i have nothing to say really, I don’t know what keeps me coming back here like I have something to say- obviously I am inside my head and I’d like to stay there until something untouched comes along. i can do this, i can’t wait to do this. i cant wait to show myself to myself, its going to be a wonderful summer without the pressures of the dream planet. i will be so busy consuming, creating, caressing my mind, body and soul. i look forward to my girls trip to Nashville- i need quality time with women, and with my mother- it’s been thirteen years since our last girls trip, i would say it’s much overdue. today i am in the mood to consume, consume things that have gone lost, consume things in the shadows. i say this physical world is my shadow, and the dream planet (or society) might be the light i am stepping into, countless predators, but also countless connections- i wish to take it very seriously now, i feel i have enough evidence to act accordingly, at least for the foundation of my movement, of this self conjured revolution, i trust in the unconditional love , guidance and support of a power higher than myself. i will try and remember this on my bad days, there will be no bad days, just days of learning-
i am actually starting to feel good about these choices and i can confidently say that these choices were made with a sane mind, with the most clarity and confidence, there was a feeling in my chest that spread throughout my limbs, like it happens when i make the right choices, call it intuition, call it release, call it a signal, call it divinity- it is impossible for me to disappoint myself so i trust in that-
i want to read more, ive always wanted that- so that’s what im going to give myself. idle mind, idle hands. one thing that is difficult for me to face but not impossible, there is definitive proof of this- so i cannot argue— a good mentality requires good problem solving, and before you know it- you start to notice things- and those things bring you validation, expands your ability to think, create, love- everyone is terrified of all three things—