was watching Dungeon Meshi today and had to stop and take 30 mins to carve this out for a new profile picture.

i hate it i fucking hate everything about it i hate that it feels so bad i hate that things didn't turn out the way dream had planned to i hate that he feels awful about it i hate that we're at a dead end and everything feels unsettled and transitional i hate that quackity built an entire community around some of the biggest streaming spaces with no room for the dteam i hate that some days it feels like it's them against everyone else i hate that we can't just exist without a bunch of people praying for horrible things i hate it it makes me feel fucking sick

btw if u equate childe and aventurines backstory in any fucking way please leave this blog and unfollow me <3 preferably block me while ur at it too uwu

Damn who would've thought that having school, hobby, workout schedule and part time job might be hard to menage

I see one more fucking "joke" about suicide or mocking mental illnesses I swear to god

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i am so fucking tired.

sometimes i wish you people werent allowed to speak

Teacher burn out is considering physically concussing yourself so you dont have to go to work the next day.

It's testing yourself for covid every morning and secretly hoping it comes back positive just so you can have a fee days off.

It's feeling horribly guilty because you really do love the kids and want the best for them

Its making another lesson plan and crying because you know it isnt enough material for the day.

Teacher burn out is heartbreak.

Finished Eleven Minutes. Found out I've 6 more Paulo Coelho books in my 'to be read' pile. Had a huge huge huge fight at home. Cried a lot in the bathroom. Finished my loaded fries. Placed my propranolol by my bedside because a panic attack might be in order. My new book is Othelo by Shakespeare. Life's messy as fuck :)

bad brain day

Putting in my formal request for life to stop dicking me around, where do I mail it?

Hello fam! Checking in on you! Hope you're doing ok!

We are starting very rough already today. I know I’ll be able to recover but also oh my god. I want to sleep so bad. Some things happened at my day job, and now I’m here all night but I picked up a shift for my 3rd tonight instead of picking sleep. Why? Because I feel like money is more important than my overall well-being. And I hate it here. Because I secretly don’t want to work my picked up shift but I love money. I want to go home and play on my PC and get more sleep. I haven’t slept enough to even function at my day job.

Ah… Save me…

Just kidding. I chose to do these things so I have no right to complain and bitch. If I was so exhausted and upset, then I wouldn’t have decided to get two jobs. I’ll feel better after I sit and isolate for a few minutes. I’m just not fully awake yet.

i need to inject liquid caffeine into my veins right now.

fun fact it is thirty minutes after midnight and I have a class at 8:30 am tomorrow