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10underoot2 · 30 days

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I have a headcanon of BaekHong being this power couple even as they raise their daughter.

They're very hands on. The nanny, Mrs.Jang, is always available but she feels like it's the easiest gig she ever got. She's seen other rich families just birthing the child and giving it to the nanny to look after. They only feed or play with it when convenient but not Mr. Baek and Mrs.Baek. Soobin is the light of their existance. They both wouldn't be at peace until they saw her once back from work. Mrs.Baek would only go for a few hours, most of the time taking Soobin and the nanny with her. She never would have believed someone like Ms.Hong would find a way to conduct her meetings but still cradle her inconsolable child in her office. She had never imagined Mr. Baek would play with her in his office plain for all to see. She also hadn't imagined either of the parents' amusement when the 6 month old puked on designer bags and clothes. She had seen children resented and glared at for that. But not this rich couple. They loved their child like their life depended on it. Even when tired, overworked, frustrated they made time for their daughter always. Mrs.Jang often felt like the last resort. Moments when even she could see that the strain of work and life could no longer render them available to care for their child she took over for them. But even then these moments were scarce. She had heard months into her employment that the couple was actually against hiring her but had only agreed due to incessant requests of the child's maternal grandmother.

So when she was informed that the couple was throwing a big networking party for the Queens department store, she was sure this was her moment to shine. Because what rich couple feeds, changes, plays or cares about their child in the presence of 400+ highly influential people. Even if they both wanted to they wouldn't find the time.

But come day of the event, Haein was all dolled up looking magnificent beside Mr. Baek as they both laughed and dressed up their 6 month old baby. During the party, Soobin went from welcoming guests in her Armani clad suit father's arms. To discussing complex legal matters and networking with him still viewing the world from the high vantage point her father's height afforded her. Smiles representative of only pure joy, adored Hyunwoo and Hae-in's face each time they talked, interacted or received a smile from Baby Soobin.

At long last Soobin urged her father to put her to sleep in his arms where he kept her for half an hour before parting with her achingly in Mrs.Jang's care. When she woke up hours later fussing, he was there before the nanny could try to appease her. She had seen him excuse himself as soon as politely possible as Soobin continued to cry. He stood there, fully dressed trying to appease her a while before he went to his wife who was deep in conversation trying to recruit brands for her store. Mrs. Jang knew it was an important event for Mrs. Baek, so she expects not to see her all night near Soobin. From what she had heard (but never seen) about the couple's rocky relationship she thought this would be it. She would now see them fight as he dared approach her during such important talks.

But for Haein, seeing her husband walk towards her with their adorable daughter in his hands was a sight in and of itself. Her eyes were already on them. Hyunwoo politely greets everyone and leans in close to her to say: 'I've tried everything I could. I think she needs you.' She pauses her conversation on the spot. Says her apologies and moves inside to care for her daughter. Hyunwoo takes up the conversation and sells the store for her until she comes back with a happy Soobin in her arms for the crowd to coo at. Among the many photos the photographer had taken of the night their favourite remains of Soobin absolutely overjoyed to see her father as her mother mirrors both of their joy at being able to witness the moment.

Little do the happy family know there's gossip - and a lot of it at that. There's gossip on the mighty lawyer Hyunwoo being a wuss who's not in control of the house. On Hyunwoo not doing his part as a father 'So what if he has a pretty face, he should be slaving away taking care of his daughter why give her to the mother when things get difficult?' On Haein for being duped by his charms. On Haein for holding the baby wrong. For growing soft, for being dumb enough to ignore big shot CEOs because a human with a brain not even fully developed was crying.

No one sees the couple take respite in caring for their adorable daughter. Even when Soobin cries the shrillest, it makes Hyun woo just pick up another toy and Haein make the funniest face she can think of to appease her. They know the pain of the loss of a child. They cannot fathom not doing everything in their power to love this gift of theirs. No matter what she does she has both of them wrapped around her fingers. Because they're the luckiest to have her and call themselves her parents. It feels like a miracle each day and they'd be damned if they let a stupid department store take that away from them. So what if they lost a contract or two, the extra wons wouldn't fill up their candy jar. After all, all the money they had couldn't bring back their baby either.

#I have absolute faith in them leading queens effectively and raising Soobin #So yes the nurse would have a role but in my head it's very muted as compared to other families #I expect Haein and Hyunwoo to love their child so much #I can't say more than queens but I'm sure Hae-in unlocked some new level of love #also I'm not high on the name Soobin #my initial draft had no mention of the name and was smalled but then I decided to elaborate #i wamted her to be named something sweet that meant new hope/faity or second chance #anyways #queen of tears #baek hyun woo #hong hae in #kdrama #kim soo hyun #kim ji won #baek hyunwoo #hong haein #baekhong #baby baekhong #Mrs Jang calls them Mr.and Mrs. Baek because Hyunwoo now matters just as much in that househols #and well she doesn't know their rich vs poor history cause she's new #also idk Ms.Hong now sounded weird cause she is married #headcanon #fanfic

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theblue-hours · 8 days

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Ox1=LOVESONG | choi yeonjun

till the end of the world,

all of nothing, i want all of you.

or when yeonjun is a stupid fool who ran away from the one he needed most.

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[tomorrow x together - 0x1=LOVESONG]

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[tomorrow x together - deja vu]

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sorry for any mistakes as i worked on this at like 4/5 in the morning lol

this is hella indulgent but reader can be inserted!

i love yeonjun so might as well bring out my delulus some how PFT!

especially seeing them in concert in la on 05/22/24 <3

enjoy. also posted on my ao3 @ eternallys x

warnings - none, other than it is a bit angst but has a happy ending!

from this bottomless pit,

you’re the on1y shining gold

now i can’t stop thinking about you

when i’m sinking alone..

another morning.

another afternoon.

another evening.

another night.

another week.

he stared at the screen. nothing.

he stared up at the ceiling. nothing but a white wall that held many secrets within them and the unspoken emotions embedded in the drywall; a place of promise.

silence fell on deaf ears. he chuckled dryly, running a hand through his black hair as his jaw clenched.

“yeonjun.”

his eyes looked up at the voice that called him. beomgyu. beomgyu sat next to yeonjun, tossing his arm around the older male’s shoulders in comfort and all yeonjun could do was stare at him - no emotion on his face.

“nothing?” beomgyu asked, concern laced in his voice and body language. he was always so worried about his older brother and friend as yeonjun was so deep into his feelings and sorrows that he forgotten about his personal life that didn't evolve her - his social life, his friends, his family, his career.

“i love you, why can’t you see that?”

the words played in his mind over and over. the way she said that, heartbroken with tears in her eyes that was caused about him and he had nobody to blame other than himself. after that day, he beat himself for running away, turning his back on the only person that was there for him in his time of need that wasn’t soobin, beomgyu, taehyun, and hueningkai. he left her waiting at the finish line. why was he so cowardly? why did he run away from her when all she was doing was speaking her truth to yeonjun?

yeonjun looked over at beomgyu with a soft non-humored laugh, “nothing. i don’t know what else to do. i’ve sent numerous texts and she won't even look at them let alone respond to them. i fucked up big time. i’m not sure why i ran away the way i did, was it the fear or my own insecurities?”

i'm full of problems, love sick

no way to go

i was fine to die, i’m a loser in this game

the only (one) rule of this world..

“that's something you have to figure out yourself.” if only it was that easy to yeonjun.

the duo sat there in silence for a few moments before yeonjun decided that he would just go to where he knew she would be. he chuckled softly to himself and got up from the spot off the couch beside of beomgyu was too busy on his phone yet he looked up at his older friend curiously. “where are you going?” he asked, putting his phone down beside him as he watched yeonjun put on his jacket and his shoes.

yeonjun looked at beomgyu and smiled softly. it was the first time he smiled in so long and it made beomgyu smiled back at him to see his friend have a smile on his face. “to make things right.” he said with such confidence and determination that it had beomgyu look at him curiously as yeonjun stepped out of the dorm.

yeonjun sped walked. he had so much pep and determination in his walk towards the front door of the outside world that people around him looked after him in wonder and all he could do was keep his head up high. he hoped that his intuition wasnt failing him as he thought about two possible locations where she would be. he hoped that what he would say in person wouldn't make things worse between the both of them. he knew it was risky but anything for her; he would go through hell and back if it meant for her to smile at him fondly again - to look at yeonjun with love and not hurt and disappointed. yeonjun hoped that he wouldn't freeze in fear and instead he hoped to embrace her with all that he had in him to show that she was all he ever wanted and needed; he just hoped that she didn't hate him. though, he wouldn't blame her if she did as he messed up big time. how stupid.

yeonjun ran a hand through his messy hair as the crisp spring wind blew in his hair, the sides of his head shaved down in an undercut, causing him to shiver just a bit yet he wasn't sure it was because of the nerves of anxiety or the weather. he pulled his phone out of his pocket checking the time with a soft huff and furrowed brows. he wasn't sure what he was looking for as he knew she wouldn't text him back after numerous attempts to contacting her.

yeonjun continued his determined journey down the busy sidewalks and past people with furrowed brows as his eyes kept focused on a particular area; the river nearby. he ran across the street and behind a building where the river flowed down the dam in a soft stream. he stepped foot on the sidewalk and looked around at the oblivious bystanders on the sand, some eating ramen and some taking in the nice scenery before them. he let out a soft huff once more and walked to his right to a more secluded area of the river where he hoped to see her.

the male damn near ran up the stairs to a quiet area that had an overview of the river and the city. he panted softly as he made it to the top. he looked around once more, eyes passing all the faces that he could see in his line of vision. he walked past some of the trees that covered the beaming sun, scooping over the scene before him before his feet paused in his tracks.

there she was.

long curly hair laid on her shoulders as she leaned against the railing watching people on the beach with earbuds in her ears that was adored in silver earrings, his jacket wrapped tightly around her top half as the wind seemed to pick up, above her simple black top, legs covered by a pair of blue jeans and feet covered by black converse. even in casual wear, it was like the world around yeonjun paused and it was nothing but her; he thought she was the most beautiful woman he ever had the pleasure to lay his eyes on and that said a lot as he is around lots of women on a daily basis.

yeonjun’s voice seemed to get stuck in his voice as he stood there speechless, watching her dip her head down to rest on her arms as she continued to look at the world below her. he subconsciously began to walk towards her slowly. god, why was this so hard for him right now?

the hole in my soul begins to mend

frigid air starts to thaw, in this world of zero

i found warmth that's you

take all of me

girl, i need you..

he wanted to so desperately reach out quickly to embrace her frame in his arms but he wanted to take his time; he shouldn't rush. but fuck was it hard when all he wanted to do was kiss the life out of her and never let her slip out of his hold ever again - he just needed to stop being so foolish - as beomgyu would say.

as he got closer to her, his voice wavered in his throat yet he knew she wouldn't be able to hear him as she had music pretty much blasting in her ears as she was deep into her own little world. his palms was sweaty and he laughed non humoredly to nobody in particular at how nervous he was. he was choi yeonjun, he was barely nervous talking to women yet when it came to her.. it was like she put some kind of lovesick spell on him that he didn't know what to do with himself and that worried him. what the fuck was he gonna say?

it seemed like the universe was against him because as he was getting closer, she felt a presence near her, making her turn her head into yeonjun’s direction. there goes that feeling again when time seems to stop. she looked at him with wide eyes as she leaned off the railing, taking out of her earbuds and into the case, shoving it into her pocket and as she did so, their eyes never once left each other’s.

“yeonjun,” her voice barely over a whisper called out to yeonjun. he studied her features closely as he walked closer, with more confidence in his walk until he stood in front of her. he towered over her. it was cute. her breath hitched into her throat as she looked away from his intense gaze, looking back at the water. “what are you doing here?” she asked softly, leaning back over the railing to distract herself from getting too emotional as she felt her emotions getting the best of her; him being next to her was getting her overwhelmed.

what could he possibly say to her? right now. why now?

yeonjun finally tore his gaze from her and looked everywhere else but her, trying to hold back what he wanted to do. he ran his hand through his hair once more and sighed softly. now was now or never and he wasn't gonna be foolish anymore and leave her hanging like he did a few weeks prior - no, he was better than that. he was raised better than that. his mother and aunt would be so disappointed in him.

“i came to make things right between us. i shouldn't have ran away from you when all you were doing was telling me about how you felt about me,” yeonjun began, leaning against the rail beside her yet kept some kind of distance between them. he could smell her perfume. she smelled of vanilla and raspberry; a scent all too familiar to him as he's been near her for a long time to know that was her favorite scent ever since he recommended it to her so long ago. “i should’ve just talked to you about how i was feeling, but instead i was stupid.” he said, staring off into the distance yet kept his eye onto her from his peripheral vision.

she stood quiet for a minute to take in yeonjun’s words. she let a small smile come to her face yet she wasn't sure if it was from happiness or sadness. she looked down at her fingers before she let out a soft hum and sighed softly, turning her head to look over at yeonjun. he looked handsome with his bare face out and his undercut showing as the wind blew through his hair. yeonjun felt her gaze on him as he turned to meet her soft brown eyes. he wasn't sure what emotion was there yet he still felt the urge to reach over to cup her cheek, yet decided against it.

“i would be lying to you if i said that you didn't hurt me when you did. i have thought about that moment since then and i would question myself, trying to seek some kind of answer from soobin, as to what i did so wrong? why you couldn't bring yourself to talk to me about what you were feeling but i had to hear it from him that you were just scared,” she said softly, pausing as she felt tears welling into her eyes as she chuckled softly, looking down at her feet before looking away to stare off into the distance and all he could do was listen. it was the least yeonjun could do after leaving her behind like that. she sighed louder as she blinked her eyes rapidly to push her tears back into her eyes.

“is it really fear, i thought maybe you were shocked? i don't know. scared of what? your feelings towards me? you left me like that and all i could do was stare at you as you walked away from me yeonjun. not even an explanation, not even telling me what was wrong with you. if you didn't feel the same way about me..” she cried softly. she shook her head as she laughed in disbelief, looking down at their feet. yeonjun’s heart broke and if the world could hear, they would cry with her. “if you didnt feel the same about me, you could have said so instead of being a fucking asshole and walking away from me.” she said angrily, her tears sliding down her cheeks as she shoved at yeonjun’s shoulder. it wasn’t rough but it was enough for him to stumble back a little and catch himself from falling as he held the railing in his hands.

yeonjun’s gaze never left her face even as she cried. he didn't want to push any boundary she had, he so desperately wanted to touch her. to hold her but first, he knew that she needed a space to rant about how she felt. he sighed softly and carefully yet gently grabbed her hand as she softly cried into her other hand, sniffling. he looked into her teary eyes and kissed the back of her soft hand, pulling her closer to his body. “honey, my lilac,” he started, kissing her hand a few times. “listen to me carefully okay? it is true that i ran away because i was scared but that's because i didn’t wanna scare you off. i felt as though i was not good enough for you and i should've just been honest from the start and i ran like a stupid fool and i'm sorry, i love you too you know?” he said genuinely, giving her a soft smile as he used his free hand to wipe away the tears that fell from her pretty doll eyes that he adored so much.

the girl known as lilac - his lilac - looked up at yeonjun in shock. she sniffed softly and looked away from his gaze with a soft pout on her lips. yeonjun looked at her confused yet continued to keep her body close. he waited on her terms. lilac looked back at him, voice coming out soft and quiet as she stepped forward, taking her hand away from his to wrap around his broad shoulders, looking up at him with doe eyes, blinking away stray tears that desperately clinged to her long eyelashes. yeonjun’s hands carefully wrapped around her lower back, his heart pounding in his chest as he tried to steady his breathing.

“you’re not just saying that because that's what i wanna hear you say right? you’re not just playing some sick joke on me yeonjun? do you actually mean it?” she asked, her voice almost coming out desperate. and god, yeonjun was taking everything in him to not just kiss the breath out of her but he knew he had to say what he needed to say first. he shouldn't rush into this, he shouldn't have done a lot of things but he was trying to reasonable in this moment. he liked to taking his time but damn, she was making it hard. the way she looked up at him had his stomach doing backflips, his palms rubbing against the fabric of the jacket that belonged to him, that was keeping her warm. how can one be so pretty? an angel indeed.

yeonjun chuckled softly and smiled down at his lilac. he used one of his hands to push back a curl away from her eyes as she continued to stare up at him almost intensely. she was waiting and he knew she was. now or never yeonjun. “i’m not kidding. i’m being serious. i wouldn’t have came all this way to chase after you to tell you that i fucking love you. you’re my one and only.” he said, shyly smiling down at her, carefully pulling her body flushed against his own to feel her body warmth.

lilac smiled and giggled up at yeonjun. she felt on cloud nine that he felt the same way. no more worrying late nights with tears streaming down her face because she missed yeonjun. no more feeling that she wasn’t good enough for him - for his love. his love that she desperately always wanted and dreamed about. the years that she spent next to him as his best friend, wanting to be more than just a shoulder to cry on. no more thinking how it's amazing how somebody like yeonjun can break her heart and still love him with all the little pieces he caused.

her hands tangled themselves into his hair. she looked into his eyes once more and he knew that look; he had seen it before. a long time ago in a heated moment of desire. yeonjun smiled and leaned down to press a gentle kiss to her forehead before pressing another one to her nose and finally her lips.

his heart was beating out of his chest and he was sure that his lilac could feel it through their clothes as he pressed his body more into hers, turning them so that her back rested against the railing beside them. she pulled away from his face to lay her head against his chest, looking out into the open as her fingers played with the back of his head, his arms immediately wrapping around her smaller frame, a stupid smile on his face.

“i love you stupid.”

“i love you too.”

he wasn't a loser anymore. he knew what he wanted. and he was gonna learn how to love properly.

all or nothing, i give all of you

i know i love you..

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