dont ask me what this is girl i dont KNOW

beesbees has a full foot height difference. to me. in my head kristen’s like 5’2” and gertie’s like 6’4”

I feel like this may have been asked before but: recommendations for a D&D player looking to branch out into other games (no genre preference) but with the caveat that they want to keep using most of their weirdly shaped dice? Systems that utilize just one type of dice (Shadowrun, WoD, etc.) are scary.

THEME: All The Dice

Hello friend! You are somewhat correct in that I've made recommendations similar to this before, so keep an eye on the rec list at the bottom. This is the first time however, that I'm specifically looking for games that use most of the polyhedral dice. I hope you find something that fits your taste in this list!

Shattered: A Grimdark RPG, by Never Dark Enough.

Shattered is a self-contained tabletop RPG that is built on a unique die system providing players with a tangible sense of growth. Inhabit one of eight distinct races and explore the dangerous post-apocalyptic world of Feneryss.

Millennia ago, millions sacrificed themselves in a ritual to the dark god, Ragnarok. The blood rite failed and rebounded on the planet, capsizing entire tectonic plates, replacing once plentiful oceans with molten rock, and calling down catastrophic storms to ravage what remained.

If you want gritty fantasy, steampunk and horror, Shattered might be for you. There’s biological mutations, vampires, gunpowder, sentient fungi… and more! Shattered’s game system is pretty crunch-heavy, giving your player different dice to roll depending on the rating of their character’s skills. There’s also plenty of rules for attacks, reactions, damage reduction, and other conditions that may pop up in combat, such as disease. If you want to pull in a lot of the granularity that existed in D&D, but you also like the idea of rolling multiple dice for any given attack, you might want to check out Shattered.

24XX: The Last Order, by S.A. Young.

After the Fae Courts were ravaged by a primordial evil known as The Dark Well, they went to seek out help from the Realm of Man. Sadly, many centuries have gone by since this many Fae have been in the Realm of Man. Modern and strange, the only ones that can help fight back the evil are fledgling mages. Now Fae and mages join forces to form The Last Order.

24XX games exist on a solid skeleton, even if it’s only a few bare bones. Your players will use d6’s, d4’s, d8’s and occasionally d10’s, while you, the GM, will use a d20 for the random roll tables that exist in pretty much every iteration of this game. I find 24XX games to be quick and easy to teach, as well as either affordable or free. They’re also reminiscent of the OSR style of play, so learning 24XX might be the first step into a much larger world of OSR games. The Last Order focuses on a world of faerie magic, warped by a primordial evil, so if you want to include a familiar feeling of fantasy along with your bundle of polyhedral dice, this game might be worth checking out. (If you want a different genre, just check out the abundance of titles under the 24XX tag on itch.io)

Children of the Apocalypse, by Happy Monster Press.

In the ruins of an ancient city, a band of treasure hunters seeks ancient artifacts to fuel the creations of a powerful Tinker Mage.  Armies trade musket fire across rolling hills as pikemen brace to receive a charge of monstrous shock troops.  An assassin in the service of the Goddess of Death and Disease sets a gunpowder charge beneath the foundations of a rival church.  A wizard faces down a psion in an arcane duel for possession of a trove of ancient texts.  All these adventures and more are daily occurrences in the world of Children of the Apocalypse, a post-apocalyptic fantasy setting for Savage Worlds.

Savage Worlds uses different size dice for different skills, which is why I’ve recommended it as a D&D substitute in the past. But what it also has going for it is a broad community of players and game designers such as Happy Monster Press, with various settings available all for the same rules system. Children of the Apocalypse combines mythology with an apocalypse, with fantastical civilizations rising from the ashes of the old world. The biggest downside to games such as this is that you’ll likely also need the Savage Worlds Adventure Edition in order to play the game.

Old Gods of Appalachia, by Monte Cook Games.

In the mountains of Central Appalachia, blood runs as deep as these hollers and just as dark. Since before our kind wandered into these hills, hearts of unknowable hunger and madness have slumbered beneath them.

These are the oldest mountains in the world. How dare we think we can break the skin of a god and dig out its heart without also calling blood and darkness?

Venture into the dark, eerie past of an alternate Appalachia and enjoy a fluid, story-based roleplaying experience with an intuitive, concept-driven character generation system that gives you limitless options. With loads of lore, dozens of creatures and NPCs, and two complete adventures to launch your campaign, the Old Gods of Appalachia Roleplaying Game has everything you need to experience your own stories of horror, hardship, and heart in this immersive, narrative, and deeply chilling setting.

The Cypher System primarily uses a d20 and d6’s, with d10s and d100s used occasionally. I’ve run games such as Numenera for many a former D&D player, and it was quite easy for folks to put together a character concept, even if the rules were a bit of a shift. Old Gods of Appalachia is one of Monte Cook’s newest games using the Cypher System, and it’s cultivated a great amount of acclaim due to its link to the podcast of the same name. If your group wants to keep rolling a bunch of weird dice and also wants a link to a popular, well-loved piece of media to inspire their stories, them I definitely recommend this game.

I am Furious, by Brabblemark Press.

I Am Furious (Pink) is a dramatic tabletop roleplaying game that takes you through the events of one terrible day and then—reborn with the power of a goddess—retraces your story so you can unleash vengeance or bestow mercy on those who did you wrong.

At its most fantastic, the game may resemble a big-budget superhero franchise, where you transform into a black-winged Fury with a glowing blade and strike down your enemies. However, to reach that peak you start with smaller scenes like escaping a prison, avenging a murder, restoring a lost treasure, or more realistic play exploring the darker sides of your family, romantic, business, or other relationships.

This is a really unique game that I stumbled onto when I was browsing through the latest releases on Itch. It carries many of the same elements of sci-fi and superhero settings, giving your characters impressive powers that are linked to a goddess specifically in a way that allows them to carry out vengeance. It’s designed to tell personal stories, and requires each player to have at least one of each polyhedral dice. The full game is $5 but there is a bare-bones and dyslexic-friendly version that you can download for free if you want a taste before you put your money on it. If you like games of resistance and personal catharsis, you might want to check out I am Furious.

Recs Posts to Check Out

Tactical Combat Games

Fuck Wizards of the Coast

D&D-Level Crunch and Structure

Character Customization

Echoes of D&D

Games I’ve Recommended in the Past

Lex Arcana, by Archeron Games.

Kids on Bikes, by Hunters Entertainment.

Mausritter, by Losing Games

Garthy Propaganda

(omitting only the many, many "need i elaborate?"/"it's self-explanatory" with no other comment on them responses, the only edits i've made to these are correcting a couple instances of misgendering and misspelled names)

"Over in the corner, you guys see what must be Garthy O'Brien. They're a tall, muscular, half orc aasimar. They're shirtless with a few accents of thin lined, geometric tattoo work around their wrists and biceps, as well as some floral tattoos on their midsection. They wear no shirt, but elaborate fabric-heavy harem pants and fine boots with like a myriad of like belts and straps and all that kind of stuff. Their head is shaved at the sides and back. Little flop of black hair on top. The irises are shimmering metallic gold. So it's like a halo superimposed on a jet black eye. They also have accented that by metallic silver makeup on their lips and a little around their eyes. You see that they have a massive two handed scimitar behind them that has a lot of like, gold rings, sort of stamped into the back of the blade. And there are gold rings jangling on the back of it. You also see that they have scars on their chest, as though they have gotten some kind of surgery, that they have like, disguised a little bit with some of those geometric celestial tattoos."

"first time i ever considered Brennan attractive"

"Nonbinary people are objectively hot especially when they have golden celestial tattoos also the voice Brennan does for them radiates comfort"

"HAVE YOUSEEN TJEM"

"This is self explanatory I feel like. Goddamn they're so fucking hot"

"Obviously? Their whole thing is like, angel succubus and also everything else, 10/10"

"They’re suave, they’re sexy, and I’d risk it all for them."

"They are the most pansexual sexy mother fucker in all of D20, frankly I don't blame Sandra Lynn, I would fuck them too and I don't think my wife would even be mad"

"i had to submit a second form because i cannot believe i forgot them. GOD they’re so hot. i’ve derived entire OCs just so i could create a character in their universe that had a SLIVER of a chance of getting with them. i don’t even have WORDS for how hot they are just pure unbridled unthinking lust. and you KNOW they’re a good fuck too. like they KNOW what they’re doing. sandra lynn didn’t cheat on jawbone for shit sex, like that questionable choice was arguably worth it."

"they’re a pirate, they’re trans, what more can you ask for"

"Sandra Lynn and I have some stuff in common"

"I have eyes and a pulse??? sexy non-binary pirate with the biggest dick energy on the planet…. sweet Jesus……."

"This is entirely self explanatory I feel, but they have to be the single hottest NPC Brennan has ever done. They're live in a pirate city! You might also get to fuck Sandra Lynn and/or Jawbone if they're down! They'd be infinitely respectful of you! There are no Ls here."

"I’m asexual (??? maybe just ace-spec, who knows) but I once had a dream about Garthy that was the closest I’ve ever gotten (and probably the closest I ever will get) to a sex dream. Also I made a compilation of literally every single word they speak because I’m so obsessed with their voice (I don’t want to post it on main for reasons, but I’m considering making a sideblog just to post it…would you reblog it if I tagged you 👀👀)"

"EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM"

"I think I’m mostly just in love with Brennan saying ‘Lovey’"

"CANONICALLY fuckable. just ask jack brakkow"

"Smooth, silver tongued, confident, they know how to take care of their patrons and partners alike. Flirty, fun, hot."

"see. we all know they're hot and fuckable and cool as hell. we all know this"

"Yes."

"Pansexual hedonist, plus that accent"

"It’s the voice (also everything else they do)"

"intelligent, considerate, and nonbinary"

"the voice, the gender, the everything"

"Nonbinary. hot."

"The origin of Night yorb is their name. Orc satanist. Gnc. Buisness owner. The child and parent of ayda (my beloved.) But most of all they just got it going on. Milkshakes to the yard and all that"

"this is honestly objectively true. gold gardens. they’re just fuckable. their art? their tattoos? that fucking accent?????????? beautiful handsome attractive kind"

"They’re just. Hot. The pirate theme is smth but also just, they’re shirtless and full of good fashion honestly I would kill for the chance"

"they are a truly GORGEOUS individual, and their fashion sense is second to none. Garthy seems to be a bit of a cheeky flirt to be sure, but they're also a deeply caring & emotionally tuned-in person, & I reckon their foreplay & aftercare game goes buckwild. 10/10 would love to have a several-week-long pleasure binge at the Gold Gardens after a hard year's adventuring. They've got a 21 in charisma & if you didn't realise that just seeing them for the first time, you'll know it for sure after your first night with them! ;)"

"have you seen them. their whole thing is fucking people. HAVE YOU SEEN THEM. canonically fucks incredibly well"

"Look they run a brothel and they've had sex with both parts of a monogamous couple they know what to do ok. And their vibes are so comforting I love them. And also they're hot."

"Their whole deal + Descended from celestials specialized in fucking people into being decent."

saw your post abt rapunzel manipulating tim in their convo and god hard agree it Is concerning that so many ppl didn't see it. also crazy to me that ppl are mad at tim and defending rapunzel, saying that they would have taken the book too because tim was being rude etc. to me it seemed that both tim the character and ally the player Wanted to believe that rapunzel wasn't part of the plan and was good but just kind of strange, and both are successfully fooled. tim absolutely fumbles the interaction and ally could have played things better, but rapunzel was so clearly in charge of the conversation, leading him into saying worse and worse things and putting his foot in his mouth while tim was genuinely trying to be nice. tim is awkward and blunt and eccentric with Everyone, it's weird that ppl are saying he was being singularly rude to her or patronizing her or that he deserved to get the book taken. that interaction was clumsy as hell and so many words could have been chosen better but tim so clearly was trying so hard to fix his initial fuck up and be friendly w her in the same weird way he talks to everyone. I don't see how ppl came out of that scene on her side even if tim was a little rude and unfortunate w his word choice, and it's concerning to see ppl being like "ha take that stupid old man!!" abt the book being taken + in defense of a character we met an episode and a half ago and who we have been told outright is an expert at deceiving people. the princesses are so so interesting as characters and the morals going on are complex and that's a whole different conversation, but I feel like no matter whether you love rapunzel or not, ppl should be able to recognize that she was manipulating tim in that moment and taking advantage of his trusting disposition. not trying to start discourse in your ask box ofc!!! I've just seen No One Else express discomfort w rapunzel in that scene

anon this ask has been living in my head rent free since you sent it, i've been stewing over how to respond because y e s. for context, check out this post to save discourse on main (this is about to be a long one of fan critic analysis, get your popcorn and settle in if you wanna read, this is the longest post i've ever made), im gonna put my thoughts and response under a read more, sososo many spoilers under the cut read at your own risk

These were all in the replies and tags and I want to reply to all of them bc they're all worthy of being talked about bc i feel like the majority of the fandom is almost scared to critique?? So like let's talk about it since nobody else seems to be taking this approach from what I can tell (thank you to you anon for being on my side as well as the rest of you who are screaming with me) I will begin by saying that my original post is not critiquing ally the player, or any of the other players. i understand that they were in that dome, filming a session of dungeons and dragons, and improv acting and roleplaying for many hours on end with back to back episodes. i kind of get ally and the rest of the table maybe just wanting to "hope for the best", especially ally as they are quite a "hope for the good in others" type of person. it's frustrating from a viewer perspective sure, but i totally dont blame anyone ever for making a "wrong" or "non-optimal" choice while playing a ttrpg, they just have the misfortune of being filmed while doing so. i myself have made tons of bag fumbles while playing dnd, even when i thought everything through ten times over. so anything i have said or will say forward isn't to put any shouldering on to the people playing these silly storybook characters, like, i Get It

What i do want to critique is the fan response, which is the more worrying one!!! like i said in my original post, i was surprised by my d20 watch buddy having a similar response to ally. the total "oh, maybe she's just quirky bc of the self isolation, maybe she's autism rep" approach. my friend, love her to death, is also one of those "sees the best in others and hope everyone is always aiming to be their best selves" type of person, very similar to ally. i came online after that episode expecting everybody on the fanbase level to be screaming with me in a "i told you so!!" way

instead. i came online and saw people just on the attack and the defense in absolutely skewed ways!! out of NOWHERE, all these fans have come on to post about how "tim was patronizing her, and thats why she stole the book" "wow i would have hated being called girly and honey as well" "wow these conversations really didnt go their way why was tim so mean to her :(" or the opposite of "rapunzel is the evilest person to ever exist bc xyz these princesses are evil villains" or "we need to protect these princesses bc they just didnt know any better uwu"

i feel like, on a fan level, me and you anon (+all these lovely folks in the notes of that post) were the only ones screaming "hold on, that is literally not the same media i just watched"

i've seen before a lot of people be like "wow, media literacy is at an all time low" and i never really understood that until i saw the reactions after that episode. as a fan or viewer watching any media, we have the privilege of seeing more about the media than the people who are creating it. that's the best joy of being a viewer, we get to sit back and spot those foreshadowing moments and bite our nails in suspense when the music goes creepy and see the artwork and overall, we have the privilege of catching vibes that maybe those acting in it do not. this leads to those bonding moments of "i told you so" "wow im biting my nails and pacing" "oh they're gonna REGRET that". and, an "oh my god no no no do not hug her she wants to take your book god now she's feeling you up with her hair she's looking for the book ROLL INITIATIVE!!!!". it leads to glorious moments of ~dramatic irony~, a literary term for literally when something is happening in a story and the readers can catch it, but the protagonist probably didnt bc they're not seeing the full picture. While watching, from my perspective, yeah it was frustrating to watch the player bag fumble turn after turn, but it's a game of dnd, they film so many back to back, they don't get the same experience as us. however.

brennan did a great job at dropping the foreshadowing, to the point of not even so much subtly foreshadowing, he DIRECTLY TOLD THEM rapunzel was a liar and uses her words as knives. like someone pointed out, the players even PAID for that information, with the golden bridle. by the time they met these princesses, they probably knew the most about rapunzel's true nature over all the other princesses, that she uses her charisma to her advantage. the players made their choice to do the diplomatic route, to split up and chat. ally did the right thing for picking rapunzel with tim's 19 charisma stat, it would have been charisma against charisma, and an even playing field for someone they have been explicitly told is a master of words and deceit.

as fans, we've seen these episodes edited and put back to back. clues are lined up in a row. was it frustrating to see ally playing tim in a naïve way? sure. but tim's been pretty naïve this whole time, so you could stack it up to a character choice. what's more frustrating is seeing the responses of viewers being blindsided by the book thieving and chalking it all up to "evil vs good" and rapunzel's choice shaking them to their cores.

by this point in the story, by the time you get to that episode, rapunzel already gave enough bad vibes with the talk of her charismatic deceits and with her hair everywhere spying on them. maybe that last one wasn't explicitly stated, but it was heavily implied to the point of gerard writing the plans on a note instead of wanting them said out loud by elody, a scene that happened way before tim's. by the time we see rapunzel get to the kitchen, she is INSTANTLY catty. someone described her on the post as "eldritch regina george" and. yes. exactly. eldritch regina george. from our privileged spot as a viewer, rapunzel comes in, puts on the fake smile, puts on her fake tone, and says "what are you doing in here? :)". she was already ready to fight timothy. that first sentence was hostile. she was OFFENDED and checking on tim to make sure mother goose wasn't counter-spying. i honestly didnt think that would have to have been explicitly stated, she was in attack mode and plastered the fake smile for a show so that she had the upperhand in the conversation that was about to happen. this is something that fans should have at least caught on to right off the bat, we've been explicitly told that she is fake more than she is honest for the sake of being a "performative person"

the conversation happens, and she starts becoming more verbally hostile. "i dont know, what SHOULD we do hehe. it's ruined now :)" "no use in crying over spilt milk *pours milk with hair on the floor with a smile* oh no :)" "...or if it was on purpose :/ :)" "why dont you go get a mop :)" "i chose to be charming :)"

every sentence she replied with was carefully chosen. as viewers, we can watch brennan's face in full clarity of intimidation. we can have the knowledge that has been provided to not trust rapunzel as she is a charismatic spy who has words for knives. in my opinion, even without those clues before now, her show that she put on in the kitchen should have been enough as is to show that she is acting maliciously and with hostility. the smile is there as to not incite physical violence on tim's part bc then it would make TIM look like the bad guy if he attacked first. by the time she goes in for the hug. im sorry. but ally the player should have caught that, the whole table should have caught that, and-more importantly-the fans should have caught that. we all watched the same thing. we have all been told the same information. to purposefully ignore all of the red flags just to pull a "well tim was kind of mean and patronizing, and rapunzel doesnt have social skills from being locked in a tower, i forgive her, wow i didnt see that coming" is absolutely *batshit*

the lack of people catching on is what concerns me. i've met TONS of people growing up (sorry here, im all for women's wrongs, but mainly cis-girls tbh) who act like rapunzel does. from middle school and high school bullies/mean girls. mean girls at college. from parents or teachers or bosses. from normal adults in my life. they always have the same tone and inflections in the same places. the same faces with the wrinkled nose. the same sickly sweet smile. brennan played rapunzel, a known manipulator, perfectly. to a T. he embodied it fully. people JUST LIKE RAPUNZEL walk amongst us every day. i can guarantee you that even these fans that didnt catch it have met people like rapunzel in their own lives.

rapunzel is a character yes, but she is a character that mimics a masterclass manipulator. she IS the mean girl, the regina george. it leaked out of her every word, tone, and inflection. every single thing told about her and shown was, in no world, some "uwu the sweet bean was locked in a tower and doesnt have social skills". that was her origin, her start point. just like sleeping beauty locked in a castle, snow locked in her coffin. rapunzel directly says "i chose to be charming. :)." she had her origin of no social skills, her sad origin of being locked in isolation in her tower, and said "this is my greatest flaw, so i am going to dedicate my life to improving this skill bc it's what stopping me from achieving my goals." she trained her social skills to be good. too good. so good that she hopes nobody will catch her sweet charming self in the act of malicious intentions. this. was. directly. stated.

it worries me on a psychological level of the fans. yes it shows a lack of media literacy, something is frustrating on a fan-to-fan level. it shows a lack of ability of critical thinking. it shows a lack of ability to participate in dramatic irony, a necessary literary device to instill tension into a horror campaign. but also, and to what is probably my main point in this novel long hot take: it has real world implications. mean girls like rapunzel are a guarantee in life. i'm sorry, but it's true. maybe the person acts differently, maybe they aren't as obvious or more obvious. but these people walk amongst us. they use the same tone and same cadence to their words. these manipulators see what they want, and devise a way to convince the person into giving them what they want. rapunzel did not use the Charm Person spell, or the Friendship spell. She used. her words. like a normal human being. and by doing so, we as the fans were able to catch on and should have had a moment of "RUN GOOSE, RUN AWAY, NO DONT LET HER HUG YOU". but instead, a lot of people turn a blind eye to these manipulators in their lives. they pull a "aw but they have a tragic backstory, they're just confused and need love :/" "they cant be THAT bad..." they see a sweet little smile on the face and an upticked tone of voice, and go "well, they're playing nice, so now i have to play nice bc otherwise im the bad guy here" which!!! you do not!!

this is exactly how manipulators worm their ways in, this is what ALLOWS manipulation to work in its various forms. it's how people get trapped in abusive relationships. it's how people get scammed. on a personal end, i lived a narcissistic manipulator for a long time growing up, and it was exhausting. once you could put down the rose colored glasses and see right through the act, you notice how every inch of their mannerisms are performative. everything they say and do comes with the caveat of them wanting something from you and are trying to butter you up in the meantime. if you catch and call onto it, they IMMEDIATELY turn on you, they sneer and retreat to their next target who it will fool. the cycle continues, the next target is selected.

on a fan level, if we as fans cannot play into dramatic irony as a practice, if we cannot exit our seats of mind to catch on to those "eldritch regina george" quirks at the bud in a piece of fictional media where the puzzle has been handed on a silver platter, then there is a l o t more work to be done on 1) general media literacy 2) ANY fandom perception on media and 3) general awareness of how to spot and deal with manipulators in real life. if you can't catch on to it in a silly fictional ttrpg media, how do you expect to catch on to it in real life? how many of these same fans are trapped in manipulative relationships around them? how many more will they fall for bc of the "oh no but they have tragic backstory so it's forgiven uwu"? as fans, you cant sit there in the same breath saying that tim was condescending to rapunzel and then follow it up with not noticing what was ACTUALLY happening in real time. if you wanna say that rapunzel was ALLOWED to be a manipulator because of her origin, what other manipulators are you defending in your real life? how many of these manipulators continue their tricks BECAUSE they know naïve people exist and will fall for it? how many have been enabled in the same cycle bc it worked on one so it'll work on the next?

i wish i had a fun way to conclude this absolutely massive chunk of fandom critique gibberish, but i just dont. i wish i could find a more comprehensive way to scream about this, so take this post as me SCREAMING about this, anon my dm's are open if we wanna rant some more

oh damn uh top 5 fics you’ve written or top 5 cot3 fics you’ve read. you can do both if you want just thought i’d offer options

tysm anon!!! embarassing confession moment i have NOT read many cot3 fics yet- and by "not many" i mean i've only read faun and casey's fics that they've written and only those because i edited them skfvjnfksjbn IM SORRY. IVE BEEN MEANING TO BINGE READ BC SO MANY OF THEM LOOK GOOD <///3 ive just had a brain block about it thus far but i WILL deep dive into the tag soon and i have a bunch all saved to my marked for later that will be the first i read <33

anyway. top five fics ive written. aa help !! this is so hard ive written so many ksfjnkfsjb (im gonna limit myself to fics ive Posted so i dont start talking abt niche dna fics or charlieverse or noble pining even more than i already do ksjfnb-)

[in no particular order]

if i only could make a deal with god (i'd get him to swap our places) (aka slasher <3) [slasher movie au. fantasy high/d20. fig & gorgug centric] -- this fic is so special to me. its one of the clearest, most thematically concise and effective works i think i've ever written, i think it's emotionally devastating and just what i wanted it to be when i sat down possessed by some horror writing spirit to write it fskjbnskfb it's so special to me forever <3

you could have my heart (and I would break it for you) [by jamie @gilears and myself. fantasy high/d20. fig/gorgug.] -- the original jamsav figgorgug fic <3 the fic from which figgorgugaversary day originates from and it's so special to me forever <3 we brainmelded and wrote it together and it's crazy and clean and soosooooo dear <33 it just makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside when i think about and reread it xoxox

that was my heart, the drums that start off night and day [cafe/bookstore meet cute au. fantasy high/d20. fig/ayda.] -- wrote this as a gift fic for a dear friend even before they became a dear friend and i just think the pacing and characterization in it is so lovely and fun and it has some wonderful fig and gorgug bandmate bffship <33

the answer to an unspoken question [get together. leverage. eliot/parker/hardison.] -- they are so <3 i think my characterization and voices for them are just. spot on in this and it's such an indulgent thing to reread which i do Frequently <3

and it's warm and real and bright [kid fic. the unsleeping city/d20. sofie/dale.] -- kisses to asher @myclericalromance forever for the inspo this fic drew from <3 i just think hot single dad dale is so fun and the kid oc grace is really special to me because i drew a lot of inspiration from my dear baby cousin when i was writing this so <333

honorable metions: it's friday i'm in love (my ace riz/ anti fabriz spite fic with bonus figgorgug). darling i'd wait for you even if you didn't ask me to (grepre keiko fic for casey @aberfaeth 's birthday last year <3 so silly and fun). i've waited and watered my heart til it grew (a jonmartin magnus archives scottish honeymoon get together fic that is sooooo toothrotting). and what it's like to shine (my eldonado american vandal/stardust au ksjfvnkb <3)

xoxoxoxox tysm for the ask anon!!!

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A Little Bit Like Home

You moving to school has been tougher than Calum would like to admit but there are some moments that make it easier to bear, there are small moments where it’s not so bad. 

A continuation of these two blurbs (Blurb 1 and Blurb 2) Again it’s hella self indulgent. Inspired what really happened to me in my DnD campaign, see this post.  

**Contains spoilers for the Waterdeep Heist from Dungeons & Dragons if you are currently playing that module!!!**

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“Can I make a perception check on the walls? See if there’s anything else funky in this room?” you ask, clicking over in your browser tab to the dice roller. The DM allows you to make that call and you click on the d20. 

“Your the only one rolling well on those things tonight,” one member of your party, playing an Orc sent out to learn magic and getting packed in with your ragtag group, notes after their failed attempt to pick the lock. You managed to pick that that too, but you chalk it up to you being a Drow Rogue and lock picking being one of your skills. 

“18,” you call out, looking back at your character sheet to make sure you’ve done the math correctly. 

“18?” The DM asks, just to be sure. You nod. “Okay, so you look around the room and there’s not really anything worth noting besides some dirt and blood. But no traps, no buttons in this room.”

“This room,” the entire party echoes laughing. The six of you have just survived barely a lightning trap. Which you still refuse to admit to setting up, but it was definitely you since as the marching order had you in front. 

“We’re going to have to go back to that mimic room,” the paladin of your group declares. Your party was warned that the room at the start of your adventure in this hell of a magic maze could be a trap and a mimic could be in the depths of it. But there was a chest still yet to be opened. However, you took the advice of your Orc and backed out of that room to avoid a fight just yet. 

Your previous encounters in other rooms leaving some of your party is better shape than others. This early in your adventure together the five of you didn’t really want to risk loosing anyone just yet. Lightening and your pirates love of ale seemed to be your only foe at the moment. 

“We should maybe just see what’s in here first,” Calum, playing as a Druid, counters. “Though it seems like if we find yet another key to a door that’s already been picked, it’s might be useless.” 

You know the tease is directed at you. “Hey, look here buddy, I will not hesitate to shoot a quiver into your ass. I see a lock I’m going to pick it,” you defend. 

“Besides,” your party’s pirate starts, “we’ve ducked a lot of rooms afraid of getting into another fight. If they pick a lock or two and we find the key later, at least we can add to the Bard’s collection.”

“Thank you,” you laugh. 

Soon your party’s able to direct their attention back on the adventure and magic maze you’ve found yourself in. You and Calum end up smashing mirrors in a room to avoid any sort of magic in them that would cause your party to fight your soul doubles. This leads to a five minute debate of how to leave said room that didn’t involve shoving the unicorn that your party was tasked with finding up someone’s ass due to a riddle unveiled, Everything you see is mine.

“Wait,” you say, laughing at the argument about who can fit the unicorn into their mouth. It was deemed to be more dignified. Your pirate waits outside the room, still naked thanks to the magic that rips all the clothes, weapons, and armor off of anyone that attempts to leave the room. “Everything you see is mine. If the mirrors are smashed, then nothing can be seen right?”

“No, shards can be face up, so technically things can be seen,” the party’s Bard counters. 

“No, no, you’re onto to something,” the pirate starts. 

“Oh my god, we’re so fucking dumb,” the orc hollers. “Someone cover their eyes. You means us. Anything we can see can’t leave the room.”

Thankfully, you’re still dressed having only attempted to leave the room and letting others continue with their naked escapades. “Holy shit,” you shriek as you direct to your DM how you cover your face with your hood and hold it tight around your eyes so you can’t see anything and step through the door. You’re able to cross completely clothed, swords, crossbow, and pack still in tact. 

“We’re so fucking STUPID,” you laugh. 

Calum’s giggle cuts through the speakers of your laptop. “How were we so prepared to just be fucking naked through the rest of this maze?” He directs to the DM that he redresses, having also attempted several times to brute force the magic door with no success. 

“We never speak of that,” the orc demands through their own laughter. “Never.”

The party comes to a stopping point about another hour later, saying goodbyes before leaving the Zoom meeting. Not even thirty seconds later after ending that call, an incoming FaceTime call comes from Calum. You answer it, wiping at the corner of your eyes. He’s grinning as the call finally connects. The weekend that Calum came up to visit, a friend in the cohort asked you if you’d be willing to going a beginner’s campaign. You had wanted to give the game a whirl but you knew it would be a time suck and asked if it was okay to bring someone else along too. 

After getting a yes from the DM you know you had to convince Calum to join in. It took less effort than you thought for him to join in and the two of you spent a couple hours the night before picking out your characters before you emailed the information back to the DM. Now every Saturday night you and Calum spend about three hours in a Zoom getting into all sorts of trouble. He settled easily on the Druid but spent forever trying to find an artist rendering of his character, Okolian, that felt right. Long black hair with streaks of white was a must along with a single braid as well, which he stole from your character’s look though your hair is all white. 

Slowly, it was decided that Okolian would have blue skin muscular, but not overly buff and refused to wear sleeves in order to wear leather arm bands around his biceps which could easily be mistaken for tattoos or markings of his people. Okolian prefers his staff but is also armed with a sickle and mace. The Calum touch of course was to add ferns rather than feathers. 

“I can’t believe you were going to let me be the one to have to figure out the unicorn,” Calum teases. 

“Hey, it was only six inches. Not that bad.”

He sputters his laughter. “Is that payback for calling you out for picking all the locks?”

“I would never do such a thing but maybe.” 

“Anything else on the agenda for tonight?”

“No not really. Whatever work there is out in the world, I’ll get to it tomorrow. What about you? The night’s still young.”  

Calum shrugs. “A friend was supposed to get back to me about drinks tonight,  but I haven’t heard anything yet. If he gets back within the hour or so, I’ll probably tag along but if not, it’s not a big deal. But you never did tell me about last night. How’d that go?”

You cover your face for a second, remember how many drinks were consumed the night previously. Calum laughs at the slightly panicked look that crosses your face. “There was two drinks too many past my usual limit and I felt it. Big time,” you answer. 

He’s glad to hear you getting out more. It’s in turned made him feel a bit better about getting back to his normal routine, getting dinner more with the guys or other friends. Missing you doesn’t hurt so bad anymore for Calum. He feels most often right before he’s going to bed, when he’d normally curl up into your side and open his arms wide for you to curl up into him. But it hurts less during the day. 

Getting used to the cohort and getting out a couple Friday’s in the month has helped you as well. You don’t feel so chained to your phone, don’t feel so beholden to being there for every text right away. It’s still hard when you start to cook dinner and almost reach out for a second plate still by habit. And in the morning when you’re fixing your cup of coffee your brain still wants to pull down a second cup. Sometimes you do. Sometimes you just give in because you need it. Need to let yourself sit with those feelings. 

“I’ll be sticking with cider after last night,” you tease. “Wine makes me myself too much. Never doing that again.”

Calum’s been privileged to see you wine drunk a couple of times and he can already imagine the type of trouble you nearly got yourself in. “Is your picture on the wall at the bar?”

“Not that bad, but close,” you giggle. 

“What am I going to do with you?” 

It’s just a joke but for a moment it makes you pause--what’s going to happen when you go back for break? Are things going to be different? Most of your clothes and things are still there though slowly more and more has been shipped to you. Is Duke going to remember you? Miss you too?

“Promise me the house isn’t too different?”

Calum furrows his brows, head titling just a little to the side. “What do you mean, baby?”

“Like without me, is it all going to be different when I come back?”

“It’s all pretty much the same here. Duke’s the king of the castle. Still have plenty of hoodies for you to steal and your side of the bed still misses you. I still miss you.”

“No, I--I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like I don’t want you to find ways to cope but I don’t know. What if it never feels right? Like so much has been missed that I just won’t ever fit in again?”

Calum shakes his head. “Babe, no. You still belong. Your shoes still have space in the closet. Your mugs still sit in the cabinets. There is so much of you still here--it’s how I get through the days.”

Maybe that’s what’s rough for you. There’s not much of Calum at your place. There’s none of his dirty laundry that’s halfway hanging of laundry baskets and there’s no bass rumbling and there’s snoring next to you at night. It’s all you, which is nice. But you wish you had a little bit of Calum too. 

“There’s none of you here,” you say softly. 

“I can fix that.” It’s a steady confidence, a nod of his head at statement. “Don’t you worry.”

You two steer the conversation to something lighter before you call it a night. And it’s harder to get up the next morning, to peel yourself out of the sheets. But you do it, you push up with a grunt and get your day started. Coffee, a quick bowl of cereal and fruit. You call Calum right before lunch to check in and then get back to work. 

As the days pass, the conversation the ache gets buried in some stress. However, you get a text about a package to get from the lockers at the front of your complex so shuffle down the path thinking it’s the new mattress pad you ordered. It shipped late last week but you hadn’t expected it to arrive this soon. 

As the door swings open to the locker you spy Calum’s handwritten on the label of the package. What the hell had be gone and done? You pick up the box and kick the door close with your foot before taking it back up to your apartment. Setting the box down on the kitchen counter, you find the scissors and cut into it. Right on top is a small envelope with your name scribbled across it. 

You said you didn’t have anything of me. So I knew I had to correct that. I hope they help. And a little thing from the old man, well not from him. But you’ll understand when you get to that. 

Love you. 

Digging into the box, you notice a few guitar pics, a couple extra t-shirt and then a long thin box. You pick it up, noticing it looks like a necklace. But with Calum you never can be sure. As you crack it open, you laugh, finding a gold chain staring up at you, attach to it is a tiny locket that as a paw print on it. You crack it open though and find a tiny picture of Calum and you inside of it and your eyes well with tears. It’s from your last vacation before you left for school, just two of you reclined on the beach and Calum kissing your temple. 

You draft a text to Calum. Tell Duke it feels like home now. 

OKAY BITCHES ON TO PART 2!

Also don’t forget to check out Part 1 if you haven’t yet!

British

Okay so maybe it’s in poor taste to start the British section with dolls I’m not actually sure are British, but fuck it. The one on the left is a doll I’m reasonably sure I got from a British seller, and the one on the right seems to just be a scaled-up version of it, SO. That’s what I’m going with.

No joke, the left doll is my favorite Sonic plushie EVER. It’s so incredibly fluffy and the proportions are just right and it’s really well-made and AUUGHH I LOVE HIM. Interestingly the doll on the right is made of the same uber-fuzzy material, but it doesn’t have as much of a fluffy effect because of the larger scale. Also the shoe stripes are ribbons for some reason, which makes them stand out from all the other dolls.

So this is from a line of dolls that, as far as I’ve ever seen, are simply known as “Europe prize” plushies. I don’t know if they were actual prizes for some sort of game or claw machine or whatnot, but that’s how I tend to see them listed. These dolls are REALLY nicely made and incredibly cute, like way more than usual. I also have the Knuckles from this set, but he doesn’t live in this net so he’s not pictured here.

I know this line also included Sonic (obviously), Amy, and Shadow, but I’m not sure who else. I’d REALLY like to get the others someday, but I don’t have much hope for that, since they’re long since out of production and prices just keep going up as everyone cashes in on nerd collector culture.

This doll is fine enough on its own (if a bit fearful in the eyes), but what’s really odd about it is that it’s like literally twice as tall as the other dolls in its line, for some reason. I have the Sonic and Tails from this set, and their sizes both match each other, but for some reason Knuckles is a tall boi?? Oh well.

I believe this set also includes an Eggman doll, but I’ve never seen it before.

I wish I’d thought to showcase it better in this photo, but the tag on the bottom of Sonic’s right foot here is the real spotlight of this doll. I don’t know much about the background of this doll, but i know that tag on his foot is what distinguishes him from other Sonic dolls, and collectors go NUTS for this guy. I remember missing out on one years ago because the shipping was too costly (it’s always been rough importing from Britain, but it used to be a lot harder), and for a while I thought I’d never get one. Oddly this one that I did eventually nab is the only one I’ve ever seen with suction cups. I’d like to hope that one day I could get the one that doesn’t have them, but I’m not holding my breath.

Following the last doll, I’m sure a lot of you are immediately noticing that this Tails also has the tag on his foot, albeit a very faded one. This doll is also super odd, because EVERY other time I’ve ever seen this doll before, it has NOT had the foot tag! This one is the only one I’ve encountered with the tag, and I didn’t even know it had it until it arrived in the mail. This doll is also about 50% bigger than the Sonic doll with the foot tag, maybe he goes with the non-suction cup’d Sonic plushie? I don’t know off the top of my head how big that Sonic is supposed to be, so it’s possible! Or maybe these dolls have nothing to do with each other, and I bought some weird anomaly. Definitely one of the weirder Tails plushies in my collection.

Australian

EASILY the ugliest doll I will ever own, short of maybe obtaining the Tails that matches this set. (Trust me, the Tails is REALLY FUCKING UGLY.) I have such mixed feelings on this lil guy because, as many of you already know, this is one of the elusive Sega World Sydney dolls, which means it’s EXTREMELY rare and thus meant to be treasured... and yet holy shit guys how did you fail so hard on this doll. I mean FOR FUCK’S SAKE HE DOESN’T EVEN HAVE SOCKS! OR FINGERS!! There were plenty of Sonic plushies in the world by the time this doll was created, and they all socks and fingers, let alone better designed faces. I dunno man, I don’t know how to reconcile how ugly this doll is.

And then there were two.

Those of you that’ve been following me for years have probably already seen these before, but fuck it, here they are again. The Sega World Sydney plushies are the ONLY official Sally plushies to exist, and like the Sonic one, it’s really difficult to reconcile how incredibly ugly they are. I mean I can at least cut them some slack with the faces I guess, because the one on the left isn’t terrible I suppose. I think the fact that she doesn’t have hands is really stupid, but I mean, if Sonic didn’t get fingers I guess I’m not surprised Sally didn’t either. No, the thing that really gets me about these Sally dolls is the hair. It’s hard to tell from this angle but it’s.... bad. Oh my god it’s so fucking bad. It looks like she had a bad incident with a weedwacker. WHO THE FUCK DID THEY HIRE TO DESIGN THESE PLUSHIES?!

Whatever, I don’t turn away official Sally merch. Vests exist for these dolls, but as you can see I don’t own them for either of these two. I do have a third, smaller Sally that DOES have her vest, but she doesn’t live in this net. Maybe another time!

More bad Sally hair, this time without legs because she’s a hand puppet. She probably has the worst hair of all of the Sally dolls I personally own, it’s very clumpy and matted. The others’ hair is at least still fluffy.

I’ll let the fact that she doesn’t have hands slide here, being a puppet at all, but even then it’s only because I’m feeling generous. There’s no reason she shouldn’t have had them.

SOOOO not technically a plushie, but it was in the net and I’m doing Sally items right now anyway, so fuck it. This is a mini-backpack, but the fabric is so furry that it’s pretty much impossible to get a clear picture. I left the strap there sticking out just to help give some idea of what shape you’re even looking at.

I can’t remember what I paid for this, and honestly I don’t care, because it’s so unique and I’ve never seen another one since.

Bootlegs

A friend of mine sent me this as a surprise a few years ago because he thought it was cute, and I definitely have to say it’s one of the more fascinating items in my collection. Most of the time bootleg merch is trying to imitate something official to confuse the buyer, but so far as I know this is completely original! I love it because it’s what I imagine Sonic would look like if he were an Animal Crossing character. The most bizarre detail of all, though, is that the tush tag has the logo for Detective Conan instead of Sonic the Hedgehog. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.

This is a fake version of the Fang/Nack doll from Sonic the Fighters, but honestly, I don’t mind at all that it’s a bootleg because holy shit this doll is higher quality than some of my official ones! (I’M LOOKING AT YOU, SEGA WORLD.) According to the pictures I’ve seen, I think he’s actually even better quality than the original he’s copying!

It’s hard to describe just how nice this doll is, because the picture seriously does not do him justice. The stitching is perfectly clean, the proportions are absolutely perfect, the fabric is soft and high-quality, and oh my god the HAT!! The hat is AMAZING, it’s actually solid and holds its shape VERY well! The same goes for his tail too, on that note. Plushies with long tails tend to have trouble maintaining their shape, but this doll’s tail is really well done. He also has a much longer muzzle than most dolls of this time were willing to use, which again helps his proportion and overall accuracy. I don’t give one single shit that this doll isn’t official, I love him so fucking much! <3 <3 <3

Other Dolls

What can I say, I fucking LOVE Nick Wilde from Zootopia, and this is one of the best dolls of him I’ve ever seen. It’s actually really nicely made (they put a LOT of work into his shirt), and he’s very soft and huggable. Also, bless that smarmy expression, they got it just right.

Jumbo Tom Nook! This is the only jumbo plushie of him I’ve ever seen, so I’m glad I was able to nab it. The fabric is oddly shiny though, and I have no idea why?? I have several Tom Nook plushies from different doll lines, and I’ve never seen another one that’s shiny like this.

Decided to picture these guys together because why the fuck not. I apologize for the lack of clarity, but I’ve never been willing to open their bags. I want them pristine~

One thing I think is cool about the Undertale dolls is that there’s so much uniqueness put into each one. They all have differently shaped tags to reflect their individual personalities, and the plastic bags they come in have different patterns as well. The fabric patterns all completely unique to each one as well, so they’re not all clones of each other (especially with Papyrus).

You can actually still buy all of these guys right now on the Fangamer website! They’re pricey, but you get a quality that makes the price worth it, and you get a discount if you buy them together!

Vault Boy from Fallout, and for some reason I’m just now realizing that I don’t know what vault number is on his back. I feel like a terrible fan, FORGIVE ME. He has also never come out of his bag, so sorry for viewing difficulties here as well.

Companion cube ‘fuzzy dice’ for the car. This is one instance in which I have actually not used the car-related plushie in my car, as at the time I got this it was VERY difficult to get companion cube merch of any kind (these dice were actually a compromise with myself because I still couldn’t afford a regular cube), and after the work I put in to find these I definitely wasn’t going to risk them in my car! Just as well anyway, because they’re awfully big and would’ve been pretty cumbersome to look past.

...I did, however, put these in my car for a while. These are fuzzy D20 dice, because come on, if you’re going to hang dice in your car and have the option to use these, how can you not?? It definitely got a lot of compliments, even from people that simply saw them through the window. I didn’t even play tabletop games yet at the time, I just really liked them~

AAAAND THAT’S IT~ At least, that’s it for this net! Maybe I’ll do this again with the other nets sometime, if you guys would like to see more. I do have another one that also very much needs a dusting, so we’ll see!

Thanks for tuning in!!

rules: tag 9 people who you want to know better/catch up with and then answer these questions.

tagged by @nonbinarywithaknife !! thank!!

3 ships: (gonna stay d20 for this one)

lilith/efink - every time i watch bloodkeep i fall in love with this ship more and more. it’s about having 1 person that you trust and open up to more than anyone else, it’s about finding real pure love for the first time, it’s about support in all areas... they’re just really good.

fig/ayda - i love them!!! i love fig slowly figuring herself out and getting comfortable with herself As She Is and realizing that she can be loved just as herself, i love ayda being comfortable in her own skin and having different ways of expressing herself and knowing that fig just Gets It, i just love them!!

esther/ricky/sofia - i really need to watch unsleeping city again but i was such a sucker for this ship when it was airing..... just. ricky has so much love to give. and esther deserves so much love. and sofia deserves a chance to heal and grow and know that she’s not abandoning her love for dave if she finds love in other places. it’s good shit!!

last song: been listening to this band called “the longest johns,” pretty sure the last one i listened to was “oak and ash and thorn”!

last movie: watched emperor’s new groove with my mom last night!! love that movie

currently reading: just finished “the city we became” and LOVED it

currently watching: many things... mainly rewatching bloodkeep, plus watching umbrella academy and fullmetal alchemist !

currently craving: this one ice cream i used to get at college that was dark chocolate ice cream with dark chocolate chunks in it......

tagging: uhhh. god i don’t know. if you see this just consider yourself tagged fjkdjfkd

Bard

In the worlds of D&D, words and music are not just vibrations of air, but vocalizations with power all their own. The bard is a master of song, speech, and the magic they contain. Bards say that the multiverse was spoken into existence, that the words of the gods gave it shape, and that echoes of these primordial Words of Creation still resound throughout the cosmos. The music of bards is an attempt to snatch and harness those echoes, subtly woven into their spells and powers. The greatest strength of bards is their sheer versatility. Many bards prefer to stick to the sidelines in combat, using their magic to inspire their allies and hinder their foes from a distance. But bards are capable of defending themselves in melee if necessary, using their magic to bolster their swords and armour. Their spells lean toward charms and illusions rather than blatantly destructive spells. They have a wide-ranging knowledge of many subjects and a natural aptitude that lets them do almost anything well. Bards become masters of the talents they set their minds to perfecting, from musical performance to esoteric knowledge.

True bards are not common in the world. Not every minstrel singing in a tavern or jester cavorting in a royal court is a bard. Discovering the magic hidden in music requires hard study and some measure of natural talent that most troubadours and jongleurs lack. It can be hard to spot the difference between these performers and true bards, though. A bard’s life is spent wandering across the land gathering lore, telling stories, and living on the gratitude of audiences, much like any other entertainer. But a depth of knowledge, a level of musical skill, and a touch of magic set bards apart from their fellows. Only rarely do bards settle in one place for long, and their natural desire to travel—to find new tales to tell, new skills to learn, and new discoveries beyond the horizon—makes an adventuring career a natural calling. Every adventure is an opportunity to learn, practice a variety of skills, enter long-forgotten tombs, discover lost works of magic, decipher old tomes, travel to strange places, or encounter exotic creatures. Bards love to accompany heroes to witness their deeds first hand. A bard who can tell an awe-inspiring story from personal experience earns renown among other bards. Indeed, after telling so many stories about heroes accomplishing mighty deeds, many bards take these themes to heart and assume heroic roles themselves.

Bards thrive on stories, whether those stories are true or not. Your character’s background and motivations are not as important as the stories that he or she tells about them. Perhaps you had a secure and mundane childhood. There’s no good story to be told about that, so you might paint yourself as an orphan raised by a hag in a dismal swamp. Or your childhood might be worthy of a story. Some bards acquire their magical music through extraordinary means, including the inspiration of fey or other supernatural creatures. Did you serve an apprenticeship, studying under a master, following the more experienced bard until you were ready to strike out on your own? Or did you attend a college where you studied bardic lore and practised your musical magic? Perhaps you were a young runaway or orphan, befriended by a wandering bard who became your mentor. Or you might have been a spoiled noble child tutored by a master. Perhaps you stumbled into the clutches of a hag, making a bargain for a musical gift in addition to your life and freedom, but at what cost?

HIT POINTS: 1d8 Per Bard Level

HIT POINTS AT 1st LEVEL: 1d8 + CON

PROFICIENCIES:

ARMOUR: Light

WEAPONS: Simple, hand crossbows, longswords, rapiers, shortswords

TOOLS: Three musical instruments of your choice

SAVING THROWS: Dexterity, Charisma

SKILLS: Choose any three

STARTING EQUIPMENT

1. A rapier, OR a longsword, OR any simple weapon.

2. A diplomat’s pack OR an entertainer’s pack.

3. A lute OR any other musical instrument.

4. Leather armour AND a dagger.

FEATURES

SPELLCASTING

You have learned to untangle and reshape the fabric of reality in harmony with your wishes and music. Your spells are part of your vast repertoire, magic that you can tune to different situations. See Spells Rules for the general rules of spellcasting and the Spells Listing for the bard spell list.

Cantrips

You know two cantrips of your choice from the bard spell list. You learn additional bard cantrips of your choice at higher levels, as shown in the Cantrips Known column of the Bard table.

Spell Slots

The Bard table shows how many spell slots you have to cast your bard spells of 1st level and higher. To cast one of these spells, you must expend a slot of the spell’s level or higher. You regain all expended spell slots when you finish a long rest. For example, if you know the 1st-level spell cure wounds and have a 1st-level and a 2nd-level spell slot available, you can cast cure wounds using either slot.

Spells Known of 1st Level and Higher

You know four 1st-level spells of your choice from the bard spell list. The Spells Known column of the Bard table shows when you learn more bard spells of your choice. Each of these spells must be of a level for which you have spell slots, as shown on the table. For instance, when you reach 3rd level in this class, you can learn one new spell of 1st or 2nd level. Additionally, when you gain a level in this class, you can choose one of the bard spells you know and replace it with another spell from the bard spell list, which also must be of a level for which you have spell slots.

Spellcasting Ability

Charisma is your spellcasting ability for your bard spells. Your magic comes from the heart and soul you pour into the performance of your music or oration. You use your Charisma whenever a spell refers to your spellcasting ability. In addition, you use your Charisma modifier when setting the saving throw DC for a bard spell you cast and when making an attack roll with one.

Spell save DC = 8 + your proficiency bonus + your Charisma modifier

Spell attack modifier = your proficiency bonus + your Charisma modifier

Ritual Casting

You can cast any bard spell you know as a ritual if that spell has the ritual tag.

Spellcasting Focus

You can use a musical instrument (see the Tools section) as a spellcasting focus for your bard spells.

BARDIC INSPIRATION

You can inspire others through stirring words or music. To do so, you use a bonus action on your turn to choose one creature other than yourself within 60 feet of you who can hear you. That creature gains one Bardic Inspiration die, a d6. Once within the next 10 minutes, the creature can roll the die and add the number rolled to one ability check, attack roll, or saving throw it makes. The creature can wait until after it rolls the d20 before deciding to use the Bardic Inspiration die, but must decide before the DM says whether the roll succeeds or fails. Once the Bardic Inspiration die is rolled, it is lost. A creature can have only one Bardic Inspiration die at a time. You can use this feature a number of times equal to your Charisma modifier (a minimum of once). You regain any expended uses when you finish a long rest. Your Bardic Inspiration die changes when you reach certain levels in this class. The die becomes a d8 at 5th level, a d10 at 10th level, and a d12 at 15th level.

JACK OF ALL TRADES

Starting at 2nd level, you can add half your proficiency bonus, rounded down, to any ability check you make that doesn’t already include your proficiency bonus.

SONG OF REST

Beginning at 2nd level, you can use soothing music or oration to help revitalize your wounded allies during a short rest. If you or any friendly creatures who can hear your performance regain hit points at the end of the short rest by spending one or more Hit Dice, each of those creatures regains an extra 1d6 hit points. The extra hit points increase when you reach certain levels in this class: to 1d8 at 9th level, to 1d10 at 13th level, and to 1d12 at 17th level.

BARD COLLEGE

At 3rd level, you delve into the advanced techniques of a bard college of your choice: the College of Lore detailed at the end of the class description or another from the Player's Handbook or other sources. Your choice grants you features at 3rd level and again at 6th and 14th level.

EXPERTISE 

At 3rd level, choose two of your skill proficiencies. Your proficiency bonus is doubled for any ability check you make that uses either of the chosen proficiencies.

ABILITY SCORE IMPROVEMENT

When you reach 4th level, and again at 8th, 12th, 16th, and 19th level, you can increase one ability score of your choice by 2, or you can increase two ability scores of your choice by 1. As normal, you can’t increase an ability score above 20 using this feature.

FONT OF INSPIRATION

Beginning when you reach 5th level, you regain all of your expended uses of Bardic Inspiration when you finish a short or long rest.

COUNTERCHARM

At 6th level, you gain the ability to use musical notes or words of power to disrupt mind-influencing effects. As an action, you can start a performance that lasts until the end of your next turn. During that time, you and any friendly creatures within 30 feet of you have advantage on saving throws against being frightened or charmed. A creature must be able to hear you to gain this benefit. The performance ends early if you are incapacitated or silenced or if you voluntarily end it (no action required).

EXPERTISE 

At 10th level, choose two more of your skill proficiencies. Your proficiency bonus is doubled for any ability check you make that uses either of the chosen proficiencies.

MAGICAL SECRETS

By 10th level, you have plundered magical knowledge from a wide spectrum of disciplines. Choose two spells from any classes, including this one. A spell you choose must be of a level you can cast, as shown on the Bard table, or a cantrip. The chosen spells count as bard spells for you and are included in the number in the Spells Known column of the Bard table. You learn two additional spells from any classes at 14th level and again at 18th level.

SUPERIOR INSPIRATION

At 20th level, when you roll initiative and have no uses of Bardic Inspiration left, you regain one use.

BARD COLLEGES

The way of a bard is gregarious. Bards seek each other out to swap songs and stories, boast of their accomplishments, and share their knowledge. Bards form loose associations, which they call colleges, to facilitate their gatherings and preserve their traditions.

College of Creation

Bards believe the multiverse was given existence through word and sound, esoteric harmonies that continue to resound through existence: the Song of Creation. The bards of this college draw on this ancient power through performances of dance, music, or song to bring into being what they need most. Members of this college might have developed their powers during experiences on other worlds or planes of existence. Those who have seen the commonalities of multiple realities might have learned how to tap into truths most mortals glimpse only for a moment. Alternatively, the bard might find themselves out of step with their own home plane, reality, or time, their connections to elsewhere allowing them to manipulate the space around them. Regardless of where a bard draws their powers from, other performers might be drawn to them, either to learn their secrets or to put an end to their dangerous manipulation of the Song of Creation.

3rd Level – Note of Potential

You can manipulate the Song of Creation to summon a floating musical note of possibility. Whenever you give a creature a Bardic Inspiration die, you can create a Note of Potential. The note orbits within 5 feet of the creature. The note is a Tiny object that is intangible and invulnerable, and it lasts until the Bardic Inspiration die is lost. A creature with a note can use it in the following ways.

Note of Destruction. Immediately after the creature rolls the Bardic Inspiration die to add it to an attack roll, the creature can expend the note to create a burst of sound. Each other creature within 5 feet of it must succeed on a Constitution saving throw against your spell save DC or take thunder damage equal to the number rolled on the Bardic Inspiration die.

Note of Protection. Immediately after the creature rolls the Bardic Inspiration die and adds it to a saving throw, the creature can expend the note to gain temporary hit points equal to the number rolled on the Bardic Inspiration die + your Charisma modifier, provided the creature doesn't already have temporary hit points.

Note of Ingenuity. When the creature rolls the Bardic Inspiration die to add it to an ability check, the creature can expend the note to roll the Bardic Inspiration die again and choose which roll to use.

6th Level – Animated Performance

Your mastery over the Song of Creation allows you to magically bring items to life. As an action, you can target a Large or smaller non-magical item you can see within 30 feet of you and animate it. The animate item uses the Dancing Item stat block and is under your control for 1 hour or until it is reduced to 0 hit points. In combat, the item shares your initiative count, but it takes its turn immediately after yours. It can move and use its reaction on its own, but the only action it takes on its turn is the Dodge action, unless you take a bonus action on your turn to command it to take one of the actions in its stat block or the Dash, Disengage, Help, Hide, or Search action. When you use your Bardic Inspiration feature, you can command which action your animated item takes as part of the same bonus action. Once you animate an item with this feature, you can’t do so again until you finish a long rest or until you expend a spell slot of 3rd level or higher to use this feature. You can have only one item animated by this feature at a time; if you use this action and already have a dancing item from this feature, the first one immediately becomes inanimate.

14th Level – Performance of Creation

Your performance can manipulate the magic of creation, briefly transforming the world around you. As an action, you can create one non-magical item of your choice in an unoccupied space within 10 feet of you. The item must appear on a surface or in a liquid that can support it. The gp value of the item can’t be more than 20 times your bard level and must be Large or smaller. Tiny glimmering, intangible notes float around it, and a creature can faintly hear music when touching it. For examples of items you can create, see the Armour, Weapons, Adventuring Gear, Tools, and Mounts and Vehicles tables in chapter 5, “Equipment,” of the Player’s Handbook. The created item disappears at the end of your next turn, unless you use your action to maintain it. Each time you use your action in this way, the item’s duration is extended to the end of your next turn, up to a maximum of 1 minute. If you maintain the item for the full minute, it continues to exist for a number of hours equal to your bard level. Once you create an item with this feature, you can’t do so again until you finish a long rest or until you expend a spell slot of 5th level or higher to use this feature. You can have only one item created by this feature at a time; if you use this action and already have an item from this feature, the first one immediately vanishes.

College of Eloquence

Adherents of the College of Eloquence master the art of oratory. Persuasion is regarded as a high art, and a well-reasoned, well-spoken argument often proves more powerful than objective truth. These bards wield a blend of logic and theatrical wordplay, winning over septics and detractors with logical arguments, and plucking at heartstrings to appeal to the emotions of entire audiences.

3rd Level – Universal Speech

You can now cast calm emotions without expending a spell slot. You can use this feature a number of times equal to your Charisma modifier. You regain all expended uses of this feature when you finish a long rest.

6th Level – Undeniable Logic

You can spin words laced with magic into a knot of reasoning that can be encouraging or impossible to follow. As a bonus action, you can expend one of your uses of Bardic Inspiration. When you do so, choose a creature you can see within 60 feet of you that can hear you, then roll your Bardic Inspiration die and choose one of the following:

The creature takes psychic damage equal to the number you roll on the Bardic Inspiration die, and the creature must succeed on an Intelligence saving throw against your spell save DC or have disadvantage on the next saving throw it makes before the end of your next turn.

The creature regains hit points equal to the number you roll on the Bardic Inspiration die, and the creature has advantage on the next saving throw it makes before the end of your next turn.

14th Level – Infectious Inspiration

When a creature adds one of your Bardic Inspiration dice to its ability check, attack roll, or saving throw and the roll fails, the creature can keep the Bardic Inspiration die. In addition, when a creature adds one of your Bardic Inspiration dice to its ability check, attack roll, or saving throw and the roll succeeds, you can use your reaction to encourage a different creature (other than yourself) that can hear you within 60 feet of you, giving it a Bardic Inspiration die without expending any of your Bardic Inspiration uses. You can use this reaction a number of times equal to your Charisma modifier (minimum of once), and you regain all expended uses when you finish a long rest.

College of Lore

Bards of the College of Lore know something about most things, collecting bits of knowledge from sources as diverse as scholarly tomes and peasant tales. Whether singing folk ballads in taverns or elaborate compositions in royal courts, these bards use their gifts to hold audiences spellbound. When the applause dies down, the audience members might find themselves questioning everything they held to be true, from their faith in the priesthood of the local temple to their loyalty to the king. The loyalty of these bards lies in the pursuit of beauty and truth, not in fealty to a monarch or following the tenets of a deity. A noble who keeps such a bard as a herald or advisor knows that the bard would rather be honest than politic. The college’s members gather in libraries and sometimes in actual colleges, complete with classrooms and dormitories, to share their lore with one another. They also meet at festivals or affairs of state, where they can expose corruption, unravel lies, and poke fun at self-important figures of authority.

3rd Level – Bonus Proficiencies

When you join the College of Lore at 3rd level, you gain proficiency with three skills of your choice.

3rd Level – Cutting Words

Also at 3rd level, you learn how to use your wit to distract, confuse, and otherwise sap the confidence and competence of others. When a creature that you can see within 60 feet of you makes an attack roll, an ability check, or a damage roll, you can use your reaction to expend one of your uses of Bardic Inspiration, rolling a Bardic Inspiration die and subtracting the number rolled from the creature’s roll. You can choose to use this feature after the creature makes its roll, but before the DM determines whether the attack roll or ability check succeeds or fails, or before the creature deals its damage. The creature is immune if it can’t hear you or if it’s immune to being charmed.

6th Level – Additional Magical Secrets

At 6th level, you learn two spells of your choice from any class. A spell you choose must be of a level you can cast, as shown on the Bard table, or a cantrip. The chosen spells count as bard spells for you but don’t count against the number of bard spells you know.

14th Level – Peerless Skill

Starting at 14th level, when you make an ability check, you can expend one use of Bardic Inspiration. Roll a Bardic Inspiration die and add the number rolled to your ability check. You can choose to do so after you roll the die for the ability check, but before the DM tells you whether you succeed or fail.

Bard Spell List

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Rules (for mobile users)

Do not interact with me until You have first read the rules. Once you have you can send me a secret word to show that you have. Some of these rules are common sense IMO but i’d like to have them respected all the same.

18+ ONLY This blog will contain several NSFW themes such as Gore, Violence but most importantly sexual themes, which legally… Minors aren’t supposed to be able to interact with. I don’t care how familiar you are with sex, I don’t care how much you know about it or how much porn you may have seen or whatever. Explore this with your own age group or somewhere safe and away from me. I am over 20 years old and I will not be held responsible for exposing minors to sexual content. That being said- I will still tag my NSFW post appropriately. If I find out a follower is under 18 and is following me anyway- I WILL BLOCK.

God Modding Is a NO NO If you don’t know what God modding is- it’s basically just when you take control of my character without my permission. Like if they’re fighting and you immediately decided my character is knocked out, or if they just stand there and let you punch them. If this was not discussed with me then this is godmodding. If it is planned than I might not mind, but I’d appreciate it if you let me control my own characters. If your character starts walking it’s generally safe to say mine will follow.

Meta-Gaming is also a Big NO NO If you’re not sure what meta gaming is, it’s basically when you take things you know about the character out of character and suddenly  decide “well because I know this my character does too.” Nope. Unless I tell you they know or my character reveals it to yours in a thread, they don’t know shit. If you wanna get an Idea of what our characters know about each other you can DM me and we can figure it out, but if they’re only just meeting for the first time, neither of them will know anything at all about each other.

Fight Me I have a specific way to do fight sequences. Unless we’ve discussed plans specifically for this, the best way for me to handle it is good old table top rpg way. Basically We roll to hit.. my default is 12 or higher on a d20. the higher above the 12 you roll the harder you hit. This helps me keep it fair. if you can’t roll because you don’t have dice that’s okay, I can roll to see if I dodge too. If you have another way you like to do fights because you’re unfamiliar with this method then talk to me about it so we can make sure to keep things fun and fair :)

Please Interact! I feel like this goes without saying but it was an issue on my former blogs and it’s pretty discouraging when someone follows me, and then never sends me anything, or if we follow each other and I am the only sending anything. I have some pretty bad anxiety and when I am the only one sending in starters and prompts I start to feel like the other person isn’t interested in interacting with me anymore. If you don’t like my characters or my writing isn’t for you that’s fine. You don’t have to tell me either, but if you lose interest in interaction, at least unfollow me? at least this way I know and no one has to feel bad.  

If You Reblog Memes from me at least send one in? I am not a meme blog, every once in a while is fine but it does get a bit annoying when it constantly happens. don’t be shy to send me memes, worst case scenario i don’t have muse to answer it right away.

Specify which Muse you want. This is a muti muse blog. I have more than one character on here, all of them are my Original Characters. If you send in a meme or a starter but you’re interested in a certain (Sun) character, then please specify that character. If not specified I will chose which one answers.

Some people are gay. So if you don’t like queer representation, you’re not going to like me. I have a wide variety of characters with various heritages, gender identities, and sexualities. I have Trans characters, Gay characters, Lesbian, Bi, Pan, and Ace character. Non Binary characters, Brown, white, black and Asian characters. If you’re a bigot in any way you’re not welcome.

I REPEAT. TRANSMEDS, TERFS, RASCISTS, WHITE NATIONALISTS, NAZIS, HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, ANTISEMITES, ECT ARE NOT WELCOME

Q&A If there’s something on here that’s unclear. Please feel free to ask. I may Make an FAQ if i start seeing questions pop up a lot so things can be clarified. I want ya’ll to have (flower~) fun and enjoy writing. There is no pressure with me at all. I am okay with Paragraph rp or one liners. You can never send me too many prompts, and I am very open to AU’s and other Verses. My ocs can pretty much fit into any world you wanna toss them in!

Send the secret words! If you read this carefully you would have seen the words I have hidden in here so like… send that to my askbox if you want to interact so I know You’ve seen my rules. Will be making a post as well for mobile users!

30 QUESTIONS ABOUT ME

i was tagged by @astralpenguin

Rule: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs to get to know them better!  Do it if you want, I don’t tag, sorry…

Nickname: … SO MANY.  Mostly from Io.  Mostly embarrassing.

Gender: F

Star sign: cancer

Height: 5’ 9″

Time: 23:14

Birthday: 16/7

Favorite bands:  Um… These are hard because I retain no musical loyalty.  At different stages of my life, I’ve had different faves.

Favorite solo artists:  Hmmm… See above.

Song stuck in my head: Thank god it’s nothing at the moment… mostly the things that have gotten stuck in my head are cartoon theme songs because the Goat has learned how to turn on the tv and find cartoons.

Last Movie Watched: the last jedi

Last Show Watched: brooklyn 99

When did I Create this blog: um… don’t know.  I’ve had it for a while and didn’t really start using it until last year. 

What do I post: yoi mainly.  And cats and cute things and sciencey things.

Last thing I Googled: the wiki article for the 2010-2011 GPF of figure skating for the schedule and things…

Do you get asks: sometimes.  I am bad at answering them.  Like so bad.  (I am so sorry to those that sent me asks and I don’t answer.  I suck)

Why did you choose your URL: because it’s the current evolution of my username that I’ve had for years.  from DL to Ze.dragon to diedraechin  

Following blogs: uh… dunno actually and don’t feel like checking.

Followers: 1000+ a number that absolutely amazes me and sometimes makes me go “They like me!  They really like me!”  No, I’m not melodramatic at all, why do you ask?

Favorite colors: this has shifted a lot over time as well, but consistently: aqua/teal, purple, and sometimes pink (when in combo with the previous two)

Average hours of sleep: 4-6 depending on level of insomnia

Lucky number: … let me roll a d20 and get back to you…

Instruments: I have taken a year of piano, of violin, and three years of flute… I’ve only liked the violin (and then we moved)

What I am wearing: “comfy clothes” as they are called in this house.  aka pjs.

How many blankets do I sleep with: one duvet.  I am not the one with the blanket issues.  *looks at Io’s side of the bed and refuses to count the number of blankets*

Dream job:  forensic science.... I'd like to use my degree...

Dream trip:Japan

Favorite food: Burgers!  Closely followed by tacos. Not quite a tie, but close.  Photo finish.

Nationality: American Ex-Pat

Favorite song right now: see above statements about music.  Maybe “Fever” because I have a skating routine I want to write to it…

Terra Frank’s Lying

Terra Frank is referring to a conversation that Chirstopher Mennell erased because it was off-topic. Here it i before it was erased:

Christopher Mennell Roleplaying Games Aug 14, 12:59 PM  What game sounded awesome when you first heard about it but ended up being a total let down when you finally got a hold of it? 2 plus ones 2 75 comments 75 no shares Shared publicly•View activity Hide 69 comments Rob Monroe's profile photo Rob Monroe 3:16 Carnage Amongst the Stars was sold to me as a gritty survival horror RPG in space. In play it felt like a bad board game with tacked on and trivial story game elements. 5h S. M. Kelly's profile photo S. M. Kelly D&D 4e ....after having been out of tabletop RPG's for about 20+ years. 5h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank LotFP. It was all dickmonsters, women being murdered as art direction, and patronizing DM advice telling everyone but the author they are wrong. I do not understand the appeal at all, especially when it’s really just a more restrictive basic D&D with a warped sense of history. This is my opinion, of course. A lot of people seem to really like it. 5h

Christopher Weeks's profile photo Christopher Weeks Nobilis (2e, if it matters). The book, the art, the snippets of fiction -- they painted an image of something really grand. And there were pieces of a game in there, but not a coherent system. Not something that drove, or even facilitated play. Just not enough game. 5h Cris Sidhe (Dra8er)'s profile photo Cris Sidhe (Dra8er) The new Star Trek from Modiphius. 5h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +Terra Frank It seems like your "opinion" contains a lot of assertions of fact. "Warped sense of history" "All dick monsters" "Women being murdered" these are claims a person can check against a source, not statements of taste. 5h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +Rob Monroeoh GOD it's terrible. The art is cool but there's just nothing to it. It's like "Flip a coin!" "You win!" 5h Eloy Cintron's profile photo Eloy Cintron +Cris Sidhe Curious to see what you disliked about the Modiphius Star Trek. I'm reading it right now.  Care to elaborate? (Genuinely curious, no agenda here :) ) 5h Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell +Rob Monroe agreed; loved 3:16 when I first heard about it, but the actual product fell short. 5h K Yani's profile photo K Yani Any Conan d20 based RPG I tried -  through cover art and premise it gives impression of fierce warriors and crushing mighty magic, while books start with teaching me how to climb walls, and the magic (if available to players) is usually too meek. Best Conan game I've played run on Risus. 4h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath one of my favorite conan comics has him shoving daggers hilt first into the toes of his boots so he can climb a wall 4h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath

EDIT: Though she seems to have erased it, this was in response to a comment Terra Frank just made tagging me, telling me to stop "antagonizing" her, and telling me she didn't want to talk to me. It's gone now, so I have no idea if this is still relevant. fwiw this is the only exchange I'm aware of ever having with her in my entire life Original comment below: To whom it may concern but I shan't tag Terra Frank directly since she has a disturbingly low bar for "antagonism" and tagging her at all might trigger it  . I asked a question of Terra Frank (or rather, raised a question by pointing out a fact). I didn't make a hostile anything toward Terra Frank. Anyone who doesn't want to talk to me should just block me. Also I recommend everybody block Terra based on this exchange which is weird and scary. 4h Cris Sidhe (Dra8er)'s profile photo Cris Sidhe (Dra8er) +4 +Eloy Cintron​ I purchased the limited Edition Borg Cube. It looks absolutely stunning. I do like parts if it. When I initially read it I liked the vibe it was giving off. But when I actually played it felt like I was playing a resource management board game where each player would add to the pool on their turn, then use it and generate more.

Creativity did not feel like it had any impact on some of the challenges. In the end, I just could not care if the people lived or died.

The "HEAVILY" modified 2d20 just feels to 'clunky' & just to many rules to crunch. I wish it was trimmed up a little. Probably to used to FASA Star Trek. But in the end it just didn't end up being the game I thought it would be or wanted.

4h Arthur Fisher's profile photo Arthur Fisher +2 Trail of Cthulhu I heard really good things and I was hoping to use that for my Thurber campaign stuff, but once we say down at the table I found that I really liked the investigator points and not much else. But really, I feel like I can replace that with "You've got a 70% in Biology? You don't need to roll. You find the thing."

And that was disappointing because I was really excited about it and really wanted it to work for me. 4h Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell +Zak Sabbath okay...I have no idea what happened here, but I think something got a little out of hand because you didn't like what +Terra Frank said about LotFP? I don't see anything wrong with her expressing her opinions about the product...she certainly doesn't have an issue with people who like LotFP, it's just not her personal taste. I don't think you have to recommend she be blocked. 4h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath To whom it may concern : Terra Frank didn't get "called out". I just posted an alternate take because threads are for discussion . Just like I did with Conan and climbing up there. 4h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath I didn't say I didn't like anything +Christopher Mennell  nor did I say there was anything wrong with her opinions. I recommend you talk to your friend off-thread. Also maybe reread what I wrote because you got it completely wrong. It has not been altered since I wrote it. And obviously I recommend she be blocked NOT because of her opinions on games but because she's apparently liable to accuse people of "antagonizing" her for leaving innocuous comments and therefore dangerous to any discussion. 3h K Yani's profile photo K Yani +Christopher Mennell I think I cannot see several posts here. Is it something breaking from my side or something else was done to the thread? 3h Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell +K Yani some comments were deleted 3h Eloy Cintron's profile photo Eloy Cintron +Cris Sidhe Interesting! I'm reading it, and so far looks like a very, very crunchy version of Fate. Haven't played it yet, so can't comment on how it feels at the table. Thanks for the insight! What IS your favorite Trek RPG? FASA? Are there different editions? Which one? 3h Cris Sidhe (Dra8er)'s profile photo Cris Sidhe (Dra8er) +1 +Eloy Cintron​ yes FASA is my favorite. West End Games has a version they published in the mid 80's I was not very fond of.

Yes it does have a FATE feel to it.   3h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath if anybody wants to see the deleted stuff, just ask me in a pm, I screencapped them as soon as I saw how disturbing Terra was acting.+K Yani 3h Matt Horam's profile photo Matt Horam World of Darkness 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Here is an example of him interacting with me 3 days ago. Every time I post in a thread he is also in, he tags me, antagonizing me. This time, I was supporting a friend who he leveled a misandric attack at. Photo 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Here is that attack. As a feminist, I believe men deserve to show their emotions without being Shamed for it. This is misandry and toxic masculinity and it's gross Photo 2h Wayne Rossi's profile photo Wayne Rossi Two very recent games.

1: Cthulhu Confidential. The promise was a system designed for one player and one GM. The delivery was a framework for running pre-written adventures (basically built on a decision tree) focused on defined set-piece encounters, with pre-generated advantage and penalty cards.

2: Mutant Crawl Classics. I haven't written a full review because the final book was revised, but it's not very good. It clings too hard to Dungeon Crawl Classics, and the result is neither a good Gamma World type game, nor a good fantasy game. Also it doesn't have most of the charts it should have (there are no tables for making monsters, robots, or artifacts), and the ones it has (recognition table, artifact checks) are clunky and bad. 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank This person has a refined harassment tactic, he repeatedly Antagonizes people and when they finally ask him to stop, he tries to make them sound crazy, an attack rooted in misogony when used against a transgender woman, or any woman. It's gross. 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank +1 I've had dozens of interactions with this person, every time I've been silent because I'm afraid of him. I am a trans girl with no power in this industry even approaching his. I have deleted my posts in other threads he's called me out in because I was too scared. No more. It stops here. I've been through too much as a trans woman to deal with this in silence. I won't be silent anymore 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath That isn't an attack. I literally was expressing the sentiment that being that sensitive must make life hard for Rob Donoghue. (And the thread proved it was true). I wasn't saying this was a bad personality characteristic to have. Then Terra said something confusing, so I asked her a question. Which I guess now she is revealing she misinterpreted as somehow "antagonizing". But because Terra freaked out and didn't do what an empathetic person would (ie, engage and make sure her suspicion was sound before assuming guilt without proof), she falsely assumed it was an attack and has now begun to harass me. Again, if she can't be reasoned with, I suggest everyone block her. 2h Kelvin Green's profile photo Kelvin Green +2 Rogue Trader. Twenty-five years of waiting for a bloated and fiddly mess of a game. 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank I am not going to bother tracking down every instance of this boy Antagonizing me, because I've already proven him a liar with this screen shot of him interacting with  me only 3 days before he claimed never to have interacted with me before. With that, I'm done. Unless people want to voice their support to me personally, I don't want to hear anymore. 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank I'm not giving any more of my fear and anxiety to this man. I am not going to be ashamed of myself and delete my posts anymore. I am proud of who I am. I will not be bullied and silenced. 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath I said I never had an exchange with her before, an exchange involves A say something B say something that responds to that . Me typing something, you saying something unrelated later down the thread, and then me asking a question and you ignoring it is not an "exchange". - Terra is apparently not empathic enough to be genuinely interested in whether her victim deserves her harassment. . 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Also she doesn't seem to have much of a theory for what the motive for the crimes I've allegedly committed would be. 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Oh and Mouse Guard. Connie wanted to play with mice so bad she even volunteered to GM and then it just sat on the shelf because the rules were so bad. 2h Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell Wait, +Zak Sabbath: was Mouse Guard a game that sounded awesome to you when you first heard about it? 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Directly addressing someone is an interaction. Period. This boy is caught in a lie he is trying to wiggle out of, a lie rooted in misogony to try to make a woman sound irrational. Gross. This woman is not putting up with misogony and lies. Period. 2h Arthur Fisher's profile photo Arthur Fisher +Zak Sabbath Did y'all ever just do "D&D, but you're mice?" 2h Alex Mayo's profile photo Alex Mayo Aftermath. 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +Christopher Mennell it sounded ok to give to connie and the art (which is from the comic, is good). 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Terra: " Directly addressing someone is an interaction. Period. " True. " This boy is caught in a lie " False. Here's my quote (see above_: " fwiw this is the only exchange I'm aware of ever having with her in my entire life " +Christopher Mennell Please erase the harassing comments in the form of false accuations from Terra in your thread. Harassment has no place in discussion of tabletop games and should not be tolerated 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath also, it's spelled "misogyny"  if anyone was confused about what the harasser meant 2h Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell +3 +Zak Sabbath +Terra Frank I don't know what's best for the two of you, other than maybe talking to each other rather than past each other. I respect both of you and I hate to see this kind of argument transpiring.

It's also way off topic of the OP. 2h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath "Talking past" is avoiding points.  I am addressing all of Terra's points. 1 she keeps claiming things are hostile that aren't, and assuming meanings without checking (innocent until proven guilty) 2 she attacks then acts like if I fact check the attack its me harassing her 3 She's quibbling over the definition of "Exchange" vs "interaction"  instead of just admitting she misinterpreted things as hostile. Please +Christopher Mennell do NOT accuse me of "talking past" someone whose every comment I have addressed in full. 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank I can't really talk rationally with someone who has been Antagonizing me for years, using misogony and Ableism as abuse tactics. Last time I spoke up about his abuse, he made blog post about how people who have mental illness should not be taken seriously if they allege abuse. Ableist and gross. Here is the post: Mental Illness In The RPG Community dndwithpornstars.blogspot.com 2h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Here is direct evidence of his targeting me with his blog and his Ableism. Note, this is using my dead name and it's extremely painful for me to share. I'm sharing this in spite of that pain. This, again, shows him to be a liar. Why should I have a conversation with someone who has Antagonized me for so long and then lies about it? He can't even own his own actions. Photo 1h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank All this because I asked to not be antagonized. That's what set this boy off in the first place. 1h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath If anyone can identify any sentence in that post they disagree with or think is untrue, they should say so. In the mean time, if Terra Frank can't talk rationally because she believes I have been "antagonizing" her for years, then she or a friend or ally she trusts to act in her stead in the important issue of harassment should post evidence of the accusation . Not random posts full of facts nobody disagrees with that don't even mention her. . Harassment is serious issue. If I have been "antagonizing" someone for years then someone should take the issue seriously and provide receipts so we can all look at them and I can be punished Because Terra and I never met irl so far as I know so all this alleged "antagonization" must be online somewhere. If not: Terra should stop participating in a harassment campaign, and stop being an abusive harasser with no empathy who dogpiled on a harassment campaign for reasons unknown. 1h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Oh, Terra (EDIT: I accidentally used her old name here, my bad) is the person who smeared James Raggi. Mystery solved. Here you go. Terra Frank is a longstanding harasser. Block her.

dndwithpornstars.blogspot.com - The (Incredibly Weak) Case Against James Raggi The (Incredibly Weak) Case Against James Raggi The (Incredibly Weak) Case Against James Raggi dndwithpornstars.blogspot.com 32m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Zak would rather lie and play the victim than just own up to this. All he had to was not antagonize me, he didn't even need to respond. He could just stop tagging me. Instead, he is throwing a fit and trying to wiggle out of this. 1h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath tl;dr Raggi talked about the movie Kingsmen Terra Frank made an inaccurate analysis of it and spelled misogyny wrong People pointed it out . Later when people were dogpiling on Mark Diaz Truman and OSR gamers in general Terra lied about it, reframing this as attacking her "for being a feminist". You can check the links if you don't believe me. . Obvious logical problem: if Raggi hated feminists, all his work with feminists including Stacy at Contessa doesn't make much sense. . Terra never addressed any of this harassment she inflicted but has now left the name she did it under behind. . Thus my confusion. .

Either way, she is obviously a longtime harasser and she has never apologized to her victim and so it isnt' a good idea to have her in your circles. 1h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank So, if you want me to address you directly, like I did in the first place, +Zak Sabbath​, once more PLEASE STOP ANTAGONIZING ME. It's really that easy, but since you have a long history of abuse, lying, Ableism, and misogony directed towards me personally, I don't really have much faith in you to take responsibility for your own actions. I will not let your Ableism and misogony and abuse go unchallenged. I will not let you paint me as hysterical. I have offered clear evidence of you lying and being abusive towards me. You can lie and rationalize and try to hand wave it away, and I'm sure many more people will believe you than me because you are a powerful cis  man and I don't have those advantages. That's okay, I've been through this with you before and you haven't changed, you are still pretending to not know who I am as you always have after everytime you've gone out of your way to hurt me. An entire blog post attacking mentally ill people, calling abuse survivors into question, among the many times we have interacted, and you continue to lie. I have called you out and offered proof of your abuse, your Ableism, your misogony, your misandry. Check your privelage. I'll be praying for you to learn how to be a better person. To stop lying. To stop targeting people like me. You need love and prayers young man. I can't show you love as you continue to lie and project and shift blame. I can't show love to a coward. I can, however, pray for you. I'm going to call for others to pray for you now too, because at this point that is probably the only thing that can help you. I'm praying for you Zak. 1h Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath If anyone believes a word of that, contact me to confirm so you don't hang an innocent person out to dry. If you prefer anonymity: ask.fm/TheActualZakSmith 1h Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank None of the links presented show me harassing Raggi in any way. I have never attacked Raggi, even if I disagree with him. I don't have to like his game. And once again, I've asked him directly to stop Antagonizing me and zak has continued to do so. 50m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank And the links show me in my dead name, but no evidence of me harassing anybody. I'm brave enough to share my dead name and you are using it to harass me now +Zak Sabbath​. That is transphobic, young man. You and I both know there is no evidence of me harassing you or anyone else, but plenty of instances of my dead name and pronouns. You are clearly sharing that as a transphobic attack against me. 46m K Yani's profile photo K Yani Is it possible that there can be agreement that there was a miscommunication about terms/usage of 'exchange' and 'interaction' (which, I think, meant two different things to two different people)?  

Mr. Sabbath is/can be a difficult person to communicate with, but I don't believe he is 'throwing a fit' as far as I understand the 'throwing a fit' meaning. 46m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Now that this has turned into transphobia, I have to block him. No amount of standing up for myself is worth that. 45m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Is Terra Frank denying that she claimed lied and falsely claimed Raggi and OSR gamers attacked her? I get that she deleted all her attacks, (which s understandable being under an old name) but that doesn't mean that they didn't happen and she's not a harasser any more. 37m Wayne Rossi's profile photo Wayne Rossi +Zak Sabbath  you deadnamed a trans woman, that deserves an apology 39m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Here's the smear from Terra Frank that she erased from the Raggi thread " I'm pretty bummed about the push to support someone like Zak, who slammed me with ableist insults when I stated that I was a feminist (FOOTNOTE1), and later called for me to be silenced, quite literally, by saying I should not be allowed to produce material. When I stood up for myself, I started receiving anonymous threats. When I later came out as a rape survivor I had thankfully blocked Zak already, but I was shamed publicly by his publisher Raggi (FOOTOTE 2). I was made to feel very unwanted and unsafe by a portion of the OSR community. I'm slowly bouncing back through therapy, but what I dealt with caused some difficulties with my mental illness. I'm bummed because I want to be able to reach out to people in the storygame and Feminst gamer community but, much like my local community here in Albuquerque, abusers seem to get support. It makes people like me just sit down and shut up. It makes us feel ashamed. And right now, I feel like I can't reach out like I wanted to. Most of the OSR doesn't want me around because of Zak (FOOTNOTE 3), and now I don't know if anyone else would either. This makes me pretty sad, especially after feeling so included at the mini con  " " FOOTNOTE1: Lying FOOTNOTE 2: Lying FOOTNOTE3: Lying 30m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +Wayne Rossi (oops, i was wrong, see below) 33m Wayne Rossi's profile photo Wayne Rossi You used her dead name in a comment. 35m Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell This is moving too fast for me to keep up with.

Regarding blocking Zak, by all means, I think it's obvious it isn't healthy for you to engage with him.

Zak is not dead naming you though by sharing links to the past, you shared the link yourself making the connection to your dead name on his blog. I'm sorry you feel he's being transphobic...he isn't.

This is a matter of what one person feels vs. what one person is saying. I don't want you to feel attacked or threatened by Zak, but I can't change the way you feel about something, or the way someone's words make you feel. 35m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +2 +Wayne Rossi Oh, you'r right-sorry. It's confusing going back and forth to dig up all this evidence, edited: Terra I'm sorry I left your deadname in that comment, please stop abusing and harassing people and lying about them. 33m Wayne Rossi's profile photo Wayne Rossi Thanks for removing that +Zak Sabbath 31m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath +Wayne Rossi No problem. 30m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank He shares me talking about my feelings of fear over the way he has treated me as though it is harassment. Sharing my own fears and feelings are not lies, especially when I'm so vulnerable. This was a transphobic attack, plain and simple. Just because I share my dead name does not mean he has any right to, especially when it is not pointing out anything other than my dead name and pronouns. I'm brave enough to share that in the face of abuse and it's being used to further abuse me. And now he wants people to apologise to him for his transphobia being called out? I'm so happy G+ has stopped showing me the rest of his posts at this point because it is becoming straight up hurtful 28m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Feeling bad doesn't justify false accusations against me or James, or attacking people without talking to them to make sure your first impression is accurate. If you're too upset to do that, that's ok, then just do not get online and attack people then Photo 23m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank +Christopher Mennell​ please don't cisplain transphobia to me. Trans people decide what is transphobic, not cis people. 22m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Then the thing for Terra to do is argue with all the trans people who would point out she's lying about me being transphobic rather than harass me in a thread full of cis dudes. 15m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank He could have copied and pasted the relevant text, instead he shared posts that mention my dead name and pronouns over and over and over. Seeing that was VERY painful for me. It was transphobic and careless. Not considering the damage he did to me with sharing those posts was transphobic. Just because I share my dead name does not mean every cis person I know can too, especially when they know it will hurt me... Just like a black person calling herself the N word doesn't give white people the right to. This has hurt me deeply and now you are telling me I have no right to point that out? 9m Terra Frank's profile photo Terra Frank Not seeing the transphobia in this is cis privelage 10m Evlyn M's profile photo Evlyn M Seriously no one should ever be entitled to suggest to other people to block someone else.

Zak often critic storygamers for not calling out shitty attitudes. Ok so I am calling these suggestions to block people really shitty and unacceptable.

People have enough judgment to decide by themselves if they want to block someone or not.

This behavior is really hurtful.

And asking someone to nuance his or her comment to better understand them and to discuss is one thing. Calling them like they have committed somekind of major offense is a other thing. This don't encourage discussion at all.

Note: I have blocked Zak and he can't answer to this. (Just for the info) 4m Zak Sabbath's profile photo Zak Sabbath Why would you ever NOT suggest people block broken stairs and harassers? . That is how you detox a community. Communities must always recommend steps to protect themselves form abusers. When they stop doing that, they cease to be safe. This isn't a minor thing. Terra has been harassing creators for YEARS. 3m K Yani's profile photo K Yani What was just said about Mr. Sabbath using certain dead name over and over again is not true. He edited his post to correct pronouns and the name as soon as the error of the referencing became obvious, and even initially it was mentioned only once by my count, maybe two times, not what "over and over" usually means. It isn't mentioned now. 3m Christopher Mennell's profile photo Christopher Mennell I am going to erase the comments unrelated to the original post. +Terra Frank, I am sorry if I hurt you with my words. I do feel it's unfair to hold someone accountable to an expectation that isn't spoken beforehand; for example saying Zak could have copy/pasted the text rather than sharing a link directly to it...but maybe I don't understand well enough.

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