suddenly coming up with an au idea where Lloyd and Harumi are twins and they get split up at birth where Harumi ends up in the foster system and Lloyd ends up in Darkley's and Harumi had no idea of her heritage until after her adoptive parents got killed and she did some research and came across the fact that Lord Garmadon had, in fact, two kids which were her and Lloyd

also she finds out it was Lloyd who released the serpentine and she gets really bitter and angry because why did she have to suffer losing her parents while Lloyd went on to be the green ninja after his actions and even built a relationship with their father and then she gets even angrier when she finds out he was sacrificed in the battle against Chen and his anacondrai army so she finds a way to resurrect him

I also like to imagine that with the royal family they put a lot of pressure on her and so she felt that she was unfairly treated and set up to high expectations while Lloyd got to have fame and fun and adoring fans (miscommunication jealousy trope yay) but also Lloyd would think the same of her he'd wonder why she did all this when her time with the royal family seemed so "perfect" until eventually they actually talk to eachother

there wouldn't be any romantic subplot in this one nty (especially with tomorrows tea Lloyd would be a lot older than her here) but Harumi hides that she's Lloyd's sister until the Oni temple and she basically tells Lloyd only those of Oni blood can get the mask and then immediately reaches in and grabs it and reveals who she is. idk I just really like this idea imagine the ANGST potential

and also there would be a ton of parallels between Wu and Garmadon especially with fate/destiny and all that and the knowledge that your own sibling is/has the potential to be the greatest evil. and when Garmadon is resurrected and chooses Harumi over Lloyd she thinks she's finally won and gotten everything she ever wanted

after the whole Oni trilogy is over Lloyd asks Garmadon why he never mentioned he had a sister and Garmadon states that he didn't know what he could've even done with that information because Harumi was long gone by now and had a completely different name and had no record of her birth (same with Lloyd he technically doesn't exist lol) and he wouldn't know where to find her, he just didnt expect that she would've found out about her heritage before any of them were able to find her

Sensei Garmadon definitely felt remorse over never being able to find his daughter, but I think Emperor Garmadon would be conflicted about it and when he did learn how he cared for things (I don't think he had to learn how to care, he just had to learn how to process caring for other people and his more positive emotions because the only things he understood were anger and hatred)

why do all my friends have so much more fun than me ??? we all do basically the same things since we are together 85% of the time but why are they so relaxed ?? they arent stressed like ever ?? i think we were just raised different. i had to be stressed and anxious abt everything to survive. now i feel like i can only have fun when im high, because when im high im not anxious. my mind finally can take a break and i can pause every racing thought i have. they judge me and the fact that im high all the time but i bet if they were me they would want to be high all the time too. it makes me so mad when my bsf ridicules me for smoking everyday. at least im not cutting myself or in the hospital every other month like i used to be. nothing in my life is super negative unless you wanna count how much i smoke. i just can never relax. its always been like that. to relax (not really relax but cope) when i was 13-14 i would just watch anime and cut myself all up in down my arms until i had no more space. now i do the same thing but im smoking weed and happy. if thats helping me cope why is it so bad? reallt tho. whats the worst outcome for smoking weed. the first time i ever smoked weed was september 2021. i was with my bsf (at the time) and my neighbor let us hit his cart. i didnt smoke many times after that until july 2022. since it was summer, i would go over my friends house and he was dating that same friend from the first time i ever smoked. they are still my best friends. from july thru september i would smoke maybe three times a month. until august i met a friend. i was having issues with my july thru september friends so i would hang out with this new friend, he smoked a lot of weed. we would hang out every weekend and get so high i could not walk. around october-november ish, i bought a cart. idk how many but the first one i bought was in october. i didnt have a battery so i would make a crack wire. the friend from sep 2021 found out abt this and called me a fiend, idk and basically just made me feel like shit. even tho !! she smokes every single day… i felt bad abt that. in january i bought my first eighth for a party i thru at my house. february 1st 2023 i bought a cart and a battery and the cart was finished before march. idk why i am writing all of this for tumblr to see. i guess ive just been upset with people judging me for coping in a way thay helps me. i say that but i see myself being too obsessed with weed. in october 2021 with those two friends, i was sucking on that fucking cart my neighbor gave me all night. im always the friend who is down to smoke no matter what. idk maybe i feel this way ibecause my bsf always judges me w how much i smoke. moral of the story, i smoke too much and i dont plan on stopping. i hope this doesnt bite mw in the ass and my whole life crumbles. i dont think it will. i applied to like 10 jobs, i go to school almost everyday, i havent cut since november, things r looking up.

i know i say this a lot but ohmygod RANT COMING

i reallt love heeseung :((

so i’m currently studying rn listening to this hee playlist right RIGHT?? U SEE WHERE THIS IS GOING?? doing my shit ahaha procrastinating UNTIL eyes off you comes on. EYES. OFF. YOU. i literally had such a big fat fucking phase with that song and just imagining hee w this song playing has literally changed my whole entire life IM?? HEARTBROKEN?? makes me realize how much i miss him ohmtgod :(( the thought of it makes me wanna cry !! thinking back to how quiet he’s been ever since he’s been getting hate and i’m LITERALLY SO KAKDJ ???!/$/$ that man has made me feel loved for the longest time and he’s been my PURE motivation i need each morning :(( like just thinking about him makes me wanna cry myself to sleep like i rlly rlly love him and i’m sososoosos proud of him for making it this far</333 i hope he knows how perfect he is like ??? hands DOWN. he’s so lovable and sweet i rlly wanna cry now AHHAHA THINKING BACK TO THE TIME I CRIED OVER HIM AT A SCHOOL NIGHR. can u believe it. going on tiktok then suddenly shifting tears at him SMILING?? LIKE?? but ohemgee why do i miss him so much listening to these hee playlists ARENT!! HELPING!! no but the comfort i get when i’m downstairs in pitch black listening to my tv playing enha has gotta b one of the most comforting things i’ve done?? now that i’m watching hee content in the middle of the night the urge to cry rn is RLLY STRONG. i love him sosoosososmuch did i say that already 💀 but i do :((( like i rlly do :((((((( hes been so quiet lately i just hope he’s okay :((((((((( anyways off topic ORETTY MUCH AND HEE??? THINKKKK abt it. mans is so bf material he’s literally gonna make me go insane bc of how perfect he is like i’m not even joking he’s so fucking talented AKAKSNNS HIS GOCALS?? HIS VOCALS??? HELLLO? SO DAMN TALENTED AND FOR WHAT???? MANS IS GOOD AT ANYTHING HE DOES:(( that’s a lotta sad faces in one post AHA not the point im a strong hee stan and that’s been lasting for MONTHS. ILAND……..iland was just the start of it. man i love his vocals smsmsmsm thats literaly the whole reason why i bias him so hard like??? THE MOMENT HE SANG BOOM I KNEW I HAD TO BIAS HIM. THE WAY HE TWISTS THE WORDS BEAUTIFULLY IS SO UNIQUE TO ME?? he’s always had such a talented voice i’m so. i’m wasting my studying time rn but atp idgaf cuz its abt HEE. HEE IN THE MIRNING HEE AT NIGHT HEE IN THE EVENING AND HEE AT SCHOOL jk its not that deep maybe i am delulu but u get what i mean !! do i regret making this !! no !! the strong urge to rant abt the loml was so strong to the point this paragraph became long asf i’m literally so MSMDMSN EYES OFF U AND HEESEUNG AAKSKA now that urge to write a fic abt him is here like i could stay up till 3 writing abt him if i wanted too……./hj heeseung, the loml, my one and only, my everyrhing, my happiness, ETC i love u vvvvvv much !! its so hard to study now, now that i’m writing this shit paragraph but it’s ok. its OK. conclusion i love heeseung so damn much and i miss him…like…a lot…………fuck the sad playlists that r making me cry i genuinely cant do this more am i allowed to sob :(( HELP NOT TALKING TO THE MOON COMING ON?? watch me scroll through hee pics after this cuz i miss him sm and i crave hee pics!! this is a rlly hard time for me guys pray 4 me why am i crying over a man at a school night. SCHOOL NIGHT. IS IT EVEN THAT DEEP…yes. its rhat deep. i rlly canr thank him enough for making me smile sm i :(((( atp what would i do without him ???? ROT???? yes. he genuinely makes me feel like the happiest person ever i’m not even joking there something abt him:(( mans gives off such a comforting and safe feeling i love sm UUGMDJS how do i tell him hes perfect ??? like ??? god hes so perfect i dont even know what to say antmore :((((( hes literally the DEFINITION of perfect. AND I STAND BY MY POINT!!! he’s always been perfect wtaf he’s not even real. HES NOT REAL. THERES MO WAY. this is all literally just my imagination. JUST LOOK AT HIS NAME. HEESEUNG?? fuck even his NAME sounds perfect too. he’s so ethereal i’m not even joking how could i love a man so much i

FUCK THE PARAGRAPH IS TOO LONG

ok well.

i’m so incredibly in love w him i’m literaly rotting inside

Thoughts while watching ep 6 of TFATWS

MMMM YES HERE WE GOOOO

SHARON USING TWS TECH- WHOA WHERE CAN I GET MY HANDS ON IT

Kaboom...? GAS KABOOM!

Ms. Kellyman serving, as always 😩

AAAAAAAA AYESJANDJJSNS THE SUIT-

AAAA THE PEOPLE OF NYC CHEERING FOR SAM- I HOPE THEY STAND BY SPIDEY-

Wait how did Sharon create that bomb??? I mean ik she’s the powerbroker BUT WHERE CAN I GET MY HANDS ON THAT TECH

BUCKY- THAT DUMBASS REALLY JUST HIT THE BARRICADE INSTEAD OF DOING THR MOTORCYCLE THROW THING THAT STEVE DOES ABSHABHZAHHAHXGSHAHABSABAHHAAHAHHAAH

STEVE DIDNT REALLT BRING ALL THE STUPID WITH HIM DID HE

REDWINGS BACK!!!!!!!!!

UGH WYATT NEVER FAILS THE ASSIGNMENT.

wait how did the shield not break????? HOW??

uGH KARLI’S SMILE- MAAM CAN STEP ON ME. (never thought i’d say that but here we are)

yEAH! FUC YEAH! The Flag Smasher beating John up.

AWWW THAT GUY THANKING BUCKY FOR SAVING HIM- FINALLY! APPRECIATION! THE PEOPLE OF NEW YORK ARE PRO-SUPER HEROS DESPITE BEING WRECKED BY SAD HEROS A BAJILLION TIMES!

Gun go PEW PEW! Shield go BANG BANG! And an epic fight scene in the air????

Sam refrering to Redwing as a little birdie and treating him like a friend and not a pet or robot will always get me 🤧 HE WOUDLA BEEN GOOD FRIENDS WITH TONY IF THEIR FRIENDSHIP HAD BEEN EXPLORED. FUCK YOU FEIGE. WE WERE ROBBED.

“BOY YOU JUST EARNED THIS ASS WHOPPIN.” HELL YEAH! YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH SERATONIN IT GIVES ME

Dude...did....John just...? JOHN WALKER. KARLI IS TRUING TO DO THAT ONE ACTUALLY LAWFULL THING SHE HAS DONE AND YOU STOP HER FROM SAVING THOSE PEOPLE? AND YET YOU CALL YOURSELF CAPTAIN AMERICA?

Oh no wait I was wrong. KARLI YOURE GOING DOWN THE PATH OF NO RETURN! KARLI- COME BACK PLEASE- YOU CANT DO THIS!

GIVE IT UP FOR SAM WILSON, OUR SELFLESS CAPTAIN AMERICA!

AWWW THE PEOPLE OF NEW YORK ARE SO SUPOIRTIVE OF SUPER HEROS!

I can feel the betrayal in Karli’s voice-

Ew. Batroc.

I like how Dovich seems like he ran away because I mean he has been doubting for a long time and I really REALLY like how it shows Karli running alone. She’s the only one who has committed to her cause- That’s depressing tbh.

Ugh SHARON is HOT.

No because Sharon as the Power Broker is HOT.

KARLI IS TOO.

THE SCRIPT WRITING. PERFECT.

Wait HOW DID SHARON HEAL SO QUICKLY???

SAM STILL WANTS TO HELP KARLI- THATS OUR CAPTAIN AMERICA ALRIGHT!

Oh damn. Erin and Anthony’s acting-

WYATT’S ACTING- I LOVE WYATT WITH MY WHOLE HEART!

“Not when you say it.” LMAKSJJSJAJA

KARLI. SAM DOESNT WANT TO FIGHT YOU BECAUSE HE BELIEVES YOU CAN BE SAVED. DONT DO IT KARLI. NO.

Wait who tf shot Karli. WHO TF. SHARON.

KARLIA SHE MAKES ME WANNA CRY- SHE SAID IM SORRY- HER LAST WORDS WHERE THE SAME WORDS SHE SAID TO MAMA DONYA-

Wait am i crying- Holy shit I am-

AND SAM EVEN CARRIED HER BODY BACK TO GIVE HER A FUNERAL-

Sam calling out the bullshit of the GRC! YEAH!

SAM- ISAIAH- ELI. THEY KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE AND

IS THAT TORRES?? HES HAPPY! HES PROUD OF SAM AND HE LOOKS UP TO HIM!

SarahhhhhAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay you didn’t have to remind me that my favourite red-head died.

SAMS SPEECH! HES CALLING PUT THEIR BS!

AWWWWWWWW BUCKY CALLING SAM CAP!

WAIT THEY CANT LEAVE US HANGING LIKE THAT! THEY CANT!

Wait who’s that old white guy?

So we know Zemo’s in the Raft because of the whole shenanigans- Did he feel guilty?

WAIT- VALLLLLL!! MADAM HYDRAAAA! HER SASSSSSSSSS 😩😩😩😩😩

OKAY I SEE WE GOING WITH COMIC US AGENT OUTFIT!

MADAME HYDRA! MAKING AN ENTRANCE AND MAKING AN EXIT! AGATHA AND HER ARE MY FAVE VILLIANS SO FAR!

Also let’s not forget that Black Widow talked place before TFATWS.

WAIT IS BUCKY TELLING YORI??? I CANT DO THIS RIGHT NOW IM MENTALLY UNSTABLE.

OH NO HE IS-

I CANT DO IT RIGHT NOW

WAIT IS DR RAYNOR PROUD OF HIM. SAY YOU ARE RAYNOR. SHE IS.

WAIT DONT LEAVE ME ON A HANGER LIKE THAT-

Eli calling Cap Black Falcon- SASS

AHAHA BUCKY SHOWING UP TO THE COOKOUT WITH A CAKE FOR THE CHILDREN-

Aww Sarah hugging Sam-

AND THE PEOPLE AT THE COOKOUT CHEERING FOR HIM‼️‼️

CAPTAIN AMERICA AND THE WJNTER SOLDIER!! YEAH!

Kari, Malcom and Josef, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR BRINGING AN ERA- I hope y’all can make a season 2-

ALSO THE END CREDITS!

Sharon, a hot baddie 😩

FINALLY. THAT SENATOR LEARNED FROM THE FLAG SMASHERS!

They SURELY can’t leave us on THIS ending right??

SharoOOOOOOnnNNNN

OKAY HELLO whats new everyone? im exhausted from life and cant deal with it so guess what!!!! nothing is new with me!!! to quote one direction "same old shit but a different day" anyways today i met my comm prof and she was really cool and great but hearing about all her accomplishments and everything shes done and everyones shes worked for in such a short amount of time makes me SO TIRED and it makes me feel like im not getting anywhere in my life bc i cant do anything hello??? im sitting here rn trying to find the energy to do my homework but i cant im just so tired and all my classes are just so heavy on being there for every single class and i havent talked to that department about that internship and everyones doing so much and im doing nothing and the one thing id like to do w my life i deadass do not have the energy for im so so tired today alex was tweeting about everything she wants to do and honestly it made me SO TIRED ugh i mean i know i would like to do something in animation and now i really wanna learn sign language ?? i miss fine arts tho like i miss painting and just being in a positive environment to make things college is so hard and stressful it determines how your life is gonna turn out and where youre gonna go and i just dont want to do with it nothing even matters anyway even if i accomplish something im just gonna end up dying eventually and so will everyone else so why does anything matter im just so tired