a cuteguy design

digital study of a scene from the film eerie tales/unheimliche geschichten (1919) :-)

what is UP everyone I just finished my very first one-shot fic EVER!!

[Image text: When I first got into DMMd at age 13 (Don't ask why I was consuming this at 13… it's a canon event, yaoi conversion. It was like… 2014/15. Don't come for me.) I was the biggest Mink/Aoba shipper, especially when re:connect came out. And I haven't been into DMMd in a while, although it still holds a special spot in my heart! Well, I got back into it and I got converted into a KouAo shipper. I have no idea how I was so blind to KouAo but I am enlightened now at age 21.]

(Note: credit for adding the WordArt to the base image goes to @maxrng.)

revenge on @sicc-nasti of their oc courier and my hacker !! they are so besties coded <3

some romance charts that i found abandoned in my files and decided to finish up (hardest part was choosing a single song my playlists are too long send help)

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weekend update, please excuse my overzealous signature there. Finally finished Kerdor's colors! Idk how i feel about the coloring style but it's pretty fast and easy which is what this is supposed to be so uh :shrug:

dude the charlie fixation has gotten so bad that HIS interest have seeped into MY dreams. this time i was running down a hill away from eggman, and for some reason eggman was trying to destroy these little qsmp eggs and i was trying to collect them and stop him, and as i was running down this hill I said something along the lines of "classic LIBERAL eggman, inventing fake things like women and gamer girls" before jumping and clearing two fences doing the cleanest fucking tuck and roll I've ever done in my life like seriously oh my GOD i hit it so cleanly i didnt even feel it then sliding under one of those parking garage entrance polls to keep running. I ran all the way across the baseball field (?) until i got to someone on the track field and was like "HOLY FUCKING SHITASS DUDE DID YOU SEE THAT!?!!????" and she didn't so I was just like "ITS OK I GOT IT ALL ON VIDEO!!! HOLY FUCK DUDE!!!!!!!" and the dream ended. i don't speak like that. i don't make jokes like that and the last time i tried parkour was on a trampoline and i nearly paralyzed myself but now i REAALLLYYYYYY wanna try learning the basic vaults and rolls again fuck me dude what the hell did i just get possessed or something

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2x21 "crisis" really is a perfect episode

every single that ashnikkos released for weedkiller is jus proof 2 me this album is going to be legendary .. she totally figured out exactly what sound is perfect for them .liek. the scream that i scrumpt

*arrives three weeks into pride month* any mobbers?

my controversial lupin iii opinion is that the end of part 5 rules actually (even tho the very last episode is kind of a mess and obscures some the cool shit going on beneath the surface in its haste to wrap everything up)

okay. so hear me out but I think it’s a mistake to read the end of part 5 as a traditional narrative that actually takes place at some point in the (already convoluted lol) lupin iii continuity. in my estimation it’s not, it’s more like... metanarrative of the whole show/franchise. a series of metaphors. a story about the story of lupin iii. no, lupin hasn’t actually been wearing a mask the whole time we’ve seen him in canon and he’s just some random dude we don’t know under there -- except on a metaphorical, emotional level. that is kind of the point of him as a character; the tension between how much we get to glimpse of his honest internal life and how much is withheld from us (making us want to share in it all the more) is part of the enduring appeal.

and letting fujiko finally see behind that mask in one stroke resolves the doubts and struggles in their relationship that’s been running through the whole season, doubts that the ‘traditional’ forms of affirming/validating love and intimacy in a heteropatriarchy -- marriage, cohabitation, all the things they’re grieving didn’t work out for them the whole season, ‘what’s wrong with us’ -- never could resolve. y’know it’s like that quote from the seven husbands of evelyn hugo:

People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them bare and their response is 'you're safe with me'- that's intimacy.  

that’s the metaphor there. if you interpret it literally then yes, that whole scene is very very blind shock value stupid lol, but for those last few episodes of part 5 the fourth wall is so thin you can read the braille writing on the wall through it. (fujiko is sitting in a cage wearing a wedding dress. I don’t think the symbolism is particularly subtle lmao.) lupin finally letting himself be seen by her fully, and her understanding and accepting it, is more important than anything society has told them proves the ‘realness’ of a relationship, and it’s what helps them get through the grief of what they thought they ‘should’ be to each other to the realization of what they already are to each other and that they are enough, they have nothing they need to prove to anyone -- to themselves, or to the world. they do love each other. that’s what matters. and so it goes, that’s the sort of storytelling they’re doing in that last arc. which admittedly is confusing because it’s not what they’ve been doing in the rest of the season at all so if you haven’t been picking up on the nebulous narrative ~*vibes*~ signposting it, you’d understandably be extremely confused. 

(btw one of my favourite scenes of all of lupin iii canon is in the penultimate part 5 episode, where lupin and jigen are sharing smokes (in the aftermath of jigen’s perhaps sexiest scene ever), and lupin essentially lets jigen in on the secret that they’re fictional characters. and after thinking for a few moments jigen is like ‘I get to be a story with you? AND I get my own cool theme tune? heh. yeah, I can live with that’. it’s just soooooooooooooooooooooo... it makes my writing brain go crazy. what a strange yet beautiful way for fictional characters to show love -- to help someone else see the truth of their own self/nature on a metatextual level. peak sometimes-benevolent trickster god lupin AND partners being partners content. jigen is considering his own potential obsolescence in a changing world and lupin tells him that stories live as long as they’re needed, as long as they resonate -- a good story is never obsolete, it will always have been even as it ends. also the vague vibe from how jigen reacts to lupin going to fujiko in that last ep that he has already seen beneath that mask, he already knows… brainworms for days and years and decades folks)

I really like the idea that castle of cagliostro still is the endpoint of the lupin iii canon timeline as we have it today -- miyazaki hit on something compelling and melancholy there and I think deserves to be conserved -- but I don’t believe that’s incompatible with the end of part 5 at all, even though it ‘calls back’ to it like it’s something that’s already happened. because the end of part 5 is not uh, for lack of a better word, real. it’s in sort of a dreamlike space of commentary and -- I say this with love -- fond retrospective franchise navelgazing. and it’s been 50 years, some navelgazing is well earned frankly.

(of course people are perfectly free to hate part 5 and especially the ending for any reason they so wish!  the ending is atrociously paced and the way they wrap up ami’s arc especially is uh, how do you say, unconscionable and slapdash, and the season has plenty of other problems. but to me there are so many interesting meaningful things going on at the end there and I wanted to ramble about it some) 

if they’re gonna be stacking bs power party tricks on top of each other like a jenga tower, the least they can do is let vecna possess will and speak through him. like the whole vecna and lucas’s voices mixing scene, but not in someone’s head, in real life.

i think unless they really shift things that will is going to remain Too Selfless For Evil, but vecna using his body and their connection as a vessel for evil would be really cool to see

(i guess it’d be again because he was possessed in s2. but like More possessed. also as we all know, the universal queer experience is being attracted to a queer-coded villain. so mike’s watching and worried sick for will but also wondering why he finds this weirdly attractive--)

What is WRONG with me!?

idea in my head: i would love to animate what the little buddies would do while you get a combo, even if it's just like 5 frame "animation" bc i'm not good at animating

problem: how do i. draw out and animate a combo. like the actual puzzle game part, how would i even start to do that. do i just leave it up to the imagination

it has come to my attention that the most efficient way to do things is to just do them, so with that in mind i have started FINALLY drawing the silly little good omens animatic that has been living in my head for (checks watch) two years.