i am absolutely losing my fucking mind over astarion from baldurs gate 3... fuck off, WHO and WHY did he need to be so sexy? HUH, answers now.

Some oc art!! For a Good Ending au with Canary and Cardinal :]

small word dump beneath cut because I love them

OKAY so. Their whole deal (usually (in canon timeline)) is that Cardinal (red one) doesn’t make it. But what if he did? What if nothing bad happened ever and they lived happily ever after the end. And then a friend (Medi, @eyesofrhodochrosite) had the idea of, “what if they adopted a kid?”

So his name is Oriole (initial design by Medi as well), say hiiii. I love devastating characters and then playing around with Happy aus for them :] They can have a break from the Horrors. as a treat

Part of me wants to ramble about these guys for a whole essay length post but the other part of me can’t string together properly coherent thoughts about these two(three) besides rotating them in my mind so. enjoy!!

Finally decided to indulge in the Siuan/Moiraine meta I've been wanting to write for ages now, musing on the differences in psychology ensuing from their significantly different arcs within the book and show and why Siuan's actions at season 2's apex are entirely in psychological sync with her show portrayal, even if they swerve wildly from the books.

Let's start with some Siuan back-story context. In the books, Tear was undeniably an unfriendly city for those with the One Power. But that translated, in practical terms, to Aes Sedai keeping their stays there brief, and girls who could touch The Source being quickly bustled off to the Tower. There were no Aes Sedai advisers, as in other kingdoms etc., but neither was there the virulent hostility of the show.

Siuan left Tear quickly in the books—the first day she was discovered to have the Power, but only because a sister was traveling through and didn't wish to delay returning to The Tower for such pesky things as sentimental goodbyes. Was that harsh? Absolutely. But the world of the books is exceedingly harsh in some respects, giving girls little to no choice about becoming Sisters, should they be discovered harboring abilities. (Much of Nynaeve's back-story involved hiding her powers precisely because she didn't fancy being ripped from The Two Rivers.)

Siuan faces a much different harshness in the show. The show doesn't do a great job explaining this, but The Dragon's Fang, which is etched onto Siuan's door before her house is unceremoniously torched, is a sign of immense contempt for Dark Friends. Within show Tear, a wary mistrust of Aes Sedai has curdled into something much more dangerous. All use of The Power is suspect, because if men's half was tainted, there's nothing to say women won't go suddenly mad, too.

It's worth remembering as well here that book Siuan was roughly fifteen when she went to The Tower. Now, I'm totally blind, and audio description doesn't give me an age for tiny show-Siuan, but if she's anywhere near puberty, I'll eat my metaphorical hat. And instead of being shepherded to The Tower, she had to flee for her life.

In her family's only means of support, I might ad. Book Siuan was by no means well-to-do, but she was firmly in the middling ranks of the working poor. Show Siuan's family are on the fucking destitution brink y'all. And she took her father's livelihood. Dying destitute ain’t fuckin pretty.

Siuan is not a stupid kid, and she clearly adores the shit out of her papa. The first thing that little girl did the millisecond she got any privileges? Wrote to her papa.

And more than likely, Berden never wrote back. It wouldn't take her long to figure out what'd happened. Moiraine is at great pains to tell Alana Jenny was not "her" support dog, and we laugh it off as oh, look at Moiraine being all adorably prim. Which in one sense, it totally is. But I'd almost guarantee you there's a deeper layer there: it wasn't "hers"; it was "theirs" because once Siuan found out her beloved papa was dead, they both needed something to cuddle.

This may seem like somewhat of a digression, but I'm maundering on because in the books yes, Dark Friends are evil. But they're evil because they caused a terrible cataclysm many thousands of years ago that killed lots of people, and they wanna do it again. There's no personal skin in the game for our beloved ladies, except they get thrust into the job through a convergence of some very complicated circumstances—I'd recommend any show-only watchers read "New Spring" because while I love almost all the changes the show has made ferociously, the way Siuan and Moiraine undertake the search is vastly more plausible as presented by Jordan there.

For Siuan in the show, by contrast, Dark Friend has _very personal ramifications. Dark Friends caused the corrosive mistrust that got her papa _killed! And Moiraine, better than _anyone, knows how that broke her.

And she _knows full well she could be deposed simply for having a relationship with Moiraine. The sensible thing to keep all the awful people from committing terrible crimes that will reverberate down the centuries to impact a little girl just as she was impacted would be to keep both their noses clean. And yet, she loves Moiraine so much that she'll take that risk to maintain not only an alliance about Rand, but a romantic relationship which could, realistically, be discovered much more easily.

And now, Moiraine, the woman who parroted back her beloved father's words of farewell about how Siuan was as clever as a pike and strong as the tides seemingly willfully lied; seemingly became a _Dark _Friend. Even her admonition that Lanfear is "too strong" must bring up so many awful questions: just how long have they been working together for her to know that? Because from Siuan's perspective, what it looks like is Lanfear coming in, guns blazing, to save her accomplice, Moiraine.

When Siuan says that there are rules and they have to abide by them, it's reflecting profoundly deep fears—not only about what Rand could do, but the kind of hatred toward those with The Power it could foster. For twenty years, she's put those fears aside. And now it appears that her going against Tower Law has lost her Moiraine to the Forsaken, and made terrible outcomes nigh on inevitable. And people are really confused about why she looks beaten?

Hell, from her perspective, forget Lanfear's entrance. The very fact Moiraine seemingly lied to her and is now talking about love must seem such a cruel mockery: laughing at Siuan's weakness; just as, perhaps, she was laughing at her with that parting comment in The Tower: an Amyrlin Seat still so swayed by what her papa told her so many years ago. (Yeah, we know it was as close as she could come to an I love you, but how the hell is Siuan supposed to know that, given everything?) This was not willful emotional abuse on someone she knew to be acting in good faith, but a reaction to the person she loved enough to risk the fucking Amyrlin Seat for becoming a monster!

Do I wish they'd picked _any other direction for their relationship? Yes, yes I damn well do. There was plenty to play with for angst factor by having the coup go down as it does in the books: Moiraine not being there to save her when all Siuan wanted was more time together, for one thing. Moiraine needlessly obfuscating in front of Siuan and  the other Sisters in S1, when Leandrin already knew! about the Two Rivers folk. Thinking she was being canny, when all she did was get herself pointlessly exiled so she couldn't protect Siuan? Quite enough of an angst sandwich, thanks ever so, without this new development. But! if they were going to include this, Siuan reacted precisely as I would expect her to, given the context I've outlined above, not in some madly ooc fashion worthy of the tags descending into emotional abuse discourse.

i was so fucking not ready for Nimona emotionally..

rmphmrpmhpe i think it's sleepy time for me <33 night night guys i love you! sleep well (ESPECIALLY YOU RYO SLEEP DAMNIT)

Zzzzzzz mimimimimi

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to the person who bookmarked timeloop fic with this caption if ur out there i am kissing you passionately and consensually right on the mouth

hello! i hope you're doing great, just wanted to say hi and that i can't believe that you actually took the time to rb all the interactions on your fic, that's so sweet 🤧 also i know i kinda said it on my rb but i absolutely adored don't sweat it, i actually do want to turn back time and read it for the first time again, that's how good it was, I'll keep looking forward to your writing! and sorry if my english it's kinda bad cause it's not my first language hehe, anyways, take careee , i hope to be back on your asks more often to say hi💗💗

who's bad at remembering to check her inbox?

j is bad at forgetting to check her inbox.

THIS IS ME RN. sitting on my bedroom floor biting my fist w love hearts floating around my head

i genuinely was (see: i still am) so overwhelmed w all the love and all the feedback it received and the fact that it's still getting notes/rbs/tags almost a month later i-/,.fsgfkds I SOUND LIKE A SCRATCHED RECORD SAYIN THIS OVER AND OVER AND OVER BUT I'M JUST SO GRATEFUL AND WHOLEHEARTEDLY PLEASED THAT U GUYS ALL LIKED IT ENOUGH TO INTERACT AT ALL😭 this ask has made my day btw i'm sorry it took me so long to get my ass in gear and respond to it, you are such a lovely lovely lovely person and i will be sending u the best vibes and energy for the rest of forever, friend<3

Some old doodles, for probably the nth time xD

Hope yall don't mind avbvznvzbsjs

*edit: expect a lot of these, I'll be shitpostin like it's nobody's business 👽

God, I 💕Love 💕seeing everyone's art and interpretations of the eldritch twins!!! I love how unique they all are!!!!

Plus!!! because their forms can change and beyond our mere mortal comprehension technically all designs could be considered canon!! At least, they're canon in my heart 💖

Sorry, I'm getting so super excited rn. I feel like a small dog wagging it's tail so hard its entire tiny body starts to shake lol

Yanban I'm so glad ur writing is getting a bunch of love because it totally deserves it!! ^ ^) 💕💖💕💖💕

Honestly though?

It completely floors me how much y'all love the Eldritch twins- It started as a haha funni conversation between me and a pal from pathfinder who were discussing dumb AU ideas and my campaign, and I made a vague post to it as I worked out the idea and then boom we're here somehow-

And it fills me with such indescribable joy with how much everyone loves them and the fact people started drawing them- Everyone's interpretations are really really really cool and I love seeing them and I love sharing them! I just have no words for how incredibly joyful I get at any and all art or writings people make about the two Eldritch Horrors who love you very very very very much. <3

Plus!!! because their forms can change and beyond our mere mortal comprehension technically all designs could be considered canon!! At least, they're canon in my heart 💖

Yup! They are YOUR eldritch darlings and they want to look not just like the pretty subway bosses of your dreams but the pretty monsters of your dreams; I like to think that even when they struggled to make a physical form at first, they were, at least, in some, esoteric/subconscious way, aware of things their Darling liked- And while they have a general "guideline" for what they look like (Emmet has feathers and fluff and is light and Ingo has scales and some fluff and is darkness, stuff like that) their appearances became something you would appreciate. (The longer they spend in physical reality, the easier it becomes for them to manipulate their shape, within reason. They aren't shapeshifters by trade but they can do it if they need to- And I'm getting off topic oh no)

Sorry, I'm getting so super excited rn. I feel like a small dog wagging it's tail so hard its entire tiny body starts to shake lol

Listen. When I see fanart or fanworks I could spend literal days just marveling at it before I can sit myself down long enough to post it/reblog/ or get out the words of how much I adore it- Words just aren't enough, I want to buy you all your favorite beverages and give you fluffy blankets and a platonic smooch on the forehead-

I appreciate every single one of you, whether you've just lurked on my posts or you've sent me asks or you comment in tags in a reblog- All of you are super cool and wonderful and I wish you all nothing but the best ever!

POLYCULES!!!! RAHHHH/pos

Holy fuck I knew going into Tears of the Kingdom mostly blind was a good idea

i hit 100 followers!!!!! hello friends!!!

and hi again :D

I was a little bored... so I decided to draw your ocs because they're cute ♥️

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Hi!!

bro wut this is the first time someone made a gift art FOR ME?? ;w; I’m not good with words but….t-thank you!!!! 🫣🥰 I appreciate this sm!!!

^ me rn lol

bestie you’re really sweet bless you ! <3

being sick is so so so evil but at least i can nap all day <3