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I should be better from the mystery non-COVID respiratory illness but my asthma is still whining at me about it :(

It’s frustrating and completely soul crushing complaining about being bad at something or having your progression be so much slower than everyone else’s and then having someone roll up like “well if you practice as long as me you won’t be bad anymore, checkmate, it’s your own fault for not working hard enough” and then the amount of time they’ve been at it is either the same of yours, significantly less, or they haven’t even been alive for as long as you’ve been working at it 💀 like. just let people be upset that they aren’t good at things and can’t get better no matter how much they try without taking it as a personal attack that you need to crush them down even harder for. And also stop automatically assuming how much work someone does based on their skill level because all you do by that is confirm what they’re saying?

being told by the doctors that we probably shouldn’t travel until mid april ruined like - my entire month 🙃 i was so hopeful and excited, i’d even packed up spring/summer clothes to send to the states via mail but now :) i have to unpack :) because i will need spring clothes :)

i don’t fit here and it’s so obvious. even by the food in the fridge and the type of handsoap they use i don’t really belong.

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I feel you about New Year’s Eve, I feel like everyone has the pressure to celebrate it but if you don’t feel to it’s ok to just stay home and relax !! I think that’s what I’ll do this year. There’s already too many stressful things, I don’t need to add one more.

Oh, I don't celebrate it! I don't feel any pressure to do so either. It's not something I care about. You're right though that no one should feel pressured to celebrate it.

Personally I just hate that it's so damn loud - at least here in Germany. Last year my neighbor had his music on so loud that I couldn't watch a movie in my living room cause I didn't hear anything. And then all the dumb fireworks.

OOOOOOHHHHHH I'M GOING TO SMASH THIS BLINDING STAR INTO SMITHEREENS OHHHH MY GODDDDD

missing ranchers forever and ever and ever (a redraw of THIS from a year ago)

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best wishes for your anxiety and hope the appointment goes well!

thank you boo 🙈 I was just making an example it's not an appointment it's a date but yeah guess I won't die

Quick thing bc I just wanted to draw them rlly bad

I think objectively the funniest way for a yunmeng shuangjie resolution/reconciliation to play out is for Jiang Cheng's sacrifice with the wen to be revealed and chengxian to end up in a war of "YOU trying to sacrifice your life for ME was stupid and reckless and why the fuck would you do that but ME trying to sacrifice my life for YOU was perfectly reasonable actually" and to subject Lan Wangji to the mortifying realization that he's on Jiang Cheng's side in this argument.

Sacrificing oneself for Wei Ying? Always a good thing to do. Wei Ying getting hurt? Bad. Unfortunately this means agreeing with Jiang fucking Wanyin.

Lan wangji:

love for love’s sake really said, “get in loser, we’re gonna make the unloved side character HAPPY” and they have all my respect for that

Grace Van Dien and Joseph Quinn at Fan Expo Philly - June 4th, 2023 | [x. x.}

"Prove me right!" (NXT 26/07/2023)

I wanna rant a little bit about that last post coz like I have feelings about it.

Reproductive rights are a huge part of feminism, but it's really important that it ISNT "sex-based oppression" bc tying birthing ability to the universal experience of womanhood is actually REALLY FUCKING MISOGYNIST. Like you're rly gonna say that women incapable of having children experience less oppression than those who can?

The bioessentialist idea of "sex-based" oppression is heavily weighed on the idea of a cis woman capable of giving birth to children as the definition of woman as a sex & gender. It is a damaging social construct that harms all who are socially classed as women in some way, regardless of actual gender or actual sex.

Like you realise already that definition of womanhood excludes a huge amount of women? And that it is so untrue to these women's actual experiences of misogyny?

It misses how misogyny treats infertile women regardless of sex as being "broken" because they are unable to fit the social role of womanhood.

It's also just like incorrect to the wider experience of misogyny of women who can have children at certain points in their lives, bc girls & women aren't capable throughout their entire life of having children. But young girls still experience misogyny up until puberty & past that, & misogyny doesn't go away after menopause, in fact menopausal women are treated as undesirable or used goods because they aren't typically capable of having children anymore.

The bottom line to all this is that, there is no one single universal experience of womanhood as a social role beyond just being a woman & you cannot exclude trans women from the experience of misogyny. Misogyny isn't "sex-based", bc sex is socially constructed in a way that does exclude a lot of women.

I rly beg fellow transmasc's & trans men to go out & spend time with trans women, talk to them about misogyny & their experiences with misogyny.

You wouldn't have these weird ass ideas about misogyny if you branched out more & tried to relate to trans women & their experiences with misogyny. It would fix a lot of the misconceptions folks have about radfems, TERFs & transmisogyny. Ppl get too caught up on this idea that TERFs hate trans women for their supposed relation to men & maleness, which is actually deeply untrue because really the crux of TERF ideology & most transmisogyny IS misogyny. It's rooted deeply in trans women not neatly fitting into the box of cis perisex white abled womanhood, it's about trans women being the wrong kind of woman, which IS the universal experience of misogyny & womanhood that all women & those socially classed as women face.

The sooner you stop treating transmisogyny & TERFism as a symptom of hating men & actually about hating women, the better your understanding of these ideologies & the better your understanding of where trans women fit in social roles of womanhood AND of your own place as a trans man.

You should rly be open to relating to & talking with ppl about any experience of misogyny that is outside your own, be that from trans women, women of colour, disabled women, intersex women, ect, because there are facets of misogyny you haven't experienced that are important to talk about & recognize.

Grill the Grid '23 // Carlos wins the trophy