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marionfantasy · 1 year

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Im going to rant and vent my feelings do not mind me

Sometimes i try my best to always stay either neutral or positive.

Despite whatever is happening

Because many times in the past all ive been told by people close and around me who have ended up leaving me or cutting me off with the excuse " i complain to much about my problems and family".

Sometimes i wonder if they ever stop to think that maybe its because i dont always have an outlet,someone to talk,to vent or rant to and express how im feeling

Or how ive been told even by my grandmother before she had passed that basically i did not deserve to cry or be frustrated even over little things that god forbid i told her my feelings were hurt or had been hurt by her or anyone.

And when i try to bottle up everything and keep it quiet and inside i end up becoming snappy,easily triggered and a bit temperamental and sometimes argue alot with my brother if he says something i dont like.

I guess ive always been expected to just give and give and be expected to meet others expectations,but most of my life ive realized ive failed to meet those expectations cause its put to much pressure.

Like for cooking,i love my mom and i adore her but because of the type of women in my family that im reminded"are so successful and independent" im expected to be like that too,because she doesn't want me to not make the same choices she did or not end up having a career and a job.

I love food but because im always being expected to like cooking and do it cause its expected of me ive come to hate the topic whenever its brought up,i cant come to like it because it just feel like a duty the way its shown to me.

Ive stopped drawing and having been having difficulty trying to revive my love for the past few years,i stopped at 17 and am now 22

For 4 years i havent drawn a full picture because i was in the mood or felt inspired,only because im being pushed to especially when others go" i miss how you used to get exicted of drawing,why dont you draw anymore?" Because alot has happened thats why.

So much has happened constantly in my life ive started to realize im loosing the love i had for fandoms,stuff,shows and other things because i havent had the chance to sit down and break down and properly sort my things and pick up the pieces.

#lenny feels #lennytalks #im just going through some things #i have alot of thoughts tbh

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sasukeless · 1 month

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#*grips yall by the shoulders* Do u get what im sayingggg #THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A BUT AND AND GUUUH #i have complex thoughts about fuagkus relationship w his children tbh while i dont think hes the abusive asshole ppl paint it i still think #it is a disservice to sasuke’s struggles to say he was a perfect dad when sasuke DID felt neglected by him ofc fugaku had other responsabili #ties w the whole coup and being a clan leader which is normal why he couldn’t as close to his sons. but it doesn’t erase sasuke’s feelings #amywaysss despite this i do think fugaku loved itachi and sasuke alot but differently #ik alot discuss if mikoto was telling the truth or not in that panel but i personally like to believe she was #WHATEVER #mine

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stephaniebrownthespoiler · 1 month

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I'm being very Normal about the netflix show btw

#AUGH I LOVE THEM #expect alot of dbd posting im reading all their comics #Connor's gonna have to wait a bit i fear #after i read all of it i might do like a companion/general thoughts posts tbh #anyways tags #dead boy detectives #second rate musings

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big8cola · 1 year

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Hi

#✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️not really been posting much art recently tbh ive kinda been veering away from doing fanart the last few months #I saw spiderverse i thought it was really good though i found the pacing was kindof weird. Gwen was literally the deutragonist of that movi #And i see like no fan content of her.. at least in comparison to other characters...😭 brraks my heart #I have prom tomorrow☝️ killing myself #I started listening to that percy jackson podcast. Pretty ok even though they mention h*rry potter like twice per episode... School just go #out for me so ive mostly been spending my time listening to that and playing papas freezeria... Really awesome #Next year is my last year of hs tbh idk what im doing post secondary i think i might go live with my aunt in bc for a tear...ik i dont wann #stay where i live rn #Was abt to dox myself LOL even though id probably be one of three total tumblr users from where i live😭#Life is pretty good atm... Not much to complain abt honestly #Summer is going to cause a major metaphorical stock market crash in my intake of ice coffee drinks which is a little heartbreaking #Honestly this past year has been one of my best..ive made alot of good friends and ive started painting and bouldering... Idk #Lowkey thinking about deleting or retiring this account. I think it does more harm than good to me sometimes

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joskippy · 8 months

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Simon petrikov they could never make me hate you

#jontalks #i still think its really funny that i think im the only person that #after like sitting down and letting the finale process in my head for a whole week #went yknow what? i get it about simons actions in the last two episodes #because you sit down and think about and its like...yeah man i get why you acted like that tbh #idk its like #something something when a character is given a aspect to them that is bad that you cant defend ppl are so quick to either #demonize the character or try to find a way to call it ooc #and its like when you really think about the few glimpes we get of simon in the og show its like #no him having like..those issues really does make sense LOL #sorry youre sweet kind simon with no flaws boring fanon yall built in your heads died but i #find his character alot more interesting with the added issues he has LOL #simon petrikov they could never make me hate you simon petrikov #this is the obly time i will talk about my fnc thoughts on main because some of you people are stupid and insane

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designernishiki · 10 months

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today on tumblr user designernishiki’s autistic-with-a-special-interest-in-psychology deep dives: dissecting the hell out of kiryu/nishiki’s childhoods and kazama’s parenting (or lack thereof) and how it all relates to their emotional development (or lack thereof). they will never be safe from my psychoanalyses

#childhood development isn’t actually an area I have a ton of experience researching which is part of what makes this intriguing tbh #because I was basically thinking a lot about how it makes alot of sense that kazama being a semi-absent father figure would result in kiryu #idolizing and idealizing him to the (objectively unhealthy) extent that he does. because he wasn’t around super consistently kiryu would #hardly get to see/experience his flaws and have healthy disagreements and blatant differences with him and etc all-in-all making it so he’d #never really gain emotional autonomy and come to see him as a full-on person rather than an anti-hero character he wants to emulate as much #as possible. and by the time kiryu does come more face to face with kazama’s flaws and moral greyness he’s already well past the age range #where you’re supposed to develop emotional autonomy and have the most neuroplasticity to do so and thus it’s much more difficult for him #to deconstruct the idolized figure of kazama in his head. not to mention kazama died basically just as kiryu started to be confronted with #kazama’s less-than-perfect actions and traits and etc so he can’t humanize him through in-person experiences #it’s. a whole mess #I should save it for the big analysis post and not these tags fhshdjsnd #nishiki may have to be his own post completely because I feel like I’d end up having to talk about why he absolutely reads as borderline to #me and why it makes a lot of sense that certain symptoms/maladaptive thoughts/behaviors grow to be so out of control eventually #I have many thoughts about that boy and I already have many many notes on his potential bpd and image issues in general #hoo boy.#rambling

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veone · 10 months

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I don’t like you and you have me blocked, I don’t own you anything at all.

#my last lil thought 👏🏾 also random I don’t get blocked by alot people I have mouth I speak my thought sometimes people don’t like em #which sound bad I am not saying anything bigoted towards people who don’t look like me 😂 I am calling people uncle toms #on a positive note! I appreciate that I don’t get anon hate just people who clearly don't have any context to why I’m saying Uncle Tom whic #is interesting tbh like I have genuinely question who is just calling people uncle toms on main on main for no reason 😭😂 why would I do tha #that so insulting you think I’m just being a bitch for no reason like damn #anyway if ya new and don’t like this ✌🏾 bye I don’t hold it against you at all #sorry for having a thing like once every three months 🙄 I am not gonna do this anymore #it’s stupid and I’m wasting my time on people who are 30+ teenagers #also dumb but tbh 30+ teenager is kinda not uncommon so lowkey that don’t matter I’m just 24 and I hope I don’t get stick up my ass #on tumblr thinking I’m doing something for having a blog #at 30+ I want to be working on something else going back to school #get my lil radiation therapy certificate

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urlocalqueer · 11 months

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so. anyways. i have like six hours of work to do on my blog themes. not only for the one that disappeared but updating the rest of them and making themes for my new sideblogs. however it's monday, and i'm not gonna do that today.

#sounds like a weekend project to me.#tbh i thought this would be a 30 minute thing but one look at everything i had to do and i noped out of there lol #and yes i have alot of sideblogs

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cherryozyi · 1 year

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Just finished Mario + Rabbids Sparks of Hope video game and all I have to say is....

WHY DOES BEEP-O SOUND LIKE POD!?

#/pos /lh #LEGIT HE DOES IM NOT INSANE I TELL YOU (lie)/j #but in all seriousness the game was super fun and enjoyed every moment of it!#Rabbids was a huge part of my childhood (hyperfixated hard on them when younger)#and seeing them with Mario characters and each rabbid having their own charm is pretty neat #Rabbid Rosalina is definitely one of my favorites #i loved all of them tbh #even the background/side characters were pretty neat!! made me admire each planet i went to #just a silly game that i adore alot #ok thats my thoughts on it!

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roseyjustice · 1 year

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I adore children and fankids so here's concept sketches of mine, D.in and L.ukes brood !

H.an and Leia adoringly call the youngest the Trouble Trio, though it's often Corvus who gets Canis and Caelum into trouble the most, Lyra tries to maintain their energy being the eldest but they often somehow end up working with the three more often than not lol

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james-fun-in-the-sunderland · 2 years

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id love to know your dp opinions! youre like. the only one who gets it i think

omg anon the ego boost u just gave me with that statement.... like haha twirls my hair u think im the only one that gets it omgggg anyway Im not sure what opinions specifically the People would like to hear but ive shared alot of my opinions in my little personal tag, but just a warning i dont have like ANY opinions on stuff that doesnt involve york and zach but that MAY CHANGE... bc i am currently doing a 100% run of dp1 bc im a freak so im gonna actually do side quests instead of just running through the main story (which is what i usually do bc i wanna get to the ending bc the ending slaps so fucking hard ok sorry to all of the people that really like the dp1 npcs) (also thank u so much to the dp fanpage for being such a good resource 🙏 (but pls bring back the like conversations page sob i need to know what zach says to everyone without running around town for dayssss 😭😭😭))

But yes if anyone has any specific questions on my opinions i would 100% be willing to answer bc i have ALOT of them, some of them differ from main fanon opinion so im a biiiit scared to share <- is a coward, but i probably just wont main tag them lmao. unless its my opinons on how dp2 is so fucking bad dude i hate that game SO much and i am not afraid to say it lmao. maybe ill make a post about my dp2 remake idea bc i think my brain is huge imo

(also an opinion i havent rly shared but is one that is INTEGRAL to my enjoyment of dp1 is that i think the like 'york is a magical being actually not a DID alter <3' is stupid... i think it really undermines alot of emotions and also its just fun to have a protag with DID where its not demonized at all! plus the way YORK JUST CURES ZACHS CANCER IN DP2 IS SOOOO BADDDDD AUGHHHHHHH anyway.)

#rev lore #WOW I WROTE ALOT !!! send me more asks tho if u want more thoughts teehee <3 #also york is 100% autistic #zach has anxiety and ptsd #these things are just canon to me (the ptsd thing is genuinely canon bc why else is that cutscene called . ptsd huh.)#also might make more posts on my opinions bc like i said im going thru the game rn and will have thoughts as i play!#theres one specific thing im nervous abt sharing that i dislike tbh bc its like . a big thing in fics especially and i dont wanna be killed #despite feeling quite justified in my disliking of it IMO

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trkstr-drew · 2 years

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dont have a name for this guy yet but hes from the show that runs in my mind.

#oc #the canvas filter is there bc hes dead and his sentience is canvas hopping to make sure his ex gets stopped #tbh i have alot of thoughts on the ex hes like a jekyll/dorian cross #gonna be honest im hesitant to post abt these guys bc theyre based off classic lit set in a dreamworld in a fake france #why france? why a dreamworld? it was originally a weirdcore story that took place in a really romantisised place and then would devolve -#-into a catacombs-esque place #also i learnt french in school so it was my go to for bilingual characters

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mcchicken-scratches · 2 years

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Yoooo those could all go together!

....tbh I've been debating putting the first two together, since they both have a very similar base concept. Although I've been undecided on if the reader should be an employee or not, as both have a different beginning & ending depending on which.

#ask #anonymous #third one wouldn't mesh together as well because of the different perspective #and it's also alot more different than the other two #tbh I've just been struggling with finding the best mesh of small ideas #keep either hitting a road block or disliking the direction I'm taking it #I wish there was a movie maker for the brain so I could just upload my thoughts without having to be a somewhat competent wordsmith

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princeofpittsburgh · 2 months

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I’m so curious why you rated Posession one and a half stars 👀 I’ve never seen it but I see it around all the time, what you didn’t like about it?

i think i just didnt. get it 😭 & it was kind of boring & went on for wayy too long

#two hours... & practically nothing except yelling happened until like an hour in #maybe theres just alot of messaging that went over my head ig #i also thought the woman would be the main character? but it was more focused on her husband #idk i dont have anything 2 say good or bad abt the movie tbh #asks

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pengyeul · 1 year

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im startin my korean studies again and relearning vowels and constants and

i learned recently that e'last isnt pronounced Ee-last but Eh-last which when i found out i was like "oh clearly because their name is short for everlasting eh-verlasting eh-last"

but now i think its because E is pronounced like Eh is korean

#i spoke #when i found out ive been mispronouncing their name for years omg i felt so bad n guilty for days #im still slightly upset about it tbh #but i thought it was like an accent thing like how wonhyuk says trill and not thrill i thought thsy said ehlast i say elast #but rest assured ill be pronouncing it properly from now on #i also dont have kpop irls so i dont say alot of korean out loud so i dont know im mispronouncing stuff #thats my excuse n im stickin to it

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snooblydoot · 1 year

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Everyday is a struggle deciding if i should play sims 2 or sims 4

#when I'm bored my immediate thought goes to playing sims #I love playing casual games while i have videos on in the background #its why i miss my DS tbh #i jus love doin shit w my hands #anyways im cleaning out some cc in sims 4 #there's alot i wanna get rid of cos im bored of some clothing pieces but...nooooooo :(#i have so much cc for a game i don't play that much nor wear most of the items #snoobles

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