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levinneheart · 4 years

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Never loved you

Shinsou Hitoshi x Reader (College AU)

Warning/s: Characters are 20+; slight IzuOcha ship; Fluff; Angst; implied Depression; may or may not been based on experience

And yes, the title is a Song by Evie Clair. You’re quirk is smth to do w/ Empath and it’s not hero material by norms.

You never expect to encounter him. Out of all the people you could’ve met, you didn’t believe you that you could met him online out of all the places.

It started when you became friends with a group of talented singers and musicians as you also joined into the fun – abeit not as talented as them, you tried your best and put your all into it. Not long after that, you began knowing the group which consists of all the previous students of Class 1-A and some other students of UA and soon, Mina invited you to join their group as an “honorary member” as you lived in another country which you gladly accepted.

Sometimes, you would join the voice call and be overwhelmed by the amount of voices blasting in your earphone. Sometimes, you would listen silently as everyone talked over each other while Bakugou screamed and make small explosions that literally makes everyone deaf. Rip earphone users. You loved and treasured these moments with them, although you didn’t know what they looked like.

It wasn’t until he joined that made you the happiest. You were currently teasing Midoriya and Uraraka, saying they were cute crushing on each other, much to Uraraka’s denial and Midoriya’s stuttering. Chuckling, you continue with your impromptu storytelling of their love blossoming until both of them are beyond speechless. You decided to stop when Bakugou joined the conversation.

“Yo, Mina invited other damn extra!” he informed in his usual loud voice.

“Kaachan, you shouldn’t talk to Shinsou like that! He’s listening you know!” Midoriya scolded softly.

You checked and someone was listening in, they had a cat picture as a profile pic and you couldn’t helped but smack yourself in embarrassment as you didn’t noticed earlier while Bakugou and Midoriya beefed it out in the voice chat. You muted them, not wanting to hear they’re yelling of being the no. 1 hero.

“I agree with you btw.” chatted the one with cat pic. “It’s so obvious, it makes me roll my eyes that they remain oblivious to each other’s feelings.”

“IKR!” You typed back, forgetting your embarrassment.

“You’re not from UA, are you?”

“No. Actually, I’m just an honorary member as Mina says since I live miles away haha.”

“I see. I’m Shinsou, Shinsou Hitoshi btw.”

“(l/n) (f/n)! Nice to meet’cha!”

You didn’t know how it happened but you felt an instant connection to him and you two hitted it off from then. You two would always chat in your private message and it quickly became unnoticed by the others, they even started to ship is and make an official name for the ship. You played oblivious as did he, although both of you already know about it.

After two weeks, he called you bb and you couldn’t helped but blush before awkwardly telling him: you really really liked him. At first, he didn’t say anything so you were half-expecting him to reject you and that’ll be it. But surprised, he told you: he liked you back. However you both decided that it’s too early for a relationship so you two now have a peace of mind that at least the other feels the same way.

It was fun, interacting with him, sending him uwus and heart memes, etc. You learned that he’s working as a pro hero while you studied in university. You learned he’s a gamer who sings, plays the guitar and ukulele ngl i can honesty see this as canon. And he plays basketball and soccer just pretend sksksksksk.

You two would schedule voice calls as you both were busy, it would always play out as – you would come home late and wait for him to get out of work as you two chatted away before actually getting in the call once he’s home. You would usually ask about he’s day and about his job and he’d reply with his usual deep tired voice that you’ve grown to love curses my deep voice kink.

This went for two months. Until one night while you were staying up late studying, he chatted your name. This was the first time he called you by your real name, usually he would call you by your username or “bb” as usual so this sudden change set butterflies in your stomach.

“Yes, Toshi?” you replied before teasingly sent, “This is the 1st time you called me by my name haha.”

“I wanted to tell you something important so I thought it’d catch your attention.”

“Well, what is it?”

“I love you.”

Without thinking you typed, “I love you too.” and sent it before realizing what he meant. “Do you meant that as a friend?” You immediately sent.

“Do you want me to say that?”

You blushed hard, you can imagine him chuckling at your stupid question. “Uhhh no??? Idk??? You’re not joking, right??”

“I wouldn’t have said it, if I didn’t mean it.”

“Really?” You couldn’t believe it so you just had to ask.

“Yes.”

“Tell it to me again plz 🥺👉👈.”

“I love you, (y/n).”

“I love you too, Toshi.”

“In advance, I’m so sorry for being a weirdo.”

“But you’re my weirdo.”

Cue squealing. But after that, it went spiraling down. A month and a week went by without communication from him; no updates, no greetings, no nothing. You decided to confront him about your concerns. You understand that he’s busy at work and you were always supportive and understanding at his job were his top priority.

But couldn’t he at least spare you a few minutes of his free time, maybe when he woke up or during his breaks. You didn’t ask for more so you were slightly disappointed with him as it worried you that he worked 6am-2am everday without holiday breaks besides Nov.1-2.

You voiced those concerns to him, he apologized and you forgave him. But this behavior of his continued on and this made you sad, other would say you’re depressed but you were too occupied with thoughts of him; his voice; the feeling he gave you, etc.

For another month and three days, you confront him again but this time he left your pm and blocked you. You panicked as negative thoughts flooding your mind.

Did you do anything wrong? You weren’t too clingy, right? Your chat wasn’t too honest, right?

You somehow managed to calm your mind after a couple of minutes and through logical evaluation and elimination, you concluded that you didn’t do anything wrong. But the questions remain: Why did he leave? Why did he blocked you?

For the longest time, you couldn’t answer that. You spend your time drifting off from reality and to your memories with Toshi while day-by-by you lessen your interactions with your online friends, seemingly just vanishing from thin air.

You felt empty, a void of loneliness filled you as you went your way through your own life, not knowing what to do with yourself or even feel. Why did it come to this? Everything went fine, you two were happy so why? Why did he suddenly leave you all alone like that?

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Today was the reunion of UA batch [number]. Shinsou stood in the far corner of the Gym Gamma, his back leaning against the wall as he observed everyone and everything. He noticed an unfamiliar yet familiar (h/c) locks, he watch as you talked with Sero, Tokoyami, Shouji, and Ojirou. You were especially close to Ojirou, you practically by his side with your arm linked with his.

He didn’t know why he was growing irritated and angry at sight of you being in someone else’s arms when he damn well know that you deserve to move on after what he’d done to you after all those three years but still… He had hoped that you actually waited for him.

You were suddenly called by Kirishima as you leaned towards Ojirou and whispered a soft ‘see you’ before walking towards to him.

“(Y/n)-chan! I want you to meet someone!” He said as he dragged you towards where a lone lavender haired man stood before running away. You opened your mouth to objects but it was already too late, he was gone. You looked at the stranger and felt that same connection when you met him, you knew. Although not having to see his face, you just knew that it was him: Shinsou.

“(L/n) (f/n)! Nice to meet’cha!” You cheered brightly, just like when you first introduced yourself to him.

“I know.” he replied. “I’m Shinsou Hitoshi.” God, why I am so lame. He thought.

“Oh! Nice to finally and officially meet you, Shinsou-san!” You smiled as you raised your glass towards him.

Why did you have to call him like a stranger? And not the usual ‘Toshi’ you would always call him?

He clicked his glass with yours and took a sip as his eyes spotted a shiny accessory on your ring finger, making his heart froze. That’s why. You were engaged. Of course, why wouldn’t you be? You were ever so patient, understanding and supportive. It didn’t even surprise him.

When you finished you glass, you excused yourself as Jirou announces the last song for tonight that is written by the guess before she yelled out your name and you climbed up the stage.

“Love do you know?

We've been growing apart

And you should know

That for me that's hard

Darling I'm scared if I let you go, oh

This will be goodbye for good

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

‘I never loved you’

And I won't say

That I knew it from the start

So you can say

That we weren't torn apart

'Cause for me, oh it's easier to bleed, oh

When I know you can sleep so I keep telling myself

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

I feel numb when the drums slow down

Oh, leave me dumb so I can't tell myself

Myself, oh

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

I already know that it just isn't true

It's easier this way

I'll spare my heart some pain

Even though I know it isn't true

‘I never loved you’.”

Part 2, maybe???

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draganimation · 4 years

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Happy Anniversary, Wardens!

It seems fitting that today of all days I give you an update as 10 years ago today, Dragon Age origins was released!

When I knew this day was coming however, I was hoping to have something spectacular to share. But I guess having at least Episode 01 already completed is enough for now! 20 minute long one’s no less!

I’m currently drawing the animatic for Episode 02, 100 pages and counting and that’s only the first minute!

With the money from my Patrons I was able to commission a composer to create the score to my first musical number of the show (if you don’t count Elanore’s lullaby). It’s me singing, so please bare with I’ve had no training haha

And now I’m just working on the audio created by my talented voice actors! And aside from you guys’ support of course, I think hearing them is what truly makes me enjoy working on this series! Sound is a powerful thing, and hearing my words and reimagined characters of David Gaider come to life is amazing! And when it’s all put together, it just confirms my passion for this project!

If I ever met a Desire Demon and was granted one wish - aside from Alistair to be real ofc! I would wish for the diligence and know how to promote this better, so I can live off the public funding to just make this series non-stop and not bring out an one episode per year haha! (and hopefully not get sued by EA or Gaider)

I’ve got alot of existentialism happening at the moment - not in a bad way, and I think I’m finally at that place where other Youtubers are where they don’t want to do anything else but working on their projects and it’s just a case of figuring out how! I was going to apply for a university course to be a Trauma counsellor, and although I love helping people it would’ve taken too much time out of my life to not be able to do work like this. And there’s always a possibility I will pick it back up again, but I love how I’m still inspiring and helping people with my art - even if it’s just a little bit!

I’m obsessed with drawing! When I’m ill, or too busy or when I need to sleep, I can’t stop! Even when I have those episodes where I just want to give up, a few days later I’m picking up that pen again and doodling away so I know I’m never going to truly stop! The same with creative writing!

This series was just a way for me to do a medieval story, that fused with my passion for Dragon Age and my love of Disney films - and to voice a Disney princess! And it’s unbelievable the amount of love it’s got back. Again, I only wish I could do more to make it bigger and better.

Oh I’m also writing 20 and 21; Team Warden are currently at Redcliffe/ The Circle (hence the pic of the Fade mouse) I do NOT want to make The Fade episode boring as it’s the WORST part of the FRIKKIN game! I’m doing my utmost to make sure each Episode stays true to the material, but is different enough to make you not want to just play the game haha (though I doubt The Fade episode will make you want to do that part :P ) I also may be making some.....side romances that not everyone will agree with, just because it just seems to be there for me so I’m going to go with it and see what happens! Who knows! Might not work out at all! But I think by now, you all know who the main pair is but just....try to act surprised okay?

Please know that i am trying to write this as impartial to my own preferences/ game play as possible and only going by what would happen if it were a Disney animation. But with a lovely dark twist of course :P

Anyway. I think that’s everything. Ugh there’s still so much to do! But if I can get this done by Christmas, wouldn’t that be great?! I am having some computer issues right now; external is dying causing my Windows to act weird, I need a new sound system because a toothpick is keeping the wire at the right angle haha and I’m not even going to go into why my state of the art recording equipment won’t work on my PC for some reason so I’m using a crappy ass mic to recording Episode 02 lines! ...okay maybe I did go into it haha

Sorry this was so long! If anything, I’ve inspired myself to restart my quest to find an agent or a PA or PR or whatever they’re called to help me promote this thing and to get me in line! So woop!

Now back to work!

Happy Anniversary, Wardens. And as always, Maker be with you!

#draganimation #update #dragon age

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bedlamgames · 4 years

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Q&A #103

Today we have the Twine conversion, lesbian training mantras, social lube, a bunch of random stuff from the discord, and a whole lot more.

[Anonymous said]: I'm really curious what the tally means for your twine conversion posts. Can't seem to figure out what its suppose to represent progress wise...

- Answered this last Q&A. Because of you asking I’ve now also added the explanation to what it’s about to every stream post so I hope that helped with understanding what’s going on with that.

[Anonymous said]: Suggestion: For races that start with a random corruption (ie: Succubi), have an option in full custom to spend points to either narrow what that corruption is (to be one of the four types, for example) or to outright pick one (for a much higher cost).

- That’s a good idea. Being able to pick specifically I think would be too much. There are ALOT of corruptions so that would mean many many menus to be able to select everything. Being able to pick one of the four types seems fair to me as something to spend points on in Full Custom. Added it to my notes.

[Anonymous said]: Have a succubus slaver who used to be a lamia. On level up, she had the option to get the Fleet trait, which I thought was off-limits for Lamia due to their body shape. I think it's a bug?

- Good spot and should be fixed as of the last update.

[Anonymous said]: Noticed a bug with No Haven 0.903: If you select a human (or once-human) for your character, and then quick restart, your next character will keep the human's Racial aspect Social Lube. On the topic of that Racial, it says " includes one human, and three other different races/subtypes gain an additional Success" Does that mean one human and three non-humans, or one human and three slavers each of a different race from each other?

-Took me awhile to work this out as going from human to human seemed fine. However you’re right that those with a heritage like demi-angels or succubi will incorrectly keep the previous racial.

The second so as long as you have at least one human you can get the buff by say having a northerner, noble, wastelander, and convent.

[Anonymous said]: hi bud, xfto/x421 here, its been a long time i guess. wanted to ask about the status of the no haven/twine conversation. i joined your picardo lately but couldnt post some reports since you dont allow guest-posts. well anyway, the report is about something ridiculous i have found after some restarts, the chosen main charakter (lamia) starts as male with the hard carry aspect(immense shaft) and different description than the ones the perks would give. 1/2

another question, feels like i asked something similiar in the past, how about the integration of different artpacks/access to older pics, or deletion of those that never get used? i guess that would requiere some more access to the game than you allow atm. maybe with twine? do you have a roadmap on tfgames or somewhere for the future of no haven? i know there are some more races you want to implement and improve some systems, but thats it, hope you are doing well in these times. 2/2

I do an update on the patreon every two weeks which is linked on the twitter. You do not need to be a patron to read these and is the best way to stay informed about what I’ve been up to. That includes the status of the conversion. To quickly sum it up;

It's at a stage where all the RAGS to Twine code conversion is basically done. What I need to do now is translate all that work into something playable and there's currently big logic issues with a bunch of the conditions and passages. So what I'm currently doing is trying to tidy up the visual look of the code with a bunch of idents with the theory that will make finding the errors easier.

Alas it’s not me disallowing guest posts... Picarto had some massive stonking issues and so they locked things down hard due to that preventing guests from chatting. I suggest a throwaway email site to get around that.

I don’t think there’s any art in the game file that’s not used as I try to keep on top of deleting the old ones. Not really down for doing art packs of the old ones as due to that not being my art so I see them as placeholder only until they can be replaced by commissions.

I probably do need to do some kind of roadmap sometime. I’m less keen as it’s kind of a dirty word these days as due to the miss-use of them by others it’s got some bad connontations, but I’m also aware the alternative which is me randomly mentioning stuff on discord/picarto streams leaves the vast majority of my audience in the dark which is also really not ideal.

[Anonymous said]: [no haven 0.903] [Crit no longer grants Bimboborn] okay, but how do I get bimboborn now?

- It’s a corruption. Specifically Blessings of Perversion.

[Anonymous said]: With the change to training where hypnotic slavers can fully embed the relevant mantras for blowjob, bimbo, and sissy training, could we also get that for lesbian training?

- Yes that’s the plan when I do the third part of lesbian training. Got a set of commissions planned just got to sort the funding and work out who I’m getting to do it.

[Anonymous said]: hey bud, x421 here, again, might be already fixed because thats from no haven .903, but i recently had the witch queen super rare quest, you might want to proof read the quest and results, there are a few typos. i really did enjoy the writing nonetheless, just a quick question about that quest, as far as i understood this one, you only change your odds of the final result depending on how good you do on your way to the final, but the reward in the end only depends on the final result? 1/2

2/2 it just dawned on me that its been a while since you made an Q&A post so i guess i ll go and lurk on the tfgames forum in the next days, just one last question: i asked early in development about camp upgrades and you were not that convinced about that stuff, i understand you want the slaver camp as some bandit camp and not some castle/bastion or whatever, but since you added camp upgrades, maybe add proximity to a certain region? or something to spend supplies and gold in a 13month+ run?

- Hah! Okay will give it another read through.That’s correct yes. There’s also rewards on the way if you Critical those parts.

There is a new gold sink coming soon in an upcoming update. I’ve also got plans for more camp upgrades coming later.

[From the Patreon]: I'm that guy you replied to about the patch notes in Q&A 101. Solid updates. Bugs in the outfit system has driven me nuts since like, 2015, has it been that long already? I think it has. I like collecting them and something always blows up. This time, I ended up with a slaver wearing both the ooze outfit and ponygirl outfit. So there's that. Also I was disappointed the new Quicker then You'd Like wasn't interactive. Solid in any case though, thanks!

- I'll get them all one day I swear! Don't suppose you remember the chain of events that led to that? New QAYL was a patron requested one with the idea of having a big pay off for playing submissive which often involves playing sub-optimally.

[From the Patreon]: 1-ive been noticing when you choose to repick choices for an slave training assignment the slave gets added to the list of choices 2-also just how rare is the post-slave princess city assignment, cause i can never seem to get it even after selling multiple slave princesses 3-another thing is that the nightly puppet-leader stat is almost impossible to get again(either that or i have bedwarmers incapable of usurping me even thought i my current stats mean i couldnt win against even the subbiest slave)

- Will check 3 as you've not been the only person to mention that. 2 I know exists for sure as other people have definitely got it. Should be no rarer than any other rare City assignment, and thanks for the spot on 1.

[From the Discord]: Top 3 Animes of the 2010 to 2020

Mahou Shoujo Madoka★Magica the series was staggeringly good. Just redefined what anime could be to me. Film is a... well it was a thing. A beautiful thing with an ending which I still quite know how to feel about.

Shirobako. It’s about creativity, craft, and about how people can come together to make something. It might not be something good, but dangit it’s been made and that’s worthwhile. It’s also from personal experience by miles the most accurate depiction of working in an office I’ve ever seen.

Oh man this is very very hard deciding on the third so pick one of the following and I could probably make a strong case for it.

Kobayashi-san Chi no Maid Dragon, Darling in the FranXX (yes really, yes even the ending), Lupin III: Part 5, Kill la Kill, Monster Musume, Flip Flappers, Demi-chan wa Kataritai, Zombieland Saga, or Kaguya-sama wa Kokurasetai.

Also while I was taking the question to mean series both Your Name and Promare are absolutely phenonemal films.

[From the Discord]: Best recent Eurovision Act

Lena. Always Lena.

[From the Discord]: What's the agricultural technological level of No Haven like

It’s not hit industrialization yet. What makes the difference is and allows cities like Aversol and even bigger to exist is that the organization of the human empire is far better than it has any right to be for the other levels of development being able to keep an incredibly complex supply chain constantly flowing even if on the ground level it barely seems to be moving at all. There are also some much, much larger farms both on the Great Plains and further to the north compared to the much more isolated single/couple of households ones that your slavers raid.

[From the Discord]: What have been some of your all-time favourite assignments, both in terms of working on them and how they turned out?

Love When Week’s End Comes for a recent one. Writing all the results in colour commentary (and all the variations for weather, events and outcomes) was a real challenge and I do like how it came out.

Witch-Queen and Arisin’ for being the first times I tried to go for a different, more potentially disturbing/freaky mood, and I’m pleased with the results.

Sable Masquerade as I really like the ‘bad end’ I came up with. Actually I like the whole thing as while the pitch from the patron obviously helped, a lot of it was inspired by a random superhero bondage party picture I saw on HF, which I decided to run with, and had a bunch of fun exploring.

[From the Discord]: Weirdest bug and most difficult bug

The one that resulted in a male wisp riding a griffon was a fun one.

Most difficult has to be the clothing management which as a previous question suggests I’ve still not entirely solved.

[From the Discord]: If No Haven was an MMO, what race/class would you play?

Kreen rogue mainly as I really like the edit I did for the portrait which MidnightonMars later translated into a commission.

If not definitely a lamia.

[From the Discord]: Knowing what you do now about the design of the game, are there any game mechanics you wish you'd have implemented differently?

Clothing management. So very much clothing management. I’ve redone it entirely twice now, and it’s still not where I want it to be.

[From the Discord]: What was your inspiration for creating the setting of No Haven? Has the direction the game has gone varied from your initial idea? If so what has been the biggest change?

- It started off with adapting the chan game Deeper Dungeons which was basically a certain popular mmo with nothing different about it outside of it being porn along with some possibly unwise options of personal abuse. I first changed it by ditching gnomes for neko which to my mind was a clear upgrade. There even used to be an examine refference in the RAGS version to suggest they’d been in the region of the dungeons before being driven out.

Then it was a gradual process of adding with the occasional subtractions to get it closer to a more Warhammer feeling setting which has always been a major love of mine when I was still doing Whorelock’s in RAGS.

With No Haven it was a case of building on what I’ve done there and expanding upon that with the race lore and assignment descriptions. Biggest was probably when I did the favoured/unfavoured stuff and added a ton of extra backstory to various races to justify the choices made there.

#Q&A

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franeridart · 5 years

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what program/brushes do you use for your art? it's so damn pretty

Easy Paint tool SAI and the default pen/brush/marker tools, mostly! and thank you!!! ;^;

Anon said:When I was a kid I would've had a crush on Akane

HECK that’s such a compliment!! Thank you!!!

Anon said:Couldn't Akane technically Control/move Kiri's hair since it's dyed? I mean it's like his hair is stained meaning it's not alive! so Akane finally warms up to him and messes with him or plays with his hair?

She can and she did! I drew her doing just that both in the first and in the fourth thing I posted about her! :D

Anon said:okay i don't know if this is coming through but i have just looked through your entire blog(can only go 4 years back) and let me just say you are wonderful, I absoluty LOVE how you paint/draw like its sooo pretty??? like dnjwcfehbi i cant describe it, (part 1) || like you are wonderful, I absolutely LOVE how you paint/draw like it's so pretty??? like dnjwcfehbi I can't describe it like it's absolutely Fabulous, Stunning, Amazing, Lovely and it looks so smoooooth like what????how??But anyways love your art and love you keep being Amazing! (part 2)

AH GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! This is such a sweet ask to get TT^TT (and you can only go 4 years back because the blog is 4 years old! Can’t believe you actually went through it all!!)

Anon said:I really love your art style and your comics are so cute and I love how you draw older Bakugou and Kirishima!! It’s all so wonderful! Thank you for sharing it with everyone!

Oh man thank you!! ;;; I’m so happy yo know you like them!!!!!! TTOTT

Anon said:the level of FLUFF and KOOKIENESS and SOFT and MARSHMALLOW and MY HEART CAN'T TOOK THIS IS is so much I could die.

PLEASE DON’T DIE I LOVE YOU !!!!!

Anon said:I love everything about Akane's au. Her, her interactions with Bakugou, how she dislikes Kirishima but is beginning to warm up to him, the boys' aged-up designs. Everything. It's all amazing. Thank you for bringing it into my life!

Nggghhhhhhhh no anon thank you for liking her!!!!

Anon said:Currently procrastinating on my essay to go through your blog because it de-stresses me and I love your art so much like seriously h e l p

GAH THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! /////

Anon said:There's something I'm not understand in your AU children kiribaku. She adopted by bakugo or she is a kid bakugou have with someone. ( I'm really really sorry for my English )

Adopted!

Anon said:Your comics are so cute and funny! I'm loving the story with Akane, the last update was great! I really like the way you draw the characters, like your style is so nice. Thanks for making my day better with your art!

G o d thank you So Much!!!!!!

Anon said:Akane is adorable, and I absolutely love the comics that you upload of her, but also on top of that your mohawk Bakugo has cleared my skin, watered my crops, and brought me back from the dead at LEAST twice.

I’M REAL GLAD TO HEAR THAT because mohawk Bakugou owns my whole soul and it’s nice to know I’m not alone in that hahaha

Anon said:What are some ways Akane messes with Kiri (or used to) when he wears red clothes? Does she often do that? Does she do it when Baku's not home, or when he is so that she can hammer in just how much she dislikes Kiri? Has she ever done anything major that caused her to be really reprimanded by Baku, but being the best person in the world Kiri did not get angry?

She really only ever gets pissy (or used to! they’re starting to get along better !!!) at Kiri when she feels jealous for whatever reason, and that doesn’t happen as often as it seems through my doodles, so it’s not like she’s always antagonistic towards him! Mostly she just ignores him, so no, it doesn’t happen often at all! And she’s never gone further than messing his hair up or tugging a bit at his clothes, since she doesn’t have the strength to move Kiri all that much haha the only reason she managed to have him fall the first time was because he was balancing already, but generally Kiri weighs way too much for her to move him around or pull at the red stuff he’s wearing enough for him to notice it all that much

anyway, Baku never reprimended her for it - not more than he did in the first comic I posted with them, at least, specifically because the damage she can make is so minor that Kiri and Baku barely consider it something to tell her off for... if she were ever to act that way towards someone she might actually hurt (say, a kid her own age) then Baku might reprimend her more seriously, but as long as she’s just tugging at Kiri’s clothes they don’t see it as anything worth fighting her over :D

Anon said:Just sent an ask, so forgive me for this one, but I'd love to get this straight: in the Akane AU Kiri and Baku graduated and share an apartment, are madly into each other, but they neither has made a move on the other yet? Perhaps that should be sad, but it's 100% adorable.

I know I shouldn’t say this as I made the au myself, but I find the arrangement pretty dang adorable too haha they act like a married couple anyway, so it’s like... pining while the rest of the world already considers them an item? and the pining is mostly about stuff like ahhhh I wanna tell him I love him or ahhhhhh god I wanna kiss him, but then they’ll fall asleep on the couch together or hold hands just for the hell of it or cook for each other or make plans that always involve each other and all in all act as each other’s partner, so it’s mostly just like *Kaminari voice* “God these oblivious idiots” hahaha

Anon said:That latest Akane comic melted my heart like you often do. Though for a moment, I expected Eijirou to say "I don't want Katsuki to be my dad, I want him to be my daddy" XD Though that would not sound like him. Props for his adorable interactions with Scarlet Death Queen Witch.

Anon you don’t get it that’s exactly why I had him say “be his son” instead of “be my dad” LMAO it was like, a conscious wording decision hahaha thank you so much for liking my girl, btw!!!

Anon said:Fran! I was just wondering if you would be willing to post your Demon Kiri and Angel Baku art on Redbubble? I'd love to buy a print of it!! Totally understand if not. Also your newer Akane comics are killing me, they're so damn cute!! So yeah love you and your beautiful art! Hope you have an awesome year!!

I CAN TRY I think I did try last time I updated my rb? But the format of the pic made it hard to use it for a lot of things so I gave up??? I can try again tho!!! Thank you for being interested in buying it!!! And thank you for liking Akane too!!!!!

Anon said:is katsuki and kirishima not together in the adopted child comics or is there gonna be a plot to them getting together? 👀

I’m not really writing anything cohesive for it so I wouldn’t call it a plot point, but yeh they still aren’t together! And I wanna have them get to the point in which they are together!!! :D

Anon said:I'm gonna die why do you do this with your adorable art my god

PLEASE!!!!! DON’T DIE!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Your Akane + KiriBaku comics are adorable and I love the relationships that exist between them. I can't wait to see more of them!

Thank you so much!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I won’t disappoint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:I love your art so much!! Especially the little Akane au (so freaking cute!!!!). Random question: if you’ve ever seen Lucifer, who do you think would fit his character? Have an awesome day!

I haven’t seen it, sorry :((( but thank you for liking my girl!!!!!!

Anon said:I apologize if this has already been thought of but i feel as though when akane gets older and if she decides to be a hero, part of her costume could include useful red objects mayhaps?? Such as a shield or daggers or handcuffs so if there’s a lack of red around her she isn’t in a complete ditch. But i love your work sm ahhh💕💕

Yes!!! That’s the plan!!!!! I don’t think I’ll ever draw a teen version of her character but I MIGHT mention this idea in the current timeline, I like the idea so much TT^TT

Anon said:Hey there, I am absolutely obsessed with Akane like I love her so much wow but anyways I was wondering if you've ever drawn tododeku/ will in the future?

Thank you!!!! And I have drawn them in the past (under my tododeku tag!) and I might draw them again in the future, though currently I’m in a pretty big izu//ocha mood so I dunno when that will happen!

Anon said:I love your art so much like??? Help???

THANK YOU TTATT

Anon said:Y'know it could be gayer c'mon

This ask has been in my inbox for 17 days and I still don’t know what it means ??? but I laughed a lot when I got it so thank you anon and yes, definitely, everything could always be gayer that’s just how the world goes

Anon said:I swear you drew an older version of the krbk kids and it wasn't a fever dream I'm currently frantically searching through your blog rn help

I DID that post is CURSED anon, you can look it up through any of the tags I used to tag it and it won’t show up it won’t and I don’t know why!! I always lose it exactly because of this reason I have zero idea why it does this but??? okay I guess???????????

anyway if you still want it it’s here

Anon said:If Akane can control red things, does she low-key also have control over things that are pink and orange depending on how reddish in hue they are? I love her btw. Such a smol bean who could probably kick my ass!

What a good question you got there!! She has control over everything that has a color that falls in the red wavelength of the visible spectrum - that does include certain tones of pink and certain tones of orange, but there’s a point where orange gets too yellow or pink gets too white that her powers stop working. As long as the red in the color is more than any other hue, though, her powers work!

Anon said: im just imagining if baku takes akane with him when he is going to work and is there with kiri and akane help kiri with his hair bc she is suffering when he tries to style it himself

Once they start getting along better Akane and Kiri actually start helping each other with their hair! They’re both very particular about it so they understand each other as far as that topic goes haha

Anon said:Hi I just wanted to say I’m really enjoying what you are doing in your latest drawing. The contrast with the thick sketchy lines and the thinner crisp ones and the spaces that have no defined line! It’s cool to see you experiment with your line work while staying true to your natural style! Sorry if this came off weird but I love seeing talented artists try pushing the boundaries of their style it’s really visually/conceptually interesting! :)

AH MAN thank you so much I’m so happy to know you like that tool TT^TT it’s really super comfy to use, so it’s nice to know someone finds it visually appealing too!!! thank you!!!!!

Anon said:Is there any chance you could make a masterpost of the aus you do? It's a lot to scroll down to the beginning of a concept u have sometimes and it can be unclear when they start

They all have a tag they’re under, tho? If I’ve made more than one post about them! I have so many AUs going around that making a masterpost with all of them is a bit... mostly so since I don’t know for how many I’ll actually go back on! But if the tags don’t really work for you (generally the link is gonna look like https://franeridart.tumblr.com/tagged/[here goes the tag]/chrono to have it in chronological order) then I can try? I can’t promise I’ll find a comfortable way to do this, tho orz sorry!

Anon said:This might be an odd ask but does Akane like Jirou? I feel like they would get along really well. And how about her grandma Mitsuki? Since she takes after Katsu who takes after her, they could make an adorably angry trio

She hasn’t spent much time with Jirou yet so right now she’s mostly meh about her (though right now she only actually likes Bakugou, and she’s warming up to Kiri, but that’s about it). She doesn’t mind Mitsuki, but she hasn’t spent too long with her either! She yells a bit too much at her dad tho, which Akane isn’t particularly fond of (protective bean that she is, she doesn’t get that that’s just their way of communicating just yet), so out of her grandparents she prefers Masaru, after all~

#fran answers #a bunch of asks i had forgotten about after closing the inbox!!!#jesus im a disaster #i was sure i had a couple asks more in here but i can't find them so...???#ah well #either way i'm sorry these took so long my brain is seriously all over the place lately #go d s #anonymous

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twin-creeks · 5 years

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🤠 get to know me tag .

I was tagged by @matchmadeinmaxis ! thank you !!

RULES : Post a pic of your simself with your traits and answer the questions!

I’ve seen a bunch of people do this already but if you haven’t, I tag @cowconuts @seraphinabelle and @darlyssims and anybody who wants to do it.

my traits are loner, cat lover and self absorbed (my traits change all the time though :p)

more stuff below!!

1. what is your full name ? sora 2. what is your nickname ? sora, it’s two syllables my guy... 3. birthday ? 2nd of august 4. favourite book series ? I don’t read a lot of book series but I do remember enjoying junie b jones when i was younger 5. do you believe in aliens or ghosts ? I think I believe in ghosts and spirits however idk much about aliens but i do enjoy alien movies 6. favourite author ? donna tartt 7. favourite radio station ? theres a local radio station that plays old malay songs and they have karaoke sessions where people can call in the station and sing. it’s all elderly folks singing off-key, it’s amazing. 8. what is your favourite flavour of anything ? i love anything matcha flavoured 9. what word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful ? coolcoolcoolccoolcccollcoool 10. current favourite song? j’ouvert by brockhampton 11. what is your favourite word ? goop 12.last song you listened to ? weight by brockhampton 13. what tv show would you recommend for everybody to watch ? NATHAN FOR YOU I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH 14. favourite movie to watch when you’re feeling down ? fantastic mr fox 15.do you play video games ? yes 16. biggest fear ? losing my glasses in after being kidnapped 17. what is your best quality, in your opinion ? i like entertaining people ?? 18. what is your worst quality, in your opinion ? selfish 19. cats or dogs ? cats, im a masochist 20. favourite season ? summer 21. are you in a relationship ? nope 22. what is something you miss from your childhood ? my grandfather 23.who is your best friend ? [redacted] and [redacted] 24.what is your eye colour ? black 25. what is your hair colour ? black 26. who is someone you love ? my cats 27. who is someone you trust ? my friends 28.who is someone you think about often ? i think about nathan fielder everyday :) 29. are you currently excited about/for something ? i guess the holidays?? 30. what is your biggest obsession ? sims and nathan fielder 31. what was your favourite tv show as a child ? doraemon 32. who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone ? my therapist 33. are you superstitious ? nope 34. do you have any unusual phobias ? not very unusual but i hate cockroaches and snakes. weirdly not opposed to spiders though.. i’m also a big ol’ germaphobe 35. do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it ? i wouldn’t mind either tbh 36. favourite hobby ? i love messing around in photoshop and scrabble 37. what was the last book you read ? a comic book called marbles 38. what was the last movie you watched ? i don’t feel at home in this world anymore 39. what musical instruments do you play, if any ? none, i’d love to learn the harmonica though. 40. what is your favorite animal ? cats and goats 41. what are your top 5 favorite tumblr blogs that you follow ? @matchmadeinmaxis , @cowconuts , @darlyssims , @seraphinabelle @pea-milk , @fourfinefreshfishforyou , @vampireloreskill i could go on... 42. what superpower do you wish you had? telekinesis 43. when and where do you feel most at peace? with my cats 44. what makes you smile? my cats 45. what sports do you play, if any? none 46. what is your favorite drink? green tea 47. when was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody? probably in school 48. are you afraid of heights? not really 49. what is your biggest pet peeve? people who only play 3-4 letter words on scrabble 50. have you ever been to a concert? ye 51. are you vegan/vegetarian? no 52. when you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? hannah montana 53. what fictional world would you like to live in? strangetown 54. what is something you worry about? my sanity 55. are you scared of the dark? depends 56. do you like to sing? yep 57. have you ever skipped school? yep 58. what is your favorite place on the planet? brighton beach 59. where would you like to live? japan 60. do you have any pets? i have 4 cats 61. are you more of an early bird or a night owl? night owl 62. do you like sunrises or sunsets better? sunsets?? but sunrises are nice too 63. do you know how to drive? no 64. do you prefer earbuds or headphones? headphones 65. have you ever had braces? nop 66. what is your favourite genre of music? according to spotify, my most listened to genre is art pop. but i listen to many different types of music 67. who is your hero? nathan fielder 68. do you read comic books? yes 69. what makes you the most angry? 3 letter scrabble words 70. do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? i like a real book 71. what is your favourite subject in school? biology 72. do you have any siblings? one brother and sister 73. what was the last thing you bought? food 74. how tall are you? 5′5 i think?? 75. can you cook? uhh i try 76. what are three things that you love? my cats 77. what are three things that you hate? my cats 78. do you have more female friends or more male friends? i have more female friends 79. what is your sexual orientation? bi bi bye 80. where do you currently live? [redacted] 81. who was the last person you texted? my friends 82. when was the last time you cried? two nights ago while watching okja 83. who is your favorite youtuber? cody ko, noel miller, call me kevin reviewbrah there’s lots more 84. do you like to take selfies? i don’t take them very often, i don’t hate it either 85. what is your favorite app? the notes app 86. what is your relationship with your parent(s) like? it’s alright 87. what is your favorite foreign accent? any asian accent, ALL the asian accents. 88. what is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? iceland and japan 89. what is your favorite number? 7 90. can you juggle? hell no 91. are you religious? HELL no 92. do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting? outer space. i’m a trash swimmer 93. do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? i don’t think so 94. are you allergic to anything? shellfish 95. can you curl your tongue? yes 96. can you wiggle your ears? no 97. how often do you admit that you were wrong about something? i don’t know??? 98. do you prefer the forest or the beach? beaches baby 99. what is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? idk 100. are you a good liar? yes maybe? it depends 101. what is your hogwarts house? i don’t really care for harry potter sorry!! 102. do you talk to yourself? yes and to my cats 103. are you an introvert or an extrovert? ambivert 104. do you keep a journal/diary? yes but i rarely update it 105. do you believe in second chances? yes 106. if you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do? i’ll probably leave it there 107. do you believe that people are capable of change? yes and yes 108. are you ticklish? yes and i hate it 109. have you ever been on a plane? yes 110. do you have any piercings? only my ears, i do wish to get more 111. what fictional character do you wish was real? all the characters from bob’s burgers 112. do you have any tattoos? no i wish 113. what is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? starting a simblr?? sounds lame but i do enjoy it 114. do you believe in karma? yes 115. do you wear glasses or contacts? only glasses my eyesight is absolute garbage 116. do you want children? maybe someday 117. who is the smartest person you know? my friends 118. what is your most embarrassing memory? i once peed at my school without anybody knowing about it. it makes a really funny story though 119. have you ever pulled an all-nighter? too many times 120. what color are most of you clothes? white and beige, i dress like charles boyle from b99 121. do you like adventures? yes 122. have you ever been on tv? we shall not speak of it 123. how old are you? 16 124. what is your favorite quote? i don’t have one 125. do you prefer sweet or savory foods? i’m a big ol’ sweet tooth

#this tag killed me #tags #my edit

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sweetbase · 5 years

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Since I'm in love with your Volt x Valkyr and Mesa x Nidus (love both Mesa and Valkyr, and I don't know how it Mesa when her hand out of her bun bun.) I want to know , how you got into Warframe and what's your favorite Warframe? I would love to see more Warframe art, that and Venom x spider gwen.

I’m guessing you were asking about how’s that Mesa at first, so I’ll show some sfm pics that were already posted but purge happend ffff that helped me during my work on that comic kinda thing;

So now you can see it is Mesa without her.. plates… stuff… but def recognisable cuz of her booty pattern and finger guns.

Atm, I’ve started to work on a warframe pic like.. yesterday ha, so you’ll probably see that soon. It’s of a character I’ve drawn long ago, but had plans to draw again. -w- I’d say it’s sfw, but who knows what others think of that xd…I’m glad you like my works btw, Thank you! c: I’ve been thinking that I should continue that valkyr×volt line lately aswell ha

For gameplay, I have a lot of fav frames xdI’m kinda a Mag main with like 5 mags in inventory ha, my new big fav is Baruuk, but I also love to play with Atlas (fun frame), Rhino (unstoppable), Khora (she’s kinda like mag in gameplay imo, so it’s good) and Revenant (op frame)… It depends how I wanna play at that moment tbh (like, if I wanna hunt, I go as equinox), but mostly these are my current favs. I also love Ivara since the moment I’ve seen her, but she needs a rework or somethin :’I

Let’s just say, for me, Warframe came into my life at just the right time.When something bad happens to ya that takes away your thoughs, makes ya sad and such, the only way to get rid of that mood and go on is to find something new that interest ya. Luckily, that popped up pretty fast for me as a steam game ad. :’d(More under the cut)

I had a dear friend, who due to her low self-esteems and need for some dick from a jerk, “betrayed” me and I saw no future for a relationship with such a person in my life. So I said farewell and ended communications with her, altho I felt sad for such turn of events, still, it was the right and only thing to do.Videogames were always a source for some healing process for me (so reality wouldn’t get much thoughts from me). Once after closing a game, I got one of those steam advertising boxes and it showed a picture of the time, when Warframe got the update with Mirage and the kubrow companions. I really disliked the looks of the kubrows (that nosehorn.. why), but Mirage’s design got my curiosity. I think I’ve made a lil search before getting the game (not sure about that anymore), but seeing it it’s free, was definitely a sign of “nothing to lose if I try it out”.Inside the game, Mag’s look with that galaxy rotating helmet was pleasing, still diggin’ it. And the fact whenever I logged back to the game, Ordis happily said: “Welcome back, Operator!” was a really good thing to hear, made me smile, it was healing for my sad, old-self back then. And I still don’t know, nor understand why they took that feature out?!?? >:U

Warframe’s designs, looks, and atmosphere and the fact that you were playing as a non-human and faceless character made me like the game more and made me stay. and it’s interesting to see how the game changes actually. it had more positive than negative updates… altho they shouldn’t have changed mag’s pull ability’s sound >:U

I’ve been playing warframe since ~July 2014.

#ask #not anon #johnnytheepic #sry for the long text #(but ya kinda asked for it ha :'d)

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hamingo · 5 years

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Tagged by @raesand, thank youu!!!

nickname: Real name is Hanna, and nickname is literally anything surrounding the word Ham. Hams, Hamma, Hamingo, Hammy, etc

zodiac: Gemini

height: 5’5”

last movie i saw: Last movie-length thing I watched was a documentary about deep sea creatures, last actual movie would have been Baby Driver

last thing googled: “Ancient Norse Apparel”. There was no reason to it I was just curious and thought “Huh I’ll bet that shit looked cool”

favorite musician: So many! Currently on a Hozier bend though.

song stuck in my head: None at the moment cause I am currently listening to music while getting ready for school.

other blogs: I have a photography blog, @dancing-flamingo-photos that I haven’t updated in a while (I haven’t been able to go out and do a photoshoot in a long time :(

do I get asks: Just about my OC’s, and Ask Games. That’s okay though, I love talking about my characters!

following: 194. I swear to god only like 30 of them are active though lol

amount of sleep: If I don’t get a solid 10 hours every night I will cry. That’s not an over exaggeration.

lucky number: Uh, none? I never had any anyways. When I have to pick a number it’s by the spur of the moment

what i’m wearing: Here have a pic

dream job: Photojournalist! It’s in fact what I’m currently working towards in school, I’m doing a two year diploma for Communications, Culture and Journalism!

dream trip: All I want is to hop on a plane with only my essential belongings without any intention of coming back. Stay as long as I want until I truly feel ready to come home, but not have anything tethering me here.

favorite food: Oh I like so many foods! Spicy and sour foods are always a favourite though!!!!

play any instruments: I play piano, although I’ve fallen out of it a little bit. I also like to sing, but that’s not considered an instrument...

languages: I’m fluent in both English and French! I can speak a few phrases in Spanish and Russian, but I wouldn’t say I can speak those languages at all lol.

random fact: If you read my tags or personal posts at all you know I have a best friend, Paige. We met when we were six years old and are coming up to thirteen years of being inseparable! All of my characters and stories have been created in association with her, whenever we play games we merge our worlds, or will make up completely new stories together :D

describe yourself as aesthetic things: Pink rose (femme, pink, slut for nature), Glass Bottles/Jars (no real deep reasoning, I just collect them), Well-worn sketchbook (I bring it with me everywhere, it is falling apart lol), Cameras (Photography!), Hands covered in flour (If journalist doesn’t work out, I’m definitely following my calling as a baker. You can often find me baking instead of doing homework oops)

I don’t know who to tag that Raesand hasn’t already, so I guess if you see this and haven’t been tagged, consider me tagging you!

#thanks for tagging me

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peerless-soshi · 6 years

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Black-and-white Tenma: half-explanation and half-theory

Because in recent updates we had a chance to see that white&black tenma - also known as a nun tenma, I guess - and it provided us some relevant info, why not write down thoughts and theorize a little bit? It’s hard to deduce much about a character who doesn’t even have a name, though we can read between the lines from her drawings. Here I am trying. Have fun, add your thoughts, play with me.

Let’s start with the most recent drawing because that was the base for this whole analysis. Who is that tenma? We don’t know, however it has been confirmed she appeared on earlier pictures. Last week DSP posted a drawing with her, where the tenma holds a doll...

Some people already noticed it so I’m not gonna get into details; obviously the doll reminds a girl who was present on one of DSP’s old banners. That hospital one.

It’s not the only picture showing the girl. There’s another one, with her on a wheelchair, and the one I can’t find now so either I’m crazy or Mogeko deleted it. I’m pretty sure there was a pic with her holding a red heart. Sorry I can’t add it. DSP is an artist of few characteristic faces so usually I don’t jump to conclusions and assume someone is similar to another character without solid proofs, but that doll is an adequate reason for me to connect these two.

So what do we know now? One, the girl appears to be sick. She’s in a bed, there’s hospital equipment and a drip around her, she uses a wheelchair. But if you ask me, it doesn’t seem to be a normal sickness... Or maybe a typical treatment, who knows? The most important part is how the room where the girl is kept has walls covered with sterile tiles or soft pillows like in a psychiatric hospital (it’s a little hard to judge), what differentiates it from a hospital room, and a big Venetian mirror used to observe the girl. Another thing is a device visible on the picture I added, looking like a speaker. Everything leads to a simple conclusion: she is not in a normal hospital, rather lives as a research object. There may be several reasons - maybe she’s a victim of an epidemic and must be quarantined? Maybe she’s an experimental object? Or maybe both answers are true and she suffers from a strange and untypical sickness which made her a guinea pig? Anything could happen.

Mystery number two is that missing picture with the heart I mentioned before. The drawing was maintained in a similar color scheme, so with whiteness of the girl’s skin/hair and red of her eyes. Now connect it with the red heart. Colors as intense as red aren’t used for no reason, almost always their job is to catch attention. Certainly the heart plays an important part in the story. One possible theory is that girl suffered from heart failure and that’s why she was hospitalized, but objectively, she seems to be a little too calm to think about her sickness. The second option, even more possible, leads us to the most popular interpretation of the heart symbol - love. The girl may be in love, probably with the person seen on the other side of the glass. Now again, we can also mix both theories and say the girl suffers from old and good love sickness, so big in Mogeko’s writing, and gave her heart to a person who later broke it and changed those truthful eyes into empty gaze of a tenma we know know.

Speaking of which...

This picture of the crying girl sinking into darkness is most likely a boundary moment between a human girl we saw in the hospital and a tenma.

Let’s focus on the next complicated issue; I called the girl ‘a human’ although there is no evidence for her to be one. DSP’s world has many, many magical races and some of them remain vague, unconfirmed. This character has no features classifying her for any magical race and it makes her a possible human, however we should wait for a clear confirmation. Especially since tenmas are more interesting. Their name consists of ‘angel’ (天使) and ‘demon’ (悪魔) and describes a hybrid of those two species. What’s so special about tenmas is how they’re children born from angels and demons. We never saw a different type of tenma because what would it be? Is it even possible?

And so we come back to the first question - who is that tenma? Or rather what is that tenma? Note that it’s possible for a human to become a demon, as we know thanks to Olivia/Kurotsuno, so maybe it’s also possible to transform into a tenma. If that’s right then the mystery of the hospital and weird experiments may be solved... I wouldn’t be surprised if changing into a half-angel and half-demon was cause by some weird scientists.

Or by magic.

Personally, I find it interesting how in the hospital room we spot decoration with sky theme. It hangs over the girl's bed and sticks out as the only colorful element of the drawing. Again, if on a completely white picture we have yellow stars, obviously Mogeko wanted to draw our attention towards them. And with whom the girl is seen after her transformation? With the Great Wizard of Stars! Don’t tell me it’s a coincidence, you know it’s not.

The relationship between the Wizard of Stars and the tenma remains indeterminate. Considering their position and the way they’re usually drawn, I assume they’re master and familiar. I also get the impression that somewhere on tegaki, Mogeko described the wizard as a father figure wannabe, though I’m not sure so don’t take my word for granted. At any rate, the wizard looks like a good guy and I trust him. He could save the girl, take care of her and become her guardian after... something happened.

The second character strongly related to the tenma is naturally Vendetto. They are seen together often; their chibi versions appear on the full drawing with the wizard, Vendetto is sketched on another pic with the tenma. Now new updates with Vendetto and the tenma showed one after the other, as usual suggesting they’re connected. Here I suggested that Vendetto looks slightly different than on other drawings and his hair is longer, so I believe it’s actually his post True End design. My assumptions are as follows: firstly, Mogeko drew Vendetto together with the wizard and because Vendetto is a mercenary, he could be hired. Obviously, I don’t believe the Wizard of Stars has something in common with Vendetto without any hidden motives - we saw the wizard embracing a body of an unknown character and it’s only logical to assume his backstory is somehow connected with current actions. For some reason Vendetto seems to be necessary for the wizard, and so the wizard may make sure Vendetto will realize his plan. Maybe the tenma works together with Vendetto and that’s why they’re drawn together? Or the three of them plan something and this thing connects Vendetto and the tenma?

We don’t have much; we know the tenma could be a human, was sick, something happened to her, could be saved by the Great Wizard of Stars, now works for him, at some point met Vendetto, perhaps in future cooperate with him. Or it’s all false. Knowing Mogeko, we will never get the answer so my headcanons may as well remain true.

PS. I wrote it in the middle of the night, forgive me any possible language mistake or mixing facts :*

#fandoms talk #mogeko #funamusea #give tenma the name because I can't tag her #my analysis

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dangan-ronpa-imagines · 6 years

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I looked in the tags and couldn't find any Koizumi x Reader and I'm so gay for her?? So I would like a thing where Koizumi and the reader come back from a walk and then they kiss. I hope that's not too much to ask! Thank you!

HEY. ITS OKAY. I LOVE YOU ~ Mod Eri

*UPDATE* Just realized its all messed up on mobile, never using Microsoft word again :’)

Youare a work of art it seems; every time she fishes her beloved camera from hermessenger bag, your eyes shine as she lovingly snaps you in candid. She canfeel herself drowning in you every time she catches you in the moment, yourbeing unknowingly grasping the world in its fingertips. This time, she findsthat saving these photos to her computer for later doesn’t quite come close topreserving you (forever, she hopes) and as her memories of you slide from thecamera with little to no hesitation, she becomes quite satisfied with herdecision. It’s a blur, close to black as the film begins to become somethinggreater, eventually fading to make way for her masterpiece.

Sheis the Ultimate Photographer after all, and if her photos aren’t perfect, thatmeans a harsh reality that the one in front of the camera isn’t … and she wouldargue you were damn close to it.

Are you taking pics of me again? you laugh, edging closer to the redhead before you. You must really like me then, huh?

It’s becauseyou have a really great smile! Mahiru says,cheeks painted with red. You know mereally well by now, don’t you?

Your eyes remain on Mahiru’s pale skin, her hand fanning thefilm despite the easy breeze. The image bends with her force, colors little bylittle appearing on the blank canvas. Her shoes begin to touch the ground,skidding across to slow down her momentum, and it would have been quite apleasure to simply stop and stare if you weren’t soaring high above the turf asif the sky was mere inches from you. However, Mahiru gets that chance, and shecertainly doesn’t take it for granted; bumps travel along your skin, a glint inyour eyes never wavering, and she finds her gaze can’t linger on anything elsebut your existence.

It’s getting dark, you murmur, followingthe woman’s movements.

No duh. I know, is what Mahiru wants torespond with, yet the fact that you stuck around for so long renders her mute.She thought it irrelevant and stupid to bring up, that the two of you nearingyour anniversary overwhelms her with hope and elation, yet she can’t help itanyway. Isn’t it kinda scary? You know…we’ve been dating for almost a year.

A year tooshort, I think. I mean, I guess it’s a bit… It’sdifficult to find words suddenly, unlike other conversations with her. Okay, yeah, it’s kinda scary…

Mahiru giggles, jumping from her swing. But it’s kind of an exciting kind of scary, right? Her handreaches out to you, warmth trailing along her veins at your reciprocation.

Oh, trust me. I’d be falling off of thisswing in excitement if kids weren’t currently staring at us. Teenagers,stealing swings from kids at this time of day? It was downright laughable tothose who weren’t familiar to the word ‘fun’.

And… that’s ourcue to leave, huh?

Most certainly.

I feel likethis day went by so fast. Is it just me?

You share a nod in agreement, emerald leaves over your headshielding the sun from your view. The view over your shoulder darkens as thesun falls behind the prestigious Hope’s Peak Academy, and you unconsciously lookto your girlfriend to remind yourself what they have in common; the spotlightwill always remain on them, symbols of an idea so bright and incredible. Yourhand intertwines with hers in response, a grin forming on the otherwise normalteenager in an otherwise damning world.

You’re amazing, you know. You stop,correcting yourself. No, you��re more thanamazing. You’re wondrous, unforgettable. You’re… I’m running out of words.

Mahiru snorts, an embarrassing factor of her character you can’thelp but love. N-No! Keep going! You werejust getting to the good ones! Her face reverts to the last time youflustered her, and it does not seem to be disappearing any time soon.

Whatleaves your lips is no better: But Ialready got a good one right here. She blushes furiously in response beforeyou lean in, your forehead bumping with hers. You catch a slight whiff of toothpaste,the winter mint a contrast to the warm spring. There are finally nodisruptions, no kids halting their childhoods to stare. Only you and her exist,yet your palm rises to her cheek to confirm that fact. Her eyes are alreadyfluttered shut in anticipation for what is undoubtedly to come, preparingherself to prove tenfold how much more radiant her shots seem to look with youin the equation.

Secondspass. …Are you gonna kiss me or not?

Her impatience you can do without, but you don’t seem to careenough. All that matters is how her lips push back against yours, hesitant yeteager for more. You imagine faintly of a candle, deciding that it so perfectlyfits the two of you; over time you and Mahiru melt so the both of you burnbrighter. Her lips feel quite nice, a concept you hope you never become usedto, and your body begins to burn at the existence of one Mahiru Koizumi,possibly the Ultimate Girlfriend. It is damn near perfect you believe, exceptshe promptly pulls away so fast you begin to miss her.

Oh! The photo!

Shoving her hands in her pocket, she pulls out one of many filmsthat remain hidden from your vision, a warm smile gracing her face once thecolors show. Of course, it’s you—nowadays, it has only ever been you—and yourhands stay still in an attempt to run them through the clouds. The chainsbecome cold without your touch, your reckless abandon akin to a child’s. You,without a care in the world, refuse that the sky is your limit. Mostimportantly, a smile stretches your cheeks so wide Mahiru hopes it will foreverstay, and for something so mundane she sure misses it already. There can be nophoto like this one; never will continuous uses of film make up for it.

This… This is definitely my favorite shotnow. She hopes there will be many more—your second anniversary, yourwedding… she wants them all.

Youwant to cry, except Mahiru already aligns her eye against the shutter and…

*Click*

#this is probably my favorite out of everything I have written #I love this so so much I hope I did her character justice #this was so damn sappy damn I LOVE SAPPY #Mahiru x Reader #Mod Eri #Mahiru Koizumi #Anonymous

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approximately forever ago (I’m real slow filling these prompts in case none of you have noticed) @alwayskels sent me this: Ginny is pregnant with Bawson's first baby and her appetite is insatiable! It turns into a thing where like fans take pics with her at restaurants #EatWithBabyBawson. It's all one big joke in good fun. Mike and the team have a field day with it.

And I have wanted to do a multimedia fic for a long long time. I sensed my opportunity and took it. This was a labor of love and I’m actually really happy with the way it turned out. Hope you like it, too!!

read on ao3 | version with image descriptions

The fact that everyone, from bloggers to commentators to fans to people who’d never actually watched a game of baseball in their life, immediately read into Ginny’s placement on the 60-Day DL shouldn’t have been such a surprise. It seemed like every time Ginny so much as changed her coffee order, the public at large was eager to dissect and discuss the incident ad nauseam.

This was no different.

Another elbow strain. Tommy John for sure. She’s out for the season.

No, it’s just a jammed finger I think. They probably wanna make room on the roster, try out some of the newer prospects in AAA.

But did you see her favor her left hip last week? Her landing was off the entire game against the Rockies. It’s gotta be that.

And, of course: Well, what if she’s pregnant?

By far, that was the most popular explanation.

If it weren’t also 100% correct, Ginny probably wouldn’t be so annoyed about it all.

Then again, the sheer number of times a possible Ginny Baker pregnancy had been rumored and reported on—She walked out of a restaurant with her hand on her stomach? Pregnant. Had a less than stellar outing on the mound? Super pregnant. Sent Mike out to CVS to get tampons because she couldn’t be bothered to pull herself together enough to leave the house? Obviously trying to cover up the fact that she was, you guessed it: pregnant—someone had to hit on the truth eventually.

It was cold comfort.

It’d be a little funny if it wasn’t her uterus constantly under such scrutiny. And if she hadn’t had all these hormones flooding her system for the past three months.

As it was, Mike was much better situated to find the humor in the situation. He was currently sitting by her side on the couch, one arm draped casually over her shoulders, reading out the responses he liked the most and counting the number of people who’d finally gotten it right. He could afford to find it all funny, though. He’d only been involved in the parts that were fun for them both.

Which wasn’t precisely fair, Ginny knew.

In the three or so weeks since Ginny’d told him the news, her husband had been on cloud nine. It wasn’t as if they hadn’t been trying for this in the general sense—they both wanted kids, but Ginny was still going strong and Mike was willing to wait—but they hadn’t put a lot of effort into it. (Aside from getting as much practice in the baby-making department as they could.)

So, Ginny’d gone off to Spring Training, not once suspecting what might be forming somewhere behind her belly button.

Not until she couldn’t stop throwing up.

It was so bad, she’d had to skip a start. She’d told Al it was just the stomach flu, and even believed it. Only his skeptical smile and insistence on a doctor’s appointment made her wonder if it was something else.

Needless to say, the skipper’s suspicions paid off. She was pregnant. Nearly nine weeks along.

Ginny will never, as long as she lives, forget the look of awe and tender devotion that took over Mike’s face as she told him, shell-shocked and jittery and still happy as hell, that he was going to be a dad.

His hand came up to cup her cheek, and Ginny could feel the way his fingers trembled. Just like his lips as he swallowed, eyes shining. “I’m gonna be a dad?” he repeated, like he needed to hear it again, just to be sure.

She nodded, covering his hand with hers, and finally letting the brilliant, excited grin spread across her face. “Yeah,” she breathed, just before he crashed into her, his lips stretched just as wide as hers.

And how could she help but laugh when he wrenched himself away, his hands fluttering uncertainly near her stomach. “Shit! Are you all right?”

“I’m pregnant, not fragile,” Ginny promised, though Mike still looked doubtful. To prove her point, she pulled him back in and set about showing him how tough she was.

Since then, Mike had been pretty reluctant to leave her side. Which made the one road trip she’d been on something of an experience. He hadn’t been able to come up with a plausible reason to follow the team to New York and Philadelphia, but Ginny had no doubt that he’d really tried. He’d had to settle for hourly text updates, and when she was too busy to reply, pumping his former teammates as subtly as possible for information on her condition. Since more than one of those teammates asked when Mike had gotten such separation anxiety, Ginny figured he was semi-successful.

Which was why she knew that Mike was secretly relieved the team had elected to put her on the DL rather than risk complications.

If she was being honest, Ginny was relieved, too. Unexpected or not, she’d already grown attached to the little bundle of cells growing inside her. Much as she loved her job, she wasn’t as disappointed to give up a season as she’d once thought she’d be. Then again, after four seasons in the show, Ginny no longer had to battle and grind and push to keep her spot in the rotation. No, she’d probably never move much beyond her spot as the number five starter, but her ERA and win-loss record spoke for itself. She wasn’t going anywhere.

Even after a baby.

So, the public could speculate and take to Facebook and Twitter to talk about her all they liked. They couldn’t change the fact that Ginny Baker was living the dream: a starting pitcher in MLB, married to the love of her life, and expecting her first child.

That was real. That was tangible, unlike all the talk currently flooding the internet.

And real life, the life where Mike’s fingers were toying with her hair and she could smell their dinner simmering away on the stove, that was what mattered.

People said pregnancy was magical.

Ginny had more than a few doubts on that front.

Going into this, she had no illusions that her North Carolina public school sex education had been anything close to adequate. Which was why she’d set out to fill in the gaps in her understanding.

(Not the process of making the baby—she had plenty of experience with that, thank you—but what came after.)

And the more she read about pregnancy, with all its potential dangers and complications—the more horrified she became.

“Did you read this?” she demanded throwing What To Expect When You’re Expecting on Mike’s cluttered desk.

He peered at the book for a second before glancing up to her, his reading glasses slipping down his nose. Which just wasn’t playing fair. He knew how Ginny felt about his glasses.

(In fact, it was potentially those exact feelings that would wind up taking all of Ginny’s research out of the realm of theoretical and landing it squarely in reality.)

“Which part?” he hedged, closing his laptop and giving her his full attention.

That was one of the things about Mike. It didn’t matter how irrational Ginny knew she was being, he always treated her concerns and fears with nothing but complete gravity. And he never tried to talk her down without knowing what those concerns were.

She swallowed. “All of it?”

“Not yet,” he answered honestly. “I kind of figured we had time on that front.” His eyes narrowed and darted down to her flat stomach before landing back on her face. “We do have time, right?”

“Yeah,” she laughed, which was apparently all she’d needed to let this pile of worries melt away for the time being. Ginny wouldn’t forget the things that’d scared her, but Mike was right. She didn’t need to worry about them now. “We’ve got time.”

But that was before she found out she was pregnant.

In the after, Ginny had become remarkably zen about it all. Sure, she’d probably see pimples in places there hadn’t been since she was an acne-prone teenager and later she’d need to pee every fifteen minutes and the mood swings didn’t sound like a walk in the park, which was to say nothing about the changes she’d have to make to her diet, but—

(And it was a pretty big “but.”)

But at the end of it all, she’d have someone who was the perfect blend of her and Mike. Someone who was proof positive of how much they loved each other. Someone to add to their family.

And that was a fair payoff for what Ginny would have to go through to get to that point, she thought.

Just. She didn’t always have to be reasonable about it, did she?

In retrospect, Ginny would acknowledge that she could’ve been less dramatic. But her whole life, she hadn’t been able to eat cilantro without thinking about the time her pop washed her mouth out with soap for repeating the curse Evan Larson had taught her in pre-K Sunday School. Now, she nearly ate half of Livan’s sopes before he remembered to tell her he’d asked for extra of the disgusting herb.

What the hell had pregnancy done to her taste buds?

She’d honestly thought Mike would find the story funny, maybe even figure out how to get it down to 140 characters so he could tweet about it.

(He’d really gotten into social media post-retirement. Eliot had been more than delighted to give him a tutorial that first winter, and soon, Mike could give the best of them a run for their money. Privately, Ginny thought he mostly used it to avoid finishing the memoir he’d insisted on writing himself, but whatever made him happy.)

She certainly hadn’t expected him to send out a panicked group text to nearly every one of their friends and acquaintances asking if they knew of her whereabouts. Since she’d been in the clubhouse, trying to keep up appearances that this assignment to the DL was injury-related, approximately half her teammates came rushing into the dining area to check on her and make sure Livan wasn’t in the process of murdering her or something.

Since the Cuban was too busy laughing his ass off at Ginny’s distress, which, while rude as hell, wasn’t going to kill her, most of them wandered off to finish their pre-game prep. Still, not a single Padre had any desire for their former captain to burst into the clubhouse in a haze of Ginny-induced panic. As team captain, Blip took it upon himself to inform his predecessor that his wife and future offspring were fine and headed home.

It wasn’t that Ginny didn’t feel bad for worrying him, but she also felt he could afford to take a step away from the edge of constant panic. Some time after that haze of blissful anticipation wore off, Mike dove headfirst into preparation mode. He called it nesting; Ginny'd call it something else. Currently, he was in the midst of trying to baby-proof the entire house and refusing to believe that they didn’t need a toilet lock for at least six more months.

(Ginny did her best to distract him when he really got going, and while there was a certain novelty in being the calm and steady one now, there were only so many times she could lure him back to bed—or the couch or the shower—without raising his suspicions.)

So, she listened to her captain and went home to talk Mike down. After all, the team wasn’t wrong in assuming it was only a matter of time before Mike burst into his former domain, wild-eyed and terrified.

When she walked in the door, it was to that exact sight.

Mike had clearly been pacing a hole in the floor, his car keys clutched in one hand, like he didn’t quite trust Blip’s report and was fully prepared to rush out if Ginny didn’t make it home quick enough. Any exasperation she might have felt faded away at the palpable fear etched across her husband’s face.

The keys dropped to the floor when he caught sight of her. In no time at all, he had Ginny wrapped up in his arms, his face pressed into her hair as shuddering breaths wracked his frame.

“I’m sorry,” she murmured, smoothing her hands up and down his back. The muscles there didn’t quite relax, so she rucked up his shirt, laying her palms against his warm skin. By degrees, his breathing evened out, all while Ginny promised, low and sure, “I’m fine. We’re fine.”

He nodded but didn’t loosen his grip on her.

“Are you okay?”

Mike nodded again, and Ginny felt the precise effort it took for him to make the high-wire tension of his muscles loosen, approaching something close to normal. She pressed a kiss to his collar bone and another to the base of his throat, waiting until he sighed.

Finally, she tipped her head back to look him in the eye. There were still more than a few jitters clanging around somewhere in that head of his, but he looked far more settled than he had been.

“The sky’s not falling, Mike. I’m not gonna tell you not to worry, but this is a good thing, what we’ve done. Let’s enjoy it.”

“Okay, Gin,” he said, nodding his agreement. He’d follow her calls for this. There was still a hint of uncertainty in his eyes, but his smile was steady.

That was a start, and, with them, a start was all they needed.

After Ginny asked Amelia to issue a statement about the impending addition to the Baker-Lawson family, she sort of expected to be done publicly talking about the state of her uterus.

She was pregnant. She and Mike were very happy about it. She and the developing fetus renting out her womb for the next however many weeks were healthy.

What else did anyone need to know?

How she’d ever deluded herself, Ginny would never know because within minutes of the statement going live, the news had exploded across the internet. It probably didn’t help that it wasn’t just ESPN and Fox Sports reporting on it. No, gossip sites and blogs had picked it up, too, and run with it.

Which was to say nothing about Twitter.

All it took for people Ginny had never heard of, people she’d never meet or even pass on the street, to weigh in on her pregnancy was a valid email address and an internet connection.

And they were all led by none other than her husband and his crusade to make #BabyBawson a thing.

If Mike was disappointed that she’d nixed all of his social media-based pregnancy announcements, he’d gotten over it quickly. He didn’t respond to every congratulatory tweet, but only because it was an impossible task. As soon as he’d get done with the last of them, a hundred more would’ve been posted.

When Ginny’d asked him to enjoy the ride, she was pretty sure this wasn’t what she meant.

But, he was happy, and it was hard to argue with that.

In fact, a lot of people were happy about this baby. People were excited for her, which was a gratifying change from the usual reaction when Ginny’s name was in the news.

It was pretty overwhelming, too, if Ginny was being honest. Overwhelming enough that she mostly elected to stay off social media.

If only her friends had gotten the memo.

Not that Ginny even minded Evelyn sharing this. It was different when it was her closest friend sharing her excitement.

Ever since she first found out, Evelyn had been her rock. Evelyn was her only good friend who was also a mom. She was the only person Ginny could talk to about all the changes her body was going through or about what to expect next.

After the requisite congratulatory hugs and celebrations and check ins, Evelyn Sanders got down to business, peppering Ginny with enough information to make her head spin. Everything from the various pros and cons of a midwife versus a doula to the nitty gritty details of breastfeeding to the best yoga positions to keep her back from getting too sore once she'd swelled up like a blimp was laid on the table.

“Oh, and we still have all the parenting and pregnancy books, so don’t worry about buying those, either.”

Ginny laughed, the weight of keeping this secret from her best friend lifting off her shoulders. “Ev, the boys are twelve! Were you just waiting for this moment?”

“Yes,” she responded immediately, setting Ginny off again. “I tried to donate them once, but Blip snuck them out of the box like I wouldn’t notice. I don’t think he’ll mind them going to you two, though.”

Blip hadn’t quite given up the dream of a baby girl Sanders, but he’d gotten much more philosophical about it all. With Ev back in school, and getting her business up and running, he could admit that the past few years wouldn’t have been ideal timing to add on to the Sanders clan. Anyway, he and Evelyn were still young; they had time.

Maybe—just maybe—by the time Mike and Ginny were done with the books, Blip and Ev would need them again.

After all, it'd be kind of nice for their families to have two generations and three sets of best friends.

So, the fact that Evelyn was ecstatic for her, that was nice to know, nice to have everlasting proof of, even if the world got to know about it, too.

And anyway, Evelyn’s online exuberance didn’t have anything on Mike’s.

He was an excited first time dad. How could Ginny blame him?

Honestly, though, it didn’t bother her that people were talking about her. Not really. Sure, it was one thing for her husband and friend to talk about how excited they were and an entirely different one for a stranger to do it. That was more than a little strange, but she’d mostly accepted that that kind of attention was a part of her life now; ever since Ginny first started making waves in the minors, people had been talking about her. If she let it bug her, she’d never get anything done.

Just, she didn’t particularly want to deal with it herself.

So, she did her best to shrug off her clogged notifications on Twitter and Instagram and go about the business of growing another person inside of her.

And, lately, fending off some of the truly ridiculous cravings that had taken over her refrigerator and life.

The cravings, when they came, were no surprise. Remember, Ginny’d done her research. If anything, she’d been looking forward to them. Someone who’d already enjoyed her food, Ginny looked forward to a period of judgment-free eating. After all, was eating banana peppers on everything for a week straight that much stranger than some of the “health” foods her trainer had tried to convince her to eat?

She knew what Mike would say, but the little disagreements were what made a marriage interesting.

But while Ginny—and Mike, who had cheerfully taken on the sudden increase in grocery store runs—took these cravings in stride, the same couldn’t be said for the public at large.

Ginny’d always liked food and had never bothered to pretend she didn’t. But, since she was a woman in the public eye, this was often treated as some sort of alien anomaly. People always wanted to know what she was eating: her game day meals, what she had on cheat days, secret diet tips.

Of course her cravings were no different.

Between Ev and Mike, people had definitely clued in and picked up on the fact that Ginny had really settled into the inexplicable cravings stage of pregnancy. There was tons of advice pouring in from all over the world. How to deal with it and what to do when they were impossible to sate. It was all incredibly sweet, even if Ginny couldn’t sympathize with the impulse to send a total stranger pregnancy advice..

Less sweet—more puzzling—was how invested people continued to be in these cravings of hers.

In retrospect, it shouldn’t have been so surprising that run of the mill pregnancy cravings had become such a fixation for people. The public at large was hungry for details—#BabyBawson had trended at least three times—that Mike and Ginny just weren’t providing. Since they’d chosen not to find out the sex of the baby, debates about possible names or future careers were too theoretical to keep anyone’s attention, and even though her and Mike’s relationship had caused something of a stir when they first went public, they’d now settled hard into boring domesticity. Well, Ginny wouldn’t call it boring, but she could see how cozy dinners at home and trips to the farmers market didn’t exactly make for riveting news.

Aside from Mike’s unbridled excitement, the only information anyone really had about Ginny’s pregnancy were the cravings. Where else would all that curiosity fixate?

It wasn’t until she came across Mike taking a picture of their grocery list, though, that Ginny realized just how fixated it was.

He frowned down at the pad of paper sitting on their kitchen table, next to the neglected bags of groceries and his keys. As Ginny started putting things away, approvingly noting that he’d anticipated her sudden desire for Nutella and bananas on toast, Mike squinted up at the overhead light and shifted, his shadow moving away from the table.

“What are you doing?” she asked, already unscrewing the jar. Why wait for toast, anyway? A spoon was good enough.

“Taking a picture,” he replied absently.

Ginny rolled her eyes, not that Mike noticed. She drifted over to his side and propped her chin on his shoulder, peering down at the phone in his hand.

“Are you seriously posting our grocery list to instagram?”

“Our third grocery list this week,” he corrected, bumping her hip with his, but failing to dislodge her.

Ginny just laughed, leaning harder into his side. She didn’t pay much attention as he picked his filter and fiddled with the settings; she was too busy planning on getting him back in bed for an afternoon nap. When he made a satisfied noise, though, she turned her attention back to the screen and couldn’t help but laugh again.

“What?” Mike asked, grinning down at her.

“Our unborn baby does not need two hashtags. It doesn’t even need one!”

He laughed, too, and kissed her forehead. “That’s not what the internet thinks, Gin,” he said, and sent the picture out into the world.

Whether he meant to or not, with just one post, Mike set off a verifiable social media movement. Seriously, when Eliot looked into it, he couldn’t help but be impressed by how quickly the hashtag took off.

The one time she brought herself to look at the search results, it was mostly full of people talking about how cute it all was, how excited Mike was about her pregnancy.

Ginny couldn’t disagree.

He was cute. Ginny’d lost track of the number of pictures of onesies and maternity shirts he’d texted her, mostly without comment but the intent clear. Still, she had every single one saved in a folder on her phone. Going to Target with him had become next to impossible since he always ended up in the baby aisle, staring in awe at all the tiny shoes and blankets and toys.

If Ginny’d thought about it, a picture of that—bearded, take no shit Mike Lawson undone by the sight of some baby essentials—would’ve blown #EatWithBabyBawson out of the water.

As it was, she liked getting to keep that part of him all to herself.

Even if the internet was blowing up with her eating habits as fast as Mike could supply them. She’d leave the social media stuff to him.

But then her teammates had to go and get involved.

Technically, there was no reason for Ginny to keep going into Petco. She wasn’t actually injured. It wasn’t like she had to check in with the team trainers or make sure she was keeping up with her workouts. Which she was; Ginny might be taking more naps than she was used to, but even pregnancy couldn’t completely erase her practically boundless energy.

Then again, she’d spent her entire adult life in and out of stadiums. It didn’t feel right to be anywhere else during baseball season.

Her teammates were generally pretty good about her and her growing baby bump’s presence in the clubhouse. There were enough dads on the team that no one hassled her.

Well, not in ways she couldn’t take.

Ginny didn’t care what anyone said. That omelette was delicious. She even got Jean-Luc to try it and in spite of his refined Parisian sensibilities, he’d admitted she was on to something.

So had every Padre that she’d convinced to take a bite.

Which was, admittedly, a pretty small group. Not that she could blame them considering how territorial she’d been over her bag of Funyuns the other day. Sonny was just too busy smarting from the way she’d smacked the snack out of his hands to admit to her culinary genius.

And really, they were just lucky she hadn’t shown up with the peanut butter and olive kick she’d been on the week before.

In protest, Ginny resolved to steer clear of the clubhouse for a while. See how much they liked having the clubhouse menu go back to skinless chicken breasts and steamed vegetables every meal. They’d beg to have her back in no time flat.

Habit was a hard thing to break, though, and the following day, Ginny found herself back at Petco Park. Frowning, she stared up at the familiar facade outside the players’ entrance. She couldn’t go inside. Not if she wanted to teach her ungrateful teammates a lesson.

So, rather than winding her way to the clubhouse, deep below the stands and concession booths, Ginny decided to stay well above ground. Cheerfully, she circled around to the front gates, calling Eliot as she walked.

It’d been a long time since she’d actually had the chance to sit and watch a game; she might as well take advantage of the opportunity. And since Mike was knee deep in edits to his memoirs, Ginny figured her beleaguered social media manager was the perfect recipient for her second standing ticket.

After all, she’d put him through quite a bit lately. Even though Ginny still replied to the tweets and Instagram posts from her friends and teammates and whoever else Eliot deemed appropriate on her own, he took care of the rest.

And the rest was substantial.

Technically, this was well above his pay grade. As Vice President of New Media in the Slater Management Group, monitoring one client’s social media presence should’ve been well beneath his notice. But Ginny didn’t quite trust the horde of interns and associates Amelia’d hired to form the base of her sports agency empire.

And anyway, Eliot was a bit of a pushover. Supply him with enough snacks, and he’d do anything.

Ginny wasn’t exaggerating. She really could only go so fast, which was its own adjustment to make. In spite of all the eating she’d been doing, she hadn’t put on a ton of weight. It was the bump that slowed her down. Practically overnight, it’d blown up, delighting Mike who already had a hard time keeping his hands off her.

Where before she’d been able to hide the swell in loose tops and baggy sweatshirts, there was now no denying that Ginny Baker had been knocked up, and Mike couldn’t be any more smug about it.

“You popped,” he grinned, coming up behind her as she frowned at her reflection in the mirror. This shirt had fit just last week. How was it pulled so tight now?

His hands landed on the fullest part of her belly, and Ginny couldn’t even bring herself to roll her eyes. Instead, she turned slightly to the side to better observe the molehill that’d become something of a mountain.

“I guess I did,” she finally laughed, leaning back against Mike. “It’s not so bad, right? I mean, as long as I don’t get bigger.”

Wishful thinking.

That’d been a few weeks ago and it seemed like all Ginny’d done since then was get bigger.

She didn’t feel slow per se, but she was suddenly so much more conscious of how she had to navigate spaces. Not only did she have to escape the grasping hands of strangers—Seriously, what about a pregnant woman’s stomach made people so eager to reach out and touch?—she had to plan her routes differently, allow herself more time to make it from Point A to Point B. Ginny could no longer slip through crowds or skip down the stadium stairs without a second thought. Maybe Mike and his worries had rubbed off on her, but she was conscious of every step she took now, careful in the extreme.

If some of her teammates were more than willing to poke fun at her for this, Ginny didn’t really mind.

After all, she was more than capable of getting them back.

(Like he could’ve said anything else when she knew exactly where he slept. Still, Ginny made sure he knew exactly how happy his response had made her the first chance she got.)

And he didn’t keep his petty vengeances to the internet, either.

He did look to it for his inspiration, though.

During the All-Star Break, for those Padres unlucky enough to neither be selected to the team nor have any real plans to get out of it, Mike hosted what he named: “Top Chef: Not-So All-Stars.”

He thought it was funny, at least.

It was less a cooking competition than an excuse to make his former teammates come congratulate him on his impending fatherhood and bring food along with them.

Ginny did taste test every dish, though. Less because she wanted to rank them and more because she wanted to see what their wives and girlfriends had to put up with on a regular basis.

Either being pregnant was messing with her tastebuds more than she’d thought, or her teammates were less of a disaster in the kitchen than she’d expected. Nearly every single one of them produced something that Ginny wouldn’t mind eating. Most of it even passed Mike’s more exacting standards.

“Did you seriously make Lorena eat this last time she was pregnant?” he asked Salvi, peering suspiciously at the casserole dish.

“Make her? It was all she’d eat for four days straight. I though I was going to have to invest in Ore-Ida to keep enough tater tots in her house to keep her and the boys fed.”

Mike still looked skeptical.

“Just try it, old man,” Ginny teased, already trying to decide which of her teammates’ cooking she was going to try next. Omar’s ropa villeja looked pretty promising. “Or Salvi’s gonna think you’re chicken.”

When the first baseman started clucking under his breath, Mike swept a mutinous glare between him and his wife, who definitely wasn’t holding in a burst of laughter, and scooped a heaping forkful into his mouth. After a long moment of thoughtful chewing, he swallowed and pronounced, “That was disgusting.”

Ginny didn’t bother reining in her laughter after that.

It wasn’t just her teammates and friends that got in on the fun, though. Ever since Mike had created #EatWithBabyBawson, people had been adding to it like crazy. Eliot always made sure to tell her when it trended in San Diego.

Which was essentially every other day.

Mostly, it was people documenting their sightings of Ginny in the wilds of the city, creating a spotty map of her movements and the evolution of her cravings from day to day.

Needless to say, as Ginny’s food swings (as Evelyn had taken to calling them) rolled on and on, there were many points of data to add. Hundreds of little incidents between Ginny and fans, all documented for posterity on social media.

And Mike encouraged them.

If they were approached in a restaurant and Ginny was feeling up to it, he always cheerfully took a picture of his wife and her fan and often even sweet talked his way into getting a copy of the photo for himself. Ginny wasn’t unconvinced he wasn’t saving them in a scrapbook somewhere.

He certainly had more than enough material.

If Ginny wasn’t feeling up to it, though, Mike was the best buffer in the world. Even if he weren’t naturally charming, he’d learned over his close to two decades in the show how to interact with fans, how to joke and cajole and make a stellar first impression without doing all that much. It was one of the things Ginny admired about him. While she could fake her way through any number of uncomfortable interactions, Mike hardly ever got uncomfortable in the first place. He was too easy in his skin for that.

Either way, the sheer number of positive Ginny-and-Mike interactions with the citizens of San Diego certainly had to be laid at Mike’s door. The bigger Ginny’s belly grew, the testier she got.

While she was always grateful for fans and their support, she was more than happy to leave their appeasement to Mike. After all, he wasn’t the one growing a whole new person.

And he was more than happy to take that responsibility. Especially since it meant he got to trawl the internet for more fodder for the scrapbooks he swore he wasn’t making.

He showed the last one to her as they sat in bed at the end of a long day at the beginning of August. There were still two months to go until Ginny’s due date, but she couldn’t imagine getting bigger. Lying flat and looking down her body, she couldn’t see her toes unless she lifted one swollen ankle into the air. Which she did to frown at how fat her feet had gotten.

She paused in this endeavor, though, when Mike waved his tablet at her. Ginny obligingly took it and skimmed over the story. When she was done, she handed it back and informed him, “I don’t even wanna know how you find this stuff.”

“Then I won’t tell you,” he replied, prompt, before raising one eyebrow at her. The grin on his face had her melting even before he teased, “Sounds like someone’s got a crush on you. Should I be worried?”

Laughing, even as a little foot drummed away inside her belly, Ginny teased, “As long as you don’t cut off my animal style fries like you did all my cheese plates.”

“Listeria’s no joke, Baker.”

She waved him off, but plucked one hand from his tablet and laid it low against her stomach. What only a few months ago had been a slight flutter against her insides had become a definite kick. Mike’s face lit up and he abandoned his device and scooted down the bed so he could press his ear to the dome of her belly. Ginny watched fondly, even when the kicks shifted to her kidneys.

“Once this thing’s out of me, I’m eating so much brie, Lawson,” she promised.

“I’ll buy up all the cheese in France if that’s what you want,”

“And the wine, too?”

“So greedy,” he laughed, lifting up so he could press a kiss against her smiling mouth. When he pulled away, he said, “Whatever you want, Gin. It’s yours.”

“Just you. Just you and this one,” she said, laying her hand back against her stomach, right next to his.

“Sounds good to me.”

By the end, Ginny wouldn’t say that she completely understood the dynamics of #EatWithBabyBawson, but she’d also accepted that that was okay. It didn’t matter that she had no clue what most of these people got out of it.

There was something, and it didn’t matter that she was on the outside of it.

What she did know was how lucky she and her unborn baby were to have so many people in the world who cared so deeply about them. These were good people who wanted only the best for her and her family, and were trying to make sure, in whatever small ways they could, that she had an easy pregnancy.

(And if she got some excellent restaurant recommendations out of it, that was just a bonus.

Ginny’d be lying if she said she didn’t go out and try each and every one of these. They did not disappoint, either.)

So while her cravings had settled down and she was back to mostly eating like herself, she still appreciated the fact that people took time out of their day to worry about her.

These were good eggs. Ginny didn’t completely understand them, but she was grateful for them nonetheless.

Which was why, even minutes after her water broke, while Mike dashed around the house collecting her go bag and going through his three separate checklists, Ginny sat down at the kitchen table.

Waiting at her place was the snack she’d just made for herself. Nothing fancy— the opposite of fancy, in reality—but she’d really been looking forward to eating it. Maybe it was the prospect of her own child’s nearing due date, but Ginny’d been thinking about her own childhood lately, and an after school classic sounded delicious.

She was just coming back to the table with a glass of water when she felt something wet spill down her legs.

Frowning at the still full glass, reality didn’t set in until Mike cursed behind her.

“Did your water break?” he asked, faint.

“I think it did,” she replied.

And he was off, leaving Ginny to contemplate her uneaten snack.

Mike rushed back into the kitchen, looking pale and eager and vaguely nauseous, just as Ginny fished her phone from her pocket and gingerly eased into her waiting chair.

“Ginny, what are you doing?” he demanded, sounding like he’d love nothing more than to pick her up bodily and deposit her in the car so they could dash off to the hospital.

“Taking a picture,” she snarked back. Her fingers flew over the keyboard as Mike shifted impatiently at her side. Once everything was just how she wanted, she tapped the screen one last time and sent the picture out into the world.

Only then did she turn to look at Mike and, with a smile, say, “What are you waiting for? Let’s go have a baby.”

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courage-a-word-of-justice · 6 years

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Apparently there’s a bonus if you watch until the end of the 5th ep of Netjuu no Susume…I’ve seen it, or else I wouldn’t be telling you it exists.

I’ve rolled out the simulcast commentary tags for the seasonal shows that don’t have tags yet (aside from Netjuu no Susume’s replacement when that time comes).

Plus, as you can see in the title…there’s the Boueibu OVA in this bundle of notes, for completion’s sake.

Houseki no Kuni 3

That snail sure is a lively thing.

Really? A poop joke? Well, that’s one way to rub Phos’s new state into Dia’s face.

…welp, not much to talk about this time, I guess.

Houseki no Kuni 4

What the heck? The snail has a type???

This OP is lovely. Its best aspect is the visuals, though. It sounds kind of plain compared to even Saturday Night Question (Netjuu no Susume).

That snail makes a nice wig for Master Kongo, doesn’t it?

I’m listening to this show for the first time, and Phos uses “boku”, interestingly enough.

The snail's urge to go back to its home in the sea reminds me that lots of Chinese people go back to their country for Chinese New Year. I wonder if the same sentiment is involved in both instances?

The ED is nice, but not as good as the OP.

Houseki no Kuni 5

Watermelon? I feel sorry for the gem which has that name.

Ahh! These jellyfish are cute (and practical)!

“No getting all weak-kneed now!” – Says Phos, who’s got legs potentially harder than their body.

Houseki no Kuni 6

Trust exercises. I did some with some members of my anime club once. (Haha.)

I noticed the spikes were blue, so they might be Sapphire. It’s kind of like Rabbit’s necromantistry (Juuni Taisen), but…in a slightly different form.

Girls’ Last Tour 3

Kanazawa???? *thinks about King’s Game, where the protag and the author share the surname Kanazawa*

There’s some extremely glaring CGI during this episode. For a moment, you can discern Chi’s made of CGI while in her Kettenkrad.

Please don’t ship the grown man with the loli.

That’s some grim humour they attempted with Kanazawa. Kinda like Zetsubou-sensei (Nozomu Itoshiki).

Boueibu OVA

I almost wasn’t going to cover this, because it’s an OVA, but hey, why not make an exception? This may be the last time we Boueibu fans can talk about this stuff again…(Plus I think I’ll have volume for the entire thing if I hurry.)

Haha, the volleyball scene. Notice En talks first.

Yumoto’s being basic as always. *sighs happily*

Trump, eh? The word for playing cards is trump, but…y’know?

(about “graduating in a storm of cherry blossoms” and En saying it sounds lonely) I was just about to say that, En. However, that may just be OVA feels speaking.

Itsumo Ichiban? Rememer that guy? Well, there’s Itsumo’s brother on Kin-chan’s list. You can tell because he’s literally Itsumo Nisan. Geddit?

(about Zundar’s meeting with Kin-chan) The manga! It was correct after all!

Yep, that’s exactly how it went 2 years ago. In fact, I think it might be recycled content…(?)

Wombat speaks very formally. I learnt about keigo in the past year so I only picked up on that this time around.

The word used by Aki is “sad” according to the subs, but hazukashii means “embarrassing”, which puts a new spin on it.

They’re literally just using montages of s1, which is why I want Pony Canyon to bundle the OVA with s2. It’s more money, but for the consumer, it’s more worth it. However…having Bi…Egoism in an anime segment at all is new.

Akoya must be popular in the fandom. Either that or the staff are acknowledging how unloved he is.

Yay! It’s Star the VEPPer!

It’s good that each of these side characters is getting their own montage. Plus we’re getting official translations of the character songs, which is the best thing you can get for free when character songs aren’t distributed normally in most cases.

4th wall breaking! I guess you never expected that, eh? (Actually, you probably did, considering it’s been a montage for almost everyone now.)

(I love En’s little snarks in the middle of the song.) The only one left after this is Atsushi, right? Update: Oops, forgot Kin-chan. Sorry Kin-chan.

I never really realised Atsushi’s song was so hard rock compared to En’s more pop-like one.

“But do I really have that fire inside of me?” – I think I heard the song go atsui which is a real funky (in a good way) pun on Atsushi’s name.

Aww, they missed out in such a good pun! Haru went haru and Aki went aki. The translator didn’t pick up on that though…aww.

Whoa! Yumoto got all scary! Botan Yuzuru though…gotta look into that later for magicalgirlsandcerulean.

This (Spanish?) guitar reminds me of this track from The Dog Island.

A-ha! This is what you get when you translate the Japanese in the ads too.I was quite right indeed, although it really is the dang 132nd graduation ceremond.

It’s literally a button monster. Don’t wanna mash his buttons! (I bet you’re all groaning from my jokes, ahaha…)

Dadacha’s voice sounds kinda ridiculous now because Yasumoto is clearly using the deeper voice he normally uses for Zundar.

Notice the monster’s face is made from the character 高 (the first character in the Japanese word for “high school”).

Salty Sol is still salty after all this time…sad life.

That train station is the same one from the beach episode!

I’ve seen enough spoilers so I know where this is going…I already identified in the spoiler chat what Wombat is going to catch as a reference to a Kenji Miyazawa work.

This train is somewhat obviously CGI…

Spinach curry? When’d Wombat eat that?

Ths slideshow appears to be all the clean art for everything they’ve ever produced in the Boueibu canon! Even events and collabs!

“So wipe away your tears.” – I’m not crying, you are…*tear leaks from corner of eye*

I don’t recognise two of those pictures…(EnAtsu beach pic and a yukata one with the Defence Club on the roof.)

Oh…my…it’s over? Well, frankly I was expecting the fandom’s end in 2015…so, here’s to the future. Farewell, and remember: love is forever! Separations are only a new beginning!

Netjuu no Susume 6

That was a really bad Glico man in the back (of Koiwai)…

I think something’s wrong with my eye. It just gave off a few tears…(kidding tone)

Whose car is this that Morimori-chan is sitting in??? Update: It’s a taxi. Whoops.

I think Morimori-chan used the word douryou (colleagues, coworkers) instead of employees. The word for employees would probably be very different.

Nikunokiya??? (thinks about Kinokuniya)

(Koiwai goes Ai no chikara ne…) Boueibu reference…kind of.

Notice Koiwai said he was low on health in the text but he said zombie in the Japanese. That’s where Fruits de Mer comes in for Morimori-chan.

“There’s no way I’d say something like that!”

I think the cup this ED is new. Plus the headphones.

Oh! I spotted Morimori-chan with the medium length hair in the background of Sakurai’s bit of the ED.

There are some blurry pictures of Koiwai in the ED and they’re so hilarious!!!

So the ED actually evolves along with the show. Interesting.

Juuni Taisen 7

Rabbit stores his blades in his tail. That’s weird, but funny.

Literally, the episode title is “Dragon Head, Snake Tail”.

Dragon and Snake really are like the Beppus! I keep thinking that. I want a crossover fic now…

Tatsu = dragon.

I only just realised but…a naga is a snake. Nagayuki is the younger bro, isn’t he? Dangit, Nisio Isin! You bested me again.

150 doesn’t have any significance in regards to the number 12 now does it?

It’s Rabbit! Who’s not wearing his trademark booty shorts or high heels! Rabbit in a waiter’s outfit is really something, though.

“Hot guy”? Not by most people’s standards Tora/Kanae, considering he’s currently missing his head.

It’s tiger versus…aww. It’s not tiger vs dragon…

How can Ushii still talk after being strangled by Snake’s arm???

Whoa! Incendiary components are cool in Bond movies, but fiery liquid? That’s a step up!

Mahoutsukai no Yome 6

Admit it. You saw it in the next ep preview (unless you skipped it or read the manga)…It’s TITania time!

“She touched me for the first time.” – Elias, what a dork you are…

The birbs around Chise are so fluffy and adorable! It’s cute.

Geez, it really is TITania…these fanservice wiggles are destroying my Mahoutsukai no Yome experience…

Seing the Faerie Queen facepalm…is something else. *sweatdrops*

In the same way I want a koala sheep from Avatar the Last Airbender, I want one of those sheep bug things.

“Every creature of the night, including she and you, are my adorable little children.” – No wonder you have such big hooters, TITania…

A wild SIMON appeared!…Thought we’d forgotten about him for the rest of the episode. He would’ve made a better brick joke if his return were prolonged, y’know.

Strange question, but do priests wear pants?

Girls’ Last Tour 4

I’m listening to Ugoku Ugoku for the first time and it’s…strangely catchy…

That thing with the face is really creepy…

That thing is a stone statue???

“What IS cheese?” – Considering sometimes cheese tastes pretty bad, I don’t blame you for not knowing what cheese is.

Couldn’t they check the camera for what Kanazawa was doing with it?

I just saw the number 3230 on the camera’s inside frame for taking pictures (whatever you call it). That might be the year this show is set…

Notice the word for temple that’s used is jiin, a Buddhist temple. A Shinto version of that might be jinja.

Kanazawa was voiced by Akira Ishida? The guy who did Kiku (SGRS)??? NOOOOOOO! I missed a prime opportunity! I’ll have to go back for it later.

The ED is even more catchy than the OP. Is that even possible???

The camera breaks in the ED…that’s so ominous…

That post-ED scene was cute. A little bit.

Girls’ Last Tour 5

The slightly-electronic-sounding OP doesn’t quite fit the show, does it?

The phrase used was definitely ie dake ni. I’m not quite sure what that means, but…okay. I’ll just believe the subs on that one.

I wonder if Sentai is planning to dub these…I can imagine this show being dubbed.They wouldn’t need to pay too many VAs for it, for one thing.

Akogare is the word for desire or longing. It would be no surprise f there was an akogaru or akogarareru made from it as well.

Notice it’s “Yay!”, but with the word for house (ie) emphasised.

What is this fish dream, a metaphor for lesbians…?

The soundtrack guys must’ve had lots of fun striking cans or whatever.

I think this ED is different to the one last ep…Its name appears to be Amadare no Uta and it’s sung by the main VAs.

I bet the soundtrack guys hit a bell or two there…

Girls’ Last Tour 6

Oh no! It’s an Anime Scientist! Last time we had one, it was Shinawa (Kado), and you know how badly that went…

Interesting that the word for “takeoff” is “separation [from the] ground” literally.

Okay! I’m caught up to the weekly episodes now!

#simulcast commentary #girls' last tour #boueibu ova #boueibu #binan koukou chikyuu boueibu love!#binan koukou chikyuu boueibu love! love! love!#mahoutsukai no yome #ancient magus bride #juuni taisen #netjuu no susume #recovery of an mmo junkie #houseki no kuni #land of the lustrous #chesarka watches juuni taisen #chesarka watches netjuu no susume #chesarka watches shoujo shuumatsu ryokou #chesarka watches houseki no kuni #chesarka watches mahoyome #battle lover simulcast

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nachtvlam · 5 years

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(4/4) Life Update

Okay I guess my mistake I don’t update this blog often. Please root for me that I do, who knows what improvements I have on my mental health.

Okay I am writing this in the midst of waiting for my classmates to finish voting of a poll, and my mind is thinking for writing the coming announcement. Lets breath and focus in the moment here. I am listening to My Mix on youtube, while accompanied by coffee, bread and fries.

Right this evening I went with my friends with fries and then saw a rainbow before being showered by hail.

Recently I thought is it better to be in a bliss that I did great and nothing’s going to go wrong. It does feel wrong and betraying my actual anxiety riddled self, but after doing this for almost two weeks I think there’s nothing wrong with the lies of positivity. It felt great actually. To keep going and not bothering about small tiny things. It feels such a waste of time. To overthink and depressed about it. Sometimes I felt really okay and managed to other myself from that depressed self. But it’s not easy to keep it up, some nights I just go back and plunge myself in the deepest of my thoughts. Gosh that felt wrong, especially after last night, I am still that same person. I haven’t been that improved and can’t laugh and detach myself from that depressing version of me.

But I am improving. Slowly. And I can’t be cocky about it, whenever I felt those moments of being really okay and othering myself I ended up drowning even more.

It’s not easy but I have to keep going. And I am getting better. I am improving.

Anyways so a lot been going on these past days. These are the highlights, all the good and the bad.

I (hope so) have developed a hobby of visiting the parks on the weekend. Last week to Dyle park, two weeks ago to Abdij van Park. I have decided that I can’t be on my own in my room, in order to fight depression. And since I don’t have friends then I shall visit the parks or places that are calming to be alone and have picnic or read books. Besides it’s free. There’s many places in Leuven that I haven’t visited, so I have to get to know every corners. The thrill of visiting new places and the calm and the freedom of it made me look forward for the weekend. During those times I felt whole, surrounded by beautiful things and made me think of positive self reflection.

Do you think the sentence that goes along with ‘I shouldn’t be depressed, there’s many beautiful and great things around me that I missed and should appreciate” could be misleading? Sometimes I do felt like that when I am happy, but when I am down I felt this sentence has no effect, made me sadder even.

My friend said that she thinks about puppies when she felt sad, that made her feel better in instant. I have yet to found something that makes me feel better (the great and shocking kind) when I am sad.

I do found something that motivates me to keep going: my parents. they fight every seconds for me to be here. i probably won’t be here if they’re in such sorrow like me. I can’t go down, not yet.

So continue on

I am going to watch Ex:Re aka Elena Tonra this weekend! <3 I just knew about the concert this week, even just figured out this solo project of her! The ticket has sold out but I was so lucky to find someone who’s willing to sell their ticket in a lower price!

Gosh it is so hard to stay positive while writing this post. I kept manipulating my mental and toying my feelings. It’s like I am on a shaky bridge between depression and positivity. Yes I guess that describes my current mental health right now. I need to start appreciating myself and my mental health. How to stop your self-destructive self? How to tell yourself that what I am doing to myself isn’t some sort of joke or experiment? That all this have consequences. Look what I have become. I am sick and my mental is deteriorating, I have to stop, I have to fix this. I need to get better.

Went to two interviews. One about being a staff in a burgerking outlet. The manager totally reject me but she said I should call her in May, very kind lady. The other is an internship but they thought my biochem knowledge is useless. But hey they need a graphic designer! So I should mail them again about my design expertise. Other than these for my job searching updates, I got accepted as an Indonesian tutor in tutoroo, lets see if anyone in this bloody country actually want to learn Indonesian. Then studaro finally contacted me! As a pre-sale consultant, more of my biosci stuffs, but their location too far away and they’re not giving me transport compensation so yeah. They contacted me again, this time as an IT guy. I haven’t got an idea of their programming language (C#, MySQL) etc but I just said yes and hopefully I can master the stuffs before going to the interview!

I haven’t continue job searching and focusing on the studaro and this internship. hopefully I get at least one. To cross that huge cliff and actually get a job. Please god I am broke sad and depressed. I got breakdown whenever I am about to do a job search so hopefully whatever I am processing now I get one!!

Productivity side, I managed to cross 10 chapters on my ongoing mystery novel. I really don’t know where I am going with this.

One night I was super proud of myself, that my novel actually going somewhere and then yeah I got really depressed over it. But right now I see this as something positive. I thought it was sad that all the things that I wished to happen here doesn’t happen and I have to write it in my own novel. That I am so alone that I pour it in my characters. For a short while I didn’t write then I thought if I just let all these disappointment and sadness inside me then it’s bad for my mental health. Then my novel is my way of healing, to turn my pain into something beautiful. And that is fine.

I write an article about Indonesian Day. And the people in my group loved it! I am so happy, although they didn’t promote it in instagram For Some Reason. Currently I am working on a map about Leuven, for my student publication team, The Voice. Although I am doing it pretty lazily because I don’t think they appreciate my work. LOL. I thought I’d be close to them.

sighs that’s one thing that been bothering me. I have been trying so hard to get close to people but they never consider me. I miss my friends last semester, those who actually want to hangout with me. Why they have to leave so short. Now whatever I do, I haven’t got any new friends and always ended up alone anyways. Feels so futile do I just stop trying and just be alone. Because I’d really love that. But then how would that be different than being back home where I am always alone because nobody even try hanging out with me (I still despise everyone back home vehemently). But trying is so hard especially when I fail. I am not good at it. I am so heartbroken at people who don’t want to get close to me. Recovering from it and searching for new people is hard. And I have already been into so much organisation already. But I have to keep trying.

I am working on a logo for intal but they not seem to like it LOL I have been half-hearted doing it anyways but their proposed logo is so laughable. i really hope they just accept it this time. other than that no I don’t have any much project. There’s still writings coming up for the Voice and I was so motivated about it but after I think about it, nope.

Talk about Intal. I was in my first humanity march in Belgium. My first march is about pride, but this time is about racism. It’s march against racism!! In Brussels! And damn it was a lot of people!! I wished I can write it but again the editorial in my team isn’t that great, anyways I still need to post pics about it. But wow finally I am doing something!!

I keep missing out great stuffs, it feels like my membership in Intal is futile, quiet disappointed. It sucks being in the sideline when all the people fighting for it you know? While I wait for intal, I’ll keep looking out for more actions that I can join. I really don’t want to be that kind of person who is only loud on the internet. I feel like even though I am already in an organization, there’s still a lot of stuffs that is happening to me. Imagine my life going normal and others are actively fighting about something and have time. I feel ashamed, and gosh how do these even have time and know about these events?!

Gosh I already wrote a lot. One more thing I believe.

I guess there’s a reason I have been holding it out. Question, can a guy and a “girl” just be bestfriends without calling it a relationship? Yesterday one of my classmate that I am rather close with just confessed indirectly that he’s interested in a relationship with me. Why it have come to this? My classmates were teasing about who are future couples in the class. Since this rather close classmate happened to be a guy, they thought we’re one of the candidates. So this guy classmate said about those things, including called me cute. This doesn’t bother me at all. When being teased I told them “I don’t know” not because I am interested, it’s because I am ashamed and seriously you can’t just let your mate down when being teased such things. Honestly I felt so confused and disappointed. We have talked about having a girlfriend or a boyfriend, I told him about all my crushes. Isn’t that enough of a sign that I want a relationship with someone else? Honestly I haven’t felt close with anyone in real life other than him. I am really comfortable with him and talk about all stuffs. Besides in this lonely place, I have no other choice than confide to anyone that letting me. I sound really selfish. But I do understand him and he has taught me about dealing with people more than other people. So seriously can’t we just be close like this, knowing each other as whole and not in a relationship? I haven’t said this to him. I haven’t said it clearly that I don’t want to turn this into a relationship. But what if we stopped talking afterwards? When he’s the only person around? Today is the first day after the teasing thing and it’s so weird that we walk around and sitting next to each other in class, even text each other more. It’s like I kept giving him positive signals. When normally I don’t even bother sitting next to him in classes nor talking to him. Hopefully tomorrow things just gets back to normal and we can ignore whatever happened yesterday. Hopefully this is better than flat out addressing him the issue of just wanting to be best friends.

ANYWAYS, so yeah lets talk about my crushes. I’ll do this in the next post I guess since it has been too long? Ciao!

#april #life

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arkus0 · 7 years

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Goodbye Archie Comics Part 1 by Arkus0

Changed my mind about the Archie tribute and decided to have them be two separate pictures instead. Like many fans I was saddned by Archie and Sega ending their comic contract and cancelling the Archie Sonic the Hedgehog series as well as Sonic Universe. I can't help but feel this will also soon happen to the Megaman comics if it hasn't already. I am sad that after such a great run that it has to end, even though it was very close to a milestone issue, but at least they at least waited until they completed the current story arcs in both the main comic and Sonic Universe. While many had mixed feelings over the quality of the comic's stories near the end, especially after the Pendering and Super-Genesis-Wave rebooting the series, personally I liked where the comic was going since it was incorporating more elements and settings from the games, introducing characters from less common animal species and giving obscure characters from past Sonic media excellent updates. I wanted to draw something to show my appreciation to a comic series that has greatly inspired much development for my own fancharacters and whose artists helped me develop my art style (by basically emulating them). It was difficult coming up with an idea to express my feelings towards the comics and the great characters it introduced (or carried on from the cartoon), who should I draw? which of my characters should interact with them? should it be nice and simple? should it be and epic project? etc. I settled on drawing a simple scenario with three characters I felt best represent the comics and my personal favourites, and only chose two of my own to interact with them. In this pic I had Umbra who is my main Fan Character shaking hands with Sally, wishing her the best for what is to come. While Ruby would of been a good choice instead of Umbra, I felt using wolf boy would better represent me in this situation (plus I've been using Ruby too much lately ). What are my thoughts on Sally overall? I like her, I feel like she's the face of the non-game Sonic cast and she was a good leader type I've used as an example for Ruby's own leadership in her stories. I wasn't around to read the "Dork Age" in the comics as fans called it, during which Sally went downhill in her characterisation (The infamous Slap, chickification, etc), I came in sometime after Ian Flynn took over writing and was in the process of cleaning up the mess left by previous writers, so I'm more familiar with his Sally who was more than just a Princess/love interest for Sonic, but who was the leader and caring friend of all the Freedom Fighters. I greatly enjoyed how after the break-up she and Sonic were slowly and gradually fixing their relationship (first as friends, seeing other people, etc), rather then jumping right back into it. And the whole Mehca-Sally Arc was a great twist to the status quo that had me wondering how they were going to save her in the end, before it got cut off by the reboot *sigh*. As for her new design, I quite like it, especially the new ring weapons she has on her wrists, it gave her a unique fighting style that made her stand out amongst the other heroes and made me grin as it was a little similar to Umbra's Omni Rings in a way ^^ . I surely hope that the fact Sally was originally from the Sonic SatAm cartoon and not the comics means there is a chance she'll show up in the IDW comics due to come out next year. If not then I guess this is goodbye to Princess Sally in an offical sense, but I'm sure dedicated fans will continue to create great artwork and write stories about her for a long time. In part 2 Rej expresses his feelings for my two favourite ladies from the comics.

#umbra the wolf #sally acorn #archie comics #sonic the hedgehog #goodbye archie #sega

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my-simension replied to your photo “lordofsunshadowandsailor: The recent freedom of spending his days on…”

Great pic, the room looks real!

It almost felt real when I was taking the pics… I could feel the steam coming from the showers, and the smell of their sweaty clothes impregnated with chlorine from the swimming pool, and humidity on old wood and papers, rusty metals and greasy wall tiles… Still, none of this gets into the text, for it is more about Tobio and his struggles than the sites where his struggles happen…

my-simension replied to your photo “lordofsunshadowandsailor: Tobio, brought up in the fear of God,…”

I love that towel around his hip OO

the towel is @venusprincess-simblr and it can be found HERE

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “And from the top of the wall – tall like no other building he ever saw...”

Oh!!! Time to make a coffee and kick back with your story :D

Love this image... It feels like you actually have a book of mine in your hands... Maybe someday :)

simblu replied to your photo “In his dream, recurring dream, one which follows him from the first...”

Ah..so beautiful

Thank you dear!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “In his dream, recurring dream, one which follows him from the first...”

This is Alvar?

Nevermind - I misunderstood the first sentence.

Interestingly, I have rewritten this sentence a few times, and alternated Tobio’s name in each one of the three available positions... Maybe my choice did not leave it clear from the start who the dream belongs to, and who it is about...

simblu replied to your photoset “Like a sleepwalker, up and down massive dunes he travels across the...”

You know, I realize, only because you've told us, that English is not your native language..but one would NEVER know this from the masterfully poetic way you write this story.

Thank you dear. But I guess I’ll always feel insecure in English. I have no intimacy with the language, and I know it. But I guess I feel insecure about my writing even in my own idiom, and I guess that is a writer’s thing -- and a good thing too, as long it feels challenging and doesn’t keep one from writing!

simblu replied to your photoset “Like a sleepwalker, up and down massive dunes he travels across the...”

also, if I may be stoopid..this is post #69 for your story..i think certain of your readers..not me..were expecting something "commemorative" of this number.

This is the second #69 of this story, since I restart from #00 with every new chapter. But I do understand you, since we left Alvar and Tobio making out at #66, and declarations-of-drama raised the expectations about post #69... I wasn’t going to make Tobio’s dream last so long, be just a few pictures in the update of their encounter, but you know me... The pictures from the desert sequence looked nice, and I love going into the inner world of my characters more than anything, and we’ve seen the result here.

We’ll have something sexier now, but an actual 69 was never intended for Tobio and Alvar! But there will be other #69 posts along the story, and who knows what might happen with other characters?

declarations-of-drama replied to your photoset “Like a sleepwalker, up and down massive dunes he travels across the...”

Yeah a great interpretation of a dream. Lovely work x

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “And yet, in his dream, recurring dream, Tobio keeps walking like a...”

This needs somebody to do a dream reading :d

This is Tobio tentatively applying Dr. Freud’s revolutionary techniques of interpretation of dreams, that he has just read about, to try to understand and reveal his unconscious desires and thoughts... But I know even less than Tobio, so let’s wait for his own conclusions...

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “Scattered in this desert of his lay several ruins, of houses he...”

Poor tormented Tobi

I agree. And since part of his experience is based on my own feelings, in a certain time of great torment in my own life, I totally empathize with him.

omgdoubleume replied to your photo “With years of dreaming, the parched landscape of his desert – and the...”

Aww.. I love this part

And to think this part was never planned to happen! I was going to share Tobio’s dream in a paragraph, and the picture would be of Tobio and Alvar making out... But I decided to try photographing his dream, and this was the outcome. I’m happy that you like it!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “With years of dreaming, the parched landscape of his desert – and the...”

Sadist Hosts! Wow, amazing writing techniques here x

Tobio is a hostage of his own destructive feelings :(

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “Until one day – for it is constantly daytime in his dream – for the...”

Until he could go on no longer. . . The wall represents the edge of his universe - it stops him from escaping the desert?

Truth is... I visualized Tobio’s dream, and then, with TS3 elements, just took some screenshots of it, with the poses and CC I had already installed...

But I must say I am not sure what these symbolic things mean. Is it too crazy to say I just wrote it down? Almost as words were being dictated? And somethings I can’t interpret or clarify since they are not clear for Tobio himself... I don’t feel like the almighty creator when I write, but much more like a vehicle to the story... I am Tobio in this scene, and his confusion is, to some extent, mine too.

So as a reader you can interpret it as you like, and it will be correct, too!

simblu replied to your photo “It was then, for a while, that he started going to bed actually...”

Wondering if you have ever engaged in lucid dreaming....where one learns to control dream scenarios while still immersed in them. This sounds like that may be happening with the new start point of the dream.

Have you? I did some Dream Yoga -- and Goggle tells me “Tibetan Dream Yoga is the original form of lucid dreaming documented for at least 1,000 years.” So I guess I did... But Tibetan is not the form of Buddhism which I used to practice -- Zen was --, and it did not last longer than a retreat I took with a Tibetan master...

It’s interesting that you have mentioned it, for I intend to get Alvar involved with Tibetan Buddhism -- I have already mentioned it en passant, the period of time he spent in Sikkim --, but not Tobio, so maybe I’m mixing things in this dream?

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “It was then, for a while, that he started going to bed actually...”

*passes a rope*

Love that :D But as you have already seen, there was a much easier way up reserved for Tobio...

simblu replied to your photo “Impassable it appears to be, as he stands paralyzed at its bottom. ...”

Reminiscent of a de Chirico..those colors, the lone figure..

You’re very right and that’s a lovely association, though I didn’t think of his paintings while creating this scene... For LoSSS, I’m taking many references from cinema, and I was thinking a bit of Bertolucci’s The Sheltering Sky, and the wonderful plateau scene with Kitty and Port... Have you watched it? I’m even listening to Sakamoto’s soundtrack in my mind right now!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “Until the day – several instances of his recurring dream further on –...”

This actually gave me Goosebumps when I realised the picture! Wow! x

So much wonderful CC enabling us to create these scenes, isn’t it?!

simblu replied to your photo “A dam. < previous next >”

Sorry, the first thing i thought was "oh Damn!"

And I always have to think which is which before I write any of those words down :)

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “A dam. < previous next >”

Oh!! How symbolically perfect for Tobi!!! I love where this is going x

This scene is vaguely based on a dream I have actually dreamed, but that I still haven’t used in my fiction, so I won’t share it yet... I’m so glad you like it!

danjaley replied to your photo “Looking back from the top of the thick wall on which he stands, Tobio...”

I love this picture - I can almost feel the wind and the sunshine and the rustling of feathers.

I love this picture too -- in fact, for once I am satisfied -- with most of this whole sequence! Those are lovely sensations you describe, thanks for sharing it!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “Looking back from the top of the thick wall on which he stands, Tobio...”

How does this dream equate to his personal life? I am guessing that his recent activity with Alvar has shown him a keyhole peep to his passions behind his shame? A huge ocean of desires he has to constantly hold back?

I have brought this dream of Tobio’s into the text in the moment of his making out with Alvar -- but he has been dreaming it since adolescence, and his “activity” with Alvar is just too recent -- in fictional terms, it is currently going on, still -- to bear any influence of that yet... In the next sequence I’ll try to link both things and tenses, though.

An interpretation to it has been provided by @willky12, and I could have not said it any better: “Recurring dreams on deserts and walking through endless desert represents torment and struggle in ones self. Finding the ocean or a body of water represents a relief, a change for the better, or an awakening within. All this is very true of Tobio and fit perfectly with the story.”

Like I said above, I have just written this passage, and probably many readers are better skilled to interpret and understand it, a whole lot more than myself!

simblu replied to your photo “Water with no end. Above it hovers restlessly the quaintest legion of...”

When you referenced the Duino Elegies (#1) a few days back, I wondered how that would work into your story..

In the end, I did not include any mention on Rilke in the text, for I thought it did not suit Tobio, who is not into Literature at all. I think of him as a techinical and yet practical person, and that reflects on his choice of readings.

But that first sentence from the first Elegy has stayed with me from the first time I read it -- for it was so meaningful to me, translating into lyrical words my own moments of desperation -- and it was the inspiration for the visual rendition of this part of Tobio’s dream.

omgdoubleume replied to your photo “Water with no end. Above it hovers restlessly the quaintest legion of...”

Soo.. it's an angle.. of desire :3 umm~ I was wrong everyone

There is no absolute right or wrong, dear! Tobio sees them as Angels of Desire, but also as warriors... So you might see them as you like, and bring a new interpretation to my text.

I don’t pretend to consciously know everything about my characters, and have the final word on any of them!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “Water with no end. Above it hovers restlessly the quaintest legion of...”

OMG! Perfection! DEADLY PERFECTION! But I would have to take the risk and go up to that main Angel in the front and ask about those AWESOME PANTS HE HAS ON and where I can download such a BULGE!!! :D

Deadly perfection is a term Tobio could use, too!

The angels are using Lady FrontBum’s Metallic Swimsuit, and though it is bulgy enough, it can always be improved with Photoshop, I guess (actually, the intention in editing is to give them a little variation, and not necessarily increase their size)

simblu replied to your photoset“Without being noticed by them, who are absent-mindedly engaged in...”

Marvelous...

Marvelous is getting so many and enriching comments from you! Thank you so much!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photoset “Without being noticed by them, who are absent-mindedly engaged in...”

Wow, how his brain has been shaped by his circumstances. I totally think I get what you are doing here - his subconscious dreams resonate from deep suppression, too fearful to even face them almost? Too perfect to comprehend? The hidden desert is almost comfortable for him? The force of these Angels and what they represent must be gargantuan to him!

That is pretty much my understanding, too. In everyday life, these angels of deadly perfection are his colleagues, the athletes he works with, and any man really, capable of arousing Tobio’s desire... Though as an oneiric representation the men might be a lot bigger and more intense than in life -- Gargantuan, as you put it! And the desert, which is his own life lived under repression, though uncomfortable to the point of torture, is still better than incurring in sin, or going with the angels, or diving into the dam...

I almost mentioned that the God Tobio fears, the God of Catholicism, Protestantism and Judaism, is a God that emanates from the deserts and arid, impoverished regions where these peoples lived in the very beginning of their religions -- and their God and religion bear many of the most harsh characteristics of the desert where they sprung up...

There is so much to bring into each passage, but the main purpose is to be entertaining, and pertaining to the story and the characters, and not some treaty on religion, or so I have tried...

my-simension replied to your photoset “Without being noticed by them, who are absent-mindedly engaged in...”

Spectacular!!! O

Thank you so much dear for your enthusiasm!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photoset “Torn between unsatisfactory possibilities of escape – diving into the...”

. . . . . no words. I feel bad for him, truly!

And Tobio appreciates it... In dreams, and in his life, he says the same prayer, to the same wrathful God, with the same fear of Hell and damnation... That Freud has seen parallels in conscious and unconscious behaviors is really insightful, and Tobio is beginning to profit from this knowledge that has been recently shared with mankind (this is the 1910s, let’s not forget it)

willky12 replied to your photo “That’s when Tobio falls – from the top of the wall to return to...”

Such torment. I wonder if you researched recurring dreams for this update? There is a lot of evidence in this type of recurring dream that relates to Tobio very well.

Like I said in our exchange of messages, I did not research anything -- of what I first named “recurrent dreaming”, and that thanks to you has been corrected to recurring... I wrote this intuitively, or simply trying to see it from Tobio’s perspective... I believe to have read that water is a symbol for sexuality, probably in Jung’s Man and his Symbols, that I have leafed through two decades or more ago... Truth is I did not prepare myself properly to write this passage, and I could never have interpreted the symbols in Tobio’s dream like you did.

Thank you so much!

hyperkaos replied to your photo “That’s when Tobio falls – from the top of the wall to return to...”

I've sat here for 10 minutes and I can't think of anything. That alone should speak volume darling. ♥

To be honest, I did not understand what you said -- which is always a good reminder that English is an endless source of mysteries and misunderstandings for me! But I did get the “darling” part, so thank you :)

simblu replied to your photo “That’s when Tobio falls – from the top of the wall to return to...”

BRAVO! So well done. I've commented along the way... perfect symbolism, poetically rendered.

Thank You so much for all the comments, they are very precious to me, and bring a lot of fresh points of view into my writing. I hope to have responded satisfactorily to them! Thank You so much!

declarations-of-drama replied to your photo “That’s when Tobio falls – from the top of the wall to return to...”

What a fantastic update that was! I enjoyed it immensely. Now I need to do what my lazy brain stopped me from doing when I first started following and taking interest in your work - go back to post #1.

Thank You so much! Your comments are wonderfully nuanced and rich, and they help me rethink my own story and characters. So precious, thank you!

I do believe you have already seen and read post #1 of LoSSS, which actually is #00, for you have already commented on it!

my-simension replied to your photo “That’s when Tobio falls – from the top of the wall to return to...”

Agree, this is incredible!

Thank you so much, dear. This post, in chronological order of comments and of scenes, opens and closes with you :)

#my-simension #declarations-of-drama #simblu #danjaley #omgdoubleume #willky12 #hyperkaos

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