How dare Louis sing "the friends we make, the love it takes, it's worth the pain" as if it doesn't make me want to sit down and breakdown at the sheer poetry, emotion, and sentiment to it. How dare he. Because he's RIGHT. It's what makes the world go round. It reminds me of the 'with freedom, flowers, books and the moon, who could not be perfectly happy?' quote by Oscar Wilde.

It really is about the little things and human experiences.

mmm somethings been rattling around inside my brain about queerness in xenofiction (warrior cats centric cause that's obviously mostly what people are talking about in my internet circles) and I know around here I am preaching to the choir but w/e. I feel like i may have made this post before but i’ll do it again until i feel like i’ve crafted all of my thoughts correctly

everyone knows there’s always like. some shmuck on twitter or youtube comment sections, complaining about how gay cats just don’t make sense ~realistically~

and the common argument back is always something along the lines of “these cats have complex society and religion and talk to ghosts and sometimes have magic powers, and being gay is where you draw the line? it doesn’t have to be realistic”

and something just rubs me the wrong way about that argument, not that it’s WRONG, it’s not wrong, xenofiction by definition is all super super unrealistic. I think it’s more like, it oversimplifies it. because honestly when I make critiques about the warriors world building not making sense, I don’t tend to like the argument beginning and ending at “well it doesn’t have to be realistic” because no it doesn’t but it’s still supposed to feel believable.

i think i don’t like that the argument seems to imply that gay animal characters are at all on par with other fantasy things like talking to ghosts and having powers or complex religion. I also don’t like it when people who are being fake-supportive can condescendingly say “well the gay couple may be completely absurd and unrealistic but I guess it’s ok because its just a silly fantasy :) ” cause like. Like its not unrealistic tho. i don’t like the implication that it’s uniquely unrealistic, if this was a grounded story with no magic or religion and the cat social groups were more inspired by real feral cats, it would still be illogical for some queer cats not to exist.

 I feel like it is a more effective argument to point out that straight cats are just as unrealistic, in fact more unrealistic and silly

“cats lovingly and monogamously married-for-life and raising kids together” is the absurdity it should be compared to, rather then the magic elements. Because then the complainers have to contend with the fact that they aren’t bothered by unrealistic relationships between cat characters, they are just uniquely bothered by gay ones. 

I mean...not to get tmi but it seems obvious to me this knee jerk reaction people have to rolling their eyes and scoffing when “gay” and “animal character” are placed in the same sentence is based on their insistence on equating the breeding behavior of animals to the romantic relationships of humans. Y'know, they're assuming that when people talk about romantic couples between anthro characters, that that is the sort of thing they are drawing from. When, certainly when it comes to cats, that is a very very poor equivalent. Cat mating behaviors are not affectionate or long lasting--they actually seem quite stressful, and then the father runs off to find more girls and probably never calls his one-night-stand again.  

this is why I am really not fond of “mate” being used at the go-to replacement for husband/wife in xenofiction. Consider just coming up with a brand new word for your animal character’s version of romance! maybe they have types of relationships and words for them that humans don’t even have! but “mate” feels like. an action, nothing more. It doesn’t inherently imply love. frankly I think more people should be anthropomorphizing mates as simply Business Partnerships where the business is in desiring offspring, as opposed to husband/wife.

Just like....ok if you’re going to use the real behavior of animals as at least the loose inspiration for your anthropomorphic character’s behavior, surely pair bonding would be a smoother translation to what we view as a romantic couple?? not mating?? because pair bonded animals are the ones having consistent pleasant interactions, and being physically affectionate, and working together in life, sometimes even raising each others kids together.  

And keeping that in mind, frankly you could argue that gay-coded cats should be the norm. (not that I think pair bonded creatures should always be interpreted as a romantic coded relationship, you could interpret some as platonic or familial or simply allies needing to survive. The point is no matter what route you go, you are projecting some human experience onto animals who’s minds and feelings we cannot ever actually understand. So to make it coded as a gay romance is just as reasonable as making it an adopted found-family sort of affection. You can go any route and be the same amount of unrealistic.)

If these losers actually want reasonable cat fiction, no one should have romantic affection for anyone! and if two cats have kittens together, it should be treated more like a short-lived antagonistic business partnership where you part ways immediately after. If you only criticize one type of romance for being “unbelievable and silly because these are CATS for crying out loud 🙄” but you don't feel “distracted” or “taken out of the story” about the other type of romance, then this aint about realism my guy, sounds like you just have some baggage to unpack.

I am beating people over the head with a very big sign that reads “Whether you’re writing about cats or birds or aliens or fantasy people or whatever, you cannot grant any creature the ability to love without all the variety and complexity that **naturally** goes hand in hand with those messy emotions. If the creatures can fall in love at all, then there must exist the possibility for some of them to be queer about it. And if you view queerness as unnatural, then we don’t have a writing disagreement, we have a fundamental moral disagreement about life. And I can’t help you there, that’s your problem! But I refuse to let people benignly hide behind a “simple desire for more realistic-feeling fiction uwu” as a defense!! (gay people are real. It’s true! I checked!!)”

again not to force or rush u at all but do u think you’ll ever update peculiar pack or do u feel disconnected to writing it ? I’m just curious bc I check ur blog a lot for that one but again I’m not gonna trying to be mean and I’m really sorry if I come off that way 💕

i really feel so guilty since you darlings are such sweethearts when you ask me for updates

honestly, right now, i'm feeling a little disconnected with writing for BTS but i honestly think it's because i'm also writing for other fandoms on my other acc, that and i'm in my final year of uni with a thesis/dissertation to take most of my attention

i can see myself returning to write for BTS but maybe not until this summer when i finally graduate

for now, my love, think nothing of this account and look into other brilliant writers out there, they'll keep you preoccupied and i hope to surprise you with a fic or two come summertime ;)

you're not mean at all, you're a polite, sweet, precious, darling, sweetheart that makes me want to hop back into writing for BTS as soon as possible but i'm afraid that, for the time being, i have to focus on my uni x

all my love, beautiful x

Thinking abt how last night on the heavn Hayley shoot post someone commented 'blink twice if gerard's next' and they liked it.... Maybe there's a pie in that bush after all...

happy last day of pride month

something is just. wrong with me lol

i’m unemployed yall

Those of yall still bitching about the addition of the boys even after the cancellation are the weakest link

i loooove vinyls so much. i wish i could afford to buy them!

hm. thinking thoughts about. labour. and how the popular, internet leftist take on it is "work bad. work evil." when actually it's not work/labour in itself that's evil, it's labour under capitalism that's the problem. how capitalism strips work and labour of it's value and makes it about. money. survival. more money. when marx himself said that working is part of the human nature. creating, doing, existing as a part of society is part of what makes us human and is actually important in any society, both for the sake of society but also for us as individuals, for us to reach our human potential, for us to be. happy.

kim doyoung. that’s the thought. 

THE SONG FOR THE LONGEST TIME BY BILLY JOEL TOTALLY MAKES ME THINK OF YOUR SELF SHIP WITH ROBOTUS

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA im perfectly fine what do you mean. I'm so normal about this. definitely not exploding while listening to it. not at all. Ignore the teakettle noise emanating from my head.

The soft Happy Vibe that it has is giving me. Chest Vibrations. My diaphragm is about to rocket out of my chest and hit a pedestrian. If I had to Distill Willie down into one sound it's Happy Background Singers and Finger Snapping.

Who knows how much further we'll go on Maybe I'll be sorry when you're gone I'll take my chances I forgot how nice romance is I haven't been there for the longest time

This part. specifically. is making my brain invert.

Like yes yes yes yes yes arkgkrKGKRKGRGJGKRJK CAR CRASH NOISES SCREAMING SHOUTING

AB falling in love w/ someone who's got a way shorter lifespan,,,,,,,, but him 'taking his chances' bc he loves Willie and it's worth the eventual grief bc he loves him and AAAAAAA

and like. the contrast. Willie worrying that AB will get bored of him but. not letting himself worry bc he loves him so much,, and even if it's temporary

IM SO UNWELL ABOUT THIS. THIS SONG IS SO SOFT AND LOVEY I. <33333333333333333333333333333

I could literally go on for centuries but. <33 EEE THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS SONG REC WITH ME. IM GONNA BE THINKING OF THIS FOREVER AAAAA HAVE THE MOST LOVELY DAY WEEK MONTH YEAR

tangerine got me feeling like that one tumblr post

It's 5 am and I can't sleep

but i also can't be annoyed by this because I took a 4hr "nap" at 8pm. This is on me.

fuck, I was this close to feeling like I'm ready to watch season 2 of the bear but my carmy obsession is apparently back like 100000%, so there's no way I can watch it now 🙃

every time i try to make progress with this assignment i run into 1000 new problems