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toaster-fire-art · 6 months
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part 7 of my not-so-mini OC dump that lowkey keeps getting more questionable
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Deeply concieted and violent, Elias is quick to aggrivate. A jealous boy who thinks only of himself, taking pleasure in the manipulation of others. This includes his own family. He is in custody of Talen, his maternal uncle and gaurdian. Though he would never admit, he is desperate for attenton and agency. Elias will do anything for both without qualms, and often without an expressed reason.
finishing off the antagonists ones with Elias here except there's more I just don't want to draw them LOL. The songs i scribbled for him (pardon my music less than average music tastes again) are Overconficence by Tallah, Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge and Libra by Free Refills. Though I also added You Don't Know How Luck You Are by Keaton Henson who owes me so many thearapy sessions at this point I highly highly reconnmend. I also have to out myself I used to have Monster by Meg & Dia in his playlist....iykyk.
He's sort of a stereotypical bully character, at least that's what he is at the core and what he started as. Still is, it's just gotten worse and he has motives even if they're very questionable. I drew him like once, he did not have any distiguishable origenal features except black hair and blue eyes like the pretty boy he is @belovedknightdraws have him
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euphor1a · 1 year
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besties wanted jk n mingyu so i gib jk n mingyu🤩
— or, a small bit of the very messy outline of my death the junggyu fic™. totally unedited and raw (intentional). kept that way so that one can feel the original vibes i was feeling when i was brainstorming this on a random 3 am 😙
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fwb popular!jk & campus crush jock!mg 
jk is popular for very obvious (? or is it) reasons 🤭, almost made him a fuckboy but nah not really. man’s terrified of commitment so he used to sleep around often, kinda.
but then he finds our oc and *cough* *cough* legitimately falls. still not willing to commit tho 🙄 hence the “fwb” (at least that’s what he convinced himself)
our poor oc... sigh. let’s just say they’re on different pages :/ and our girl is tired of jk’s bs, desperately trying to gather herself and actually move on.
SHE DESERVES SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY WANTS TO BE W HER!!!!
incoming our campus crush kim mingyu 😍
man’s so fine that everyone can feel themselves physically swooning when he’s around 😫
he’s also a jock 😼, not entirely sure which sport i want him to play though... (?🏀)
NOW NOW!! this man is one of those guys who rejects all advances but his love-life is pretty much non-existent (sounds like the biggest lie but yes,,,)
rumor says he used to be nasty nasty at first apparently 👀 but then he found better people as friends and changed 🤨? did a total 180°?
on this random evening after a session, oc asks jk to help her make mg jealous (?) idk she just needs his ✨ATTENTIONNNNNN✨!!! am i self-projecting? am i?
oc always knew him (who wouldn’t), but she was introduced face to face with theeee kmg by jk 🤠
she actually got pretty close to jk’s friend group cause she tagged along w jk to group hang outs frequently (fyi, it was jeon jungkook who would drag her w him 💀)
and 👉🏼👈🏼 she developed this silly little crush on mg 🙈
later on, as oc realized jeon jk is hellbent on staying “friends”, she decided to give other people a chance.
she secretly hopes that if she dates someone else, maybe jk can see and come back to his MFING SENSES
but anyway, our girl is a bit too deep into the mingyu rabbit-hole by now also 😔✋🏼
sulky n pouty jk being mad about oc liking mg… cause guess what!? junggyu homies 😔✊🏼
hmm…. jk still fucking oc in the midst of that ish cuz why not 🫣 n he’s mad too so kinda hate fucking? anyway — oc convinces jk bc she is a simp for mg same girl i feel u and jk agrees half-heartedly cause he would actually give her the whole world 🙄 just stupid ass simps everywhere!!
jk thinks that mg will never say yes 🙃 so deep down he’s like making plans about how he’s gonna absolutely destroy oc and punish her once she gets her heart broken by the campus crush 🥴
like??? BITCH LOOK WHOS TALKING? men are so dense sometimes like WHAT EVEN CANT YOU SEE THAT YOU HURT OC TOO (maybe in a worse way tbh)
sigh... so anyway.
mg thinks oc is prettiest ever & attractive asf and he gets butterflies and stuff when she’s around 🥰�� but he never made a move bc he knows there’s sumn fishy going on between oc n his friend 😩
SURPRISE! that man has been pining over oc from who knows when 😦
no one except him knows about it though 😔 (well... you guys know now)
moving forward 👾
jk being grumpy n fighting oc every 10 secs for the dumbest things bc she fell for his bff out of all people 🤡 (but jk is an asshole too cuz bro should’ve stopped saying shit like “we are nothing but friends”?? like yk you can’t just expect a girl to be your fwb for the rest of your life?? 🙄 plus she caught feelings for you n you were a dumb bitch abt it... she deserves to be loved, verbally, physically, mentally and in all the ways 😔🥺)
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... i think i spoiled a bit too much 😵‍💫! but yea here you go!! if you have any thoughts about this, feel free to share them through asks or comments! i’d love to hear them! and, for this once, i request to not rb 🙈! i wouldn’t be the most comfortable seeing this reblogged 😭
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lunaastoir · 3 years
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fluff/relationships w the liyue crew
characters included: xiao, childe, beidou, and zhongli
ik i forgot ningguang i promise i’ll include her in part 2, i just didn’t have time :(
all x a gn! reader 
my liyue babies :,) ft. ningguang in spirit
an: i was listening to my soft playlist (more like listening to cupid’s chokehold on repeat, no i am not basic 🔪) and i thought some fluff headcanons would be cute w these sweet people
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xiao
ok so no surprise that he hates liyue harbor
he hates anything w a lot of people in it so he prefers to stay at wangshu inn tyvm
but by contrast, you love liyue harbor sm (it’s gorgeous i mean c’mON)
you go there often to retrieve your commissions in order to stay closer to xiao (liyue harbor is closer than mondstadt he argues but you’re well aware that they’re both equally far away)
so if anyone asked, xiao would absolutely refuse to go to the harbor like i hate people??? why would you even ask???
but,,,he’s so sOFT for you
if you asked??? he would agree in a heartbeat
but since he’s >:( angsty boy, he makes you think that he won’t go even when he’s already decided that he’s coming w you
he puts up the “if you so require, then i guess i will assist you with your travels in liyue harbor” but in reality he would definitely have said yes even without the almond tofu
while he hates the harbor, he thinks that with you anything is bearable :,) simp
you take him to see xinyan to vibe w her music and you can tell he really enjoys it
even tho he’s like 🕴 the entire time, you see the softer look on his face and the very slight smile on his lips as he listens to the music and watches the crowd
so so so cute very soft for him
i do see him as a subtly touchy person in public like brushing the hair off your face, swiping his thumb across your cheek, or gently pulling your hair back when you have a plate of food in your hands 
the type to link your pinkies together - he claims it’s so you don’t get lost but yk better 
after the concert is done you take him to that one waypoint near mt. tianheng and the both of you just watch the city lights and the way they reflect beautifully on the water surrounding the harbor 
personal headcanon that xiao absolutely loves stargazing since he believes the stars are the one true constant in his life especially since he’s experienced so much loss (basically they’ll never leave him god i hate myself why do i make everything SAD)
mini headcanon off of that - he doesn’t stargaze with people,,, like ever 
it’s something he loves to do alone so the fact that he lets you stargaze w him and even allows you to shift your head onto his lap while you watch the sky is a huge deal 
he loves it when you softly whisper abt how your day was or something you saw that made you laugh 
he just loves hearing your voice, it automatically calms the voices in his head 
you absolutely ADORE when he has flowers in his hair especially cecilias (cecillias? ceccillias? idfk) and you make a point whenever you go to mondstadt to pick a fresh batch of cecilias just for xiao while enlisting the help of your favorite bard  
these soft moments on the mountain are usually when you’ll sweetly tuck in a flower or two in his hair while laughing 
he’ll blush fiercely while looking away but will tuck the cecilias in securely as you’re unable to do so due to the position you’re in on his lap
all in all - this was not meant to come out as a date idea but we’re going w it 
this is so cute xiao pls let me put flowers in your hair sweet boy <3
childe
god, loml, my favorite war criminal after eren yeager 
there’s never a dull moment w this man - if you wanted peace and quiet, why the hell are you dating him bestie???
is the type of person to yell out “Y/N, i can’t believe i ran into you here!” if he sees you somewhere even tho you explicitly told him you were going to be here in the morning (ik you have a good memory ajax don’t lie to me 😐)
i don’t see him as being obnoxious w pda unlike someone else kaeya but he would definitely participate (think: handholding, cheek kisses, an arm around your shoulders)
loves it when he comes home and sees you in an apron cooking 
domesticity just makes his heart melt so you can be sure that your face will be peppered w a lot of kisses afterwards <3 
absolutely ADORES it when you trace his scars absentmindedly when you’re lying down or even when you’re having dinner in public  
he’s been far from his family for so long that small acts of mindless affection like this really make his heart happy 
you have him drunk on your love luv haha see what i did there 
he will let you put makeup on him. no i do not take criticism ⛄️
he already has on lowkey thick eyeliner,,, don’t be shy put some more bestie 
he will shamelessly go out in public w whatever you made him wear - doesn’t really give a shit even tho he has a reputation to maintain 
speaking of reputation,,, yk his mask? yeah that one - the red hair accessory that he has on his head
well on the mask, he attached a little charm the both of you got together on your first date during lantern rite 
it’s this adorable fox that we all shamelessly kill for meat and he placed it so it anchored to the side of his mask so when he fights it isn’t a nuisance or anything (does that make sense??? i hope it does) 
his subordinates notice and while they’re stoic around childe, behind closed doors they do whisper abt the mysterious person who’s captured his heart 
not so mysterious anymore when they literally see him cling onto you during his daily patrol around the harbor 💀
it’s ok tho he’s lucky he’s cute 
bestie,,, pls give him a neck massage 
i just KNOW he’s tense there idk something abt the way he carries himself just screams “my neck hurts so bad someone pls help me i would ask but my pride literally will not let me”
so give him a neck massage :) don’t worry tho he’ll definitely return the favor and then some
LOVES TICKLE FIGHTS 
he’s obsessed w them,,, it’s just the faces you make??? he can’t get enough 
he loves seeing the pure joy and the brief fear (he’s kind of a sadist) in your eyes before he attacks you w those damned hands 
it reminds him a lot of simpler times w his siblings and he’s happy he brings you joy and makes you forget your worries - at least for a little while 
all in all, he’s a good boy and no i will not tolerate childe slander 🔪 kaeya slander tho 😏
beidou
you pulled beidou??? wow everyone’s jealous (pulled as in literally from the banner and in this context but no i do not have beidou and no i definitely do not want to talk abt it)
god made beidou and zhongli just so all of us could have a sexuality crisis 
anyways, being w her is hard i will not lie 
not bc she isn’t a capable lover - no, quite the contrary 
she’s an amazing partner but the problem here lies in the fact that she’s almost never on land 
it’s hard working a long distance relationship but y’all love each other so it works out :,) 
when she is physically present however, expect to never be bored 
she’ll quietly fix the wrinkles on your shirt or fiddle with your fingers in her hands while she recounts her adventures out on sea 
she sometimes gets worried she bores you, however the way your eyes light up every time she tells a tale always reassures her otherwise
definitely the type to let you use her claymore if you want to learn 
she’ll provide useful tips as she tucks her hands into your sides gently, positioning you correctly so you don’t hurt yourself 
miss girl is an AMAZING cook 
i just know she cooks the best meals - i mean she’s friends w xiangling after all 
whenever she comes home from a voyage she’ll always insist on making something for you even if she’s abt to pass out 
pls tuck her into bed and promise her that she can make you something in the morning <3 the poor woman needs rest 
brings you back trinkets but they’re actually very practical 
she knows you won’t have much use for a simple charm (not that there’s anything wrong w that) but she believes you’ll like something practical more so she might get you a new engraved knife from the most recent place she’s been to 
definitely the type to surprise you when she docks 
i can imagine her anchoring her ship out a little ways from liyue harbor and rowing to the dock in order to make sure you aren’t alerted of her presence (i’m sorry the mental picture this made in my mind is SENDING ME INTO ORBIT but she means well i love you)
will take you to remote spots she’s found in her travels through liyue 
for example - the little heart shaped island and the island quest (?) that you had to use kaeya the bridge maker for in order to get to im sorry i’ll stop w the kaeya slander
she’ll get you seashell bracelets or necklaces idk why but she gives me those vIBES 
they’re super nice ones too, only the highest quality for you 
yes she’s a bruh girl but i also see her as someone who would enjoy intimate moments like watching the sunset or something 
“yo wanna catch the sunset, i heard it looks sick from the jade chamber” said before ahem it yk fell from the sky
kasdjksfashfjsahf yes ofc i would love to catch the sunset w you pls come home luv
anyways, she is a woman i would give the world for 
zhongli
ok gimme a sec i need to get my gentleman mode on 
this man,,, THIS MAN 
everything w him is so soft like your entire eXISTENCE w him could go in a museum it’s that beautiful 
in the morning when he visits you, he always brings you a cup of your favorite tea and a bouquet of glaze lilies he got from madame ping
holds the door for you, pushes the chair out for you, uses a napkin and brushes sauce off your lips when you’re eating - you name something sweet, he’s done it
secretly loves it when you fuss over him 
he doesn’t like to fight but say he encountered a group of hillichurls he couldn’t avoid and promptly defeated them but ended up tearing a part of his tux(?) (is it a tux? i could not tell you)
not that big of a deal, i mean it’s a scratch, he’s a 6,000 year old god, he’s dealt w much worse 
but seeing the worried crease in your brows as you usher him to sit at the table while quickly grabbing antiseptic to clean his wound
“it’s just a scratch, my dear. do not worry i’ve dealt with much worse.”
you quietly protest abt how “yes zhongli, i understand you’re an archon and have gotten worse injuries but i’m worried about infection just please let me take care of you ok? <3″ 
when you say that he feels weird emotions,,, wdym take care of him? 
he’s always taken care of himself or been expected to take care of others as the former ruling deity of liyue so having someone else genuinely worry abt his wellbeing creates a warm feeling in his chest 
he strikes me as the type to knit you something??? idk maybe it’s the grandpa vibes but i headcanon that he would knit you a scarf for the colder weather, it’s cute 
in the privacy of your home, he really likes picking you up
he loves it when you wrap your legs around his middle while he gets up to go do the dishes or smthg 
domesticity go brrrr
if you’re into making flower crowns, he would totally have you on his lap and wordlessly hand you a glaze lily whenever you expectantly hold your hand out while weaving the flowers together 
he expects you to make the crown for yourself but when you place the crown on his head and it fits perfectly while simultaneously tucking a glaze lily behind your ear, he looks at you dumbstruck 
his mouth parts open in awe and it’s quite literally the cutest thing
you’ve broken him 
thinks it’s the sweetest thing - will keep it on his head for the whole day 
he’ll even put it in water before he sleeps so it won’t wilt and he can wear it the next day <3 
scenic picnics!! scenic picnics!! 
the type to take you to the nicest spots in liyue to chat abt the history of the land w you over a cup of tea and your favorite food (whatever you like, he doesn’t mind)
recounts the people he’s met in his long life before finishing off by saying you’re by far the best person he’s met 
zhongli strangles lovingly come home soon 
thanks for reading! if you have any requests don’t hesitate to send them in <3 
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luvring · 2 years
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Rime my beloved <333 idk i really like him in a wattpad yn way n it scares me. Like, yeah he's a piece of shit or whatever but he likes me.... yk? It's the mental illness fantasy aha anyway can i get uhhhhh rime hcs. Fluff, angst, what kind of coffee he likes so i can spit in it yk yhe usual 😙 mmmm my mc has a white streak too i bet they'd go up to rime like "you fucking loser i bet its not even real. You used hair dye didnt u? And if it doesnt exist im sure u found some stupid spell just to copy me <3 bitch" what can i say i love bullying him he's like 6' he'll be fine
— general rime hcs
flips my sign that says felix cc to rime cc. i am here and ready O7
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definitely bully him. deserved smh!!
"you think i dyed my hair to copy you? are you an idiot? we didn't even know each other—" "yeah yeah sure. i know you were watching me. you wanna be me so bad, huh? did you think felix would—" "finish that sentence and your blood is going to ruin the carpet." 👁️👁️ hit a nerve there
you don't even need to spit in his drink. literally anything messing with his hot chocolate will be life-threatening. he asks where the marshmallows were and you say you ate them
"you what" "i ate them" "...." "have you heard of the old chubby bunny challenge" "are you fucking—"
he makes a comment about how you're shorter than him and you throw back "yeah well at least i won't die young later—oh wait,"
cue the M3 spitting out their drink, choking, or looking wide-eyed and away from the scene
sorry. not really but sorry i'll bring back my fluff
if anyone else tried to insult or hurt you he's up in arms fr. he's spitting psychologically damaging insults. he is going up, tripping them, then saying "oops. that was a reflex"
if he ever spotted someone following you and making you uncomfortable he would walk up and glare at them
NOOOO MINI FAKE DATING RIME SCENARIO . oh my god
"who the hell are you, asshole?" "who do you think? their boyfriend. so i'd be careful about what you say or do next, asshole."
the person leaves after he grins at them (and probably after seeing him reach for something sharp in his little pouch)
. . .blinks. twirls my hair. pushes it behind my ear. :smirk:
"...so we're dating now?" "you are so irritating." "you have a crush on me" "i'm letting you struggle like a dying fish the next time this happens." (- rime when he lies)
pocky challenge. pocky challenge do the pocky challenge he gets much closer than everyone was expecting just to fluster you. depending on your relationship it will just (d)evolve into kissing
ohh rime getting nightmares about dying or being left alone ohh
he isn't one to crawl into bed and cuddle with you . smth smth terrible at being vulnerable or asking for help
you find him on the couch with a drink in his hand and sit beside him in silence
"didn't take you as someone to miss out on beauty sleep." "can you ever be quiet?" "mm...sometimes. maybe if you wanted to talk about why you're here?"
he won't give you specific details but you get the idea that he had a bad dream
he lets you keep him company while he finishes his drink, and stays there even after he does. it's really his way of letting you know he's ? sort of alright with you ?
he'll leave and tell you you should go back soon "unless you want to look even worse in the morning" (ohh you wanna kiss me so bad)
he makes fun of the others with you . and also other people in general
won't admit it but he likes That era of pop-punk/rock. looped the american beauty/american psycho fob album overnight by accident once probably
if for some miraculous reason he's in an especially good mood, he will let you try his caramel flan. contrary to popular belief and to the detriment of everybody else,, you are the only one who gets to try the flan.
you know when you ask somebody what you should wear and they're like "Whatever you feel the most comfortable in :) you are stunning no matter what :) ily :)"
that is not him. if you want an honest easy answer you go to rime
"should i wear the black one or the red one?" "whatever you'd like mc" "do you want to look like a bitch?" "rime—" "yes." "the red one" My Man 🤝
the kind of person to get more pissed off at an animal dying during a movie than a person . was probably rooting for it out of spite
rime....tattoos? sorry i need. sorry. like on his stomach . patchwork tattoos . sorry
sometimes he'll be doing something mundane and remember a time he was doing it with felix and you can see him frown
heehoo
his sadness and anger are very intertwined . they day he finally has a breakdown he's doing a maniacal laugh while crying out of disbelief and rage
if you hug him after he won't hug back (at first) but he'll press his face into your neck and just . stay there
anyway. he'd make you go on big rollercoasters/rides with him
don't take him to an escape room because he'll make you do all the work until the last minute where he tells you all the solutions that he's been keeping to himself.
spends so much time in CAS (create a sim) . like so much time. he finishes the sims and doesn't even play with them for more than 5 minutes unless he's doing a challenge
no he's so funny. he is the epitome of "my toxic trait is ____" and it's the stupidest shit. you take him to an aquarium and you see a mermaid show and he says "my toxic trait is that i know i could do that" and you're just !@$%?#(! your toxic trait is you commit murder you stupid whore
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zhuhongs · 3 years
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Okay, yall know the deal, long post reflection time. Post under read more, but feel free to read or ignore. I don’t mind either way, these are just an amalgamation of thoughts i’ve had for a while and I want to post them in a semi public place. 
I think a lot of what I post on here is a testament that I'm alive. That my thoughts don’t just exist inside of me. That even though my thoughts and personal posts are usually incredibly specific to my situation, the lessons that they have taught me are quite universal and can be applied to so many people's lives. I think I post these things, as opposed to just keeping them in my google docs, as proof that I’m not alone. My thoughts aren't just a fever dream and my pain isn’t just mine. At our core people are all very much the same. It’s not a bad thing. If anything, it's incredibly comforting. When I was younger, i used to be fiercely individualistic. Convinced that my suffering was uniquely my own and no one could have an inkling of an idea of what I was going through. I know that’s not true. 
I realize I often refer to “when I was younger” as if i’m not still pretty young. It might seem odd, really i’m only twenty. But I think back a lot of growing up and what got me to this point, because the lessons there are what have made me, me. And I’m currently really content with who I am, and I think further self reflection will only make me happier. 
That was a really long winded intro that I didn’t even mean to write…. I was going to talk about something else entirely. Lmao okay.
Anyways what I wanted to write about was about confessions. I’ve been thinking about all my past relationships a lot bc most of them I had at the beginning of the year so inevitably this time makes me think about those people. Also last night i was talking to an irl of mine about her kinda destructive unrequited crush on this guy shes known for 2.5 years. ANd like it's all bc she wanted a rebound crush to get over her ex gf and now it's been 2 years and it's gotten nowhere. Nd he doesn’t like her and only views her as a friend and she knows that he won’t like her and also that she doesn’t like him, but a version of him that she created in her head and shes annoyed bc it's been so long and she doesn’t kmnow how to continue like this bc it's painful. 
And personally, i’m not much help. I’m really the type of person who would just say it even though I know i will be rejected and things could get awkward and we grow apart. I’ve been in these situations and I always confess. Idk i have this kinda personal rule that if I like someone, I need to be the one to say it. I don’t want that person to EVER confront me and be like “hey, i know you like me and ….” because that is mortifying. And conversly, I would NEVER  do that to someone. It's so presumptuous and mean spirited and just not necessary unless it's like uncomfortable yk. But that's rare and far between and never happened to me. 
I’ve made it a rule to tell someone how I really feel at some point down the line at least. If I have liked you, you will know. I truly do think that people should know how you felt about them, in your own words, not just words from others. I don’t think, however, you should say it as soon as you feel it. Oftentimes, confessing when your emotions are too high, especially negative emotions of self doubt and of rejection, is self destructive. Sometimes, telling someone how you feel is selfish. SOmetimes, that person isn’t in the right state of mind to hear those things. Telling them that you like them and knowing they don’t feel the same may make them feel guilty beyond belief given the situation. And sometimes that person will date you because they feel obligated to and leave you both worse off for it. I know this because I’ve been in both situations and knowing how bad they can suck, I’ve decided on a middle ground. Because I need to tell people how I feel and because I am also considerate of how they may react, I usually confess when i’m removed from the situation. WHen both of us are in a place where we won’t get hurt too badly. Like I confessed to everyone I liked in high school back to back during the last week because it was safe. If they didn’t like me, it wasn’t gonna complicate anything. They didn’t have to see me again. And if they did like me, then cool, we were going to be in college and make things work as semi adults. That's great.
When I do things like this, it often hurts a bit. Because in the process of being considerate of others, I'm holding my own emotions in. I wish there was a less explosive way of liking people. Though for me at this current moment, i don't think that's possible. It’s not bad. I think there's a strange sense of personal satisfaction. A selfish feeling that I’m a good person because I am not hurting others at the expense of myself. In a way, it's beautiful and admirable. Except it’s really not. One day I need to rectify this part of myself with my own self love but that day will come when i’ve grown up a bit more. At my current state I think a little bit of heartache can be good. It builds character. No one needs to know my pain though. Again, if anyone knew all of that, it may make them burdened and when i truly care about someone the last thing I want them to see me as is a burden. I never want to be anyones burden to bare. Be blunt with me, don’t say anyth
I can’t say that my current methods of communication are the most healthy but I think they’re far better than they were just two years ago. I’ve learned a lot and I will continue to learn. I don’t feel like this much recently. I really don’t feel anything at all. It concerns me a lot. But I think when love is ready for me, i’ll find it. I don’t need to rush and for now I can just sit back and grow and give love. It will come back when it wants to. You can’t force anything or anyone. That’s why I don’t push my friends to act like me and just confess. It's a personal rule. I like to do it because I’ve never once regretted saying things. I’ve only regretted my timing. I’m looking to perfect that soon. But life really is too short to not say what you want to say. I’ve learned it a little too hard. So I will go forward and love and say and bea little too much because that is what stays. No one will remember my silent aching and hesitating. They’ll remember someone too flustered, saying something they really meant with good intentions, even if the execution is sloppy. That’s okay. ALl I want is to be remembered. Selfishly, I want to live on in people's hearts. Even if it’s just as the girl you didn’t like, but told you she liked you. And that for once, someone had you as their first choice in their mind. No matter how fleeting. I think that alone is beautiful. That alone is worth ist. I don’t care how laughable it is and how unsightly I may seem. I will do these things to prove to myself that i’m alive. To prove that i’m allowed to be selfish at least a little bit. I’m allowed just a little piece of someone's mind, aren’t I? At my core, I think that to be loved is simply to be remembered. That is all I need.
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