We're Cursed

Whelp, it has happened. Both @helly-watermelonsmellinfellon and I have come down with whatever Dave brought home. I ran a fever all night and this sh*t went right to my lungs. My asthma is now messed up and my breathing is really tight. The congestion is unreal.

@helly-watermelonsmellinfellon is running a fever as well. We both were going ape trying to sanitize everything. We tried. We failed.

We were able to get some meds but there are three adults using the meds which means they will not last long. I'm out of nebulizer meds and my doctor is an ass. So when I say we're screwed, I mean it.

oh dear heavens she fucked me up worse than i thought.

Guess what yall :3

Your (probably least) favorite artist is feeling like shit again!

I'm not sure why.

I just am.

Normally when I'm on this state I'd draw things to make me happier, but I don't even have the motivation to even draw tiny doodles.

I probably won't be posting for a while.

Love y'all.♡

I have a headache and some asshole parked outside is deciding to blast music for the entire fucking city to hear.

I had a terrible, awful, horrible night last night.

But i wake up to love in my inbox.

I love you guys tons. Seriously

Uhm. Enough doomscrolling for today me thinks

Selfshippers who ship with weird/unappealing characters. I love you. Like hell yeah you go get with Mr Crocker. Go get with lord faarquad

Must be a Sugondese joke.

Does... does this implies that... Chilchuck is the tallest of them all...? If they were all haflings, it's oficial that yes. Now, look at me play my game.

Chilchuck is said to be tall for a hafling, and he is. The avarage would be 100 cms, and he's 110 Laios is a tallman, but he's also tall for his race (the average height is 180cm for men, he's 185).

Marcille is 160 (elves are 150 and tall men 170, so we good here, I'd say she's average too). Sehshi is 140, he's actually taller than the average for male dwarves (135). And Itzusumi is shorter than the avatage of female tallmen (170), being only 150.

So far, if they all changed to the same race at the same time, Itzusumi would always be the shortest, followed my marcille. Senshi and Laios should be around the same height since theyre both 5 cms taller than the avarage (I know that as haflings Laios is taller, maybe he keeps being taller than Senshi just because). And Chilchuck would be the tallest. He's 10 cms taller than the avarage of his race after all.

Might this useless information hunt you until the end of your days.

(brain battery blinking red and almost empty)

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

I may draw something today, since I'm stuck at home with a hundred degree fever. :)

Please ignore my drunken ramblings.

if they dated i think it would be like this

like. idk. idk !!! maybe i should just kill myself? too bpd? whatever