I'm killing off like 3-4 characters in my oc narrative. Not saying who tho teehee

whatever happens, please don’t break

We need to talk about the worst thing about making AUs....

The fact that then when you inevitably think about crossovers you don't want the crossover with the canon you want it with your specific AU. Your brain worms, your circus, but THEN WHAT?

Oh, yeah, to understand this crossover you need to go read this entirely different fic/series? Girl help 😭 you can't do that

im gonna write my thoughts about this in the tags

ONE: ok guys here’s an arc about mob, in his growth as a person, being confronted with an ideology he’s unfamiliar with, and he has to learn from it but also understand why it’s unhealthy and bad to properly grow from it and choose kindness in the end, albeit in a more nuanced way than before, and this will make mob more able to confront later problems in the season that can’t be solved with mere kindness and require a deep understanding of loneliness and solitude, something he hasn’t had much room to speak on until now. To express mob being shown this villain’s ideology we have a sequence where we see how mogami views the world and by extension how he sees mob, by putting mob in the kind of sad fucked up world he thinks exists, but mob will overcome it with the knowledge that in the real world he has people he cares about and that even the people who make the world bad sometimes can change and nobody is a static evil and kindness and courage when you’re going through hardship goes a long way. despite the darkness this is ultimately a very uplifting experience for him and a show that life is always more than its darkest moments, and also how picking yourself up instead of wallowing in your own suffering and trauma is hard but a very courageous act and what makes mob stronger than mogami

mp100 fans with tunnel vision: Oh so mob was tortured for six months and is sad? He’s literally so sad and traumatized and nobody is talking about this?

Girls be like "it's my comfort episode" but what it really is is their favourite character having a horrific time

i need to fucking scramble engineer grrrrr i need to throw him around the room by his arms and chew him like a dog toy i need- i NEED to fukhing like grrgaggaaarrraggahararagafa i need to rip his fingers off and ggghhhaaragagahararagha I NEED TO CHEW THIS MAN I NEED TO CUT OFF HIS ARMS AND LEGS AND REDUCE HIM TO NUGGET FORM AND GIVE HIM A LITTLE LOVING KITH ON THE FOREHEAD AGGARAGAGAGHHRREGHEGGGGRRRRRRGHGGAGAAGRRRRHHAAARAGAHA I NEED TO DEMOLISH HIMMMMMMM

Deacon willing to help people but doesn't recognize people so he doesn't remember what he did for who. So he just agrees and is like cool don't mention it then they mention it and he's like uhhhhhh.

However, that's other humans. He can identify the deities much easier because they have a unique glow. Like can actively tell Ymber "oh Lady Fulj just entered the city" and Ymber is like how the heck did you sense her that far away when I can't sense her that far away. It actually takes a while for Ymber to realize Deacon really doesn't know any of his coworkers and who he's talking to.

finally got around finishing jjk season 1 so i drew gojo before starting season 2 :)

I really liked this idea and want to see more, but I also have a few questions.

Since Clover got the appearance of his friends, why doesn’t he have anything from Dalv?

Clover somehow interacted with the UT characters, except Flyu and Alphys. I mean, how did Toriel react to him? Or whether he became friends with other UT characters.

I really like your drawing style, but when I see your monsters it seems to me that they are very bulky, especially for the Martlet, which personally always seemed very miniature to me. (P.S. This is a minus and not a remark, I’m just wondering why you decided to draw them exactly)

1) in a meta sense, adding dalv’s elements just made clover’s design look really cluttered, like more than it already was ahdjsf. in the first draft they had a bat nose and one of their wings was a bat wing. but i think they would have some of dalv’s lightning attacks!

2) maybe ill do more ut characters at some point! but no ones really asked for more aside from alphys (which i might touch on more) and i dont think. theyre super important in the space of this au. theyre hanging out on the sidelines and are there sometimes :]

3) just for fun :] i like when people make ut monsters look more “creature” and “animal” than human, so i played around with the designs a lot! martlet in particular is the biggest change from canon bc i wasn’t expecting to draw her as much as i have; if i did i definitely wouldn’t have changed her so much

Ok regarding the fankid thing… i realized i wasn’t actually sure how to introduce her so. uhm. Have a proto-reference sheet i made when i was screwing around with her design!

I swear ill make some actual drawings of her later <\\3 (AND MAYYBEE POSSIBLYY make a post dedicated to her character? Hmm)

Anyways here’s my beautiful daughter Panacea Cutburn :) she’s irritating and nobody likes her.

My friend gave me micron pens yesterday! :D:D <3<3

My braincells are once again running race-track style around a Flying Bark Studio production

One thing I think about a lot is Elias and his mum. Like, the only reason he changed his mind and decided to detonate the bomb is bc his mum wouldn’t come out and talk to him. She didn’t even want to *see* him (from Elias’ pov at least). Despite the fact that earlier in the series he was adamant that he didn’t want to have anything to do with her (although I have wondered whether that’s an idea that the Morley’s planted in his head, or maybe straight up told him to say), she’s still his mum and he still needs her. Then later in the series in the last few seconds before he ceases to exist when they’re hugging, the idea that that might be the only time in the series when he actually genuinely knows he is loved, and how the whole loop is him chasing after that feeling of being loved yet it takes the loop breaking for him to get it. Stuff like that.

while it’s important that rj understood how prolonged exposure to trauma would mess with you psychologically on various axes - mental, emotional, spiritual, physical - it’s also very significant that he put in the work to question and explore how people could go about healing and recovering from their experiences with a realistic attitude.

sometimes they don’t heal - they don’t understand that they need healing, dismiss their instincts, or manage to bury all the complicated emotions they’re feeling. it’s seen when mat suffers from a severe case of survivor’s guilt whenever he survives a battle, and this is observed more obviously when he escapes from ebou dar without managing to save all the windfinders; he also doesn’t have the vocabulary to express why the abuse he suffers at tylin’s hands feels wrong, and his cultural background and his tendency to lie to himself prevents him from examining why this is the case. rand is simply incapable of dealing with the sheer physical, mental and emotional stress he’s subjected to without a support system to back him up - support that he’s specifically unwilling to ask for because he doesn’t want to be put in a position of vulnerability just like mat and has a very unique relationship with the level of autonomy he’s afforded and the abuse he may be subjected to as a result of his madness - and resorts to unhealthy coping mechanisms and internalises traits that also serve as an allegory for ideologies that toxic masculinity directly feeds off of; he reacts to aes sedai very badly although he eventually unlearns that instinct; he’s extremely suicidal, and lews therin works as an indirect metaphor for depression. egwene feels the need to be in a position of power whenever approaching a certain relationship (be it romantic, platonic or otherwise) after her time as a damane, and is often uncomfortable with setting down her guard unless she trusts the people she’s working with; rj has a very complicated track with his depiction of corporal punishment but he also touches on how it enables people in power to take advantage of it to abuse the people under their control through egwene’s arc. rand specifically laments how the sort of stigma and alienation that male channelers face will never really go away because of the fear ingrained into popular belief, and that’s also a very accurate depiction of how certain mental illnesses are received by society.

but rj puts in the extra work to explore how people who have access to support systems and are on the receiving end of patience and compassion are able to get on the path to recovery. he has nynaeve & co deal with the problem of deprogramming egeanin, the sul’dam and damane who’re thoroughly brainwashed by the seanchan. juilin is able to help amathera recover by being very sympathetic to her situation and protecting her from difficult situations that could trigger her ptsd. rj specifically spends a significant amount of time letting joline, teslyn and edesina slowly encourage the seanchan channelers to entertain the idea of their ability not being a curse and to even train to control it at the white tower. the maidens are able to get a read on rand’s discomfort with the dark and small spaces post dumai’s wells and are kind enough to always leave a light on in the dark for him; they also push rand to take his meals and care for himself. the asha’man are explicitly recognised as a group which needs to unlearn some of the toxic ideas encoded in the founding principles that rand introduced. rand himself is recognised to be in dire need of help again in the latter half of the series, although we never got to see the culmination of that arc, unfortunately* - but I have a theory that his arc as a hero is tied very closely to his ability to recover from the various traumas he’s subjected to.

wheel of time takes a very realistic stance on mental health and ptsd. more significantly, it recognises that trauma might not necessarily bring about a positive transformation in a person. and that’s okay.

*cadsuane’s arrival is the only one I can’t get a clear read on, and feels so obviously doomed to disaster from the very beginning given how her personality clashes with rand’s and with her introduction with the intent of controlling rand and never respecting his opinions or autonomy - but given how she’s criticised by the narrative, I’m inclined to believe that min’s reading might have potentially been fulfilled in a bittersweet way as her readings often are. if rand learned how to embrace his humanity again, I can’t imagine that she would have ever had a part to play in it that involved compassion or understanding.

I love drawing my traumautized DnD characters <3