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#himself and has only been spiderman for 6 goddamn months
movedtodykedvonte · 10 months
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So confused where fandom/fic writers got this interpretation that Miles does stupid shit that doesn’t make sense or barely works out in the end or puts his friends in unnecessary danger all the time. Like in both movies the others simply underestimate him and don’t understand what Miles is doing cause he thinks like Miles, not like your everyday Spiderman. He uses his Venom Strike to throw Kingpin in the ITSV movie and literally saves Gwen and Peter because they went into battle less than ready. Then had the entire plan to lure the Spiders in ATSV, yet I keep seeing him written like he doesn’t think or gets his friends in trouble even when he understands the danger. Most of the time his different thinking has helped or led people to fix personal issues.
The first movie alone pretty much sets in stone that the exact opposite of what he wants is others to get hurt by his actions, inactions or the actions of others and trying to live up to that belief and the expectations it carries. Across the Spider-verse hammers it home with how he constantly tries to save people because that’s what he should do, rather than listen to some theory that is clearly not absolute at best and outright wrong at worst. Every fic has him being the one to cause issues and not fix them when his planning and actions literally helped save Gayatri and her father.  (c’mon we know the glitching was the spot)
Yeah, I get making him stubborn or strong willed cause he doesn’t listen all the time but usually it’s for a good and valid reason, if he listened every time he was told not to, guess how many of our beloved characters would be dead?
#cause all the times he acts rash are because hes being lied to misled or not treated like he is gonna have to be spiderman and is spiderman#first gwen with the entirety of spider society and why he couldn't come then talked over by Miguel and blamed for what he couldn't possibly#control not to mention the shoddy nature of miguels entire theory#cause if it was true 1610b earth 42 and mayday wouldnt have happened or would collaspe casue miles was never supposed to be spiderman#so many things would be going wrong if it was true#miles is pretty level headed most of the time and quick he outsmarted the guy who made the trans dimension tech for crying outloaud#he simply doesnt tell his exact plan he does it and its up to others to figure it out cause why would he narrate his plan to them#he litteraly tells miguel he just doesnt know what miles is doing in response to miguel thinking hes just running blindly even Peter & Gwen#are suprised cause the whole point of miles story is others thinking they know it and underestimating him#him being dumb and rash and naive in fics just isnt a good source of conflict especially if its post ATSV and BTSV#he is constantly stating he doesnt need to prove himself as spiderman to anyone but himself soemthing he realizes in ITSVs climax#he already knows he spiderman and be damned if hes gonna try to prove it to someone who wanted his dad to die like yall treat him like he#learned nothing Miguel made more issues by not listening to Miles about the spot like he wants to wait for him to get stronger so Miles dad#will die think about that and say Miles is rash and doesn;t think again he isnt inexperienced or naive anymore save that for Pavitr who jinx#himself and has only been spiderman for 6 goddamn months#miles morales#across the spiderverse#atsv#spiderverse#atsv spoilers#spiderman#mini rant over im actually going to sleep now
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spideychelleee · 5 years
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MJ FFH Analysis
I LOVE that they stayed true to MJ’s character in FFH but still allowed her to have a bit more depth. Get comfy, this is long. It gets really deep towards the end oof. Welcome to my part rant part analysis of Peter and MJ in FFH:
First of all, can I just say that MJ is represented so well. I’m so glad that she is still wearing casual clothing and little makeup and lets her curls run wild. I have naturally curly hair but always straighten it cuz i feel like i look crazy with it curly but after seeing MJ, Im starting to realize that I should just rock what I got. And I feel like her portrayal has this effect on every teen and adult that watches her on the big screen. She inspires everyone to just BE YOURSELF. Ugh yessssssss
Ok now onto the scenes. Almost immediately, we hear our very own Spider-Parker has got a 6 STEP PLAN to impress MJ. This man is crushing. Hard. Many people were disappointed that this sudden liking for MJ came “out of nowhere” but, as countless other blogs have mentioned, relationships CAN develop off screen. Especially friendships. Wow who knew. Peter and Ned were friends right when Hoco began and no one had a problem with buying their friendship. The period after Hoco when MJ becomes team captain to Infinity War is long enough for these two to become actual friends and for Peter to realize how awesome she is. And let’s not forget that it’s been 8 months since the Blip (ew) happened. The Blip 100% brought everybody closer, whether they liked it or not. And the fact that Peter knows MJ’s favorite flower and the reasoning behind said favorite flower hints that they have been getting closer.
The airplane scene yesss: Our girl MJ is not afraid to stand up for Peter when Flash makes fun of him. And omg the way his face lights up after she does that. I think that interaction with Flash was a great way to show the antis that MJ is not mean spirited like Flash can be. Yes, she is sarcastic, blunt, and a little morbid (she clearly likes crime investigation guys), but she is not rude. She isn’t afraid to stand up for the “little guy” (in this case Peter hahaha irony). Also in this scene we get one of our first peaks at awkward Peter and MJ when he slams the bathroom door in her face HA. Their wide eyed expressions say it all. And the fact that MJ puts her ear to the door to hear wtf he is doing is just a continuation of how observant she likes to be. Oof I love this whole scene. and if a boy ever cleaned the bathroom for me i would marry him
THE BO (boh?) SCENE. This is our first glimpse of excited MJ and I love it. She is more than just rbf and sarcastic MJ. She has normal human emotions that she seems comfortable to let show only around...drum roll...Peter!!! I’m not sure if she went looking for him or just saw him outside of the store she was in but either way she excitedly ran over just to tell him about a new word she learned and what she had been doing. Let’s note that both of these characters are clearly fine doing something alone, yes including Peter. The rest of the class went their separate ways in groups while Peter went to buy the necklace by himself and MJ went to learn about Italy by herself. But, if they were to hang around anyone, they would rather it be each other. So now they are alone together (wow look at that beautiful oxymoron). MJ comes out of literally nowhere with a skip in her step. You can clearly see how excited she is to just talk to Peter about her new favorite word. She’s finally opening up around him. But MJ is still is her normal sarcastic self when she shuts down that guy with the roses implying that they looked like a couple (cuz they do). AND this woman has the NERVE to say “bo” is her new superpower to someone with actual superpowers. She knew what she was saying and it was purely intentional cuz she loves messing with Peter. And of course MJ noticed Peter was holding a bag and asked about it. Observant, remember? His response was perfect. MJ appreciated Peter’s smarta** response because it meant he was paying attention to her and it was exactly what she would have said. These two enjoy being around each other and can bounce off the other easily when their feelings don’t make things awkward.
That small scene in the hotel where Peter mentions going to Paris tomorrow is *chef’s kiss*. He is testing the waters just like she was in Hoco when she was trying to make friends. But this time, Peter is trying to see if his plan is going to hold up and if she is remotely interested in Paris at all. Her response is pure MJ. And naturally, Peter is a little taken aback by her random, dark fact about the Eiffel Tower but she follows with it being her favorite destination on the whole trip. She would normally stop at the morbid fact with anyone else, but with Peter she offers a little more insight to how she’s feeling. 
Brace yourselves #1: THE OPERA SCENE. Let’s establish that MJ really gives zero effs about Brad. This dude really trying to tell her he’ll save her a seat HA. Good one Brad. You can feel how uncomfortable she was the minute he said that. And that’s when our hero Peter Parker swoops in cuz he can’t let this happen. This boy summons all the courage in the entire world to tell MJ she looks “really pretty”. And once again, her response is pure MJ. I feel like she has trouble interacting with people she likes because she just doesn’t know how to. But she saves Peter from wanting the ground to swallow him whole when she summons the courage to say “you look pretty too”. AHHHHH. This is the first time we have heard MJ compliment anyone. Like I said before, with anyone else *cough* Brad *cough*, MJ would have stopped at the “therefore I have value” line. HOWEVER, with Peter, she is continuously opening up little by little. And she takes matters into her own hands by cleverly asking Peter if he wants to sit next to her. And yet again the audience sees another first timer for MJ. She is nervous. We NEVER have seen her nervous. She is usually calm, cool, and collected. But not with Peter. I can’t reiterate this enough. She’s finally breaking down her walls and for no one else but Pete. AND she finally decides to run after him when she catches him leaving. She knows he wouldn’t ditch her for no reason. She’s got a hunch that he’s hiding something or that something is wrong and she wants to find out and maybe help.
Brace yourselves #2: we are going into the bridge date walk thing these two dorks managed to accomplish. At the hotel, MJ immediately asks Peter where he was. No one else asked him that. Not even Mr. Harrington, which would be his job lol. She also says “we missed you” and “glad you’re back” and gives a weak smile. We all know really she meant “I missed you”. You ain’t that slick girl. And Peter’s excuses are just getting worse and worse. “I got lost” jeez come on man what was that. She 100% (or 67%) knows he’s lying to her. ANYWHO, Peter and MJ clearly both want to hang out because she opens the door the minute he was about to knock. She spares his rambling with a definitive “yes” cuz she is eager to go on a date walk with this dork. And Peter is freaking out cuz omg she wants to meet in 5 minutes instead of 10. That line alone shows MJ’s eagerness and how she will take matters into her own hands if need be. And the entire walk out of the hotel these two COULD NOT STOP SMILING. This is just another example of how giddy MJ gets around Peter.
Ok actual bridge scene: Once more, we see MJ in a particularly vulnerable state. She’s trying to find something to talk about and nervously tells Peter yet another morbid fact about the Charles Bridge. AND AGAIN, SHE DOES SOMETHING SHE HAS NEVER DONE BEFORE. She apologizes. MJ is so nervous that she said the completely wrong thing and made things weird that she says “sorry”. She is so goddamn vulnerable around Peter it’s not even funny. And she was so excited to tell Peter that she knows he’s Spiderman that she cuts him off from his feelings confession HA. And of course Peter is shooketh. Because all this girl does to Peter is make him shooketh and catch him off guard, and visa versa. But MJ won’t hear his lame excuses anymore cuz she’s got the receipts. Our girl has actual evidence that ended up cracking the whole omg Mysterio is a fraud situation. AND UGH, when Peter asks if she was only watching him because she thought he was Spidey. And she LIES. MJ is “obsessed with telling the truth” and yet she goes against her character and lies to cover up the fact that she likes Peter because she is afraid of telling him how she really feels because what if he doesn’t like her back. Which is normal. MJ is not used to what she’s feeling around Peter and the minute she has the opportunity to confess she panics (like we all would).
I needed to start a new bullet point cuz that was getting long. Continuing with that scene: I love how Peter finally just admits that YES he is Spiderman (shocker) and he really messed up lol. Their little back and forth banter “are joking with me cuz it’s not funny” “I was only like 67% sure” “what are you doing on a school trip?!” is MJ both extremely excited and freaking the eff out at what is going on. In truth it’s a lot to process. The guy she likes is Spiderman and he just admitted it, she’s been carrying evidence to a major crime, they both just figured out together that Mysterio is gonna kill half of Europe, etc...MJ is showing her true human emotions to Peter and only Peter.
We continue to see MJ breaking down her walls in Peter’s hotel room. She’s actively trying to help him figure out what he is going to do about everything they just found out. She has emotional facial expressions. AND WOO MJ is revealed to be a hormonal teenaged girl who wants to look at Peter’s abs (don’t we all). But THE MINUTE Ned comes in, it’s like a light switch turned off. She goes back to being blunt “he didn’t tell me, I figured it out” and has no expression on her face. It really just goes to show how Peter brings out the best in her and ughhhh yesss
Ok this isn’t really analysis but Peter diving after MJ in that illusion (even after recognizing that it wasn’t real) goes to show how much he cares about her ok continue...
MJ is now a FOS (friend of Spiderman). She knows the danger that comes with being a FOS. She reminds Ned of this and urges that they should break off from the rest of the class. She doesn’t want others to get hurt on her account. It was a very brave thing for her to do. And she continues to be brave when she whacked the shit out of that drone with A MACE. And I love that MJ doesn’t have unrealistic levels of strength. Because she shouldn’t. She is a teenaged girl. She doesn’t have superpowers. The fact that she nearly dropped the mace on the floor is really realistic. it’s heavy. But she doesn’t need powers to have courage or to help save herself and her friends.
I love how in the vault MJ’s confession is that she is “obsessed with the truth and will always say it even if it hurts someone’s feelings”. Or something like that. And yes she is. Like I said before, MJ is not mean. Is she awkward? Yes. Does she sometimes not know how to continue a conversation? Yes. Are her interests dark and morbid? Yes. But she’s not a bully. She’s honest. Her personality is brutally honest and her appearance is brutally honest. She doesn’t try to look like someone she’s not to impress Peter. She doesn’t try to change her personality to please others. But she does indeed call you out on your bullshit when you are acting up. We need more people like MJ.
Brace yourselves #3: We are transferring into THE SCENE. Let’s all take a deep breath before we begin. Ok. MJ obviously cares about Peter. And obviously MJ is not a physical contact type of person. The minute the drones stop attacking, she runs to find Peter without a second thought. And what does she do? She hugs him. This isn’t a half ass hug either. She runs and launches herself into his arms. Which is an appropriate response because she didn’t even know if he was still alive. That’s when she pulls out The Necklace. I can only imagine how MJ must have felt when Happy gave that to her. I feel like in that moment she realized that hey, Peter might actually have feelings for her. And the fact that it was her favorite flower really sent her. She is so overcome with emotion that she interrupts Peter’s rambling yet again but this time with A PECK ON THE LIPS. And although she has an idea that Peter likes her now, you can still see all over her face that she’s waiting to see his reaction. SHES TESTING THE WATERS YET AGAIN PEOPLE. Just like she was doing in Hoco. I’m gonna make that my senior quote I swear I feel like I’ve said that so many times. AND THEN she admits that she has trouble getting close to people and that she lied about watching him just because he was Spiderman. (Btw Zendaya’s delivery was amazing and you could just see the emotion on her face and hear it in her voice.) That is a big step for MJ. Once again for the twentieth time in this rant/analysis, MJ is allowing herself to open up around Peter. And it’s a little scary for her but she does it anyway. 
BUT WAIT THERES MORE. “I actually like it better broken”. Of course she does. Tattoo this quote on my forehead. I changed my mind, this will be my senior quote. The amount of depth in that line is insane. Broken. The necklace. It’s broken. The boy standing in front of her has just had his ass handed to him, his face is bloodied and he’s limping. He is physically broken. He’s also witnessed the death of his uncle and Ironman, both important father figures in his life. Not to mention the trauma he’s been through fighting Thanos and being manipulated by Mysterio. He is mentally broken. MJ probably comes from a troubled household. Her family is broken (probably). The fact that MJ and Peter and half the universe were dusted and lost 5 years of their lives with zero say. The world is broken. But MJ doesn’t mind. She straight up tells Peter that she doesn’t care that times are tough or that it’s dangerous to be close to him. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger am I right? AND THEN she really admits, I’m talking blatantly, flat out, no sugar, clear as day, states “I really like you too”. WEVE GONE FULL CIRCLE YET AGAIN. She has officially opened up to Peter ladies and gents. Like really opened up this time. Full on. And then he nervously wiggles in to peck her lips and she gives him a shy smile. And then we get a full on K I S S and she’s got the courage to put her hand on his neck. Wow. The amount of shy smiles she gives Peter in this entire scene is just too much to count. And she MAKES A JOKE. And it’s not a sarcastic one. She awkwardly grabs that mace and pretends to beat someone’s ass “just in case” ahhhhh.
When Peter and MJ nervously hold hands in New Jersey. Yeah. And she’s wearing the broken necklace. And one final time we see MJ saying something blunt “nobody really pays attention to you” cuz that’s who she is but then adding how she really feels immediately after “except for me” all because she is with Peter. And only Peter makes her do that.
Oh and MJ freaking out and screaming at the top of her lungs was yet another relatable aspect that makes her so lovable. For the ten millionth time, she tries to play it cool around Peter, but he ends up breaking down her walls.
That was so long. I’m so sorry. If you made it this far you’re the real MVP and I appreciate it.
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soleminisanction · 4 years
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You know how the whole "Lost in the Multiverse" arc of 2019 Young Justice, basically everything from Issues 6 on, feels weirdly compromised and basically the entire tone and pacing of the book took a sudden shift for the worse that it's only just starting to recover from?
I have a theory (and I stress, it's only a theory, pure speculation) that it's because of Into the Spider-verse.
Not that I "blame" ItSv for anything, but follow my logic:
According to his essay in the back of the Young Justice: Gemworld trade paperback, Bendis started developing the Wonder Comics imprint shortly after he joined DC. So that would be, late 2017, early 2018. At that that time, Bendis had been active in the industry for several decades and was thus already well-known....to comic readers. Which is a very niche market.
Now, remember that Young Justice, Naomi, Dial “H” for Hero and Wonder Twins all came out in pretty rapid succession, with only that first series being announced as an ongoing while the other three were originally slated to be self-contained 6-issue miniseries. 
As I understand it, any given issue of a mainstream comic book has at least six-month production schedule. That is, if you, the ongoing writer, turn in a script for your deadline in January, then the comic book issue that comes from that script will hit shelves around June or July. But it’s also not unheard of to stockpile a few issues of an ongoing series before Issue 1 hits the stands just to give yourself a buffer in that release schedule such, say, writing the entire first year in one shot. 
Based on that knowledge and some weird incongruities in what eventually became the finished product, I would bet you anything that a) Young Justice, as a known property with both a passionate original-series fanbase and a potential untapped resource in the cartoon’s fanbase, was likely always meant to be the central support of the whole Wonder Comics line;  therefore, b) Bendis already had at least the first full arc, if not an entire year, of YJ written and turned in at the time of the announcement; and c) the original version of the story had YJ returning to the main world in issue #7, kicking off an arc in which they escaped from and then took out STAR Labs while teaming up with Naomi/the Twins (to keep those characters fresh in audiences’ minds after their minis) before getting transported to Earth-3 for a fresh new adventure in 2020.
But then. 
Into the Spider-verse hits theaters and becomes the biggest goddamn animated movie of the year, winning All of the Awards and tons of well-deserved critical attention. And suddenly, the name Brian Michael Bendis isn’t just comic-book famous, he’s mainstream-semi-famous as “the creator of Miles Morales, everyone’s new favorite Spiderman.” 
(Bendis himself rightfully insists he’s the co-creator, but that’s not how the media portrays it.) 
And this is great news for promoting both DC and Wonder Comics, especially Naomi since “she could be the new Miles” and also her series turned out to be a massive critical success. But. It also means that suddenly Wonder Comics is a much bigger deal. Which means that Young Justice, as the core of the imprint, needs to be a much bigger deal. And, at some point, someone decides that this means that the big inter-title team-up needs to happen later. As the line’s “one-year anniversary.”
Yet, it’s way too late to change the first 5 issues of the series. So they do what they can to change Issue 6 (redoing some of the artwork, re-scripting some of the lettering, etc.), call in some other artists (conveniently those with a simpler, more cartoony art style) to whip up a super-fast alternate Issue #7 so they only have to delay the rest of the series for a month, and repurpose some of the work they’d already done for the then-3rd arc to make a rushed, slipshod “Lost in the Multiverse” arc to fill in the months between the end of Gemworld and their revamped return to the main world.
Again, all of this is just my random theory and I could be 100% wrong. It’s equally as likely that editorial sent down an edict from on high that Young Justice’s STAR Labs thing had to be tied to Leviathan, or any number of other things behind the scenes. But this makes sense to me. 
Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. 
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ecotone99 · 5 years
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[RF] 9:15
Today, Jeff had made up his mind, he would go to the central library, no matter how far it was, he would read his favourite book, even if it’s fiction, even if its fantasy and even if it doesn’t make sense. He just had to do it, for himself, for his own sake. He thought to himself enough of this comic superhero stuff. He was a big Spiderman fan and after he came to know about spider verse, he was hooked by the dynamics and duality of it. How two Spiderman’s, two peter parker’s were just soo different despite living the same life. With soo many thoughts of world of comic and fiction, Jeff left his home with only his keys. He felt his hands were bare, like he had missed something, something very important.
At the exit gate of his small society, he had to make an entry about his exit, so that if some visitor or delivery comes then the security can handle it then and there itself or ask them to come later. After, Jeff signed his name and signature, the security said “What sahib, today in mood for some masti?” but Jeff eyes were fixated to that one kid across the road with a school bag heavier than a tank, the kid was dwarfing against the weight of school homework, at least that’s how Jeff saw it. He walked towards him and asked “You didn’t do your homework?”
The kid was already having conflicting thoughts about what had transpired. He looked confused at sight of Jeff talking to him or approaching him, like he didn’t expect him to ask these questions or cared about this stuff. He then just silently nodded to Jeff. This state of boy had Jeff feeling all levels of empathy for him. He never really liked the idea of current school system, burdening kids with homework and maths problems. He knew in future they’ll have real life problems to deal with anyway. Childhood is meant to be enjoyed and about learning moral values not theorem’s.
At the sight of Jeff contemplating the situation, the kid wanted to say something but the words didn’t quite find place in his mouth. Jeff broke the silence and asked “What’s your name?”
“Raj” said the kid with a little voice hoping to be heard.
“Let’s go to the park, today we’ll play and reward your daily studying efforts and time.”
The kid smiled and pointed to the nearest park. Jeff offered him a hand and they went to park to play. It was an odd timing and park empty. Yet, they played across swings, slides and seesaw or at least Jeff accompanied him. Finally, he asked “Why did you not want to go school?”
Raj said “It wasn’t about homework; my mom makes me do it compulsorily.”
He continued “I didn’t felt like going to school, I made excuse of stomach ache to my parents but they knew I was not saying the truth. So, when it got late, I had to rush so, I don’t miss my bus. At bus stop, my friend was waiting. I knew bus was going to come. Therefore, I went back and hid myself in parking. The fear of mum getting angry bought me out but it was too late.”
Jeff had sense the helplessness and guilt in his voice. He asked to ease out this topic, “Which hero do you like?”
Raj sighed and told “My parents say if I watch movies, I’ll get glasses.” Jeff had this instant idea and took raj to nearby gift store and bought the action figures of Spiderman and goblin.
Jeff had decided to tell him the whole story of Spiderman using action figures on park’s bench. S they returned to park, Jeff was checking out Spiderman action figure. A car parked ahead of them and the lady that came out should have made raj smiled but made him scared. It was his mother and she took him, only after giving a scornful look to Jeff. He could hear his mother screaming while going off with raj, who was held tightly by his tiny wrist. “bus driver told me, school had called me.”
Next morning, Jeff realized in all the spontaneity, he had spent money for travelling to library, for the action figures. Jeff wasn’t particularly rich. Anyway, he again left hoping for asking lift along the way and half route travel by the remaining money. As he exited gate he remembered security yesterday saying something was wrong with his entry but today there was other security. He took the bus for the central library and when he sat down he found something in his back pocket, some more change money to get him near his destination at a walkable distance. It was strange but helpful.
When he got down to the nearest stop, he started walking towards library at little distance, a guy in Mercedes lowered his window gave Jeff a threatening look clicked a photo of him and rushed away. Jeff was confused what he had done to afford that kind of look from that unknown guy and that kind of reaction. Jeff felt he was responsible for costing him millions or some heavy loss. He thought to himself was that guy raj’s dad? If yes, then why was car different than yesterday? He kept wondering do they own 2 cars?
Then again, he realized everyday a new obstacle could make him go off onto something that seems really important but probably isn’t. He has been trying to go to the library from months now. So he rushed to the Library. He tried reading about fantasy and fiction books but he always found himself drawn to these stories of characters, their development and their arc. May it be a detective story or a murder mystery or about the motivation of a character, some weird stories of criminals doing their time in prison or just good old superhero stuff. He spent whole day reading random books about remarkable characters in time of adversity and how they acted instead of any brilliant fantasy stories that the library had to offer.
He had the most blissful sleep that night, his sleep was interrupted by series of loud doorbells then next morning. As he woke up, he found a watch alongside his pillow. The watch made him remember a lot of things but not completely, the most evident thing of them all was wearing it around 9:15. It must be the very important thing he left, and felt his hands bare on the day he met raj. Before he could think more, his ears hurt more than his mind thinking about all this as the door bells wouldn’t stop ringing. The rings started to grew repetitively violent like someone’s job of 9-5 rushing in on a Monday morning. He finally addressed the door to find a young beautiful girl with a carry bag of makeup and wedding clothes, full of tears in her eyes, hugged Jeff as humbly and as hard as she could. Like it was the last time she could do it, but for Jeff it was first time until he the warmth of this hug started to feel familiar, until the smell of her hair reminded of something he just couldn’t figure out yet.
She started sobbing and crying while trying to make an effort to speak “You said private silent wedding, I agreed. You said we would elope, I agreed. You said honeymoon after you land the deal and goddamn agreed to that as well…”
She continued “But then you said, No Kids!!! And I Fucking agreed to that as well” Her crying grew wilder as she explained something that left Jeff more clueless and it hurt his mind even further.
She somehow spoke again amidst the sobbing “what else now?”
Jeff felt like he was being buried underground. He felt he was being shoved into a mind full of things he just couldn’t remember correctly.
“You must’ve mistaken me for someone else, maybe wrong house? “Jeff struggled to suppress how he was feeling.
“You don’t think this ring means something??” the girl showed her tender hands with ring on one of the finger. She further grabbed his hand and showed the same ring Jeff was wearing, she cried with her last breath “We are engaged!!”
Even though the girl was the one crying, feeling miserable and struggling to breathe, it was Jeff who was being torched. Jeff felt like mind hurt and blew his consciousness to million pieces. He was questioning the girl’s stability but what about his? She was in no way lying. She went to rushed to the side of the room and ripped open his cupboard to reveal a shiny white coat which Jeff had no clue about.
Looking at Jeff confused she finally asked “Are you going to play dumb?”
“Openly lie about everything we have been through, John?”
“JOHN?”
As the name john came up, Jeff fell unconsciously into a pool of mystery made up by his mind. Was this really an alternative universe? A different verse of his own life?
. . .
“A very strange case indeed” the psychologist continued “John isn’t who we all know, as per the world, a regular guy who is point punctual and disciplined to death. He is the guy who reaches his office at sharp 9:15, works hard, delivers his best… But none of this colleagues know anything about him, apart from asking him out for a team outing on a movie, a superhero movie, which all the fad from past few years. He never really liked these outings and often ignores them. The watch is the first thing he looks at when he reaches office and never ever forgets it. It is like a magnet to his wrist. He is soo good at his work that he never really took any breaks any leaves in past 6 months. Until recently, when there is uniform unplanned leave at a uniform gap of 40 days or so.
These leaves weren’t harmful for anyone until one time he missed a very critical meeting. He is very important to these meetings, he takes the whole ownership of most presentation’s and strategies. After enquiring with his colleagues and security entries and exits, I figured he went to library near his office where the client who was stalled at meeting spot him and took his photo. He had prepared completely and thoroughly for this meeting. He however ghosted on the whole office this day. This was the first time his career was actually at stake and he was truly responsible for the loss. What’s really surprising is the things he would never do as JOHN are the exact things he loved to do as JEFF. Interacting with kids, trying to discuss Superhero movies-comics, Reading, going out of his way to help someone else, empathise with them, forgetting his watch…
However, there is some cope up mechanism too like he convinced for one more shot at the meeting with the angry client, he promises you to get married, gets engaged with you and sets conditions so that the Jeff & john could live peacefully together. He makes sure honeymoon is after the meeting, and to further ground my theory, the kid he met on one of the days, his parents confirmed how he wanted to gift him action figures of superhero’s and even played with him. Exact opposite of John…”
“But john hates these things” her fiance finally voiced her opinion.
“Indeed yes, but it’s like his persona of fun was suppressed for far too long for some routine reason or some appearances to put up in front of the world. These days of Jeff were like a much needed summer or spring breaks for any other human. A beautiful refreshing change like the tides of weather moving along. Mostly it’s not a good sign of a human having these disorders of dual personalities but here john missed office to play with a kid to make him happy, he misses a meeting to make up for the time lost doing all the office work and rewards himself with a session of reading completely escaping the realism of this world and how he misses the day of your wedding … I want it to be coincidental but it’s a sign of stress and john is running away from stress towards Jeff… sorry.”
John’s fiancee eyes started to tear again, the doc extends her hands and further puts in slightly “they are like two sides of coins. Not one of them is bad or harmful, they are natural. They just got drifted apart soo much along the path of life… A day for Jeff is like a year apart for john that’s how much endurance john had gathered to do the same thing over and over again… but the walls are crumbling now…”
“It’s scary that the fact is we might not remember when john actually enjoyed living last time and we see him missing critical milestones of his life and actually giving himself a break.”
The psychiatrist ward is silent as a stone with the psychiatrist done explaining what she feels might be the case and the girl listening about why his fiance had started acting soo strangely but there are two souls of john and Jeff lying on a single bed in a single body and mind wondering how they will co-exist and how they are supposed to survive when there will be a time for third soul, who maybe a party animal or an animal lover or something they have no clue about.
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