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gabe-lovebot · 1 month

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councilor 3D model

i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him

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please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)

currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.

#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild #have fun playing toys with him #ultrakill #councilor #councilor ultrakill #3d stuff #obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on #so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks #(like obviously the wings & halo)#(but also the chestplate design)#but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces?#i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored #i had to add them #to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff-#i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result #but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!!#gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but #i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this #i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project #and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going #(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress)#this was like 1 entire month in the making #but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost #so thank you guys for liking it <3 #i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head #but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe

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sysig · 4 months

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Chewtoy (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Squeeze him - he makes a squeaky toy noise #Everyone needs to bite Gaster! He doesn't yield like flesh so it probably doesn't even hurt right? Yeahhhh he'll be fiiiine #There is something very funny to me about him just sitting there and taking it tho lol - feeds into his martyr play ♪#As if I don't already have a favourite martyr hmmm don't worry about it lol #What was he even doing why is he just letting 2-P bite him lol #Socialization? That's not a good thing to just let him do! He's still got a young mind! Boundaries are important #He does offer a way out - hehe ♫ - but he doesn't enforce it! You're setting them up for failure #Hehehehe #The bone gift was fun to doodle hehe ♪ He leaves it with him and it goes completely untouched while his arm is covered in teeth-marks pfft #Even with Papyrus a bit more unruly I still like to imagine he acts mean in largely harmless ways haha #Like yeah he's being naughty and biting when he knows better and offered other options - Gaster. Gentle enforcement - but he's not Hurting #He's not using his entire bite force - probably lol or he's just got weak little baby bites (though those can be quite painful!)#Sans on the other hand would absolutely go 100% full power - and still only do 1HP lol what an unfortunate design quirk for him #If only he had a jaw he could open! He'd bite the heck outta Gaster! Alas #I do like to imagine Fellplates!Sans has just fast-tracked to classic's conclusion of ''You suck and I hate you. Die'' about Gaster lol #Even the possibility of not being mean to him is so alien! What do you /mean/ not hurt you?? Do you know who you're talking to??#He'll find another way to mess with him in good time haha

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apotelesmaa · 8 days

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I like to imagine there’s at least one huge nerd at kamiyama in their third year and they’re always studying to get the best grades like really hitting the books & taking classes outside of school but they continually get the second highest scores and they’re seething with rage about it because the only person outdoing them academically is that purple fuck who never pays attention in class, is put in detention every week for blowing shit up and brings his whimsical ass gadgets to school. & he doesn’t even care about his status as the most academically talented kid in the grade. They’re planning on going into medical school or some other STEM field and he’s going into the arts.

#rui being a genius is never not funny to me he is using his vast intelligence to build fun toys and put on shows #constantly doing engineering/programming/etc stuff that’s never been done before but he just wants to use them in plays #mine #project sekai #spiritual successor to my soul eater post abt dtk showing up to a test having not studied & acing it and maka tries to kill him #that one comic book panel abt turning ppl into dinosaurs but it’s just like #‘you made a sentient robot and you’re using it as a prop in shows? but w talent like that you could revolutionize the tech industry!’#‘but I don’t want to revolutionize the tech industry. I want to make shows’

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bloobydabloob · 1 month

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My part of an art trade with @tauriborns. I had a ton of fun, thank you for the art trade brother.

#homestuck #homestuck fanart #gamzee makara #hs fanart #I know I said it in image but I think that Gamzee would just be the cutest little kid ever.#He’s the kind of kid that you meet at the neighborhood party #and he’s sitting in the corner just staring at the toy trucks. He’s not even playing with them #and you go up to him to see if he wants to play a game… but he doesn’t. Hes just having so much fun staring at his toy trucks #(not playing).#So you join him in staring.#At one point he drops some unknown and wise knowledge on you. That kind of kid #Hyper specific but whatever #Thank you for the art trade.#Your part was absolutely great #Please go check them out if you’re reading this far #It’s worth your time. Trust #blooby posting

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nixotinix · 1 month

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YOWZA WOWZA it's been a while! My MH spark died down for a bit in favour of my OCs and goddamned Papa Louie if you can believe it, but my monster high hyperfixation eventually came back and came back swinging! It definitely helps that I recently got some new supplies that Ive never played with before... paint pens! They're so much fun to use and I've been cranking out art at an absolutely ungodly speed because of them. So here's some of that art!

I only have 8 colours of paint pen as of right now bc im poor but like if anybody wanted to buy me some more ahaha just joking (unless....)

Anyways enjoy!

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patrickztump · 4 months

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my perfect son, patches, who has committed only two (2) felonies (stole a biscuit and a croissant) in his entire tiny life (11 years), just committed his third offense (climbed a dresser and up two levels of shelves to steal his cousin's christmas gift, the same toy [catnip pickle] that he has had for years and has repeatedly ignored)

#he smelt it the second it came home and took his chance to steal it when i was in the kitchen #i let him have it tho. because he hasn't played with toys much in years due to dental issues and he was having so much fun and i– 😭#i know my friend (who's cat it was for) will understand 🥺#babble post #patches #cats be like that

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moongothic · 5 months

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You know, I would love it if we could see Mihawk just. Get slightly fucked up by someone, have his sword stolen and watch him figure out how to fight with some random ass sword instead

I just think. It'd be neat.

Like we kinda know how The World's Greatest Swordsman fights with his itty bitty knife, we know what kind of damage he can do with his iconic Yoru

I just think it'd be fun to see him fight with a regular katana and try to get his stolen sword back or summin' IDK

#Moon posting #Cross Guild #Mihawk #OP Spoilers #OP Meta #IDK something something Cross Guild can't pay for Garp's bounty so Blackbeard's crew goes and attacks them #Kidnaps Crocodile and Buggy to steal their abilities and takes Mihawk as captive to see if he'll join BB or not #Steal his sword in the meantime to give to his crew as a toy to play with or something #I don't know there's something about this scenario that facinates me #Also if Luffy and co went to save Garp from Blackbeard I could imagine a scenario where the crew find CG in the prison #And free them. And could you imagine Mihawk asking Zoro to borrow one of his swords while he goes gets his back or summin #I JUST THINK IT'D BE NEAT #This scenario facinates me. I would love to see it #Especially since we didn't really get to see that much of Zoro and Mihawk interacting so like. It'd be cute #Also like GENERALLY SPEAKING I would just love to see Mihawk in a 1v1 duel with someone OTHER THAN ZORO #(Or Shanks)#I dunno I think Mihawk is just Neat but we barely get to see him Do Things so it'd be so fun to see him Do Things #Break Week is hitting hard. It's been So Many Months and we still have no idea where the CG subplot is going #I can only speculate and make 50 different suggestions for where the story could go from here #(I say ''break week is hitting hard'' on the Friday evening after 1101 was released unofficially)#(This week is gonna be rough y'all lmao)

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reel-fear · 24 days

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Honestly, every single time the whole 'poppy playtime is a bendy rip-off' stuff ever shows up I find it all extremely unconvincing and silly.

For one thing, rip-off usually is meant to imply that it's a cheap lazy copy of a better more polished thing, and uh. Sorry but even from chapter 1? Poppy Playtime is a better game than Bendy, it has a simple but understandable story, the game manages to be thrilling, creepy, and very intense at times... I mean that Huggy chase in the vents ALONE puts it way above Batim for me.

I mean BATDR had the most slow stupid chase I've ever seen [and every other encounter with the ink demon is text telling u he's there and then a timer goes down and u get jumpscared] and batim's chases were either silly or just not nearly as theatric or terrifying as that.

When making the vent sequence I mean not only is it absolutely horrifying to realize how fast Huggy is in there but also it's so theatric and cool? The fact that you round a corner after thinking you escaped only to see a terrifying animation of that thing crawling toward you is awesome! I wish Bendy had stuff like that!

And all the stuff it shares with Bendy are generic things Bendy ripped from other horror games/media anyways. I'm not saying Poppy Playtime isn't inspired by Bendy I for sure think it is but Bendy is such a generic story that somehow fails to do tropes 100 other horror games have done any comparison only makes Poppy Playtime look better.

"It has employees being sacrificed for their company" That is not a concept Bendy invented, literally look at any of the sci-fi horror series Bendy is very inspired by. This is literally a twist in the original Alien.

"It has a scary woman forcing you to do tasks for her" Once again, not a concept Bendy invented, a scary mysterious person forcing you to do fetch-quests is a concept found in tons of horror media. And at least Poppy Playtime gave you a chase with her and let you defeat her, look at poor malice. She's barely on screen for more than 10 minutes before she gets stabbed.

"It has a cult worshipping the monster" This is something tons of horror games and media have done too. I mean In The Tall Grass has a guy who worships a giant magical rock in the middle of a grass maze, Bioshock [which Bendy has only been taking more and more direct inspiration from while failing to grab any of the compelling parts] also had a lot of themes of religion and cult-ish behavior, almost every horror media franchise has at one point done a cult thing.

Bendy couldn't even come up with a reason Sammy worships the ink demon, the best motivation we've ever gotten is just that 'he's crazzyyyy the ink made him insaneeee'. Who is the cheap rip-off here?

At least Poppy Playtime gave their cultist a motive for worshipping the monster + a proper boss fight that feels intense and looks awesome! Bendy didn't even let you kill Malice [she got stabbed in front of you and then just collapsed on the floor how thrilling] meanwhile you get to kill three of the villains in Poppy Playtime and the gameplay and action in those scenes have only gotten better as the game went on.

I mean Sammy walks into a room and goes "AAA SCARY I'M BEING MURDERED" then later shows up and for NO REASON sees a normal human man and assumes it's the ink demon before once again someone else kills him for you. In Poppy Playtime you defeat Catnap as he floods the world with this horrible nightmare-inducing gas that intensifies the color palette and his design. Fight off versions of him that are illusions that you need your flare gun for, then watch in a wonderful animation as he mistakes the monster for his savior before getting killed by it, in a brutal way I might add, which game are we accusing of being cheap, lazy garbage again?

I just find this argument to be people who Really Really need to find a reason to hate Poppy Playtime which I think is silly. The devs being weird, shady people is already enough reason to dislike the game, you don't need to invent reasons why secretly every part of the game is malicious or bad. But esp when I see Bendy fans saying they don't support Poppy Playtime or dislike it bc of its devs or even saying its cringe ummmm.

I have bad news about the fact Bendy's devs are worse and it took not one, but TWO over an hour long videos to cover it all. Plus the Bendy games are just the worse games in every aspect, if I could sell my batim copy for a copy of Poppy Playtime I wouldn't hesitate at all.

Saying this as a bendy fan, we have no right to be super judgy towards Poppy Playtime. If Poppy Playtime is embarrassing cringe, Bendy is too and is way more embarrassing of an interest. We shouldn't spread misinformation just because we all want to hate Poppy Playtime, you can dislike Poppy Playtime without making up a bunch of nonsense to justify it.

Honestly seeing people just blatantly be unfairly mean to Poppy Playtime only makes its critics look worse and makes it hard to take any backlash to the games seriously. Because surprise surprise if you spread misinformation to make a point people will quickly stop listening to Anything you have to say bc they won't trust you're telling the truth anymore.

#feel free to reblog but Im not gonna tag this its way too rambley at least for my taste to go in the main tags #ramblez #also man can I say I didnt want to make this post super long but theres so many other points I could make in poppys favor #the fact we got to see the hour of joy and it was terrifying we dont even know if joey actually killed anyone anymore #the gameplay itself is more diverse and fun then batim which is a walking simulator that pretends to have fighting n stealth mechanics #at least Poppy n Missys friendship gives u a reason to care for missys safety before shes put in danger #Missy can actually express unlike Boris who sits there looking cute with no proper expressions until he gets yoinked and ur supposed to car #bc he was uh adorable? And therefore you spend an entire chapter tryna get him and get an extremely bad boss fight in return-#also soundtrack wise I like poppys tracks more theyre unique and fun and you can tell which part of the game they come from #bendy has so many dramatic reveal stingers and tracks that are really hard to tell which part of the game they come from #bertrums boss fight has my favorite theme bc its so specifically crafted for him and unique and meanwhile Norman has one of the worst imo #a lot of Bendys soundtrack if I played it for you right now it would be hard to guess where its from bc it all kinda sounds the same #the reveal music for the machine for bendy land for heavenly toys for alices domain all sound the same x_x #its just so frustrating but yeah my point is can we all stop making up new reasons to shit on poppy playtime its just kinda dumb #it feels less like actual criticism and at this point just feels like elaborate justification for cringe culture which I hate #okay thats it bye sorry this is 10 pages long-

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hadesknockedupintheunderworld · 24 days

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*When asked about Sonic*

Chaos Sonic: Hah. So we're still talking about that blue pitstain? Whatever. He can be fun to toy with, sure, but he's old news. Last year's model. A failure of a friend and a passable hero. Nine wants him alive for "some reason"—that involves his "intense attachment"—so I won't kill him or anything. I'll leave him alone in a room with Nine over my dead body—or my best friend's wishes, since I cannot bear to refuse him. If I could, though, I'd love the chance to "play" with him some, "rough him up" a little as payback for how he treated my best friend.

Alpha Grim Sonic (answering via writing it down, sign language, transmission, whatever because he's mute): You refer to the blue hedgehog. Once upon a time, my master, Nine, seemed to be troubled when thinking of him. There was a time when Sonic brought a fight to our doorstep, but no matter how Sonic may have hurt him in the past, he has chosen to preserve my master's life. Nine seems to trust him, and Sonic has not threatened his life. So, as I do not have the capacity to experience such things as "emotions", and they would not matter even if I did have the ability, I do not mind if my master associates with Sonic the Hedgehog. If Nine is happy, and the hedgehog does not intend harm upon him, then all is well.

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*When asked about Shadow*

Chaos Sonic: Oh, he's that black hedgehog, right?! Seems cool! I'd love to race him sometime. Of course, I'll fight him too if he intends to lay a finger on my best buddy, but all is well if he plays nice.

Alpha Grim Sonic (answering not by speaking, because he is mute): Shadow the Hedgehog. You do refer to the black hedgehog, do you not? If he intends to bring harm upon my master again, I will not hesitate in removing him. He has not received forgiveness for trying to kill my master during the war. Nine surely allows him to live because he is gracious, but if he so commanded me to I would rip the hedgehog him limb from limb. It is my duty to do what my master commands, and I will be ready should the hedgehog try anything or should my master finally revoke his trust in him.

#sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #crystalbondshipping #crystalbond #chanine #miles nine prower #nine sonic prime #nine the fox #chaos sonic #alpha grim sonic #i just be ramblin #If you're reading this ignore how they speak. I was intending to write this in meme format and not worry about the dialogue #and then I ended up worrying a bit about the dialogue but not too much #In case it isn't clear both of them actually dislike leaving Nine alone #They create an understanding with each other at some point #But even when Nine trusts someone they won't leave him unless commanded to do so #They're funny because Chaos Sonic has a vendetta against Sonic. Sure he's the new Sonic and wants to replace him‚ but after being revived he #*really* wants to replace him and also really dislikes him for how he thinks Sonic treated Nine (and because of Sonic’s place in Nine's #heart). Meanwhile‚ while Alpha Grim Sonic understands why Chaos Sonic would be hung up on how he treats Nine (and eventually understands #wanting to be held to a similar place as Sonic in Nine's heart)‚ he just doesn't get Chaos Sonic's vendetta and obsession #However‚ Alpha Grim Sonic's fist is magnetized to Shadow's face. He is on high alert when Shadow is around Nine‚ and although he is not #supposed to have a personality or feelings‚ he is compelled to fight Shadow and tear him apart. He still harbors a grudge over Shadow's #trying to kill/stop Nine. Meanwhile‚ while Chaos Sonic can understand disliking Shadow for how he treated Nine‚ he doesn't really get the #obsession either. He thinks Shadow could be fun to play and toy with😂 And those are like the only two that these two have incredibly strong #feelings towards when it comes to the people Nine associates with

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mattodore · 8 months

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being able to trace behaviors and traits back to something as simple as matthias never having toys as a baby makes him feel so real to me...

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #oc extras #guy who doesn’t watch movies or have any fun hobbies and just plays with ppl instead #so crazy love u matthias <3 #it's kind of crazy how i can open a google doc with no idea how to get where i need to in relation to an ask abt an oc #like point a to point b is unchartable #and then i just start typing and coming to realizations and putting pieces together that i'd never considered the full scope of #but that just. god. that just make SO much sense #not only like character-wise but like. this is how this would actually happen.#like all of these factors WOULD actually play a part in the way a child would grow and the outcome COULD be just like this #i'm a genius actually.................#dfjnkvkhnjfdgh #it's interesting to think abt how matthias had no toys but he did grow up in an incredibly ostentatious manor #so while he didn't have that to help him develop his social and emotional skills #he did have the contrasting colors and patterns to help develop and continue to stimulate his brain as he grew #hm................ no but i really am a genius btw. like for coming up with mattodore. why be humble abt it #everything just makes sense everything ties back to something #like i'll go back and i'll read their questionnaires and it's just like. YEAH...#even when i haven't filled in some blips like esp. irt theo's past... i think it takes very little examination to come #to those realizations yourself... like. obviously bc i've had an anon ask abt something they were picking up abt theo that was like!!!#yeah you're right!! i mean a little off in places but that's understandable. like you still GET IT! you SEE IT! which is crazy #like... lays down. mattodore feel real. they make sense. it just makes me smile.......... :)#loving my ocs today so baddddd #but anyway enough oc plague having it’s nene time !#and then i’ll get to my activity though i can’t lie i am gnawing my phone atm bc Interaction….. you understand #the personality disorder <3 #my best friend mwah ten years strong babe

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br1ghtestlight · 7 months

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considering bob wasn't even allowed to play with TOYS as a kid i don't think his father would have let him go trick or treating so he probably only would have gone when he was very young. i also think they didn't celebrate holidays like christmas or easter growing up so he didn't have those childhood experiences and they always spent thanksgiving working at his father's diner so its important to bob that his kids get to celebrate holidays and do childhood things that he never did :) also why he makes a big deal about spending thanksgiving with family instead of working or being apart from each other

#i saw somebody draw bob as a kid going trick or treating and like no hate to that person but. i do not think he was going trick or treating #i don't think big bob MEANT to deprive bob of a childhood of joy and fun not intentionally?? he was just very work-focused #and when lily died he didnt really seem to have a reason to celebrate holidays without her #in his mind giving bob food to eat and a place to live was giving him a good childhood and taking care of him for all his life #i dont think you NEED to celebrate (culturally christian) holidays to be a happy kid but if bob wasn't even allowed to play w/ toys #i dont think he had very much going on in his life outside of like going to school #mf didnt have a SINGLE friend #txt #bob's burgers

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decembermoonskz · 5 months

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update on flirty idiot that I may have a mini crush on bc I can

#izzy.txt★#he invited me to hang with him for my bday (like on a discord vc) and we chatted a ton about random shit #he said happy bday to me and I just felt so relaxed laughing and joking with him #it was really fun and I also got to talk with one of his frens who I also really like bc she’s so fucking sweet #it was just such a nice chill end to my bday and even tho I said my bday was technically over bc it was past midnight #he was still like ‘well still happy bday’ and idk it’s so mundane but I was like >/////<#and I was like it’s my bday week and he agreed it was hhhh #and he was still his normal playful fun and flirty self and I wanted to kick my feet #he also said ily to me but it wasn’t like a deep one so it’s not a confession it was just like that playful love youuu~ toy of thing #and I said it back and then I hesitated bc I was like WAIT THATS TOO SOON WE JUST MET AND WE ARENT A THING AND I WAS OVERTHINKING #but like he didn’t mention it so I think he thought I was just playing too so I’m glad bc I wasn’t trying to mean anything by it rn HAHAHAHA #I was so nervous lemme tell you like WAIT WAS THAT TOO MUCH TO SAY IT BACK???#anyways I sent him a ty for spending time with me and he sent a little hug gif and just ugh idk im a happy girl #he’s so fucking lame too like he’s just some dude but ugh I’m crushing I can tell #I won’t get ahead of myself tho bc it’s way too soon but like hhhhh it’s nice having a flirty experience like this

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desperatecheesecubes · 6 months

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Comic book cannon is just a sandbox, you play with the things you like bro

#mine #Jason getting chemically lobotomized by his own father? NEW TOY TO PLAY WITH #Lian is a teenager? I’m having more fun with her a 7 year old but thanks #Oliver Queen will have all the children I throw at him actually. In fact he should have MORE children #Jon Kent can get kidnapped and tortured but he didn’t age 10 years this does not spark joy #Courtney Whitmore still has her step brother and younger sibling I don’t care what dc Is doing with her right now #There can be five supergirls running around right now because I like all of them for different reasons #Kon is gay 😎#Tim is allowed to be 20

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mustangs-flames · 4 months

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If you want to waste some time today and tomorrow , you can try playing some board games or cards . It's something me and my family do when it's snowing way too much to be outside

Ah, we're not having any guests over this year unfortunately so all my board and card games are a bit restricted. I could play Magic with my partner but I'm not the biggest fan of the game tbh. All my other board games require 3+ players :/

#mustang answers!#it's alright though there are worse things to do other than writing #and I'm meant to call my mum later so there's that too #obi-wan is having fun though. we bought him a christmas eve stocking and gift box so he's playing with all the toys lol

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crazynerdandproud · 5 months

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I’m trying to write around 300 words every day and I couldn’t go to bed unless I at least tried to sit down and write. I’m happy to say that I slaved away and at the end wrote over a thousand words. Yay!

#I looked at my psych wip for like less then a second #before abandoning it to quick reread a short one-shot I have in my drafts #and I managed to double the word count for my Macgyver X-men crossover fic #it was kinda annoying actually #Alex was supposed to just cause absolute havoc #and hurt one of the team when he escapes from the Phoenix institute #but apparently he’s playing spymaster #not sure if I’m going to keep the whole spymaster part for sure #but I mean he isn’t going to cause much damage at all #in fact at this rate he will figure out what’s going on pretty quickly and then trust the team #but where’s the fun in that #and even though I doubled the word count of the fic he still hasn’t escaped yet #not that he needs to escape but he doesn’t know that #he just woke up in a medical place with two doppelgängers of some very not nice people who actually aren’t the worst in this universe #so yeah fight it is #I’m toying around with the idea of him somehow accidentally releasing Murdoc or something #idk #we’ll see where it goes #he better get out soon though cause Bozer is going to find out sooner rather than later that he’s bullshitting him and he isn’t Mac #I did not think I’d ramble this much in the tags #I’m just happy I’m making progress because soon I get tot switch to jack’s pov and it will be great #still don’t know if I’m going to have Mac waking up after the explosion at the manor and trying to find his way home or not #I mean like that happens but I don’t really feel like writing that right now #maybe it could like #be a kind of connected series? and I can just eventually write Mac’s universe hopping adventure?#alright I’m headed to bed #goodnight!

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yardsards · 1 year

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i fuckin HATE when my brain makes me feel positive emotions/longing for my abusers

like goddamn, let me go back to my usual pure uncomplicated loathing and contempt

#eliot posts #mostly about my dad #i have almost no positive memories of my mother #but sometimes i DO feel sympathy towards her #which sucks a little bit but not nearly as much #but with my dad there WERE good memories. times we had fun or he gave me affection #and realistically i know that even while those good things were happening #there was the knowledge in the back of my head that i had to be careful not to set him off and that he could hurt me #and that the sweet praise he gave me was conditional and he was happy to call me mean shit like the r slur when he was displeased #the times him playing with me turned into him toying with me til i cried because he thought it was funny #the gifts he gave as an attempt to buy our forgiveness without apologizing or making any effort to change #and yet my brain's just like ''hey? remember the good times?'' BITCH every second of those years was drenched in terror #abuse mention

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