i need more mutuals who listen to leanna firestone pls all of her music is so fucking good it makes me want to rip my hair out /pos

My playlist as QSMP

(warning im shit at english lang so my interpretation of songs may be way off... im also ace and often miss romantic implication so.. yeah if a song has lyrics which are like about an s/o and i havent specified i probably dont mean for it to be shipping)

songs included: tongues & teeth (the crane wives), pink in the night (mitski), gb eating gb whilst listening to gb (crywank), going to brighton (fresh)

TONGUES & TEETH - The Crane Wives hideduo fit pov fit as a self serving survivalist from a wasteland experiencing love in this cursed fuckin island • "ive grown a mouth so sharp and cruel its all that i can give to you my dear" habits from 2b2t even little things like his lack of trust, hasnt confided his true intentions to anyone - constant lies by omission - hes flawed and hes recognised it • "if you're fine with that you can be mine like that" theres very much something going on with hideduo but fit is insistent on his baby steps bc he doesnt want to hurt pac. 'are you fine with that?' • "you gotta know that this wont last" this is soooo fit coded bffr. i adored the conversations fit n ramon had but one thing that stuck out to me was that he would always specify that only he and ramon would escape. never mentioned anyone else. selfish in the most understandable way • "i will ruin you, its a habit i cant help it" again 2b2t ingrained habits that never leave. linked w above point, hes selfish and that isnt necessarily a bad thing just not great for a blossoming relationship • "i will love u like the ashes in my cigarette box" hc 2b2t!fit smoked - ramon told him off once but now that the baby's gone hes picked it up again, a headcanon bc i cannot imagine ccfit smoking since hes such a health buff - feels so out of character lmao strong thoughts about qfit no one even try to fight me - his entire character occupies a space in my brain PINK IN THE NIGHT - Mitski phissa missa pov devotion easy • "i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you" • "can i try again and again and again" i dont think i need to say more - tbh this could go for guapoduo too but the "can i try again" made me think of missa + how he wants to live up to phils expectations

GB EATING GB WHILST LISTENING TO GB - Crywank phissa still missa pov

"in a busy room youre all i see" literally THEM sorry during the mexican independence event they were literally all they could see.. them doing the dance together - it may as well have just been the 2 of them + phil jumping in front of missa to take pics of him alone w/o him noticing

"calm down dont let her see how fast your heart is beating" missa saying "im speaking weird so the translator doesnt pick up, i love you" THIS GUYYYYYYYY

"i think about you but i know im not good enough" bffr mr missa "ill come back when im a good enough father" sinfonia

"and I built you up to much, now I can't say what's on my mind in case I go and scare you away" missa doesnt want to burden phil because he feels like hes been such a bad father compared to phils dedication - now that hes back he doesnt want to disappoint him anymore

"and how could i compete with the world at your feet" missa coming back to like 3 men at phils whim LMAO

"i wouldn't want to hurt you by letting you hurt me you don't deserve to feel guilty"

"i just want you in my life"

sorry im so obsessed with their puppy love GOING TO BRIGHTON - Fresh tubbo coded, i mean with the name i had to give it to him in my mind hes talkin to phil • "things i care the most about dont seem to ever get old" his excitement over everything even the simplest things is so refreshing • "i feel the fire inside me trains passing over head" his determination posing a unique threat to the feds and i feel like its such an important part of his character. also he likes trains :) • "there are things i learnt inside my head that they cant ever take away from me" lil bugs and just knowledge of the game make him a great bug tester for the admins lmao. this guy takes any chance to glitch his way through life

"starting over is a sign of strength"

also honorary mention to that one person who said the garden was codebreakerduo coded because you are so right and true and based and i think of that post everytime i listen to that song. being so normal by peach pit was very celltw (is that what pac and cellbit are called?) to me but i didnt really have much reasoning

it is midnight and that means its saturday so i am here for my matchup 🤭 in all honesty i have been wanting to request one from u for so long bc i love the way u write your matchups loll, but ANYWAYS! could i pls get a haikyuu matchup? i go by she/her, im straight nd i’d like a romantic matchup 🫡 so im like 5’2 i think, dyed black hair (goes a bit past my shoulders and my natural color is brown), brown eyes, and i have a lot of freckles on my face. i have my septum and both sides of my nose pierced along with a few ear piercings.im an ambivert so how i act definitely depends on the environment im in but with the right people im very outgoing (very chatty lol). but my social battery also gets drained v fast so after big social gatherings i need some time to recover (usually recovering = taking a long nap). i get really snappy if i my social battery is drained so the whole recovery thing is v important lmao. i am also a very sleepy person, my friends like to joke that im chronically tired lmfao, i take naps almost every day and if im in a car, sitting down in class or doing something like that i probably will fall asleep. i cannot control it T_T i also trip, run into things, drop things, etc. all the time. my house could be dead silent and then out of nowhere u just hear a crash and “what the fuck” yea thats me sorry 🤫🤫 i also like to tease ppl a lot, not in a flirty way more like in a provoking way (i cant flirt i have 0 rizz). moving on!! some things i look for in a relationship r someone who can be patient with me and dont mind reassuring (if they do it without me asking its 100x better). i love when show theyre thinking abt me through little things like “oh i was at the store and i saw your fav candy so i picked it up” or “i saw your favorite flowers on my walk home and thought of you” id cry. also someone who isnt afraid to show they care (not in a sense of like pda but moreso they arent too prideful to do dumb stuff like dance with u at 2 am in the kitchen). anyways my type! they dont have to be like 7ft tall but maybe 5’9 or 5’10 +. i like funny guys but not funny at the expense of others. i also really like guys that are able to actually respect me as a person. i pride myself on being really smart and mature (when i need to be lol) and i genuinely would not be able to stand someone that saw me as any less than that. OK MOVING ON! hobbies/ interests! i love music. so much. music is my creative outlet and how i express myself. i annotate song lyrics. i connect with music through personal experience its just so so important to me. i am learning how to play the electric guitar so i can connect with it even more. my favorite artists rn are the 1975, mitski, ptv and sleeping with sirens:p although im always open to expanding my music taste!! i also like to play some video games(obsessed with animal crossing lately lol). aand my love language is words of affirmation. sorry if this is really long T_T and if you dont get to this no biggy but if you do tsym!<3

WHEN I TELL YOU THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD THIS MORNING LMFAOOOOO. and that little note at the beginning is so sweet! i am so glad i am able to do a matchup for you anon!! okay, so i have a perfect little dude for you, but it may be random so bear with me. i love this man, so i hope you do too!

the character I chose for you is...

KEISHIN UKAI!!!

OKAY

HEAR ME OUT!

ukai is flippin hot

i would love to be in your shoes

(he's my fav haikyuu character besides tanaka, so you're lucky frrr)

he would love your piercings

he's a piercing fella himself (he's what made me want to get my second ear piercings lmfaoooo)

like he thinks it's high key hot

he's also an ambrivert, so both of your personalities match up really well

he is totally understanding of your drained social battery (plus, he gets the same way) so he'll just let you nap while he works or leave you alone if needed

WILL 100% TAKE NAPS WITH YOU

like will hold you in his arms and nap a whole day away when he gets the day off

you will always knock over things in his shop and he'll just laugh or wait for you to pick it up while dead staring at you lmfaoooo

he'll definitely know if you walk in when he hears a whole ass display get knocked over

he thinks it's cute when you tease him even if you say it isnt about flirting, his dumbass thinks it is which is fine by you so you can tease him more often

the real reason i picked this guy is because of what you said about him bringing you things that made him think of you

like this man will roll up with a chocolate bar and shove it in your hand with a pile of chips shoved in his mouth and say "I thought of you today at the store and grabbed this"

he doesnt see it as much, but you are over the moon about it

when he finds out about how much you love it, he will keep doing it

he is very patient and caring for you and literally only has eyes for you

he also always gets you to laugh, which always makes his day

please play music for him

he will have heart shaped eyes if you do

he will 100% play videogames with you, but you have to teach him how to play half of the time lmfaoooo

he will always tell you how much he loves you and how pretty and amazing you are frfr

if you go to any of his practices or games when he is coaching, he will brag about you

(i am so sorry this took so long i forgot it was in my drafts. i hope you love it nonetheless though!!!)

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@tonberry-yoda

Hello Im the hp anon I'm sorry my message made you uncomfortable I didnt mean to i understand your feelings about hp and being in the fandom again im sorry xoxo

I cant remember if it was you who liked lord of the rings but if it was you maybe legolas and aragon seeing each other again years after lotr. If it wasn't you dont worry about it or even if u do like lotr but don't feel like doing it its okay please continue and have a good day

hi anon dont worry abt it at all your message was very nice i just wanted to explain my position on hp stuff in general nothing to do w you :)

i do love lotr well remembered ! my high fantasy is a bit rusty so im wary of writing in tolkien voice but i will give you my general thoughts on them post canon below and hope that you vibe with it. sorry this is so late i forgot it was in my drafts 

this isnt prompt specific but i want to say i love that the movies have legolas keep jumping people who even raise an eyebrow at the shaggy unwashed dude whos apparently gondor’s promised king bc iirc canonically they are not really friends pre fellowship and at most have like met once or twice after aragorn tracks gollum to mirkwood or something. legolas is just very ride or die for people ig?? tracks with his threatening the riders of rohirrim later. we love movie characterisation. really went in on the ‘besties w a heart shaped locket of their initials’ vibe.

also the fact that aragorn and legolas are both royalty avoiding courtly duties in hilariously similar yet distinct ways. like yes they are both on a mission for the greater good so its not like theyre irresponsible leaders (and legolas’ father approved his going) but up until moria legolas is fully like ooh roadtrip with humans and dwarves and shit. fun. while aragorn is brooding immensely about the shadow of responsibility creeping closer to him daily. its just funny to me. legolas is so young in elf time.

after mordor falls i totally believe legolas and aragorn keep in close contact tho. like yes they are busy what with legolas skipping off home to report that he survived the fall of evil and also made some new friends or whatever and aragorn trying to rebuild the ruins of gondor but also i think they probably exchange heartfelt letters across middle earth and legolas visits often. esp in early years bc gotta keep track of those hobbits and their very short little lives. legolas loves inventing Elf Songs ™ off the top of his head that are just odes to his fav human. aragorn not so secretly also loves elvish poetry so he appreciates it.

also this goes for all surviving fellowship members but legolas def has a place of honour in gondor w increasingly dramatic titles & whenever he comes by aragorn will spend his nights with him walking the top walls of minas tirith talking philosophy and history and counsel. legolas is a prince too of course. sometimes they go for fun hikes bc they’re both roamers. no one else thinks it’s fun when the king and his elf bff decide to trek across countries on foot but they enjoy it. (arwen very reasonably prefers horseback and sometimes if he’s coming too they let gimli pretend he’s keeping her company when he’s sick of keeping up with their long legs.)

at certain points legolas is busy wandering for a while and the next time he’s over he has to meet aragorn and arwen’s kids. i think he’d be so obsessed w the concept. like gimli would be the best uncle easily but legolas would be like Woooowww omg little freak children i love them. aragorn look. omg it can talk. cool. he def teaches them mirkwood elvish slang and songs to balance out the rivendell influence. aragorn and arwen both find it funny but lowkey arwen sometimes gossips w him abt it because like . yeah half-human babies Are weird. even hers. at least one of their sons is reciprocally obsessed w legolas and spends his infancy viciously pulling at his hair. eowyn finds this very funny as the other token blonde often in gondor.

i refuse to go into angst so i’m not going to talk abt fellowship deaths but i think legolas stays on middle earth longer than he would have liked to help arwen cope after aragorn bc he is Equally Devastated. esp after the kids go. their last goodbye before legolas and gimli leave at the grey havens will have lasted a very long and sad time i think. very weepy on all sides. but she gets it. legolas can’t lose his last close friend to death.

in a modern human au aragorn n legolas r annoying hiking obsessives & post each other on their stories so much you’d assume they’re dating. legolas fights trolls on aragorn’s socials daily despite aragorn’s attempts to convince him he could not care less. they have matching tattoos of like, constellations on their ankles. aragorn is the only person who can memorise legolas’ ever-changing and very weird coffee orders.

September 2018 Music Recommendations

hewwo i never use tumblr but i thought i could use it to recommend music because im lame and love to share music. these are the albums i’ve gotten into and/or enjoyed this month. please enjoy gays. remember this isn’t put in any particular order. it just how it be.

1.       Dear Evan Hansen

it’s lame i know but i only just hopped onto the musicals train and im starting with the musicals all my friends speak about 24/7. i probably don’t need to put this here because it seems everyone is already hyping this musical up already.

 anyway if you’re like the 2% of people who have no idea what DEH is it’s basically a musical about some bloke called evan hansen. he runs into a guy called connor on the first day of senior year and connor signs his cast (evan fell out of a tree and broke his arm, thats where the cast comes from). connor steals this note that evan has, because he has to write himself notes to build up his confidence. later on, connor kills himself with this note near his body so everyone thinks its a suicide note to evan. evan pretends like he knew connor and makes up this whole thing where he pretended they were friends.

im not 100% if that plot was accurate because i haven’t actually watched it, im just going on what my gf told me and what i understood from the soundtrack.

its a freaking awesome soundtrack, though. the harmonies – whew! i love evans voice too. whew. listen to it my dudes!! it’ll only take an hour to listen to the whole soundtrack. i recommend it if you’re one to enjoy goose bumps when you listen to someone belting.

favourite track: sincerely, me

this is only because i find it so freaking funny. it’s just a bunch of goofs over something that’s actually quite serious. the line, ‘but i should tell you that i think of you each night, i rub my nipples and start moaning with delight.’ it’s always dangerous to listen to this song through earphones on the way to school oops.

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/0LhDyJXelg31FKLW5GDcKi?si=pgXbmPmYRnShkIp3iGqI4Q

2.       Heathers

WHOOP another musical that’s spoken about a lot. the soundtrack to this musical is Fucking Amazing. if you haven’t already listened to it, then you better go. right. now.

if you dont listen to heathers, firstly, you’re missing out. secondly, it’s a musical based on the movie heathers from 1988. the main character is veronica sawyer and shes one of the schools biggest nerds. she then meets the heathers in the bathroom and they make a pact that if she writes a bunch of forged notes then she can join their friendship group so she can be left alone. she goes on a huge journey of meeting J.D., seeing what it’s truly like to be popular, and finding out how scary her bf is. people die and shit, but im not going to say who or how. it’s up to you to find that out (unless you already know).

im not very good at condensing the plot to a story, so i am absolutely sorry if that was a terrible brief. but this isn’t about the storyline – this is about the music from the musical.

HOLY SHIT if you like 80s inspired music, then you’re in for a fucking ride.  this soundtrack is SO GOOD. the adrenaline rush you get from the songs, especially candy store and dead girl walking. also veronica??? has the best voice EVER. her vocal range is so wild and her belting at the end of dead girl walking.... i have to cry Its So Good. just her singing capabilities? amazing. i love it so much. 10/10. please listen.

favourite track: dead girl walking

i mean it’s kind of tied with candy store but i fell in love with dead girl walking first. i remember when i was sitting in art class listening to it for the first time and i got CHILLS from how intense and fast pace it was. like. i had it blasted in my ears and everyone could hear (i knew because my friend who’s listened to the soundtrack countless of times was mouthing along to the words yikes) but i just sat there, still, amazed that such a song could make me feel such a way. shes just so powerful and dominant in this song?? i will forever stan this song. i love it SO MUCH.

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/1aIXRUYjG6ORo2vGnrAk0F?si=M3auSIXlQpykpe0L_PaE7Q

3.       Apricot Princess – Rex Orange County

whew??? something that isnt a musical??? damn.

but yes, i know this is very White Girl of me (i think??) but someone on my Sarahah months ago recommended him to me. it was only recently i actually thought of listening to his stuff and oh my god, i wish i hadn’t put it off as much.

i know he has other albums and eps, but i have only listened to this album so far, so im basing my opinion solely on this record. i know, sorry. i will hop onto his other stuff soon, just not yet.

his lyrics are probably my favourite thing about his music, which is unusual because the lyrics aren’t often my favourite. i always say that if you take the music away from the words, it leaves a poem or a story, but if you take the lyrics from the music, its still a song. i know that isn’t the best thing to say because i know for a fact that the lyrics of a song is sometimes essential to the mood that the artist is trying to portray with the instrumentals, and i believe that’s what rex orange county has done. it’s not often you find songs with sweet love lyrics these days (or is that me??). his way of writing is so unique and his take on love is just... wow. ive fallen in love with his lyrics. they’re so different.

favourite track: 4 seasons

oof this song is awesome because he’s talking about the story of falling in love. also??? the way the song changes all the time to something quiet and sweet to something with a lot more strings and he uses his voice more. maybe that’s to represent him falling in love? i dont know im not confident in voicing my views on the meaning of a song because i dont want to get Shanked. but yes, i love this song a lot. it’s pretty and his voice is so soothing. someone get him an asmr channel.

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/2NBVxjZcbH5H1N1Ab2ExDH?si=Dk0rd5_mTfGi9UmXBgNLGg

4.       Young Sinatra – Logic

whoop whoop some hip hop. logic is so underrated. i heard of him for the first time from a presentation someone made in my english class two years ago. i’ve only come across him a few times since then, but i googled frank sinatra and this mixtape came up in my recommendations.

but hey! it’s so fucking GOOD. he’s so talented?? his flow and his SPEED. i love it so much because it just gives me the biggest rush of adrenaline. i dont really know much about the technical stuff of hip hop and rap, so i might sound like a complete dumbass, but it’s such an amazing mixtape. i like his earlier stuff way better than his new stuff (please dont kill me, this is just purely my opinion). its so FAST and amazing. i love it so much!! aaaaa.

favourite track: beggin’

nothing special, i just love this song because it always gets me going in a good mood because of the beat. i love it sm!!!

youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLB394593gU

5.       Isolation – Kali Uchis

jesus HECK ive been obsessed with this album for MONTHS. i love it so much. psychedelic pop and r&b?? yes THANK YOU.

her music is so dreamy!! her voice is so soothing!!! her harmonising is the best!!! my ears are in heaven when i listen to this record. jesus JESUS JESUS. i love her aesthetic so much. her lyrics are amazing. i love her so much and i love her vintage-esque style. who let someone become so talented?? have i already mentioned that i love her so much??

also?? when she puts a little soanish here and there in her songs, its so beautiful. spanish is such a wonderful language to hear, even when you don’t understand it. it’s really something else, and it’s amazing that shes interpreting both languages in her songs, because so many bilingual or trilingual artists dont do that. it just dhows her talent in both languages!! she’s amazing, and so is this record.

favourtie track: tomorrow

i fell in love with this song the second i heard it. it has been my favourite ever since. the harmonies really just caught me off guard because its so intense. the lyrics?? beautiful. it’s like a teenage dream style song. its so youthenising.  the chord sequence too?? it’s difficult to play on ukulele (im so bad at playing instruments holy heck i really tried with my tiny ass fingers) but it’s so beautiful. i wont ever stop talking about this song until the day i DIE.

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/album/4EPQtdq6vvwxuYeQTrwDVY?si=-edz17oITuOs0LoLo1pKmQ

and that concludes my top 5 favourite albums from this month!! please take your time to listen to any of these and i hope i can write another one of these next month. im really trying to find a use for my tumblr and maybe this is it?? jesus im so lame, but im trying at least.

 owo thank u

 thanks to @wingtae for the tag!

rules: answer the 11 questions, write 11 questions of your own, tag 11 people 

i tag: @thesecondhandnerd @vanillalattaes @eternaljimin​ @yoongislesbian​ @sugamuse​ @sodie-pops​ @rosejimin​ @papa-seokjin​ @bewareoftaehyung​ @hungryyoongi​ @holdmetightandletmeknow​

MY 11 QNS:

1. do you have any songs you’ve listened to on repeat before? what were they, and was there a particular reason?

i tend to listen to songs i like on repeat until i get sick of them, but the songs i’ve repeated the most would probably be?

way down we go- kaleo: its honestly the most amazing song, its kinda slow song with a nice beat

the last- agust d: got me through some pretty awful times, and its an incredible song with so much emotion in it

blood sweat and tears- bts: do i even need to explain this?

mama’s gun- glass animals: i dont know what it is about this song but i never get sick of listening to it

take me to church- hozier: i find it a very calming song? also Gay Anthem™

but my overall most played song is a mix up of Nepeta and Meulin’s themes from homestuck cause thats what i use to help me sleep

2. are there any character traits that annoy you in a person?

um... so many... arrogance, homophobia/transphobia, excessive use of filler words, purposely mispronouncing my name in order to piss me off (or other similarly dickish things), talking in a baby voice/patronising voice and most of all disloyalty 

3. do you prefer sweet or sour, if you had to pick one?

definitely sweet, i love sour things but i have a huge sweet tooth

4. would you rather be the only sad person in a world of happy people, or the only happy one in a world of sad ones?

the only sad person, i care too much about how my friends are feeling so if they were sad i would be too

5. what’s your favourite number?

3, 4, 7, 9, 11 and 13, or any combination of those! i dont like even numbers unless its 4. and no i cant just choose one number

6. can you swim? how well?

im an ex competitive swimmer, and i (until recently) had been doing sessions/training since i was three? so im a very very good swimmer...

7. i’ve only tagged mutuals in this tag thing. hi!! do you remember why/how we started following each other?

i actually started following you on my other account when i first got into bts! your blog was reccomended, so i clicked on it and loved your combination of bts and aesthetic when i started this blog (cause bts was taking over my other one) i think you were one of the first blogs i re followed

8. if you could look eerily like a particular character from fiction in real life (in a way that makes ppl go ‘holy shit u are a real-life <whatever char u pick>’), who would you like it to be?

honestly, this was such a hard question to answer? cause lets be fair, so many of my life problems would be solved if i looked like an anime boy so.. hmmm... killua from hxh? cause he’s probably my favorite character of all time and have you seen his eyeliner. or baam from tower of god cause s o f t b o i aesthetic? or khun ran from tower of god cause blue haired babby boy?? or dave strider from homestuck??? cause i’ve always loved how artists portray him, especially with freckles???? 

.9. does your name mean anything in particular (to you)?

my name isnt my birth name so it means a lot to me, it doesnt really have a ‘special definition’ but it resonates really nicely with me and idk? i love it? so much? 

10. how do you relate to the concept of gender (if at all)?

gender is a w i l d social construct i dont understand or really believe in but at the same time i’m a boy who doesnt believe in the concept of gender if that makes sense

11. DO U THINK PINEAPPLES BELONG ON PIZZA.

yes! definitely! as long as they are paired with the right toppings!

my 11 questions:

what is a song, no matter how much you play it, you will never get sick of?

i’ve only tagged mutuals in this tag thing, so haii! do you remember why/how we started following each other?

what were your childhood and teenage obsessions, and what are you obsessed with now?

do you have something you dislike for absolutely no reason?

what would be your ideal d&d character?

given the opportunity, would you go to space?

what fic tropes are your guilty pleasures?

do you cry in movies?

do you have any nicknames? and if you do, which is your favourite? 

if you had to give a class on any subject what would it be?

and finally, whats the best piece of life advice you’ve ever received?

ever since new york

i’ve been obsessing over the halbum since before it dropped so here’s my almost 1k rambling on esny enjoy grab some tissues

okay so i dont actually know who this song is addressing but it makes me cry blood nontheless so lets go thru the three options i think are plausible yea

1. harry talking to himself 2. harry talking to louis 3. harry talking to taylor (honestly this is bullshit i know it is but just bear w me)

alright so like such a big part of the song is harry just saying “tell me something i dont already know” and it so desperate and he sounds like hes begging because really he knows everythng he possibly can know at this point theres no way to predict anything about his future and he knows that but he still wants Something to keep him going anything is better than nothing

and then hes like “u dont know nothing just pretend u do” and wow like,, hes calling it out hes saying “u dont know shit u just like to pretend that u do” and like?? thts so fucking heartbreakign? like this kid has been telling himself for years that itll be okay and hes been clinging to louis and tahts all tehre is thats all he knows He Knows That and theres nothing else To know because louis is all it comes down to so he Knows but shouldnt there be something more? some other thing he can hold onto besides this boy who has also been thru hell

“must this hurt u just before u go?” my fyckgin heart holy shit

this i think i absolutely definitely 100% talking to louis because? what happened in new york? oh right haylor :/ and that was painful for both louis and harry and ye s we know harry was miserable in ny ,, u can see from the photos but?? louis???? this is harry saying to louis “i know i need to do this but why you pls why does this have to hurt u why cant they leave u out of this pls tell me something to make thsi better” and then he realizes that louis cant say anything he doesnt know and fuck im goin in circles a bit anwyay

“brooklyn saw me, empty at the news .there's no water inside this swimming pool”

im?????????

tis is about haylor, like not even talking To taylor but its about their “relationship” and how convenient that the media isnt picking up on it huh

almost as though harry is saying “yea there was no fuckgin relationship there to begin with” with the whole empty swimming pool metaphor

he said the album isnt very literal so ofc hes not talking about an actual fucking swimming pool being empty theres so much more to it

but back to brooklyn seeing him and “empty at the news” holy shit do u remember how fuckign sad he was?? and louis??????

“so u and taylor are good friends” “if that !”

fuck

“almost over, had enough from you” this is @ taylor,, “its almost over whatever this is that i had to do with u is almost over and i have had enough” ((maybe the enough from u could be shade for the songs she wrote about him whom knows i hope it is))

“and i've been praying, i never did before. understand im talking to the walls. i’ve been prayng ever since new york”

boy holy shit fuck okay

this is probably literal and metaphorical

bc like,, harry has a cross tattoeod on him and he used to have a cross necklace too?? taht he gave to a little girl when they went to africa for red nose day (i forget to country)? i rememebr he said its something that helps keep him grounded and make him feel safe and he wanted her to feel safe so he left it with her

so like he did pray(ish) he has faith in smth if i had to assume so i think hes saying that he never to pray for his relationship

haylor happened in 2013 and before that yea they were closeted but it wasnt Too bad bc their public interactions werent yet reduced to almost nothing

“understand im talking to the walls”

wat the fuck?? he doesnt have ppl he can talk to? ppl who will actually hear him and Listen to him? help him????? i want to die

“i’ve been prayng ever since new york”

HES BEEN PRAYING SINCE NEW YORK!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE THATS WHEN IT ALL WENT TO ABSOLUTE FUCKIGN SHIT AND !!! ! H ARRY REALIZED THTA IT WOULNT BE SO EASY

he understood being with louis would be a miracle and those are hard to come by almost impossible without prayer so hes been praying ever since new york ever since he had to fake a relationship wiht taylor

and now im thinking about louis’ album because lousi has had to suffer thru two beards and a fucking baby and i jsut,, how much harder was it for him? how many times has he almost fallen off the edge? ? does he have songs like two ghosts safely hidden close to his heart does he have declarations like sweet creature does he have jealous moments like women

how are these boys still here after seven years after all the shit theyve been thru how do they manage to come out on top every time in in awe and im fuckgn sobing

bts // top 10 fav songs

((lmao late but @98msc tagged me to do this)) can u hear that? its the sound of me crying while i make this bc im listening to these songs as i speak. in somewhat order/not really enjoyyy (: 

1. i like it (slow jam remix) // alright, listen. this song is the song that got me into them.. jk i lied, the original i like it is what got me into them ((& min yoongi)) i absolutely love and adore that song & the fact that it was on their debut ep 2 cool 4 skool makes me extremely emotional. the song feels like how it feels to have a crush on someone//the feeling when ur crush gets taken//when ur man who isnt ur man but still ur man gets swooped lol u get what im saying but when they came out w the slow jam remix on their repackaged skool luv affair ep i was all over that. overall this was the song that got me into them & the reason why i started to stan yoongi so much LOL (i can go on so much more but ill stop here bc long).

2. autumn leaves // the lyrics, the instrumentals + beats, the arrangement, the emotion. ((do u ever wonder what the song would sound like if yoongi kept the original track that was produced because me too)) the @3:31 part u know that part got me im a sucker for songs where the music stops + the vocals are there&present&strong its a small drop & beat but i feel it in my chest u know?

3. hold me tight // this song gets me feeling like some boy broke my heart & got me crying in the club u know. the harmony between yoongi + jungkook and all the goddamn emotion in the entire song. yoongis part @3:26 like the lyrics got me so bad+you already know how i feel about songs where the music gets all subtle and the vocals are loud im so emotional i know i keep saying that but wow im so simp rn at 2:13am ((mar did this to hurt me))

4. EPILOGUE: young forever // oooOOOOOOOooo boii u know this song gets me so emotional it feels like the summer of 2016 #blorange had dreams to be big & all i knew were the feelings i wanted to achieve in life “dreams, hopes, forward, forward” fr got me in my feels so damn much (im crying) anyways this song could probably beat hold me tight maybe not. this is a song you feel entirely. 

5. whalien 52 // i was so obsessed with this song when the most beautiful moment in life pt.2 came out trust me i read about the 52 hertz whale before the song came out & when i saw the title of it when the tracklist dropped best believe my heart tugged a lil or something. the fact you can hear a high pitch in the song&that its supposed to mimic/serve as the 52 hertz whale’s frequency when they sing the words “lonely whale” makes me feel so strongly for this song like bts did that.

6. coffee // i dont drink coffee but this song makes me want to drink it lol the song talks about the scent of whoever theyre singing about& i even though i dont drink coffee i deadass love the smell of it. the song feels like early mornings im talking early mornings where the sun is barely rising and the sky is really pretty. yeah, it feels like that. 

7. BTS cypher, pt.3: KILLER // the most lit song ever fr always gets me in such a hype mood plus just the fact tae deadass loves this song with all his heart makes me cry ((the bangtan bomb where he practiced it/performed it and gets so lit only for yoongi to swoop in for his part+taes hurt face gets me all the time i love taegi. my favorite of the cyphers (though pt. 4 is a close one)

8. a supplementary story: you never walk alone // the beats are something i live for the lyrics make me emotional. deadass makes me think about #blorange + how much life has to offer. it makes me feel good + makes me feel like living if u know who i am in real life u know this is the song i do my slut drops to drop ur weapons?? nah im droppin myself if u know what i mean LMAO (yoongis part in the beginning is something i want on repeat for the rest of my life & the words he says at the end is something i want to hear in my ear every day for the rest of my life) the vcr for this song at the concert hella got me emotional (but honestly what doesnt make me emotional)

9. 2! 3! (still wishing for better days) // a song full of bts emotions about their fans, for their fans. the lyrics are amazing & this song is a pick me up song feels like a rainy day but one of those rainy days where you feel good you know kinda feels like being wrapped in a blanket in the winter the part @2:33 is where the entire crowd started to sing at the concert and i was just living it. grateful for this song & i just like to think that this is what bts feels for their fans.

10. spring day // honestly i was so blessed to hear/see this performance live the ohs at the end of the song + when the crowd sang along made me so emotional at the concert its something i was fr blessed to experience/feel & a reason why this song is listed on this list the lyrics are also probably one of my favorite lyrics of any bts song. they really did it with this one ((yoongi in the mv rt if u understand)) ((jhope should always sing the parts he sings live srrynotsrry))

i have so much love for other songs that arent listed (miss right, for you, just one day, tomorrow, let me know, 24/7 heaven, the outros, the entire bts discography tbh but sadly, i gotta stop it at 10) i hope u enjoyed this list & i tag @boyfriendvibess @syugaah & all my other lovely ass followers if u wanna do it 

p.s the times listed are the times off the official music, not the off the linked videos in case ur wondering what parts im talking about LOL

wow i love bts // finished at 2:57am (yikes)