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dudefrommywesterns · 9 months

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i think I'm drunk ? or at the very least buzzed as fuck

#i don't like this #this is awful #and long island ice teas taste very bad #i can't imagine how i would be because i only had one #but i feel like it's hard to move #and difficult to type #and i feel very tired #more than my default tired #alcohol mention #i thought this was supposed to be good?#i just feel fucking awful #0/10 would not recommend #typewriter dings

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one-winged-dreams · 1 year

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augh i think the stress of unexpectedly having to stay in an unfamiliar place overnight + ear infection is extending this psychotic episode

#i just feel fucking awful #and i can't ground myself #vent

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susurrationofthewind · 1 year

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Ok yeah thank god nobody else from hr is in today

#i just feel fucking awful #and I have the creeping fear this pain isnmy new baseline level of existence

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quirkle2 · 11 months

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it's nice to feel childlike wonder again

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jiang fengmian #yu ziyuan #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #Almost axed this comic but then I remembered I cut the previous argument between them and I guess they can have this.#and by 'this' I mean their toxic arranged marriage verbal battles.#As I previously mentioned in a comic I have chosen to see them as mlm and wlw in an unfulfilled relationship.#The yearning is for companionship. I think they do care for each other it's just something deeply complicated. And bitter.#I truly feel for JC and WWX in this scene because while it's implied YZY really pushes the limit...it's apparent this isn't new.#And it's so petty! Anyone who lived through a parent pitting you against a sibling can tell you that this stuff messed them up #regardless of what side you were on (the golden one or the fuck up).#It doesn't matter what is said. It matters that it was said at all. That you can't shake the concept once it was spoken.#The Jiang household is so much more miserable the deeper you examine what's going on and how they cope with it.#Knowing that a parent does not like you is just awful. I wish everyone who's been through it all the best. You didn't deserve that.#Next update is back to the jokes! Remember jokes? It jingled merrily...How I miss the sound of those bells...

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bpdohwhatajoy · 5 days

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“You see, that’s what abuse does to you. You know? Made me this sticking plaster for all of life’s weirdos. This open wound for them to sniff at.”

#cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #baby reindeer #when I say this gutted me #there’s people who feel this too?!?!?!?#I literally thought it was just me #like why are so many abusive fucking weird awful people drawn to me #it haunts me

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forcedhesitation · 7 months

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astarion origin playthrough worth it just for all the extra moments where he does the "sad wet cat" face

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #thoughts about media #astarion #*kisses his forehead* my awful little bastard man... i love you and your big sad watery eyes.#IT'S SO FUCKING QUIET THOUGH IF YOU YOURSELF ARE PLAYING HIM GOOD LORD #I'M SO USE TO HIM COMPLAINING TO MY TAV!!!!#OR BANTERING WITH HIM OR KARLACH OR WYLL!!!#I MISS HIS THEATRICS!!!!!!!#not that it's ENTIRELY quiet. until i found karlach i was travelling with shadowheart lae'zel and gale.#and let me tell you. gale and lae'zel do NOT shut the fuck up if they are together.#they were literally having an entire tinder date while we were trecking through the woods to go get karlach.#i NEVER knew they talk so much because while i've travelled with them individually in past saves...#...i've NEVER had them in my party at the same time!#gale is actually pretty nice to lae'zel! he asks a lot of questions but doesn't condescend her as he does others sometimes.#that's probably because he's afraid of her though. I would be too were I nothing more than a wizard with 8 strength.#I do like how you can look at pretty much any two companions and get a well written and generally enjoyable dynamic!#It feels like they considered that a lot of people would want to maybe pair off the companions they didn't romance with each other!#and wanted it to be easy for really any pairing to work... if a person just paid attention to their shared interactions.

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tomwambsgans · 18 days

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greg said actually i wanna take YOU out and I'M gonna pay for it

#also it's so cute how he says 'visited' instead of just 'been to' like you can tell he learned how to talk from tv #tomgreg #greg hirsch #which side are you on?#fr why is this part not talked about much beyond the Thor Loves Poptarts-ification of greg loving cpk #tom says my gf is out. so let's go out to dinner. the moment greg understands that it's a serious proposal he's SO excited #and it's clearly NOT for any notion of fine dining. he doesn't ask tom 'where are we going'#no. he wants to go out with TOM!! he has a restaurant in mind that's a treat for him and he's excited to share that with tom #i think he is feeling a tiny bit snubbed at the end by the way tom refuses to let greg have the upper hand #like tom asked him out and greg literally asked him out right back. and rather than be excited tom is like no I'M doing the asking out!! lo #but yknow ultimately tom has his own thing that he already really wanted to share with greg #he IS delighted that greg has unrefined tastes bc it means he gets to treat him. he gets to be the reason for greg's awe #also he just thinks it's cute imo #and greg took to it as much as one can when they've already been more or less forcefed (much like the ortolan he eats lol)#anyway. tom's need to feel in control is his detriment bc greg wanted to treat him to some cajun chicken linguine and then fuck him silly #mine

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snackugaki · 4 months

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surprise my other hobbies are window shopping and fashion

#something something having hobbies across fields genres media and subjects can only enrich and influence your artmaking #because Mikey strikes me as a maximalist #Donnie gives me vintage and statement pieces feelings #Leo... minimalist with a sprinkling of avant silhouettes and a dash of retro #Raph... just wears what April suggests with the barest idea of what he likes #wherein my iteration April is deep in the goth an punk scene so she gotta drag this turtle man through her closet #legoclacking my usual linework with fashion illustration was a fkkn trip #god there's a look from Balmain RTW AW 2016 i wanna put my Leo in.....#fuck it I will who's gonna stop me?#balmain?#i'm so curious what the kids will tag this as #i say tagging everything but what this is #snack iteration?#my iteration?#i know the red blue glasses is gonna get one of these kids tagging it as rise #others gonna clock their li'l dumpling heads and tag as 03 #what they don't know is my iteration is mainly based off Archie run comics and Next Mutation #mehehehehehehehehe #...hiiiiiiiii kiiiiiiiiiing #OuO #accessories was tough because I like it costume and avant #so it was a miracle finding a “normal” bracelet #and a bigger miracle it happened to feature the water trigram #mwah mwah beautiful coincidence #weekend negates demon hours stop snitching

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nibbelraz · 1 year

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They're dating

#csm #chainsaw man #angel devil #aki hayakawa #akiangel #they're so fucking funny to me #i feel like angels the type to just invite himself to alis place and make himself at home while hes out doing the god awful work #angel gotta work too but is he gonna???#no #not when he can just crash at akis and eat all the sweets #my man aki cant catch a fucking break tho #anyways this brought me outta artblock hopefully more akiangel soon #and yoshiden since i love them both #my art #nibbelraz

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cloudysarts · 3 months

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this show would be good if literally everything about it was different

#read these tags please(unless ur an HH fan in which case please ignore them) >>> I DO NOT LIKE THIS SHOW #i hate viv///ziepop so fucking much its actually unreal. every time i think about her i seethe #been hatewatching it ('legally') nd its awful. like i mean i knew it would be going into it but goddamn. so much worse than i expected #you may be like 'whyd you draw this then'. i wanted to make a finished piece with my redesigns #for funsies me and my boyf have been rewriting/redesigning the whole show . thats been our fun little craft #i feel similar about this that i do about fnaf and miraculous ladybug even tho this is objectively worse in every way #theres this eternal feeling of like. man. if the writers were competent then this concept would be interesting #but theyre not so. here we are #anyway. im gona try not to put hate in the tags lol #but i like how this turned out too much NOT to post it #anyways mutuals please dont unfollow me for this i promise im normal JDSFHJKDFHJDFKHJK #Hazbin Hotel Redesigns #Hazbin Hotel Critical #Angel Dust #Husk #Huskerdust #I guess.#genuinely a little scared to post this ones. im scared ill lose mutuals over this AND/OR fans will harass me for those tags JHKSDFHJKJK #im posting it and then immediately going to sleep. might delete later if even 1 thing goes wrong #EDIT RL QUICK i wanna add: i dont care if you like the show <33 good for you!!! i respect it!! i liked it when i was 14. i just dont now. <

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slurpeesoverromance · 5 months

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[me with 1 hp] mari save me… mari.. save me mari..

#man I like this character hope nothing bad happens..#<- me only being in the prologue but I’m trying to ignore this god awful gut wrenching feeling of impending doom #love her but what the fuck was she thinking with the fucking turkey(?chicken??) she found in the garbage 😭#omori #mari omori #I just know everybody laughing at the first tag too😭#ok fine guys I got a bit further into the game and my intuition was right

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arohuacheng · 6 months

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imagining the story from pei ming's perspective is rlly funny i think. this god from all that time ago ascends again (you were there for the first two times) and immediately waltzes into a situation that fucks something up for your descendant (putting both of your reputations on the line, messing up how hard your descendant worked to become a god and how hard you worked to ensure that he would have that chance) and then refuses to let you smooth the situation out and on TOP of that your friend's little sister (who hates you and who you are trying to look out for by request of your friend) is on your case about it too. so you've gotta work all that out and then like. you chill for a little bit (still kind of upset about your descendant) until your friend undergoes a heavenly calamity. and then in the space of like A Day the god from earlier shows up again with a fucking ghost king, your friend dies, the little sister you're supposed to be looking out for disappears, and everything just kinda goes to shit. so you're like. grieving. trying to process everything. until your OTHER close friend goes off the fucking rails with the spirit of that guy she murdered, and then you get called out to the spooky ghost mountain where you're confronted with the girl whose death YOU were essentially responsible for and have never really come to terms with, and then like. you just kind of hang out with these gay people until everything resolves itself. fight some ghosts. fight the heavenly emperor. get your friend to stop being evil for a little while so she can fix the filing systems. and then you just have to keep being the god of love i guess

#characters who are so related and yet so unrelated to the story my beloveds #is he really necessary to the story. no! he's so essential to me though #nobody talks about the tragedy of the three tumors... i know it's cause they're awful but c'mon guys...#these three people who only have each other... pei ming losing both of them one after another in their own way...#i think he's probably pretty chill about ling wen being evil. i don't remember how he responds but i don't think he's that worried.#but still. that's two for two on the 'people i care about getting fucked up somehow' list #and then the kid that you're supposed to be emergency older brother to fucking DISAPPEARS.#so you can't even follow through on your promise to your dead friend...#shaking my computer. do you all understand how i feel #pei ming posting tonight. so many thoughts but so little expressed in the pei ming posting #too sleempy... will return to thoughts later #i am going to become the pei ming poster of all time. just watch me #talking #tgcf #pei ming #tian guan ci fu

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stuckinapril · 4 months

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There will not be a single moment next week in which I’m not running around doing something

#full time studying / volunteering at the refugee center / volunteering at two clinics #literally ab to have a meeting ab shadowing a doctor who’s researching ftd dementia in like 50 minutes #organic chemistry research 5 days a week bc ur bitch is trying to get published #hitting the gym 6 days a week. I’ll probably have to move it to mornings soon #meal prep #trying to snag a lowkey part time job #trying to read 30 minutes before bed #somehow have 2 fit a social life into this #I’m excited bc I finally feel like my time budgeting abilities are being put to the test BUT holy fuck .#studying will be my no 1 priority always. literally catch me doing anki cards in any pocket of free time I have #but I better live up to the challenge of juggling everything else too #ik I got this. and these are all things im choosing to do. not things I have to do #and I love being busy so it’ll be so fun #just had to be in awe for a second bc I used to admire girls who’re like this. and I am officially about to be one of them #p

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callisteios · 1 year

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would you like to be a god? take this uquiz to find out what sort of god you'd be

#yeah okay let's address it i already made a quiz with this exact premise #and sequels are gross and uncreative #have you considered that i am feeling kind of gross and uncreative at the moment #also this is more like a part of the original #as many of these results come from the first round i literally just did not have the will to assign any more personalities at the time #anyway #have fun #tag yourself #etc #there ARE some really good ones here i think #new rooms might be my fav #quiz #uquiz #callisteios #personality quiz #i am NOT trying to be funny but wow i did not expect googling 'wound' to be so graphic. the things i do for you people #by the way ABBIE #i spent like an hour making that damn awful photoshop of the fucking saw bathroom i hate that you made that a thing #i don't think you understand how much basic photo editing knowledge i lack #how do get the images transparaent #how move #layers?#awful #im sleepy therea re like 10 more to add in the morning

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puppyeared · 27 days

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Why have sex when u can watch blackhead removal videos

#u even get bad sex. which is when you want to throttle the neck of whoever’s doing said blackhead removal #someone in the comments section said all of us are watching this thinkijg move over and let me do it. and honestly. yeah #it’s hard to find good videos that either 1) dont cut out just before the satisfying part or 2) don’t take fucking FOREVER to do it #in the most cursed awful way possible #im very passionate about this. unfortunately I can’t just blurt this out like a water cooler conversation #but it’s fucking satisfyingggggg #I’m not a big fan of the squeezing but like if u use the tweezers JUST RIGHT and twirl it around and then PULL IT OUT. chills #if orgasms were real that’s what it would feel like #I feel like laios dunmeshi just talking about this #yapping

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