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trickstarbrave · 2 years
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i actually don’t think ppl understand how little the younger generation has been taught about navigating online spaces. this isnt just “they are so entitled and stupid lol” bc i feel like thats just an excuse to feel intellectually superior and like they were personally lazy and thats why they never learned. 
when i was growing up we were taught how to type at a keyboard. proper placement of fingers. internet safety (dont give up out your full name, address, parents names, where you go to school, etc). how to look something up and do research, filters on various archives and engines, and how to troubleshoot things 
to us these are basic skills for using the internet. requirements really before we were let loose on it. did we always follow them? no. but then when we didnt other people will quick to point and say it was our fault (even when it could be really inappropriate to do so and is was just victim blaming)
but that was because the internet had not invaded all of our lives yet. using the internet required you to know how to type, read, and navigate it. not everyone could afford to buy a computer, and dial up was slow as shit and inconvenient. then people started putting their babies in front of tablets like they did TV and let them loose on youtube, then youtube kids. smaller social media sites aimed towards kids vanished bc they werent as profitable. facebook killed privacy and now the goal was to extract as much ad revenue as possible. this is the internet they grew up with: short form content filled with ads, plastering your name around, and only being able to hop from content to content without much control 
and because these kids have grown up with a tablet in their hands since they could grip things and react to lights on a screen everyone just assumed they knew how the internet worked. that they all just figured out these skills we used to teach people. that they learned to type the most efficient way, that they wont give out personal information, and that they know how to look something up and evaluate academic sources. i mean look, they can navigate youtube by just typing in a bunch of random words and typing to find a video that doesn’t look like shit, obviously they know how to format a question and use filters!
except they don’t. not to mention the rise of unrelated hashtags to reach as wide an audience as possible means once some of these kids get to ao3 their brains are programmed to skim over them and just click on whatever title sounds interesting. they don’t know how to search for stuff without just typing related terms and tropes into the search bar and don’t know how the filtering works, even though AO3 doesn’t have any more complicated of a filtering system than most other archives.  
you can blame their parents and say they’re lazy pieces of shit who should have taught internet safety and never gave their kid and ipad, but it goes deeper than that. the death of TV wasn’t caused by them. underfunded education systems that didn’t teach them this weren’t caused by parents. this is a society wide issue and should be more concerning than “teenagers are annoying online” because corporations have just trained an entire generation of kids to not be able to fact check or stay safe online and rely on them to curate content for them because they never learned how to do it themselves. and this is only gonna get worse if we don’t address it and talk about it and the root issues without going “its those damn kids that don’t know how to take care of themselves, back in MY day--”
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sheriffofmagic · 4 years
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Could you give reasons why you watch the Magnus Arhcives? I really want to get in it but i dont know what im looking at and this seems like a good chance for you to go off
you're giving me too much power here but i absolutely will Go Off about this
so (some) reasons why i love the magnus archives
it's super well written. the individual statements all have such unique tones and characters. they're really enthralling and immersive and creepy. there's such a clear difference between the dialogue writing and the statements and it just adds a whole other level. and then the writing from a meta standpoint is also really well executed. hints and details are everywhere and nearly everything has meaning. things just come together in a very satisfying way that i really enjoy in a story.
it's a story with a plan. that's always something i value. a story that has a set ending that it's aiming for, one that may change as the story evolves but knows where it's headed. when i found out early on that they had a 5 season plan from the very beginning i was delighted because that's the kind of story i like.
honestly i really like the pacing. a lot of people think it's slow and that's fair but i really like that we get immersed in the world first before the meta-plot actually takes off. we get to know the characters and the conflict at a natural pace so you always feel like you understand why a character is doing what they're doing even if it's dumb. plus it makes the payoffs that much better because you've agonized over it.
this show is the first podcast that's made me think about sound design outside of just music and it's genuinely incredible. they do fantastic work.
i could do a whole post just about the characters but seriously the characters in tma are amazing. they're all super complex, not just the main cast but even the one-off characters for the statements. jonny may not be good at coming up with names but he's masterful at constructing whole personalities. and not just the characters being interesting or likeable but the way they evolve over the course of the show is so fun to hear (even when it hurts). it all feels natural. (im trying to be vague because i could legitimately make a whole separate post just about this topic)
to branch off of that.... i really love the female characters in this show. they're all incredibly distinct and complicated people and that's something a value a lot in any character but especially in female characters. again i could do a whole post about them.
the horror? i don't usually consider myself a big horror fan. mostly because i don't like jump scare-filled slasher movies/games. but i really love the horror in this. it's engaging and scary without relying on just being gross or taboo. (though there is gross stuff don't get me wrong, it's just not gross for the sake of being gross)
the comedy is great. this show can get dark. like really dark sometimes. so the moments of genuine positive emotions and especially humor hit really well especially if you read the transcripts along with it because some of the stage directions in there are hilarious.
there's rep! i'm not gonna spoil anything here but if you've seen my tma posts you might have a clue. there's both main, recurring, and one-off characters that are lgbt. (though i will say if you're looking for trans or nonbinary rep this show has uhhh basically none which is :/)
the voice acting is *chefs kiss*. some people have a hard time with jon's Bitch Voice in the first season when he reads statements and like... i can see why people would feel that BUT one of the personal highlights of listening for me is hearing how his tone changes over the course of the show (especially in how he interacts with other people 👀). and not just jon everyone in the cast is stellar. if you don't fall in love with martin the first time you hear his voice i don't know what to tell you
there's so much more i could say but i've gone on for way too long already. obviously, this show isn't perfect and not everyone will love it as much as i do. but it's really, really good and i highly suggest that anyone with an interest at least give it a shot. thank you for your time lmao
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splendidshinobi · 3 years
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FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST 2003 LIVE REACT: EPISODES 6-10
back at it again with the white vans
episode 6: the alchemy exam
alrighty then
um mustang calling edward “ed” is EXTREMELY offputting
ohhhhhhh noooooo not shou tucker
FUCK
im wholly unprepared
them all being in central instead of east is low key jarring like my brain isnt computing it
alexander’s intro is basically the same 
nina bbyyyyy girl u deserved so much better
ed is such a fucking nerd...chemistry club modern au confirmed
god the more tucker talks the more i wanna beat his face in
al pretending to eat by tossing a potato in his armor i-
aww theyre playing in the snow theyre so pure
wonder how long thatll last
“bigger brother” and “little big brother” and ed doesnt even get mad
ed’s birthday party????????
A MELON? ED YOURE SO RUDE
so 03 had ed’s bday instead of elicia’s...CAUSE THEY GOT ELICIA IN THE WOMB
“it’s here!” “the tea?” “the baby!” hughes is a fuck head
ok so now they’re having elicia replace rush valley baby arc
this was winry’s time to shine in fmab i miss her 
if winry isnt here who is gonna birth this baby
oh my god they just realized ed can use alchemy without a circle
no wonder he’s been using circles this whole time
SO ELICIA JUST POPPED OUT????? WHAT
STUFF ALEXANDER IN THE ARMOR AND PRETEND YOURE A TALKING DOG???
“i dont think thats very funny” NO ALPHONSE IT IS NOT
THEY KNEW EXACTLY WHAT THEY WERE DOING WITH THAT ONE I SWEAR TO GOD IN THIS ESSAY I WILL
damn bradley what up homie
im so thrown off by the way theyre doing the exam omg
seriously what the hell is fuhrer bradley’s purpose right now is he even the fuhrer in this i feel like they wouldve mentioned it
oh lord ed is about to impress everyone with his clappy hands
ok so next episode is nina FUCK
episode 7: night of the chimera’s cry
havoc babeeee
im gonna marry him my himbo king
also can RIZA DO SOMETHING PLZ
“huhhhhhhhh nina” ew tucker that was weirdly gross
wonder why
cant do it cant do it
do we think jean kirstein was modeled after jean havoc slightly looks wise
was that purposeful 
ill have to google 
serial killer who only targets women?  it cant be scar...scar drinks respect women juice
barry or slicer bros maybe? um ok
why did we start with liore if they were just gonna hop right back into the past for a huge chunk of episodes idk
assessment day??? oh noodles
AL WHY DID YOU TELL TUCKER TO MAKE ANOTHER TALKING CHIMERA ALPHONSE NO
THE NOISE I EMITTED IM GONNA TAKE A LAP
im gonna FUCKING SCREAM
ed r u writing to winry??? that’s a bit out of character for u good sir
no tucker put that baby down
im gonna fucking SCREAM
aww he burned nina’s picture thats not sus at all
SHESKA!!!!!
wait does the ironblood alchemist know what tucker did to his wife? thats kinda the vibe im getting
SCARRRRRRRR
looking like a pirate too damn
his voice sounds different is that j michael tatum 
apparently not it was dameon clarke in 03 ya learn something new everyday 
ew elicia has a lot of hair for a FUCKING NEWBORN
ed really is such a cynic very suspicious of everyone as he should be really
basque grand knowS SOMETHING
oh jesus oh fuck oh god please do not TOUCH THAT BABY
ed and al snuck back in to the house well u know what its for the best
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
im gonna cry again please god no
FUCKING DIE SHIT HOLE
she’s hurting? oh my god
my sweet angel
ew his eyes!!!!!!! 
tucker is such a fucking failure...like look at the chimera squad and greed’s theatre troupe being the way they are. ugh it really hits how fucking unfair it is 
ed was really about to split them? boy you know better
where is nina going...im hurting
ed really tried to save her in this one
SCAR KILLS NINA IN THE STREETS???????? SIR
thats different
oh snap 
oh FUCK
SCAR WHY DID YOU LEAVE HER BODY LIKE THAT
THE WAY SHE WAS ARRANGED ON THE WALL THAT WAS FUCKED UP
AND THEY FOUND HER LIKE THAT???? AT LEAST IN BROTHERHOOD THEY DIDNT HVE TO SEE HER CORPSE ARE YOU SHITTING ME?
that was fucked.
episode 8: the philosopher’s stone
can yall get ed and al away from nina’s fucking MURAL 
get out of the car mustang
finally jesus christ
roy mustang talking about healthy coping mechanisms dont make me laugh but alright baby boy go off i guess?
im curious about who this goddamn serial killer is though lets turn to that plot thread
r u kidding me
mustang is making ed and al take over tucker’s research?? thats actually wildly messed up
oh tucker was straight executed that’s a choice i guess
tucker and the philosopher’s stone sounds inaccurate but ok
ed please stop being mean to your brother
03 mustang has got me reaching for a fucking baseball bat on GOD
scar and edward having this conversation right now i literally cannot
WINRY yes bitch
BRADLEY WHAT IN TARNATION
JESUS LORRRRRRDDDDDDDDDDDD
alphonse shut your mouthhhhhhhhhhh
im so confused what is bradley up to
“alchemists are not cold blooded murderers?”
i mean
kimblee would beg to differ for one
whos this creepy lady 
her voice sounds familiar
barry’s food shop?
the killer is barry ok got it
IS BARRY DISGUISED AS A WOMAN
I KNEW THAT WAS JERRY JEWELL’S VOICE
WELL I KNEW IT SOUNDED FAMILIAR AT LEAST
WINRY GET OUT OF THE FUCKING TRUCk
has PINAKO TAUGHT YOU NOTHING
ok so i VASTLY prefer suit of armor original manga canon barry
this is such an odd plot what in fuck
um OW the meat cleaver
im so confused this fucking plotline
oh hey alphonse nice of you to show up!
is barry still gonna become a suit of armor later on
it makes NO SENSE to introduce him otherwise 
everytime i see 03 mustang i wanna beat his ass HONESTLY
literally i will shove my foot up his ass
fullmetal here we go
ed thinks he’s so punk rock 
oh great scar’s seen the watch
episode 9: be thou for the people
ed you simp buying winry all this stuff my edwin heart is ascending
SIMP SIMP SIMP
“mr. elric”?? you mean MAJOR ELRIC
to be fair though fuck the military
YOUSWELL??? oh LORD
im gonna need to read a full chronology of this show
 alphonse continues to be a precious angel 
where’s my boy yoki!!!!!
edward you idiot don’t go flaunting your money
woof woof ed
al looks so offended by ed saying they just met
whereas in brotherhood didnt he totally throw ed under the bus??? 
a choice to be sure
ah there he is hello yoki
who’s the chick
shes a lesbian
yoki makes me miss my baby girl mei chang
mei where r u
WAS THIS MILITARY DUDE REALLY ABOUT TO CUT DOWN A CHILD??? oh my god
hawkeye getting a promotion yes bby girl
jesus theyre transferring them to east now OKKKKKAY thats not how it happened it the book but ill take it....just doing it the opposite way i guess
who is lyra who is she
cute some military bribery 
umm lyra what the fuck did you do
lyra is a homunculus im callin it now
they definitely invented/changed up some homunculi in fact im certain they did and shes one of em. gotta be
i feel like 03 wrote ed as much more insensitive towards others than he really is...just a vibe im getting
i know he was faking for the townspeople’s sake but i still get this vibe from other instances 
i mean i cant say its not “canon” because its 03 canon
anyways what a show off
i cant believe theyre going to east...fuery and breda better be there
ok finally some answers on their ages....ed got his license at 12 like normal and nina and youswell were when he was 12...liore was 15, 
if they didnt flash the ages on the screen id be lost honestly
at least we’re back up to “present day”
episode 10: the phantom thief
ed saying he doesnt wanna see mustang
same
03 mustang is activating my fight or flight and im choosing fight
ed cheating at cards totally checks out
um who the fuck is this woman
what is she wearing
SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THAT CUTOUT MAAM HOW DO YOUR C**CHY LIPS NOT POKE OUT
idk but this is fem!hisoka
“hey shouldnt we talk first” after getting handcuffed??? christ almighty these innuendos
siren??????? siren is probably also a “fake” homunculus
ugh
ok so the nurse is siren
ya aint slick girly
alphonse control your crush
I REFUSE!!!! ALMEI RIGHTS
why is al’s hair so brown in this flashback anywayssss
oh its spelled psiren ope
like she’s literally a batman villain...
oh my god...............the tiddy grab. my son would never
my son is respectful
is this her homunculus tat or just a random alchemy tat
the added plotlines and original content continue to confuse and astound me every single time....
ok but if psiren really was doing this for the hospital she wouldnt be so flashy about it. like thats how you get caught sweet cheeks
girly stop flirting with this child on god im gonna fucking kick you
now shes a nun????????????????
Shes a fucking troll i hate her
im going to kick alphonse into the sun 
oh great now shes a teacher
wow shes a savior. the savior of amestrian venice. greatttttt
ed looking exactly like this emoji on this gondola rn 🧍‍♀️
STOP FLIRTING WITH THE CHILD 
GOD THIS IS SO BATMAN VILLAIN ESQUE
alphonse plzzzzzzzzzz she aint your girl
ok so probably not the last we see of this ding dong con artist
ok so its starting to get muddy. im scared the 03 stans are gonna come after me like i do like it and im having fun watching it but some of the plot and characterization choices are just....odd??? idk i gotta keep going though!! im sorry i just stan arakawa and her work in all her glory!!!
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mini-pretzel · 5 years
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alright dude yea EVERY NUMBER FOR SWEETHEART ASKS
… what have i signed up for?
//cracks knuckles
grab a juice box, grab a snack.
we’ll be here for a while. what have i gotten myself into
1. Talk about your first love. 
oh jesus. i actually recently found my old journal lol
from way back when. 2009 i think? i was 13 or some shit. jesus. ok. so my first love was actually over the internet.
yeah, i know. nowadays we’re spoiled with tinder n shit, but back in 2009, all we had was myspace and msn and i met this fucker on skype.
i was so ahead of my time.
anyway, it was october 25, 2009.
here’s a snippet from my journal entry:
well i met a guy on skype. he’s a month younger cause my b-day is on oct 14 and his is on nov 18. but i don’t mind it.
yoooo i was into younger guys even at 13, jfc hahhaa //kill me jk hmu
and then on the next page hahahhaa omg
december 2, 2009
well me and ___ are no longer together. well we never began. he broke my heart two times already. going in depression. please don’t bother. first love, ha!
omfg damn, two months. yeah, that lasted long. also old me: ur so dramatic lol
also i was a feisty lil fella, jeez.
2. What’s the most beautiful songs you’ve ever heard in your opinion? 
this one
3. How’s your heart feeling right now?
a lil stressed. im like, hoping i can get through all of these questions without my computer crashing. pray 4 me.
4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do? 
ok, first thing to note, i fucking love self care. like, too much if im honest.
baths with bubbles and nice smelling scents, lotions, a face mask, taking my time with washing my face and hair and putting on the cutest clothes after. also snacks, always snacks.
when im feeling like spending money: massage. full body. best thing ever. i treat myself to it at least once a year for my b-day.
5. What’s your skincare routine? 
ok so i just got a new skincare line. it’s from nature republic. i have a cleanser, a toner and a moisturizer. it’s fairly simple (unlike 9 steps in korean ahhahha, but like i’ll probably get there in time) also i have a peel mask that smells like bananas that i put on twice a week to get rid of dead skin cells. oh and sometimes i do korean face masks, too.
6. How did you get to be so beautiful?
answered that q here
7. Do you have any stuffed animals?
NO! //hides them all away
8. Best trip you’ve ever been on?
thailand. my parents took me w/ them on their honeymoon.
lol idek why either. trust me.
i was just there for the swimming, riding elephants, getting food poisoning and downing two banana splits in one afternoon. good times.
9. Favorite thing about your room? 
i live in a jungle. but also in an art gallery cause my mom buys paintings online and resells them, but it’s become such a habit for her they are literally EVERYWHEREE I CANNOT.
also sorry mom i keep forgetting to water the GAZILLION plants THAT YOU HAVE MOVED INTO MY ROOM FOR SOME REASON. they’ll be dead by the time ur home. srry ilyyyyy.
also tae hmu if u want some paintings. i got way too many.
10. Opinion on love? 
dude. idk. i mean. it’s definitely not something one can describe easily or fully grasp.
im still waiting for my big love to come along, so like, we can talk about that when we get there.
otherwise, i’ll say this quote that i heard in a song:
give your heart, but keep your head.
11. Are you affectionate? 
with certain people. im weird.
with some people im like no, don’t touch me pls. i bite and scratch.
and with others you cannot get them out of my death love grip.
12. Who do you look up to? 
i look up to bts a lot. they’re doing a lot of good and they’re very respectable artists.
but i also look up to a lot of writers on here because i want to create worlds and writings like them. i won’t tag them cause rip them trying to find why i tagged them in this long ass post haha.
13. Favorite poet? 
@psycho-slytherin
lol sorry bae
ur gonna have to scroll to find out why i tagged u. and then go red and yell at me. hahah.
i also like silentium! by Fyodor Tyutchev
also everything by pushkin (esp ‘i loved you’ fuck that one gets me every time). seriously. that man isn’t called the golden poet in our country for nothing.
i actually don’t read a lot of poetry nowadays unless its my own or my friends’
but im open to recommendations
14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?
answered here!
15. Do you play an instrument?
lol no. i was almost taught the piano (lol rip me, i wanna kill my younger lazy ass self) and i dabbled into learning the violin. but that’s like a whole story and a half hahahaha.
16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?
i used to pencil draw, nothing special tho. a lot of naked ppl lol. butts n boobs were my fave. also pecks whoo.
17. Do you dance? What style of dance? 
i don’t! but i want to. i’ve been looking into dancing schools. i might do hip hop n stuff. see if i have the rhythm, i can’t tell from just jumping around my room lol
18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology? 
im a libra yo. diplomatic and indecisive af.
i kinda do? there’s some sense there, but it’s too vague. i think ppl need to look into their charts to really grasp their character.
and for some it may not be true at all, so like. idk. we’re all just doing our best here.
19. Favorite old film? 
a russian film that i always watch over the new year. my mom would always joke that the new year doesn’t start till we watch it lol
the irony of fate
20. What’s your hairstyle? 
idk
u
tell
me
21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?
cloudy but warm. so there’s not too much sun but u can enjoy a nice walk outside without getting rained on.
22. What upsets you most about the world? 
i only have two hands but there are so many cats and dogs. i cannot pet all of them.
23. Are you in love right now?
answered ;)
24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!
here u go
25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them! 
i don’t! but i wish i did i would shower them with my love.
but @the-trth-untold dogs are the cutest and @psycho-slytherin cats make my day. pls spam meeeee. also i love @paristae cat too.
26. Do you have a lucky number? 
yup. 22.
27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash? 
i’ve never seen a fallen star, so no.
but i’ve wished on a fallen eyelash, always.
28. Do you believe emoji spells to work? 
emoji spells??
bruh i’ve never even heard of it till this ask wtf is that shit
bruh i mean if it works for ppl all power to them??? idk i never tried it
29. Do you believe in magic in general? 
i believe in magic tricks. but magic died for me when santa stopped existing.
30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?
here
31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue? 
gorgeous colors. i quite like mauve pink and deep dark blue tho.
but baby blue looks amazing on some folks. oof.
32. What instrumental sound is your favorite? 
piano. always.
33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain? 
answered :)
34. Who makes you happy? 
bts and all of my mutuals
35. What makes you happy? 
sleep, food, music, writing, cuddles. and forehead kisses.
also more listed here
36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like? 
i live in a nice apartment. doesn’t have to be expensive, just nice and clean with wooden floors and spacious windows.
i have all the necessities that i need and im never lonely.
i have also touched countless hearts by my books and am able to live comfortably just from my works.
haha. you said ideal, right?
also have someone to spend it with. someone i’d write poetry about daily. a bestfriend first and foremost before a lover.
37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup?
answered this fella here
38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own? 
i used to have dresses. but not anymore.
i liked the long sleeve sweater black one i had with a low cut. it was gorgeous. i dont have much of boobage but i always felt like i was sexy in it.
39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it? 
yep. you just kind of take it one day at a time. some days will be better than the last. some days you’ll cry a little harder and some days you move on a little further. it takes time. make sure you have good people around you so you don’t fall into depression.
40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them? 
ah, to be honest i don’t have a closest friend. i’ve always been the kind of person that always had friends around her but never anyone too deep. and i kinda wish i did. i just don’t know who would come to fill that spot. people always leave, so i kind of gave up assigning that spot. i think the people that want to be in that spot will show themselves and tell me. otherwise i will not assume or assign.
41. Introvert or extrovert? 
introvert. but i have my moments. i can be charming and friendly when i want to.
42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI? 
i had to look it up cause i forgot what it was lol
i took the test a while back: im infp.
there’s not a lot of us, apparently. which is cool. shout out to all infps out there!
43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, or an angel? 
hmmm. what kind of fairy tho? lol
maybe vampire? idk i’d be a sexy immortal lady that’d bite innocent boys and girls that just want to have a good time lol
44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? 
this oneee
45. Parlez-vous français? 
no~
46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to? 
butchart gardens
47. Where/when do you truly feel at home? 
here
48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous! 
kdjfalkfjdlkdsaf //hides
this ask is flirting with me…
well that’s as much action as im going to get this new years eve lol
49. Favorite shoe you own?
my sweet rose gold kicks, yo.
50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them? 
lol no. i cannot. and i do not. im not made for heels. im tall enough as it is.
51. Do you feel loved? 
every time i talk to my mutuals yes //cry
52. How do you express love to those you care about? 
by saying cute words and by clinging to them like a koala.
53. Favorite term(s) of endearment? 
sweetheart, dear, idk im just like anything honestly. love, baby. go crazy.
i also love mean terms like idiot and stuff. or nicknames that hold inside jokes, something between the two of you only.
54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you? 
hasn’t happened yet. so yeah. any takers? lol
55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been? 
reading a good book for the first time. or just experiencing something new that i end up loving for the first time. nothing can replace that first feeling.
56. Are you happy right now? 
happy im almost done hahhahahahaa. ha.
no but srsly i am
57. What makes you smile? 
stupid jokes. puns. someone laughing and showing themselves fully.
58. Do you laugh a lot? 
i mean. i think so? i try. i make jokes a lot and laugh at myself if that counts?
59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic? 
ughhhh comfy bf aestheticcc
60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)? 
i have a sour view on marriage. so only if i love someone hard enough. but even then i don’t know if i’ll do it. it hurts too much to think about marriage and wedding rings for me.
61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married? 
see above.
62. Favorite flower?
orchid.
63. Favorite artist?
claude monet.
64. Favorite music artist?
bts lol
no surprises there.
65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you? 
its not something for me to decide. i try to be kind to everyone, but how it is interpreted is different for everyone. i’d like to think i’m kind.
and yes, very important. especially being kind to yourself.
66. Ever made a playlist for someone? 
yes i have. i love making playlists for people. i don’t get asked that enough.
67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath? 
music. music always helps. and tea.
ideally i’d love for someone to massage my scalp, but hahah no one’s been able to do it the right way. when it’s done right i melt and forget about everything.
68. Early bird or night owl? 
night owl.
moonchild, lol
69. Morning routine? 
wake up, look in the mirror, look away from the mirror, go back to bed.
70. Night routine? 
SHOWER N NICE SMELLING LOTIONS. AND SKINCAREEEEEE OOOOF.
also fresh sheets.
71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion? 
answered here
72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after? 
i only cry when i watch or read something. and it does help. i always feel better after. but i tend to keep my emotions hidden away, the negative ones at least.
73. Do you like hugs? 
i love hugs. come hug me, bro.
u must smell nice tho.
74. When was the last time you kissed someone?
august.
75. Are you small or tall? 
tall. 175cm.
76. Do you like wholesome memes? 
answered
77. Favorite thing about the past? 
cd players. chia pet commercials. flip phones. mom jeans.
78. Do you ever wonder about the future? 
all the time. esp mine. i have no idea what the fuck im doing.
79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in? 
yep. i’ve lived in america and canada before. and traveled a lot.
80. Do you like plane flights? Airports? 
i don’t mind flying. and depends on the airport. some are better than others.
81. Sunrises or sunsets? 
sunrises. every day is a new day~
82. The beach or a forest? 
bitch- i mean beach. :)
83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood? 
any time i am eating. or sleeping. or reading.
im so close to being done omg. this is fun tho.
84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t? 
always. ain’t nobody gonna deal with that baggage lol
85. Favorite kind of tree? 
japanese maple tree
86. Do you care about the health of the Earth? 
i mean i don’t even care about my health that much tbh, i need to work on that.
87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything? 
that i got to travel and learned english very young.
88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? 
answered here
89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment? 
old school disney
90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have? 
answered this bad boi here
91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance. 
eyes. have to work on my ass tho. squats baby.
92. When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about? 
after a massage.
93. Do you worry a lot? 
eh, i worry enough, i suppose. there’s just some stuff you can’t control.
94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside?
dazzling lights of the city. especially in the evening. and in the winter. ahhhhh. someone hold my hand and walk with meeeeee.
95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason? 
no i haven’t had that pleasure, lol
maybe next year
96. Favorite pastry? 
BUTTER. CROISSANT.
97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness? 
yes. uwu
98. How’s your day/night going? 
well im finally done with this ask holy shit, and i need to resume writing my namjoon fic so… fantastic. i also have noodles. whoooo.
thank you for reading this whole damn mess of an ask.
ily
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bloomvroom · 3 years
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anger issue vent poetry
tw for .. idk gross stuff
I dont wanna go to jail so all I can do is fantasize and whine about it on my blog, or somewhere else but I dream of it being a possibility where I show you just exactly what you did to me, dad I’ll try to convince you to hop on my knife like you tried to convince me to hop on your cock I’ll try to make you see just how fair it is that im trying to coerce you into your own misery, im not doing anything bad to you with keeping you in fear all day, am I?
I want you to know what its like to be me, why dont you wear that cosplay for me? Why dont we stitch your mouth small enough, as small as it was when I was a child, why dont I ask you too “Do you think with a mouth that small a cock would even fit inside?” why dont we try? Ah but dont look so scared, im not even doing anything to you’ im not even doing anything to you, it was just a joke, my dear you know I love you so much id never hurt you, so quit fighting back, quit bitching and being so hysterical when youre being cut all over your body, these cuts arent that deep, so what you bleeding for? what you bleeding for? Do you think someone could die on a thousand, on ten thousand small cuts? But why are you crying so much? Its nothing to bad or to deep right? We just keep doing it for a couple of years, youll never know when it happens next, oh come on, what you scared for?
Whats that wanting some privacy? Why would you? Im not even doing anything that bad watching you like that, what do you think trying to hide yourself from me? No, we cant have. Just like you did to me. Show me, youre not allowed to hide it, hide it, cuz im entitled to see. Just like you did to me. If you dont want this why wont you fight back? oh, but if you do ill threaten to beat you black and blue for being disrespectful towards me, ah but you can cry all you want but whats being done to you simply aint bad enough to matter, nobody is gonna care, lets place someone next room that you think cares bout you and watch them stare into the TV or read a book instead of helping you, come on beg for their help like I did, beg and get hit in the face for it, dont fucking cry now, the world wont care for it, how pathetic of you, how truly pathetic of you to cry as if someone has been doing something bad to ya’ What are you so scared of? I do not compute, Why are you so afraid of me? Id never do anything to you, I never said the things I said to you, and if I did you deserved it - whats it if I kick you in the stomach when youre cryin there? Its not that hard, and you can take it cant ya? So lemme kick, lemme kick you right there or drag you by the hair, its all fair game, cuz its not like im really beating you up im not doing it hard enough to leave bruises Im just keeping you on your toes a lil bit, just how it should be
Thinking of killing yourself? But you dont even know what pain is, wnat me to teach you? Oh sure ill teach you what pain is if you wanna play that way you ungrateful piece of shit’
Theres people you like? I could just kill em you know? Hm? I was just joking my dear, but seriously, id kill them in cold blood, why dont you wanna be close to me? Come on be close to me, I just love love love love you so much oh I love you so much why dont you wanna be on my lap? why dontcha? Hey, dad, maybe if you think my skirt was meant as an invitation we should cut open your head, look into your brain find whats responsible for thinking your delusions matter more than my truth? Lets cut it out, its just no good to let you be with it, you do so much damage, its only fair and right to cut every little bad thing out of you, lets put you on the table and tie you down, lets start cutting, like you tried to cut me into your little lolicon dreamgirl, let me cut you apart, let me cut you apart until theres nothin left of you that resembles yourself so you finally be less sensitive, less, less sensitive, youve been so oversensitive and hysterical dear dad, lets make sure that wont happen again’ cuz like you said its just a matter of time until I give in, one day I have to accept you, so you can be patient, and the day has come where ive accepted that youre beyond saving, so lets make sure youre sedated and out of it, just like I was when you sexually abused me in my sleep, lets see you wake up not knowing quite what happened, but you’ll feel so different, but its all just in your head - youre just imagining things, oh dear’
you bitches are so fucking hysterical eitherway
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brokenwinchesterr · 7 years
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Some Things Never Change- Seth Rollins x Reader
This is my piece for @fan-fiction-galore and @thewriterformerlytaggedas  31 Little Wrestling Fics writing challenge. I’m not gonna lie. There was a few times I thought about dropping out because I had homecoming this week and tbh it kicked my ass. I had one day last week when I came home from planning where I just cried. It was such a cluster fuck and the people who were helping plan the dance we were doing weren't doing their part. I ended up doing most of it and I paid for most of the shit anyway. Regardless I made it through and I'm pretty proud of this. I also edited it but I'm not sure how good I've done so please let me know if something is fucked up and ill fix it!
I hope you all enjoy and please leave me feedback! I know deep down this isn't my best work but I really enjoyed writing it and I think it turned out pretty good.
Pairing: Seth Rollins x Reader, if you squint really hard Bayley x Corey Word Count: 4,448 (this is a lot more than planned) Warnings: Language, bullying I guess ( Corey is a real asshole) A/N: okay THIS IS SUPER IMPORTANT. So as mentioned above Corey really is an asshole. I wrote him like that because in real life I hate him. I have never hated anyone like I hate him. Now I'm not trying to force you all to hate him and I’m not trying to say fuck you if you like Corey. I’m trying to avoid issues of people who like Corey by warning y'all.
IF YOU LIKE COREY AND DONT WANT TO SEE HIM GET KINDA SHIT ON DONT READ THIS!!
I’ve warned you all.
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The life of an athlete was a though one. Constantly traveling and putting their lives on the line could be stressful. Being a professional wrestler was seemingly more taxing than any other athletic job because it's not just being an athlete it's being an actor. That meant that days off were rare. Days off when everyone could just hang out and have fun together as themselves were rare. That's how they all got themselves into this mess. They were in the town of Appleton; a place in Wisconsin, exploring some ruins of a house which is supposed to be haunted. That's according to some locals anyway. They had been sitting in silence until Sami spoke up.
" Whose idea was this anyway?" Sami asked. Seth immediately pointed at Y/N who had her head buried in her phone. She was trying to find the exact location of the house which was not an easy task.
" Literally everything about this is illegal!" Sami exclaimed, concern written all over his features.
" You're completely right, Sami, but it's the season of halloween and we have to be spoopy.'' Y/N responded looking up at him.
" Spoopy?" Bray asked, meeting her eyes in the rearview mirror. Y/N nodded. He just raised his eyebrows in response, and shook his head, before turning his focus back to the road. They had somehow managed to coerce him to driving; Sami sat in the passenger seat (though with a lot of protest. He always claimed Bray freaked him out) with Seth directly behind him, and Y/N to his left. Behind Y/N was Bayley, who felt the need to continuously play with her hair. She claimed it was 'as soft as a baby's butt.' To Bayley's right was Corey Graves, a long time friend of Seth's.
-
 They had been on the road for quite a while until it was becoming clear that the long drive was getting to everyone. By everyone, mostly Y/N and Corey. Tensions were at an all time high between the two who were, for some random reason, arguing about the show Supernatural; something Corey had never even seen before. So of course, Y/N being the die-hard fan she is began to get irritated because ,'' who was this idiot to say it's shit when he's never seen it before.''
" You know a show is shit when the bump it for another show.'' He shot back, talking about when the twelfth season of Supernatural got bumped for the first season Riverdale.
She took a breath, ready to destroy his claim, but she paused, and instead said," Y'know what Corey? I'm not gonna argue with you. I'm just gonna let you keep blowing smoke out of your ass because it's what you do best.'' You could hear in her voice that she was tired of the constant issues from Corey. She looked over to Seth, giving him a look that said,' I told you he was going to be a problem.' Bayley suggested they play the quiet game, and for the rest of the ride, they sat in silence.
Once they got into town, Y/N suggested that they should pull over because she still had to find the actual address of the house. She decided to call an old friend to see if he knew where it was located. Scary things and adventuring were his specialties.
"Hello?" Spoke a gruff voice through the phone.
"Elton! Hey I'm so glad you answered," Y/N responded," I have a huge favor to ask you."
" Sure what's up?"
" So I managed to drag some friends to that place in Wisconsin that I was telling you about. We made it to the town, but now I'm not sure exactly where to go and I was wondering if you remembered where the actual house was?"
" Oh, um yeah, give me a sec to grab my computer."
There was a short pause, some rustling, then some barking, which Y/N assumed was from Circa, Elton's dog, and then he was back on the receiver with a," Sorry. It was buried under a bunch of new shirts."
Elton owned a clothing brand and he was currently in the process of creating new products. It was something he'd been working on for a long time.
" You'll have to tell me all about the shirts another time, but right now I really need to know where the house is."
" Alright. So, when you first pull into town, your gonna want to take an immediate left. It's not gonna look like it's a road, but I promise you, it's there. Then the road is gonna continue for a few miles and then it'll come to a 'T'. Go right. Follow the road and you'll see the house. It's fenced off and it's a little bit of a hike to get to it, but honestly it's not that bad. I'm not sure how you're gonna get through the fence but I'm sure you'll figure it out."
" Awesome! Thank you so much Elton! I don't know what I'd do with out you.'' Y/N spoke a smile beginning to grace her features. She truly loved and appreciated her friends.
" You'd probably die.'' he responded with a chuckle.
" True. True.''
"Be safe, and I'll see you soon, yeah?"
" Of course.'' Y/N answered as she hung up the phone. A lunch meet up was already in her schedule.
" So what's the deal.'' Seth asked.
Y/N let out a breath," He said it's an immediate left on a road that doesn't look like a road but is actually a road. I'm assuming it's back the way we came just 'cause we've already been driving for quite a while.''
" There was a little opening between some trees not to long ago.'' Bayley spoke up.
" Then that's probably it! Great, now let's get back on the road.'' Sami said jumping into the conversation, while motioning at the car. Everyone loaded up and they began the shortish drive to the house.
-
Surprisingly they had made it without very many problems. The only thing was Corey’s constant talking, but when is it not a problem for Y/N.
" It looks more like ruins of a house than an actual house. I was expecting this huge thing.'' Seth said, motioning with his hands, leaning against the car door he just closed.
" Well appearances don't always matter.'' Y/N replied to him, poking his chest to punctuate each word.
" Are you trying to call me ugly with out actually saying it?" He responded pulling her in for a hug.
" Why would I do that?'' Y/N looked up at him.
" You never know.'' A small smile appeared. He leaned down and just as his lips were about to meet Y/N's, they heard Corey's voice." Alright lovebirds if we're gonna do this I'd rather it not be dark, so can we hurry it up?"
Y/N let out a screeching noise and looked to Corey,'' No one gives a fuck. Literally. We got here like, five seconds ago. Plus, we have no idea how we're gonna get through this fence yet.''
" We could probably hop it to be honest.''Seth said, running his hands up and down Y/N's sides.
" Um, I don't know Seth. Some of us are kind of short.'' Bayley said, speaking of herself and Y/N.
" We'll help.'' Sami responded.
Seth was the first one over, with Y/N passing the ouija board through the slit where the fence panels connected. Sami had a backpack that he through over next, and looked to one of the girls.
" Who's going next?"
They looked to each other and the fence. It was pretty damn high.
" Hey, both of you look at me.'' Seth spoke through the fence, sensing the fear. '' Its just like climbing a steel cage. You can do it.''
" I'll go.'' Bayley said after a few moments of silence. She looked as nervous as she was for her Mania match. Sami stood at the fence ready to boost her while the other three stood back to catch her incase she fell. When she reached the top it didn't take her long to drop onto the ground of the other side of the fence.
" Wow. I don't know if I'll be able to handle a real ghost if I can't handle this.'' She added, wiping the sweat from her hands. Sami pulled himself up and over next, leaving Y/N, Bray, and Corey on the other side.
" Your turn.'' Corey said, ready to boost her.
" Fuck you.'' She responded as she put her foot in his hands as a rest. Once she had almost steadied herself at the top, she felt Corey's grip on her leg release, and had she not had a good center of gravity she would have toppled to the ground. Instead she had managed to shift herself so she fell towards the other three in the group.
" Fuck.'' She spoke, feeling Seth's arms steady her on her feet.
" Corey what the hell?" Seth asked.
" I-I'm sorry, I don't know what happened.''
" He nearly passed out.'' Bray said finally.
" Why though?"
" I'm not to sure."
"Let's just.. get everyone on the same side of the fence please.'' Bayley said turning to face the house on the hill, as the other two men made their way over.
-
The outside of the house wasn't very bad. Of course, it was run down, the paint was peeling, and most of the grass and brush were dead, but it was two stories plus an attic, had a decent sized yard, and was probably the talk of the town before it was haunted and abandoned. To Y/N, all the caution tape and signs were no big deal, just a part of exploring, but of course, Corey couldn't keep his mouth shut. He went on a whole rant about how they could get arrested for this and how lucky she was that he didn't call their boss and complain that she was doing illegal stuff. Once they had managed to make it to the door Y/N sprawled out on the steps and groaned.
" This is my life now," Y/N started, speaking in a melodramatic manor, " I have climbed this hill and now I will die upon it."
" C'mon you're fine.'' Seth responded pulling her up into him and pressing a kiss to her forehead. He had been keeping her close ever since the incident at the fence.
'' We were only hiking for like twenty minutes.'' Sami said questioningly, shaking his head.
" Do we really want to do this?" Bayley asked. She was the only other female on the roster willing to come with them to the supposed 'haunted' ruins. They were going to bring Dean as well but with some last minute plans with Renee they 'settled with Corey' as Y/N would put it. Everyone else was too scared.
" We'll be fine, they don't seem to angry.'' Bray spoke, stoically. Bayley and Y/N locked eyes, sharing a worried glance.
" Good to know buddy,'' Seth said patting Bray on the shoulder and walking to the door. Corey remained at the bottom of the steps. Before Seth could even reach to open the door they began to hear noises coming from inside the house.
" God damn it, why are we doing this!'' Corey finally snapped,'' and why the hell did you bring a Ouija board, you know how I feel about that shit!" he said motioning to Y/N, who held it in her hands. Him and Y/N didn't get along to well, that was for sure established, if she was with Seth and Seth and Corey were friends then that made her and Corey friends, kind of. They shared a mutual hatred that Everyone knew about and that was how their relationship worked. Hell even people who didn't know them knew it. The vibes they had when they were around each other were absolutely toxic. Couldn't they keep their feelings at bay for one night?
" Because it's Halloween time, stupid.'' She replied as if it were obvious, " we're at a haunted house, and it's gonna get dark eventually. Why else would I have it?''
" The house is not haunted.''
''Bet.'' Y/N began.
" Alright, Alright, enough you two.'' Seth spoke locking eyes with the woman he called his girlfriend. She shook her head mumbling a whatever and pushing past him reaching to open the door.
" I wouldn't do that just yet,'' Sami spoke hurriedly, before Y/N could open the door, " I agree with Bayley. Are we really sure we want to do this?''
" I'm 100 percent sure. I don't know about y'all but I'm going in. We just did all that hiking and not to mention the fucking fence.'' Y/N said forcing her way around Sami and into the house.
" I don't want to leave her here a lone.'' Seth answered, shrugging. Bray said nothing and walked in behind Seth.
" I want to see if this house is really haunted.'' Corey responded, following closely behind the other two men.
" I'm with you on this one Sami but these are our friends.. Do we really want to leave them here alone so the could possibly get hurt?'' Bayley asked walking up the steps and standing next to Sami.
Sami just shook his head and said," C'mon.''
The inside of the house was dirty to say the least. When you walked in, immediately to the left was a flight of stairs, to the right of that was a door, probably to the basement, and a broken-looking table. There was definitely a lot of random clutter in the house before it became abandoned. To the direct right, was what seemed like the living room, and when you walked into it and went left, the kitchen was attached at the other side of the room.
Everyone was mostly looking around the living room. There were a lot of pictures considering how long it had been abandoned. Y/N had decided that she wanted to go explore the upstairs floor. When you walk up the stairs it runs directly into a corridor with quite a dew doors on each side. She was assuming that the people who built this house either had a very large family or they had a lot of stuff. She noticed there were quite a few pictures on the walls here too. They were all of the same man. He was always wearing a party hat and had some other person or pet in the photo with him. Just as she was about to enter the first room she heard her name being called from downstairs.
" They're ready to play the ouija board." Seth said to her.
" Alright then.'' She said plopping onto the ground in the middle of the living room.
They all filled in the circle around her,watching as Bray set the planchette on 'G'.
" If you don't want to play or don't believe, leave the circle.'' He spoke solemnly.
Corey stood up leaving Bray, Seth, Bayley, and Y/N sitting in a weird-square formation.
" Be careful when asking the questions. If you're joking or don't want to know the answer don't ask it,'' Y/N added,'' follow my lead to start.''
Everyone placed two fingers on the planchette and Y/N said,'' Ouija, we are here,'' while moving the planchette in three circles.
" Okay. It's ready.''
" Who wants to ask the first question?'' Seth asked looking around the group.
" I'll go,'' Bayley spoke. Y/N looked at her bewildered. '' If I'm gonna do it, might as well go all in.'' She finished shrugging. She took a deep breath, trying to calm her racing mind and heart.
" Are there any spirits here that would like to talk to us?” Bayley asked, a small quiver to her voice.
They sat for a few seconds, waiting for something to happen. Just as Y/N was about to say something she felt a movement under her fingers and she shut her eyes, afraid to look down. Was this really happening? When she opened her eyes the planchette rested on 'yes'.
" Fuck,'' Seth whispered in a faulty voice,'' I don't want to do this anymore.'' He took his fingers off the planchette.
" No! You're not supposed to do that!" Y/N screamed, nearly removing her fingers as well.
'' Why? What's gonna happen? I can't just put them back on?'' He asked, fear evident in his features. Y/N could tell he was trying to mask it, but she knew him all to well.
" It don't work like that.'' Bray responded.
" Well, why the hell not?" Seth asked. Y/N was about to respond when a groan sounded from somewhere around the house.
" Old houses make noises. It's normal,'' Y/N said. Another groan was heard,".... right?''
" Of course they do.'' Corey said. But it wasn't in a sarcastic or rude way. That gave a little shock to everyone. It’s crazy what fear does to a person.
" Am I gonna die now or something?'' Seth asked.
" No, you should be fine. I'm not entirely sure though.'' Bray responded.
" Let's just ask another question.'' Bayley said quickly.
" When did you die?'' Y/N asked, trying to relieve some of the tension in the air. It was thick like butter. The planchette remained still, and then flung itself off the board and into the wall
" It didn't like that question.'' Seth exclaimed.
The front door which they left open was slammed shut, causing many photos to fall of their places on the wall. Everyone looked around waiting to see what would happen next. Crashes could be heard from the kitchen where leftover dishes and cutlery were crashing to the ground.
" Upstairs!'' Bray shouted, grabbing the Ouija board and throwing it at the wall. The group watched as it broke to pieces." Go!"
Everyone bounded up the stairs and Sami had made a hard right into the first room. Everyone stood, trying to catch their breath.
Seth opened his mouth to speak but the only thing that was heard was the sound of the door slamming.
The next thing Y/N knew, she was being thrown into a wall; the force of the collision had her seeing stars. She heard the fearful screams of Bayley as other object got thrown around the room. She had heard that playing the ouija board wrong angered spirits, but to this extent? It was a little much. What had they done wrong? Corey was the only one who didn't want to play and he didn't. The weren't being intentionally disrespectful and even though Bray was pretty weird when it came to demonic stuff she believed him when he had said that they weren't too angry. Why was he wrong? By the time she had regained her bearings, things had calmed down. Bayley wasn't screaming but she was sitting in a corner, letting the sobs overtake her and Corey had wandered over to her to try to calm her down. You could still hear objects being thrown around the rest of the house as different doors continued to slam. Sami looked as if he might have started crying. Y/N was looking around the room and noticed immediately that things were wrong. Bray was lying in the center of the room in a heap. Y/N also noticed that Seth was no where to be seen.
' He's probably in a different room.' She though, more like hoped, to herself as she raced over to Bray's side.
The last thing she needed was to have to explain that she got him killed because they went to a literal haunted house. She had noticed that Bray had blood running down from his nose. The moment she placed her hand on his chest to feel for a beat, his eyes shot open and he looked around, frantically, as if he were expecting more damage than that had actually been done. He knew one thing for sure. They had to get out of that house. She helped pull him to his feet and ran to the door. It was closed. In her head she was praying it wasn't locked. What would they even do if it was? No one would be around to hear them scream, let alone to save them. She breathed a huge sigh of relief when the knob turned. She looked behind her to see everyone up and ready to follow her next move. Bayley was clearly leaning on Corey, while Bray stood on his own, leaning his weight to one side of his body. Sami stood in the back ready for whatever may come, with his arms wrapped around himself.
What had Y/N gotten herself and her friends into? She was about to cry herself when the checked every room on the second floor and saw no sign of Seth. Everything in the living room and kitchen looked the same, except for one thing. The door that lead to what they thought was the basement was closed. Sami and Corey had gone to check the other side of the first floor, after leaving Bray and Bayley sitting on the floor of the living room. Y/N remained in front of the basement door. She knew deep down that they were going to have to go in there. There was no other option. To her, it didn't matter what the others thought. If they wanted to leave they could. She was not about to leave a man who she had spent the better part of a year with. He wouldn't leave her.
Soon Y/N felt the presence of the guys behind her.
" We need to leave, now. Let's just go down there, not let our fear get to us, and grab Seth.'' Corey said.
" What if he isn't down there?'' Sami asked.
" Are you fucking ser-" Y/N started.
" No I don't mean it like that. I just mean what if he actually isn't down there.''
Y/N was at a loss for words. She didn't want to think is he wasn't down there. He had to be.
" We'll cross that bridge if we get to it.'' Corey spoke reaching to open the door. He took a breath and swung the flat of wood in. It was dark, and seemingly cold; way colder than the rest of the house. Y/N had never appreciated Corey more.
" We got this.'' Sami said pulling a flashlight out of his bag. Corey grabbed the flashlight from him and took the lead. As the trio descended down the steps Y/N automatically had an uneasy feeling. She was ready to go home and curl in a ball.
The basement was full to the brim. There were shelves upon shelves of survival stuff. MRI'S, medkits, canned food, jugs of water. What the hell was this? One thing in particular Y/N noticed was a random door in the wall. Corey and Sami had checked everything during the time she was looking around. This guy must have been a real doomsday prepper.
" Nothing.'' Corey said, looking at her with an underlying sadness. This was his best friend. Y/N motioned to the door she had just been staring at.
" That's the only place we haven't checked."
" Then let's get to it.'' Corey responded, reaching for the door. Sami grabbed a steel bar from one of the shelves. Y/N looked at him.
" What? Just in case.''
'' What are you going to do beat the ghost to death?"
" Maybe.''
Corey shook his head heaving the heavy metal door open. Y/N peaked her head in and let out a gasp. Seth was in a chair with a party hat strapped to his head. Just as she was about to step in, a man appeared. He was wearing a party hat just like Seth's. Y/N recognized him to be the man from all the pictures from upstairs.
" Want to join the party?"  The thing spoke. Y/N nearly let out a scream before she felt some one pull her by the back of her shirt. She looked to Corey who had pulled her out of the doorway and away from the ghost. Sami had decided to chuck the steel bar and it 'hit' the ghost. The bar clattered to the ground. It faltered for a second and disappeared.
" I can't believe that actually worked!'' Sami exclaimed as Corey pat him on the back. Y/N ran over to the chair where Seth was beginning to stir. He groaned and opened his eyes looking at her.
" Hey. Oh my god. Hi.'' Y/N started babbling. " I thought you were gone.''
" No. I'm okay.'' He responded, letting out a groan, sitting up in the chair.
" We should go.'' Sami suggested.'' I don't know how long that ghost is gonna be gone for.'' He picked up the steel bar. Just in case. Y/N helped Seth rise to his feet and he placed his arm around her shoulder. They made their way up the stairs in silence, and as soon as Bayley caught sight of them she was up and asking a bunch of questions.
" Can we do this in the car? I wanna get out of here.'' Seth said as his grip tightened on Y/N.
" Oh yeah, of course. Sorry.'' Bayley replied. She pulled Bray up with her and then they set out to leave.
Y/N breathed a sigh of relief as Sami swung the front door open. She clung to Seth like she hadn't seen him in years, afraid he'd get taken from her again. Maybe actual haunted places were a no go. She was glad that at least everyone was a little closer than before.
Once they had made it back over the fence and into the car, everyone paused and took a breath.
" That was the fucking worst idea ever.'' Corey griped.
" I know, and I'm sorry. Looking back on it, I probably should've picked a fake haunted place.'' Y/N responded. Sami started the car and let out a little laugh.
" Now this is something I thought I'd never see. Y/N and Corey getting along. Sort of.''
" Ha Ha. Fantastic. Relish in it somewhere far away from here." Bray spoke up from the back.
" Okay, Okay I'm going.'' Sami said.
" What if we went to fright fest at six flags?" Y/N asked.
" NO!”
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arrow1366 · 7 years
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Fragments ch.2
I held on for dear life as this nameless woman sped through alley ways, gradually going higher and higher until we were up in the sky with the other cars.
Moving too fast, and with so many colors it was hard to focus on anything, like I was stuck inside a kaleidoscope and had no hope of escaping. Being led to wherever she wanted to take me.
But who is she? And how did she know I was lost? There are too many questions, and the more I ask, the less any of this makes sense.
“Where…am…I?” I asked yet again.
“New Zen. Jewel of the Republic!” The woman said back to me as her bike went even faster, her bright blue leading road directing her through traffic.
“New…Zen? Republic?” I stammered out unable to seemingly put full sentences together.
“Yeah! But hang on! Here’s our stop!” She yelled as the bike suddenly dipped.
Squeezing her body as wind slammed into me, knocking the air out, the bike continued to decline quickly until we were on the ground level in front of one of the same shabby looking buildings. Why is everything so close together?
Hopping off, her helmet detracted itself before looking at me. “Well? Get off!”
Nodding, I slowly got off before the bike pixelated and collapsed into small cube before flying directly into her gloved hand.
“H-how-”
Rolling her eyes, she turned to the building. “Dont hurt yourself, come on.” Following her inside, she smacked the back of my helmet detracting it as she gripped my arm. “Keep your head down.” She whispered.
Inside, a whole different world was before me. People- at least two hundred strong- filled the open concrete rooms talking in their strange language, drinking and listening to wordless loud electronic music vibrating my bones with every beat. This must be some type of bar but..so different. Light floated around the ceilings with holograms depicting some type of arena fight where two people were battling as some of the people cheered and high fived eachother.
“This way…” she said hurriedly as we ducked to a elevator shaft- I assume- it looked nothing like a elevator. Just a tube with a white panel on the bottom of it.
Stepping in, the woman opened her palm to show a blank screen with a single square on it. And right before we began to move, another woman- this one paler with half bright neon green hair and half black- leaned up against the tube and smiled a bright white smile at us. She looked tired, and also for some reason dangerous, as she stood in a spiked jacket and tight smooth pants.
“Tolo a canda Astra?”
Rolling her eyes, the woman, motioned to me. “Upe, sé..holomagus.”
The scary woman flicked her gold eyes on me and struted up close. My hands began to burn as she inched closer.
Sliding her finger around my face, she smiled. “Holomagus? Eferi des tek de dundum? Eferi?”
Shrugging, the woman held her hand up to the tube where green lasers scanned the square as the second woman smiled at me again and stepped off the tube and waved at her.
“Who..was that?” I asked.
“Ah, we’re learning words aren’t we?” She quipped back as she leaned on the back of the tube. “That was the owner of this shite hole. And a friend. Name’s Ulta. She won’t bother us.”
The tube closed as a wash of gold light bathed over us and in a blink of a eye we were standing in a open room with windows surrouding all sides of it, tables full of- what looked like computers, more strange weapons and thousands of parts took up every table as the tube door opened and she walked out.
“Astra?” I asked.
“Yes?”
“Your name…Astra?”
“That’s why I answered to it.” She huffed as I stepped off the weird device and followed her. “Pix! Vistors!” She yelled in her strange language as multiple crashes and angry yelling came filtering out as Astra looked at me and smiled. “You’re gonna love Pix!”
Coming out from a side room with a futuristic blow torch, bright rose colored hair and matching eyes with a tiny dog following him, this tall slim man no older than I frowned at Astra then at me and flinched.
“Astra? Yermis sabiden tolo?” He shrieked as I stood beside her.
“What’s he saying?” I asked.
“He’s asking why I brought you here.”
“O colo se de!!! Astra! Republica wes se gavi se de.. de.. te?” He shrieked again as he set the blow torch down and pulled out a tiny circled device no bigger than my finger.
And came for me with it.
“No! No more!!” I screamed as the crystal blades shot out of my arms stopping him in his tracks.
Wide eyed, he looked at Astra who was un impressed while she kneeled and pet the tiny german Shepard.
Frowning, he looked at me. “Y-y-you. C…come.” He said in his broken attempt at english.
“No. I’ll kill you where you stand-” I warned as a pulse ripped through my head making the room spin and grey.
Dropping to my knees, the blades detracted as I collapsed over as the room went black.
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“Darius…Darius… wake up…”
Snapping my eyes open, I swung my blade and attempted to fire. But I had no gun, but that begged to question why would that be my first instinct? Sitting up, I was in a rather filthy bed that was covered in grey sheets, glowing cubes, and that dog from earlier. Sitting on my legs staring quizzically at me.
“Shoo…” I groaned now having a full headache as I threw my legs off the bed only to find I was wearing skin tight grey pants, boots with tiny neon green lights on the soles, a jacket that wasn’t mine. “What…”
“You’re the smart one Pix! Help me out here!”
“No! I’m tired of you breaking into military compounds and bringing home shite like this! That-thing back there just shot blades out of his arms! That’s not science! That’s a movie!” Pix yelled.
But I could understand him? How? Standing up, the dog hopped off the bed with me and trotted alongside me into their open room where the two were bickering. That’s when I saw that Pix had his dog by his feet, so this one-who I just now seeing has a bandana tied around its neck- isn’t the same dog.
Looking back at me,Pix threw up his hands. “Great now he’s awake!”
“I can understand you!” I said back.
Narrowing his eyes, he marched right up to me. “What are you? Some type of alien? Huh?”
“Uh…human?” I asked.
Laughing, he turned to Astra. “You ever see a human that looks like this?” He asked.
“Like…what?” I asked just now realizing my head isn’t as fogged and I’m speaking now.
“This!” He huffed as he marched to one of his cluttered tables, pulled a small mirror, and held it up for me.
All I saw were my standard features. Brown eyes, dark hair, brown skin. I shouldn’t look that bizzare. Astra looks similar. Except she’s obviously Indian, I’m black and Hispanic.
“What do you mean?”
“This!” He raged, as he pointed to my eyes then poked at my skin. “Your eyes! They’re so…weird. Like dirt and your skin…what are you?”
“Black?”
“What?” He asked.
“Uh…I’m from…New York?” I said slowly now remembering part of my past.
But nothing came from the memory. Just the name. New York.
“New York huh? Well I’ve never heard of it-”
“It’s that one place that sells the All Mother statues!” Astra said.
Snapping, he looked back at her and nodded. “Yes!” He said before looking at me. “What are you?”
“What are you? Your eyes are pink!”
“So? My entire family has pink eyes! Now he’s questioning me!” He grumbled looking at her then back at me. “To answer your previous stupid questions, i implanted you a language transmitter behind your ear-don’t touch it!” He snapped as my fingers went to touch it. “If you do your brain will probably melt…and I also shot you with a stimulant. You were talking too slow.”
Looking at him, I shook my head and walked past towards the window. The city was seemingly endless, no green anywhere. Just metal and neon lights. In the distance the buildings looked shinier, newer. We must live in some type of hood, or project. But this isn’t what I’m used to. I don’t know any of this, this strange world.
“W…what is this place?”
“Already told you, New Zen-”
“No! Where is this place?” I yelled. “I don’t know any of this! This all looks so different! Cities don’t look like this! The iPhone X was the most advanced thing most people had! This- this is-”
“Hold on.” Pix said shutting me up. Approaching me slowly, he opened his palm screen and opened a app-good thing they still have those- to a history book. Pages flipped back until a chapter read: the first race, was in bold where they had rather racist depictions of not only people of color, but white people too. All of them dressing up as their stereotypes. Looking up, Pix stared wide eyed at me. “What are you?”
“I keep telling you! I’m a human like you! You guys are the weird looking ones! What Indian has grey eyes or mixed person has pink eyes?”
“He was born with pink eyes, they’re the tenth most popular color of eyes in 4025. And what’s a Indian?” Astra asked.
My world tilting, the room suddenly spinning at what she said. 4025? As in the year? No, that’s impossible. I couldn’t have missed out on-2000 years and still be here? How would- why would I ever need to be frozen that long?
“4025? The…year?” I gasped.
“Uh, yeah?”
“No…no no no that’s not right! I was born in 95!”
“Mother…you look old as shit to be born in 3995, don’t you soak?” Pix asked.
“No!!! 1995! The year 1995!” I yelled.
Both of them looking at eachother, Pix looked back at me and shook his head. “Impossible. Obviously, you’re just fucked up or something-”
“No! I’m not. I’m being serious! I look just like your racist pictures! I have no idea how any of this shit works or know your language! I’m. Not. From. Here. In this time.” I huffed feeling my hands warm.
“Prove it.” Astra said. “Who started the Five Hundred Year War that nearly wiped out the first race?”
“What?” I gasped.
Shaking her head, she came up to me. “Alejandro Harvest. The anti Christ. Or what they called him.”
“The-anti Christ? The-”
“Well he’s called the Cthulhu,some sea monster-”
“A monster who was a symbol for the end times.” I breathed my chest feeling heavy.
“Sure, doesn’t matter. They killed him. The first? But since you didn’t even know-”
“I’m telling the truth! I’m-”
A loud explosion ripping through the building nearly knocked me off my feet as a cloud of ash rose up from across town as a person bolted up into the clouds so fast I thought it was a ship or something as another person flew up after it.
“What… in the Underworld is up with today?” Pix huffed before frowning at me. “This is you related.”
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kickasswireup · 4 years
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spitballing
i think i may have the wrong friends. i’m not in a very good mindset right now so we’ll see when I review this, but like my main attachments to them are weed (probably the biggest thing, unfortunately), they’re people, they care, and i can get things out of them. and I don’t like feeling that way about my friends. makes me feel something is wrong. and it probably is. i’ve always been a bit of an ass. have a hard time being told “no” sometimes. often. i’ve broke every rule in the book that my parents have set, my parents provide so much and it’s pretty rare for me to ask them anything too out there, and if i do, i’m usually expecting a no. I guess that’s just expectations then. which is kind of why i’m writing this. I have asked Isaac a favor every day for four days, and every day he’s said yes but then when the night comes, he says no and presents...a....reason...for his saying no. Of course it is a favor, but like bro just say no then! it’s like he can’t see a pattern or doesn’t understand his capabilities. and then we just go sit at his place, and he usually does something on his own for a while and then we use and then we watch something. and like I sit inside and do that all day!!!! homie I have done that all day for the past probably 8 years of my life. and I want out, and i’m taking steps this time and i cannot let myself drag me down with that. and i feel bad about leaving because usually i smoke his weed and i dont wanna come over just for a short time and then dip and i like weed more alone! unless mixed with alcohol of course. and i can tell my tolerance is going up and i’m getting closer and closer to losing my mind (kinda related) and i just like i’m pushing in the right direction, and I’m moving in the right direction, but it’s hard to stay motivated and keep my head up sometimes. The issue is in my habits and my loop. lemme spill
The trick you’ve played on yourself since forever is to always just get by, and the way that you’ve done that is you have enough things to keep you occupied (not that you’re enjoying most of your time) until early evening, where you basically say “it’s too late to start anything now!” (that’s trick #2) and then you use or you do some other dumb shit or continue wasting time. unless you dance, which is remarkably atypical (thank you google thesaurus), or exercise, which is infrequent. drugs can be a lot of fun, but often they can be not a lot of fun. you just gotta restrict them to things which are already good and that you’d enjoy, AND you gotta use less. Birthday coming up so I’m going to take a little break, just for a few days, every few days, and then hop back on that train on my birthday...3 days drug free starting tomorrow morning. I’ll set that as my alarm
Today was different. I went on a run this morning,  wrote some stuff for the wall (not sure how i feel about the whole wall), and did something which wasn’t reading or using electronics at my desk for the first time in a long time today. It was hard and it took math skills and i failed. it was important. 
my life would be so much more if i used the computer less. and if i planned a little more. a little. just start. start slow like with all the other things you’ve been picking up recently. but start. that’s in my alarm too. 
I’m actually sitting here just waiting to go on a walk with the boys (yay outside!) in an hour. gonna dig through my bookmarks and see what piques my interest.
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