Daily dose of Pinegrove!

Josh Marré jumping on a trampoline while playing guitar, from the Pinegrove documentary "Command + S"

GOD HELP ME. GOD PLEASE I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HOMESTAR RUNNER

Vyvanse is such a silly little drug. I get up at 11, take it at noon, what's a normal sleep phase I don't know her.

The first hour passes and I'm like "dude nothings happening except me getting sweaty and my heart's going a bit faster" and then I blink and it's another 2 hours later and I've just blitzed doing every chore available to me, organized all my shit for the day, read through 500 tumblr posts, watched some random-ass YouTube clips, and made myself food I don't want to eat because my appetite is suppressed but I know food consumption is a task. It's like all of my ADHD bullshit for the entire day happens at light speed over a few hours.

Then I sit down and can do The Big Task of the day for 5 hours or more and, unlike with a hyperfocus, can remain focused on it even after taking breaks to go do other stuff.

Then the end of the day hits and I'm tired and need to go to sleep but I still feel the Productivity Need so for some reason I watch 50 more "Educational" YouTube videos until it subsides and then finally fall asleep at 2am.

Like. Does it cure my ADHD? Absolutely not. Does it make me less chaotic? No. But does it allow me to consistently channel my ADHD energy productively? Oh, yeah. I'm not 100% sure that's what my doctors were going for when they prescribed it, but I gotta be honest I kinda love it.

house md video edit dropping in uh… sometime in the next week probably

I have to say, I am Massively enjoying not being active / writing in tdp fandom while all the s5 leadup is going on. I've been following the short stories and watching the clips and I'm....not massively stressed about it?? I'm not having a crisis or panicking every time because every detail makes me need to re-evaluate my massively complicated ongoing project? Instead I'm just like. Oh that's cool, I enjoy this, this was not an ordeal.

Ngl I'm going to actively try to stay out of writing for tdp while it's updating this time at least, because it's letting me actually enjoy the show again. Sorry tdp readers, but I'm liking this unstressful experience too much 👌

Victory is so close, I can almost taste it ᕙ(‾̀◡‾́)ᕗ

Might have gone a bit overboard

staring directly at levina bc there is such light and such fury in that woman and i miss obsessing over it!! i miss my lady who clearly belongs in the wilds but people keep trying to put her in a castle!! i miss thinking about the transition from romantic troublemaker who isn't made for polite society to realist rebel who will tear your throat out with her bare teeth to survive!!

My best friend sent me ACOTAR in the mail last week because she is fully engulfed and needed me to join the brain rot. I'm now fully invested and trying to figure outbif I buy the rest of the the books physically or digitally.

Guess which absolute madlad managed to grow a mango sprout

ME BEECH

not trying to get my hopes up but um. cello bow dropped into the crowd?? hello????

why did yumi just, entirely unprompted, say he's never had a uti and will never get one, but if he somehow does get one he'll tell us and apologize for being wrong?

Guess who spent 17 hours doing an assignment they didn't think would take more than 5 max

Life update

"Hey Bee how have you been"

I've made an entire calendar and lunar cycle from scratch, named the weekdays and months, added in distinct holidays every month, and am about to develop the beginnings of a potential zodiac system all for my battecat rp that I have brainrot about

Oh and my new job is going really well I'm getting paid way more. My mother (derogatory) remains an asshole and I'm trying to push through and actually ffffucking. Write lyrics and make music again.

I need to put on my pirate hat and find a good program because I cut my teeth on ACID music studio but FL Studio is good for "doodling" with beats

i think my real test is going to come when i actually finish this semester and go back home and have to wait for the game to actually go on sale. because it's a new video game. it's all digital. there's no need to account for shipping or waiting to gift a physical disc. so there might be an odd week where i'm tearing my proverbial hair out like i am now for the mental pain of waiting.