about anger

ough he's so cute when he's frustrated about his artwork

i'm probably not going to be able to finish these drawings tonight, but have a preview of a lil (dubious) hawkspears doodle.

The lunatics NEED to know their work was successful does Sun tell them about it later-

sun acts like a dork abt it

this happens b4 the comic i posted on ao3 btw, that sexy fun time happens when y/n n sun have been living domestically for a while. this is directly after the First Time

I always wanted to do a fun comparison with Fuuta and Mahiru as having phone troubles, each having a theme of heat/overheating, and both getting caught up in romanticized daydreams of fairy tales (but one focuses on the heroes and the other the romance aspects). Oh and also a thing with a little blue bird LMAO. Don't know what but it's all bouncing around in my brain

just found out that jonny sims voices the narrator in slay the princess and getting So Stupidly excited about it because i watched gab smolders play the demo last year and?-!?/!-?!!! loved it i’m so excited to see a playthrough and actually recognise the voice actor

okay so trans storytime with s! this one has a happy ending :)

it's october 2021. i have known i was not cisgender for about a year. i've been out as genderqueer for a couple months. due to the previously discussed "men are evil" shit i'd internalized, i am firmly in denial about the fact that i'm a guy even though it's pretty fucking obvious i'm male.

so, i'm at homecoming with my friends, we're vibing, and one friend decides she wants to take photos. we take one photo as a group, then she takes one of the boys, then says we should take one photo of the girls. then she looks over at me in my short-hair-suit-and-tie glory and goes "well, girls and s!"

i appreciate that she's not calling me a girl, but something feels more uncomfortable than if i'd just been left out of the picture altogether. if i had to do gendered photos, i think i would have rather been grouped with the boys. i don't know how to say any of this. i take the girls-and-s photo and wish i had the balls (pun intended) to be in the boys' photo.

somehow i don't recognize this as a sign that perhaps i am a boy.

fast forward to august 2023. i'm at camp and we're having a dance. my group of friends taking photos. after we do one photo all together, the rest of the group splits up by gender. this time, i decide to join in the boys' photo, no one says anything weird, i look great, and now it's one of my favorite pictures. gender wins.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT DOES HAVE A HAPPY ENDING!! GENDER DOES WIN!!! that's super duper awesome growth in terms of trans acceptance, vv proud :DD

also. the 'wish i had the balls' joke made me smile. ty

Vent don't look. Please.

Why is nothing I make ever original. Anything I do is never good enough for people to like. No one will care about whatever you make as much as your friends stuff. Your most current put together au is carried by other's ocs. Why is everything I make worthless. This combined with my possible carpal tunnel. I should just give up while I still can. Why do I even keep creating. I should just give up. I'm so angry at myself. Why can't I ever make anything creative. Unique. Your sketchbook is filled with others ideas but none of your own. CHRIST JUST BE ORIGINAL FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE. This is why no one likes your work. Two words. Give up.

ok. back on the grind . 😭

Man i was kept cleaning for 7 hours and now I’m too tired to even eat anything today. This sucks

Me: "I'm gonna watch Tf Cyberverse today >:D"

Also me: Watches two play throughs of FNAF Security Breach Ruin instead.

such a fucking scam having a headache on a Saturday

kaiya the minute her friends come within 10 feet of her: about to commit acts of tender...

Vent about Pillon's situation, please do not read if you'll feel guilty for being unable to help as well. I just have so many thoughts on the matter.

I can't help but to think and feel sick to my stomach over Pillon's situation. I truly don't know if it's because she voices a character I like, because I'm also afraid of one day losing my home due to all the financial hiccups and scares now that my father is gone, or if it truly is just empathy for another human being. I'm afraid we'll get season 15 and there will be no Pillon. And no one will care. She won't be dead but actively suffering. I'm irrationally afraid no one will care that Matt sounds different nor the reason of why that is. It's terrifying to feel so small and to feel like someone you admire is also, in a sense, small. Being kicked out of your home is so stressful. Finding a new place. I have no clue how she feels about her apartment but. I miss my home. I moved 3 times until that home. And now I live in a House and I hate it. I constantly just want to go home. This house is disgusting and I'm sick of it. And I'm going to have to leave it too and go somewhere else I'll hate. And I say this but in truth I'll be lucky. I'll be lucky if that. I'll probably be lucky. It's so stupid when my brain goes from her to this. Ig I can't blame myself, I'm living my life not hers. But still. I'm scared for her. I'd be so happy if she announced she wasn't getting evicted and still quit the show for some reason haha. I really can live without her voicing Matt as long as I know she's okay. It's always sad when voices are lost through actors' death... but to lose one through an actor's suffering? To still be here with us in some sense but in a situation so bad it prevented them from voicing? Idk, my knowledge on voice actors is, maybe, above average but I never heard of something like that... Of losing a voice because they're fucking homeless. It makes me feel so sick to my stomach. Please, I really do not care if she stopped I just don't want it to be for such an awful reason outside her control.