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Happy 1 year, I will be posting a fully rendered image later that is going to take 90% of you out. (Lovingly.)
#hux noise#i wanna post a preview so bad#but i think that slapping this bad boy down in all its glory#will do like 999999 dmg so like i gotta go that route guys#its worth it trust me#whatever you think it is? you're so wrong#i have to sleep but tomorrow its over
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Ray: I just like teasing you, I like your stupid reaction.
~ all the smiles, all the lil headshakes ~
First Kanaphan as Sand, Only Friends (2023)
#first kanaphan#its 2:00 am and i dont care i cant sleep its all over tomorrow ahhh#only friends the series#only friends#ofts#thank GOD I have a free weekend finally#only friends sand#babyboy babyboying#firstkhao#sandray#cgedits#mygifs#fromthedepthsandbeyond#here you go girlie
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ayyy im back with another Unedited human au snippet <3 it's almost entirely dialogue oopsies <3
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Eddie slows in putting his coat on - Barnaby isn’t sticking around to chat with fellow staff like usual. He’s in a rush, scrambling to grab his jacket and hurrying from behind the bar. He dashes through the door, looking like a man on a mission.
The door Mr. Frankly had just vanished through.
Could he be…? No, Barnaby seems like a good man. But he had seemed a little pushy with Mr. Frankly, from what Eddie could tell.
It couldn’t hurt to make sure.
Eddie frowns deeply as he goes outside, wincing slightly at the first burst of cold air after hours spent in a warm building. He’s just in time to see Barnaby jog up behind Frankly and close his car door before he can get in. Barnaby immediately leans against the door with his arms crossed, pinning it shut and blocking Frankly from the driver’s seat.
Eddie’s stomach plummets. Before he knows it, he’s speed-walking across the parking lot towards them, a fire burning in his chest and his hands curled into fists.
Frankly says something loud enough that Eddie can almost hear, his voice echoing in the empty lot. As Eddie watches, Barnaby pokes Frankly’s chest, making him stagger back a step.
“Hey!” Eddie barks.
Both of them jump and whip around - Barnaby’s eyebrows shoot into his hair, while Frankly’s lowers into a flat line.
“Eddie?” Barnaby says.
At the same time, Frankly says, “Mr. Dear?”
The two of them look at each other in surprise. Eddie pays the exchange no mind. He stops by Frankly, trying to slightly angle himself in front of him without making it too obvious.
“Is everything all right here?” he asks, looking Barnaby up and down. He really hopes this won’t come to blows - Eddie can throw a punch well enough, but Barnaby is an imposing figure. Eddie already knows he’d likely lose, but as long as he can buy Frankly a couple extra seconds…
“No, actually, everything is not fine,” Frankly says in a ticked-off - and strangely scolding - tone.
Barnaby, not breaking eye-contact with Frankly, counters with, “Everything’s peachy, Ed.”
“You sure about that?” Eddie asks, trying to keep his tone amicable.
“Scout’s honor.”
“Please,” Frankly scoffs, “you were never a boy scout. And that’s not the point - I am trying to get home!”
“You are trying to die in the most avoidable way possible.”
Eddie shoots Frankly a concerned look. “You’re what?”
“I am perfectly sober,” Frankly says.
Barnaby raises an unimpressed eyebrow. “Your face is flushed.”
“It is not!”
Eddie winces. “It, uh, it is. A little.”
“It’s none of your business,” Frankly seethes.
“Listen,” Barnaby sighs. He leans heavier against the car and rubs the back of his neck. “I don’t wanna be the one 'ta call Julie and deliver the news that her beloved Frankie went and got himself killed at the taco bell intersection.”
Frankly makes a high and derisive noise. “Excuse you, I have class. I’d die outside of Howdy’s.”
“Please, he’d turn your memorial into part of the gift shop. I can already see the signs - ‘dead friend sale, five percent off!’”
“I’m worth at least thirty percent.”
Eddie clears his throat and gestures between the two of them. “You two… know each other?”
“Unfortunately,” Frankly mutters.
Barnaby grins. “Aw, you’re just saying that. It’s okay - I know ya love me, Frankie. You don’t have to say it.”
“I do not.”
“I have evidence that proves otherwise.”
Frankly rolls his eyes. “You’re unbearable.”
“And yet…”
Eddie heaves a sigh - of relief or exhaustion, he’s not sure - and drags a hand over his face. “Alright. Good, I - good to know.”
“What, did’ja think I was attacking him?” After a moment of prolonged, awkward silence, Barnaby’s teasing smile drops. “Oh. You did.”
“Barnaby? Attack me?” Frankly snorts. “Give him some credit - he’s smarter than he looks.”
“Yeah, I’d have better chances taking on a pack’a hyenas!” Barnaby lets out a hearty cackle. “At least then we’d all get a laugh out of it!”
“So I misjudged the situation pretty terribly,” Eddie says, inching to the side to give Frankly his personal space back. “My apologies.”
“Don’t sweat it, Ed. I know Frank may look like a bundle of sticks, but he’s petrified wood all the way through! Pure stone, you know.” Barnaby grins and leans towards Eddie. He whispers conspiratorially, “‘Cept when it comes to holdin’ his liquor. Then he’s a total lightweight.”
“Barnaby,” Frankly hisses.
“Practically paper!”
“That’s enough, thank you!” Frankly makes an attempt at shoving Barnaby away from the car door, but Barnaby widens his stance. It’s like watching someone try to move a tree.
“See, this is how I know he shouldn’t be driving,” Barnaby says conversationally to Eddie. “If he were sober, I’d be the one drunk - punch-drunk, that is.”
Eddie isn’t sure whether or not he should laugh - was that a joke? Barnaby seems fond of them, but… surely Frankly isn’t a violent person. Frankly lets out a growl of frustration and clumsily tries to bodyslam Barnaby. Eddie inches back a step.
“Alright Frankie, you had your fun.” Barnaby scruffs Frankly like a misbehaving cat and holds him at arm's length. He holds out a hand. “C’mon. Keys.”
“Never.”
“Have it your way. I’ll go ahead and call Poppy, tell her that you’ve forgotten the many dangers of-”
“Oh, fine,” Frankly spits. He yanks his keys out of his pocket and slaps them into Barnaby’s waiting hand.
Barnaby flicks the keys as Frankly stalks to the passenger side door and yanks it open. “Choose a place for dinner, we’ll swing by and pick it up - my treat.”
“Obviously your treat,” Frankly grumbles. “As if I’d-”
The slam of his door cuts off whatever he says next, though Eddie can see him still talking in the car. His phone screen illuminates his irritated expression as he - presumably - looks up places for takeout.
“Well, I’m glad you were here to stop him from doin’ somethin’ everyone would regret,” Eddie says. “Mr. Frankly-”
“Mr. Frankly?” Barnaby snorts. “You’re not one of his students, are ya?”
“I’m just bein’ polite. He set the tone by referrin’ to me by Mr. Dear, so I’m tryin’ to respect that line in the sand.”
Barnaby shakes his head, grinning. “Just call him Frank. He puts up a big show of bein' a grouch, but he’s really a big softie. Though don’t - don’t try to pick a fight with him. Ever. You’ll lose.”
“Wasn’t plannin' on it.” Eddie makes a mental note to keep calling him Mr. Frankly, just to be on the safe side. It’s not like they’re friends, anyway. More like… acquaintances. Occasional Run-Into-Each-Other strangers.
#shorter than usual - only a little over 1k - but yk the motivation provides what it provides#in my docs this is titled 'aw... babe's first protective attempt'#or i guess we could call it#eddie's past parasocial relationships come back to haunt him more than they already have#also barnaby definitely teased frank about eddie in whatever place they're picking up food from#lmaoooo no wait#barnaby: so about eddie-#frank: so about howdy.#barnaby: .....#frank: .....#barnaby: hey i think that's our order#wh modern human au#snippets from the bog#in my mind frank is actually kinda pleased#annoyed of course. he doesnt need anyone to protect him#but i bet a part of him enjoyed having the strong mailman attempt to ~come to his rescue~#i imagine that the next time they see each other frank invites him to lunch or somethin#'just' to 'thank' eddie for trying his best#yep alright yawn yawn yawn its almost 3 i should sleep#tomorrow is one of two final days to complete packing! its almost Time!#tonight was decent... got some tasty tacos... listened to somethin neat... did a bit of writing... yeah <3
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top tier service you want it they got it
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku 3#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza series#yakuza 3#yakuza 7#yakuza like a dragon#yoshitaka mine#jo sawashiro#snap sketches#and by 'service' its murder#my exams are over :) as we know from me driving. TWO HOURS yesterday...#i finished one (1) comm today and then immediately got another#im treating myself idc if maid day over#just a silly lil scribbly..#ok im sleeping because as i said i Have more to do tomorrow WEH
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hhhhghghghgghggg guess who has a massive presentation tomorrow that they’re stressing out overrrrrr
#it’s been like months of work leading up to this and it’s happening and i’m terrifiedddd#i have this huge artwork that i have to get all set up in time before we start and a script that i should’ve started memorizing sooner lol#and of course when i’m stressed my brain decides i am neither hungry nor tired at all until said stressor is over but GIRL.#ITS TOMORROW. like you have to sleep and eat i don’t know what to tell u can u please just cooperate u silly little brain#anyway no i am not procrastinating on said project idk what u mean
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CLASS TRAITOR? WHAT FUCKING EVER!!
cleaner version :3
Art inspired by this one cover of the new mexico song:
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#south park#gregstophe#sp christophe#ze mole#sp gregory#gregory of yardale#i couldnt stop rendering this art over and over again pls stare at it i worked verys hard#but it was so worth it i love this song sosos much#rebstella week can wait tomorrow morningf im very tired now and id like to be tucked to sleep and be read a bedtime story#i better wake up with nice little tags tomorro mornign so plsplspsl#abd my right earphone just broke today so pls have mercy on my sad little soul (i cant listen to this song properly anymoer)#i love this song so much till the point it made me make a gregstophe headcanon with it (its also in my gregstophe playlist which is cool)#Youtube
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2009 vs 2024
first pinof vs dan's birthday charity stream
#phanedit#danedit#philedit#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#danhowelledit#danielhowelledit#phillesteredit#phil lester#phan#scentofyesterday#*#something something about how fast the night changes#for me its been over 12 years of watching them what the fuck#just waiting on the livestream to update these to actual gifs#but now i have to sleep for work tomorrow lmao
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semester is almost over. im dying
#my oc#rune#mori#i have a project due tomorrow and its finally scared me back into drawing#even though i should be working on this project but im SO SO SO TIRED#i went on an outing like 2 weeks ago the same week that i walked everywhere cause i was desperately#trying to get my taxes done but thats a different story but the point is i was walking a lot and i went on an outing where i stood all day#and then i had to go to class the very next day thinking i was fine but i wasnt.#and that same day after i walked across the city because i absolutely had to pick a thing up. i think the same week i met up with my mom#a couple of times but i was walking the whole way there. my point is that for 2 weeks straight i have been rigorously walking everywhere#and on my feet all the time with little breaks in between and my feet fucking hurt man#i need this semester to be OVER i need to sleep for a MONTH#but i cant because i have to scrape together SOME of this project and finals are next week#this class this project is for fucking sucks. all semester ive been teetering the line between pass and fail#and its not even my fucking fault. im so burnt out so i dont want to do this project. but i might fail if i dont#i need to at least demo it but i have like. one thing done and i dunno what to tell my TA about i#how do i tell my TA and prof that everything is too much for me so i absolutely could work on this project#my laptop is broken so im afraid to use it. the server kept going down last month so i was afraid to use that#so many stupid little things keep piling up and i'd sound really weird trying to explain why i cant do my work#because my desk is on the floor and it makes me really sad so no i cant do my hw. my fave candy has red40 in it so i had to stop eating it#but now i cant do my work because i was using it to help me focus on my hw. LIFE SUCKS BRO#anyway whatever happens. i cant wait to play video games again
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man i get kept up at night a lot thinking abt my family recently
#idk its funny how sm ppl tell me i should be happy they are struggling.. i just dont agree with that#they are hurting a lot. i have found true peace and i want them to experience it for once 💔#it hurts. i dont deserve the peace. they do. me finding peace just made life harder for them#oh thats a silly mindset. im gonna be so exhausted tomorrow. i just cant sleep recently#life is like simutaneously so good rn but also the unprocessed family feelings keep hitting me in the face#it gets easier as time goes on but damn.#pieces of me who hate them and never wanna see them and pieces who love them and want to reconnect#and fix their life. i imagined me getti g help for moms hoarding so my dad can have his own room#bc it would be a net positive for everyone if he disnt sleep in the living room and i got reminded of that yesterday :(#my sister texted me abt how she was so hungry but cant get food bc my dad is sleeping#i remember what its like to walk on those eggshells :(#i want my mom to get help so bad and my dad to have an actual bed to sleep on idk#oh man. why do i simutaneously hate my parents and feel so bad for them like they are kids i want to protect#this is all so stupid really and i should save it for therapy but thats on Tuesday#annoying bc i feel this all so raw rn but whenever i go to therapy im just so numb and disconnected. idk dude#a lot of emotions opened up with this recent move?#moving itself is kind of triggering. it was positive this time but still so hard. i think it threw me off balance#its over now but damn i kept asking my roommate if that day also felt like a dream to them (out of genuine curiosity)#and no; my roommate says that day felt real. im in my new room and i feel like its a dream still... a weird dream#i wish i could sleep -m-
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can someone remind me to write up my thoughts about gallagher and the enigmata later or at least compile them somewhere i want to share it but also my Goodness i am sleepy as heck today and i have work tonight 😔
#and its a saturday so its gonna be busy asldfjkasdlkah#im just. im so sleepy man#and i have to wake up early too for work tomorrow so i just. Im going to Die between today and tomorrow count on it#but at least on monday-wednesday ill make myself catch up on sleep#love the work but on the downside MY SLEEP.....#i forgot if i said it here. idk where i was posting bro#but the other day i 100% the theme park and am close to 100% dewlight pavilion so i'll be nearly caught up with all information#that + still need to read#but im also nearly caught up with all the reading in penacony too so thats super fun and exciting !!#but because of that i have thoughts askjdfalh#most of it is towards gallagher and the past of penacony and the watchmaker but. you know alskdjfalskjh#avil plays hsr#hsr 2.1 spoilers#just in case o7#i will say though#its wild i havent run into any information regarding the dreammaster at all really#the one who adopted sunday and robin#who is the dreammaster? why does the dreammaster and watchmaker have beef with each other? whats going on?#where did the shift come from between the watchmaker being the father of penacony to the family being in charge#since the family and the watchmaker are kinda against each other#(shakes the game) I WILL KNOW YOUR SECRETS SOON ENOUGH. AS SOON AS I AM MORE AWAKE ITS OVER FOR YOU.#i wish i had someone to ramble about ideas with and like bounce off of#WE CAN SOLVE THE MYSTERIES OF PENACONY! TOGETHER!#and then probably get our asses killed too by getting to close to the legacy 😔✌🏼 itd be the way of the truth
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#meeting the sociologist/philosopher who flew in from barcelona and got basically no sleep just 2 be on time to our date soon#im wearing the earrings the ex situationship person chose for me. they have 3 sharp metal bits hanging down from them. it feels#cold like a knife and also they make noise whenever i take a step which acts a little like a friend and also a beating. dont forget who cho#for you. do you miss her? do you miss her? when you see his face will you miss her?#im going to look someone else in their eyes today#im going to study with my friend today and tomorrow#i had a call w a friend yesterday . he taught me logic metatheory intensively and he also said this whole experience has been painful for#him and the rest of my friends bc its like watching someone nearly drink cyanide over and over#it made things a bit clearer#he said its like watching a lion get declawed and that i was essentially unrecognisable. something happened to his friend#and he wanted his friend back#so im going to go back.#he said he doesnt mind dying alone. he asked why hes doing philosophy and i said pure love and he said thats true#im supposed to be in love w abstractions more than ppl#and im supposed to be in love w my friends before any romantic partner#ok going up tottenham ct escelators is a religious experience recently bc every time i will either make eye contact w the most beautiful#person ever or be reminded of the way they held me on the way down here or how i held them on the way up#anyway lets go
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I feel so strange thinking about how I considered myself "new" in FFXIV for the longest time, as when I started playing there were so many legacy players around. I saw their mounts and their titles, I talked to them, played with them, and to me they were the experienced ones teaching me how to play my first MMO. For years I considered myself a newbie.
And then, just the other day, I see in the chat of an FC I was invited to on an alt, people talking about having played for a long time, and their longest playing member having been around for 5 years. It hit me just how long of a time that is, and how much longer passed before I'd even realized it.
I ask others if they remember various things from the past, and I can count on one hand the amount of people I meet in recent years who do. So many things I still consider new and flashy, like Gpose and job gauges for instance, have now been in the game far longer than they have not. It's a strange situation caused by me losing about a decade's worth of memories and life (due to mental health issues that practically broke me) as well as the normal feeling ot time passing without me really thinking about it. Less and less did I see the legacy titles and mounts, but I didn't pay much heed. Until one day I suddenly stop and look around, realizing that I haven't seen any legacy players at all for a while. I'm certain they're out there, but most likely not in the same sheer abundance as before.
It's a bit similar to real life, where my home was once just an old, secluded village that have now become geographically closer to the city without ever moving. Where the others I used to surround myself with have all moved on in slow trickles over the years, and where I cannot expect everyone to remember the same things that I do. So many new people everywhere, some that cause lines in the grocery store that can afford to keep running after all these years, and some that fail to load in on my weak little laptop's screen.
It's like I have two homes mirroring each other, and obviously that means I age in both of them. I bought this game as a gift for myself on my 18th birthday... and here I am 10 years later, turning 28 today, and realizing that I'm still here in both places despite everything. Waiting for another expansion all over again, just like when I was staying alive just because I wanted to play Heavensward so bad.
I can't even begin to count just how many people I've known and interacted with throughout the years in this game. There are memories that my years of paranoia and psychosis stole from me (something which I only shook off the last remnants of half a year ago), of people who I know were important to me but who I'm also unable recall much about beyond their names, which is something which fills me with both deep shame and sorrow. Some I remain in touch with to this day, and some I am mutuals with on various sites, even if we don't chat regularly anymore.
There's a lot that I don't remember, or that I even memorized in the first place. Things have changed time and again for both better and worse. But FFXIV has remained a constant throughout it all, even when I've been unsubbed due to lack of a PC and just on a general break.
I don't know what my point is with all of this really, but I guess I just really wanted to get it off my chest. It's not all sunshine and rainbows these days either, but my mental health is better than it's ever been, I have a partner and friends and family who all mean the world to me, and even though some things will forever be less than ideal, I am so so so happy that I didn't give up. Staying alive really was the best decision I ever made ❤️
#pardon my emotional wall of text#that probably looks weird with phrasing etc#im all over the place and sleepy and unmedicated#its just been a Lot lately while playing#some bad (realizing how much has been taken from me due to mental illness)#but also a lot of good (realizing how much better things are now)#anyway i should rest my eyes now oops#good thing im not celebrating with family until tomorrow cause my sleep got fucked LOL#anyway ANOTHER EXPAC TO BE ALIVE FOR YEAAAAAH#idk theyre just like life milestones for me yknow#hw was the main one but the others have functioned similarly
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Happy Valentine's Day!
THANK YOU AND I HOPE YOU HAD A LOVELY VALENTINE’S DAY 💖
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#i get valentines art !!!!!! 🥺👉👈#omg im crazy over this#HEHEHE its tease fuuta time >:3#he looks so cute and !!!! it me !!!!! thats adorable :'D#i have officially ruined my sleep schedule and need to sleep now but i want to draw you one in return tomorrow!!!!#it made me so happy 🥺✨️💖#one that you thought of me and two that the art is so lovely !!!#i hope you had a great day pal#ask
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Hello, good day, I'm a little (read: a lot) in my feels about Nico Hischier being injured and out and so I wrote a wee fic exploring that and using the Devils boys as conduits for my feelings.
check it out, if you're so inclined!
(shoutout to @devilssacrament for reading this at three in the morning my time before I posted)
#Text#New Jersey Devils#I've said this like eighteen times already but this is the first time I've written fic in over a decade#so please be gentle and kind but also I'm here for any and all feedback if you have any#I'm just dipping back into the fic world and this is really a very very very preliminary attempt#I started writing this at one in the morning and finished around three in the morning and then immediately posted it#uh anyway#its now FOUR in the morning and I do have work tomorrow so I gotta sleep#umm almost every Devil makes an appearance in this one if you're wondering!
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guys I'm very sorry if I'm so slow at answering asks, replying to messages, notifications etc
to be honest I'm overworked but more than anything my mental health is bottom low for real. I'm writing this so I can pin it. I come on here when I have 5 minutes but my social energy is generally very low. idk i forgot how to study and these last exams ever are being unbearable and my anxiety has become chronic since last year I guess. I'm very sorry if u see me on here and maybe I don't reply, I just suck at everything lately kfjhds I'll be back full force sorry again 💗✨
#it's 1 am I have to work tomorrow I CANT SLEEP look im genuinely miserable I think I should go back to some therapy after I finish this#if I ever idk#so sorry we can't enjoy afcon as I wished. also#sorry I haven't replied to asks about this or hakim etc it's just. its easier to watch some league games but to follow the whole of afcon#I guess I'm not able to at this time like sorry. If I spent less time crying over studying and actually getting work done I guess.#just exhausted I literally work full time
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#love that my body decided to incapacitate me the weekend before i have to read 5 different papers for classes#and it would b one thing to just read them but no for 3 of them i have to give detailed interpretation and 1 i have to present on#ive already failed to read one bc i forgot we had to do 2 papers for monday. oops. not that i could have done it anyway. i barely got 1 done#and im on track to fucking up the one due Tomorrow as well#im just fucking tired of reading fucking chemistry driven papers that i dont understand no matter how many times i read them#and everyones like oh itll get easier but no it fucking wont bc i cant fucking read right#its so fucking frustrating. why do i even bother? im so tried#i don't even have the paper im supposed to present on so ill have to do it all tomorrow. cool. great. not that i could do it today anyway#im just. this is gonna b a difficult week#and i misused my whole day by doing extractions bc i scheduled my training a week ago when i thought i would b fine over the weekend#nope. its fucking bullshit. this is y im like. y do i even want to b in academia?#how could i b a prof if i cant read well? its fine to b dyslexic as a math person but im like i have to read so much and so little gets thru#but then what the fuck else am i supposed to do? idk. im just gonna write down something for all these questions and go tf to sleep#ill get up at some horrible time in the morning to finish this. damn the consequences. ill see my therapist tomorrow anyway#and meet with my advisor like 🤪 yo guess what i made zero progress this week#sorry u got stuck with me while im going thru a year of fucking health problems#but whatever cant get rid of me now im already here. here and tired and i wanna go to bed#unrelated
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