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captain-mj · 8 months

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It’s been a while, may I kindly ask for more monster handler? 🥺🥺

Sure! The rest of it is on ao3! Here is the link

This is the start of the end! Finally wanting to wrap this bad boy up. Super short because I am still raw dogging writers block rn

Ghost sat on his roof at night like usual. He heard the flap of wings and quickly glanced back. That wasn't Alex.

Graves stood there, wings pinned against his back. "Hey. Saw you up here."

Ghost stared at him, mouth immediately twisting. "Ah. Hi."

Graves perched nearby. "I'm sorry."

"What for?"

"I was introduced the way I was. Price explained some stuff to me. Nothing personal, just that he was your handler. I know how... important that can be. And how isolating being like this can be at the best of times." Graves sighed and stayed standing, wings fluttering softly.

Ghost tilted his head. "Have you had... issues?"

"I was told I was getting a vaccine and woke up tied up and with fucking wings. Yeah, I've had fucking issues. Left the military immediately."

"How?"

"How what?"

"How did you get out?" Ghost looked up at him.

Graves shrugged. "One day, I just... left. I got ready and during a mission, I simply never went to exfil. Only way to really escape this ya know?"

Ghost frowned. "You deserted?"

"There is no end. If they didn't want me to desert, they would've given me a choice. A way out. I would've stayed a lot longer if I knew one day I could retire."

Ghost shook his head. "I would never."

Graves nodded. "Then you'll die in service. No shame either way. Least not from me." He nodded. "I hope you find peace from what ever you're dealing with." He simply walked off the roof and went straight down.

Ghost would never. He'd die for the military. In battle. Soap by his side. Soap made everything better. Easier.

Then six years later, Ghost was tired again. And unlike last time, it was not the type of tired where he hoped the next bullet wouldn't miss or he'd tear apart. It was the type of tired where he simply wanted to lay in the bed he had at Soap's place and sleep. Then get up and make himself tea and Soap coffee.

Regularly, he found himself imagining life where he was just... him. Not a civilian, but not a soldier either. The idea weighted on him, but it was addicting. He found himself returning to it again and again

Soap noticed, of course he did. He smiled at him, a crisp 30 now. He looked a little more aged, but still so full of energy. His hands went through Ghost's hair and gently stroked his tufts. "What's wrong, Simon?"

Simon didn't have an answer. Soap was his handler and his lover and his best friend and he just... wasn't sure how to explain to him that being his house husband was sometimes all he wanted. To keep the house clean and just... rest after years of being the best soldier he could be. It didn't help that he knew it was impossible.

Soap sighed. "When you're ready to talk about it, tell me, yeah?"

"I will. I promise. Just.... need to get my head straight first."

"That's my job. Taking care of you." Soap kissed his forehead, featherlight. He knew exactly what to do each time. How to keep Ghost feeling secured.

During their next mission, the thought consumed him. He could just walk away. Be assumed dead.

Should he tell Soap first? Or surprise him when he comes on leave?

What about Price? They had since mended their friendship, but Price was still a Captain. Would he tell?

Would Soap?

Would he be dragged back? Forced to keep doing this? Missions and fighting and watching his body mend less and less human.

Alex would one day.

Alejandro might not, but he didn't have to. He hadn't been marked down as a monster in years.

Sorry.

"ESU"

Ghost sighed and took down the target.

Soap smiled at him.

Not today.

Not... Not this mission.

#Experiment au #Monster au #Monster!Ghost #Monster Ghost #Simon Ghost Riley #Johnny Soap MacTavish #Captain John Price #John Price #Cod #Call of Duty Modern Warfare

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starglow-xx · 3 years

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hello! may i request headcanons for chuuya having a crush on someone who's dense? like he could ask them out in the most straightforward way possible and it would still go over their head?

yes, yes of course you may!

sorry this took so long! my computer was out of commission for abt a week (or two..??)

but this is also my birthday writing piece for chuuya!! (4/29/21) i even added a small drabble thingy in addition to the hcs for the occasion hehe

from where i am, it is about fifteen minutes past midnight so it’s officially chuuya day here!!

happy birthday chuuya i love you! you deserve the whole world and everyone is willing to fight tooth and nail to ensure your happiness! we love you! 💗💗

anyways, i hope you all enjoy this! i kinda had some writer’s block but it was still a lot of fun to write! there might be some mistakes, but i’ll scan over it again later. reader is gender neutral! have fun!

chuuya having a crush on a dense! reader

nakahara chuuya x gn! reader

im cackling somebody help him

he’s frustrated bc you can’t take a hint or a thousand but he can’t even be mad bc he’s whipped

“look at you all dressed up today, wanna go out later? my treat?”

“oh really? thanks chuuya-san! you’re such a nice friend. i’ll go invite the others right now, i’ll see you later!”

“...”

fast forward to later in the evening and he finds himself at a little restaurant with the black lizard + higuchi and akutagawa

sigh

in unison all of them go, “thank you for the meal chuuya-san!” (except aku and hirotsu are quieter & and gin just a nods hehe)

“no problem” (ꐦ ´͈ ᗨ `͈ )

gin only pats him on the back in sympathy

he spends a lot of time trying to think of ways to make it absolutely and undeniably clear that he has feelings for you

he always fails

“(y/n) i like you”

“i like you too chuuya-san”

“really?”

“mhm”

“t-then will you—”

“you’re a really great friend! and superior too”

“...nevermind”

“oh were you saying something?”

“nah, just forget about it”

tachihara is laughing in the corner of the corridor

dont worry, chuuya made sure to get back at him

chuuya’s been pinning after you for years and frankly, his failed attempts to woo you has lead everyone to the breaking point

and i mean everyone

yes, even aku

hell even dazai

but dazai also thinks it’s funny, so he doesn’t mind all that much

okay bye bye dazai-san this headcanon set isn’t abt you rn

PLEASE EVERYONE FEELS SO BAD FOR HIM

they knew even if he kissed you, you still might not get it

so they decided to help him

super secret mission get chuuya and (y/n) together is a go!

they’re still working on a proper mission name, don’t mind them

they had a super secret strategy meeting!

you can bet your ass that they nearly got nothing done

akutagawa & kaiji weren’t much help, neither was higuchi, mori, or elise

tachihara nearly got killed for a thoughtless comment

“just tell them chuuya-san!”

“i already fucking did you ass!”

gin, hirotsu, and kouyou were the most helpful !!

hirotsu and kouyou both agreed on the idea that chuuya should try courting with bouquets of flowers instead of flat out asking you bc they knew you found them pretty

(even if you don’t identify as a female, flowers are for everyone no matter gender or sexuality! so let’s normalize giving flowers to everyone <33 )

gin didn’t speak but she used cards to communicate

everyone knew that you weren’t stupid (you wouldn’t have survived in the mafia if you were) but they did know that you were only stupid when it came to all this lovey dovey stuff

i mean, if chuuya gave you flowers every so often, there’s no way that you wouldn’t piece it together at some point

right...??

but kouyou assured him that even though you wouldn’t get it right away, you’d appreciate the gestures and that he’ll stand out more

she even said that if someone gave her flowers, she would appreciate it, whether or not she reciprocated their feelings

it takes guts to be so up front with your feelings after all

gin and hirotsu only nodded with her explanation

once again, this only provoked a reaction out of tachihara

“what do you know gin? i get the old man and kouyou-san, they’re grown, but you? what do you know abt courting? or flowers? what are you a girl?”

akutagawa choked on his cough, higuchi on air, and on the other side of yokohoma at the ada, dazai is cackling

yes, dazai somehow placed a listening device onto chuuya’s hat and was listening in

don’t ask how, it’s dazai

“DAZAI GET YOUR BANDAGED ASS OFF THE COUCH AND STOP LAUGHING”

anyways

the next day, chuuya did what was barely discussed and for once, things actually started to look up

until they started look to down again

at first, it actually looked like you understood his intentions after he gave you a bouquet of flowers

literally everyone was leaning against the opposite hallway you two were in and then they got excited !!

especially chuuya !

but then your expression sort of changed...??

and then in their heads they simultaneously went, “oh no”

they knew that expression

it was very familiar when you tended to friend zone chuuya

but boy let me tell you what you said next made them facepalm and or make their jaws drop

“ah, so you really are friend zoning me huh chuuya-san; what a shame, i really did like you”

LEMME TELL YOU WHEN I SAY THAT CHUUYA WAS DISTRESSED I MEAN HE WAS DISTRESSED

you liked him??

him of all people??

he wasn’t complaining, no of course not, but he still couldn’t believe it

but that wasn’t what he was really focusing on right now

what in any form or language did it say he was friend zoning you?!

flower language apparently

chuuya chose to buy the bouquet of yellow roses, pink carnations, and yellow carnations bc he thought you would appreciate the brighter colors, and so that you’d remember them better (because remembering them, meant remembering him)

but ooh boy

altogether, they meant the exact opposite message he wanted to send

someone help him pls

“you see chuuya-san, yellow roses mean friendship, pink carnations mean gratitude, and yellow carnations mean rejection; sooo in a nutshell, these pretty much say ‘thank you for being my friend, but im rejecting you”

no one can tell if tachihara is crying or wheezing

and dazai is having the time of his life

yes, he started listening in on him again

and chuuya is just stunned

like speechless and unmoving stunned

is he just bad at this whole courting/dating thing?? it’s only been one day and of it and somehow he was the one doing the rejecting??

“thank you for the flowers chuuya-san, i’ll be going now; i’ll make sure to let this affect our friendship. i’ll see you tomorrow!”

you passed by the not so subtle group of people

“tachihara-kun..?? are you alright?”

just for context, he was leaning his forehead against the wall using his forearm

again, it was hard to tell whether he was crying or wheezing

“i-im okay (y/n)-san...i think c-chuuya-san has it worse than me”

“...okay..?”

BACK TO CHUUYA

he’s still frozen poor baby

but it’s okay bc after like 5 more seconds he’s chasing you down the hallway you were walking in

kouyou, with a knowing smile on her face, ushers everyone away towards the opposite direction

she received some whines (ahem, tachihara and mori) but silenced them by summoning golden demon

but it’s okay

if they run fast enough, they can see what happens through the security cameras

chuuya caught up with you and tried to explain everything but he was exhausted

emotionally, physically (bc since when did you walk that fast??), and generally just tired with the whole situation

he just wanted to call you his; was that too much to ask??

as explosive as he can be, he can be calm and collected too

and he really did try to be that way as he talked with you but it was very difficult at the moment

the dumbfounded and confused look on your face his face twitch with annoyance and his heart started beating faster bc god you were cute

BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT RIGHT NOW

thank goodness after what seemed like years, you finally somewhat understood what happened

you didn’t understand completely but it was something

The two of you stood in the middle of the unusually empty hallway facing each other, you with the bouquet still in hand. It was quiet as you and Chuuya assessed the situation.

You looked at him skeptically and he stared right back you with his gorgeous blue eyes.

“...So you do like me Chuuya-san??”

“Yes”

“And you were trying to court me just now, not friend zone me??”

“Yes”

You got most of your questions out of the way, but there was something that you’ve been wondering about for quite a while.

“...So you’re not gay for Dazai-san??”

“Yes, im not wait—GAY FOR DAZAI?? THAT MACKEREL??”

Chuuya did a double take. What in heavens name made it seem like he liked that suicidal maniac?? Why would he choose him if he had you?

Like he would choose him anyways; or ever consider him as a possible romantic partner.

“Oh, so you are?”

“NO! I SAID I LIKED YOU DIDN’T I?”

“Well yeah, but I thought you liked Dazai-san too. As annoying as he is, he can be quite charming—”

He was out of patience at this point (nope definitely not because you were talking about Dazai who told you that?) and just decided to kiss you.

You immediately melted into the kiss and kissed him back with the same amount of love and feeling.

Letting the bouquet fall to the ground, you wrapped you arms around his neck and his put his on your lower back and brought you closer to him. After a few more moments, the two of you broke apart for air.

The two of you, slightly out of breath, leaned your foreheads against each other and just basked in each others presence.

Chuuya looked into your (e/c) eyes and asked you just a little bit above a whisper, “Now do you get my intentions and feeling?”

You blinked at him before breaking out into a grin, “Hmm I’m not sure; do you wanna do that again Chuuya?”

The red head only blinked back at you before rolling his eyes, a smile present on his handsome features, his heart fluttering at you using his name with the honorific.

“Dumbass”

Smiling cheekily at him, you pressed a kiss on his cheek and started dragging him towards the lobby to take a walk around the building perimeter, knowing that the two of you can’t be too far from work.

The way down to the lobby was mostly in comfortable silence until you said something that made Chuuya want to bash his head against the wall.

“You know, you could’ve just told me you liked me Chuuya. It’s not like I would’ve said no.”

Once again, as the rest of the more power mafia members watch from security cameras, it is hard to tell whether Tachihara is crying or wheezing of laughter.

omake !!

The two of you just started making your way around the building when suddenly a very familiar voice came from Chuuya’s prized hat.

“Chuuyaaaa!! It was about time you stopped being a chicken, Chibi!”

Removing his hat from his head, he started yelling at it not knowing exactly where the listening device was planted.

“TEME! HOW DID YOU—”

“And (y/n)! I would congratulate you, but I think I would rather offer you my condolences. Why him?! He’s just a slimy slug. OOH OOH how would you like to join me in a double suicide?! A shame it won’t be a lover’s suicide but it’ll annoy Chuuya so I think it’ll be worth it! ”

“YOU—”

“And please don’t kiss while I’m listening in. You made me lose my appetite! And it was such a shame! I was eating crab using Kunikida-kun’s money! Do you know what you’ve cost me?!”

“DAZAI YOU PIECE OF—”

“Ah! Kunikida-kun is here! I have to go!”

You can hear something is the background that vaguely sounds like, “DAZAI YOU WASTE OF BANDAGES STOP USING MY MONEY”

“DAZAI DON’T YOU DARE LEAVE IM NOT DONE WITH—”

*Click!*

The click sound from the hat revealed that Dazai disconnected.

Chuuya twitched and glared furiously at his signature hat hating that the voice he hated the most came out of it.

“Aww, I didn’t get to talk to Dazai-san”

Chuuya whipped his head towards you, a look of mock (or real) betrayal showing on his features.

You laughed at him before taking the hat out of his hands and placing it on his head.

He shyly looked away before muttering a thanks making you smile wider. Just as the two of you were about to start walking, a small explosion erupted from his hat; it was likely that Dazai made the listening device self destruct.

“DAZAI YOU BASTARDD”

At the Armed Detective Agency, a certain suicidal maniac hid from the wrath of his current partner as he thought about the wrath his old one.

“Hmmm I wonder if Chuuya would finally stop wearing his ugly hats if I blow all of them up...”

as always, reblogs and shares are appreciated! i hope you all stay safe! and just in case nobody told you they loved you today, i love you! you are enough! <3

writing belongs to me! please do not plagiarize! the reblog button is there for a reason

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gaycastlemoved · 4 years

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hello I am that school au anon (also known as pop kid anon on woot’s blog) and I am here to deliver you my Take. i don’t know some of you so I’m kinda just skimming through to develop a vague understanding. might be correct might be incorrect idk, sorry if I accidentally offended any of you but yeah:

general: you guys are that popular clique that probably has a whole table to yourselves and you’re always the first in line for the food n stuff. you all stan this really popular band (mcytbers) and half of you have shaped your identity around them and another half is just vibing. you all try to coordinate outfits at least every week but it never works out for various reasons. once you all went into jail. for what, nobody knows exactly.

@itsfundy: closeted furry. really really interested in politics which no one expects of you. ran for student council president w/ @fakenoblade but failed. because of that you bit mcyt-quotes arm and barked at them for a whole day. would run for president if you weren’t so tired and lazy. you absolutely love winter but hate the snow.

@imgns: once got into a fight with the headmaster and nearly got expelled. cries a lot when watching movies in class. very pretty, good at art, got accepted to this prestigious art school and so far you’re still deciding to accept or not. would fight god if he existed.

@ohnominecraft: hardcore band stan. always surprised when someone approaches you. used to be v v innocent until you became a part of this friend group. always sits the furthest away from the fans (like, the literal ones, not the human fans). has played minecraft the longest. sort of a boomer.

@fakenoblade: open furry. generally nice, a real drama nerd. you tried to run for student council president once with @itsfundy but failed half because no one wanted to support furries publicly because stereotypes and half because everyone was too afraid of quotes2020 to do much. you ate dirt when you were a kid.

@wooteena: you’re The Popular One. everyone knows of you but you don’t consider yourself to be the best. panics whenever someone compliments you. there is a divide between your reputation and your actual personality. you’ve been in the school for the longest time.

@honey-daisies: very quiet. you’re not that into the band (mcytbers) but you are still a fan. really really loves flowers and art. probably short. would throw hands with the headmaster you just don’t show it. you’re a teacher’s pet, the art teacher loves your determination.

@sootstuff: you’re the guy people go to when they’re just getting started on bein a fan of your fave idol, but you have no idea why. you want to be a writer when you’re older but just two problems: money & writer’s block. you have a feud going on with the english/literature teacher. you look sophisticated but in reality you are asdjshsj.

@tehcnoblade: quietly stans. also quietly stabs. very good at shooting shit. out and open and proud lgbtq supporter. you absolutely hate the gym and the history teacher for no other reason other than they just don’t vibe with your vibe. goes between spelling mistakes in every other sentence and perfect grammar and the English/literature teacher hates you for that.

@finxblr: often overshadowed by your more popular friends but that doesn’t mean you’re any less important. you have some issues with your home life so you don’t spend much time with them. people mistake you for stanning a different idol than who you’re a fan of rn.

@t0mmyinnit: you’re in a all-year war against the other stans of your fave band member (mcytber). people know of you the most tho, so feel comfort in that fact. has chaotic sibling energy. surprisingly, not the youngest child in your family. you keep sneaking sharp objects into the school to the point where the security guards have to check you every day for any sharp stuff.

if you guys want detailed stuff about your adventures in mcytblr high school i can make a blog for it.

HOLY SHIT!!!! I LOVE THIS OMG!!!! I ACTUALLY GOT CAUGHT IN SCHOOL FOR ACCIDENTALLY SNEAKING MY POCKET KNIFE IN SO 👀👀👀!!! A BLOG WOULD BE SO COOL THO!!! -cherry (t0mmyinnit)

#i think i am the youngest #me n woot are both 13 so unless n e ones younger then that #we r the youngest #ilysm anon #cherry #long post

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