#i got so close to getting it once
Text
fairly long vent about friendships as a warning
watching my brother interact with his friends is just so mind-blowing because it's amazing and everything I'd want and yet I've never been able to get anything close, honestly wouldn't think it possible if I didn't see my brother manage it so successfully.
he'll just drop over to their houses for the night organised in that day. go to a house party at least once a week because his friends throw them all the time and they always want him there. even now we're in holiday on a different continent and his friend happens to be on holiday nearby, so she just invited him over for dinner at their resort and her mum is willing to pick him up from town and bring him back to eat and chat with them and it's just so amazing?
and I just... want it so much. I know it takes a certain amount of confidence to suggest these meet ups, but I've done that. Nobody's going to invite me so I've pushed my limits and done the suggesting. And that's where the difference in our friends really shows, because his will do everything they can to make it happen and the two of them can find something that works and have a great time! whereas all my life, if I suggest hanging out with my friends, all I get is 'yeah we totally should do that!' and so if I want it to happen, I have to make it happen, I have to work around their schedule to suggest a time, date, activity and by then it's got to be 3 weeks away or something because they won't suggest dates or reply quickly or anything to make it easier to actually do it. And there's only so much of that I can take before it doesn't even become worth it to meet up with them, because all I get is the vibe that they don't actually want to meet, they're just doing it because I've organised it for them. (Not to mention the times where I've organised it, shown up, then half of them are no shows and only say they're cancelling last minute when I chase them up)
It's just so frustrating, I just want friends I can meet up with and do stuff with, friends I'd happily call with at anytime, even if I usually hate impromptu calls, friends whose houses I could just drop over at and friends who would invite me places without making it seem like a burden or an afterthought to invite me. I literally just want to be close with someone and yet I've never fully managed it
#i got so close to getting it once#had an awesome friend group and we'd text every day and randomly call to talk#then two of them fell out for reasons i still don't know and it all fell apart. one only texted me to ask about the other person#one of them stopped talking immediately as soon as the gc was gone#and the final one still talks to me but it's not the same and it's like... i wasn't part of the fall out so why did my life have to change#but that's always the way. every friend I've had in 21 years has slowly ditched me because of other events and nothing i do can stop it#no matter how hard I try#peppa talks#friendship vent#again. I'm sorry
1 note
·
View note
Text
family portrait :D young sam and sybil are behaving themselves and vimes is throwing a hissy fit because they tried to make him wear the helmet
[id: a digital painting of three people sitting for a portrait in a domestic interior. young sam is standing with his hands behind his back and beaming proudly. vimes is standing behind him with his hand on his shoulder, wearing a shiny military uniform and a surly expression. sybil is sitting on the right with an arm around young sam, smiling at the viewer. a plumed helmet is sitting on a table on the left. end id.]
#discworld#sam vimes#sybil ramkin#young sam vimes#artwork#discworld is inspiring me so much at the moment ive got it on the brain#vimes wore the helmet for 3 seconds and then took it off and refused to comb his helmet hair which is why he looks like that#also idk where the idea of sybil wearing wigs came from (i havent read all the books yet so i am not sure if it’s canon or headcanon) but i#am so besotted with that idea so assume sybil is bewigged any time i draw her#thats why she has no grey hairs here. i imagine her having very short wispy hair underneath#i literally love her so much ive been thinking about her for days she means the world 2 me#this is the first time ive drawn either her or young sam and im so happy with how they came out thats exactly how i picture them in my head#ive drawn vimes once before but i can usually get him close to my Brain Picture without too much difficulty#i just think Grumpy Bastard (affectionate) and there he is#also happy end of the year my friends! may 2024 bring you all the things you desire i love you
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
SO insane that Sam has seen AND liked this... I'm so cozy in my little tumblr corner that I forget my words can escape containment and be perceived beyond Aabria Iyengar
#aabria interacting with my posts are precious gifts that i hold close to my heart#but also she walks amongst us down here#i could not begin to fathom the depths of horrors that she has witnessed#but SAM. thats wild.#also hilarious given the post. man is stressing HARD lmao#every once in a while i scroll through the meme accs on insta cuz yall are what got me to get back on tumblr#so i like to see how things are going. its always a good time#criticalrolememes <3#critical role#sam riegel#the sam riegal tag was made to make me doubt myself every goddamn time#sea rambles
988 notes
·
View notes
Text
sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH
bonus
#pokemon#trainer lyra#rival silver#soulsilvershipping#timeskip tag#bao beis#i had so much more planned. but alas. college.#ANYWAY. sss my everything. ohh. always thinking abt them.#this is very obviously lyra's room! all the pink! massive bed to fit all her pokemon! the champion paycheck gets you that much at least#and plants!!! no. 1 horticulturist in johto#she's living somewhere around the base of mt silver... decently close to the league and her hometown#so i like to imagine her with a huge greenhouse so she can take care of plants even in the harsher climate#meanwhile silver has one of those decrepit malelivingspace flats in viridian. he's making it work.#i can only see sss properly moving in together liiiike in their late 20s#after they get to enjoy young adult independence for a while#but before they permanently settle down they should go on silly adventures again... just once. or twice. or#as much as i like to entertain the thought of them being homebodies i think they'd rather spend their lives travelling haha#since silver never got to fully experience it as a kid on the run#being a wanted man and all#and lyra is itching for the getaway#they deserve to be in nature and responsibility-free and *frothing at the mouth*#BTW i put my whole wyvussy into that wall decor#lisia signed poster... rosa's resemblance as mei(!!!) in the totoro one... bell tower + whirl island pics //#pokemon constellations... and those gen 4 mail templates that no one actually used. probably from dawn. champion penpals :]#i debated doing a lance poster because celebrity idol funny but nah she'd bin that immediately after moving out#oh yeah the drawover was um. inspired by the nonebinary neochamp fit. so happy for my son.#i'm glad i managed to finish the big piece in time otherwise i would've just posted that LOL can you imagine#okey bye happy sss day
216 notes
·
View notes
Text
weeee fantasy au scribbles look at these Guys
#ft. the magnificent return of Wormie#i say as if didnt mention wormie exactly Once....#but believe me wormie lives in my mind. wormie is forever up there. i have a rich inner world you must Understand#fantasy wormie is a literal magic worm barnaby found & got attached to#and thus wormie has become the neighborhood's mascot / group pet#she can usually be found under barnaby's hat or somewhere in poppy's feathers#scribble salad#wh fantasy au#tw blood#< its only a lil bit but just in case...#eddie 🤝 poppy - paranoid about frank's Lack of armor despite his fighting style#he has leather shoulder pauldrons & a gambeson and thats It <3#meanwhile eddie looks like the fuckin tin man#even julie has armor!! and her Giant Sword!#wally & sally skimp on the armor cause they're distance fighters - and magic gives them a protective edge#barnaby either doesnt fight or uses his magic - also its tough to land a hit on him. hes Skilled#and howdy shoots first asks questions later so no one gets Close#and poppy stays out of the fighting <3#& i once again drew wally Too Small....#someday ill be able to grasp consistent size differences. someday
341 notes
·
View notes
Text
Y'all, meet my new friend Jabba the Butt 🎉
And what does that make his lady friend?
Princess Leia Couple Eggs
#dove#mourning dove#birds#star wars#puns#my mourning dove neighbors#i've only seen the eggs once#for a very short time#i got so worried but the parent came back very quickly#i believe the eggs were laid on april 24#so we're getting close....
983 notes
·
View notes
Text
collab #2 with @xenole
i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
116 notes
·
View notes
Text
We only see each other at funerals
(On Jason, Thalia, Nico, Bianca, and their parallels/connections)
The Titan's Curse (Rick Riordan), @/anxiousmaya_, Right Now (Gracie Abrams), The Battle of the Labyrinth (Rick Riordan), Joan of Arc (Mary Gordon), The Lost Hero (Rick Riordan), Episodes Toward and Elegy for Halley's Comet (Lindsey Drager), Jason Grace (Riordan Wiki), The Gods Show Up (Michael Kinnucan), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), What the Living Do (Marie Howe), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), Planet of Love (Richard Siken), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), Tangerine (Nolune), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), I Bet On Losing Dogs (Mitski), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/abhorarchive (Twitter), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), Seventeen (MARINA), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/rollercoasterwords, The Tyrant's Tomb (Rick Riordan), @/the-overanalyst, Where Things Come Back (John Corey Whaley), Grit (Silas Denver Martin), Softcore (The Neighbourhood), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Frost (Mitski), @/moonbends, I'm Your Man (Mitski), Sun Bleached Flies (Ethel Cain), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Three (Sleeping At Last), My Art
#nono you don't understand it's about the siblings#it's about how thalia lost jason once only to get him back and lose him again#it's how jason and bianca both walked into their deaths with their eyes wide open#it's about zeus trying to kill nico and bianca and him doing nothing to stop jason from dying#it's about thalia being in the hunters and nico hating her but he knows how to grieve with that kind of loss#so he'll help her. for jason. for bianca. because no one deserves to mourn a sibling alone#like these four barely interact but they're soooo connected i could go on forever#i'm so sad thalia and nico never actually got a scene together after the burning maze#and ALSO#it's about the fact that reyna is one of the most (if not the most) important people left in their lives#LIKE#do you think thalia found out how close nico and reyna were and started watching her more closely#because every person the two of them have shared has ended up six feet under#so reyna gets annoyed with how protective thalia is but she doesn't stop her bc part of her can tell thalia needs it#and nico constantly checks to make sure reyna's life force is still strong#bc he never wants to be caught off guard by a death again#ok im done now i promise#the trials of apollo#trials of apollo#nico di angelo#reyna ramirez arellano#reyna avila ramirez arellano#web weaving#fanart#my art tag#thalia grace#jason grace#percy jackson#percy jackson fanart#bianca di angelo
116 notes
·
View notes
Text
GUESS WHAT I DID??
My attempt/prediction of ryojis HD sprites!
#persona#persona 3#p3#ryoji mochizuki#persona 3 reload#persona 3 remake#p3re#persona 3 fanart#persona fanart#guys im coming to terms that we might not see ryoji in the reload trailers🥲#BUT IM IMPATIENT AND I WANT TO SEE HIM SO BAD! ive had ideas of what his sprites would look like in game#so i decided to draw them! :D i tried my best to replicate the p3r artstyle i think i did decent#once reload comes out and we get to see him again i wantto comapre the offical ones to thess#lets see how close i got#ANWAUS ITS 6AM AND IM TRIED ASF college is gonna be so hard if i dont fix my sleep schedule#GOODNIGHT LOVE YALL!#minnidraws#gonna do a render of him next nc knowing atlus they wont give him one
247 notes
·
View notes
Text
can’t think of anything to say other than it was everything I could have ever expected and wanted and hoped for. seeing them perform truly is an electric experience and I am so, so grateful I got to be there. I’ve never felt such overflowing joy and love in one room before and that truly is down to what a one-of-a-kind group Starkid is. I’m so happy and a little emotional that it’s over but like it’s sung in days of summer, “don’t wanna see you go but it’s not forever, not forever” ⭐️💜
#Starkid#starkid innit#star rambles#don’t really get Emotional and or Sincere on tumblr but I needed to put these feelings SOMEWHERE#and gods the Starkid community is amazing#I saw so many mind blowing cosplays and met so many kind and excited people like me#it was really beautiful to see a theatre full of people bound together by our love for this group#I got v emotional when they closed the show with gotta get back to Hogwarts#and Clark asked us all to sing for Darren#truly like. hearing everyone get the lyrics and the timing and the notes right just bc we all care about this so much..gods#that’s something incredibly special and I’m v grateful to be a part of it#also they performed our doors are open AND back on top AND a new rogues medley so that was thrilling for me personally#AND SIDEKICK#AND SPICE GIRLS’ WANNABE#like holy shit they gave us everything we wanted and MORE#really and truly a once in a lifetime experience for me#like hopefully I get to see them live again but hey#if I don’t??? then I have these memories that are so joyful and vibrant#yeah. it was totally awesome 🤘
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
Love (cannot emphasis how much sarcasm there is in that word) that an official Canadian government response to high cellphone rates is to switch carriers.
Switch it to what? We basically have three companies since one was allowed to eat the forth (with the government saying it wasn't anti-competition and the company eating the other pinky promising they wouldn't jack rates up). Even the smaller companies have to rent infrastructure from the Big Three so there's only so much they can do if that rent costs an arm and a leg.
And that's not touching on how many "small companies" are actually just subsidiaries of the Big Three. You may save $5 but you're still with Telus/Rogers/Bell.
Or that the actual small companies tend to have shit coverage because they don't have the infrastructure available to them and are prevented from getting it. Or their traffic is throttled in favour of the Big Three's customers. Or both.
Or that they're extremely regional thus aren't an option for a huge chunk of Canada's population.
We have no true options and the government has shown time and again that they're fine with monopolies, in multiple industries, and don't care when said monopolies jack up prices to make shareholders and the c-suite more money at the expense of everyone else. At most there will be a verbal slap on the wrist and a giftcard for $25 that people have to register for, for a decade and a half of price gouging.
It's not talked a whole lot about outside the country from what I've seen and heard but Canada is a country of monopolies. A handful of companies own nearly everything, every province has a family or two that owns a hell of a lot (Nova Scotia is basically owned by one family at this point), and our government ignores it. Even the branch that is supposed to be against monopolies is fine with mergers and takeovers in most cases.
Because, you know, the company said it totally wouldn't use consumers' lack of options to increase prices.
#canada#so much of our infrastructure and critical construction such as housing#has been pawned off for decades to private companies#and i forgot to mention one (1) family owns the bridge that is a major international corridor between canada and the us#which is apparently fine even though they fought tooth and nail to stop a bridge they don't own from being built#like our housing crisis can be traced back to the government deciding to stop building public housing in the 90s#because they figured private developers would pick up the slack#affordable apartments don't bring in much money so we got decades of cheap-ass 'luxury condos' instead#and once airbnb became a thing we got entire buildings with units <300sqft#and of course when the party in charge rotates between conservatives and neolibs nothing changes and that can gets kicked down the road#and keeps getting kicked until something collapses and they see the chance to fully privatize an industry#something similar is happening to our healthcare system too#it has been left to languish for years/decades with funding freezes and cuts#and private companies are quick to jump in and get the government stamp of approval to do [thing] that the public system clearly can't do#when [thing] would absolutely be possible if it was actually funded and/or staffed#so many communities were cut off when greyhound closed up shop because there's no government inter-city transportation#we lost internet/banking/cell service/etc nation-wide because one of the big three decided to push an update to live without redundancies#and it bugged and took the entire company's network down#even the government agency that demands major companies have a backup on a different network was taken down because they ignored that#and they got a deal if they kept their backup with rogers while their main network was also rogers#so they couldn't even make an emergency statement or anything about it#half my province also lost all digital infrastructure because it's a private company and making a redundancy line would mean smaller bonuse#it's just so bad#joke all you want about how canada is nice and friendly#but you are wrong and it's hell if you actually live here#the only reason canada is seen as nice is because it's hard to not seem like the better option when the us is your neighbour#and because of decades of pr work to make canada seem friendly and nice and not at all problematic#in some countries you actually have to try to hide you're canadian because of how much we colonize and the damage we do to other countries#yes these tags have derailed from the post but ugh#i take major issue with people who insist canada is nice and has never done anything wrong
62 notes
·
View notes
Text
and the moral of the story is you can’t make a man too much of a green flag bc if they put a single foot wrong the story will tell you it’s their fault for having trauma
#I could’ve got past it after the argument but the way they used in in the last ep rubbed me all the wrong ways#Jimmy how I would’ve loved to see you get to be a character that gets his feelings validated and appreciated for once#but no they offscreen gave that arc to porjai for some reason and like girl deserved it but so did mohk#this family could’ve done for mohk what they did for her gave him a place and people and made him feel like he could be happy despite all#the hurt in his past#but no#and im not saying it needs to be equal yes the relationship works bc mohk wants to be giving and kind he doesn’t expect that in return they#have their dynamic and it’s how he shows his love but you can’t then turn around and say that him caring#is too much it’s pity when that’s what you love about it what day loves about him it’s literally how they grew close through mohk caring#it’s not pity. don’t try to tell me it’s pity narrative I don’t believe you#last twilight
58 notes
·
View notes
Text
today (july 2nd) is the nine🤰month anniversary of george meeting dream irl for the very first time and dream's face reveal!
dream team nine months! 🤰🤰🤰
#yeahhhh!! nine months is crazy we're so close to a year!#we got about 8 1/2 months of dreams face i hope we get to see his face again#like maybe once a month on his snap or something. im being optimistic :D#edit: DONT WORRY PAST ME YOU DO SEE HIS FACE AGAIN LMAO
180 notes
·
View notes
Note
hey!! i just wanted to come on here quickly and say i absolutely adore your art!! i was scrolling through the sebastian sallow x mc tag and found your artwork, and am about to starting reading your story on ao3! you’re super talented!!! and i look forward to reading your story and seeing more art from you <3
AW TYSM!! im glad you found / like my art, and i hope you end up liking my fic as well!👉👈💖💖💖
Y'ALL......im so glad u like my art and also my fic so much😭😭im honoured to be your fav, ty for the support and such high praise....and u are so right about the slytherin/ravenclaw dynamic. surprisingly i never really thought about the dynamic much before HL cause i was mostly focused on gryffindor/gryffindor or gryffindor/slytherin (ive never actually read any HP or HL fanfics, but i was always a romione shipper, and although i never dabbled, i was always interested in dramione/considered reading fics about them), but yess the slytherclaw dynamic just suits the MC/HL so much, especially with seb and his own personal quest for knowledge regarding anne's cure, like u said
(also about your second ask, im glad u also enjoyed my ominis oneshot!! as for the nsfw idea.......👀👀....consider it noted👀( and even if i dont draw them im ALWAYS down to get some nsfw ideas or just ideas in general for either seb/clora OR ominis/MC. u never know what can spark inspiration😏)
TY AGAIN🙏🙏🙏
#its funny bc before HL came out i was already in such a good girl/bad boy dynamic mood so i was SO close to looking up dramione fanfics#but i never got around to it and then HL came out and that was that LOL#its so funny to me that ive never read a single HP fanfic despite being such a romione shipper#i guess bc canon satiated me for once?? bc after growing up with shounen animes where no romance happens at all#the ron and hermione crumbs we DID get was already more than i was used to getting LMAO#but i aint satiated with HL😤so many fanfics tbr when im done with my own. & at least ill have a lot to choose from thanks to the wait LOL#ask
65 notes
·
View notes
Note
i mean while we’re on the topic of vampy jake… might as well share these yk.
peak vampire jake.
I- um... lord save me now... 🫠🫠
#i woul like to start with...#those pictures will literally kill me every time i see them#like the hair#the blue eye contacts??#the lip ring??#the outfit?!?!#like HELLO#but also#like this give vampy prince vibes#vampy prince jake dying to have something of his own#bc his brothers tend to hog everything#then he runs into you in the woods during a midnight scroll#and his instantly captivated by not only your beauty#but your smell#you smell so sweet and addicting that he knew he had to have you to himself#ofc when he brings you back his brothers instantly want a piece#but he gets possesive and keeps you close to him#though the ego boost hed get when you tell him that hes the only one you want...#he instanly start attacking you in heated kisses becoming quite literally addicted#and boy once you let him get a taste of your blood you arent gonna be going anywhere#not that youd want to anyways#and I need it writen out or i'll die#thewayivebeenitchingtowriteavampyenhafictoo#you've got me goin down a rabbit hole#alvojake answers#kay talks ☕#my mooties 🫶#✮stella
31 notes
·
View notes
Note
That is generally sad because having parents who aren't really abusive or emotionally straining yet- they don't really feel like people who LOVE you? I guess? Like- Hajime's parents were probably just normal everyday parents like Makotos but, I'm just spit Ballin here, they're less optimistic than Makotos parents, who in contrast, always bonded with their children and loved them right off the bat.
You can feel like a stranger in your family, and that sucks. It's no one's direct fault and no one can point to any huge grievance, which makes it hard to pinpoint, which means you never get the Comfort Of Family or the Tools of Dealing With Abusive Parents- you just. Manage.
#Parents who do their due diligence but cannot connect with their kid once it has a personality and opinions- it's real ask your friends#I feel like Hajimes parents just sort of went By The Book and nothing more.#Convo at the dinnertable was just. How was school? How was work? Any extra curriculars?#The neighbours got a dog. How is your old friend? Oh you havent talked in 6 years? The balcony needs painting.#That's it. Bed time. No one ever gets close at all. It's more polite conversation than you'd have at the bus stop#No interest and most of all no desire or dare to rock the boat. This works. We function as a family. That's the best we can do.#Otherwise we'd bring up a problem which unearths years and YEARS of unhappiness that ruins our otherwise stable life#Every single moment of frustration comes out at once. Because none of it ever got aired out. Cant have that can we??#So again. How was school? Doing good? Try hard okay? Good night.
97 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
noqueronaa-art
Art and stuff
theelftrap
The Elf Trap
phineas-alphard
And Here It Is
buzzdweekly
buzz'd! weekly