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my second contribution to the binary stars zine.
sadly the fic, WHICH IS RLY GOOD, never got posted [long story, not mine to tell ;u;] but this was a telepath!keith/blind!shiro AU. basically keith is a captured BoM, and is sent to the arena in chains to be executed by a beast, but then a blind galra is thrown in to the arena was well, with a weapon. keith is able to convince him they can work together and using his telepathic link, shiro is able to defeat the beast.
afterward, they are thrown together more often in the arena and over time keith learns shiro is actually a human who has been experimented on and altered heavily. he also ends up teaching him about galra culture and how to navigate some of the wierd shit galra go thru [since shiro is experiencing a lot of galra instincts lol].
meanwhile the BoM are working on freeing keith, but keith will not leave without shiro :')
so in this scene, we have keith tracing coordinates on shiro's back, in hopes that he will be able to use them to escape. i do hope viper posts this fic one day but if not, just know it was rly good and liek the perfect slowburn.
extras under the cut!
so as i keep saying this was a rly good fic. i had like 5 diff scenes i rly wanted to draw but i realized i was NOT going to be able to fit any of them into only 3 pages lol… that didn't stop me from TRYING more than once tho…
attempt #1, 3 pics:
this scene is them bathing [PLATONICALLY] after a round in the arena. keith is lamenting about shiro geting hurt due to keith's reckless fighitng style leaking into shiro thru the mind meld, and thinks about how shiro still moves like he has his human body too, which shiro picks up on thanks to the mind link [which is something of a habit at this point lol]. shiro is angsting about the fact he actually dosen't know the extent of what has been done to him thanks to the injury that blinded him, and after asking to see how he looked as a human, keith ends up reassuring him that he's still a cutie lol.
the page with the dialogue only is when i realized there was no way i was fitting that scene into 3 pages lol.
attempt #2:
this scene is basically near the start to the fic. keith is brought in to the arena and chained to a pylon. he hears a bunch of rly loud monster noises and pounding at the door across the arena and is like, wow i am actually fucked 8D then shiro is brought in and thrown to the ground, along with a weapon. keith watches him try to feel around for the weapon and realizes he's blind, then calls out to him. shiro immediately goes into attack mode but keith is able to convince him that they can be allies, and briefly explains he's a telepath before melding their minds so that shiro can see through his eyes, and after a bit of clumsiness they are able to beat the beast this way :D
my designs for the boys. i have unclothed versions too that show off all their markings and scars but i feel like that would get the post flagged so these will have to do lol. i did post them on twitter tho, if you wanna bother looking there. also yes, this design is rly similar to the other contribution i did for this zine, which is because i rly like the idea of keith having these specific markings LOL. this is p much my official go to glara!keith design.
just two lil chibi guys
i actually finished this with shading, but for the life of me cannot find it, so old phone pic it is. this is post-fic, after shiro joins the bom. [so uh not so shocking spoiler, they both survive and escape lol]
#myart#art backlog#myart:vld#voltron#sheith#keith#shiro#galra!keith#galra!shiro#kinda lol#telepath!keith#blind!shiro#i still love this story so damn much#i might have to go grab my zine to reread it after this lol;;;#also i actually don't think i ever posted this cos i was waiting to see if my friend felt up to posting her fic#so uhh yay 'new' art
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@heydevi bro...... fellow understander...... still not over ur gmod solkat theyre so hrhgrbhggfngh 🥺🤲
#fhgghg i love infecting spreading the disease#slkt literally makes me so ill i'd randomly bolt up in bed like#oh my god......... its. so crazy raw to be abruptly left silent in a room full of your formerly loud and chaotic friends#now reduced to a litter of mere corpses. freshly killed and still bleeding they'd died for such trivial reasons#and all you can do is cling to the only other warm figure in the room who's wounded and unconscious but thankfully breathing#the other lone survivor...... mind blank with panic you drag him with you and fucking run#they're insane. i think abt them every day and still shock myself w how insane this ship is#slkt's relationship around fatalism and mortality is unlike any other hs pair it's actually funny they get dunked on so much by the story#bcs when shit starts hitting the fan they're always trying so damn hard to make their deaths count
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Every Film I Watch In 2023:
236. Krampus (2015)
#krampus#krampus (2015)#2023filmgifs#my gifs#tw: horror#it's 2 Dec and so the Christmas films begin#no it won't just be Christmas horror#sadly not so many Christmas horror films that I'm actually interested in#too many damned slashers#which bore me to tears#give me the Christmas supernatural horror#that's my shit#and too little of that around#luckily i love Michael Dougherty films#and he did not disappoint#i just love his visuals and his sense of humour so much#it's just as dark and grim and fucked up as mine#and his visuals are as gorgeous as i want#it's an actual delight to make gifs of his films#cos you brighten them up and there's all this detail that literally comes to light#whereas other films you brighten them#and it still looks like shit#but no his films have texture and interesting detail#three out of three films i've watched of his now#and i've loved every one#not much characterisation here#but that's okay#it's the actual story and its dark sensibility that i enjoy so much#and how fucken hawt is that krampus tongue#fuck yeah
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She wails as though a part of her has died.
oh man. i picked up the sidestory to @just-a-carrot's five-arc horror epic a couple days ago and i'm so glad i did. i'll probably be talking nonstop and/or drawing about it for days
there's a handful of whiteboard doodles with other characters under the cut, but rly i just wanted to pay a homage to the scene that hit me the hardest... enjoy
#theres already PARAGRAPHS upon paragraphs in my partners dms over this freaking thing but like listen to me (jingle jingle) PAY ATTENTION#i feel like i have to add that visual novels arent really something i take interest in at all this one jus JUMPED me#i actually played the side piece (our cinderella) first + was so in love with the writing i went to check out the main story. worth it#and i DEFINITELY won't be able to fit everything i want to say in the tags but its so refreshing to read/play thru a novel where the protag#are regular ass adults. like middle class thirty year olds barely breaking even. and that still get sappy unapologetically.#need more stories like this fr#that aside it's been fucking crazy to look at iggy's character arc through his eyes considering yk.. everything.#theres no universal asexual experience or anything but sometimes there'd be a line in there that made me like. sit up and go damn what the#i did that. i do that.#it's. i cant explain it in depth in the tags its about the way topics are skirted around and the realization that something is#uncomfortable in a way you werent expecting it to be. or even on your radar. theres so much#ugh. im unwell. anyways.#dewdles#our wonderland#gidget bordelle#iggy maxwell#genzou#genzou ichihara#cecil- does cecil have a last name??? cecil.#blood#injury#ask to tag
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I wrote a drabble about Mobius and Loki saying goodbye to each other for the last time and tears streamed down my face bruh what is this
#It’s nowhere near done but damn I’m still so not normal about them#wondering if I should post it when I’m done or leave it in the drafts for years 🤡#don’t wanna hype it up too much 😭 don’t get your hopes up it’s just Loki sacrificing themself as usual because I love writing angst#BUT @ marvel studios don’t think for a fucking second that that means I want him to be alone or dead NO NO give them a happy ending COWARDS#they are a love story they are peak cinema#lokius
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sometimes i'll think abt a Fandom and wish it were bigger, and sometimes i'll read something from a fandom.. and wish it were smaller
#ppl seeing a confident black man : FINALLY! A PERFECT ANTAGONIST FOR OUR STORY!#THE CORRUPTOR!! THE ASSHOLE! MR KNOWS ALL!#i want to be bigger into football. i rlly do#but . omg. sometimes seeing just So Much . side eye shit is . like imagine my exhaustion#and this isnt me trying to be the behavior police like let ppl write but sometimes seeing such. Fun. patterns can be like#idk man it's sad like damn thats rlly how the world is and obvs i KNOW how it can be but it's real wack#real wack being reminded even in ur supposed happy place ur supposed lighthearted little break from the world#it's still not . idk. it's just not#oh the poor pale blond qb just a little anxious baby oh and his evil zany teammates trying to corrupt him oh theyre so terrible for my angel#:/#.. that is. a Grown. Man .#it's like replaying my 2nd grade teacher ******** me bcs i was a troublesome kid and it made her feel young and alive and bad again#like wtf am i corrupting you with maam? skibbity toliet ? leave me alone !!#listen. if it were smthing like 'x rlly likes tomatoes' when he actually likes idk carrots? i would not give a fuck. infact i prefer carrots#but bad patterns have smthing more to say bcs patterns in general have a story#it's more than 'he would not fucking say that' it's 'WHY tf are YOU making HIM say THAT of ALL people & THINGS???'#like i love having asshole characters in my stories too. and they can be poc ! NO ONE is a saint!#but having one just to fuel the only one u actually care abt? having their problems solely be for plot?? & making that one#a SPECIFIC kind of person ?? is kinda giving me 'u dont view x as a human which could mean you dont view x race as humans'#WHICH IS !! IT SUCKS ! THAT SUCKS!#i know i need to just suck it up and ignore it but thats like the life quote of being poc isnt it#ugh#it sucks
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how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?
ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')
but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!
storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO
and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him
#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else#im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae#(and sampo)#everyone else i can go without#so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet#overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part#i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka???#cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable#not here hueheuhe#also i love that they actually kill off playable characters#(spoilers from here on out)#i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO#i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY#i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!)#that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad#i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them#and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long#now if march died that would be a whole different story#but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her#im loving the penacony quest so far though#any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me#especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit#the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy#i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units#like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng#so characters arnt stagnent forever#everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march#cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear#i just did her luofu memory quest#and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............
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I know the reunion concert was literally just 2 days ago but my bros my guys my dudes I miss WATT so so much and I really do want this show Actually Revived because I miss my cheerleaders, pma's stories and music are fucking great and I wanna hear more, watt has so much room for improvement, and I wanna see watt thrive aaaaaaaa
#like i have had my fair share of musicals that Greatly Deserve A Revival (alice by heart (!!!) and love in hate nation (!!!))#but i cheer for watt the most because um well yes it had me hooked in 2021 so im biased#but also because i've spent so much damn time analyzing the damn show#and ive said time and time again that it is a genuinely well crafted show that not only treats the teenage experience with mature respect#(like watt is the only modern-teenage-girl-focused musical that comes to mind that doesnt ridicule its demographic)#but also has a perfectly crafted emotional core (that being the story of vices and grief with annleigh farrah kate and chess)#+ the relationships they all share with one another!#and another reason why i cheer for a revival because i really do feel that show can be improved even further#(i still stand by my 2 yr old rambles that act 2 could be better and that the exploration of guilt with kate annleigh & reese would be nice)#and i really do want watt to improve because frankly the emotional aspects of the show have so much potential!#and lastly: as an aspiring writer and musician i genuinely admire pma and his works so much#and id love to see him become even more successful and prominent in the mt sphere or wherever he wishes to be#anyways yea watt has a special place in my heart and id love to see it officially come back some day#and thats the end of my ramble gotta go bye damn i really am in a 2021 mood#we are the tigers#preston max allen
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i dont know why the running joke of this chapter is kakashi fearing for his kidneys. where did that come from. WHY did that come from.
i should probably cut that in editing it's a little ridiculous.
except it makes me giggle every time so maybe i should leave it there.
#girl's mind fanfic#clena's writing progress#just have to write ONE more conversation and the whole chapter is done. but DAMN if editing wont be a bitch#still wondering if i should cut jiraiya's 3-page infodump#because while most people dont mind#some people keep commenting saying that my fic is too wordy and i keep adding unnecessary things#and like. they're 1% of reviews but i have the emotional fragility of a china teacup#i cry when i get those sorts of reviews and they ruin my day even tho i get twenty comments who love my rambling#but like. also. i shouldnt delete stuff from my fic just for the 1% of assholes who will say mean things about it#but also i dont want to cry when someone inevitably says something mean about it.#most if not all of said assholes are on fanfiction dot net so technically i could just stop cross posting#except there are people on that site who DO like my rambles so#ugh. why am i such an emotionally sensitive crybaby. my life would be so much better#if i didnt have such thin skin#i'm 90% certain that jiraiya's 3-page infodump is going to get LONGER with editing cause i'm gonna turn it from infodump into#an actual conversation. so who knows how many pages it'll be by the end. the chapter's already 6500 words#which is double my average chapter length#and i DO like the info he presents even if it maybe ISNT strictly required for progressing the story. probably only the last paragraph is#ugh. i wish people would just never say mean things ever. then i wouldn't have a problem with anything xD
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Maybe one day I’ll go absolutely ballistic and actually make an animatic or animation with one of my characters…
#I have my baby Kolly on my mind rn#ohhh Kolly… my beloved#if you guys wouldn’t mind I would love to brainrot about her and my world’s lore from time to time#there’s so much… lord have mercy#and it’s the way the story is still incomplete after YEARSSS#well to be fair I did start it when I was a damn kid#I went through so many ideas and silly thoughts… so many scenarios I would think of while listening to music#I remember during school that’s all I would think about#how the story could progress and how all of it will connect by the end#it’s the way I have the foundation practically set and the middle of the story is empty 😔#man…#I should probably find another media that could serve as inspiration#perhaps perhaps#I think it’s so funny how my world is basically an amalgamation of all the things I like#heh#kinda shows through how many phases I went through#hehe#thirsty thoughts
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I see a million and one warnings telling me to prepare my heart for whenever I read Meteor Impact but NO ONE wanted to put out warnings telling me that Climax would make me sob from sheer adoration for my precious boys and their growth and love for each other?!?!?!?!!???!????!!!
#ensemble stars#chiaki morisawa#kanata shinkai#midori takamine#tetora nagumo#shinobu sengoku#story time with me#ryuseitai my beloveds…..my sweet boys…..#they love each other and their unit so much I’m gonna die right here and now 😭😭😭#I wish kanata had his own cg as well to complete the collection#this whole epilogue is so damn sweet and it warms my heart and soul so much#kanata taking the initiative and saying his catchphrase first after being more of a go with the flow (ha!) type#shinobu wishing to put himself out there more after all the time he spent hiding and running with his anxiety#tetora wishing to grow be a proper member and leader for ryuseitai after he initially joined because he didn’t get into akatsuki#midori finally saying his catchphrase right and thanking chiaki after seeming the least motivated about this idol stuff#and chiaki seeing all this…watching the ryuseitai he leads grow and become closer and closer to what he wanted#while I still don’t have many details on his past since I haven’t read meteor impact I know he used to be more timid#and was a victim of bullying by the former ryuseitai members#So I can only imagine the totality of what he feels seeing the current ryuseitai that he and kanata built#seeing these first years who he more or less strong armed into the unit grow to love it and work hard for it#and now want to return that love and work to their hardworking third years who are now graduating#me tearing up again remembering how earlier chiaki apologized to midori because he feared he really DID make Midori miserable#that he forced midori into all this and didn’t properly consider his feelings and chiaki saying midori’s smile is a treasure#only for midori to finally reveal how much he DOES care for ryuseitai and how grateful he is for all chiaki did for him#despite all the self doubt and guilt midori felt feeling like he didn’t belong with all these hardworking people#just just AAAAAAAaAaaAaHHhHhHh!!!!!!!!!#I LOVE RYUSEITAI!!!!!!!
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playing pokemon platinum to justify buying a giratina plush
#ymgb rambles#this is a joke obviously i just wanted to play platinum (still gonna buy that plush though)#i had previously only played pearl so seeing the changes in pt is so nice. i love how the characters got more personality#like. rowan dropping knowledge on the galactic grunts in jubilife was so good.#also LOOKER???? I THOUGHT LOOKER WAS FOREVER DAMNED TO POSTGAME CONTENT I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS PART OF PTS STORY#i love sinnoh so much man.
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One of many rants I'll go on but it is astounding how impactful 17776 is to me. I have not stopped thinking about that story since I've finished it five years ago because there's something about it that is so beautiful and so objectively horrifying that it just occupies this space in my brain that's still mulling over it.
Like I think Jon Bois has created just like, a pivotal piece of modern literature and I am not exaggerating. I so sincerely hope it gets recognized for what it is and what it could mean for literature and I hope more people get the chance to read it.
That being said I'm planning a story or sorta anthology fic based on the world of 17776 that explores humanity during this time and the more I think about what eternity means to people the more I'm haunted by the fact that we'll never see it, especially in circumstances like these.
I so sincerely hope that we get 20022, I absolutely cannot wait.
#like there's just so much potential in looking at the human connection and the fundamental components of what make us people#not to wax philosophical but God damn I love it so much#17776#20021#anyway my story will focus on a person intent on talking to and documenting every person still left on Earth#ala the group mentioned in the series#anyways im excited to put it together#sammumbles
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ok while i’m ignoring the fact that i have a 9am lecture in six hours does anyone want to listen to me rant about nanowrimo
#so. last year i decided to do it very last minute with zero planning#it was not a good story but i had a lot of fun writing it and!! i actually finished it!!#this year i have planned a story. i have a plot. i have characters that i like. i have themes and settings and all that jazz#but i kinda just want to abandon it and work on an older project!! which is very annoying#the older project is part of a whole damn universe i’ve been developing the past few years. i am Obsessed obsessed with everything abt it#it’s very close to my heart and i really want to make something of it! and i don’t think i’m a competent enough writer to do it justice atm#also if i abandon my current nano project i highly doubt i will ever actually write it#which would be a shame because i like it! it’s a story i would have liked to read when i was like fourteen fifteenish#and tbh would still like to read now#i think actually writing it would be good practice! and i know i would enjoy it#when have i ever not enjoyed anything featuring magic time travel and lesbians. like honestly#i don’t think it’d take long for me to start writing the older project after nanowrimo either#i have a tendency to get stuck in brainstorming hell but i know how it ends. which makes everything much easier to sort#also if i don’t write something featuring the love of my life maria soon i think she will physically claw her way out of my brain#so there’s that <3#morganposting#nano 2023#now thats a scary tag to be using
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#543
WELL.
SPAMMED TAGS WITH AN ESSAY?
im very proud of these rambles but i can't understand why do i love to spam tags sm
#днявочка#днявочка: hlegacy#eng tag#днявочка: фандомное#damn wright#so i was peacefully asleep and then it came to me that wright is clingy but attaches Value to every hug she received or asked for#because when she was little her parents were too busy so any moment of Family Love was cherished and of gold and --#-- slowly wright was remembering it all after The Battle. what her life was like before everything or what she thought was it like#i couldn't just kill off her mom off-stage i had to implement her in-full somehow so; not to overshare much but sharp will come to know her#and he'll tell everything he learned to wright as he'd originally planned but rookwood intervened and well it's a long story#by the time of that convo blorbos developed bonds over some things already but at that moment -- it was a rubicon ahead of them#wright felt lonelier than ever and sharp couldn't just leave her there for the sake of keeping the subordination up#wright entrusted him with the knowledge and her life and sharp stood by his word; she was *his student* after all and sought his help#so that how it started; still a mentorship but deeper. heavier. *falconry metaphors here*#they did become very close after The Battle but here's the catch: both of them didn't realize it right away#wright's clueless but sharp is always vigilant; he didn't want wright to have too much on her already cluttered mind especially --#-- family related bc the topic is very dear and personal to her. for sharp it was more like 'family what family' --#-- it's tied to scarborough incident (it took his hopes of having any family along with the ship but tshhh oversharing)#so. imagine a loop of suffering; wright seeks comfort and when she finds it in his arms she feels hardly any better because --#-- it reminded her of her father of her mother but sharp is neither of them and the thought of it alone brought wright down very much#sharp isn't a substitute either -- and fear of losing him lingered and ohmygod how much talking they'd go through#self-indulgent part of it: when you're thick skin you tend to oversee many damaging things and may not even know smth has gotten under#wright thought she overcame her losses but in reality she never did and all these events only uncovered her lingers
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Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over
Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰
#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually#very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds#like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd#but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga#and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit#and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’#which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road#its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16!#he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control#which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’#so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way#like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health#i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to#be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident!#so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game#is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me#cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused#but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone#like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways#and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed#but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child#shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING#HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY#like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work#apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs#his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be#better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy#and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad#how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel#makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired
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