my whole life feels like it's in shambles and idk what to do anymore. i'm doing my best not to cry here in the bank. i feel like crying almost all the time. i just wanna curl up somewhere quiet and not be disturbed for days... i'm just so worn thin, idk what's wrong anymore. like there's nothing specific that's wrong that i can pinpoint. nothing specific to talk about. i don't wanna talk anymore, either. i just want... idk what i want, honestly. i feel like i'm breaking and i don't know how to stop the cracks from spreading and shattering me completely...

Alastor has an uncanny sixth sense for when husk's pain days are Worse and those are the days he decides that having him run around doing errands is a grand idea 😊

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guy whose childhood drags behind him like a dead body

I made myself enough food for two because I haven't eaten all day and after I finished cooking I had like a massive meltdown and now the sight of food is making me nauseous

we finished painting the walls in my room today - well, two of them, the ones that we started yesterday. tomorrow we're going to ikea, and then hopefully we'll finish the one wall in my husband's room, and start the two in my room (they're gonna be a different colour than the first two)

please share your wisdom of the pandora hearts title meaning!!

First, thank you for the ask! I'm not very good at articulating my thoughts on this sort of stuff so sorry if it I sound incoherent. Also my take isn't anything new, it's been said before and it's fairly obvious in hind sight tbh (at least to me). I had just dismissed the title early on and hadn't noticed the connections while reading the manga for the first time lol.

I don't think the title is meant to represent a specific aspect of the manga, but rather thread together the main motifs of hope, despair, light & darkness, people's hearts and of course, love. I don't have any exact references on hand, but you can open almost any volume and find a panel with one of these themes pretty easily. What/who exactly is "pandora" or "pandora's box" doesn't really matter as it can apply to any of the characters or even the abyss itself, and hell even life in general.

It's like the main quote of the series, "Someone said that this place is engulfed in darkness. But, that doesn't mean there was never any light there". While it's very obviously about the Abyss, it can also be applied to the series as whole or individual characters. Oz even compares light and hope in one scene.

Jack talks about how Lacie brought him hope, but it was because of that hope he was engulfed in the shadows of despair and lost himself in them. Oz, on the other hand, starts the series an abused child who's lost his will to truly live, but he is able to find hope and love and ends the series happy and fulfilled. The manga is filled with awful and dark moments/events, but it's ultimately a story of hope & love & connection.

I'm going to stop myself there, so hopefully you get the point. There's a lot of ways to apply the title Pandora Hearts to the manga, as it's kinda just an encapsulation of the themes of the whole thing.

I’m desperately trying to be optimistic about things, but I’m genuinely so fricked up over Luckity. c!/k!Quackity finally found someone who loved him back, someone who loved him just as much, but because both he and Luzu FRICKIN SUCK at communication, we’re stuck in this awful situation where they both still care about each other, but it isn’t enough to stop them from enacting revenge that will likely end up with one, or both, of them dead.

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today was a masterclass in maintaining Normal Guy Hours in my house due to the huge dread about drs appointment tomorrow. BUT i completed Made it Through Monday! :P what will i (we?) create for tuesday, i fear that 'tuesday again no problem' is not powerful enough due to the magnitude of the problems.

anyway. scared. but powerful!!! i can do it! we can do it!

Today I accomplished some important life things. Feeling exhausted but proud of myself. Recovery is a long road, but for today, at least, I feel like I'm finally making real progress.

hope everyone is doing well!!! ♥ made a cute fairy girl as an excuse to post something lol

I have been having so many mental breakdowns all month lmao it's so fucking bad. I had one driving home after getting my car inspected and you'd think I'd be in a good mood since it passed and I was happy and thankful it did but then I just kept being overwhelmed with the thought that I'll never be loved like I've always longed for and be alone forever and completely freaked out and cried all the way home smfh

i have a maths test tomorrow and for some reason, i'm not all that freaked out

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