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“Making him happy” [King!Aegon!Targaryen X Sister!Wife!Reader]

Warnings: Incest, cussing, expletives,+18,(f receiving), vulgarity, dark aegon, mention of fingering, mention of war and death.

Summary: Your husband feels very angry with your grandfather's neglect and you hate seeing his sour mood so as his queen and especially his wife you have to make him get better..

Aegon was sitting on the iron throne, watching you critically as you entered. Even though he needed his fleet, the thought of trusting a pirate disgusted him.

He didn't like the idea of ​​trusting these sea vagabonds He was feeling weaker and weaker after the Greyjoys refused to ally with him against your half-sister. You hated seeing him like this he was angry most of the time and he still hasn't forgotten what happened to your precious son.

You were standing not far from his throne you could see him complaining and showing his frustration to his grandfather and his mother. you felt that you should keep your mouth shut for a time.

You do not rule out that he might insult you in his anger. you really tired of hearing his screams and his inconsiderate words, and you felt a strong desire to silence him. You know very well that aegon can easily shut up is he was with you.

When the court was finally empty, you saw him leaning back on his throne and holding his temples with his eyes closed.

You stood at a distance from his throne and spoke.. “You look upset what's wrong? ”.

He raised his head slightly and then looked at you with a stern look and his lips curled into a frown “Don't act like you dont know! I need a fleet! I need ships! ”.

“I know! Just calm down...please ”. You speak in a low tone and take a step towards his throne. You stop again and speak again “You do not have to ask for the support of the lords, like a beggar asking for alms”.

He stares at you with a slight smile on his lips as she speaks.

“Of course, you are right, my queen, as always. It is time we strike fear into the hearts of traitors. They must learn that they have to recognize me as king, as you said. But still, I need the support of a fleet, and the only way to do that is to rely on sea pirates, which I cannot accept without disgust”.

Your heart skipped a beat when you saw him smiling at you again you're really missed his smile So you maintained eye contact with him and did not break it yet. “We will take what is our will fire and blood we may not have ships, but we do have dragons.. so. If you don't have ships... destroy enemy ships ”. you replied.

Aegon raised an eyebrow at your comment “Are you suggesting burning our half-sister's fleet?”

“Yes”

Aegon felt a wave of surprise, but he remained calm. At least your idea would take care of the pirate part.“Well, that's an interesting idea. But wouldn't that bring a reaction that we weren't ready for? I mean, the whore might just send her dragons as revenge”.

“She can't attack us in King's landing If she does she will have to burn innocent people along with us to take revenge and you know I don't think she's that stupid to do such a thing”.

Aegon nodded at your words. That made sense. If the black queen attacked him she would have to attack King's Landing along with them. And that meant bringing fire and blood to innocent people, which was something he didn't want either.

“You are right, she cannot attack me in King's Landing, that would be suicidal. Now that you remind me, that solves the pirate problem. We burn the ships, and as for the rest, we fight them by swords and blood”.

Aegon smiled more as he looked at you, happy to feel the satisfaction of finding a way through the problem of relying on pirates. This was not only a practical solution but also a solution that would satisfy him because it didn't involve relying on sea vagrants.

“We have found our solution. Now all we need to do is prepare the attack, coordinate the dragon strikes, and strike at the right moment. If we do that, it will be quick and effective. The victory will be ours”.

He was grateful to have an intelligent wife like you. you were a gift from the gods sent to him.The frown finally went away and was replaced by a small cocky smile.

He rose from his throne as he strutted his walk towards you he put his hands on your waist and lifted you up.

“Aegon! ” you chuckled.. “I feel dizzy”.

He chuckled as well then pressed his lips to yours It was a surprise kiss, but you welcomed it He slowly put you down but you wrapped your arms around his neck pressed your body against his own body. You wrapped your legs around his waist and he placed his hands on your buttocks to support you.

Aegon's hands moved slowly, tracing your curves and enjoying the feel of your soft skin. He lingered on each part of your body and savored every inch of you, letting himself feel the pleasure and heat radiating from her.

your lips remained joined, and he pressed his body against yours. His heart beat faster, and his hands moved lower on your body, exploring every inch of you. He wanted to feel your entire body against him, pressing himself against you as close as he could.

You felt like he lost his balance and started to back towards the Iron Throne. you chuckled on is lips as he He sat on his throne again while you were still clinging to him. Even his ruby ​​crown lost its balance and fell off his head.

You looked at the crown as it rolled to the ground he grabbed your chin to bring your attention back to him and kissed you again This time, more passionate and hotter his tongue joined the kiss as well. You can't and moan in his mouth too.

Aegon moaned louder in response and kissed you back, using his tongue to explore your mouth in the same way. your tongues danced together, and the passion grew higher.

your bodies pressed against each other, the heat of your bare skin causing a wave of tingling to sweep over your. His hands ran from your waist to your hip and then to lower, his fingers sliding beneath the fabric there.

“Ah- my love-

“ A good queen who know to please her husband ”. he whispered.. “how lucky I am”.. His tone and voice were full of lust and seduction.

Your cold fingers slid down to unbuckle his belt and invade his dangerous areas. Aegon groaned softly at the feeling of your cold fingers underneath his pants. your hand had a delicious effect, causing his body to shiver with pleasure.

His heartbeat grew even quicker, his breath grew heavier, and he felt that he was about to lose his control when you touched that spot. His lips became more active as he continued to explore your mouth, your tongues making their way while he felt your fingers below his pants. His kisses became more active and enthusiastic, and he felt his body twitching and trembling.

You pulled away from his embrace to kneel in front of his throne then you unziped his pants. He wanted to speak, but he quickly felt your mouth on him He felt a shiver in his body. So he closed his eyes and let you comfort him. He let out a loud groan of pleasure begun to sink back into the throne.

“Fuc-fuck- yes.. darling.. make y- your king.. happy ”. He groaned as his fingers tangling in your hair. It didn't take you long before he reached his climax. You both forgot that you were in the throne room and were vulnerable to interruption and intrusion at any moment.

but you both were the king and the queen of the seven kingdoms and you will do whatever you want even if it meant having sex on that pile of metal.

Soon you felt him cum inside your mouth you took everything he gave you graciously. When you finally pulled away from him, he opened his eyes and smiled widely at you.

His thumb wiped away the remaining liquid on the corner of your mouth. you chuckled softly so did he Then he pulled you into his lap again he unzipped your pants this time to put it inside you.

Of course he wasn't done with you yet...you were the one who wanted to play dirty...

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Moonlight on a river 2/2

Pairings - Damian priest x Fem!Reader

Word count - 0.7k

Warning - Hurt/Confort, Fluff/ Angst

NOT PROOFREAD. Part 1

Damians POV

I walked into The Judgment Day’s locker room, getting ready for my match. But I noticed the atmosphere felt different. Dom and Finn were mostly quiet. They were never this way before?

“Guys tell me whats up why are you two so quiet?” I asked.

Dominik scratched his head as Finn opened his mouth to answer me.

“Look man we’ll talk after the promo,” Finn and Dominik both walked past me as I stared at them in shock.

After the promo , me , Finn , and Dominik walked back stage. Back to our locker room. I tried not to let my confusion get into the way of the promo, but I ofter found myself zoning out whole thinking about it. They had never acted this way towards me , so what made their feelings change? 

I sat down on the locker room bench as I waited for Finn and Dominik to talk.

“Look we know about the Y/N situation..,” Dominik spoke first.

“And we dont think what you did was valid man , I mean did you know what happened to her mom that day, and the fact you put the weight of a breakup on her is just cruel..” Finn chimed in.

I felt confused. 

“What happened with her mom?” I asked.

Dominik sighed as he began to speak.

“She got into a car crash — A drunk driver is what she said.” 

“Look the only reason we know this is because Rhea told us about. After she texted Rhea about the breakup, and she repeated what you said— she just broke down man,” Dominik had a sour look on his face , meanwhile Finn turned away from them both.

Then the realization hit me. Thats why her eyes were so red. She had been carrying a hard weight in her shoulder. And when I broke up with her , that was just the cherry in top. A heavy weight of guild filled my mind as Finn and Damian told me what had happened. By the end , I knew I had to talk to her. Make things right. That was the least I could do, I thought to myself.

Your POV

I layed in bed , curled up as a thick blanket covered my body, when I heard a key unlock the front door. My face morphed into confusion as I sat up from my curled up position in the bed. Soon enough I heard the door to now my own bedroom creak open. I felt my stomach drop as I saw a worried face. His face.

End of your Pov

He didn’t understand how you felt until he saw it. When Damian had walked into the bedroom , he first saw your worried and confused expression. Your eyes were bloodshot red and had darker spots under your eyes. 

“W-why are you here?” You asked. Your voice was shakey. Fragile. Like you could break any minute.

As you looked down, Damian came closer to your sitting figure. His hands found its place on both sides of your head. Making you look up at him. 

“I came to apologize. I didn’t know it was this bad — and I really messed up. I just want you to know it was a mistake. Ive been a mess these few days and I thought about coming back.. I did and when Dom and Finn told me what happened I knew I had to come back”.

“I know i messed up, just please ill do better this time. Im so sorry.” He finally completed his rambling as a tear rolled down onto your cheek.

“I don’t know if I could trust you so easily, b-but ill try. I just need you to regain my trust. Day by day.” You replied as  Damian blinked away the tears that threatened to drop from his eyes.

“I wanna make it up to you even if its little.” He said.

He opened his mouth to speak again. “Cmon let’s go eat dinner , and we could take a bth if you would like to?” 

I nodded as a sign of okay , and he went downstairs to get the food for us ready. A small smile found its way to my face as I finally felt joy enter my body. I was happy to finally have Damian back. You felt better already.

A/N 💬 - Im sorry this is kinda short!! But im trying to get requests done im sorry for how late its going just know im trying 💕

Heyyy, I was wondering if you could write a fic of reader being insecure of sakina's friendship with elisa? There are people here that say they might be together in a trip and some people on tiktok say they're dating.

Don't feel obligated to do it if you dont want to, thank you! 🫶

一 jealousy

♡ wc: 694

♡ reader is on the team

♡ maybe i self indulged a bit lets not talk about it

unfortunately being in a relationship with a team mate wasn't something that the public accepted so easily. so when it came to you and elisa, you two had to keep quiet about it. which meant acting less close than you actually are in public.

but the both of you always made up for it behind closed doors. your healthy relationship bloomed since the beginning and both of you were extremely happy.

however, this lead to people assuming things about the team, such as how close elisa and sakina are. rumors of them being together made their way around. it didn't usually bother you, knowing you were the one elisa loved like that. but everyone now and then, the gossip got to you.

you can't help but feel a bit jealous about how close she is with sakina. sure, you and sakina were friends too, being on the team and all. but her and eli were closer. it didn't bother you at first, but today you were already feeling off.

so when you saw elisa and sakina laughing and talking about who knows what at practice, it sent you into a sour mood. you didn't bother to say anything, feeling like it was stupid. so you went about your day, trying to remain normal.

it was going well until practice was over and you had to leave with elisa. “let me, amour.” you forced a smile at her when she grabbed your bag for you as you two walked to the car. you didn't say a word, caught up in your own feelings.

it was quiet until the car started moving and she glanced at you, one hand on the wheel. “you okay?” to which you nod, not bothering to speak up. but elisa could tell something was wrong. she moves her right hand to rest on your thigh.

you smile softly, her attention to how you feel always made you happy. but jealousy soon consumes your mind again on the ride home. you can't help but get in your own head about it. slowly pissing yourself off.

you didn't plan on saying anything, but the way you slammed the car door shut and rushed to the front door was more than enough for eli to catch on.

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she wastes no time following you into your shared bedroom. “baby? what's wrong?” you roll your eyes, not necessarily at her, but yourself for feeling this way. “nothing.” you mutter, picking up a clean pair of clothes to shower.

elisa’s hands come over yours before you can make it to the bathroom, gently pulling the cloth and throwing it onto the bed. she stands in front of you when you look up at her. your eyes water and swiftly pulls you into her arms.

you can't help the tears that fall as she caresses your hair. “talk to me, mon amour.” you take a breath, wiping your tears and lifting your head to look at her. “it's stupid.” she shakes her head, pulling you to the bed and into her lap.

“it isn't if it makes you cry.” you sigh and lean your head on her shoulder. “it's just,,,you and sakina are really close. everyone thinks you're together.” it's quiet for a moment and you consider apologizing for even bringing it up, but then she speaks.

“baby, i'm with you. you.” she says gently grabbing your chin to look at her. “i know. i just get,,jealous sometimes.” you say quietly, sort of hoping she wouldn't hear.

elisa smiles, kissing the corner of your lips. “there's no need my love. but if it bothers you, let's announce it.” you eyes widen slightly at the idea of going public. you two would eventually, but the awaited reaction is what scared you both.

“you sure?” she nods, “it's about time anyways. i don't know how much longer i can continue to hide my love for you.” she says smiling before peppering kissing all over your face. you giggle, holding onto her.

when she pulls away she speaks, “come on, let's go shower.”. she stands, not putting you down. “let me show you i'm yours, okay mon amour?”

© citysweet 7:25pm 122423

一 enjoy anon!!

There a lot of people who are falling for Ron but I will maintain loyal to Ash, I love you big dummy with anger issues, i have a weakness for 1 bad boys 2 anger boys 3 childhood friends amd wellp (in my case) he has ALL THE POINTS LOL AND REDHEAD IS A BONUS

And… well, maybe Skylar too, I dont know why someone would like to hit the sweet boi, i mean, the sweetest in life the dirtiest in bed leave the cute boi in peaceeeeeee! Baby boy baby. When you say in a post (in my case, again) he is the most similar to Vicktor in his youth I was screaming like a fanboy not gonna lie, so, if someone wants to hurt him, they will need to pass me before 😤😤 jkjk

Ps Im afraid to question this, but, if we go woth Skylar route, this os gonna make the relationship between Mc and Ash tense? I dont wanna be in bad manners with him, i really like both of them, but if this can be painful to Ash i dont know if i wanna be with Skylar xDD why am i like thissss?

Haha I’m glad you guys are really loving Ash 🥰 Also, Ash hitting all of your points and even a bonus point for being a redhead 😆

And I’m really happy that you’re liking Skylar too and is giving them a chance🥹 I’m also a bit surprised with the vitriol Skylar gets 🥺 I definitely didn’t expect so many people hating Skylar before meeting them. I do expected some to be wary or even dislike them because of MC’s relationship with their mother, but not downright hating them😭

As for the last question with Ash, Ash will always be a little tense if MC flirts with another RO in front of them, no matter which RO or if you flirt with Ash or not. 😁 Just, please don’t flirt with them and then flirt with other RO right in their face 🥺😭 But you shouldn’t worry about souring or hurting your relationship with Ash because you choose another RO. Once MC finally has the conversation and clear things up with them, they won’t get that jealous and will start to relax a bit. They will still be happy being MC’s BFF. 😊

hiiii sooo what im asking is if u could do anything that is related to this concept:

where raffy x reader are in a on & off relationship and it’s toxic but she “loves” him and her friends always tell her to leave him, so during the party while everyone was drinking and doing drugs, she and archie kinda clicked and danced together like how natalie & archie did. Moving on they were so into each other that things lead to another, that they slept w each other, despite the fact that she’s w raffy.

*there is consent involved. (not related to what actually happened in the movie) if that make sense.

Summary: After years of letting yourself get used by raffy you move on, and hes not happy about it.

Pairing: Raffy barton x reader, Archie x reader

Warnings: Cheating, very toxic relationship, gaslighting, men being men, soft archie! raffy being raffy, implied nsfw, Natalie and archie dont "like" each other.

a/n: I love this prompt so much so thank you for requesting!! I hope you like it!!

"You have to leave him." Alice says for what must be the hundredth time despite knowing its pointless. You and Raffy have been in a "relationship" since highschool. Its always been... complicated between the two of you, aka you have always remained loyal to him while he goes off and sleeps with other girls.

Its a constant cycle, you find out he's slept with another girl and rant to your friends, they tell you to leave him, you go back and yell at him, he ends up convincing you he didnt mean it, you two have sex and make up.

"Im done with him." Alice rolls her eyes, "Yeah yeah that's what you always say." You look down at your hands, You're currently sitting in Natalie's room while the two of them get ready for a party at alices place. You were also supposed to be getting ready but you got send a video of raffy making out with some girl at a party.

"Im seriously done this time i mean... what the fuck." You were out of town for the past couple days because your aunt had been very sick and your family feared it may be the end for her so you went to go see her. She ended up surviving which you were glad about but while you were out of town Raffy hooks up with another girl? Again?

"He's a piece of shit i dont even know why you're with him in the first place." "He cares about me, or... at least he did at some point." He's always been somewhat of a player but he was your first everything, you love him, loved? you dont know. He made you feel liked, loved, and you feared you may not find something like that again.

You get a text from him, 'Are we really still doing this silent treatment act babe? I said i was sorry.' Piece of shit. Your mood only sours as you frown at your phone.

"im sorry babes, he sucks but i know you care about him." Natalie has finished getting dressed and sits down on the bed next to you and grabs your hand, "Thank you nat." She squeezes you hand, "you should come tonight." You groan, he'll definitely be there and you definitely dont want to see him. "I dont know-" "Oh yeah shes going." Alice throws a bundle of clothes at you, "Get dressed." "Alice-" "No. No mopping around not this time youre gonna go out there and your gonna look hot and forget about that bastard."

You stare at the clothes and think about throwing them on the floor and laying in bed, sobbing your heart out but you know archie would be at tonight's party sticking his dick in anything that moves and you want him to see you not talking to him. "Fine." Alice and natalie cheer as your stand up and get dressed.

As youre putting on the finishing touches alice has a thoughtful look on her face, "Is something wrong?" She shakes her head, "Its just, i thought you should know archie had a massive thing for you." Natalie gasps as she looks at alice in shock, "No way...." "Yes way, i caught him one time stalking your insta and he confessed to me." You stare at her through the mirror in shock as she smirks, "You should talk to him tonight."

Natalie hits alice on the arm as the two begin to talk about the news and all you can do is stand there in shock. No. it cant be true rugby player archie? alices brother archie? the guy in raffys main friend group archie? It cant be true. He avoids you at all costs, always giving you weird glances, he avoids eye contact- Oh.

Raffy still lingers in the back of your mind as you think over this new info. Even on the way there you have barely said a word. Raffy continues to text, his words getting more angry his last message stings, 'i dont know why im always the bad guy when youre the one leaving me alone. a guy has needs.' You throw your phone at the ground of the car as tears pool in your eyes. Natalie hugs you as you cry, it sucks when the guy you love treats you like shit.

When you arrive the party is already in full swing. Sweaty people people grinding on each other. People spread across the room drinking, smoking, making out and doing anything else imaginable. Your eyes scan around the room as they always did, searching for him. You dont see him. Alice and natalie walk to the kitchen to grab a drink. "I thought you were gonna get here an hour ago." Archie, he stands behind you addressing alice who rolls her eyes.

He looks at you and gives you a nervous smile, "Hi." you for what feels like the first time take him in, he's large, much bigger than raffy, you fear you make prefer that, he has a cute face and smile, his hairs also nice. Its strange to be thinking this way, espcially when youve only ever though like this about raffy. You realize all your doing is staring and look at the cup in your hand, "Hi."

Alice laughs as she drags natalie to the dance floor saying something about have fun and winks at you. Shes sick. You turn back to Archie and hes glaring at his sister, an annoyed look dawning his face. "im sorry about her." you laugh, "no shes cool." A moment of silence appears before you two fall into an easy conversation. Its weird, your not used to a guy being so curious about you, hes asking you everything from what you like to your past and you love it. its so nice to have a guys full attention for the first time in forever but raffys voice nags you in the back of your head.

'youre always the one leaving me.'

'im the only guy for you baby.'

'no one will love you the way i love you.'

you suddenly feel sick, the room spins and you rush out of the room and towards the backyard. As you breathe in the fresh air you try to calm down your racing heart you move through the yard and freeze. Are you fucking kidding. There he is, laying on the backyard couch with his fingers in some fucking girls pants. And he doesnt even notice you.

You turn back around and march back inside. You need to leave you rush to the door but get stopped by archie, "Are you alright?" You break down, he pulls you into his arms as you cry. He takes you up to his bedroom for some privacy, as you two sit on his bed he tries his best to comfort you, "he's an asshole." "hes your best friend." "that doesnt mean he gets to treat you like shit."

You look at him and he's looking at you the same way he used to. It makes you feel warm. You kiss him and he kisses you back, its odd, you havent kissed anyone else other than raffy. His lips are warmer than raffys and kisses softer than raffy does. Raffy kisses like he just wants to get it over with but archie kisses you like he means it like he wants you to enjoy it. Its odd.

You pull him back to lay on top of you as you lay on the bed. He pulls away and looks at you, "I dont want to force you-" "Its okay i want to." and you do and its wonderful.

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Morning comes and you wake up, youre not in your bed but in archies. you look to the side and there he is admiring you. He notices that you caught him and looks away, "Morning." you smile, "good morning." You wrap your arms around him and he pulls you tight against him. "Ive always wanted to do that... To be with you." You pull back slightly and stare at him.

Before you can reply his door bursts open and his guy friends enter, they all look at the sight in shock as archie rushes to cover you and yells at them but your eyes are locked on only one who has an odd look on his face.

"You piece of shit."

Grey asmo here hope you are fine

So i was thinking that if Leviahan is the most stupid according to Lilith and if Belial works with him are they both pretty stupid and Belial who is also a sexist mysognistic prince of hell (got me thinking of Obey Me...)

In the books they have done dark stuff like telling the demons not to attack london for a while so the shadowhuntets let their guard down, and Leviathan and flood the place and Belial possessing his grandchild because wants to kill them all this plan fails.

Asmodeus (we dont talk about) is the one who i know has some sort of shit still going on with a vamp/human simon, who has lost his memories cuz of him.

Asmodeus and Azazel besties also share the same powers kinda they both take people memoies (good and bad)

Asmodeus quoted

“Human memories, freely given, are like food to us,” said Asmodeus. “Demons live on the cries and agony of the damned in torment. Imagine then, how nice a change of pace a feast of happy memories is.

Mixed together, they are delicious, the sour and the sweet.” He looked around, his cat’s eyes glittering. “And I can already tell there will be many happy memories to take, little vampire, for you are much loved, are you not?”

Simon looked strained. He said, “But if you take my memories, who will I be? I don’t—”“Well,” said Asmodeus.

“I could take every memory you have and leave you a drooling idiot, I suppose, but really, who wants the memories of a baby? Dull, dull. The question is, what would be the most fun? Memories are delicious, but so is pain. What would cause the most pain to your friends, here? What would remind them to fear the power and the wit of demons?” He clasped his hands behind his back. Each of the buttons of his white suit was carved in the shape of a fly.

I love this man i really do the most hated character but god if OM asmo was like this

Hello again grey Asmo!

Hmm well that definitely sounds like a villain speech to me. Of course, I'm only going by what you're giving me, so there's that, too lol.

Memory alteration is an interesting power. It can really mess up an entire story line, especially if your viewpoint character is one of the people whose memories have been changed or removed. It's a good way to reveal some massive stuff in a story. Like oh all along, this crazy thing has been happening, but you didn't get to see it because the point of view character's memories have been altered! And just as that character gains their memories back, you get to witness them learning about all that stuff... ah, it's a good storytelling tactic.

However, it sounds more like this guy would be using it to... eat the memories? Absorb them perhaps?

I'm sorry, I'm just making random guesses over here lol.

Anyway, this kinda thing is way too dark for OM, so if you ever wanna see that kinda thing, you'll have to write it yourself. Or find some fanfic by someone else who is already doing it.

It would certainly be more on the demonic side of things, though. And really, that would make things more interesting.

happy 100 followers!!! can i request f,i,j,k from the sfw alphabet with robin

thank you sm! of course i can darling :)

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

She loves the idea of you as her wife but she doesn't want to jump into something so big so quickly, but she's a lesbian... so it's not easy (iykyk), she is still so young too so that’s another reason. She would definitely be the one to propose but I dont think she would do it until maybe her early 20's.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Again, she is a lesbian, things happen pretty quick. Maybe a month or two into your guys' relationship and she said it, but we all know what she is like so a whole lot of nervous rambling came before she blurted it out.

*rambling* “ but what i’m trying to say is, i love you”

“i love you too”

“really?! i didn’t think you would actually say it back becau-“

“robin… ROBIN! come over here and kiss me”

“i- oh, okay!”

she is like a giant puppy.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

She gets jealous pretty easily, you are often being hit on by men since you aren’t out yet (it's the 80's, you definitely aren’t out) and she would love to just come over to you and kiss you to make a statement but she can't since she's not out either so instead she would just grab your arm and walk away with you, without a word. You can tell when she is jealous because she has this sour look on her face, it's quite funny actully.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Robin's kisses are ALWAYS super gentle and soft, unless yk. She likes to kiss you literally everywhere, she will kiss all over your face just to make you laugh and she will kiss you hands and wrists to let you know how much she loves you, it’s like a secret code. When she is lying on your stomach she will kiss there too, maybe throwing in a few raspberries to make you squirm and laugh.

im sorry i woke up from a bizarre digimon dream and i was gonna ask for ur opinion on how tamers handled renamon's character but you should get any important stuff on yoru plate out of the way first. ok cool

Hello i have a lot of scattered thoughts on this. dub renamon and sub renamon are very different though, so please know this comes from the perspective of someone who has only been through the show all the way on the sub. my thoughts on dub renamon are, i don't like how they made her a femme fatale when literally none of that is in the original. i dont like how she is constantly quipping and i don't like how she is like I am a woman .But i am awesome. it feels very annoying, very reductive and gets rid of all the things i thought made renamon charming in the original. but thats enough about that.

Renamon as a character is pretty one note and i think shes handled pretty well as far as that goes. having a digimon that is essentially a stoic, mechanical protector of women is fun. it never changes about her that she is single-minded & unexpressive but also earnestly insightful and caring (even if only out of obligation & for self serving reasons at first) beneath a cold exterior , and i think it always works. She's charming & a fun straight man for the two goofier digimon that comprise the rest of the main cast. i think her characterization is really consistent and shes cute and a lot of fun. BUT its not as simple as that because shes like, only one half of a diptych really, in tamers and in digimon broader, the relationship between a digimon and their tamer has its own self contained narrative arc, and thats where things get stupid with renamon & why i kind of hated ruki for like, the first 25 episodes of the show, Because it is not always good.

It is established that digimon tamers was kind of written as they went along and you can tell with ruki and renamon. The amount of times they double back and have the exact same character conflict (Where ruki and renamon fight over being unable to get what they want out of the other party) over nad over again is like mind numbing. by the third time you just chekc the fuck out youre like OK RUKI THIS IS THE PART WHERE YOU LEARN THAT YOU HAVE TO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOUR DIGIMON NOW!!!!!!!!!!! and because renamon is stoic and stubbornly affixed to her purpose as a weapon and getting stronger theres no movement on her end either. The two characters stay static in this illusory semi-developing state for like the entire first arc and its terrible, it was my least favorite things about tamers first arc, i was literlaly like. Ok when is renamon gonna wise up and just get really fucking mad at ruki. and it never happened. Once the writers finally decide they're done teachign ruki for the third or fourth time that renamon is a living being and not a weapon and that they have to genuinely trust eachother to get stronger then i think their character arc gets way more interesting but it leaves such a sour impression of ruki in general. Most importantly its obnoxious to sit through. When i look back on it thoguh i actualyl kind of like it, but i hated watching it.

the funnnnn part of renamon &rukis arc comes once that hurdle is crossed and then their partnership crosses the line from like I only dubiously view you as autonomous into like, full blown tortured codependency. and that is so interesting to me that it retrospectively makes the part of the show where neither of htem can decide if they think the other one is really alive or not make sense. Its like the second ruki decides renamon has a soul they become completely enmeshed to the extent that their biomerge evolution is literally kicked off by what appears to be a double suicide. Its fascinating. They like communicate to eachother in a language shared by only them and are literally never separated from eachother and rukis like the only time i relaly feel peaceful and happy is when im piloting renamon like a mecha. Its kind of subtextual in the show itself because their narrative arc kind of falls to the wayside as takato&guilmon jian&terriermon juri and impmon are prioritized, but i feel like the extent of this is really emphasized in message in the packet, wherein its revealed that ruki has basically gotten like 20x worse as a person since renamon left and now feels like an empty shell without purpose, pathetically whispers into the void that she always saw renamon as the big sister she never had, & how she doesnt know who she is going to be and how she si going to live now. i am fascinated with this and honestly i did not like ruki at all until i looked at it through the lens that this provides. But when you do notice this and you think back to the show its self, its like, oh you guys REALYL were killing yourselvs for eachother, and now are both left tortured and alone in one anothers absence. And its great. i love this kind of character dynamic, i think its really distinct from the ohter ones in the show, and its kind of emotionally agonizing and pathetic in a way that i think is fun and interesting to explore. i think about it a lot, probably more than i think about the relationships between either of the main cast digimon&tamer pairs, so credit is due there.

In short i like renamon, she is consistent and always fun, her relationship with ruki is endlessly fascinating to me, i hate the first half of the arc, but the second half and the message in the packet epilogue retrospectively make it really resonant to me. Sorry for the fucking length of this reply my god. Thanks for the ask. Heres my picture of ruki hugging a 700 dollar renamon plushie she ordered in the mail after renamon got returned to the digital world and crying, from the stories in my brain. Hope this was enlightening

Hello again,

It's not that I think I'm really boring, it's just... well, I'd have a lot more to say if we weren't going to have to reveal ourselves at the end of this, you know? Speaking of which: Is there anything in particular that you wouldn't want to receive at the end? I can take a guess at some things you might like from what I know about you so far, but I don't want to get you something you already have, or that's not safe for bugs or something (like how dogs can't eat chocolate, and certain plants are poisonous to cats).

That game you were talking about sounds fun! I don't have a computer, but if I did maybe I'd play it too. Though, wouldn't camping be kind of a waste of time while you're in that type of situation? Making tunnels is smart though, I should use that strategy if I ever play it.

I can't say I eat much sour stuff, though it's not like I have a sweet tooth either. I guess I prefer salty/savoury stuff? But If I had to choose between sweet and sour, I think I'd go sweet.

Ah, I wasn't really planning on having to answer those myself... if that's the case maybe I should choose better questions this time, though I guess you can always ask me completely different ones anyways. It's harder for me to answer these since I'm supposed to stay anonymous, but I'll try my best.

I guess my favourite colour would have to be... maybe red. It just feels so vibrant and powerful and cool looking, you know? But I also feel the same way about blue, oddly enough... people always say blue is calming, but there are some really electrifying shades of it. And there are dangerous blue things too, like the ocean... I guess I'm not really sure. If I pick purple, does that count as both? Though purple itself isn't my favourite.

My favourite food is. Well, it's hard to pick just one, isn't it?

If I could make five wishes... see, this is the hard part. I kind of wish you were really anonymous, knowing that I'm going to have to look you in the face later just makes this too embarrassing (or incriminating). Though I do feel more comfortable writing this letter than the first one. Well, the pen pal version of my five wishes would be: 1) To be a great and powerful mage, 2) For my family and I to be healthy and happy for a long time, 3) For classes to be easier, 4) To end world hunger forever, and 5) A blastcyle

My day was alright I guess. It wasn't better or worse than my days usually are, though it by all means should have been considering these living changes.

Okay, for this next round of questions, why dont you tell me: What's your favourite class? What's your favourite animal other than bugs? Would you ever get a tattoo?

Mandatorily yours, Pen Pal

Hi Mainly things to avoid are pesticides and insecticides…. If you give me these I am making you eat them. Only weird people would appreciate such gifts. I guess also anything like toiletries…I don’t know I guess some people like them but I always feel like those are a secret insult where you're telling the other person they smell or something. I mean if things aren't made awkward you can always come to Ignihyde and try it out if you want. We can even handicap ourselves so you have a chance to win. Though you misunderstand the terms Camping and tunnelling, I guess it's hard for a normie to understand gaming lingo lmao. If you do want to brave face me in this game we will have to give you some normie to gamer translation cards. As for taste you can have things that are sour and sweet at the same time. I mean Lemons are often put in deserts and drinks right? But I guess it's an acquired taste. But sweets are always good. I really want to go see the maple taffy display but it would be weird to go alone…Everytime I peek in there's always groups of people and it's loud and annoying. Ah well maybe I’ll order some online to be delivered. You seem weirdly indecisive like you can’t just pick one thing to deem your favourite. I always find that quality weird and annoying. Would you be the type of person who when you ask what you want for dinner goes ‘I don’t know, what do you want?’ How irritating… As for your wishes, you're not really going for Miss Twisted Wonderland here you know… bar the last one, your wishes are so boring textbook answers. I’m hoping that to put me off trying to figure out who you are. As for the Blastcyle…I have never ridden one. I only tried to drive a car once and I crashed my brother's car into a ditch…. I haven't done any further attempts to drive anything since…. Fine, your questions: Favourite class. Well, I am pretty good at analytical magic. It helps sharpen my cardshark skills! I enjoy working out the mechanics behind magic and even peoples unique magic can be fun to break down to concept and mechanics. It makes it easier to work out counters too. Animals other than bugs. I like snakes. I even have my own, Snake-eyes who is an Arid Albino ball python. He’s rather placid and sometimes likes to hang out around my neck while I'm playing games or coding. As for tattoos…hmm maybe I have never really thought about it. How about you? It seems you have considered tattoo’s if you asked such a question. Another question: what do you hope to receive for the holidays and or gift exchange? Anyway I have rambled on far longer than any of us care for and people want to play games. Lets see if I can rinse them of there Thaumarks TTYL Rove

negativity rant; i suggest you don’t read

it’s just so sad realizing that i’m falling out of love, little by little, with racing. it used to give me so much happiness, even in hard days. like even with formula e, my beloved feel-good racing series, now i just… don’t feel it? but maybe its because the results of this race were awful to me idk. but fjdknfkf if i cant be happy with my serotonin inducing racing series how am i supposed to cope with the much more stressful and painful f1. also i used to love watching the feeder series… now its been months since i’ve seen an f2 race (and even w series lost some of its appeal after jamie’s comments). i have indycar that i enjoy a lot, but maybe it’s because this is just my first year being involved in it.

i have to ask myself… do i really like racing or do i like seeing people i click with winning? charles winning grill the grid gave me so much happiness, so maybe i’ll just take anything that is available.

but then again, i love watching quali, i love seeing overtakes, i love tech talk, i love strategy, so maybe racing is not the issue?? so the next logical conclusion it would be fandom life that is making me not stand the races i watch. but this site is addictive and i’ve met some of the most incredible people in here. i love creating, i love the community aspect of this. but no matter how hard i cater my online experience i always end up with a sour taste after the races unless my fav wins.

meh. i dont know. maybe im just a bit sad with how things turned out today and maybe i wont have these feelings tomorrow. we’ll see. want to rant more but my eyes dying bye

hi rose!! its me again, anon who has been making the asks about maisie and brina! (i love emails i cant send too btw, its such a beautifully written album, its so special to me to!)

im so SO happy you love my asks, i love reading your responses 😊

here is another one about olivia:

how long have you been a fan of hers/when did you become a fan? what song/album made you a fan? what are your top 5 liv songs? which of her albums is your favourite? have you been to any of her concerts?

i love mazzie and brina and liv so much and i like hearing your opinion and favourites about them!

pls let me know if there are any topics i can come up with questions about, thanks for replying❤️❤️❤️❤️

hi anon!!!! nice to hear from you again!!!

im so glad you love reading my responses AAAH!!!

ooooh im excited for liv!!!

i became a fan straight after drivers license came out, so early 2021!!! so that answers the next one - drivers license made me a fan!! so then top 5 liv songs here we go!!!!

1. brutal

2. lacy

3. drivers license

4. so american

5. one step forward, three steps back

favourite album is SO hard to choose because i loved sour but i also think guts is ridiculously good so i think i’d say guts but sour is so so special to me too!!!!

and lastly, no i sadly havent!! i tried to get tickets to guts world tour but i didnt get accepted to the presale thing sadly :(( but hopefully i’ll get to see her live one day - she’d be absolutely amazing!!!!

i will answer ANY asks you send they can be about literally ANYTHING you want i really dont mind!!!! i have a list of different things i like in my intro post, so you can look there if you want!!!! but really i will answer anything you want just let me know!!!

thanks again anon <333

July 1st, 2023

angry angry angry angry. hate this man angry angry hate hate hate him.

can never get rid of him either bc we are so fucking poor and have no choice I hate this country. i hate the supreme court too are you fucking kidding me not only do i have to deal with this fucking situation even though they are fucking divorced and im an adult (theres a child in the mix and i have to watch her suffer like i did and provide for her where he doesnt) but i also have to deal with increasing hate crimes and the descent into fascism and my country actively and legally discriminating against me. dont even get me started on the isolation and neglect and my powerlessness when it comes to both those things. i fucking hate.

it is so hard to keep going toward a future where i might be happy because i simply might be too poor or i might simply get fucking killed or simply fall into a depression again and again and again. it never ends. never a way out. i can only keep going and i will keep going for her because I have no choice no fucking choice never a choice and on the rare chance i do im sure I usually make the wrong one. even if i make the right one im always fucking in a rut. doomed since birth because of who and what and where and when and it never leaves and tends to get worse even under the illusion of getting better.

so angry so angry its already so hard and im just about in the most vulnerable and difficult and disheartening position out of all of them and he then goes and makes it fucking harder and im powerless and cant do anything EVER! im a fucking kid again and I will never forgive him. i never have. ive only been civil unlike fucking him.

i love parts of him but mostly i dislike the whole of him. I know i dont have to justify anything he knows what he's done over and over and how he's purposely and directly and to our faces hurt all of us. I dont have to justify but i am not as heartless as he is and i need to keep with that. i dont wish him ill will but i want him gone for almost forever and when he is gone from this world i will mourn but i will dually feel relief and if that isnt the saddest thing.

you miserable little man. are you proud of yourself. is this all worth it. you're pathetic. Yeah I will keep fucking going and it will suck the whole time but at least one day ill get us away from you and your power over us.

the power which is only financial. men like you have no power. there is only ash in your mouth where you convince yourself there is the sweetness of superiority, the sourness of being a victim. you delusional pathetic ass. one day you will be entirely alone. I will get us out from under you, out from under this scheme you pulled.

and you will have nothing. you will be nothing. and it will be your fault. and you know that. you perpetuate it for your insecure delusions. and we know it too. so go ahead and wait. god knows I am. im really just biding my time here. you may have the advantage now. but that will change and when it does you will never hear from me. i will be gone and in my absence there will be power. fuck you.

you know how this ends. enjoy your selfmade condemnation. it will feel a lot worse than how youve made us feel and what im feeling now. live with it you miserable old shit. try living with yourself and see what happens 🖕

"so did you feel any difference?"

well i dont really know for sure , yeah maybe i did find twenty six dollars shortly following but i am not looking for eternal happieness. maybe this is because i can only see to my horizon line but i cannot understand how happiness could exist without suffering. its suffering that makes happiness exist, like a membrane our negayive emotions.. experiences.. those are what defines our highest points in life. when you are happy you think back to times when you were not, when you are sad you think back to times you are not. in the moment you dont see the exact end of either but you know that at some point things will cycle back again, as with found in many things with nature the wax and wane the dips and booms of populations working in cohesion with eachother. I could say that suffering is what makes life important. Many things would not be important in the eyes of people if not for suffering, people wouldnt care if _______ was happening unless it caused some sort of inconvenience whether great or bad. Would people care about God if there was no suffering? Would God be important if there were no sour times to think back on during the highs of spiritual unwinding? No, people as a whole would not. That is the point. Not to avoid suffering by striving for eternal happiness or some personal associated vendetta but accepting things as they are. Im beginning to think this "eternal happiness" jargin is a test, it is redundant. if something is always true than it doesn't exist. Everything multiplied by zero is zero, zero has no value. At the least there are things that are always true that result in different values similar to the number 1 and its identity relationship with other numbers, but if something always results the same how can it be diffrientiated. I kinda like suffering in this way that i apprieciate life more. The highs of achieving something previously drilled into your mind was only for other people is incredible. If i were to lose the wane there would be no wax

This doesnt mean I dont respect God or tht I dont want to do this, but that I dont have a goal. Its not that I want to be "cheated" in fact its the opposite, I dont want to be. I want bad things to happen just as i want good things to happen in an equal amount so much so that it cancels out.

If I were to name a want, I do have a few. I do wish I had no attachments like this(this is one of them, funnily enough) but I think I would really like to just wander, bringing with me some sort of music device,a way to contact my friend(rpeferably string him along with me), and my thoughts. also maybe some paper and pens. Another want I have is I would like to know what it is like to be in other bodies to experience the world through different sensory organs and a different translation device. Anyways Yup im going to block anyone who follows me btw. No longer will i put these in my privates and i know people dont see these (thank god) but i fear the possibility so yup Yup yup Yup yup so on the rare chancesome one actually does see these alow me to live in my lie that you dont

Hello you mrs. shorty pants iced tea drinker honey nut cheerio lefty eyebag 😌

Finally! Someone who I can agree with about iced teas. Yes, I agree it is different from how the south makes iced tea! When I visited GA in June, that's all I drank because I missed it so much. But I don't order it here unless there is fruit flavor in it like peach or mango.

Aw is she okay? Was she having a bad dream?

But yeah, it's been awhile since you posted lol maybe you'll have time later to write the valentine fic 🤞 on top of the other series hahaha 😆 I wish I get to see like how you come up with ideas or the rough draft of your fics

Ahaha if I'm not on the switch playing games, I'll be on my phone playing games 😅 but yeah, I used to play until 2 or 3 in the morning, and my ex would be mad because all she can hear is me tapping on the console and quietly grunting.

I'm not that tall, I'm between 5'6 or 5'7. Okay, you're not short..just fun sized ahahahaha and I know, short people can be so mean. It's probably cause they have such a...short temper... ahahahaha okay okay no more jokes 🤣🤣

Ech yeah I've have balut before.. at first I was excited to try it until I found out what it was. Then I still tried it just because my mom told me to.. and it was too salty for me. I didn't like it much.

And a food I've had before and never again, would be bitter gourd, or in the Philippines we call it ampalaya. It is nasty, to me at least. It really is bitter but also sour?? But I don't like it, and I remember they always made it with eggs.. I would pick the green thing off and try to eat the eggs only.

How about you?

- CuriousGeorge

Good morning u nicknames creator corn-punn righty eyebag!

Yeah, whn i used to live in CA n i went visit south states like texas or louisiana i always look more for iced teas. Becausr south's iced tea hit different to me.hahaha. n now im happy i live in one of the iced tea heaven states. 😅 lol. But i dont like fruity teas though. I drink unsweetened black iced teas.

Em was okay, she was just having growing pain because she is tall for her age.

Well, good news for u i posted pt. 4. But i hv a little confidence on it. I think i didnt write it well. I think it was poorly executed.😔 so i was a little down n questioning my writing.

Well, i hope u will still like my future works since right now i think im losing my touch in writing.😔

Wow u r pretty tall.. n oh my gosh, short people has short temper, that was really funny.🤣🤣🤣 yes please please more jokes.hahaha.

Ah yeah, balut was horrible. Im sorry. I know some people say it's philipino's delicacy but it's a no no for me.i ate it one bite n i couldnt even swallow it. It was the idea of what it is makes me cant eat it.

What is gourd? Is it like a vegetable or something?

Balut is one of the thing i tried that i wont ever eat it anymore. Another thing i tried was Monkfish liver sushi. The chef told me it was so good n it's special so i tried it. It was so gross. N the main thing i really really hate n wont eat is frog. To me just looking at frog can make me want to throw up. My mom once tricked me n told me it's chicken. Then i bit the little bone that i know it doesnt look like chicken bones. So she finally told me that it was frog. I ran to the bathroom n threw up so bad. Not gonna lie, i was so upset with her at that time.😅

So u r running out of question? Does it mean u start getting bored talking with me? 😔

Just kidding.. it's okay if u r out of curious question. U can ask me whenever u have something in mind. I dont know if i ever asked u this, how would describe ur style.of clothing?

Cheerio!

Backwards

A few more hours into 2023, and already ending the year on a sour note. Not in the best terms with the family and I am not anywhere near prepared for the board exams. I had started my online diary on instagram a year ago but my paranoia always tells me a friend would find me on there, so to keep it more personal (with more meaningful entries, typing from a computer) - I've decided to head back to tumblr. I had a personal online archive as well but thats well in the past. Looked back today so I could look forward. I feel as if I've been moving backwards ever since I graduated college. I had my dream body and I let that go - and I think that is one of the reasons why my life has gone on a downwards spiral. My body has always been my main insecurity. Now that the pandemic had made me gain weight, so much that I dont think my college friends would recognise me anymore. Two years (or three) of countless diets and starving and I keep going back to this weight. 2x than what I was in my heaviest. Because of this, I've hid away and stopped communicating with my friends. My life has revolved around work ever since the pandemic started. I dated a guy I thought I liked, but ended it for not only me but him. And at that point I felt good because I finally had figured out that I was more than a relationship - something I centered my college life around. But I have not had any action since then. I used to be wanted, I used to be in relationships, I used to feel confident. After the 2 out of 3 college relationships - I lost everything. or at least it felt like it. I lost my spark in my eyes, my body and my car lol. (for future reference, you got into a car accident from a little heavy drinking and almost got locked up). I dont want to jinx it but I dont think i put enough effort to pass the board exams, and that's going to add onto the list of why I think my life is going backwards. But at the same time I want to go forward with it - because what if i do pass? and if i fail, i can get back up and just do it again right? I mean I failed my thesis, and I got back up 10x stronger. I really am looking up for 2023. The past few new years I've just seen it as another day, but i am hopeful for this new year. 1. Passing the January 2023 Exam 2. Losing weight 3. Taking care of myself, and becoming the better version of my best self (which was me in college) 4. Trying out a pilates, cycling and golf class I realised that I keep mourning for my past and that I should let go to move forward, but I've been stuck just there. As I type this, I realise the only reason why I keep looking back is because that was me at my best. Best self care, best body and best positivity (confidence). The root of this is mainly just me fixing my habits - with eating, with exercising. I think once I get back to a state of being happy with my body again, I can build on the other aspects. I looked back at pictures and I used to not be so food-crazy. I used to actually use make up, jewelry, nice clothes and fix my hair. Something that I dont do anymore ever since the pandemic - which resulted to an overweight, acne filled, inflamed eczema and lonely/depressed self. I need to get back up this year, and Im counting on myself to get back up. Hope my next entry will be me as an architect, in a comfortable weight and without an inflamed body! The reason why I love online archives, is so I can look back at it and understand what my head was like. My instagram entries were so shallow, and its great knowing that i've grown from it and im capable of doing so. With paper, my hand hurts so its hard to express every single thing Im thinking about. I WILL look back at this entry a year from today and I KNOW I would be in the place I want to be. I can feel it, or at least im manifesting for this to happen. Here's to a great, optimistic year.