The Green family dynamics are so interesting because like, Viserys is the father but due to his decay he seems more like the grandfather, whereas Otto is the Grandsire but seems to fill out the role of a father more, not only to his daughter but also her children, so he and his daughter are a mother/father unit but in some situations Alicent is treated like a sibling to her children (by Otto) and then you have the obvious Helaena/Aegon happening (siblings who are also husband/wife and mother/father to their children), but at the same time it seems like Aemond is the one trying to be the family's protector and attempting to step up as patriarch, with some of the scenes between him and Alicent giving off the vibes of equals rather than Mother and Son (like when they discuss Aemond finding Aegon) and his relationship with Aegon seeming like he's the big brother and not the other way around, in this essay I will-

I hate new situations I hate new situations I HATE NEW SITUATIONS

Bro I was reenacting the "Just So" clip while I was putting away the dishes and when Frank yelled at Barnaby I was gonna say "oi fuck you" y'know because I was being silly but what came out was an almost PERFECT imitation of Barnaby's voice- I couldn't even finish the "fuck you" because I broke down laughing

Btw the reason this is so funny is because I'm a 5'2" Latino AFAB with NO experience in voice acting whatsoever yet for some reason the spirit of Giant Blues Clues decided my vocal chords were the PERFECT place to set up real estate

Anyway peace and love

HAGHASBCAKJSCNAKLD I WHEEZED

yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit

i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.

i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.

this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them

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Watched ‘Charades’ - The Vulcan/Human stuff wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be tbh, very enjoyable episode! Love T’Pring no notes for T’Pring you were so sweet the whole time. Her holding his hand and subtly giving him tips to make the ritual go smoothly...AAA!! Christine/Spock things sooo boring on their own but as angst for T’Pring? Very good. She wasn’t even gone a DAY before they made out. DUMP! HIS! ASS <3 The phone operator please-hold aliens were very cute to me, I liked them! Also Amanda & T’Pring’s dad should chill together, that’s good vibes all around. Also it introduced the concept of a sacred Vulcan familial roast sesh which is honestly so fucking funny and I adore it. Five minutes on the clock to devastate your future son-in-law, better make it count.

remember when i said over a year ago that vegapunk's arc would start revealing even more of sanji's power and potential and how hard that was worrying me? yeah

im not beating the bisexuals are greedy discourse (i have a date tonight)

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

going insane over the fact that happiness and care and concern and love is underneath every interaction between newt and hermann in pacific rim

if you think rand is a classic prettyboy and skinny like his reference no he's fucking not.

i need to fuckign explode

I’m going to probably stay mostly offline today and tomorrow, because tomorrow night is the Charlie Puth concert and I want to be ready for it. I don’t want to risk seeing anything online that could trigger me and make me spiral, I want to try to relax myself as much as I can. The last thing I need is a panic attack especially when I’m supposed to be enjoying myself, and my ongoing anxiety from going to the emergency room last week still has me rattled. I’m still having flashbacks and bad memories in the back of my head constantly, like I am literally never not thinking about all the bad things that happened to me and I know that’s a part of ptsd but! it really sucks and I don’t want to make it worse by seeing my abuser floating around people’s blogs buying comms and giving me further reminders of how she got away with so much. And my anger has been totally consuming me for the past 2 days now so I really need to try to clear my thoughts

I’m super nervous about the concert. I’ve been so numb to the things I used to enjoy for 10 months now. I used to associate literally all of his songs w/ my TF ships and I’m worried that hearing them live will make me feel really depressed. but I spent money on this front row ticket and I think I’ll try to enjoy just simply seeing him so up close in person, I think that will be a cool experience despite everything else. and if I’m able to, I’ll post videos :D

I might make a post just before it starts and ask for some positive encouragement or something but in the meantime I’m gonna spend today at the movies and eating yummy food and playing stardew valley 💛💛💛

Also............. I reblogged a bunch of charlie puth stuff into my queue scheduled for tomorrow, I spent a couple of hours in the last two days trying to ground myself by going into his tag and reblogging a bunch of his music/videos. so im sorry class for the puth brainrot you’re gonna see all day tomorrow LOL I’m just desperately trying to hype myself up for this concert instead of dreading it

Im just thinking about that American psycho musical and how much it affected me as a person and changed who i was

Also that face he makes in the movie - i always do it like the ‘ooh’ face (it also feels like a very Canadian Jim Carrey face to make too idk it might just be my connection to it)

I am going to burn the house down I can't live like this

trying to determine which parts of my relationship with sex are asexuality, which are trauma, and which are autism is like trying to have a conversation with three people talking loudly and all at once