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Team "would rather die than admit something's bothering them"
So for the first good chunk of their relationship, Bad Luck and Vash were more "fucking" than "dating". Bad Luck was really apprehensive about romantic entanglements, and had been taken advantage of by a friend, in the past. (While not THE reason he was kicked out of his community, it was definitely related.)
However, Vash-- aware of Luck's hesitance but not of the reasons why-- already had a little bit of a crush on him. So when Luck stupidly offered a FWB situation, Vash accepted, thinking he could be chill about it. He quickly realized, no, he could NOT be chill about it, and spent the next few months relentlessly pining and feeling guilty and wanting to broach the subject, but never saying anything.
Eventually, Vash's crush gets revealed, and by that point Bad Luck has kinda fallen in love with him and they get together and Bad Luck insists that it's all fine, water under the bridge. Truthfully, though, he feels a little betrayed, and has this sense of "why the fuck would you think that's a good idea" towards Vash, hanging over his head. But he also thinks he has no place feeling this way because he never told Vash why he was so hesitant (and still hasn't), and also he does love Vash now anyway, so there's really no point bringing this up now and messing with the status quo, right?
And that's just the beginning of their relationship. There's a whole bunch of other plot-related problems they never talk about until after things boil over. Eventually, they'll get their acts together and talk through everything, I promise. Eventually. It just, might take until after the plot's fully resolved for them to get there.
#typing up this post for the THIRD TIME because i'm FUCKING STUPID and ACCIDENTALLY DELETED the last one#to the person who left the nice comment on the other one i'm so sorry i just accidentally posted it while i was still typing and i panicked#trigun#trigun stampede#trigun fanart#vash the stampede#mid draws#oc - bad luck#trigun oc#mid writes#copying the tags on the other post bc they're relevant and i want them to be seen#working title is “i hope we both die”#which doesn't explain exactly what's going on between them#but i hope it helps you grasp how much they Dont Talk about their problems#you can tell whenever i have a mental spiral because i turn all my favs into the most terrible people to have a relationship with#i love you vash and i know you're a good boy in my heart#but i firmly believe he's never had a healthy relationship and he's not about to start now#/end#If anything is worded/formatted weird do not tell me. it's 3:30am and i typed this in a panicked frenzy#i'm going back to bed
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REMINDER
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REMINDER FOR MYSELF FOR THIS SEMESTER:
FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT. FEEL HELPLESS. DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR CONFUSION.
ASK QUESTIONS.
DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE ANNOYING YOUR PROFESSOR. ASK QUESTIONS. BE A PAIN.
#i get the wording might not be ideal for all people. this is my way of reminding myself that it's okay to#feel feel anxious but don't let it stop you.#hopefully it helps more people than it gives anxiety tho lol ahahahaha....#good luck in your new semester everyone!!#the shelf#pin#also i'm not sure if all these images require credit. if they do please let me know who made whichever given image and i'll#edit the post as necessary!
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hi hello, I’m fighting with a massive art block and lack of motivation lately but I’m trying to get out of it by drawing in my sketchbook and practicing some landscapes and backgrounds (it’s going terribly) so I hope it’ll leave me soon and I just wanted to check on you guys and I hope you’re all doing well <3
#and the fact that my hyperfixarion is leaving me doesn’t help at all#and I don’t want it to leave me but I don’t know how to maintain it#and I want to sCREAM#send help#I also feel like an imposter#and that I shouldn’t post my art anywhere cause it’s not as good as I’d want it to be#trying to fight with that too#wish me luck#I miss you all#text
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hey! what do you think is the better ghost trick experience, the ds version or the remake on pc? I own the ds version and plan to play it soon, but I would also be willing to buy the pc version if that one adds any significant quality of life features or is just an even better way to play or whatever
Honestly? Both have their pros and cons, most being just ‘well… depends on prefrence.’
For Example: The pc version has cleaner graphics and (imo) the better music score, but there’s a certain charm to the old crunchy ds style.
I will say for actual differences that may be cared about, the pc remake has bonus sliding puzzles at the end. Its good if you like sliding tile puzzles. (i cannot commentate on how smooth it is to use in main game vs the ds as i played the original on an emulator as i simply did not have the hardware to play it. unfortunate!)
Meanwhile, the original ds version’s top screen will display what an object you are possessing can do. (this is incredibly useful! the remake doesnt have this as it doesnt have a second screen. it. might tell you what you can do with an object but uh… if it does i must have not been paying attention close enough. hahaha. apologies if so)
So… really its do what you want. I cannot think of any major qol updates in the remake beyond the extra content, graphics, and score. You already own the ds version so it would honestly be best in my own opinion to go ahead and play that than spend more money on two versions.
but again. i am not the boss of you. do as you wish.
others are free to chime in the comments and reblogs with their own opinions. :)
#mod posts#ghost mail#apologies if this doesnt.. sound too helpful.#i have fondness for both versions so i cannot make too well a judgement on this#also i adore sliding block puzzles so it is a major upside to me. and i never had a ds to play#the original. thus my experiences comes with playing it in Legit Normal Nintendo Approved Ways#i may come back and write an addition to this if i can think of anything major.#have fun with ghost trick!!!! good luck :)
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extreme sensitivity and difficulty adapting to change is one of the most challenging parts of being autistic (to me, i am only speaking my for myself here, every single autistic person is different). small changes, even positive changes are liable to cause a meltdown. the world is such a scary place when you know that things changing, as all things do, could send you into a spiral. and it’s so difficult to explain to allistics why we’re reacting the way that we do, especially when you know it seems like an overreaction... but this is how i describe it:
you know that feeling when you got a haircut that you hated and were doing everything you could to hold back the tears? that “oh no oh no oh no” moment when you look in the mirror and realize you hate how it looks, and now there’s a sob bubbling up in your throat and you’re trying so hard to choke it back down so that you don’t cry in public but the more you look the harder it feels to bottle it all in?
i feel and often react that way to everyday situations and changes. i cut my nails a little bit shorter than I’m used to? meltdown. or we got a new toaster to replace the old one? meltdown. or my phone updated and everything is different? meltdown and now i can’t stop crying! (these are all real examples of real things from my real life that caused me to have real meltdowns btw.) and in the midst of my stress i can’t help but berate myself for losing it over something like that, and of course shame and self-loathing only exacerbate the meltdown.
i am constantly trying to work through my internalized ableism about this. I spent years being called dramatic and immature, confused about why i was unable to grapple with things my peers found entirely inconsequential. i wish that i didn’t feel guilty or embarrassed about the way that i naturally react to stressful situations (especially situations that are probably not nearly all that stressful to allistics) because I know that if I could hate myself into becoming someone I liked better, it would have worked by now.
#autism#actually autistic#ableism#internalized ableism#meltdowns#autistic meltdowns#psychology#i wouldn’t wish this on anyone so i almost hope nobody relates to this but if you do then hi I hope it helped you feel less alone at least#or maybe it can help you explain things to someone who maybe doesn’t get it. idk good luck I hope it helps#if you were curious what specifically inspired this post it was unfortunately the nails :(#I don’t really know how to end this post it kind of just kept flowing out of me. thanks for coming to my ted talk#shut up riley#hi to people who read all the tags :) hope you’re doing well
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another thing I do wish had at least come up in ds9 while talking about the bajoran faith is the idea of just like. secular bajorans. I think the way they’re written that’s kind of ‘everyone just believes in the religion and that’s it’ is honestly a little flat? but I think there would be people who have a very complicated relationship with the prophets, who maybe didn’t believe in them before the events of the show and now maybe they have to but they think of them more as the wormhole aliens rather than gods, or just don’t believe (anymore, if they once did) that they should be worshipped because they allowed the events of the occupation to happen. but that wouldn’t mean entirely disengaging from the practices of religion as a community thing, or as comfort in times of need bc sometimes that sense of ritual can be a good one, who still wear the earring not so much as a sign of faith but just as a sign of being bajoran and being connected to their people.
idk not to sound like I’m overexplaining secular approaches to an ethnoreligion when that’s a lot of people’s lived experience but I’m just kind of thinking about what it would look like in this context, and I don’t know that it ever would have been a whole plotline but I think a mention could have been interesting. maybe something as small as rearranging duty schedules and it’s something that would interfere with religious services, but a couple specific bajorans are willing to take that because they’re not religious, and it’s a one line mention (which is the kind of thing ds9 often did well so it would feel natural), but it makes them a little less homogenous as a species.
#i don't really count the pah wraith cult for depth honestly like. it's never really about them#sometimes I feel like the show dropped the ball a little on bajorans other than kira and winn#like people always joke about how boring bareil and shakaar are and then idk that anyone else really gets talked about#and even if you expand to other shows you get ro laren and sito jaxa but let’s be real it’s mostly me talking about the latter#the few one-offs on voy don’t really have much going on (which is a bummer it would have been nice to have a recurring maquis bajoran)#and idk about later shows really but the prequel types won’t have anything so. idk.#I think just. adding a little more individuality in terms of things like faith could have helped the perception a little?#idk this became a grander statement than it was meant to be I’m really just rambling#and now im trying to tie it back together and i really cannot. good luck.#san rant#im sure this is a post someone else has already made but im always just doing whatever.
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Hi, I followed you for your fic and I saw you had some posts about having ADHD.
I'm also ADHD, could you tell me about your writing process? I get stuck with things staying in the notes app and they don't really get past that stage.
I'm not sure if it's an interest thing, if the notes fulfill the want so there's no need to put it together. If you have anything thoughts about how to keep up the consistency for fic that'd be appreciated.
Hopefully this isn't too serious of a question, I just have some trouble with wanting to write but not having a purpose for it and I was wondering if that was a brain thing/relatable.
Thank you in advance for any response ☺️ also good luck with your uni stuff~
thank you anon! and dw this isn't too serious at all. i think it's interesting that you ask about keeping consistency bc ironically the biggest tell of my adhd in my writing is my INCONSISTENCY, as you can see with the way updates happen. i wrote 200k words of taob in one year and now i update twice a year on average. i wrote 60k words of tams within a few weeks and now it hasn't been updated since july. and these are just my public projects where i at least have the added pressure of knowing people are waiting for an update, you should see the state of some of my original wips! basically my point here is that my adhd is VERY apparent with my writing habits, but these days i work with it instead of trying to fight it. even before i knew i had adhd, i was aware that my writing came in periods. id go a few weeks churning out insane amounts daily and then dry up for months on end, and each time id enter the 'have i lost it??? will i ever write again???' spiral until low and behold, something would inspire me again and id be back to typing like a madman. i used to seriously fight my dry periods bc of that fear of 'losing' my writing, but that never helped and honestly turning writing into a need instead of a want probably made it worse.
it's one reason - aside the fact it is rude and annoying, i dont want to pretend it isn't or put the blame on me bc that's not what im saying here - that constant demands for fic updates bother me so much, bc people dont realise that the writing style i have now where yes we unfortunately go long times without updates is actually how my writing comes out at its best standard. so yeah! it can be incredibly frustrating and even scary to feel physically unable to write, but if it's something you like and want to do i do truly believe it'll always come back sooner or later, or at least that's my experience :)
#but if it is literally you cant get it out of the notes app i do also have writing sessions#where i sit myself down one day and go 'we are going to WRITE' (this is where all my coffee shop posting comes from#bc ive associated coffee shops so viscerally with writing now that if im in a particularly bad/long block i find a free day#and just sit and something about being in a coffee shop just. brings it out of me)#ive known this about myself long enough now to know which periods are just my normal dry ones#and which need that extra push but maybe learning to differentiate like that could help you?#see what happens if you give yourself some kind of target? like take one of your ideas in your notes#and literally treat it like an assignment like 'i want 500 words on this by friday'#EVEN IF IT'S BAD! i feel like that mental block even if it's subconscious is often what stops people#just treat it as something between you and the document. no one else is gonna see it. it could be the worst thing ever written#and nothing is gonna change bc of it. taking those kind of pressures off yourself makes INSANE amounts of difference#good luck! i hope even just one part of this was helpful but remember experiences with these things are individual#ask
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Hiiii, your art is gongeous first off
Second, you have any tips for getting good at anatomy and proportion? I see your sketches from your wips and streams and the figures and poses look so spot on always
thank you!!!
the best way to get better at anatomy and proportion is to do some life studies. there are a lot of sites you can use that will give you (generally) good poses to work with. if its at all possible for you though i Definitely recommend taking a life drawing course. one of my favorite classes was the life drawing class i took where i was the Only actual student in the class and everyone else were people in their 60s+ just taking it for fun. my prof was incredible and would give us really great demonstrations and knowledge about skeletal and muscular structures. also the models we got in class were way more diverse than a lot of the models online sites use
life studies can be hard when you first start though. it really helps to understand sighting (which is where you use your pen/fingers to figure out angles and sizes and stuff). heres a more detailed explanation
i did some figure studies the other day and i left a lot of my sighting lines. i use them not only to figure out the angles of limbs but also to help me keep things in proportion. ALSO watch your negative spaces!! that will help you get forms/proportion right too
there are also a lot of "proportion rules" that can help you when just drawing bodies without a reference. A Lot of rules.... the face alone has So many..
when i draw figures without a reference (which is..most of the time..) i think in terms of tubes. really helps with foreshortening (so do contour lines). but i still operate under the guidelines i learned from life drawing in terms of proportions/muscle/bone structure. ive gotten to the point where i just eyeball it while sketching but if something looks wrong i just check my proportions. the more you do it the more second nature it becomes which helps you focus on learning new parts of anatomy. i usually draw these figures first then just draw clothes over them, which then helps with folds/draping and stuff like that
i hope this is understandable lol............ these are all just the vague rules i remember im sure theres so many more and i am still learning myself but i hope this helps you get started. trying to find good proportion sheets/tips online can be hard and just result in some really basic stuff like the 7/8 heads tall rule which is sometimes 7.5 and i just 😵 not helpful, especially since its not even always correct. i still basically use the same general rule but slightly modified (in red). in green are some proportion rules i know (plus a couple in red), and in blue is just a little more detail
again if you have the opportunity at all i Really recommend taking a life drawing class. you might be able to find some good videos on youtube or something too. ALSO look at yourself in the mirror a lot! like really analyze yourself, the length of your limbs, where your hands fall, how wide your shoulders are, stuff like that. just Look. whenever im stuck on a pose i always go and pose in a mirror for reference. in general im always just trying to learn from the world around me :)
#its weird writing all this out because it makes me realize how much information just sits in my head while i draw and i dont even realize#i really just feel a lot of stuff out i keep the 'rules' in my head generally but dont be afraid to break them sometimes too#the more studies you do the more youll be able to just tell when somethings not right#once you know enough you can make up your own guidelines too#whatever helps you remember/visualize#anon i hope you see this its been like 3 hours since you asked#ok i think ive said everything i can think of??#replies with lexi#incognito#good luck anon i hope this was helpful#long post#i also made a head proportion sheet with the 'right' way and my own modified version but this post is long enough and you asked about poses#now i gotta get back to finishing this still life lol#i should be working but i love to give art tips when i can
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Baizhu’s Room
(note: this was written without any leaked spoilers or lore in mind)
Genshin 3.6 finally gave us access to the back room in Bubu Pharmacy, in anticipation of Baizhu’s upcoming release and story quest. And I have to give all the praise to the designers and developers here, because this small room has some of the best environmental storytelling I’ve seen in a game in a while, with only a few simple details. Today is Baizhu’s birthday, so I wanted to talk about it a little 💚🐍🌿
Nothing in this room is neatly in its place. The chairs aren’t in position, everything on the desk is messy and strewn about, and some of the drawers are left open. There’s a pillow on the desk, as well. Baizhu is quite frail and sickly, so this all paints a picture of him constantly looking for things and working, both as a doctor and frantically on his research into immortality, without having the energy or care to keep everything neat, and probably often falling asleep at his desk out of exhaustion (hence the pillow, though admittedly it could be for Changsheng, but I kind of doubt it).
There’s medicine on the bedside tables, which is probably just as much for Baizhu as it (and all the other medicine in the room) is for his patients. The bedside chair indicates he likely sits with patients there a lot so as to be as comforting as possible, but again, it’s also likely for people like Gui and Qiqi, when Baizhu is the one in bed. The sole small washtub thing stuck in the corner behind the screen... just makes me sad. I don’t know why in particular... it just does.
All of this, combined with the lighting, and the new, unique song, creates a room that manages to feel both warm and welcoming during the day, but solemn, lonely, almost suffocating, and unbearably sad at night, completely befitting the person who practically lives here, and the two very different sides he has. I say “practically”, but we have no indication so far that Baizhu actually does live anywhere else -- with his low energy and poor health, and all those damn steps leading up to the pharmacy, I’m fully convinced now that he does live here full-time, after seeing the state of it, which is... heartbreaking. He puts on a smile for everyone around him who are relying on him to care for them (and he loves his job, he truly does!), but his tiny, cramped patient room seemingly doubles as his living space, and even though Baizhu may lie and try to hide his own suffering... this room itself does not lie, and said suffering is bleeding from every corner here. The music is elegant, gentle, comforting, and soothing, but also delicate, weak, mournful, and again unimaginably lonely...... just like Baizhu. 💔
If you haven’t been here yet in the game, I highly recommend you visit it at least once; the atmosphere is simply unmatched. I can’t wait to see what happens here in Baizhu’s story quest, and how it will wreck our hearts even more 💚💔
#genshin impact#baizhu#meta#i guess it's meta#me posting non-bsd meta? it's more likely than you think#I too live in this room now ever since I discovered it...... it makes me FUCKING cry 😭💔 I love it so much even though it hurts :' )#it's so beautiful..... and so sad...... ugh my heart#i need him now!!!! it's only one week now but I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER AUGHHHHHHHHH BAIZHUUU *sobs*#he is going to ruin me and he's already ruining me#just from his description and a damn ROOM#been dutifully logging out here every day I play as part of my good luck ritual#and will definitely do my wishing here#he Will come home (with Qiqi's help)#there's so much love put into this room i am just so happy and emotional over it#so much care is put into genshin....... yes not always but a lot of the time#in the worldbuilding and in little details like this#baizhu..... :' ) 💚💔#i will say though that aside from this room there's a new house on the edge of Qingce Village#that has some medicine packs on the ground around it like in the pharmacy room#i'm pretty sure it also is related to his story quest just like this room#but regardless i don't know if that may in fact be his house instead#we'll just have to see
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what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets
#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck#the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy#cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it#so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled#i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like#i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is#it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS#and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like#that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts#that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of#the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED??#and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way#i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps#and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all#ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine#i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be#missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine#and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win#anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something#unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!!#me. my post. mine.#delete later
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I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness
#There’s this specific part of the song#It srsly alters my brain chemistry#Anyways#i hate tumblr sm#Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm#No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much#Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely#Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D#The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏#Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it#The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc#To show her how messy it was ….#I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone …#Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th#Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious#And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei#It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking#To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I#Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia#And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games#All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car#Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke#Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon#Like me go mad with all these things#Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up.#dora daily#Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable#Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more#Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing.#Essay tags 😻😻😻
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HEY so i need y'all's help with something: my dad found this thing out in our yard and we can't figure out if it's a bone or an extremely bone-shaped branch. It's about 14 inches long and the top of it looks a lot like a joint to me, but the bottom's been broken off and has much more of a wood-like texture. I plan on cleaning it and my dad's gonna saw a lil bit off when he has the time so we can get a look at the inside, but if anyone can determine anything from these pictures please please let me know!!!
some more pictures and a closer shot of the wood-like end under the cut:
#trousled...........bones ???#genuinely dont know what to tag this but uhhhh if yall have any ideas let me hear em!!!#i am genuinely so curious about this thing#i do have a suspicion that it is just wood but even so it's the most bone-like branch i've ever seen in my life#if you dont know but wanna help me find out rbs are also v appreciated! :>#i might also post this on *shudders* reddit bc those guys are good at detective work too but i wanna try my luck here first#for the record i will absolutely be keeping this whether its actually a bone or not bc i think i could clobber somebody with it real good
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Hi! I'm a student from Alberta, Canada, and I was wondering about your ceramic art, as I have an assignment for my ceramics class to research a ceramic artist of the students choice. In my search for one I stumbled across your sideblog and you make such adorable little animals I felt like I had to research yours! So, I have a few questions about you and your process if you don't mind! (Also, if you're comfortable sharing your pronouns that would be great, for now I'm just using they/them until I know for sure).
How does your sculpting process usually look?
Do you always use stoneware or do you use other kinds of clay as well? (I know you use stoneware due to your Kofi page)
How does glazing look for you? Do you primarily use dip glazes, underglazes, bisque underglazes, other, or primarily a mix? Ive noticed you've used underglaze in some of your sculptures, though.
How does firing usually go? It said somewhere on your page you usually fire in the summer, but is there any specifics you do?
And finally, how many years have you been working as a ceramic artist?
Thank you so much for your time, if your not comfortable answering some questions that's perfectly okay!
Thanks, Yarrow.
Hello! Thanks so much for your kind words and your interest! I'm a ceramics student myself, so it's a delightful surprise to be approached for a ceramics class assignment! <3
About my pronouns: I'm Robin, I'm a woman, and my pronouns are she/her. Thanks for asking!
Also, in the interest of approaching you on your own terms, I will add that I'm a follower of Christ. I don't mind people with different ideologies interacting with me and my ceramics! I sincerely believe that good-faith interactions between people who disagree are part of the beauty of the world. I simply want to be completely honest with you about that, since it seems like your religion is as important to you as mine is to me.
And now for the process questions!
How does your sculpting process usually look?
I typically use reference images! There are a few animals that I have the anatomy and designs of memorized, like pangolins and rabbits. And sometimes I make up chimera-type creatures while sculpting, letting the clay and my built-up knowledge of anatomy guide me. But for new species and/or high-accuracy sculptures, I start with an image search for the same species from many angles.
After that, I start with the basic shape of the body, then add legs, then add the head and tail, and finally details such as toes, facial features, and so on. I add the limbs using scoring and slipping (...when I'm not being lazy; sometimes I just stick the legs on and smooth them in with fingers and tools). Speaking of tools, I use a leaf-bladed sculpting tool and a needle tool. They're thin enough to get into the areas that my fingers can't reach, like between legs of a small sculpture, and to do fine detail work, like incising fur lines, making nose cavities, and so on. For large and/or high-accuracy sculptures, I do the legs first because the position of the legs defines the entire stance of the creature, which will define the position of the head.
^ these are the kinds of tools I use! The top right needle tool and the bottom left leaf-bladed tool.
There's always a good amount of addition (head too small? slap more clay on) and subtraction (head too big? chop off the front part and try again) involved in the process. Basically, I go back and forth between adding new parts of the sculpture and editing the parts I already have. It's a critical process to make a sculpture come out right; I get a gut feeling that something is wrong, stare at the sculpture until I can name what's wrong, and then fix it. Over and over. I edit until I'm satisfied... or until I say "good enough, good luck in the world buddy" and let it dry out even though it's imperfect. <3
Do you always use stoneware or do you use other kinds of clay as well? (I know you use stoneware due to your Kofi page)
I use stoneware because that's what's available to me! My father is a potter, and I use his clay when I'm living with him over the summer. At my university, I use the stoneware from the ceramic studio. Next semester I'll be allowed to use the porcelain! (Advanced ceramic studio yay!)
How does glazing look for you? Do you primarily use dip glazes, underglazes, bisque underglazes, other, or primarily a mix? Ive noticed you've used underglaze in some of your sculptures, though.
I primarily use mason stains (I've called them underglaze in the past, which is a broader term than the specific product "mason stain") with a clear or transparent dip glaze! A good number of my sculptures have only dip glaze with no mason stain, though, such as this kiwi bird (copper glaze) and this rat (rutile glaze). I do no stains when either (like the kiwi bird) the sculpture's form is beautiful and complete enough to stand on its own without any additional detail, or (like with the rat) it's small and simple enough that I don't feel like adding detail makes sense. I basically just play it by ear, though.
My glazing process is a bit unusual in that I typically apply the mason stains at the bone-dry greenware stage instead of at bisque or leather-hard. That's because my work with paint brushes is not very precise yet. At the bone-dry greenware stage, I can add mason stain, then scrape part of it off with my needle tool to straighten my lines, remove accidental blotches, and create subtractive designs inside the mason stain area! You can see that technique in action on my green octopus, which has black mason stain under copper glaze with parts of the black scraped away, leaving the bare clay underneath.
How does firing usually go? It said somewhere on your page you usually fire in the summer, but is there any specifics you do?
Well, again, I currently live with my dad during the summer, and we fire collaboratively in his kiln. My sculptures are so small that I can't fill a kiln by myself! I rely on my father to create the large bowls and mugs that fill the shelves, and we place my sculptures among the vessels. We fire to cone six whenever we have enough work to fill the kiln. During the school year, I fire my sculptures in the university studio with all the other students' work.
After I leave college and get a job (and potentially a home and studio) of my own, my firing habits will change, of course!
And finally, how many years have you been working as a ceramic artist?
At least six. It depends on how you define "working" and "ceramic artist", though! If the question was "how many years have you been selling ceramics", that would be less than one. I've made ceramic sculptures every so often since I was a small child—so, more than ten years! But I've only been consistently making a large batch of sculptures every single summer for six years.
Ahh, that was a lot! If you've made it this far, thank you for reading :) Take a moment to take a deep breath and check in with your body!
#Thanks again for the ask!#Yarrow—if there's anything else I can clarify to help you out just let me know. Good luck on your assignment!#ceramic asks#my process#long post#not ceramics
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that feel when you're sort of thrown into a race on a team with some guy who was stalking you earlier that day, and they charm someone on the other team to get ahead but get caught, and you could stay to help/smooth over the situation so no one gets hurt, but also that guy was stalking you when you're trying to lay low, and if they get hurt it's their own fault so you try to just keep going on ahead but the fucking spirit possessing you gets upset about it so now you have tummy cramps :(
#juice#this has been a post#juice like 'oh these guys are gonna fight keeps? good luck that's not my problem'#but the spirit's like 'no you have to help. juice. juice where are you going. you have to help' but it can't actually make me do anything#(it can make me do things if it feels strongly enough but not this time)
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I’ve been in a weird purgatory state for the better part of a year where my entire day is contained within my four bedroom walls and the kitchen (occasionally). I never leave the house anymore and my constant routine is just switching between five apps just looking for an ounce of entertainment. All this to say I ordered some yarn and knitting needles + a crochet hook to try and get a hobby that isn’t entirely on a screen lmao
#sorry if this feels like a vent it’s really not I’ve just been very blegh lately yk#I’ve been isolated for a long time away from most people and that doesn’t feel very good#every self help article or post I see is like “’if you need a new hobby then try doing something creative!’#but doing these creative things feel so much like work to me now that I can’t relax while doing them#I’ve been trying to find a hobby that isn’t crocheting/knitting or reading that I can do without leaving my house#not much luck#im trying to be better tho !!! giving knitting and crocheting a fair shake before I write em off#crane speaks
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hi hi! you can ignore this but i was really curious about your writing process?? you just write so well and i’m curious to see how your work starts from an idea all the way to the finished product!!!
the way my jaw DROPPED rn like omfg are you talking to ME??? I’M SHOOK PLEASE YOU ARE WAY TOO KIND AND SO GENEROUS 😭 my writing sucks ASS but thank you SO much you’re so sweet <333 i can try & let you know my process but tbh baby i do NOT have one 😭 but i’ll try to think of something 😭 also i’ll try to be as thorough/concise as possible but i’m sorry if i tangent! ALSO this’ll be long bc i’m a yapper so forgive me <3
1) everyone is different but in my case i have a tendency to ALWAYS think of new ideas for writing (at least for geto!) find a character that you can consistently think of ideas for bc they’ll serve as practice! also i JUST started writing a month or two ago so i, myself, am STILL practicing with every fic & i am always willing to learn!
most importantly, i write based off my whim! whatever idea has me in its clutches is the idea i’m writing for, even if that means i’m leaving other fic ideas in the dust at the moment! i recommend creating a list of fic ideas and save it as a draft (can be a wip list or literally just a random list depending on how many ideas you have!) — for those i tend to jot down random dialogue, vibes i wanna express, plot points i really wanna show, the personality of geto or reader, & whatever randomly comes to mind pertaining to that fic! i write it all down!
2) it honestly changes between fic to fic but i recommend asking for requests in the beginning — even writing just ONE thing will give you practice/an idea! so here are some examples of what i’ve written so far:
- the first thing i wrote was a request for suguru being obsessed w satoru’s girlfriend. the way i started that fic was thinking of the feeling that suguru would ultimately feel which was “guilt, shame, & desire.” and then i… personified? each thing! at first i personified guilt as an arachnid crawling in suguru’s throat but it didn’t work as well for me… and then i thought, “how about a serpent?” and it flowed much better -> slithering down his throat, embedding his fangs into his flesh leaving it raw, mangled, & bloody -> roaming across his heart/ribcage. and for that, and this may sound silly but i SWEAR by it, look up SYNONYMS for words on google! “dances along his bones -> pirouetting across his bones” i think little nods like that can help you not sound too similar all the time or like you’re constantly repeating yourself! shame was expressed in alcohol (amber whiskey ties into his amber eyes as well) & desire was expressed within the flicker of a lighter reader gave him which he holds in his hands (he imagines the cold metal as reader’s hands, which he ends up holding in his warm ones at the end)
- second fic “black is the color of my true love’s hair” was my first time writing a fic and that was because i wanted to write something for v-day & i really love this song! music can be a great inspiration — same w song lyrics! but for that one i had a few ideas i KNEW i wanted to use (knuckle kisses, stargazing, depressive suguru who reader gives a bath to/has a heart to heart with, and reader making a scrapbook for suguru!) he may be ooc but also i’m not afraid of making suguru be soft and quirky, i think that makes him fun! have FUN w different facets of your favorite characters personalities! also personally, i hate when readers don’t have personality/are always too shy/can’t banter/are too serious so i try to make my readers have a personality that align w the fic!
now for the knuckle kisses i knew what i wanted to do and i think that part came pretty easy! just a bit of revising as i was writing so i could be more descriptive in certain areas, change my wording around so it’d be less clunky in others! stargazing idea was incredibly hard & so was the scrapbook… so here’s advice i have for you that SAVED my ass. now. if you just wrote random writing in your drafts, whether it was just stream of consciousness that has nothing to do with the fic or was just a random piece of dialogue you jotted down — DO NOT DELETE IT. two parts of my fics were from RANDOM writing i wrote that had NOTHING to do w a romance fic and with a BIT of tweaking it gave so many ideas/serviced my story perfectly!
ex: i had zero idea of how to start the stargazing part so i just wrote the part i knew i wanted, which would’ve been in the middle of the story! aka reader buying the star for suguru and him being Shook To The Core. i was wondering how the hell i think of the events leading up to that, and one day i randomly just wrote “you zig-zag around the counter like a bumbling fawn” bc i was brainstorming ideas for the fic but was like… this has no place in my story BUT i didn’t delete it i just kept the draft. THEN i was like… wait this can work… so i used it as my beginning to the stargazing section and it flowed wonderfully! same w the scrapbook section! i wrote a series of dialogue that i ACTUALLY intended to use in an angst where reader despises suguru in their relationship, but with a bit of tweaking and deleting parts of reader being apathetic and suguru being toxic, it ended up being a great series of showing suguru’s overthinking nature/his genuine love for reader!
also maybe i do this unintentionally but i usually have a focus into suguru’s thought processes more in my fics… maybe bc i’m just curious abt him more than anything LMAO so that can be useful i think! if you’re like wow i have no idea how to write for my reader, write for suguru!
- third story was a request (shoutout bestie rem 🤝🤭) who gave such a cool idea of twisted suguru watching reader grieve him for leaving. now it wasn’t an actual haunting bc reader & geto are both alive, but i still used words of that nature to express them haunting e/o’s thoughts (mourning, ghost, corporeal phantom, living rigor-mortis etc…) the first thing i wrote for this fic was “prostrate yourself” — a tie-in to cult leader geto & also his confusing feelings about/towards reader. i also wanted to show bleakness so i mentioned suguru likening himself to a plague & a calamity. also don’t be afraid to show the ugly parts of a character — suguru is a bit callous in this but he’s still human and has a push & pull w/in himself! this fic i really tried my hardest to do a “show not tell” for certain paragraphs (bc i personally have trouble with that/dialogue/imagery/descriptions/engaging writing) — so i would constantly go into my “writing tips” tag and try and heed the advice they give!
sorry i don’t think i was of much help bc honestly i do NOT have a process 😭 even when writing my current fic about curator!geto — i just outlined OOOOOH WAIT OKAY HOLD ON YUP MIDTHOUGHT AND NOW I’M JUST PROPERLY ANSWERING YOUR QUESTION 😭
BITCHXHXHBXBX I FORGOT. OUTLINE!!!!!!! THAT’S WHAT YOU WERE LOOKING FOR THIS WHOLE TIME AND I WAS JUST YAPPING AWAY FOR NO REASON I’M SOOOOOOOOOO SORRY OMFGGGGGGG OKAY SO 😭
curator!geto is the FIRST time i’m PROPERLY outlining a fic (so actually i didn’t do anything wrong pleek don’t beat my ass for yapping 😪) so basically since this is the first time i’m outlining i made sure to write the premise of the fic, characters & their jobs, their personalities, their place of work/interactions/relationships there and then also how they would meet! so i wrote how i wanted suguru & reader to meet, a few pieces of random dialogue, and then i also wrote about how they would later on be more romantic (in what way). i’m currently trying to think of a conflict and just now thought of an idea that i may or may not use but i wrote it down anyways! and this is the first fic where i’m properly paying attention to “show not tell” and trying to describe words/paragraphs with more imagery! (esp since it’s an artsy/visual fic!) tbh the “writing tips” tag on my blog will help you more than anything i can say 😭
also! i recommend looking up writing tips and also reading a bunch of fics that you like! my mutuals have some of the BEST fics i have EVER read and reading them is honestly a masterclass in itself of amazing writing/prose/how to flow a story wonderfully! i’m just a beginner so i have lots to learn still about fic-writing BUT just think of each fic as a stepping stone to getting better! write, post, but don’t overwhelm yourself/force yourself to finish a fic you have no ideas for. it’s okay if it takes time but also remember that it won’t ever be perfect so don’t let “perfectionism” stop you from posting your fics! someone will always read it — whether they rb, like, comment, or are a silent reader — someone will take the time out of their day to read your fic! and honestly don’t get caught up on numbers! i’m soooooo thankful that people read my fics & leave tags even if i think my writing sucks! it’s all in good fun at the end of the day! enjoy it however you can and i’m sure you yourself are an amazing writer! good luck bestie! <3
#asks#anon#but yeah so BASICALLY. idea -> random tidbits -> outline -> rawdog -> revise -> writing tips -> edit -> post#sorry if this was of no help omfg i hope i didn’t forget anything 😭#tbh i have no process and just rawdog every fic 😭#i listen to music — write suguru all sexily — and then call it a DAY!#tbh making your fic look cute could maybe help you too! have fun w font colors & choosing a fic pic!#lil things like that can help service your story too!#i just like to play w personalities & random prose and HOPE it sticks LMFAOOOOOO#tbh i rec looking up writing tips / i have my own tag & so do other people! look through those they’ll help out WAY more!#i recommend asking seasoned writers tbh 😭 i just started recently but thank you for liking my fics!#and if you like someone’s fic — take note of what you like and why you like it! maybe that can help you too!#if you have any more questions PLEASE feel free to ask! i don’t think i was of any help BUT you were very kind 2 ask me anyways jdndndndnd#anyways. GOOD LUCK! i’m sure you’ll kill it <3
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