.

But don’t go on saying that Vox was “ruined” as a character when all signs have always pointed to him being terrible.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin vox #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel vox #vox x valentino #valentino hazbin hotel #hazbin valentino #hazbin hotel valentino #valentino #voxval #staticmoth #character analysis #long post

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