ohh i am very high anf very horny

what does it say about me as a person that I almost sexualize the idea of “getting caught/in trouble” like which past traumas caused this

Instead of an angel and a devil on my shoulder I have Dolly Parton and Miley Cyrus neither are evil

I know that theres no way for like proper outright- no plausible deniability- no take backs -they are in love and married cannon symbrock in venom 3 bc super hero movie makers are cowards but it'd be so funny people would be so mad other, better people would be so delighted

OH does anybody want to MAKE OUT

does any body remember the day i died. literally cringe thing to forget what date that was but look i have pretty bad amnesia. anyways i just know its soon

Divorce

It is so fucking hard to go through a divorce, I am thinking about him more often. I am crying so fucking for like 10 minutes straight. Divorce is suck a hard thing, I have realized now because I am going through it. I am literally breaking a relationship that was blessed by Allah (swt). I am realizing how much shit i made him go through, how much I went through and we were a solid couple until some shit happened. We loved each other in our different ways, did not realize it until it was too late. I know I love my husband, I know he loves me. Maybe it was bad timing, whatever it was, I know I fucking love that man. I also, love him enough to let him go and find someone who loves, the way he loves me. He will be a great husband and a great father to his future loved ones, he's already a great brother, friend and son.

It honestly is difficult to be going through this, I wish this upon no one.

Since coming back to California, I know I have done some wild shit. I met some people that made me realize I can move on and so can he. It makes me sick to think about how my husband and I were in the beginning to now.

I truly, TRULY do not know how to say this, because the fact that I have to say it makes me feel like I am losing my grip on reality. But no, in the post-capitalistic anarchist utopia, I will not be relying on “autistic minecraft girlies” to be building inspectors because - and this may shock you - one of those occupations takes years of education in how to read and interpret hundreds of thousands of lines of regulations based on complicated math and physics that were the result of decades of tragedy and death, and the other one involves playing a children’s video game.

it’s just really tough when your girlfriend’s out of town

starting off with an amuse-bouche of some of my initial favorite bits! y'all, this update was WILD.

I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW I DON'T KNOW

ITS PROM, INTREPID HEROES! ASK RAGH ABOUT WHAT HE SAW AT PROM! ASK ABOUT JACE AND PORTER AND ARIANWEN!! INTREPID HEROES!!!

fantasy high pcs ranked by how willing i would be to get in a car with them in the driver's seat

gorgug. the canon designated driver. his van is a boat and his boat is a van. no issues here

riz. also has canonically driven and done it well. good reflexes and sufficiently paranoid. i trust him

adaine. she'd figure it out and drive carefully enough. once again no issues here

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kristen applebees. drives wearing flip flops. would smash the entire front of the car just trying to get out of the driveway. accidentally hits the accelerator when she means to hit the brakes. i'm 100% going to die

fabian. he cannot drive and has zero road sense. the hangman does it all for him. he's below kristen because if we get into a terrible accident kristen can revivify me. fabian would backflip out of the car as it's crashing and leave me for dead

fig. FLIPPED A CAR. i mean she's 100% a better driver than both kristen and fabian but i wouldn't be able to get over the fact that she FLIPPED A CAR ON THE HIGHWAY

the duo Ever

one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.

one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.

i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.

the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.

my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.

i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.

while teen while goblin while aroace while injured while doing your best