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sadgrlsclbb · 9 months

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So get this yall…I am SO tired🤦🏾‍♀️ why do I keep coming in contact w the sameeeee ppl

Like 2 months ago some guy added me on sc and I added him back. I posted a pic of myself and he says “not tryna kiss ass, but you’re beautiful asf” to which I replied “I don’t think it’s kissing ass, but thank you.”

Which is like…if you think I’m pretty just say that?? Why does it have to be kissing ass??😭

Anyways, I didn’t know what he looked like and he agreed to ft. So we exchanged numbers.

When I was supposed to ft him all of a sudden he unadds me in sc. And I texted him and told him I just fell asleep, but he un added me?? And it was kinda weird that he did that??

He never responded

Then I hear from him a few nights ago at like 1am. And he still wanted to ft so I can see what he looks like. And I agreed. So we did a few days later.

We talked and it was fine. BUT I caught on that he wanted to meet up. Like he just KEPT saying how he’s abt to go out to eat and like move his car. And saying shit like there’s nothing to do in our state and how he’s madddd bored rn.

So I just asked if he wanted to hang out. MIND YOU, ITS 1AM. And he was like, “if you want. No pressure. I’m a respectful person and don’t want to do anything that’ll make you uncomfortable.” HIS EXACT WORDS. So I just said let’s hand tmr.

Tmr came and nothing. I texted him and the message was blue, but it didn’t say delivered. So I went on a date w that white dude. But it wasn’t good so I texted him to meet up.

THEN all of a sudden it say delivered and he texts me back and said he’s down and asked my address.

We hung out…hooked up. BUT, he was like “if we do this you’re mine…ok? You’re mine” and I was like fuck it.

But before that we were kissing and he asked me what was I looking for. I told him it’s kinda up in the air, but the main goal is a long term romantic relationship. And if I’m the way we find out it’s not working, friends is fine. But also if the vibe is there, I’m cool w just hooking up…IF the vibe calls for it and I’m feeling it.

He was saying he’s fine w w.e I want, bc he’s really feeling me.

Back to the hooking up, he asked me was I involved w anyone else. I told him no, bc technically I’m not. I decided I wasn’t gonna see that dude I went out in a date w anymore. And I’m not talking to the guy I fell asleep otp w him.

After it was all done, he was asking to take me out and calling me beautiful and telling me to ft him so we can sleep otp together. I FELL ALSEEP AND DIDNT CALL.

So I texted I fell asleep and when I sent the text, that shit was blue BUT it didn’t say delivered. That was at like 6am. So I sent another text around 12 abt going out w him still and telling him when I get off work. It STILL didn’t say delivered.

It was like that allll day, so I’m like…did he block me??

I was actually kinda fucking w him and looking forward to going out. He wanted to take me to the boardwalk and get food.

So I’m like, WHAT I DO I STINK???😭 I THOUGHT YOU SAID I WAS YOURS???😭😭

And I still haven’t heard from him and I erased to texts messages bc I was sick of seeing it not say anything. Like it didn’t say “not delivered” like the text was sent but it said nothing under.

#k rantss #this is kinda long so read if you want

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wooahaes · 2 years

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.... ok, layton anon here again (I might just use that as a tag if that's okay? 👉🏻👈🏻)

I literally just typed out a long ass reply and then tumblr decided to crash - but maybe it's a sign to try and keep it shorter (update: i failed)

for the maze runner thing, it was honestly just about the "people appearing one after another without memories" I think aside from that it's very different, especially in terms of general atmosphere. I've read Day 1 too now btw and I loved it sm! I'm really intrigued to see how it continues<3

I hope your meds are safe for you to take and that they help quickly!!

yess him being like shigure would work really well (i also love shigure sm as a unit but that's a different story)

Also imma be honest as well - i'm the same. Birthright is the only one I finished and other than that I'm like almost through with awakening, halfway with echoes and revelations and idek how far with three houses. I think I get too much into strategizing and spend too much time planning out the classes and skills instead of just playing and then I tend to abandon the games for a while...

So since I'm not super deep into the story myself my 3h au isn't that deep. Y/n would take Byleths place, simply because it makes a lot of sense. And then I sorta assigned the units to the houses based on Vibes TM aka Blue Lions - HHU, Black Eagles - Vocal, Golden Deer Tiger - Performance.

I also felt that some characters shared traits or reminded me of members (Linhardt - Han, Ferdinand - Seungkwan, Sylvain - Mingyu, Claude - Hoshi, Ignatz - Hao). But they'd mostly be themselves and not take over the exact role of anyone. I've also have thoughts on classes for some but not for all. I think Woozi would be something along the lines of a General, Han would be a Dark Mage, Hoshi a Hero, Scoups a Swordmaster or Cavalier (or anything else just give the man a sword) and- yeah I think I'll end it here

thanks for letting me share my fire emblem brain rot!! have a good day/night/evening!<3

omg hiii thats absolutely fine!! i didnt want to just assign it to u but thats 100% fine w me!!

its ok i also fail at writing short responses 90% of the time dskfhdsf tumblr crashing during those is awful tho

ooo yeah fair :0 i can def see it!! ive learned a lot abt tmr through posting this fic lmao but im glad you liked day 1!! the fics gonna honestly slow down for a bit purely bc the next 13 parts are each individual members parts and those are honestly just gonna take a hot sec for me to like... be happy w all of them :(

aaa i still havent taken them just bc. anxiety bad! they shouldnt have any bad interactions since they're not a sulfa drug, but anxiety louder, y'know? im waiting until i know family is awake (yes ik its 4 pm shh) in case i need shit

i also love shigure but thats at least slightly bc of my love for m*tt m*rcer as a voice actor sdfhsdkjfh i adore him tho!! thats my beloved!!

i get DEEP in trying to figure out my units tbh i usually end up drafting out my pairings when i play. if awakening + conquest both had the ability to scout out things as easily as u can in birthright + revelations, i would have def beat them by now tbh.

but also i tend to abandon games after a while by accident sdkfhsdfh

i know little abt 3h but i am nodding along and golden tiger makes me happy. its what my man deserves <3

me lookin up these characters and sees ferdinand is confident and hates losing like YEP thats kwannie. i can see a lot of the comparisons u drew!! :0

i can def see general woozi + hero hoshi + swordsmaster cheol + dark mage han!! cheol is getting a sword and thats all i care about actually /j (nah but if i could give him some sort of rally skill, i think he + woozi + hosh would all have one in some shape!! and most likely seok too since booseoksoon leader ykno)

i honestly feel like shua would potentially be a war cleric. can heal you, but can also can Kill.

alternatively for hannie tho he could be thief -> trickster imo?

i honestly feel like vernon miiight either be a cavalier or an archer. its a gut thing tbh i cannot explain otherwise.

u are always welcome to share ur fe brainrot sdkfhsdf this blog is where i share my svt + trsr (+ skz tbh) brainrot now lmao y'all can Always share stuff ur interested in w me!! i hope u also have a good day/night/evening! <3

#wooahaes.ask #layton anon

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cythoughtsnmemories · 5 months

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09.01.24

Think I'm allergic to the paint smell. Getting giddy n skin allergic.

A little busy w work but manageable. Finally brought home my present from secret santa but it's spoilt.

MIL forever cook too much and this family dw to waste, so end up overeating. I'll just eat what I can accept.

Hubby started staying at my hse on wkdays. I'm so happy~ I don't have to do laundry, can see hubby everyday, can sleep well, can eat what I like, hubby's clothes also won't smell n don't need handwash, can wfh comfortably. Thank you for being hubby for me!!! 😘

It's wkend~ Didn't like what mil cook for lunch so I volunteered to cook next day lunch. Attended my cousin's wedding at night. Happy for him. Didn't know he is so sentimental and shy type. As for d dinner dishes, serving up was too slow but service is acceptable.

So proud of myself for gg office on Mon n went gym w Pris. Good 1 hr workout! Haiz, weight just keeps going up n not coming down.

Such a nice weather to sleep in today, as it was raining overnight but I managed to crawl out of bed. Workload was chill~ so I put down all d country n places I wanna go w hubby in G drive.

Think hubby wanna cry liao...all he see is money flying away. Tsk! Why most pple will think travelling is taking a break, it's spending time w love ones, enjoy seeing the world, sth pple usually look forward to and planning but my hubby is d odd one.

So sad~ machiam being force to travel. I would be so glad if hubby brought it up and initiate/ discuss where to travel. So far, Europe is for him to propose, and Japan is for honeymoon. Get to travel last yr to Jap also cos prices r going up lo, also not he wanna go.

U know? The intention is different, then u don't feel as happy compared to if he genuinely wanna go travel w me. He is going jus cos I ask for it, and him keeping his promises on traveling. 🫠 we can split cost if it's abt cost. It's abt making memories tgt...ard d world! My quality time tgt!! Money can always earn back mah.

Woohoo Sf bought another exit game n gonna borrow me!

So hungry after work but got to wait for SIL to reach. Hubby said 8.45...I was so sad n hungry although I ate a pancake. Fatty~ luckily they reached ard 8.30~

Tonight's soup wasn't to my liking...only that melon n pepper taste. Chicken n beancurd was good, so that's my dinner/ supper.

Excited for Mayday concert coming Sat!

Tmr is d last time I see my buddy before her official last day of service. Just pray she clear all outstanding tasks nicely and don't give me shit. For once, I felt awkward w colleague.

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textsacc · 2 years

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mm 🥺 nvm bestie i cant sleeb i have a lot to say n think abt

like how when i put my head down on a pillow n close my eyes i can rly see mc and its bad idw to 🥺 n also now im feeling regret for playing mc im so upset bc i cant seem to feel good abt being able to play games

mmm n also i felt bad trying to sleeb bc i missed u n miss sleebbing w u but was playing mc and i prefer u to minecraft and its just !!!! bad that i had to focus on minecrafr

like i didnt even get to ask u abt ur day or anth i ddint get to tell u that u did a great job w the party i didnr get to ask how u celebrated. u know what i also realize while laying down. i didnt even get to ask u out this summer n im so frustrated bc sch is starting for u n idw interrupt your schedule but i wanna do stuff now that im finally not busy and its just!!! its just a whole mess!!! i dont like it,,, i just wanna spend time tgt n cuddle,,,

i was only reading some manga today, regular fantasy isekai, called reincarnation of a sword, but i hated how the story progressed so i just. got rly mad at the state of my life rn idk???? tired n upset abt it n also i miss u n like cant believe i want to prioritize u above all else no joke its kind of }:v mood??? idk

n also i wanted to ask for clash but like thats secondary

jn me in mc i was playing w kon n sab n we were killing the ender dragon n also raiding some cities aft that. which is rly high pressure bc theres a lot of enemies after me n its rly easy to die AND i was the only one raiding it bc kon n sab cldnt help as much so they took forever while trying to get to a place i alr cleared out. i was trynna go fast n get the impt stuff for them n get out bc we all hated the place. n they yelled at me for stealing the show n flexing ig

tmr ill b going to sabs house bc they wanna hang out b4 going to nex to eat dinner w yee. and that sounds rly nice but at the same time i feel rly burnt out for sm reason. yes its 4am ig thats probably why i feel awful but. idk i also want cuddles n kisses ig. i wan cute girl (you) n im sorry i didnt get to see u off to sleeb 🥺 i rly wanted to n i was trynna raid asap so i cld but ik ur good girl n sleeb early bc school n i respect that so its nbd but i also rly like u n i wanna tuck u into bed n its like so routine that i miss u dearly at night n also it feels wrong when i cant. like if every day was a chapter you wld b my ending paragraph and if u werent there it wld feel like the chapter ended with tension. idk does that make any sense

also i wanted to lyk that like. im still talking to katelyn right bc of the site n we're friends but like. bestie. i need u to know i forgot to spell her name when we were talking. the aftnoon like 3 to 4 days ago when u were like gonna go ask katelyn or smth. she was going to sleeb bc our aftnoon is usa sleeby time i think and she said goodnight to me with my name but i cldnt mirror it back. i dont know why i thought it was kaitlyn (league of legends???) but ik i dont rmb how to spell it and the fact that u did makes me rly upset platonically and impressed every other manner. because i fucking didnt. 😭 just ic u wanna know how much shes on my mind (shes not. i miss u a whole lot. i want to sleeb w u agn)

bestie i hope ur day at sch goes okay 🥺🥺 n ill sleeb early w u i promise im not even gonna touch mc past 11 any more idk why it makes me feel sick but ik it does n im just. i want to stop feeling awful n up at 3 to 6 am during the hols. i miss you a lot n if i cld i wld like to follow u everywhere n help u out 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 pls keep me close like ur pet or ur little meow meow,,,

ilysm cutie 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i wish i was cuddling u instead of blahaj atm even if he is comfy. i wan giv u so many kiss n brush ur hair n tell u ur cute n go head empty i always go head empty when ur arnd and i like that... ure an angel 🥺🥺🥺🙏❤️

thank u bestie gnight 🥺🥺🙏

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sunplanter · 3 years

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we’re in a constant state of mental breakdown tonight folks !!!

#ive cried and still do not feel better which is UNFAIR #like what gives ???#i have been up all night bc my brain will not be quiet abt absolutely everything i hate about myself #so that hasnt been fun #i think after work tmr (today) im just gonna sleep all day i guess #personal #update 10 min later: saw a weight loss ad on instagram and had a sort of mini sobbing panic attack :/ i hate instagram

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serowotonin · 3 years

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˗ˏˋ 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘀 ˎˊ˗

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿 ` sakusa kiyoomi ` 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 ` 1.2k ` 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 ` pure crack ` 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁 ` hcs `

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` umm idk what this is.. lowkey based off real events? midnight ramblings? yeah that kind of thing i guess... also big thank you to @kaguol for giving this a read (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) `

it was sports day at your school and most of the events were over and done with but the teachers didnt allow anyone to leave yet cuz,,,, reasons✨

which is why some of the students kinda just flocked to the gym to chill and maybe play around

that was until somebody suggested they host an unofficial, volleyball game

the net was still up nobody bothered to put it down so yeaahhh

rules of the game were simple: there were none, except keep the ball in the air and get it over the net…however you can

at first only a few ppl played… the “energetic” and “athletic” ones and it still seemed like a typical volleyball game

then more ppl started joining

and it slowly started getting more chaotic

it got to the point where the entire gym was the court

there were ppl running around chasing the ball, others just hitting it as hard as they can in practically any direction, then there were those who just stood there cuz everyone else was standing there so why not ??

now sakusa didn’t want to be there

he was tired because his class had signed him up for ALL the running events

why? well cuz he was tHe OnLy AtHLeCtiC PeRsOn in his class

utter bullshit btw

he plays volleyball hes not a runner

but still ended up winning tons of races just cuz… it was him💅✨ no explanation needed

n e wayss he was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nice long shower

but ofc the students of itachiyama wouldn’t let him

some of them dragged him into the game early on

again, because he was aThLeTiC ~

but this time they actually got the sport right lolol

honestly he was lowkey annoyed at how un-volleyball the game started to become but continued playing it anyway

it was hilarious how the others tried to receive even his weakest, half-assed spikes

sakusa always made sure to aim his spikes directly at ppl’s arms tho

not out of consideration for their pride or anything no no

it was cuz whenever the ball touched the ground the ENTIRE gym groaned rlly loud and there’d be ppl going “NOOOOOOOO”

and that annoyed tf out of him so he was nice with his spikes

then there was you

you were outside with one of your friends when the whole volleyball thing started and only came to the gym cuz the rest of your friends were in there

so you walked in, scanned the crowd, immediately noticed your crush *cough*sakusa*cough* and then found your friends standing in a group on the other side of the gym

now here’s the thing

sakusa has a crush™️ on you too. took him a while to realize and accept it but he did and now he officially has a crush on you

he just hadn’t really gotten around to the idea of asking you out or anything

mainly cuz he just very recently realized his feelings aka last night he was thinking about all the events he had to do for sports day and he groaned cuz ppl made him do it but then he realized ppl wasn’t actually ppl it was just you

you were the one who smiled at him and said “why not sakkun,, it’d be fun” and like that he agreed. then he realized further he actually thought about you a lot. like earlier he was thinking about how’d you look tmr since u weren’t gonna be in normal school uniform and you’d have your hair all done. and then he realized he was looking forward to seeing you which led him to realize you were one of the few ppl he actually enjoyed being around. THEN he fucking finally realized “oh… i have a crush…. on y/n……. oh”

somewhat conflicted abt it for the entirety of the day,,, bois experiencing feels for u ofc its gonna take some time >.<

he didn’t get to talk to you all day though,,,,,, he was busy with his own events and you were elsewhere

either way,, when he saw you walking past in the gym he kind of lost focus

lost focus in that the ball was coming to him and he jumped to spike it but only had his eyes on you causing his aim to mess up and well,,

he hit his target

*your head*

and because he wasn’t focused, it wasn’t a “soft” spike like all the other ones hes been doing

it was a full-blown sakusa kiyoomi spike

that hit your face

(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

sakusa just went: ᶠᵘᶜᵏ

you saw stars,,,,,,,, and fell on ur bum

like a split second later, you heard a calm voice asking if you were ok. you muttered out a yeah and felt arms helping you up

one of them was your friend you were pretty sure, but the other one’s hands were too big to be any of your friends’

“let’s get you to the nurse,” the calm voice said again.

“mkay,, thats probably.. a smart choice.. yeah….” and, vision still blurry, you were guided to the nurse by your friend and someone whose identity you weren’t sure of yet

sakusa was still standing there

all that, the spike hitting you, you falling, your being escorted to the clinic,,,,, that happened in like 2 seconds

he didn’t even have time to say anything yet

to make matters worse, some random ass guy was the one who came and swept you out of the gym

sure your friend was with you but to sakusa,,, that guy sus af

after they left, the game continued and sakusa rlly didn’t feel like playing anymore

he wanted to make sure you were okay and wanted to apologize

however,,,, the teachers came in shortly after and told them it was time for the closing ceremony

throughout the entire thing, his eyes flit through the crowds looking for you

he couldn’t find you tho>:((

big sad

after the ceremony was over,, he went to the clinic but you weren’t there

then he just kinda,,, /slump/

figured he’d just pull you aside tmr and apologize then

except,,, tmr came and he still hadnt found a good time to pull you aside for a proper apology??

you were just so… busy.?

finally,, at around lunch after you finished eating, you kinda just sat with your friends and were talking and stuff when sakusa decided now would be an appropriate time to apologize

he walked up to you and asked if you two could talk in private for a bit

your friends shot glances at each other. he saw,, but he didnt let it bother him

anyways,, he led you out into the hall and in the softest tone he could manage he says, “about yesterday… i’m really sorry, spiked the ball a bit too hard.. how are you feeling?”

you tell him ur fine,, just that it aches a bit but nothing serious

he nods and mutters another ‘sorry..’

then this happened:

“no it’s ok you don’t have to be so sorry. accidents happen.”

“it wasn’t an accident tho..? so im sorry, it wont happen again.”

“yeah ok,, wAIT WHAT?? wdym not an accident?!?? u spiked the ball into my face on purpose?!?!!?!?”

“WHAT NO- ofc not. i just,,, i kind of lost focus… on other things… at the time… and yeah”

“????”

*sighs* “i was focused on you when you walked past and didn’t consciously control my aim or whatever and ended up spiking it into your face”

“?!?!?!??…. why were you focused on me??”

“cuz i like you dummy” /it slipped he didnt mean to say this/

“oh.... wAIT WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?”

and that is the story of how sakusa confessed

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` honestly think it would be better as a fic but uh,,, my lazy ass cant be bothered to write fics rn so uh,, hope this was good for now? lol might mess around and write one later tho.. maybe `

#sakusa x reader #hq #www.pink-ink.com/writing #/hcs

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hauntedbananacollector · 3 years

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Happy Halloween!!!

Time to start using tumblr again bc I can't sleep and I just remembered tumblr existed!!!

Exams are tmr and I have to wake up in like 5 hours....😊😊😊😊 I never get this little sleep, very sad.

Anyways!!!!! Rn I think I'm getting back into reading😨😨 not that I wasn't already butt I think I'll be reading more books now instead of just at night time!!

I finished siege and storm 2 days ago and it was kinda crazyyyy.. I feel like sm happened..

There was a bunch of new characters in this book tho and I like it more than the 1st book!! I like nikolai and also tamar and tolya!!! They're all very cool.

Kinda sad genya wasn't in it that much though.. I rly liked her in the 1st book but she was like working with the darkling at the start of this one?! But then he like took her eye out so... yep.

Then.... this book was kinda sad :( mal and alina😡😡😓 always so difficult with them💔💔💔 I like them tho ofc!! But for like 5 whole chapters they were ignoring eachother😭😭😭😭 Then mal was like away 24/7 and getting drunk and alina was getting no sleep bc creepy darkling was Stalking her.. also i hate the darkling smmmm. Like?! Sm.

Uhh OMG then alina told mal why she flinched finally and she was like "I thought you'd be scared of me or smth.." and he was like "..." and then left. Then he came back into the room a while later and they were like making out?! But like.. it was like he was a vampire or smth the way it was written

Then it was actually the DARKLING?!! Bruh

Omg and alinas like confusing me sm. Like at the end she went over to the darkling and was like "ig this is how it's meant to be afterall😕👋😘" then they're like kissing?! Like idk if she's dating mal or what but this is crazyyyyyyy.. and I'm not sure if she's acting or is being genuine. Maybe they said it and I skipped over it too fast but I'm kinda confused how alina feels abt the whole situation. Like.. does she wanna go against the darkling and save ravka or does she wanna join him and be powerful.. IDK. First option probably butt I get soo confused where she's like "I'm hungry I need the bird mal" and idl what I'm saying

But yeah.. then her hair turns white at the end?! New look I guess?! I feel like it'll end up looking pretty cool thoo!! And I hope nikolais alive omg.. also his brother was sooooolo dumb.

And I hope genya is in the 3rd book more 💔💔 also! I bought the 3rd book today!! I'll probably be reading it after the two towers and then after that I can read soc!!! I've been dyingg to read soc. I've had it on my bookshelf since like.. June. Yikes.

I dont know too much abt soc I kinda just know the plot and the characters and stuff but that's abt itttt. But I'm glad I'm reading it in this order bc I'll understand the world better!! Also I kinda wanna post/save content for sab but I rly don't wanna get spoilers so..😓😓

I'll have to wait until I finish ruin and rising igg🙂🙂. Also I think zoya and nikolai end up together?! I see fanart of them on Pinterest. Idk how I feel abt zoya?! I think she has a sad back story and maybe she changes but as of now idk.

She was rly mean in the 1st book but in this one I feel like alina was also mean to her💔💔 idk if that means they're equal now?! But I thought alina was being kinda rude to her. Idk if that's justified by zoya being mean to her in the 1st book 🤷‍♀️ but the convo ended with zoya and she was like "Are you gonna send me away then.." and alina was like "not yet"

I was like Huh?! Maybe I overreacted idk.. writing it down here makes it feel less dramatic than it did when I first read it 😭😭

Also Tolya and tamar!!! Aren't they so cool?! I found out they were apart of the religion thing and I was like... Ok. Idk if it makes much of a difference?? BUT SOME OF THOSE GUYS ARE CRAZYTYYYT... ALINA WENT OUT AND THEY LIKE ATE HER ALIVE. Shocking. They wanna kill their Saint?!?

Ok goodnight... it's like 2am.. I'm still not tired 💔💔 also this post was so long omg. I feel like most of Pinterest is me talking abt random things🤔🤔 I need to start reposting more.. but I don't wanna get spoiled for anything 😭😭 like.. I haven't finished lotr, sab or fma. It's pretty sad🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️ Ok byeE

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starfleetakaashi · 4 years

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Heyy! I just found your blog and I AM IN LOVEEE 💞 So um,, I’ve got a competition coming up and I was wondering if you can whip up some hcs for Ushijima, Bokuto, Goshiki, and Iwa-chan comforting their s/o before their game? Thank you so so much! Have a good one😘

ANON IM GONNA CRY??? YOU LIKE MY BLOG??? 🥺🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞💞🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 GOOD LUCK ON UR COMPETITION U ARE GONNA DO GREAT AND KICK ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also this is my first time writing for goshiki (someone idk that much) so i hope i didnt do him dirty🥺🥺 hope u enjoy this!❤️

putting a read more bc i got a lil excited 😀

ushijima, bokuto, goshiki, and iwa comforting their s/o before their game:

— 𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐣𝐢𝗺𝐚;

this man isnt rlly good with expressing himself so the way he comforts u is kinda odd to ppl on the outside but since u know him u know hes doing his best

since he knows what it feels like to be nervous before a match (despite not showing it) he relates to u very well!!!

the night before ur match the two of u are getting ready for bed and he notices that ur a lil silent and more kept to urself

“are u ok honey?”🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

after a heart attack u respond with “im just nervous for tmr” and hes instantly ON YOU RAWR

not in a dirty way unless..?😛 but he will wrap his arms around u and encage u in silence while u inhale his sexy scent....

“im here if you’d like to rant.” welllll he offered so its time to run ya mouth!!!

u start telling him abt ur worries and hes sitting there with his chin resting on top of ur head and listening intently

honestly could u even find a better man than him bc i strongly believe the answer is a FAT NO

then on the next day when u see him on the stands with a smile on his face, ur worries are gone bc ur number one supporter is here and nothing else matters

— 𝐛𝗼𝐤𝐮𝐭𝗼;

RARARARRARA THIS MAN IS SO HYPED FOR UR MATCH!!!!!!!!

he doesnt rlly get nervous before a match tbh if anything hes so excited to be playing against good people so he cant rlly relate BUT HE TRIES!!!!!!

u two are eating and hes happily stuffing his face with ur good ass cooking but ur like im bored let me eat myself away with thoughts,,,,

he notices ur silence when he looks up and asks if he can have ur plate but u dont answer bc ur looking at ur fingers

“babe????? can i have ur plate??????”

he cant get enough of ur cooking sorry

“um... ya!!” so u give him the plate and he blows u a kiss before stuffing his face again only to notice that YOU WERENT EATING??????? THIS CANT BE YOU HAVE TO EAT U HAVE A MATCH TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

“WAIT BABE HERE!!!!! EAT!!!!!” he panicks and shoves ur plate back to u and ur just like 😃

“not hungry baby, im thinking abt tmr” u said and he finally calms down, taking ur hand in his and gripping it tight

its to let u know that hes there always

“u will do amazing, baby!!!!” “after all ur the best!!! since ur with me, aka the best, that means ur the best too!!!”

god he is just so precious u tackled his cute ass on the floor and started kissing him like a hungry hyena

the next day he is in the stands with a huge ass poster with the fukurodani vbc yelling out ur name and cheering for u GOD HE IS SO PERFECT I AM GOING TO SCREA

— 𝐠𝗼𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐤𝐢;

baby is just sooooo🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

he knows ur good at what u do so he shows off whenever he can

he invites people to ur matches talking bout “my s/o is a beast out there u should come watch btw did i mention theyre my s/o :3” shut him up with a kiss pls.

anyways!!!! its the morning of ur match and ur getting ready and hes sitting on the bed just watching u bc damn he could watch u all day

but he notices a frown on ur face??? THAT IS NOT OKAY FROWNS ARE NOT ALLOWED.

so he gets off the bed and wraps his arms around u and ur already swooning like damn bitch CHILL

“ur nervous arent u?” HOW DID HE KNOW?????????

u turn to him as he grins at u “i just know babe,” and ur like ok is it simp hours😀😀????

he caught u red handed

“its ok to be nervous baby, but you’ll do amazing like you always do. even ushijima-senpai agrees!!!” hes so fucking cute he mentions his idol and ur just like damn how can i be nervous now when he’s just so cute

anywayyyy lets say ur like 5 min late to warmups bc u and him were too busy making out 👁👄👁

— 𝐢𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐳𝐮𝗺𝐢;

this man is a PRO when it comes to being nervous before matches since he’s from a powerhouse school its obvious that he has so much pressure on him to do great

aaanddd bc hes always against powerhouse schools as well so he cant help but be a tiny bit nervous even if he tells oikawa to fuck off and claim that hes not

anyway ur team had a before match practice the night before and u decided to stay a little after bc u wanted to get ur mind off things and also heighten ur skills even if it did so just a teeny bit

iwa comes to pick u up and runs into a few of ur teammates and theyre like “oh [name] is at the gym” and hes like thanks before heading to where u r

he keeps himself hidden for like a min or two bc he wanted to keep watching u while u were concentrated bc u were just hot as fuck when u were focused

but thennnnnn he notices that ur kinda overdoing it so he steps in and is like “hi baby”

immediately recognizing his voice ur like baby!!!! i missed u!!!!

u run to him all sweaty but he doesnt care bc u do it all the time when he comes home from his own practices all sweaty and stinky and bc he missed u hella

he wont flat out acknowledge ur nervousness bc he doesnt want to use the wrong words and get u even more nervous so he chose to do the little things and that made u appreciate and fall in love with him even more as if that was even possible but here we are

he massages ur shoulders and gives u a peck on the cheek and lips and even helps u practice bc hes just perfect like that

u almost started crying but u were like let me not give him a heart attack at 9 pm....

anyways the two of u head home holding hands like a cute ass couple and he occasionally squeezes ur hand🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

he kisses u passionately, waving u goodbye when u walked inside ur home, the nervousness for tmr’s match all gone bc of him

and when tomorrow came, the only thing u were worried about was HOW THE HELL WERE U GONNA FOCUS WHEN OIKAWA’S LOUD ASS KEPT SCREAMING FOR UR NAME......

good thing iwa being the best boyfriend that he is smacked oikawa on the back of the head a few times for the sake of ur match and for the sake of his poor insanity

#requested #ushijima x reader #ushijima headcanons #bokuto x reader #bokuto headcannons #goshiki x reader #goshiki headcanons #iwaizumi x reader #iwaizumi headcanons

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fallingfromdepression · 3 years

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12/6/2020

this is gonna be less about school and more me rambling about my mental health and where i am rn in life. i got triggered earlier and i’m hoping i’ll feel better once i write it all out so then i can hopefully get my mind focused back on trying to do this final assignment due tmr evening that i’ve barely started so that’s what the stakes are. put under a cut bc it’s detailing quite a bit of some of my personal life

so i bought a surprise box from an indie artist that ended up being around $30 total with shipping (not too bad since the box is supposed to include at least $50 worth of merch). i haven’t had a lot of misc purchases ever since i came back home, or at least i’m definitely spending less than i did when i was at school, and i generally like all of this artist’s merch so i thought it was a decent expense. unfortunately i did have to buy it today when i am technically supposed to be working on finals and etc but it didn’t take much time since i was notified abt the restock yesterday and i preferred to buy sooner rather than later (i.e. after all my finals are finished) esp from small businesses that have a limited stock. but since my parent is intimately involved with my finances, they saw the purchase asap and kind of interrogated me abt it esp since it’s not a purchase from amazon or a bigger business.

now the context that makes that latter part more meaningful: about this time last yr, i had a situation where i tried to buy an anime merch through a proxy on twitter. this proxy didn’t have an actual website so i was buying through DMs. when i paid the proxy in advance, this same parent saw the purchase and asked me abt it and checked up on the process without asking for any further info. i made the grave mistake (in hindsight) of being honest and telling them i still hadn’t received the purchase months after i had paid them so then this whole shitshow ensued where my parent was convinced the proxy was conning me (the proxy had proxied merch for other ppl before based on their facebook proxy page) and had me cancel the proxy which the proxy thankfully agreed to except they still wanted some payment since they had still gone through the effort to get the merch supposedly (the wait was due to them not shipping the good out yet) so they said they were only going to refund part of the payment. yet again i told my parent abt this partial refund and that further convinced my parent the proxy was conning me (out of $3) so they were like no absolutely no payment to the proxy. lucky for the proxy, around the time i was refunding the payment i had left home and gone back to school so i told them to refund the full amt and i’d pay them separately so i could pretend this $3 payment was for something else i was buying physically. and very very lucky for me the proxy was understanding and refunded the full amt so it looked like i got everything back and i paid them separately through another app. the thing is i was expecting the proxy to take a while bc i had seen on other twitter accounts that proxied merch through individuals tended to take a while, and it had been abt 2ish months since i made the payment. i understand the concern my parent had esp since they are not familiar with online informal dealings, but the thing is ever since this fiasco my parent has assumed everything i buy from a small business (aka anything they don’t recognize) is me getting conned again.

to a degree i understanding and appreciate the concern, but i’m frustrated bc even with that proxy payment i literally cried that night out of anxiety and concern bc i knew there was a chance i could get conned and i had spent days being like ‘should i do it. oh god idk should i. but i’ve checked up on this proxy through any means possible and they seem ok enough...’ so it’s not like i’m like naive af and being like ‘tee hee con me !!’ like i understand the risk and was willing to do it (and to this day i still believe i would have gotten the merch albeit much later than expected). and my age is considered adult age pretty much internationally so it’s not like i’m a naive af 8yo who doesn’t know the dangers of the internet. yes i haven’t made much online purchases but i’m aware of the scams and try to make sure i’m buying from a trusted seller and if it’s worth it for the price. but i hate having to be so concerned abt my spending habits and whether the package will get here in time before my parent cancels the order out of fear of me being conned “again” at my age. i’ll admit i don’t have a stable job yet but it’s not like i’m spending money every week or even every month. if i wasn’t at home i would be less concerned bc the shipment isn’t going to my home address so the parent can’t scrutinize it but bc it is now, my spending is put under more scrutiny.

anyway my parent’s low-key interrogation shook up my mental state as expected and i had to take a bit to unload on my sibling and cry a little. i know if i wasn’t at home this wouldn’t affect me as much but bc i’m at home and having to deal with it in person instead of over text or a phone call... and the damn pandemic isn’t ending anytime soon so i’m going to have to stay at home for the indefinite future. it’s not like i have a ton of shit i want to buy but i don’t want to have to deal with this trigger every few months (last purchase was back in maybe september or so towards a book publishing kickstarter which i guess bc it was only $15 my parent didn’t kick up too much of a fuss abt since technically i still don’t have the ebook i paid for). i’m not purchasing any christmas presents for friends or anyone so i don’t have that as a cover or anything. but the thing is even once i leave home i have little confidence i’ll be able to be independent and my sibling told me it’ll take a few years for me to get a grasp on things but idk. it just feels so far away in the future and i can’t envision my present self with no motivation or willpower to do it even though i mean when push comes to shove i’ll get it done i suppose. i know the rational outsider’s answer would be ‘well why don’t you start working on that better future self now?’ and i’m like great fucking suggestion and i have nothing to argue against that. i just literally cannot envision my future at this point, even if i act on my vague dream of doing art as a job. maybe once i fucking finish these finals and this quarter i’ll be able to think more clearly but idk. as i said in my last post, i really need to consider seeing a therapist bc being at home and having to handle being under my parents’ control again is really doing a number on me esp as essentially a NEET (partially false since i’m still in edu but i really do be feeling like that since i feel so useless and dependent on my parents at my age when i know others my age are slightly more independent).

i feel like this ended up me rambling about essentially the same things i ramble abt whenever i talk abt my mental health the past few years and idk how much this actually helped unload the burden on my mental state. i just wish i didn’t have to have this trigger bc i would’ve just made the purchase and then not think much abt it until i receive the package. but now i have to have this concern for the future on top of the fucking deadlines i have in the next 2 days.

#diary

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cythoughtsnmemories · 2 years

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11.07.22

Met bf at bugis to try a Vietnamese restaurant. Booo~ but glad that there's 2 shop selling d backpack I wanna get, so got to try on. I got 20% discount cos 7.7 sale. Can't wait for it to arrived. Can use it for my course and upcoming staycation!

Finally tried d curry chicken sandwich and I love it. Heng~ it's not spicy at all cos I weak 😂 tummy can't tahan in morning. I guess d cheese n egg helps reduce any spiciness in d curry chicken. Haven't got chance to meet Della in office, so today we decided to just eat at our canteen. $3.50 seafood soup...damn worth it!

So covid case has been above 9k+ and monkey pox in SG. why not I wfh while I still can. Okay also cos a little sian to go office too haha~ v little pple lah. Wfh also means I gotta meal prep. I have my cold soba w seaweed, egg and seafood tofu.

It's not easy to be bridesmaids seriously. Got to discuss, meet other bridesmaids budget n ensure bride enjoy d bachelorette celebration. Not been a bridesmaid before isn't a good answer or explanation u can't suggest d plan. Anw, we kind of go w my plan. Shall check again in early Aug to confirmed d activity.

I know it's too early to think of my bridesmaids but I really dk who to pick. Everyone seems busy n don't really take initiative to keep the project active. Wait till d day comes bah.

Wanted to cook lunch for bf n his mum but his mum wanted to go woodland blk 15 food industry to get some food, so I went over early. 4 hrs gone, and we settled lunch out. I tot nvm, those ingredients I bought can use to cook Sun lunch. End up his mum wanted to cook satay bee hoon with d gravy she bought ytd. As always, his mum over buy, and now got to eat it for dinner before I go home. Maybe I don't cook at his hse anymore. I had a hard time getting d right portion to cook too.

Planned to go picnic on Sat night w babe. Wanted to try sourdough pizza but contemplating if I should buy vegan food cos bf is trying to go no carbs. In d end he said cheat day HAHAHAHA weee~ bf always let me have happy belly 😝 it's d right choice! The pizza was really satisfying. Imma try d wkday deal someday to try all 4 flavours.

So grateful that bf is open to discuss abt future. Recently I shared an article on 2/3 of divorce was initiate by women due to unacceptable behaviour. I ask bf what's was his list of unacceptable behaviour and I gave mine. Lol I'm d ma fan one. Rmb d last gathering w his friends, bf was so afraid to carry d 7 mths old baby. I was quite affected seeing that. Thinking my husband is not gonna help take care of our baby. How am I suppose d handle when I need help during maternity. Tbh, I'm quite afraid to carry new born. So I shared this concern w him and he laughed. He said if it's his child, he sure dare to carry and he might even toss d baby after a mth. Wts?!! 😂 he is just afraid he injured other pple baby so he refused to carry or interact w kids. Phew~ but now I scared he anyhow toss d baby, omg!! It was a short n sweet dating session before we head back his hse to stayover.

I'm laying on my bed and felt like I can sleep anytime before 11am. Lucky I decided to wfh tmr. Went bouldering this morning w my friends. We hang there for abt 4hrs+, not d 1st time playing but usually went for eock climbing and testing out bouldering afterwards. This time it's fully on bouldering and I used up all my energy. Only had 2 small slice of cake n few cubes of apple in d morning. Now I could still feel numbness in my fingers. Not sure if I'll feel muscle ache tmr. Good luck to me.

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ellyrad · 4 years

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i was eyeing this cute guy yesterday at the club and i knew i had to shoot my shot at some point. when the girls and i went downstairs for a smoke and was ready to go back up, he was on his way down and girllll. i stopped to tell him that i liked his jacket and that was kinda that on that. when we made it back upstairs, he ended up being there by his lonesome and ooOoff SIS. u kno i Had TO!! so i slowly started making my way towards him, danced next to him and next thing you know we were introducing ourselves. then somehow we started dancing together and doin our thang ;XDPP sksksk. it went on for a second until he pulled me to the side for some water and went outside to talk. earlier i had asked him what his sign was and he didnt wanna tell me (yo it rlly b like that) but i kept insisting and he's a damn taurus... mann... sighhhhh... na but we was fsho feelin each other's vibes + energy, it didnt matter if the bruh was 30 or not bc i was drunk, he was a great kisser, and we love the unexpected LOLLL. i didn't wanna leave linda and ella so we left a little after allat and i could not stop thinkin abt his sick ass uGH. we exchanged ig's and i still cant believe this man lives in the same ass smol town as me. damn near 3 blocks away.... shit's CRAZY!! but aheh... he dm'd me the next day talm bout "cant stop thinking abt you" AHHGGKKKKKKKKHHHGG i don't like this!!!!'!! uGH!!!! i've had my experiences w older men who have def taken advantage of me without realizing it and i swear i will not let this shit get through me. i didn't think it was gonna go this far, i thought it was just a one night kinda ting but were kickin it tmr... Im- A KILL MYSELF. how do i tell a bruh we not fucking after all of that.. aishhh.. why i do dis.. another breakdown coming soon!

#ugh

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anbeee-blog · 7 years

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oh sangwoo: ignorant bliss - chapter four

i do not own the manhwa nor do i own any of the killing stalking characters except my own. i do not own the plot of the manhwa except this fanfic plot. killing stalking belongs to koogi. thank you for giving us this beautiful work of art!!

I got home that night blaming myself silly over how terrible our meeting turned out to be. After I washed down my makeup and changed into my home clothes, I turned on my laptop and laid on my bed. My apartment hummed after I'd turned on the heater, enveloping me in comfortable warmth.

Unexpectedly, my phone buzzed on my blanket and I picked it up, wary and knowing full well who it was. I turned it on and went to my messages, one sent by none other than Sangwoo himself.

[unknown]

hey

is this eunbi?

I bit my lip and my thumbs hovered over the screen, hesitating to type a reply. But he's already seen that I opened his messages. I cross my legs on my bed and text him back. Then I open my music playlist on Spotify and let it play in my room.

yeah

sangwoo rite?

mhm

are u home safe now

no one came up to u or anything

right

no nothing like that

thanks for worrying

im ok

sorry for making you worry haha

As I waited for him to reply, I hummed to the song playing on my laptop as I clicked on Tumblr in my bookmarks. I waited for the site to load and looked back at my phone, trying to ease my rapid heartbeat. What was wrong with me?

im just glad ur ok

I clutched my shirt collar and suddenly my chest hurt. He was never one to worry. We always left each other to our own devices and knew that we were capable of ourselves. This wasn't like Sangwoo, but could I really know him after only talking to him for a few hours?

thanks

can we forget about earlier?

haha no wait

i'm genuinely curious

when did it start

when did what start?

I knew damn well what he was referring to and playing dumb wouldn't delay his response any time later.

your crush on me

it's bothering me rn

i wanna know when u started liking me lol

it's kinda funny

That was all he had to say? That me liking him back then was funny? I suddenly didn't want to talk to him anymore and wanted to leave him on read. But something impulsively made me tap a fast reply back, an underlying aggression inside the message.

oh hahaha

started when u got drafted

not surprised u left so soon after we graduated lol

but u can't help it w/ girls or anyone in particular rlly

can u?

Oh my God. Had I really done that? And Sangwoo hadn't even begun typing own message. Anxiety flooded my brain and I fought to keep myself calm. My legs tangled themselves up under the blanket and my hands attempted to steady themselves while still holding the phone.

"What is wrong with me?" I asked nobody in particular.

( . . . )

He's typing.

( . . . )

The more minutes that passed by, the more my anxiety increased and I tried to contain myself. Calm down, Eunbi. It's just a text. No big deal.

ping!

u always know how to make me laugh babe

"Babe?" I whispered. As if that wasn't enough--

let's go out tmr at 3.

u down?

it's not gonna be awk as it was tonite

right

LOL

not if u make it awkward yourself haha

i also got smt else to ask

yeah? what is it

what u heard abt what happened before i left for the military

what exactly did u hear

ill explain

to make it up for earlier

He's actually going to do it, I thought. He was going to open up, as odd enough as it sounded.

i heard that ur parents got murdered

if it's tru

im so sorry

so sorry that i wasn't there for u

and that i didn't know what was going on to comfort u

im saying this in case it's tru

( . . . )

thanks eunbi

it's tru

they got murdered

i didn't take it well

the military was a way for me to cope i guess

i wish i told u about it

instead of being so closed up back then

ik im closed up now but

i'll try to open up to u now that we can talk

He's not apologizing, I noticed. But I was expecting too much of him much too soon, probably. I rubbed my temples and reached for my laptop to play another one of my music playlists. The instrumental piano always managed to soothe me, especially one of Yiruma's works. I shifted my pillows behind me and grabbed one of my Pusheen cat pillows close to me as I typed up a reply.

u don't know how much this means to me

im sorry for always trying to force u to tell me abt ur business

i was always frustrated haha

just tell me when ur ready

i wont force you anymore

😊💖💖

Breathe, Eunbi, breathe.

so where do u wanna meet tmr?

u remember that old cafe we always went to after school ?

i wanna go there

and i wanna talk more

ill tell u everything that happened while i was gone

and i wanna know more about you

and if it's alright

since it's during the day

can i come over to ur house after? read

lol

so if it weren't night then u would've come

right

haha im not gonna fuck you eunbi

I felt myself blush and screamed into my Pusheen cat pillow.

wtf no i wasn't thinking that

even if it were night i still would've come

it was just late tonite

u pervert

see u tmr at 3?

mhm

u goin to sleep?

yeah haha i have a class in the morning

shit im goin back to college lol

rlly?? which one

im at the local one that's close by.

sungsoo university

basically the only one in this area LOL

damn

im goin there soon

fuckk haha

well night eunbi

night

After I turned off my phone and my laptop, I lied back in bed hugging my Pusheen cat pillow. All I knew for a fact that this wasn't the Sangwoo that I knew back then and that he definitely, definitely changed a lot. His tone was flirtatious, practically oozing through the text. And I didn't like it. But it didn't hurt to do that, would it?

I wasn't conversing with the person that I had so closely confided with and spent almost my entire high school career with. We were grown adults now and it would be natural for men to unconsciously flirt every once in a while. Right?

The night continued to prosper outside my window and I listened to the crickets hum and some toads that croaked every now and then. He'd changed and I would have to accept it. We weren't adolescents anymore. We were thrown in a world that treated us harshly and nothing better than the dirt that we walked on. Maybe the military shaped him into that sort of thinking along with his behavior. Maybe I wasn't Sangwoo's only friend and I was just glooming over him like some obsessive freak.

It was getting late and I was acting like my high school self again, fussing over something so miniscule. Sangwoo no longer wore his glasses, enhancing his handsome appearance. Maybe his looks had thrown me off and my hormones spun out of control as a result.

I'm going crazy, I concluded. And reached over to my nightstand and turned the lamp off.

continuing in... | chapter five | (chapter will be linked as soon as i update!)

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