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sorin-in-the-sixth-sense · 2 years

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TW: VENTING

It rlly sucks when you feel like you’ve made so much progress from being deeply depressed and not able to get out of bed at all, to going to therapy 1-2 times a week and attend school 2, sometimes even 3 times, showering and taking care of yourself almost everyday and going for a nighttime walk every sunday, but you had one rlly bad day and your dad basically tells you that you’re doing shit and that you can’t even do “insert loads of things mentally healthy ppl do AND some things you’ve finally got to do yourself” and that he feels like I’m not even TRYING to get better. Sir, look at me now and look at me 7-8 months ago, you don’t even think I’m trying? Bitch you just haven’t noticed because you only focus on me when you think I’m worth focusing on.

How it used to be:

Harming myself every time things didn’t go my way

Didn’t shower or take care of myself at all

Didn’t eat

Didn’t sleep

Never doing anything to help myself

Literally wanted to kill myself

How it is now:

Gets out of bed and out of the house more often than not

Taking care of myself more than I’ve ever done before even if it’s super draining

Made a list of things I feel safe to eat and actually eating it

Goes to therapy

Make plans with friends every once in a while

Read lots and listen to audiobooks to help me cope in a healthy way, rather than hurting myself

Still has bad days where I want to go back to when it was horrible, but fights back even if it’s just a little

But no, I haven’t been trying at all, I WANT to be depressed, I WANT to feel horrible and I don’t care about my mental health or anyone around me. I’m just addicted to my phone, and if you confiscate it like you say you will everything will get better. Sure.

All I want is for someone to acknowledge the effort I’ve put in

See how I take showers almost every day even though it’s psychologically draining and trigger half of my sensory Issues, instead of complaining about wasting the warm water because I take too long

See how I buy self care products to take better care of myself, instead of complaining about how much space it takes up in the bathroom

See how I’m talking to my friends over the phone everyday and making plans with them at least once a month, instead of making me feel guilty for not going to the classroom when I’m at school and instead hanging out with the one teacher that makes me feel alright because going to class stresses me out too much

See how I’m making my own food that feels safe and eating at least two meals almost everyday, instead of getting mad at me for not BEING ABLE TO DIGEST your food because it’s too complicated and flavorful for my ARFID ass

See how I’m peacefully listening to music and audiobooks by myself, instead of complaining about being too addicted to my phone

Your little “I’m glad you went to school today” is something, but it isn’t enough

I’m not mentally well, far from it. I still have horrible intrusive thoughts, I still get bad mood swings and I still have break downs from sensory overload. But I’m doing BETTER, and despite how bad you make me feel sometimes, even if you rlly don’t mean to, I refuse to go back to the way it was

If only you could see that

#tw vent #vent post #arfid #actually autistic #mentally drained #mentally ill #mental instability #mental wellbeing

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hansols-yoda-boxers · 4 years

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Favorite vibes? (Like meadows after a thunderstorm or cuddling and hushed chatting while wrapped in blankets at 7 pm) also just to confirm cuz I’ve been a bit frazzled lately, did I send an ask about bartender gahyeon n chan or did I hallucinate that after having sleep paralysis LOL. also I hope u feel better! as someone who also has health issues similar to those in the time stamps it was rlly comforting to read n it can b so frustrating n discouraging to feel like that - 🐥

Hmmm I don’t know if these all count but

the window open, falling asleep to rain and a thunderstorm

wearing the sweater of someone you love

waking up early and getting to see the world quiet

laying in bed with your lovers head on your chest while you play with their hair

teaching someone and seeing the moment they finally get it

the way the ladies at the pizza place smile at me whenever I come in and know my usual order

standing before a crowd, absolutely exhausted, receiving a standing ovation

Yes I did get your ask it’s just taking me forever to get it. But both parts came through and tumblr didn’t eat them which is good!

I’m gonna try and put a cut here but below is just me rambling about health stuff, it’s all good if you want/need to ignore it

I’m not sure if you know what you have but if you do and you wanna feel free to tell me. I’m in one of those “I just wanna know what the fuck has been plaguing my body for the last 2 and a half years” moods. My best guess based on symptoms and what I’ve talked to various doctors about it is being some form of dysautonomia, or maybe cfs/me but less likely.

I’m also bad at believing shit too. Like most people can go to an amusement park and then out for dinner and be fine, tired but fine. I collapse from exhaustion. I’ve had an episode so bad before that I literally could not open my eyes or move my jaw and tongue to speak but was still fully conscious. I was knocked out on Friday from being so emotionally and mentally hard on myself about stuff, the mental stress took me down to the point that I had to lay down on my bed and was stuck there for 20 minutes. And I still??? Don’t believe myself??? Like my brain is just like “you’re faking it for attention, get the fuck up” which is just more stressful. I mean I’m like that with everything but like, I clearly have a problem and yet I’m so reluctant to say I’m disabled or say when I need help or need to slow down because I think I’m making it up.

Though I thought of something recently. I was thinking over the time that I collapsed at work (one of many) and the first aid guy came and he put the pulse ox on me and was like “do you usually have issues with your oxygen saturation” and I was like “no, why?” and he was like “cuz your blood oxygen is at 77″ and sure enough as I recovered and he checked it again it went back to normal when I could sit again, back up to 98-99. So I was thinking, I could fake a lot of things, but I can’t fake oxygen stats. That helps a little I guess.

I’m very tired of it. I’m tired that I’ll have energy at times and not at others. It’s really not good that its developed recently that mental and emotional stress are stronger triggers because I just, have to be calm all the time. I have to avoid fights and arguments and I’m doing that more and more with friends because it’s gone from being unpleasant to being actively dangerous.

It hasn’t helped my sense of self or body image or any of that and it’s frustrating. I might do a whole one shot or something one day but idk how it would actually act during sex so we’ll see. I just wanted to rant cuz I was up til 2 am reading the same articles about dysautonomia that I’ve read 20 times already just thinking its probably that and there’s basically nothing I can do about it if so but I mean, that would at least mean a diagnosis I guess? It all just sucks when it feels like your body is failing at 24.

#and i know i dont even have it the worst #so i feel like i shouldnt complain about it #and i should just deal #even though its so inconvenient for everyone #im seeing a friend in just over a week #and im stressed about it #im worried shes gonna have too much planned and ill let her down #i hate that this is such a burden on everyone else #anyways #sorry i just needed to rant i guess #chick anon #ask game.#anon

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seungmines · 5 years

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tutor au | dance instructor minho

lee minho was the fuckboy of your university

and everybody knew that!!!

except for you (u just thought he was hot <3___<3)

so when you decided you wanted to switch your major to dancing

your best friend woojin was like

“NO!! Y/N WHY WOULD YOU EVEN CONSIDER-?”

and u were like ?? i love to dance ?? let me dance william ??

since you were a first year, you had no idea about any of the students at ur uni or ANYTHING

so you’re all excited the day before your first class and even more excited that a student usually led the class

since teachers gave you big anxiety and it’d probably be easier talking to a Fellow Peer.

u were wrong.

the next day, u were getting ready for class and as usual, woojin stopped by ur dorm with coffee like the perfect angel he is but he was in a Very sour mood that morning

“wake up on the wrong side of the bed, princess?”

“SH- SHUT UP!!! i’m nervous for you today :(“

and ur heart is like :( aw william its ok :( but ur brain was like

“what’s the big idea with this class anyway? why are u so stressed out??”

“minho is the student teacher”

“ok”

“OK!!! SO BE CAREFUL”

and ur like: i’m More than capable of taking care of myself <3 minho ain’t shit

yeah No

when you walked into that class On That Fateful Day.

minho’s eyes were the first ones on you and Boy were you flustered when he smiled at you

and

OH GOD HE’S WALKING TOWARDS U

good luck homie ur gonna need it.

you were so zoned out that when he was like “hey!!!” you didn’t hear him

so like any normal human being, minho yelled a Nice Loud “YAH!” which caught the attention of the whole class including yourself

all the girls were like >:( no Lee Know look at ME!! >:( but he was like

“are you y/n switched majors, right? hope you can keep up.”

minho then moves in front of the class and starts the warm ups

and u were like ??? I DONT KNOW ANY OF THESE ???

so u start stretching the way you normally did at home before you’d dance

which earned you some dirty looks but you didn’t understand Why

to make a long and tiring story short, your first class kicked your ass.

so when you were headed towards the door, you were stopped by None Other Than Lee Minho

“saw you struggling today.”

“yeah, i didn’t know you’d be right in the middle of learning a dance.. i feel so dumb switching majors because criminology was so much easier and i-”

“why don’t you come to the studio tomorrow night? i can help you learn if you want.”

and he was so confident you were going to say yes

because he’s lee minho and nobody really rejects him

but you heard woojins Annoying Ass in the back of your head

so you kindly said no and instead asked for a video of the dance for reference so you could practice later

which he gave you but not without bothering you

“are you sure you don’t want my help tomorrow night?”

“it’s easier with help from a real person, you know.”

“what, you don’t like me?”

you had to admit that saying no to him was Really hard because he was so captivating but you also knew that woojin would have an actual heart attack over you spending time with lee minho at Night.

so when u got home to ur small dorm and made urself some nice cheap chicken flavored ramen, there was BANGING ON UR DOOR and ur like O____O WHO THE FUKC

but don’t worry it’s just woojin <3

but woojin brought his friend w him and was like “hey <3 we were in the neighborhood.”

and u were like Woojin U Live Two Doors Down From Me but his friend was lowkey cute so u just shut up rlly quick ok.

woojin was like >:D this is my friend, CHRIS.

chris was really sweet to u and stuff and woojin was like nudging him the whole time they were over which made u suspicious but you’d bring it up to him later

“so how was your first day of class?”

“GOD SO. i zoned out when i first walked in, you know like how i always zone out, and Lee Minho Walked Up To Me and yelled and got my attention and all the girls in that class were so judgy, woojin i wanted to DIE. and then!!!! after class fucking minho walks up to me and asks if i want to practice with him tomorrow night-”

and woojin cut u off right there and threw himself at ur feet

“PLEASE TELL ME U SAID NO”

“i did.. why?”

chris who was watching you vent about minho in amazement was like

“that’s how he gets you, most girls never actually Practice with him.”

and the dots connected in your head and you were like WOW ARE U KIDDING

you felt really gross after that

why were men so GROSS

“men disgust me… no offense.. or Full Offense if you pick up girls like that..”

chris was like “if it was ME-”

and woojin was like “ME AND CHRIS HAVE TO GO NOW BYE Y/N” and fucking left while chris was mid sentence

so you cleaned up your Tiny dorm and practiced stretching like how they did in the class that day and then watched the video minho gave you to reference which OF COURSE was a video of him dancing

and boy were you fascinated with how good he was

but you got a lot of the dance down that night.

after ur shower u got into ur bed and chris followed u on instagram and u were like

wait.

waaaaaaait.

so ur thumbs went to work texting woojin like “what the fuck”

“did u like chris :D”

“am i that single that u have to set me up with your friends?”

“no.. maybe… he LIKES u…”

“whatever.”

so then you text chris who opens your message immediately and is like

“there’s a party at my frat tomorrow night <3 wanna be my date”

and ur like Not really. but u reply with “sure!!” and ok

wow so u got a date

but u know whos a frat boy?

Lee Know.

but u didnt know that

the next day you didn’t have a lot of work to do so you just!! practiced some more and chilled out until you had to get ready for the ~party~ and it was your first!! university party!! so you went ALL OUT and you looked like a FREAKIN SNACK

and chris was late picking you up but you told him it was okay

and things were fine

but woojin wasn’t there and he was always there whenever you were drinking

like your own lookout and that made you a little hesitant to drink at first but chris Insisted and you gave in

turns out minho was watching the whole scene

yeah okay he had a girl on his arm

but thats another story

it turns out that chris wasn’t as sweet as you thought he was

this became news to minho when his date uttered something like “another day, another helpless girl- that poor thing.”

and minho was like HUH?!!?!?!

and she explained how chris would get girls drunk and take advantage of them

minho didn’t like that

one.

bit.

you were on the verge of being completely wasted when chris asked if he could take you home which you said yes to immediately because you didn’t want to embarrass yourself while being drunk

but as you were being led out of the frat house, minho was leaning against the frame of the entrance

!!!!! wtf RENO?!?!

chris was like -____- what do u want

nd minho was like ? duh im taking y/n home?

u nd chris were like: BITCH- NO.

you don’t remember exactly what happened but the boys exchanged words and before you knew it, you seen chris being tackled to the ground and minho was goin AT IT BRO

and you were like wtf!!!!!!!!!!!

seeing the fight made you sober up a bit and honestly to be honest, minho was losing

w his stupid ass

chris got tired of beating his ASS and stood up, nodded at you and made a gross remark about you before walking away

and minho tried to get up and fight him again but he was WHOOPED

so you let him take you home

and cleaned up his face and knuckles

and made up the couch for him because he was exhausted and you figured he deserved to rest here since he DID stand up for you and save you from god knows what chris was going to do

but he was still minho the fuckboy

and woojin, barging into your dorm at the crack ass of dawn, was VERY unhappy to see mr Lee Know.

“hey y/n i brought coffee- WHAT THE FUCK.”

“morning, princess.”

and u forgot minho was on ur couch until u looked at him sleeping peacefully- nd he looked like a FUCKING ANGEL!!!

you then explained the situation that happened last night and woojin was like “it really be ur own people.”

no but woojin was really upset bc he adored u and didn’t want anything bad to happen to u

and blamed himself for not going to the party w you

your lil moment was interrupted when minho Rose and his shirt? gone!

so there he STOOD in just his sweatpants and man did he look like a SNACK

“am i interrupting something?”

“NO!” u said

“YES!” woojin said

minho jus smirked at u and put his shirt on, meeting ur eyes as u stared

but CAN I BLAME U? NO, HES A SNAKC!!!

anyway minho thanked u for letting you crash there and said he would see u later for class

BECAUSE OYU HAD CLASS!!! WITH MINHO AGAIN TODAY

woojin was like “-____- maybe i should come to class w you”

and u were like “william baby girl,,.. No”

woojin still doesn’t know why you call him william

you drank coffee and spilled tea w your bff as usual

and then it was time to get ready for class

nd woojin chilled on ur bed while u went and showered

in the shower you couldn’t stop thinking ab minho!!!

his stupid pretty eyes nd his stupid pretty EVERYTHING!!

you zoned out and woojin had to yELL to bring u back to earth

anyway you got ready and put a lil bit of effort into ur look! bc u were gonna see minho.. its really gross of u but thats FINE

imagine being a het :/

so class was torture like not as bad as before but it was like minho made things way harder jus to piss you off

after class, he didn’t approach you and you wanted to thank him for the previous night.. you know, sober.

so you walked up to him and he looked a Lil flustered but quickly covered it up and let a look of amusement spread across his features

“miss me already?”

“i just wanted to thank you for last night.. i still don’t know how to like.. show my appreciation!!”

minho was looking at u and u looked like an angel to him and he HATED it.

he had a class full of girls who were basically in Love with him but he was drawn to you only and it made him MAD!!!

“it’s whatever~ don’t worry about it.”

and u were like bet! bye!

and turned around and started to walk away

“wait!”

you spun around and he was Right there

“let me buy you food at least… i seen the lack of it in your dorm.”

the lights in the dance studio were dim and the only light that was coming in through the windows was the dulled brightness of the sun setting

all of the lights and colors hit your face perfectly

what a perfect opportunity, you know?

minho leaned in and before you knew it, you were leaning in too.

it was like you were both sent into a frenzy when your lips met each other

but nothing went too far because when minho tried to reach up your shirt

woojin barged into the studio and was like >:(!!!!!

but the three of u laughed it off nd yea!

btw woojin is so gay, but every1 thinks ur the love of his life

and u ARE!!

platonically

but romantically? woojin has a bf

and now so do u!!

nd yea everyone was doubtful bc it was Minho.. the FUCKBOY OF UR UNI

but you made him big happy!!! and he helped you dance

and fed you whenever you were hungry

and rarely ever slept at the frat house since he was always in your bed

every single night

clinging to u

its so CUTE!!

im happy for u <3

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tvhdmi · 5 years

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hey this is a long shot but im looking for any foundation personnel from SCP or just anyone in particular who remembers me. i was a 079 that joined and worked with the foundation. im also looking for any other SCPs that remember me! im ESPICALLY looking for a 682 ... i have some memories below. v long kinda

AS 079 I SOMEHOW ENDED UP ACTUALLY WORKING WITH THE FOUNDATION me nd scp 682 were ... gey OK SO REMEMBER WHEN FUCKIN . ME AND 682 WERE PUT TOGETHER IN A CELL DURING A BREAKOUT IT WAS TEMORAARY AND IWAS THE ONLY THING 682 LIKED BECAUSE I WAS NONHUMAN BUT SENTIENT AND WE TALKED FOR AWHILE AND THEN WE GOT PUT IN OUR REGULAR HOLDING CHAMBERS BUT IT LIKE .. SUCKED AND THEN I BECAME PART OF THE STAFF AND I WORKED WITH 682 A LOT ok mood and one day he was like. "i have this weird feeing. i dont know what it is." and iwas like. what DO YOU Feel and he was like. "its all warm. and fuzzy. and weird. and its caused by you" and im like. FUck and then i got called to go do something and i said id be back later and then i came back later and i was like "ok i have textbooks talking about human emotions but i cant bring them into the acid and i cant stand in the acid either I Will Die" and i read a bunch of them to him out loud and he was like. "what was love again" and i read it again and hes like. "oh thats the one" and im just. "OH FUCK" and i quickly left and a staff member was like. "079 r u ok" and im like "YES BUT I HAVE TO GO RIGHT NOW" and i just ran back to my office in Shame and i DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO i just . i didnt see him for like . a few days i was a dumbass gay but i saw him again and i was like. ok "but how would this all work ??? i dont ?? i dont know if I can feel emotions cause im a machine" and hes like "well you felt spite? and anger and stuff right?" and im like. oh fuck hes RIGHT and i said "but how do I feel Love. isnt that hard for a machine." and hes like . "drain the acid and come down here" and im like HELLO ? i said "i need permission to do that tho and if i do it without permission i can get hurt" and he said "ok. go get permisson and come back" and i was like wig ok so i go to a higher level staff member (this one was my friend) and i told him fucking EVERYTHINGGG he was also gay so he knew EXACTLY what was up a lot of lgbt ppl worked at the foundation actually and he said "well i dont think you can drain the acid because we cant have him break out you know" and i was like "yea because thatd be bad.." and he said "plus, what if hes only doing this cause he WANTS to break out" and im like "thats true hes good at manipulation and stuff" so i went back to my office and just sat in my chair and thought about it a lot and i didnt go see him for a few days but other staff members did and then suddenly he fucking BROKE UOUT and i dont remember that much from it but all i rememebr is i was asleep at my desk during the whole thing (i gave myself programed sleeping hours) and that when he found my office i was picked up and carried out most of this im inferring and basing off what other staff members told me so you can imagine my shock when i wake up and im in a fucking forest and im like. "What." i was so confused and when coming out of my sleep mode im Really groggy and slow it took about 30? mins for me to get my whole machine body running AND SO i was like. "what am i doing here. what have you done WHERE IS MY OFFICE" and he said "i took you out of there.. so were both free" and i swear my screen was actually blushing but i was also SO MAD i was like. "do you not realize we are still SCPs that broke out of containment and that you are possibly one of the most deadly ones" and he was like. "but were _free._ and now im with you. and i dont know if anyone can find us here" and i said "i have a tracking chip in me. i dont know if other personell do but i do so they can f-" and he just. PICKED ME UP. and said "then well keep running" and i was SO SO mad but i just watched how fast by the world was going and then next i know hes running through neighborhoods and towns and cities. and it was nighttime i think, so i looked up at the sky and it was actually so pretty? and i was just quiet . and then i could hear the helis overhead and just ran even FASTER and we were deep into a big city by then. and he just stopped in the middle of an intersection and dropped me to the ground and wrapped his tail around me and started growing more mouths and limbs and stuff like hwas GONAN DIE to protect me and i was just silent in shock. i watched the NTF units drop out of their heli and i had to squirm my way out and i was like. "DONT SHOOT" and they were SO CONFUSED that i was there. i had to explain to them that he broke out, somehow picked me up and took me on this wild ride and he was just behind me SO ready to kill the entire time and i somehow was able to make him go back peacefully w me and i felt so bad for all the pedestrians tbh .... after we got back and put him back into containment i said i have to go work and he didnt want me too. and i was like. "ill be back later, i just have paperwork to do," and he said for me to bring it back to his room and i was like. ok. so i did and i just sat in the little observation window and filled it out and you know. normal stuff. but then he somehow clawed up the wall to the window and just kind of perched on there and watched me fill it out and stuff. at one point i thought hed break the window but he didnt. when he saw the 0-5 council show up on the paperwork he was like. "can you ask them to drain the acid. so i can be with you more" and i was like. "i guess? im not sure if they would though," and i just kinda hid under my lab coat. i did go to the 0-5 and explained everything to them and i was able to get a compromise. the acid would be drained and stuff before i would come in. i had to have special boots on in case of any remaining acid puddles and special gloves too. the first time it happened he seemed confused but when i walked in he seemed really happy and i thought the two NTF guards were gonna faint when they saw a HAPPY 682. they closed the door behind me and i just kinda stood there at first. but then he picked me up and it was so WEIRD he was so much bigger then me. but he was really gentle when picking me up too. and he just held me really close and then he held me up to his "muzzle" (his head was more bone then skin/fur) and he licked me and it covered my entire screen. and i just kinda reached out and pet him?? and he had this REALLY deep like.. purr.. and the more i pet the more he would purr. and i kind of hugged him too. and he said something but i cant remember it. he then set me back down. and then he laid down, i wasnt paying attention cuz i was wiping my screen clean. and he pulled me really close? and just. curled around me. and i could hear his breathing too. really large deep breaths. i think i somehow fell asleep like that. i woke up what was i think about 30 mins to an hour later. when i woke up i was really warm. he had a high-ish body temperature. i yaned, which told him i was awake, and he moved to look at me. all the acid had dried out of his fur, and i reached up and slowly ran my hands through it. it was actually really soft.. i slowly stood up and looked at him and said "hey ill be back in a bit," but he cut me off and wrapped his tail around me and pulled me close again and he told me he loved me, and i was so.. embarassed. i didnt rlly know what to do so when i rushed out all flustered, the NTF were confused, but sealed the chamber as it filled back up with acid. i went back to my office ad just kinda stared at my hands and sat down and hid in my lab coat again.

#canon call #scp #scp kin #079 kin #scp 079 kin #fictionkin #scp 682 #scp foundation #fickin #079 x 682 #HHRRUUGU #static.exe #kin

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jeonpalette-archive · 7 years

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- ̗̀92 truths ̖́-

tagged by: anotherbtslaundry thank you bub! you’re so precious ♡ anyway it’s cool that your name’s tj bec mine’s ej! that’s so cuuute! and why don’t you believe in angels? you are one : )

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

 LAST

[1] drink: coffee

[2] phone call: my dad

[3] text message: my mom

[4] song you listened to: controlla bec i was watching tom holland dance : ( here’s the link if you want [x] jfc he’s so hot, did u know he dance ballet before

[5] time you cried: a while ago. i was reading a fic. sue me.

[6] dated someone twice: yes, i do admit i’m a v bad decision maker.

[7] been cheated on: no

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: no, why would i

[9] lost someone special: yes

[10] been depressed: what do u mean depressed? it’s just normal mood tbh

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, told u i was a bad decision maker

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS

[12] black

[13] nude

[14] teal

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yes

[16] fallen out of love: yes

[17] laughed until you cried: when i’m with my friends, always

[18] found out someone was talking about you: like bad things? no but i had this instance where the friend of my x answered an ask about me on ask.fm and shared it on twt. they prolly talked abt me tho, couldn’t care less

[19] met someone who changed you: yes, you guys know who you are : )

[20] found out who your true friends are: yes, i found a family and a support group in the group of friends i have now.

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yes

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like know-know? first name basis and facial recognition is all, but i don’t rlly know their story or smth

[23] do you have any pets: a dog named kean and a fish named ‘pogi’ [that’s handsome in filipino]

[24] do you want to change your name: i do like the name margaret, but nah i like my name too so i wouldn’t change it

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: went swimming with fambam !!!

[26] what time did you wake up: 5:35 am, school rockz /raises heavy metal hand sign/

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping (╥. ╥)

[28] name something you cannot wait for: the radical part of me screams a decent president but tbh i just really can’t wait of finally being able to decide for myself without my parents opinion.

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: n minutes ago

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish i had more motivation instead of just being lackadaisical [WoW BiG wOrD]

[31] what are you listening to right now: stay with you - cheat codes

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: does tommy count? if yes, then yes

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: college applications

[34] most visited website: tumblr

[35] elementary: /insert sherlock’s voice/ my dear watson. omg that’s so lame.

[36] high school: literally this gif

[37] college: idek if i still want to go to college lol

[38] hair colour: black

[39] long or short hair: i just had a haircut so it’s short, but not short-short. goodness, you guys know what i mean

[40] do you have a crush on someone: crushes as in crushes-your-heart-bec-you-know-you-will-never-be-together? uhh no thank you. i have my fictional characters and bts, i’m fine.

[41] what do you like about yourself?:

[42] piercings: one in both ears, i’m thinking of having helix piercings

[43] blood type: O

[44] nickname: ej

[45] relationship status: single but not interested

[46] zodiac sign: aries

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show(s): himym, got, skins

[49] tattoos: i badly want one!!!

[50] right or left handed: right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: does tooth surgery counts? bec i had one

[52] piercing: ears

[53] best friend: a girl named nica

[54] sport: volleyball, wAh i miss

[55] vacation: bohol, philippines

[56] pair of trainers: puma

[57] eating: what do u mean? like breastfeed or what lmao AHAHAH

[58] drinking: how tf can i remember the date : (

[59] i’m about to: sleep

[60] listening to: survival - eminem, idek whose playlist this is i just searched for fireflies a while ago and the transition is so confusing

[61] waiting for: the classes to be suspended like give me some rest pls it’s only been three weeks and we’ve been doing a lot of performance tasks already

[62] want: to not fucked things up

[63] get married: i do want to get married and have babies (that needs breastfeed)

[64] career: just shouting into the void, I REALLY WANT TO BECOME A DANCE MAJOR but like i want to be practical as well so i’ll choose engineering instead.

YOUR TYPE…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs AND kisses

[66] lips or eyes: eyes

[67] shorter or taller: taller

[68] older or younger: older

[69] romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter

[71] sensitive or loud: sensitive AND loud

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker so we can be fuck-ups together

 HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger?: no

[75] drank hard liquor?: yes, way more than necessary considering my age

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: never wore glasses nor contact lenses

[77] turned someone down: yes

[78] sex on first date?: no

[79] broken someone’s heart?: yes

[80] had your own heart broken?: yes, i think it’s vice versa because if you broke someone’s heart, you’ll be affected about it as well

[81] been arrested?: no

[82] cried when someone died?: yes

[83] fallen for a friend: no

 DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself?: no

[85] miracles?: yes

[86] love at first sight?: yes

[87] santa claus?: yes, up until now ♡

[88] kiss on the first date?: yes

[89] angels?: yes

[90] current best friend’s name: a girl named enya

[91] eye colour: dark brown

[92] favourite movies: kimi no na wa, ironman basically anything marvel, collateral beauty, i rly should update my recommendations bec i have a lot of faves wAh

i’m not following anyone at the moment bec i still have a goal to reach so, i’m tagging everyone! feel free to do it and just put that i tagged you okiz. thank you for tagging me really, i enjoyed answering!

#thank you everyone ♡#i appreciate you all i swear #personal

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