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frodo-with-glasses · 1 year

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Discord Discussion Highlights: Lobelia

meg is me:

Something about how lotr has happy endings even though they aren't the same as we were hoping

Tolkien cares about the ponies Tolkien cares about Lobelia Tolkien cares

M.aggie:

Oh yes

Tolkien takes special care of Frodo, and other hobbits doesn't he?

RebirthoftheMustelid:

I love Lobelia's redemption at the end. Something about showing the difference between true evil and just everyday curmudgeonry. It's like no, this old woman is not evil. Even if her son became evil, even if she and Bilbo didn't get along, this old woman is not evil. She is just like anyone else, and when evil did come, she got trampled by it even worse than some who were arguably "better" people. Poor Lobelia. I hope her last few years were kind to her.

meg is me:

Frodo doesn't need any more enemies in his life and I'm so happy lobelia became his friend

RebirthoftheMustelid:

Absolutely. Just because she's a cranky old lady doesn't mean she's an enemy, or evil or cruel or any of that.

meg is me:

Basically the only thing that made her "evil" was that she wanted Bilbo dead 😂

Sort of

Lol she wanted his nice house

Windmill to the Stars:

I don't think Lobelia was a like a good person, I think she was kind of mean, greedy, petty, etc. But she was just a lady going about her business . . .

RebirthoftheMustelid:

True. She was unpleasant, yes. Sharp-tongued, greedy, sometimes genuinely nasty. But one moment of kindness after everything broke her. And I think that says a lot

Me:

I just got back from grocery shopping to see this outpouring of love for Lobelia and I couldn’t be happier 💚💚💚

heckinmusicdork:

lady glasses After all this time, I think you've finally made a believer out of me! Yeah sure she may have been Unpleasant for most of her life, but this was a turning point for her, I'm certain of it. It's never too late for someone to change ❤️

Me:

Mercy is extended to everyone. Sometimes it’s easier to forgive the evil than the annoying, but Tolkien offers mercy to them both.

I think the line “she had never in her life been popular” sums up everything about Lobelia. I imagine she’d experienced so much hurt and rejection over the years that she’d eventually shut down and stopped trying, just looking out for herself and no one else. Was some of her pain self-inflicted? Possibly. But there’s a hobbit under all that anger and hurt, and she doesn’t deserve love any less than anyone else.

Bonus:

meg is me:

Au where the ring comes to lobelia like hey I can get you that nice smial you've been wanting

M.aggie:

My preciousssss housssseeee ~ Lobelia Sackville-Baggins

M.aggie is @sweetmaggie, RebirthoftheMustelid is @weezlbot, Windmill to the Stars is @windmilltothestars, heckinmusicdork is @heckin-music-dork, and meg is me does not have tumblr :-3

#fig tree discord server #lobelia sackville-baggins #lord of the rings #lotr #lotr meta #my writing #other people's writing #i spent way too long fiddling with html and hex codes to try to get the mod colors to look right #thank you meg for sending me the right hex code LOL

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zmediaoutlet · 1 year

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happy wincest wednesday!! thoughts on the amnesia trope?

happy wincest wednesday :)

I got excited enough about amnesia that, like an idiot, I tried to use the native tumblr search for something, and so obviously nothing remotely to do with amnesia came up and so we're left with:

Love the amnesia trope! I mean -- in theory, lol. Every trope can be good if it's written well and absolute trash if it's written in a trash way. Some tropes have more wiggle room than others, though, and amnesia in particular has a wiiiiide range from 'can be AWESOME' to 'ugh, god. why.' Admittedly, a lot of depictions of amnesia fall closer to the trash-why end, haha (then again, pretty much everything falls closer to the trash-why end, so no need to single it out too hard on that), in particular because of the way it tends to be used for silly melodrama and soaps. But you know what, spn's pretty much a melodrama and I think at this point if you can't accept that you've got a lot more work to do than just getting through a silly amnesia fic, so -- hell yeah, melodramatic tropes in melodramatic fic for our melodramatic canon, let's gooooo --

With that said.

I really really really VASTLY prefer single-amnesia to double-amnesia. Double-amnesia has the fun dramatic irony going on where the reader knows what's up and, oh ho, won't it be So Fun when they realize what they have done! And like, fine. It can be. But I'm immensely more interested in the single-amnesia variety, where Character A is cored out or wiped blank or made into some new entitity -- like a Regarding Dean situation where the memories are gone and just the personality remains -- or jamais vu, true newborn with only nature and no nurture -- or like I have written... twice or three times, lol, when some specific but very key information is lost -- and then Character B has to deal with the beloved shell left behind. Whether it's from the amnesiac's POV or from the carer's, you're left with this intensely fraught interpersonal situation where one person doesn't know what's wrong, or at least to what extent something's wrong, and the other person's caught in this maelstrom of alarm/worry/but also, maybe, a strange and cautious and terrible relief. Because -- wouldn't it be better, if they didn't remember trauma x or y? Wouldn't they be safer? This tends to go toward first time, which layers on an extra layer of guilt for the carer, but (being me) I actually prefer it as established relationship where the carer's not sure if it's morally right to make that reconnection -- because, after all, it was the person who was that they loved, and the person who's here now... are they the same?

Amnesia fic sits in this wonderful moral grey area, sharing a place with e.g. gender or body swap, de-aging, alternate universe selves, etc, and the grey area is embodied in a single question: what's owed to the person who's no longer here? Swiftly followed by a darker question: what's owed to the person standing in front of you, not sure why you want that other version back so badly? This was essentially the soulless!Sam plot -- he's right here and Dean wants to murder him to get back some soppy sweet version who might as well be dead. In a fic like 'What Remains,' which deservedly is one of the top recs for the trope, Sam's left with this so-much-happier Dean who, sure, was lost, but has a decent life, and is it even remotely okay for Sam to shove him back into memories of hell and pain just so that, when he smiles at Sam in the morning, it's the smile Sam actually remembers?

The only interesting lesson of Lebanon is, of course, that yes: whether it's right or not, they want their brother back -- not a facsimile or a happy shell or anything else. No matter how much it hurts, either coming or going. And we all knew that was true before Lebanon but I didn't mind it being underlined, and in every (good) amnesia fic I look forward to it being underlined again: there is no Sam or Dean Winchester that counts, except for the one that grew up entwined with his brother. Accept no substitutes. :)

#happy wincest wednesday #answers #the ep where dean gets turned into the 15 yr old version is here too #they'd be safer with the mark missing #but-- no.#sam wanted him back.#it just... it feels so good :)

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clockworkspider · 1 year

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So back when I was in university I begun to recognize some of my developmental traumas and begun to recognize a number of my behaviors as coping mechanisms. And like... when I quit my first job I recognized that I gained some traumas that really held me back from future career development due to paranoia of repeated negative experience.

And like... at that point I despaired a bit about that because like... It's not like recognizing existing traumas made them worse by any means. They were there regardless of whether I acknowledged them or not. But I felt like every negative experience will leave a mark and I would only get more and more scarred through time. And it felt like my life was a result of things out of my control and once certain aspects is fucked it can't get unfucked. And that was discouraging.

But like... Now that I'm a bit older I know that healing does happen. And like... resilience isn't necessarily the immunity from being hurt, it's also about the ability to recover. And sometimes pain really does just fade away on its own.

And like... sometimes resulting behavioural/personality change from negative experiences is trauma and sometimes it's just plain old learning. Like... there was never a pure perfect version of the self that was worth preserving. I don't actually know if I'd be quantifiably happier or better adjusted if my parents were better at parenting, or if my employers were fantastic people, or if I was kept safe from every harm. That version of me doesn't exist.

In any case. I'm going to have more negative experiences in the future. And some of them may be traumatic. And some of them will be just fine. And I'm gonna be just fine. I'll learn a few life lessons or gain some maladaptive behaviors. You win some you lose some.

Anyway I do see memes of people recognizing their early developmental traumas a lot and really despair a lot about it and it's like... Yeah it's kinda unfair that some people had happier childhoods and that weren't us lol, but your life isn't objectively worse now that you know. And like... it's really up to us what we do with that information. It's fine. We'll be fine.

#life #feelings #like #it's fine I'm working on it

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dredshirtroberts · 12 days

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as usual, interactions with my family (benign and in fact only the bare minimum of an interaction) have caused me to have Complex Feelings.

my grandpa's got cancer. this isn't news, it's just a fact and has been a fact since 2016. Pancreatic cancer that has metastasized outside of his pancreas (specifically in his lungs - it's damn lucky it's slow growing and he's a contrarian by nature). He is no longer doing chemotherapy about it, but he's part of a very small percentage of people who survive more than 6 years with it. so. You know. there's that.

He's doing well, all things considered. Again, it's slow growing cancer, he's somehow lucked out with it. I'll know we're close to the end when he stops wanting to get out in his boat and go fishing. Or stops working on the boat in general. I'm very fortunate to have known all of my grandparents for my whole life so far - even if some of them ended up being major bigots apparently. oh well, when you've got 6 you're allowed a couple duds.

My grandpa and grandma are trying very hard to love me. They've adjusted to the name once i mentioned "hey, literally no one i am still talking to calls me my old name anymore, i know i said it was okay to use in the transition stage but i honestly forget to answer to it, would you mind?" and then they immediately went for the change. they still struggle with my pronouns but like. grandpa's got cancer, i'm not going to fuss at him for using she or her for me (especially during a season where like. i am more girl right now, whether i like it or not lol. it's...complicated). I'll correct grandma later down the line if I gotta but like.

they both just assume i'm one of those Strange Lesbians and like, i'm not not one of those, it's just not what i told them when i came out. so like. it's complicated.

I... cannot get over how much they were emphasizing how happy i sound now. Grandma even mentioned it in her note in the card i got sent for my birthday. I mean it's true, i am very happy up here. I'm happier than i ever have been, in fact. I have never been this well off mentally before.

it sucks a little that they like. didn't understand how very deeply unhappy i was before now. that they have to hear it now, how very different i am when i am excited and enthusiastic and looking forward to an actual future for once.

it sucks a lot that i don't feel comfortable sharing more with them, that i don't feel like i can reach out and request comfort or assurance from them. It sucks a lot that they're not the only ones that I feel like this about in my biofamily.

I didn't know I didn't trust any of them until i found people I do trust. until i found people i know i can rely on when things are bad even if only to be in the bad with me so i'm not alone.

the birthday call and card were both somewhat of a response to my update email - one so that grandma could double check to make sure the address would receive mail so i would get my card, and two so that we could catch up a little.

We didn't discuss my health issues at all. the questions i had about our family's medical history, I didn't get any of that information from them. I could have asked. Should have. Forgot. Could probably call them back and bring it up but...

well. Grandpa's got cancer. I don't want him worrying about my heart. or my bones. or my pain. he doesn't know me that well, after all. it would be an unnecessary burden to him. Especially since all of that information was in my email, and they never actually confirmed they got it, outside of me reminding them that the address was in the email - and then the card got to me.

so they got the email. they have it. they have chosen not to respond with any useful information. Just like my aunt on that side. just like my sister.

just like my mom would have, if i'd sent it to her.

at least i know she comes by it honest.

like. bright sides: money for my birthday hell yeah that's a lot of money to buy weed with (i will likely end up using it for bills mainly, but. still). grandpa's still doing okay (desperate to get back out on the water with his fishin pole) and like. i think we're all in a place mentally where we're just. accepting of the inevitable. which like, not fun, but of the pre-grief options, i'll take it. Grandma sounds like she's doing alright and it's getting warm out so she's going to be able to garden which will help her feel even better probably. i don't have to cut off yet another section of my biofamily at this point, which is always a nice thing to not have to do (i won't lie...they are on thin ice, i'm just... delaying things because, well. grandpa's got cancer. wouldn't you?)

i...am allowed to not deal with people who stress me out and make me anxious, even if their genetics did contribute to my existence (and especially if they didn't) but... well. grandpa's got cancer. and he's always been a bit of a dick. he's actually mellowed out a lot, and well. they stress me out but it's... very different from my mom (their daughter). so. they get to be on the same boat as my aunt (their other daughter) and my sister. i won't do it yet, but. well. i might do in the future. it depends on them.

i hope i don't gotta carve out more of my biofamily in order to have peace. i'd like to keep some blood connection to that side of the family in my circle. i just might need to cast a wider net and involve people i really don't know all that well into it. no time like the present to start building new relationshps with folks, right?

anyway i'll go back to trying hard not to focus on the background planning for what i'm going to have to be ready for when funerals start happening.

#heads up i talk about my grandpa's cancer dx from 8 years ago and the way my brain has been dealing with that for that same time period #i'm cool about it but like i know it's a sensative thing for others so just be aware #also as usual a cw for my family being mentioned in general #i'm glad they know i'm happy now and they know what that sounds like #and that they're glad i am happy #are the important things i guess

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his-mochi-cheeks · 8 months

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Hi 💜,

I have a good friend that once told me kdramas was the gateway to kpop. I believe it. Hahaha. The power of music is so strong and when paired with a compelling story, it is just, wow. It must be so nice to have baekhyun do several drama OST songs too.

CBX are so wonderful. I was stunned by their contract suit/dispute. I always wanted to think the members were well taken care of and were happy, so it caught me off guard (a reflection of my naivety and wishful thinking I guess). Thank goodness the members were strong enough to stand up for what they wanted and needed. We are sooooooo lucky to be able to enjoy them and their talent as part of EXO and CBX.

And is it just me or does Chen seem sooooooo much happier and laid back this comeback?? He seems to be so relaxed and truly enjoying himself (especially in Ladder 4). I love to see that. And I think I read he will be having his wedding party soon? 💕

Baekhyun!! He is complete SUNSHINE. You must be over the moon to have him back. I love his messages. I just saw the one today where he met Sehun at the same restaurant! So cute! He’s so funny without being mean and just brightens the world around him.

Do you have a favorite color or color combinations?

Do you have favorite eras of Baekhyun (feel free to include CBX eras)?

Your Secret Santa

Santa Anonie I am putting my response under a cut because we are going to TALK ABOUT THIS

Okay so YES ugh the power of music 🤌 that first drama I watched a melodrama and there's this song on the OST (that I am obsessed with to this day) that just PULLS at all my heart strings and makes the character's desperation THAT MUCH MORE angsty and UGH it's wonderful and music just does that for all the feelings and emotions it's 🥲🤧 so beautiful. AND YES OMG 😭 BAEKHYUN'S OST SONGS 😭🤧 I'm still not over his Is It Me? song (even if that drama kinda sucked LOL it had potential but 😬 idk what happened)

CBX 🥺💖 my babies omg I really cannot imagine what those 3 boys must have felt going through all of that. Like, the decision to file suit knowing the pressures it would put in the group as a whole must not have been easy for any one of them (how would have Jongdae felt, who already has so many antis because of his marriage?? Or Minseok who arguably is the quietest member?? Or Baekhyun???? Who IS literal sunshine and is always trying to make everyone feel good? How must they have felt???) But I think it's a testament to the bond they have as a group. I just 😭🤧 exo we are one saranghaja 😭😭😭🩷✨

But YES JONGDAE 🙌 I agree with you Santa Anonie, he does seem more at ease. And have you listened to Polaris???? I think it might be my favorite of his solo albums so far. Maybe because it's less ballady and more like, rock inspired? I don't know lol but I really enjoy this album

Soooo for my favorite colors I do love purple in all its shades lol but I do like a light purple and light blue combo and I also very much like deep purples with like a deep red/burgundy or also like a purple and pink combo (which is weird because I normally hate pink LOL but I don't unless it's paired with purple)

And yes 🥺💖 Baekhyun... there is just so much about this man and I don't to bore you or go on and on and on about him but... 🥺 I love him. He is just 🥺 so hardworking and always trying to better himself. He doesn't settle. I admire that so much about him because the man is SO TALENTED but he doesn't stop trying to learn new things or trying to improve. Like he is so much more than just this goofy dude that he shows sometimes. I just 🥺 wish he was a little kinder to himself. I wish him to be truly happy. I know he hides a lot of his pains and that's okay. I just 🥺🥺🥺💖 yeah. The need to take care of him spikes up from time to time.

But yeah! So um.... there are a lot of looks LOL I don't know what to choose because this boy wrecks me ALL THE TIME LOL I'm hopeless. Okay so FIRST OFF I love ALL his solo looks. His LOOKS and platinum hair from City Lights era OOF gorgeous. (Also he just? FEELS himself when he sings UN Village the sexiness just TAKES OVER)

And THEN THE LOOKS and the undercut look from Delight SO HOT 😩😩😩 some of my FAVORITE LOOKS

(that last one HE WRECKS ME but also I chose that gif specifically because I love those colors)

His self titled Japanese album looks?!?? NO ONE TALKS ABOUT IT ENOUGH (SPECIFICALLY THESE TWO PHOTOSHOOTS THEY WRECK ME)

And then his looks for BAMBI?!?? (Which make me want to write a fanfic for these looks UGH the hat and looks from the MV make me want to write him maybe as a detective or MAYBE LIKE A VAN HELSING TYPE CHARACTER oof I wish I could write ALDKALSJ)

Sigh BIG SIGH. But yeah, lol I'd say these are my favorite looks and I'm SORRY there are so many LOL IM SORRYYYYY (if I had to pick favorites out of these if say his Delight era and the Japanese era looks are my faves) so aside from these... KoKoBop era Baek LOL but there is enough content about his KoKoBop era looks so... yeah lol his Lotto looks and Young Puppy looks are also up there as faves LOL OH AND his romantic universe looks are also OOF HOT

ALDJADLKA Santa Anonie I'm sorry this is so long 😩😩😩 I'll shut up now lol

#santa anonie #im sorry this is so so so long 😩 just letting you know beforehand #you cant invite me to talk about this man you cannot

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saintobio · 3 years

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as someone who joked abt y/n just running to toji, or toji endgame! are y'all happy now?/srs bc im kind of not☹️☹️ i thought y/n moving on and being a girlboss with toji was something i'd screaming 'hell yeah!', i just felt so sad in this chapter like😭😭 it's for the best tho but it doesn't mean I can't get sad over what happened to gojo (plus his immense regret)

@shoukuto said

us in the earlier chapters: Y/N X TOJI! IF SHE MARRIED TOJI IN THE FIRST PLACE, SHE WOULD'VE BEEN HAPPIER! IF SHE GETS PREGNANT WITH GOJO'S KID, SHE BETTER PICK THAT CHILD UP AND GO LIVE HER OWN LIFE! GIRLBOSS Y/N, GO WORK WITH TOJI! GO BE INDEPENDENT AND SEPARATE FROM GOJO'S TOXICITY! Y/N SHOULD LEAVE GOJO FOR REAL—

and then you just..... you Gave it to us and we're crying for it 😭 really made us eat our own words. i'm reeling from how conflicted i am because most of the misfortune he got, he set up for himself 😭 (my blood still boils when i reread y/n's first time with him like was he ok) but i feel so sorry for him. their love story is just so sad because it's like the time when they were kids was the only time they could love each other without the other being guilty of some wrongdoing. they just can't seem to meet in the middle. toji's a good guy, and he's already said he'd treat y/n like a queen if she married him (someone check on naoya) so whoever she ends up with, i just want all three parties to be happy. (munchkin is so CUTE) every time i read your writing, i get absolutely blown away by your skill! thank you so much for your hard work on sn!! i hope you enjoy your well deserved break, and i can't wait to see what else you've got in store!

Anonymous said

my yn x toji heart but then my yn x gojo heart are all suffering right now. soooo many theories running through my brain after reading the last chapter. my heart aches for gojo. amnesia? oh boy. i cant help but think that having amnesia would help him though, is that wrong of me?

i hope yn ended up marrying toji, but i also hope she didnt go through with it, and that sn 2 focuses on them getting back together. but again, i dont want toji to get hurt, and i lowkey want gojo to fall in love with someone else as hard as he did for yn. sincerely not is really fucking w my brain lol. soooo many conflicts happening in my heart, idk what i want. look what u did to me saint! haha.

anyways, congrats on finishing sn. it feels like its been so long. this was such a beautiful and painful journey to experience, but i dont regret it at all! congrats saint, we all love u and sincerely not :3

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no bc saint gave us toji fuckers what we wanted in the beginning when we were all like "nOthing hoejo does will ever make us forgive him !!!)!$!" and now post-gojo redemption arc its just its just .. im sorry i ever said i wanted toji endgame 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️we should have known better than to doubt gojo x yn soulmates

Anonymous said

Crying and throwing up I’m not ready to read about yn and toji as a couple and I feel so bad bc they’re both so amazing and deserve each other and all the happiness but I can’t stop thinking about Gojo like his life is so miserable my god 😭

honestly all the toji stans in the first few chapters were so passionate abt having toji x yn endgame, but now that it happened, everyone feels bad for gojo and the things he went through <//3

#saintobio.asks #series: sincerely not

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hmslusitania · 2 years

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Thank you for your takes! I am beyond done with the dry and painful misery that is BT because Oliver is literally mailing it in and can't even make it believable since he's not happy with the arc as well. It's just painful to view, I honestly wish they had chemistry because their lack of it and MWs acting is putting me off. If they're still together after 5.10, I'm gonna move on, which makes me sad. I'll visit Eddie's tag for his beautiful face though. <3

She just...IDK what it is! Because I genuinely, honestly did not care about her in season 4! (well, before 4x14 lol)

Like??? Has her acting gotten worse or are we just seeing more of it? I honestly don't know. And often, I feel weird critiquing people's acting because I was not really an actor when I did drama in school. I mean, I did enough of it to know how to direct, and then mostly I did assistant stage managing, stage managing, and directing, and was much happier playing god and being in charge of things (me 🤝 clipboard!buck) but like........................

Sometimes, I wonder, how good a storyline this might have been had the woman they'd cast as Buck's last female love interest been good at her job. They could've made it genuinely compelling. And instead it's just...dry and boring. Even when she "puts her ❤ into it."

I'm 100% sure it's not endgame, and that's not a thing we have to worry about, but I'm equally sure that if their relationship carries over the hiatus, I won't be tuning back in until she's gone. I both have faith and am tired, friend. These things can co-exist. And it's unfortunate, because this show has been basically the backbone of my year. I would love for it to continue to be.

Fingers crossed, and all.

(for what it's worth, I do genuinely still have faith, they're too good of storytellers to fuck up this badly without it having a purpose, on a macro scale even if the micro level of a per-episode basis sometimes misses the mark. I think, probably, it's all gonna be okay eventually. But fuck me it sucks right now. But anyway. Yeah. Breathe. Oliver is phoning it in, and Oliver is like. the show's biggest champion. I will hold on hope for a bit longer at least)

#the ghost ship answers questions #an13465k #anti bucktaylor #anti taylor kelly #anti megan west #911 spoilers

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irisofpurple · 3 years

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Mine

Summary: After all the years of pining, Lana was finally officially his.

Book: Open Heart Book 3 (Chapter 16)

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey×f!MC (Lana Stevens)

Word Count: 650

Warnings/Rating: Fluff, adult situations; Teen.

A/N: My heart is still so heavy. I just can't let go of this couple so I wrote this drabble in between classes. I initially thought I'd write smut but it ended up disgustingly fluffy somehow. I'm posting anyway cause I can't deal with this alone. Hope you enjoy reading. Love you all!

Disclaimer: All characters are owned by Pixelberry.

She snuggled into him. Her hands running leisurely up and down the rugged dips and valleys of his chest.

He smiled contentedly and breathed her in. The same drugging vanilla scent that has been driving him insane for three years now.

She had no idea what she did to him. Just the touch of her hands, the fan of her sweet breath on his neck, the feel of her in his arms, made his heart so full he could die right there. He didn't think he could love anyone more.

And she loved him too.

He was still reeling from the realization. He couldn't believe he gets to call her his now. All his. Only his.

When he had confessed his real feelings to her, he hadn't expected her to say it back. She was a free spirit, young and beautiful and ambitious. She had her entire life ahead of her. He didn't want to tie her down. Make her stay with him when she didn't want to.

He had almost made up his mind to keep his feelings to himself. Like he always had.

But when she came into his office tonight to seek him out, leaving behind a lavish party thrown for her success and full of her best friends, looking like her entire world began and ended with him, he had simply cracked. He couldn't keep the truth from her anymore. He couldn't hold back.

She had to know. Or he wouldn't be able to live with himself for the rest of his life.

It was too painful. He couldn't bear to watch her go without giving her the full truth first. She always did hate it when he withheld information from her.

And she was right. As always. She was a smart, independent woman. She didn't need him to decide what she deserved to know.

And Ethan was glad he came to his senses in time.

Because she loved him.

He was sure couldn't ever be happier if he tried. Except maybe if he could put a ring on her finger. But all in good time. He didn't want to scare her off.

For now he relished in the feeling of being hers as he traced the curve of her tiny waist with his fingers.

She chuckled into his chest, the sound vibrating through his body and making him feel ten years younger.

"That tickles." she murmured, burying her face deeper onto him.

"Yeah?" Ethan asked innocently, his intent anything but. "You mean this?"

He moved his fingers delicately up and down her waist, moving onto the front of her belly. A whisper of touch, soft and tender first and then harder and harder.

"Stop it." she squeeled.

She was full-on giggling now, desperately trying to free herself from his grip.

Too bad cause he wasn't letting her go. Not now. Not ever.

The look of pure unadulterated joy on her face made Ethan's chest swell with pride. He needed more of it. He'd do anything to make her smile, to make her laugh like that.

In his moment of distraction, Lana managed to wrench one arm free and pin him down, her golden hair falling on his face as they both laughed in bliss like teenagers.

"You're going to pay for that" she said, the devilish glint in her emerald eyes unmistakable.

"I'd happily spend my entire life paying you back. For as long as you'll have me." He promised, tucking away some strands behind her ear so he could see her face.

She seemed visibly moved. Clearly she wasn't expecting him to say that.

But Ethan was done with keeping his feelings from her.

This was him. No filter.

"I love you" she whispered, gazing so deep into his eyes that Ethan was sure she could see his soul.

"I love you too. And you're mine."

I hope that wasn't too saccharine for you. I don't know what came over me but I needed to get it out. I couldn't focus on my lessons. I'll make up for this by writing some smut or angst in the evening probably lol.

As always, thank you for reading! <3

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#open heart fanfiction #ethan ramsey #choices open heart #ethan ramsey × mc #open heart #pixelberry #open heart book 3 #choices fic writers creations #fics of the week #play choices

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heretherebedork · 3 years

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Do you also think that the end of today's DSN episode was kinda.. rushed? Like, to me it didn't really make much sense. Maybe it's because Mame is following the typical EPISODE 11 MUST BE THAT TRAGIC ONE pattern but idk, even if that's the case, why do that when it doesn't really fit in the flow of the episode at all? I mean even if the series is "short story"-like, this time I feel like the transition to the next episode wasn't reasonable at all. It felt more like they were trying to add another drama and couldn't come up with sth else.. and looking at the preview it doesn't add to their story at all, seems more like a repetition of the misunderstandings between LeoFiat and them choosing to do stupid things instead of talking to each other.. I mean, sure, they got better in communicating but there's obviously still more potential. I don't know what to think about it even though I'm a sucker for them and will surely still enjoy watching them.. ugh, lol.

This makes absolutely no sense. The episode felt rushed and too long at the same time because of the focus on LeonPob as well as the way Leo and Fiat seemed to have gone through like three weeks in three minutes?!?

I have no idea, honestly.

Yeah, it's painful. They're literally throwing us back to their beginning rather than still moving us forward. By showing the two of them back in the EXACT situations we kept seeing when they were just friends... I hate this as a plot twist.

It makes no sense. It doesn't fit what we've seen of them and their relationship growth. It doesn't fit how they've changed over the course of the series.

This could have worked earlier on. But we've had time for them to see that their relationship works. They've had time to see how they work together.

Leo literally gave Fiat the perfect and most romantic gift of all time. Fiat has dedicated himself to Leo thoroughly and promised to become a better person.

Why the fuck are we looking at a break up plot after that?!?!

How the FUCK can either of them look at that birthday present and go 'yup, we should have stayed friends'.

Now, what I think is going on? Is that they're both going to try to self-sacrifice for the other.

The girl has something on Fiat that Leo is worried could hurt him. And Leo's never managed to get ahead of that pain and prevent it. So he's trying to stop Fiat from being hurt and truly believe that sacrificing himself and his happiness for Fiat is better.

And then Fiat is going to try to get away because he still has abandonment issues and thinks that Leo would better off without him and happier with the girl and that more 'traditional' relationship.

Basically, we're taking all their character development and throwing it out the window and ignoring it completely. Blegh.

#don't say no #leofiat #leo x fiat #thaibl #thai bl #asian lgbtq dramas #bl drama #bl series #asianlgbtqdramas #seriously wtf #couldn't the final conflict have been about Leo's insecurities?.#and not cheating?#or wtf #come on leo is so obviously demisexual #and he was so uncomfortable with that kiss #and fiat doesn't even question it?#fucking bs

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titaniumpsychologist · 2 years

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Just feeling a lot of emotions right now (not happy ones q.q). Long rant about stuff under the break. (aka feel free to scroll past this whoever might see this. I just... feel like I need to put this somewhere that can't be easily traced back to my IRL stuff)

*head desk*

Idk, life is kinda cruel sometimes. I reflect on my past and where I am now, with how school is going, with the opportunities that finally opened up for me, with finally looking forward to the future instead of letting all the muck and dirt of years ago clinging to me.

For the first time in my life, things are actually looking up. I'm moving forward. I'm happier. Satisfied. Excited. The struggle was worth it.

But life is unfair. Life is unpredictable.

Just when I thought life couldn't throw me another scary ambiguity over my head, of course it does. And it makes me... sad. Maybe it's my optimistic idealist in me that hoped that things would keep working out the way they should. But I have to face the possibility that my time and ability to see those realized is running shorter than I thought it would.

Dunno. I'm like... not surprised to discover this new fear. I've seen doctors over the years. Diagnosis after diagnosis. Another thing I have to add? Sure, okay, I can live with that. I've learned to live with it. And to be honest, managing around those limitations has gotten easier.

But then these symptoms show up. And they're not going away. And even now it's like I can hear the hourglass, the window of opportunity for me to contribute something to the world, grains just slipping away faster than I thought they would. And then the symptoms slowly getting worse and now I have to face the reality that there really might be something wrong.

(Oh please, oh no, please just let it all be in my head.)

I coped with that fear for a while now.

But then I was writing my stupid fanfic that of course I put so much of my insecurities and inner psyche and fun and not-fun stuff in it I inadvertently, advertently started symbolically writing about it to make sense of it all. I mean, one character's slowly breaking down. I feel like I'm slowly breaking down. But when I started writing and plotting it months ago, it was just a passing worry.

But that passing worry drove me to just write, edit really quickly, and post it before finishing the entire thing because, y'know, anything could happen, right? I might not have enough time to write in the future, and it would be a shame to just have it languish in my drafts for so long.

Months later...

*sigh*

I know I joked with my friend months ago that I was going to finish the stupid thing or die trying. I don't think a possible diagnosis like this is immediately that worrying, but I wonder if I subconsciously knew that something just wasn't quite right with me. Yeah, I know I'm keeping this really vague.

It's like... a bittersweet thing, I guess. When I was younger, I wanted to tell a story. Entertain people with a story or something I created, make them happy or feel something special and hopeful or thought-provoking. And because I'm human, I got to experience a whole lotta heartbreak and darkness that nearly destroyed me, but still that idealistic side of me wanted to at least leave something positive behind.

And... in some ways, I got to do that. And it brought me to so many journeys and paths that I can't help but feel so much happiness and sadness and just... love and pain for everyone that I come across. It makes me weep for their sadness. Tears of joy for their successes.

More or less made me a sympathetic crier lol.

Which is why I went to the research side of psychology. I wouldn't make a good therapist crying with clients while they're crying q.q

I never thought my life story was all that interesting until a chance encounter with a radio host led me to a place where I actually got to share it. With thousands. (People still listen to the radio? WAT?) With listeners across the entire world and I was stunned. How in the world!? But because I prefer my privacy, and because I don't want to be known for that, I keep this post vague. I just feel... idk... blessed when I get the occasional message saying that my story touched them. Gave them hope. My tale with darkness ended on a happy note and that's the message that I want people to hear, especially during scary times like these. Life is rough, but it can be beautiful, too.

But, you know, a two-and-a-half-hour time slot for a radio broadcast can only do so much when there's so much more I want to share with people. I wanted to write a novel for it. I mean, there's several people IRL that told me I should since a lot of it makes for good drama (I mean, I hardly believe most of it myself, but eh).

Instead, I'm writing a fanfic that hopefully covers the themes and lessons/message that will have people come out of it hopeful. Or to escape from their reality's harshness by experiencing the harshness of fictional characters in a place more controlled. I love fanfic, don't get me wrong, and I love people loving it. I'm having so much fun writing it.

I'm just scared that I might not finish it. So much can happen in two years, which is how long it might take me to finish at this rate.

Anyway, now that I got all of that out of my system, back to my usual scheduled program of trying to creatively write something lol

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shinwhoohoo · 2 years

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Hii Britt! It's bana who made a comeback againn hello hello ♡

I was thinking about messaging you to discuss this but I guess it'd be better to Put it Out There since I haven't seen this discussed as much? Soo here it goes

Do you think the fans could've done something to make BaYoung stay? More so specifically on Baro since he was sufferin under some fans' hate.

Like I get the move that Jinyoung made but then that was all him and I rarely see Jinyoung hate, even back then. I just thought like, what if Baro was able to power through and be happier in B1A4 as Baro through the fans' help? I don't know where I'm going with this to be honest but, and yeah the fans couldn't have done anything more unless there was a publicly announced threat of them leaving, like a warning.

And the side on WM? It really annoys me how entertainment agencies, especially those handling idols, don't really let their artists pursue anything else other than being an idol. I know it's too late to demand this from them since BaYoung already left but I think they could've handled the situation better if they only gave full on support to them rather than keeping them in a box. I mean, look at Got7 they got their own things going on but they're still Got7? Also EXO, they all have their own stuff but when they have a comeback it's really big.

Anyways that's my rant hsjdhs just put my thoughts out there. ♡

hello lovely~! 💕

Honestly, (and it does pain me a bit to say this lol) but, no. I don't think it would have made much, if any, difference.

Admittedly, I do think it's a tougher question to answer in regards to Baro. Since a lot of the drama centered around him was partially fan related, I'm sure that did have a very negative effect on his view of staying an idol. But that being said, even the general public was, and had been for some time, ripping on him a bit too. So even if the fans hadn't made the fuss they did regarding the 'lovestagram', for example, there were still other people that viewed him negatively ever since he went on that 'What's in my Fridge' episode. And for whatever reason, this 'attitude' that people thought he had unfortunately seemed to follow him for the next few years.

Interestingly enough, it was just some months after that towards the end of 2016, the Baro was interviewed and mentioned that the 7 year jinx didn't apply to Bipo-- but his actions beginning from that time started to portray a bit of a different stance. Now, this is where it starts getting into more of my opinion, but I always felt that his personality following 2016 and the 'Fridge attitude controversy' seemed to create a more mellower Baro. Prior to this, he was known for being the more 'take charge' of the group during appearances, the mood maker, the one who played off of Sandeul the best, etc. But I think he started to tone this down considerably. And following the 'lovestagram' controversy (which I hate even calling a controversy, it was SO stupid), he seemed to become even more reclusive on social media.

Baro was originally scouted off of Cyworld to join WM, but his plan even then was to get into acting school. So his interests always were more in acting. I think WM just lucked out that he was a good rapper and lyricist, too. But that wasn't his original plan.

Here's what I could possibly have seen with Baro, best case scenario: If the fans hadn't turned on him (and let me make it clear, it wasn't like all of BANAs turned against him, it was a very small, but unfortunately vocal, few), I still think he would have left. But I think it would have been more of a 'break' or 'hiatus' than what we seemingly have gotten.

Now as far as Jinyoung, I'll keep this much shorter. I don't think anything would have made him want to stay as far as the fans go. My personal head canon is Jinyoung got a taste of how much fame and individual fans he could get when he found success starring in the 'Moonlight Drawn by Clouds' drama and being featured in the original Produce 101 that things started to shift in his mind. Could be completely off of course, but that's when I feel his shift started occurring.

As far as WM goes, yeah, they could have done better by them. I mean, they're still doing questionable things (*coughs* being acquired by another shitty company), and I've discussed in length all the crappy past things lol. But that being said, I'm sure it wasn't impossible for Bayoung to have worked something out with them. WM obviously didn't want B1A4 split up, so Bayoung I guess just reached a point where they weren't interested or happy with any of the deals WM was going to strike with them. Also you pointing out GOT7 is interesting because I think they're the perfect example that shows their issues were clearly with JYP and not each other-- whereas with Bipo... one can't really say that it was just a company issue. WM's statement released following the news of Baro and Jinyoung leaving said they'd be fine with the group promoting as five together in the future (which granted, it's possible they were just saying that for good PR), but they also didn't need to say anything. At the end of the day, who knows with WM. I've always been more on the critical side of theirs, admittedly lol.

#b1a4 #baro #jinyoung #moonlight drawn by clouds #produce 101 #wm entertainment #text #ask #reply

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julies-butterflies · 3 years

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Honestly, your writing reminds me a lot of the buffyverse. Just the perfect balance of humor and sadness and romance and heart that just feels like a vivid window into the world you've created.

God the Body...the best forty minutes of television I may never watch again. I've rewatched Willow and Tara's kiss (because I'll adore them forever), but just...the weight of it. It took me a full month to work up the nerve to watch the episode, to be ready to cry that much.

What you said about not wanting people to suffer, because of your work...It's never once felt like that for me. And I've cried a LOT while reading your work. I'll try to explain it the best I can

Grief can be so isolating, and disorienting. Your world goes topsey-turvey, supports you took for granted go flying into the abyss and suddenly it's a minefield of those glass shards. And no one's grief is identical. No two circumstances are the same. It's not possible for anyone else to know exactly how you feel, because no two hearts break alike.

Sometimes, it's because people just don't understand. Sometime's it's because they no longer want to. But some days, that feeling of aloneness can be crushing.

Then one night, I stumbled upon Let These Shadows Fall Away Like Dust. That one hit me way harder than I was ever expecting. The question of how to grieve the living, the dilemma on when forgiveness is deserved...Alex's anger, his devestation, the rawness of it all....That's my broken glass. Those are concepts I've been struggling for over a year. I'm still picking up pieces every day.

I sobbed, because it was such a relief. To see the feelings that had been scrambled up in my mind just reflected there, on my screen. The reminder I had desperately needed, that I was not alone. That even though my circumstances were different, I was not the only one trying to unravel those messy emotions.

Then again, I also read your deathfic for fun, so maybe I'm not the best judge of this. I tend to like angst. I tend to get a lot of "WHY WOULD YOU MAKE IT THAT SAD" in group chats :D

Please don't feel any pressure to respond to me quickly or anything. I never mind the wait. I'm so sorry for the rough times. Wishing that you and your family gets whatever you need to help ease your storm. Sending love and support as well.

(sorry for all the metaphors. I'm super sleepy and apparently, I resort to purple prose when tired lol)

I know exactly what you mean about Emily. I understand why people don't like her, but I just love to see her written as such a grey character. It's just so much more powerful when the love is so clearly there.

I mean, that's what a tragedy is, really. Love cut short. Grieving a future that could have been everything, if fate had not been cruel. I don't know if you know musical theater, but I like to think about the Barber and His Wife, from Sweeney Todd: the whole tragedy of that show, is that they were happy all together, and then permanently broken. How their paths keep crossing, but they never connect to heal. Never lost, but never found.

And that's the tragedy of Luke and Emily: too stubborn and too late. You find that grey area, the messiness so well, and just bring it all out so wonderfully. You do the same with Bobby/Trevor, ESPECIALLY in the horror and the wild. God, that absolutely devestated me. I'm not a big fan of horror in general, and I haven't explored the genre that much but...if all horror is like yours then DAMN, I might just have to become a fan.

This got super long (lol) so I'll wrap it up now but! THE SIC FIC QUEENS TOGETHER???? When I tell you I lost it.... all too well Bobby and what you've lost reggie in the same story are killing me. I am hooked and incredibly hyped. Loved both updates so far, and cannot wait to see where the story goes!

Oh yeah and I forget: I have to ask, do you have a fan cast of the one, the only, the incredible Keith Richards? (and that goblin is so cute!!! I really want to pet the blood thirsty monster. So badly)

Love, your totally-not-undead-pen-pal, :D

-Vampire Anon

Know musicals? Vampire Anon my beloved, I am a musical theatre bitch. Take a look at my high school graduation cap! (Anastasia is my favorite musical... something about the themes of home, love, and family, the idea of always finding a place in the world even after enduring incredible hardship, that anything is survivable with faith and love in your heart... I'm also a Romanov history bitch, and Christy Altomare is such an incredible talent and human being.) Literally, talk to me about musicals anytime!

And yeah, I definitely see your metaphor... the tragedy of The Barber and his Wife was how close they came to each other throughout the whole show, existing within reach the entire time, after being separated for so long. But it wasn't the same; it never could be. Time and trauma had changed them both into something unrecognizeable, and when they came face-to-face, they could only hurt each other. At a certain point, the ghosts of your past are meant to stay ghosts. Sure, you might want them back more than anything --- but what would it mean? What would you truly be getting back?

Luke's "back", of course, and he comes home to visit his parents multiple times... but they're not the same people he left. They're older, greyer, changed by grief... while he's just the same. A snapshot forever frozen in time, a memory crystalized in amber. You can't hold memories in your hands. You can't pull them close and refuse to let them go. Eventually, they'll slip away... and to Mitch and Emily, a memory is all their son is, now. That's what's so heartrending about the situation we see in the show, especially --- so much love still exists between all of them, but it has no place to go.

Okay, sorry, it's 3am here and I'm rambling too, haha --- mentioning musical theatre was a mistake.

I'm so glad my stories have been able to connect with you, especially 'shadows' --- that one resonated with a lot of people, more than I ever realized it would. It's not the most personal story to me... but definitely one that needed to be told, and the emotion in it... hits home for a lot of people. It means so much to me knowing that story, and Alex's internal struggle, has made people feel less alone.

I think I'm going to have a hard time looking back on that one, though. We were staying at my aunt's house for the weekend where I wrote most of it; I read a few excerpts to her, and she said she liked it. She was always interested in my writing... I kind of wish I'd gotten the chance to share more of it with her.

Like you said. Grief's a funny thing. Disorienting, relentless, and crushing.

Please just remember, though --- whatever you're dealing with, you're not alone. You don't have to cut yourself on those broken pieces... one day, you'll wake up, and realize you feel whole again. It will never feel the same, and the pain will always be there... but healing around it is what makes us stronger. You don't owe anyone your forgiveness; it's okay to grieve when you've lost something, regardless of whether death has taken them from you. Grief doesn't have to be earned, it simply has to be felt.

You'll be stronger for it, in the end. I'm sorry you've been hurting so much.

Anyways! Oh gosh! On to lighter, happier topics! Please tell me...

What are your favorite fics? (Like, my fics, obviously, which fics of mine do you just go gaga over? Please praise me or else my ego will shrivel like a worm on hot pavement.) No, okay, I'm kidding --- what are your top fics for this fandom? Like, what are the ones that really resonate with you, that you could read over and over? The JATP fandom has so many greats, but I'm always drawn back to Some Killer Queen You Are by pearlcaddy (buffyverse meets jatp!! iconic!!), Lantern's Light by thefairhero (literally the SOFTEST reggie), the sky's not empty tonight by firefall (just... devastating and beautiful in a dozen ways), and literally anything by foundfamilyvevo.

How long have you been in the JATP fandom? Who are your favorite characters? What's your favorite JATP song?

And finally, most importantly... what are your favorite musicals?

(also... since u asked... behold keith richards and tremble)

#vampire anon my beloved #also... vampire anon... you're a writer #i can tell!! i can read it in your words #youre so eloquent and put things so beautifully #do you write fic?? have you posted any for jatp??

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thirstofgames · 3 years

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kitty and the jailbird

#️⃣2️⃣

-IT'S A MATCH-

A blank chat popped open and Damien stared at it for a second. He had honestly not expected it. The girl actually swiped him right. He looked at the clock impatiently; he did not have much time left in the library. There was a loud shout from the hallway, his muscles tensing, ready to hide the phone and bolt at any second.

He regretted that last question right as he pushed send. It sounded so bitter in his head now. It was a dating app after all and she was a good looking young woman.

you there?

...

hello?

busy flirting with your other matches, huh?

And there it was all about to end, the hot topic of his whereabouts. And the swift and cruel rejection that followed. It had already happened one too many times! Could he go through his again? Was it worth it? His palms were sweaty, but he never felt so cold. If the ground could just open up and swallow him whole before she finished asking...

No, sorry

Just a little surprised we matched

you can unmatch if you want

Well, what I want is to talk with you 😊

Your profile caught my eye

what part?

Your profile pic at first.

Most guys can't pull off the broken, deep and scowling thing

But... looks good on you.

you don't look so bad yourself-

but then I read your description...

and I have to know something

shoot 🙄

It was a simple Yes/No question, but it took Kate way to long to answer. She bit her lip, thinking hard on the possibilities. It was such an unfair question though. She was not going to leave, but was not going to pursue anything with him until she knew what he was in for and how long he was going to be locked up. She'd wasted enough years waiting up on others...

I'm just a little confused 🤔

Are you really in jail?

you gonna leave if I say yes?

It really depends...

A bittersweet smile spread on his lips. What was he expecting from a girl like her? She probably had a nice job, a supporting family and tons of friends and... an actual future. Why would she even consider wasting her time with him? The little time he had left... Better to just pull off the band aid!

She felt to bad! She hadn't meant to disregard his feelings, but wasn't it fair to let her know what she was getting into? She didn't even know what he was expecting from the conversation they were having... She was curious, but she didn’t want to lead him on.

okay, let's just say...

the orange pants and barbed wire are real

OMG

I have so mane questions 😱

here we go...

What did you do?

Wait, where do you even hide your phone?

STOP!

enough with the interrogation, alright?

I'm just curious...

sure, but i'm more than just a prisoner

a little respect goes a long way

Kate’s heart sank. He was hot, but the prison was a serious issue... She supposed people were not lining up to get to know him. He seemed pretty well rounded and mannered, but he was very defensive about his crime. Did that mean it was something really bad? But he was on a dating app... so maybe he was getting out soon?

You're right!

I'm so sorry 😓

Let's change the subject

Why don't you tell me what you're looking for

hmmm

What?

i'm thinking...

nobody's really asked me that before

Seriously?

most people stop talking to me when they find out i'm locked up

i don't really blame them. i'm rough around the edges.

She didn't say anything for a while and Damien started wondering if he should just close the damn phone and leave. He should also probably take a break from Lovelink after this... it clearly wasn't doing him any good. Dark thoughts swarmed his mind and he had to close his eyes and head his head back against the bookshelf to get rid of the harrowing feeling. Like he was falling in an endless pit...

The screen showed him typing and deleting several responses. Kate pursed her lips, impatient. Had she said anything wrong? She’d never spoken to someone who’d been locked up, she was still unsure what could trigger painful memories, or just remind him that he was... not free. But he said he just wanted to chat and his profile mentioned 'deep conversations'...

Okay, I'm not running away, for now

but...

But I can't really make up my mind

If I don't know anything about you

So...

alright

honestly I'm just looking to talk to someone from the outside

it can get pretty boring in here, just waiting around the clock

Let's be friends then 😊

I'll be your window to the outside world

If that's alright with you...?

Damien sighed on the other end. Beggars can’t be choosers. It was a step in the right direction though. Maybe he was not going to find the love of his life at the very fucking end of said life. He was not living in some fairytale! He was still going to die, alone and forgotten.

But maybe... just a little less alone at the very end of his road. One friend meant more than none and maybe, just maybe... he could tell her his side of the story. Eventually. She seemed patient and understanding enough. Let at least one person out there know he did not murder his own father.

sure

that's more than most

Of course a pretty thing like her got a lot on attention... She was only chatting up with him because the others were offline-

but it must have been pretty bad to be such a long sentence

you still can't tell me what the crime was?

look, i've been making my own rules my whole life

you better ask what crimes I DIDN'T do

wow...

i'm no bragging or anything, just letting you know where I'm at

anyways, I'm more interested in what you're all about

what are you doing on an app like this?

Honestly...

I was about to uninstall it right before we matched 😅

you already found the one?

or no luck at all?

Well, I went on a few nice dates...

i see

Suddenly his experience on the app seemed less awful. Maybe it was not the right place. Or perhaps it was just the place for a misfit like him, here with all the weirdoes and con artists.

And then they ditched me for their exes

Just my luck 😂

Oh and I swear to god if I see one more vampire 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄

vampires?

Yeees

You wouldn't believe some of the things I saw...

OMG, one dude was actually dresses up as a centaur

I...

don't even want to ask

There's also the 'prince' scam going around

Dudes claiming to be the heirs of some

Made up countries and asking you for money

It wasn't quite a rejection, but it still hurt a little. She already mentioned twice she was only interested in him as friends. She didn't need to spell it out every few minutes! But she was the only one...

Met some nice people too ☺️

Actually became good friends with some

Which is nice since I just moved here

were did you come from?

Pallay 💜

you're a long way from home

I know 😢

I suppose it was getting kinda lonely

My friends and family come visit when they can

But that's not a lot...

what brought you here?

Got a really good job opportunity

But I didn't quite realize how far away I'd be

So yeah, to answer your question from before...

I'm kinda just chatting with new people

Made more friends than anything else lol

Hope that's aright with you 🤗

A smile crept on his lips. An actual, genuine smile. How long had it been since he had any reason to? God, it felt good to talk to someone! Someone who didn't know him, who didn't shout 'walking corpse' after him, didn't judge him. He almost felt like his old self. Almost.

i'm cool with that

Great!

Looking forward to getting to know you, Damien 😄

so let's get to it

tell me about yourself

hobbies, favorite food, anything

my hobbies are always changing 🤔

I start something new every month or so

Oh, and I started volunteering at a vet lately

🐱🐶💕

With a friend I made on this app

it suits you

Hmmmmm how would you know?

We've only just met

just a hunch

I could secretly be evil 😈

you couldn't hurt a fly

besides, I've seen evil and believe me

you're not it

I'm guessing you're not going to elaborate on that

Are you?

see, you know me so well already

Smartass 😝

At lest until she finds out.

And I love food 🤤

Who doesn't? lol

But picking a favorite is like... impossible

I do have one hell of a sweet tooth 🍫🍬🍦

I'm soooo jealous

I miss making my own meals

That's right! You probably just have a cafeteria.

I'm so sorry 😓

it's cool

i'm glad we have something in common

Is there any food you miss?

Wait... was there even steak in that picture? Kate felt her ears burning, the fluffy pajamas studently itching at her skin.

just makin my own in general, being in charge in the kitchen

Damien scrolled quickly through his phone, the memories leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. He nearly didn’t send the photo. It felt like so long ago, a different time...a different person. But it felt so good to remember! To be reminded of the more happier moments when he had all his life ahead of him! And showing her a piece of his past may make her curious enough to stick around for a while longer.

He hit Send.

-Tap to download photo-

Looks... delicious

you like steak?

Oh yeah, the food 😳

Wish I could have a bite of that hahaha

So not so shy and innocent as she claimed. Good to know. Even if it didn’t lead anywhere, which he had to be realistic about - he was on death row after all - it was still fun. The most fun he’d had in a long while. It felt...nice.

HA!

i wish you could too 😏

The door of the library swung open hitting the opposite wall. The guard in charge could be heard arguing with someone. At least four voices. He had to move fast.

I'm really hungry now 😅

good

Kate stared at the screen, the little green light besides his profile picture going grey. She scrolled through the conversation as if to make sure she hadn’t just imagined it. She tapped the picture he’d sent, a small smile creeping on her lips. He looked so... normal. Well, more like smoking hot, but she expected some kind of dump, or some greasy repair shop, not Greek sculpture level abs. The boy should come with a warning! She was a sucker for bad boys, but had she gotten so bad that she was now considering a fucking convict? What if he was a murderer or something??

shit!

???

someone's coming

gotta hide my phone

talk soon

Be careful! 🙏🏻

Her ice cream, forgotten on the coffee table, had turned to soup.

What had she gotten herself into?

#lovelink #damien jones #kitty and the jailbird #austin russo #counterpart

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codewordpumpkin · 3 years

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!!!!!!!!!! I AM VERY HAPPY AND EXCITED THAT YOU ARE SO HAPPY AND SO EXCITED

But first off, I am perfectly happy being Rabbit. (Is it because I'm obsessed with bunnies? Certainly not.) I'm a little honoured that I've got a whole, like, pseudonym now. :P

It does, of course, feel a little absurd at this point to still be on anon when you have two separate names for me (Pretty Woman Anon, Rabbit [Anon]) and I am now a frequenter of your askbox, but it is Against Protocol for a living soul to know both my main Tumblr account and my AO3 so anonymous I shall remain. (I do apologise to your followers for having to see me freak out about one thing or another for paragraphs at a time though since you have to answer these publicly LOL.)

Anyway, you said you're okay with long asks so--

Why do we have the, like, exact same taste in Lizzington fics skdgjskgs. I mean, my enjoying Liz Whump was kind of inevitable given my track record of...a possibly unhealthy inclination to inflict pain on literally any character I love. But hey! If you like reading that stuff, perfect, 'cause whump and H/C are my specialties. :)

You will certainly be seeing more Lizzington fics from me. I usually keep my head down in fandom and rarely put forth content (because the social aspect of it all gives me *anxiety*), and this hesitancy has been especially true with TBL despite my love for the show and the many ideas I have had for it because working with that canon is quite the daunting task. There is...a lot to keep track of. After that finale though, I was kinda like nope I don't care (...as much) anymore hsdjfhsdjfh. So I've started actually letting myself write/post stuff! And I am so, so glad you enjoyed my first foray. I was very nervous about posting it; I think I Googled Aram four separate times because it was of utmost importance that I spell his surname correctly. (Which I did the first time. :|)

I regret to inform you, however, that the Pretty Woman AU will not have a lot of whump. The half AU to come could have more because, I mean,,, guns. But yeah, there's not a whole lot of room with the full AU since I'm really sticking to the movie's plot with that one. There is, of course, that one Stuckey scene (no spoilers but if you're familiar with the movie, you know what I'm talking about :]), which I 100% plan on absolutely milking for all of its whumpy goodness and Ruthlessly Protective Raymond Reddington potential, but beyond that... I'm sorry. :(

Also! You are so valid about your 1). I read fanfic on my phone's private browser so I can't bookmark pages on the actual device, but yeah... Efficient. Very nice.

HHHHH WOW OKAY I know you told me not to apologise for long asks but this is a hECkING LEtTER, I am so sorry. My inability to write anything short is really showing.

1) It's nice to see you again in my inbox, Rabbit!! (also glad that you're happy with being Rabbit!!)

2) So sorry it took me a while to respond. Since this message was on the longer side (which, again, I not only don't mind, but welcome!) I wanted to reply when I had the time to reply to everything

3) I totally understand your want/need for a certain degree of anonymity! This is the internet, after all lolll

4) I'm excited to have found another fellow shipper with whom I share these... proclivities

I love reading Liz whump. I love writing Liz whump.

As long as she doesn't die - and as long as events do not permanently damage her - .......... I will have fun

5) oh god, I deal with so much anxiety in RL, I'm glad to have this outlet where I'm just a pumpkin who virtually rambles about my love for two fictional characters

6) I personally don't find canon daunting because I'm perfectly happy to ignore about 75% of it lmao

7) Hey, I get you! Aram deserves to have his name spelled correctly!!

8) No worries at all, Rabbit!! As much as I love whump, I also love fluffy fics!! (any fics, really, as long as it's lizzington, and no one DIES)

9) Your "inability to write anything short" just makes me more excited to read your fics!! The more content there is, the happier I am!! (no pressure hehe)

10) I feel like we are virtual pen-pals. Please update me again when you can/before I leave Tumblr indefinitely (which I still don't have an exact date for because I'm waiting to see if the anon whose prompt I couldn't fulfill saw my post to them! PLEASE SEE THIS, ANON!!) :D

Much love to you, Rabbit! I hope your fic(s) is progressing nicely!

#Rabbit anon #pretty woman anon #lizzington #lizzington fanfic

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wooyoungqueen · 3 years

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Part 4

Ch. 38

Title: A deal with the devil

Warnings: non

Summury: the birth of Jung Hanuel, son of Julia and Wooyoung

Tagging: @rosegaming117 @spacepiratehongjoong @leaderienugie @immortal-imagination @snailosaur @tragictraveller @truthhurts-atiny98 @shibermilkio @pastelpinkelfie

I was holding wooyoung hand while I was delivering our child, the. The doctor and Maria kept on telling me to push hard and I followed their advice. When they told me that they saw the head I pushed hard, and yelled no matter how much pain it was I wanted to hold my child in my arms until I heard him crying and when they gave it to me to hold him after wooyoung cut the cord I couldn't help but cry myself.

"Push Julia, please love. You got this." "I can't anymore." "Yes you can, and you will love." I groaned and Maria said to me. "I see the head Sis, push a little more." "Ahhhh. Come on, come on." "You did it love, is a baby boy. Our little light is a boy. Can I cut the cord please." The doctor nodded and then they wrapped him into a blue blanket and I held him and named him since wooyoung loved the name. "Welcome to the world Jung Haneul. Our little son Wooyoung." "Welcome home little champ. Oh, you're so adorable. I'm glad we made this child with love." "I'm thankful that he's here safe and sound with his family" I smiled and wooyoung kissed me. Then I went to bed. "Love, will you take care of our son while I sleep a bit." "Of course love, like my life, depends on it." I went to bed and I was dreaming about how happy my parents were happy.

I'm so happy for you daughter. You're finally a mother."

"Yeah, I hope Hanuel will meet his grandparents."

"Tell him stories about us. That's the only way, and when he gets older tell him the reason why we aren't here"

I smiled at them and hugged them then they told me about my brother.

"Your older brother went to our gravestone. Maria is a perfect match for him. She's pretty and sweet."

"Yeah, we actually care for each other like sisters. And I couldn't be happier. My brother works hard and deserves happiness. "

"Even you, daughter. I'm glad you're with Jung Wooyoung. Even though he teases a lot, but doesn't mean it."

"True, he's like that. But that is why I love him. He doesn't pretend that he's not."

They nodded at me and my eyes started to open and I hugged them.on last time and smiled when I saw everyone. "Did we wake you sis?" "No, I was about to wake up actually. His name is Jung Hanuel." "Ooh what a pretty name, I am that fun uncle." "While I was that skater uncle. Can't wait for him to grow up for him to be a skater." I laughed then I saw Wooyoung asleep with our son. "Someone needs to take a picture because that's cute." "I brought food for everyone" we all smiled at mingi and thanked him, when we all ate, wooyoung woke up and ate his panda express while holding Hanuel until I noticed a beauty mark under his left eye like his father. "Awe he has a beauty mark like wooyoung." "Of course, because I am handsome. The one and only wooyoung." "Stop right there Casanova." We all laughed when Hanuel started to cry. "Shh. Is okay my little prince. I'm sorry that mama was loud shh." I smiled when he went back to sleep. "He will be like his uncle San. Always want to sleep lol. But I am getting tired myself." "We have to go too. We over welcomed our stay. We also let Hongjoong stay for one night in our house sis." "Why? Is your choice brother not mine besides I have a family to think of not him. He's not a problem anymore." "That's my Queen, ah I love it when you act tough." "It's because you're a simple whip for her." Maria laughed at Wooyoung and smiled. "Damn, cold blooded. Haha lol well I gotta go clock out take care sis." "You too, be safe okay. I need everyone to be okay, wooyoung stay ``''of course." "SIMP!!" Yeosang ran out to Maria and then wooyoung shook his head. When everyone left I put Hanuel back in his crib and went to bed with Wooyoung. "Good night love." "Good night my queen" all I could do was to smile in my sleep and be grateful for the family that we both made with each other.

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