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zeawesomebirdie · 7 months

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Only took a week and a half, but guess who finally actually feels sick with covid 😔✌️

#i should know by now that my specific flavour of chronic illness = a delay in symptoms #i *should know this* by now #ive only lived with it since 2016 #i shouldnt be this shocked #force i feel disgusting #jesus *fucking* christ this is so *stupid*#wait a moment #vent post #realised i probably ought to tag that...#but ugh #at least now i know what the strange 'new' fatigue ive been feeling is 🙄#and now i know why i cant seem to write #ughhhhhh #>:(#i swear im fine really i am #i just havent been *sick* sick since 2020 #completely forgot what it was like #i would take the worst of my usual symptoms over this *any* day of the week #blegh #my one consolation is that this means i can continue reading fic to my heart's content #and that i *dont* have to quote unquote go back to work #(work being. writing. and whatever else i usually do)#(nit that i had the cognitive function for any of that before this anyway.....)#ugh #okay thats all my complaining for the day thanks for listening #im sure ill be back to normal soon #in the meantime: im genuinely going to compile a superb@t rec list #not sure when exactly at this point in time #but soon #love yall

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nyashykyunnie · 7 months

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What's the difference? Nothing

What does it make me? Even more delusional and insane

#∞ ₒ ˚ ° 📎— kyunnya speaks #artem wing #sung jinwoo #sung jin woo #Zuo Ran #solo leveling jinwoo #Tears of Themis #IM COMPLETELY GONE MY LORD #WHY IS MY TYPE SO CONSISTENT LIKE BLOODY HELL #GOD IS REALLY MOCKING ME BY SHOWING ME TWO SIMILAR MEN WHO I CAN NEVER HAVE #GODDAMNIT #forever bitchless and a hopeless romantic #Im not even pretty 2 and thats a skill issue ofc I wint pull an Artem or Jinwoo #so this is why #I'm forever delusional #im fine #i swear i am #im actually sobbingth give me a man like them pls

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icefireanimates · 2 months

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i just wish hllvua boss was made by someone at least decent i just want to enjoy the depressed gay owl without feeling guilty for finding it silly

#im eepy idk #just feels bad man #like i really like the damn show she’s just a garbage human and it ruined it for me #like i get the excessive swearing and the sex jokes #i don’t get peeved by that #that’s fine idc #just #wny couldn’t someone ELSE write it #4 am ranting ignore me

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hajihiko · 2 years

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No bc consider: They find Souda in his workshop, under the car and _oh god he's not moving_ everyone's devastated ofc but they start discussing who has an alibi and stuff... Souda wakes up to his friends discussing who killed him. He was just working on the car & passed out because he hasn't been sleeping well

It is now forbidden to take naps in suspicious locations. They can't take those kinda scares

#They have a 'I AM ASLEEP' ribbon to wear when you really did just wanna take a nap under a tree #Souda who is a machine expert: lying under the car as you do when you fix cars #Everyone else (sans Hajime) who doesnt know shit about cars: OH GOD HES BEEN CRUSHED OH FUCK #Akane lifts the entire truck and tosses it off. In an adrenaline fueled panic #Souda wakes up terrified AND SOMEONE WRECKED THE CAR HE WAS FIXING ??????#Akane: asleep under a palm tree with coconuts scattered around #Everyone else (sans Hajime): SHE GOT BONKED ON THE HEAD NOOOOO #(it was the vitamin and iron deficiency what made her conk out)#Fuyuhiko every time with a little too much gusto: I SWEAR IT WASN'T ME I KNOW IM THE ONLY BORN AND BRED KILLER HERE BUT IT WASNT #Hajime every time: *5 seconds of pure panic before ultra perception sets in and he understands the situation*-#-' stop freaking each other out please. Please #Not an art #Talky talky Tuesday #It's that bear vine #NOOOOOOOO- oh hes fine

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poems-of-a-lover · 8 months

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i will never understand the "stop casting straight actors as gay characters" argument. people just wanna out gay actors so they can have a better grasp on who to hate.

#like this is notttt the argument u think it is #'gay roles should be reserved for gay actors' TURN ON UR BRAIN #i understand wanting to have more queer actors and to have them get more recognition. that's completely fine and im all for that.#what im NOT for is trying to enforce that every gay character has to be played by a gay actor #like did u guys learn nothing from kit connor #or all of the other actors that were forcibly outed due to this argument. like seriously.#im sorry im ranting but dear lord man #i just saw a clip of a decently popular influencer saying shit like this and it makes me so upset. esp coming from a queer creator.#celebrities owe us nothing. absolutely fucking nothing.#they dont owe us that knowledge abt themselves and we should not feel like we're entitled to it just bc two men kissed on screen!! goodness #celebrities are people and they deserve their own privacy and to have their journeys on their own time just like everyone else #they dont even need to have a journey!!!! they don't have to do anything!!! they can just live their lives!!!!!#idk man this really gets under my skin #stop trying to force people to come out just so u can make sure the very little amount of queer media we get is 'genuine' or whatever #like u sound ignorant and bigoted dude cmon now #am i gonna get hate for this i swear #anyway rant done its 1:30 am im gonna go back to! writing!#long tags #rant

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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Oh boy I can't wait to get 5 hours of sleep before this gp 🌚

#fernando. im gonna need you to pull out a banger performance today #to make me waking up worth it #hes gonna win the race guys.......#forgot to draw him with a crown but tnats fine because hes gonna win #if not im gonna need to draw myself au comfort art 😭😭😭😭😭#but god i really hope its noy a boring race(for me) cause ill just be morose and pass out for 4 hours #I WANNA BE HAPPY AGAIN 🥺 LIKE ZANDVOORT #hey guys remember that 15 years ago he won from starting 15 place- dont worry about the circumstances behind that #but ugh i guess i try to think about how good his starts are #like p5 wasnt that promising 2 race ago but hey look where we go #*got #sorry but i am kinda just manifesting a ferr//ari fuck-up and me//rc of course #nothing else matters as long as nandos on top 👏👏👏👏👏👏#my mclaren boy isnt even up there either so :((((#MANIFESTING PLEASE #sorry i am tiresd and delusional and am resigning myself to so little sleep 😭😭😭😭#i gotta be positive in some form!#im tired enough that i really am considering praying to my fernando poster HAHAHAHAH 😭😭😭😭#about to kneel down i swear to god #catie.rambling.txt

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arthur-r · 1 month

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these are all piled together in the same part of my brain and i’m so obsessed with it

#IM SORRY FOR POSTING JUKEBOX THE GHOST UNDER MY SKIN LIKE ITS FINE ART #BUT MAYBE IT IS. MAYBE IT IS #actually. im sorry for posting POOLBOY KING OF COOL as if it were fine art HELLO #a minute earlier: when you go leave me my baseball glove…. some cigarettes…. and a playboy…. that’s all i really want….#five seconds later: cause i will.. give you asthma…. every time you try to run…. so don’t run…..#BUT have you ever been trapped for the next nine months with your dick in your hand EATING ARTERIES FOR LUNCH. no i dont think so #anywayyyy #these are um. ok so in order it’s:#i.b. vyache — a poem called victim complex. from the book conversations over sanguinnaccio dolce #minimall — static!! one of the coolest best songs ever in the world and i love it very much #poolboy — king of cool it’s such a strange and bad song but it’s also so visceral and i love it so much #and last but not least jukebox the ghost under my skin #when i was really into that song like four years ago my mom thought that he was singing about PICKLES #i can fit two pickles under my skin!! i will prove it if you will listen!!!!#shdhdf anyway something something consumption devotion something something being a home being a hearth being an ORGAN being a VESSEL #not to run a dead joke into the ground but it keeps being so TRUE: i am a HOUSE FUCKER i swear #anyway there are definitely more of these like on my pinterest probably but these are the ones i had off the top of my head shdhdf #could somebody climb around in here and join me ‼️#anyway. i hope everybody is doing well. i have ANOTHER advisor appointment today (information science this time!!) and i’m also so tired #OH and i have a ten page paper to write by sunday…. but it’s chill and normal i got this 👍#anyway i hope everybody is doing well lmk if you need anything!!!!#with best wishes and kind regards sincerely yours!!!!#me. my post. mine.#delete later

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jaetaimjadore · 6 months

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cryingggggg enha just released what im positive will be the masterpiece of a century, @lebrookestore finally showed up in my feed (f u tumblr 🖕), and the weather is ABSOLUTELY DIVINE but here i am stuck in interview prep hell T^T

#im alive i swear i am #and i promise i will be back yall I PROMISE #these past 2 years have been so wOOOoooooOOOOOooooooOOOOooooOOOO #lots of hard work but also so much uncertainty about my future career/life etc #literally cant catch a break #(still cant figure out how i wrote doublure dargent last year 😪)#yall promise me that whatever you do #DO👏NOT👏SET👏YOUR👏HEART👏OUT👏ON👏MEDICINE #it will eat you up inside THIS IS YOUR WARNING #hopefully it will all be over for me on dec 3rd tho and ill get into my dream uni and things will all be fine 🤞🤞#also i swear im not complaining.. just repenting #and brooke ily i miss u and im sorry for being such a phantom this year (does not excuse me nonetheless) <3 #and to the 201 followers that have somehow stuck by me: i love and appreciate every single one of you!#its really a miracle how i still see notifs on this blog ...#please stick around cause i actually have 2 new fics that im really excited about that i want to finish off and post within the next year!!#anyway rant over i will have a baddie comeback on of these days #i feel it 😌#medz moodz.☁️

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crimmson · 1 month

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#i swear to fucking christ it happens every time #listen i understand that this is just a difference in personality thing and it's not like these people have done anything wrong #but there's a couple of people in the discord server that i just really need to be at 100 percent to deal with #but someone is in a channel and im like hell yeah I'll join voice after i go put this load of laundry in #and then in that 5 minute span one of the people i am not in the mood to deal with joins #and the probllem i am having is that these couple of people fucking instant join everything all the time before i do #so i just havent fucking talked to anyone in like a month #and everyone else gets along with them fine! so like! I'm not gonna take that away from anyone! guess I'll fuck off!#it's a whole thing and every time it happens i just get more agitated and it's just a Me Issue

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spaciebabie · 11 months

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sorry 2 the ppl who find that they're the ones mostly starting convos in our dms. i aint got shit ta talk abt.

#spacie spoinks #also im autistic but yu all knew that #you could say socialization isnt really my forte #sidenote: i watched a vid by another autist and they explained one of my experiences soooo perfectly it was great #it was like‚ she had a list of all the criteria for each specific person she interacts wit #like here's what you do in scenario A here's what you dont do at all and here's what you do if scenario B happens #here's what you can talk ta rthem abt. here's what they like #like dats me bruh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#the lists are in my head but i think i should start making actual lists so i dont forget stuff #also explains why i have such trouble interacting w/new ppl. i have noticed that until im able ta observe them enough and figure out #the 'rules' for them i am unable ta interact w/them in a one on one manner #anyway all this ta say dont b afraid ta talk ta me im very friendly and nice i swear #i usually dont take a long time ta reply unless im busy or not feeling very social #if you made me upset or uncomfy or annoyed me in any way i would just block you no cap so dont worry abt that either #i have a very high threshold for what i find annoying so you'll b fine brah

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aroacesigma · 6 months

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this is like . a genuine question because i really dont know . when it comes to teenage angst and all that , is it normal for your younger sibling to be physically incapable of going a single day without giving you a bitch face for asking them to help with the chore they just got told to help with (like . cleaning up the kitchen.) and then proceed to yell at you and make fun of you for asking more than once . like is this just the sort of thing that happens . every single day . because im not sure i can take this for another two years

#ramblings #just going to preface this by saying i am *fine* i promise #but i dont actually know how to explain how shitty she acts towards everyone in this family #and then she flips it around once you get pushed to breaking point and snap or yell #i dont know how much longer i can take from this because i jsut feel so intensely guilty #that i really want to just hurt myself . cause im the worst fucking brother int he world why am i making her upset this must be my fault #even if rationally i know its not #even if she isnt crying ! even if shes YELLING at me for asking her to do something that shes supposed to fucking do !#i dont want to clean her fucking hair out of the drain its totally my right to ask her to do that right?#but then i feel AWFUL because she obviously doesnt want to and its my fault and really i deserve a lot of pain because of that #just going to reiterate that im fine i swear i just really needed to get this out somewhere sorry for the rambling #vent tw

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casterluci · 5 months

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got a 79 on my economics finals i need to jump off a cliff 😂

#i still passed that class and got good grades on the rest of my classes too #just waiting for one more but damn this just looks so fucking ugly 😭#dude barely thought anything and he did say he will let u pass as long as you attend his classes AND I DID WTF #even that one time there was only five of us in there like you could've considered attendance bro 😂#i swear all of us learned NOTHING in his class like he would literally just read off the book or a ppt and like..translate it in tagalog #a total of 10 mins of lecture then he starts gossiping with my classmates like it was fine at some point but then he really just kept doing #that on all of his classes like even in the exam day he was so noisy gossiping with the students 😭#he gave out the lesson resources(?) LATE too and i did try to understand them but the exams are just so fucking weird 😭#its like....idk i READ the lessons and understood them but the exam was still so fucking hard like do you want us to pass or not 😂#well idk im just pissed off KSKSKD a line of 7 grade made me the way i am now lol suicidal and shit 😂😂😂#the last time is another complicated story tho...i mean i don't care as much now bc i still passed anyway?#it just looks so ugly.....fuck you 😭#like he didn't even have homework or projects like dude literally just predicted the grade for pre-finals i mean from 93 to 79 like okay 😂#share ko lang 🙄#<- this might be my vent tag KDJDJ i hope no one uses the same thing lmfao

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did #bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried #another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one #machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem #god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8 #and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration #ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a #personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up #bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like #yayyy vacation soon ☺️#ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine #ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought #my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home #god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great #i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc #thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days #and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst #move. bc again. im barely a functional person #god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive #down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno #unrelated

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groupwest · 7 months

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i swear stress makes my head hurt so bad like my jaw hurts my temples hurt i feel sick and dehydrated even though i’ve drunk plenty of water. feel like i’ve been squinting for hours. all because i tried to plan something for halloween. i want to cut my face off.

#i swear im developing agrophobia #also swear i have some horrible chronic condition that is sapping the energy and joy out of me every day but maybe itsjust my horrible brain #what am i gonna do. will i bw able to be a real normal person. will i be able to talk real human words. literally fuck it all fuck my life #*its fine* ill just stop being terrified. by dissociating probably. i should really pack an overnight bag in case i need it tomorrow.#i should really clean. but that’s impossible.#sorry. ignore my utterly annoying petulance

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flyingspicerack · 9 months

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Sorry i didnt mean it like that

#spice.txt #im not like... dying #im sorry i am not like... sui i swear to fucking god im not like that #im fine im fine i just meant maybe another break #IM REALLY SORRY IM OKAY

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blackfliesinbluesugar · 2 years

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(Grabs Ozpin) u hate urself... i hate myself... we have so much in ocmmon?!??!?! (sob s and falls over like Walter White)

#this is a meme i am JOKINg im fine im okay im normal #kehekejsks #ozpin #rwby #professor ozpin #im not an ozpin kinnie i swear... i might b an ozpin kinnie #falls off a roof #he really does hate himself So Much i need more fics where people just comfort him itd be therepeutic...

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