I had like 3 hours sleep last night cos it’s so fuckn hot in our apartment, it doesn’t even cool down at night, I have a hedache from hell and I’m stuck at work for the next 5 hours when I could be watching VegasPete instead SOMEONE SAVE ME *makes whale noises*

not so happy happy wednesday! hope you'll be all back on your feet soon :(

I was about to go to bed when I saw you were doing wipw again (which is insane btw gods strongest solider wtf) hope your little break helped :((

Since I love both arsonist!neil and your guardian angel!neil equally I'd like to let you chose (just whichever you prefer to work on right now) anyway lots of love hope things will look a little better for you soon <3

(also happy new year!)

WIP Wednesday (1/3) | Arsonist Neil / Firefighter Andrew AU (Part 86)

Without another word, Aaron pulls out a DVD and heads for the TV stand. Andrew blinks. What… Did Aaron get a movie on the way over here? What the hell? Andrew curses himself. He should’ve done something. It’s their fucking birthday and Aaron is doing all the work. Funny isn’t it, how things change? It was the opposite for so long, Andrew trying his best to connect in a way that mattered and Aaron refusing to meet him halfway.

Andrew supposes it’s better late than never to attempt some sort of bonding. Only took Andrew’s hypothetical death to get the ball rolling. If he’d known that… Andrew shakes his head. Aaron did all of this because of the fire last night? Huh. It seems like Andrew’s got a certain arsonist to thank for this strange visit. How annoying.

“Are you coming or not?” Aaron asks as he flops onto the sofa. 

“Yeah.” Andrew hops down off his bar stool and goes to grab each of them a fresh bottle of beer. And… These are his last two. Damn. He passes one to Aaron as he goes to sit down and adds alcohol to his mental grocery list.

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so i didnt hear anything from the radio station today and despite my efforts to stay positive and just hope that maybe ill hear something next week i feel so defeated and exhausted thinking that if this doesnt come through for me ill just have so many more cover letters to write and jobs to apply to where no one will genuinely not even look at my application 90% of jobs on indeed arent even real jobs and it's so fucking exhausting that i got so so so close to finding a job that would have fulfilled me creatively and would have made a huge positive impact on my life and it just. didnt happen. i get so close to so many things in life where i can taste its sweetness and im getting used to the feeling of something that might be good for me and then it just doesnt happen why does the world keep letting me down when i am just trying to so fucking hard to put myself out there and deconstruct the negative thought patterns that my mental illness has made me believe about myself im just so over all of it why would you tell someone that youre impressed with their experience and have no concerns about how they could fit into a position and then not even follow through trying to find any form of employment anymore is fucking ridiculous and passive i hate it so much im gonna go sleep for fifteen hours bc i cant bear to be conscious right now i am so tired of having dreams and wanting things

Chrono: did you hear about the chef that died?

Nemoto: no.

Chrono: he pasta way.

Nemoto: I hope you pasta way.

Chrono: :(

do i get jealous over someone flirting with MY mutual? yes but that is none of your business

“You're a loser, baby

A loser, goddamn baby

You're a fucked up little whiny bitch”

The tragedy of not liking "the new hot thing" everyone else is very hyped about with me liking it less with every passing hour

i wish i wouldn't do this to myself. why do i buy games on steam and then not play them for a while and then hate them and request a refund way outside of the refund time window

Update: chapter nine of resisting the current is finished and it’s 7.5k words lol, I just need to edit the bitch and get it posted. Which will hopefully be tomorrow, I’ve had a Weird week and I’ve got a head cold on top of it which is like, my kryptonite so I really wanna get it posted ASAP to give me a little boost in serotonin haha. But I don’t want to post it now because I know if I do I won’t be happy with it later on ahhhhhhh

Tumblr I am letting u know I have a sore throat and a boo boo :(

Can someone make tea and kiss it better :(

Maybe even tuck me in and read me a bedtime story ??

Hiiiiiiiii babies.

I am behind on all the things. Requests. Broken Glass. Messages. I am sorry. Know that I love you and am slowly working on the things. But not today.

Because I have fucking Covid again and feel like absolute garbage and it’s literally the hottest is been since last summer but the ACs are in the basement and I am cranky and feverish and roasting and dying and hate everything but Elvis and you, my lil darlings…

daily affirmations: i will be totally sane and not pretentious about a show i have only watched 4 seasons out of like 39 and known for 2 months. i will not think to myself, "you don't understand it like i do" whenever i see some crazy ass take about ten particularly the "i could do so much more" scene or his regeneration scene. i will not get mad and start typing essays about him in my tumblr drafts only for me to look at them a day later and delete them out of embarrassment. i will be be totally sane and not pretentious

Learning Judgement Cutting is making me see just How Freaking Much DMC5 camera is broken. In Intricate Detail. It also makes me constantly trying to stare at Vergil's ass, even tho his coat covers it but my eyes automatically train to see where the Yamato scabbard goes to try to line up the JC timing, and I get a)secondhand embarrassment at constantly doing this, b) freakin annoyed.

I love DMC5 I do, but how do you screw your camera so bad.

I understand this is me kind of whining, as I've seen what capable players can do in this game, and they aren't complaining. But you know what, I can and will, cause I'm a newbie to these games. The only way to make your newbie into a combomad is to give them tools and make them have fun while practising. I am having tons of fun practising, watch me do nothing in the Void for 40 mins, that's fine and honestly really fun, my problem is that the tool which I rely on for proper controls, aka camera, freakin sucks bad at its job. And the input controls for combos explicitly depend on this stupid camera to work.

Artagan: “I’m so bored. Maybe I’ll fuck around in Exandria and find something interesting for once.”

Artagan when he gets his wish and his life becomes TOO interesting:

:(

Very bad grade in therapy today