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hellfire--cult · 1 month

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If he looked at me like that, I would fold to the point of splitting in two. What the hell.

#omg.#i had never been this jealous #of a cat before #sir #calm down #joseph quinn #a quiet place #aqp #lupita nyong'o

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jackdaniel69nice · 14 days

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We know tokoyami loves perching on top of things so here’s a silly one shot

Tokoyami has a “bad habit” of climbing on top of furniture he’s not supposed to

There are normal thing like sitting on top of a railing, his desk, or the back of the couch…but climbing the fridge and trying to wedge himself on the top shelf of cabinet is a bit much

So there came to point of enough people being jump scared by a perched tokoyami sitting in the dark that they decided enough was enough and put a large book shelf in the common room.

They stuffed enough black pillows and fluffy blankets on top to attract even the most picky of avians and waited

(The rest of the shelf spaces were filled with books and board games so it wouldn’t seem suspicious, in fact everyone seemed to enjoy adding their additional stuff to the shelves to show off and grab quickly)

The trap was a simple one and tokoyami fell right into it, it only took 3 days before he asked why there were blankets up there when no one could reach them

they answered it was storage, he knew they were lying

Instead of hovering at the edge of the room broodingly now he will walk straight over to the book shelf and perch on top of it

He can look surprisingly cool and edgy from up there (he can make anything look cool and edgy tbh)

One time kamanari tried to go up there because it makes sense if it’s the common room then anyone should be able to go up right?

Well tokoyami walked in to see kaminari in his nest Fortress of Darkness and immediately turned around and walked back out

He wouldn’t climb back up for nearly a month until finally they coxed him into it

All he kept saying was that the space had been “spoiled” or “wrought with corruption” or they had “defiled his inner sanctum”

They had to take everything down, wash it, and move the shelf before letting tokoyami set it back up how he liked

They knew better than to touch his stuff again after that

#I know that birds don’t usually abandon their nest when it’s been disturbed #but tokoyami is a very sensitive bird #bnha #boku no hero academia #tokoyami fumikage #mha #my hero academia #dark shadow never has this problem because they can fly :)#they just hover in the corner of the ceiling and stare at people creepily #tokoyami is jealous and wishes he had claws so he can climb the walls

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reclusivesapphire · 1 year

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KHLOE KARDASHIAN THREW AN OCTONAUTS THEMED BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR HER DAUGHTER

nine year old me would have KILLED for this

#octonauts #captain barnacles #peso penguin #kwazii #dashi dog #tweak bunny #shellington #professor inkling #WHY CANT I HAVE THIS BIRTHDAY #never before have I been so jealous of a child #high key that looks really fun hope the kiddo had a good time <3

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weaverofink · 9 months

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Danny Temple you will always be famous to me. also your unnamed twin brother that showed up in exactly 3 panels

#danny temple #dc robin #robin 1993 #dc #dc comics #did something of a danny redesign :) every character can be improved w an eyebrow slit and slightly longer wavier hair #does anybody remember danny. bc i do.#i really liked him and i loved his dynamic w tim drake #i think he had so much potential that was just wasted #so like any good insane fan i made up an entire story in my head :)#also i fleshed out his unnamed twin brother and included him in the story as a main character bc he also could have been so good #(i named him leo by the way. he's insanely jealous of the attention their 'parents' gave danny & lashes out.#he also becomes an assassin but that comes later in the story don't worry about it.)#art #my art #weaverofink #god this is so old. i did this like a year and a half ago and just never posted it #but a piece i made recently won't make sense w/out the context of this danny redesign so i decided to post it :)

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em-star-crossed · 2 months

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“marriage of convenience” au

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their dynamic in the show had so much potential. their friendship could’ve been so good. the great things they could’ve done as the king and queen of gotham. more thoughts in tags :)

#oswald cobblepot #penguin #sofia falcone #idk what this is #i need more people to write fics with this trope #doing a rewatch and i appreciate her so much more than i used to #idc you will never make me hate her #could’ve been the king and queen of gotham fr fr #mr. and mrs. cobblepot-falcone anyone?#the queerplatonic friendship we could’ve had #the girls that get it get it #lavender marriage but not really #martin is adopted by them in this au #dadwald and “step-mom“ sofia <3 #sprinkling jealous!ed is the cherry on top #nygmobblepot #gotham #gotham 2014

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civilization-illstayrighthere · 11 months

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Johnny: wow kerry thought he was living in my shadow? shit. I had no idea. wow. this is news to me.

Also Johnny:

#johnny silverhand #kerry eurodyne #cp 2077 #EDIT: if you’re seeing this from the tags pls check the reblogs for some good meta courtesy merge-conflict #youre a mean girl johnny silverhand #he talks soooooo much shit and has all this nasty masculine bravado #SECOND FIDDLE!#like but why does he have to mention that. btw V I’ve never been jealous of him IN MY LIFE OK #damn johnny. did we ask? you coming in hot #the lady doth protest too much i think. i truly think he realized long ago #that kerry had the potential for musical greatness/ superstardom #and his reaction to protect his own ego is to shit on that #not maybe fully realizing that kerry was taking all that to heart and internalizing it #because he DOES sound hurt on dark matter’s roof when kerry forlornly talks about being in johnnys shadow #but its like. damn dude. too little too late.

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marsixm · 24 days

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i also think the fact that i had such a stunted and isolated upbringing and now that im an adult all my friends are on atypical life paths (and honestly even my friends as a kid were like this too) means i find things that are usually very common life stages really interesting. like knowing someone who has a house and a wife and 2 kids (with that wife) and a job with a salary feels like meeting fucking paul bunyun to me. or hearing the kids i work with talk about graduating high school and going to college and being on a real path with that stuff is neat? or even sometimes knowing cis/het people who are like going thru that coming of age stuff that i never really experienced the way you see it in the movies bc of transness/queerness/neurodivergence. its like woah they said the name of the thing in the thing. do u know what i mean???

#this actually reminds me of one of the girls at work whose been here for 2 yrs so i feel like im watching her grow up #shes graduating hs this year and shes really smart and she always asks questions like this #like picking ur brain about your life like 'what did you feel like growing up how was your family' etc #its kinda cool #she already got a degree bc of dual credit courses and an internship lined up and im so proud of her #and theres another girl her same age who came to me last night telling me her situationship just broke her heart #and they were both talking all about their prom dresses and all that stuff and were so excited last month #like idk i guess i just find it endearing #i think part of it is also that while these specific paths are thought of as common/default #there really is so much variance in life and really truly so many people not on those paths for so many reasons #which actually does loop around to making it seem strange #like truly how many people do you really know anymore who stayed at 1 job until they rose the ranks #who got married and had kids with that person and now they live in a house in the suburbs with some dogs and cats #like who does that anymore #meanwhile i think its just cool seeing kids actually experiencing growing up but in retrospect and not as a peer feeling confused & jealous #like woah youre a girl buying a dress and getting her hair done and texting a boy thats so wild ive never done that #or woah youre taking courses to prepare for college and know what degree youre going for #i no longer feel resentment that i felt left behind during all that shit when i was a teenager #im just happy for them and proud of them

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marklikely · 15 days

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i know a lot of trans women talk about mourning not growing up a girl and i always thought i didnt experience any equivalent to that (probably for many reasons) but the last couple weeks i realised i think i do and its specifically about not growing up a gay man.

#i wish i hadnt realized this bc now despite my best efforts i can't stop driving myself crazy about it.#but like i never really cared abt not growing up a cis boy bc i always imagined myself being straight #but now that I've imagined myself being gay oh my god this fucking sucks i hate it here.#avpost #also whenever i hear cis gay men talk about like growing up. or being in high school. or their gay awakenings.#its like. im not jealous exactly but i feel like something important was stolen from me and i cant get it back god im so mad #idk also as i get further in my transition i feel so disconnected from my youth like it didn't fully belong to me #but i also don't have anything to take its place theres just a gap there where the life i should've had would go.#and i think its stupid bc its like. whatever who cares about what could have been all i have is what was. why am i making myself crazy .#but i can't help it -_-

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tamagotchikgs · 2 months

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been trying to figure out just how i am going to explain how wildly my brain has been altered since the last time i saw my therapist && it make me realize all of this has happened in 1 month,,,,,,,,,,, it feels like . eons. eternity . in the best way possible

#normally everything feels so short #my anxiety just speeds me through it before i can even take a second to enjoy or even experience anything. everything is a dusty blur #but ive been ok #i've actually had good times ive mayb even started 2 feel close to a person for the first time in my life #feel safe w them #anxiety cant get me when im in their shield bubble #listening 2 em talk n even just Exist like woag ur the best thing in this whole world #just bbzbzbzbzbbzz #of course there r also the Horrors that do come w it just due 2 my avpd but . it still feels so different #and i like to ignore those because they make me feel like a monster i am not jealous noo i am so normal i am very normal #i am beating my jealousy side with a stick and i Will win #i have never and Will never act on it #if i ignore it they cant b real #also i do know it's illogical whihc helps #honestly though im used 2 it because ill get jealous if like . a stranger is nice to me and then is nice to some1 else. like oh. oh it was #all a rouse u want me dead u hate me #and it's like. homie. pal. that is normal. they're not abandoning u theyre not trying to set u up for humiliation #theyre just living their life #it's kinda weird tho because i will get feelings like that simultaneously with knowing i am Nothing i am a Horrid beast no one deserves to #even have to see #and knwoing i am not allowed to care about people and there is no shot in hell they will be even nice to me #so it;s just . a lot of things swirling constant;ly #painful emotions all around there is no joy #(except for rn. with them. i can b free from my brain)

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fellhellion · 9 months

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kind of obsessed w the way goro got served with a "you don't actually hate akira do you, i saw you smile when you realised he was alive" by the catsona of hope and just had a mental breakdown about it

#hes literally THE character of all time #and look. i am just a loser but i have played p5 something like. five times (including two royal playthroughs) and every time i get #to goro's boss battle i just break down in tears #like he IS my fave character of the game yes but also god. what a miserable way to live. unable to acknowledge that youre so deeply #movitated by the desire to be loved. to have to recognise that you are LYING to yourself and have been doing so for years about #not only that but the fact that youve been powerless this entire time. but that the man you despise AND want to love you has only ever #thought of you as a tool to use. you were fifteen and you NEVER had the upper hand you told yourself you did. he saw a reflection #of your mother and thought nothing of it. and you hate the fact this wonderous other person comes from nothing (just like you) and has #something you dont but you cant even acknowledge what it is youre so fucking jealous of #GODDDDDD GORO AKECHI YOU MAKE ME INSANE #tunes talks persona

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol?????#im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!!#im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing?#other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing?????#and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year

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Idc anymore i think i'm a good enough writer that i can say that when i noticed the pattern in what exactly makes a book "good" on booktok (and, bc of that, what makes it popular and top bestseller lists), it feels almost demeaning and denigrating to the entire craft. Idk if i should blame the way tiktok-esque social media has utterly rotted everyone's ability to concentrate and read more than three sentences, but literally none of those books are objectively good.

(Yes, yes, art is subjective. HOWEVER. Art is subjective when you look at style, at themes, at motifs, at plots and characters. Art is still a craft, it still requires skill. I've seen beyond the tiktok quotes of these books. Not even their editors are good given the amount of typos/spelling mistakes. That is not something that you should find in a traditionally published book.)

You look at these books, and you know the only reason for their existence is to make money. I cannot and will not accept that as art.

(I'm on Tumblr, of course I have to explain every point. Artists who make money off their art =/= people who only create art meant to be profitable. There is a difference between an artist who hopes to monetise doing what they love, who creates what they wish to see more of and who happens to then create something that other people wish to see more of, and a person who looks at what's trending and decides that making an unholy frankenstein's monster of a book that mashes all those trending tropes and motifs together would get them rich quick. The fact that a lot of these booktok books become popular because of nepotism is just the cherry on top. It's soulless.)

And to finally say what I wanted to say, it's because none of these books have any deeper message or even artistic value to them. You will find a few out of context quotes or paragraphs, ones written specifically so they'd look deep and beautiful when taken out of context, so that people would post them, so that people would buy the books. Entire books written just so those few lines could become viral and make cash. It cannot even be compared to a hook line writers would post to get people interested in their works, because in booktok's case, those are the only lines of quality and in the context itself, they are often out of place and forced.

I just hate booktok, i hate what modern social media has done to art. It's all created to be quickly consumed, for the few ☆aesthetic☆ glances, and then discarded. Just to make more money for those who are already nepo babies. As if artists needed more obstacles to jump over.