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lild00td00t · 9 months

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Hi, I hope you are doing well! Can I request headcanons on how Crocodile, Buggy, Mihawk and Doflamingo would propose to their s/o or how they would react if their s/o was the one to propose to them? (Which ever you feel like is fine! :))

Have a great day!

One Piece War Lords: Proposing to their S/O

This was so adorable thank you for requesting the War Lords!! I’ll have to write a part 2. Buggy was honestly my favorite for a bit… 👉🏻👈🏻 but these are gonna be so HELLA friggin cheesy. I’m a hopeless romantic.. so please… COURT ME LIKE WE’RE IN PRIDE AND PREJUDICE.

Buggy

• He’s so nervous, his hands are clammy, even on the inside of his gloves sweat is lining along the fabric of them. He’s talked it over to himself multiple times, rationalizing the best and worst case scenario.

• He can’t help but melt when he sees you with the promise ring he gifted. He sweats bullets when you tease him about getting married… at dinner he nearly choked, and poor Mr.3 nearly had a heart attack just trying to dislodge the food that got caught in his throat. But he felt like that a majority of the times you discussed it. Like something was lodged in his throat and cutting off his air.

• So when you’re watching the crew bring a haul back on the ship, hands on your hips in a relaxed stance, you barely notice when he slips a ring on your finger, and he discreetly prays you don’t say anything about it until you screech and throw your arms around him, his body probably splits in 2 out of shock- this poor man -

• “ How does it feel knowing you’re going to be married to the future pirate king ?! Flashy ?! As it should feel?! “ Then the second you romanticize over the idea he practically hemorrhages 🥲

Mihawk

• The most poetic. God - he probably leaves you little poems every where, and they’re all based on you <3

• Your dates are so adorable. Like picnics, or going on row boats. It’s so quiet on the water, so you don’t notice when he slips down on one knee, clasping your hands in his while presenting a ring.

• You nearly flip the boat when you finally comprehend what’s happening but luckily your better half is much more calm and collected.. he was prepared for this reaction.. atleast he thinks he was -

• He kisses your knuckles, then overlaps your hands with his and holds them to his heart

• “ It seems as though the love saga of my poems will continue until death do us part…“

Crocodile

• Posessive..

• He truly is materialistic and is telling the truth. You genuinely will get what you want. But he can see it in your eyes that you’re not after his money, or his valuables or even his status. He can see the way you adoringly look up to him when he talks. And he’s not used to such an innocent form of love you offer.

• He feels that you must be protected, for what you make him feel is vulnerability. Which scares him. Because no one has ever made him feel that way before. So when the time is right, most likely on a starry night when you’re on a walk he’ll stop, just long enough to kneel and pull out the box, just long enough for you to realize what he’s doing. And with that, he confesses his love

• “ With this ring, you are mine.. whatever you want you can have. You will always be treated with my respect and my love, nothing will ever be enough to satiate how I feel for you. No amount of gold compares to that ring on your finger, for it holds the greatest power in all the world.. my promise to you. “

Doflamingo

• Like crocodile he’s possessive.. but with a sweet?? Spin ?? To it ???

• The moment he slips the ring on your finger he brings your hand to his lips for a sweet kiss, giving you that bone chilling smile while keeping his lips pressed to your skin.

• He doesn’t make a big, fancy show out of it. Because he knows that you don’t need everyone to know. It’s obvious that you’re his

• You listen when he talks. You’re never put off by his nightmares or bad moods. You urge him to talk about his brother and family. You talk about starting a new one… as a second chance.

• “ A second chance for the Heavenly Demon.. “ he thinks to himself, lost in thought. You weren’t scared to say that he was flawed, but it didn’t matter, because you could work on it together

• “ As long as you are mine, you will be taken care of and no one, I mean no one, will ever mistreat you ever again, lest they want my wrath… “ And he means it. He means every word of it. He would wage wars in your name, bring cities to the ground, and split the ocean in two if he could, unlike crocodile, who is alittle more materialistic with his promises. <3

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deadbeat-motel · 2 months

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ᕼᑌᔕK ᗩᑎᗪ ᑎIᖴᖴTY ᖇEᗪEᔕIGᑎ

Deadbeat father with his baby-leashed daughter.

I believe these are the last of the designs that will try to follow the original design as best as it can because looking at my sketches right now, Alastor, Cherri Bomb, and Pentious (and Crymini) goes a different direction than their counterparts.

You know how this works, thoughts below:

My issues with their Original designs:

Niffty:

Man, I only have two things to critique about this one since she's also a solid design:

What is the purpose of the scarf? It comes out of nowhere for the design, what is the connection/purpose of having it? Genuinely asking since it does bother me a bit.

She barely is a bug, there is no feature in the design that gives us any idea that she might be a bug (Or even an alien since apparently Cyclops are just a normal sinner type in this hell). Looking at the Wiki, I think the only reason for the alien aspect is that it came from a song? Either way, she doesn't showcase any of either in her design.

Husk:

GOD THE WINGS. DEAR GOD THE WINGS. IT'S SO UGLY AND CLUTTERED AND THE PATTERNS BARELY MAKE ANY SENSE. It's so awful ewwww. Every scene that didn't have them closed looked extremely rushed and ugly. It could've benefitted from just copying how actual feathered wing patterns naturally are.

His eyebrows are not a problem for me (It's my favourite part of him) but the unnecessary two black stripes are.

He's probably supposed to be a tuxedo cat, but he legitamately looks like the cat in the hat with his entire face being white.

The thought process for these two:

Niffty:

Personally was not into the whole Cyclops thing, especially when there are no hellborns (that I can recall at least) in Helluva Boss that posess a singular eye. She's got 2 eyes now because.... reasons.

The mismatched eyes was my solution to removing the Cyclops sinners of this world. Plus it's a neat little character detail that her insecurity of some kind of eye defect manifests as this odd eye shape.

Her hair is a bit neater because as much as I enjoyed how her original hair looks, It's kind of silly to think a person who's obsessed with cleanliness would have such an unkempt haircut? (Specifically talking about that scene kid-esque bangs she has.)

While I kept the maid aspect with her clothes, I made it a lot more flowery so that it reads more like a child's outfit mimicing a maid's.

I gave her one fucked up antennae since in the rewrite ill be doing, she's very easily lost and thus became homeless, drifting to any place that would allow her to stay for a little while long until they kick her out.

Bug wings and the spurs on her arms and legs are just to sell the bug aspect a bit more.

Hopefully, it was clear enough. But her arms are made of two arms conjoined together to create a singular arm.

Admittedly, I did not choose a specific bug for Niffty. Insects are not something I'm interested in and I got lazy with this aspect.

Husk:

MADE HIM A LOT FATTER AHAHAHAHHA. Husk feels like he could've ended up as a bara if Vivzie's twinkif-y ray didn't hit him.

Specific fluff areas as well as a red mustache make him look older and do more to make you understand he's much more aged than the rest of the cast.

Genuinely enjoyed the hair that they gave Husk in his flashback, it looked handsome on him. Why Vivzie didn't put that in his actual redesign is beyond me, but here it is on him now

Since his wings barely play any role in the story, I shrunk it and de-cluttered the poor thing.

The red suspenders are there to simply put a pop of color on his already muted colors.

Despite the running joke that Vivzie's characters all have a bowtie, kept it on Husk since I think it would be cute that he probably keeps it on because Niffty made it herself for him.

This is just personal, but I wanted to give him an actual cat's pattern because I saw Husk from the headcanon voices video and thought that he was a sloth for some reason.

#deadbeat motel redesign #hazbin hotel criticism #hazbin hotel redesign #deadbeat motel niffty #deadbeat motel husk #hazbin hotel critical #vivziepop critical

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elsa-fogen · 3 months

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Oh, Husk and Alastor?

Their dynamic is also pretty interesting, they kinda feel like two people who everyone thinks gets along great and are the best of friends. While in reality their friendship is fueled but a fire born from their hatred. They just have many decent moments and have a easy time understanding each other, through they often use that information to serve a selfish endeavor.

Like Alastor would mess with Husk, tease him and Husk would tell Al to get his act together so that he(Husk) doesn't have to deal with some sort of fallout (ref. when Mimzy comes by)

In general, I feel like they do get along really well, but they are in no way friends. Kinda like how you can get along well with your boss, but wouldn't really consider them a friend. And you wouldn't really want them to involve themselves in your life, but that doesn't stop Alastor. (Social conversions? What's that)

This also makes me curious, wonder what kind of dynamic Husk has with Rosie, or rather, how do you think Rosie sees Husk? Just like a pet Alastor has? Or does she actually see the person that is there? (Leaning more towards her not really seeing Husk more than a errand boy or pet of Alastor)

Though it would be fun if the first time Husk meet Rosie he thought that she might actually be willing to help him because she gives of the energy of being a very kind person around people she cares about (aka Alastor). So he tries to talk to her without Alastor present and he finally understands how they get along so well, they are both the same kind of crazy ᵔᵜᵔ

So, um- what are your thoughts on the dynamic between Alastor and Husk?

HEEEHEHHE YOU GOT ME A REASON TO TALK ABOUT MY FRESH HEADCANON ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIPS

OKAY SO!!

I saw a theory that Husk had children when he was alive. Keep that in mind, it's a secret tool we wanna use later

So, little bit about Alastor. He is not the guy who owns many souls. In fact, he doesn't own any (well... i have some headcanons, but it's for another time). The only soul he has is Niffty, and she's... she's whole another level.

So one day Alastor get's Husk's soul in posession and he has no idea what to do with him. Their contract is basically "you'll have to do anything i order you" but it doesn't set any boundaries for Husk. So he can insult Alastor, argue with him and so on. The only thing he cant is to try to kill Alastor, but it's obvious.

So, Alastor's just... drags him around, and Husk has to just be there all the time, and watch Alastor do stupid shit without thinking, being manipulated by Mimzy into some shenanigans and so on, because he's too powerful, kinda don't afraid of anything and little bit unhinged. And Husk is trying to be that voice of sanity for Alastor (and maybe Niffty). Like in canon, he tries to warn Alastor about Mimzy nd at some point seems genuinely worried about him. Just a bit. And also, in that scene in final song, when Alastor appears again, Husk doesn't seem happy but still goes for group hug.

I think he sees Alastor as a child he has to babysit, but the child is so spoiled, that he doesn't give a shit about his warnings. Maybe Al reminds him of his own children at some degree. And so Husk is attached to Alastor in some weird unhealthy way, he cares about him and tries to protect, even if it pointless.

The worst part of it is that Alastor doesn't see him more than funny fluffy cat-guy-pet. He almost never takes him seriously and doesn't listen to what he says. So Husk may try to reach out to Rosie, to make her to reason with Alastor. But she's basiclly "i could fix him, but whatever is wrong with him is way funnier". I think she listens to Husk's worries about another Alastor's scheme, but she also trusts Alastor? I mean, she belives that he'll be fine. But if something seems to dangerous, she can agree and talk to Alastor.

After all, Husk was an overlord, and i think Rosie could know him before he made a deal with Alastor. So, i think she doesn't think of Husk as just Al's pet, she knows who he is. After all, not every sinner can become an overlord. But still,

So, last thing. I saw that one comic where after episode 5 Alastor admits that Husk was right about Mimzy and i really love this thought. I think Alastor also likes Husk's presence at some degree. Maybe they could build something healtier, maybe Alastor, after losing part of his powers, would listen to Husk more. But still it's all fucked up while Alastor owns his soul.

And also, i'd really love to see something of just Alastor, Husk and Niffty getting into some shenanigans together, this would be so much fun. Al and Niff who are just 2 unhinged gremlins and Husk who's done with their shit, but still cares about them and can't just leave, and it's not because of the deal. Like i imagine when husk is trying to reason with Alastor that he's about do something stupid and dangerous and Alastor's like well i don't force you to follow us this time, but Husk still goes with them because who else would watch after these two idiots?

So i think, i get your point about them!

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cloudofash · 3 months

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Riku and Kairi are Still [Somewhat] Friends Even If They Had Instances Where They Treated One Another Poorly

Since I wrote my Article exploring Riku's Jealousy and Possessiveness and I covered the topic of how Riku and Kairi barely felt like real friends, I have received some feedback stating that my take was wrong to even one person saying it was a flat out "stupid idea". So I'd like to take the time to address that take and why I still stand by it.

First and foremost, I said in my initial article that Riku and Kairi still show that they care for one another and stated that they're still friends. I put the disclaimer there because I didn't want anyone to think that I didn't view them as friends. Re-reading that article I can see how I worded some things poorly since I kind of let my thoughts explode and barely proofread it (bad habit of mine) and the truth is that I ran out of characters for that article so I couldn't explain my thoughts further. My thoughts were convoluted and sloppy but so much time has passed I've decided to keep the article as is and add correction here.

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I do think Riku and Kairi are still friends and have always been friends even if there is some tension between them.

I do think Riku still cares for Kairi and cares about her wellbeing.

When I wrote the article I was expressing my intial thoughts of how I perceived the two when I first played the game. To me, they hardly looked like friends. To me, it seemed Riku didn't care about Kairi at all. When I first played Kingdom Hearts I was fully grown, I went into this game viewing the characters through the eyes of an adult who had experience with problematic and toxic situations in friendships. That's what I was attempting to convey, my initial reaction as an adult who recognizes problematic behaviors.

I acknowledge I should have been clearer about separating my initial thoughts from my actual analysis after playing the game, because the two are not the same. My initial thoughts of Riku and Kairi were based on KH1 when the two were probably at their lowest, and I thought that they were either the worst kind of friends to one another or barely friends at all, but of course after playing the entire series I saw that no, these two characters do have instances where they care for one another.

Kairi opted to help reunite Sora and Riku in KH2 which is an incredibly selfless act on her part, considering she could have let Riku go and kept Sora's attention on herself but she knew Sora was being eaten alive by not knowing where Riku was. And she knew Riku was casting himself away because he was ashamed of himself. This moment from Kairi is to me, one of her best in the series because it shows that she genuinely does care about both boys and not just Sora.

However, we can not ignore that Kairi in KH1 wanted to leave Riku behind and take the raft HE built and run away with just Sora. She has developed as a character for sure, but my article was about Riku's Jealousy and Posessiveness was about Riku's initial darkness and downfall. We weren't really exploring the rest of the series even though I brought up some points from later games, I was focusing on the behavior of the characters initially in KH1. And in KH1, Kairi wasn't the good friend to Riku we saw her as in KH2. She tried to leave him behind because she sensed he was changing and falling into darkness. In KH1 it is established that Kairi didn't like and accept change, she was stuck in the past and wanted things to remain the same forever. And this in itself isn't bad behavior, but suggesting she and Sora run away and leave Riku behind IS problematic for someone who is supposedly Riku's friend.

However, being problematic or toxic doesn't mean you're not friends. It SEEMED that way to me because Kingdom Hearts 1 is our very first look at the Destiny Trio and it leads one to believe that they've always been that way, it was the first game and we had nothing else to go by. If you're constantly toxic and problematic then it's fair to assume you're either horrible friends or not friends at all. But if you and your friends are just going through a bad time, or if you fight and argue that doesn't mean you're toxic and awful friends. Your behaviors may be toxic and problematic, as Riku's and Kairi's were in regards to one another, but they were and are still friends just trying to deal with each others' changes or lack of change and their feelings for Sora.

However, I still stand 10 toes down in that Riku and Kairi's friendship is barely explored and that also plays into why they don't feel like true friends, rather they feel like two people who are friends because they share the same friend. We're told they're friends and we see some instances where they do care for one another which makes their friendship almost believable, but to me we're just not given enough between the two. This isn't, again, to say they're not friends, the story just doesn't explore their friendship enough because it spends so much time focusing on Sora and Riku's relationship. The series is about Sora and Riku after all, so that's most likely just how it'll be. KH4 seems to be re-enforcing Kairi on the sidelines with Riku running off to save Sora in Quadratum but we'll have to see what becomes of our Destiny Trio.

Hope that clears my initial article up a bit more!

#soriku #kingdom hearts #kh1 #riku jealousy #riku #jealous #riku and kairi are friends #riku and kairi are just going through some tension

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elbdot · 1 year

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If you have watched it, what are your opinions on the latest TOH episode?

(SPOILERS UP AHEAD!!!)

IT WAS SO GOOD I LOVED IT It was PACKED full of storylines and you could TELL that each of them were meant to be an episode on their own, I wish we would've been able to actually get these episodes or a bit more time to breath between moments, but you know, THEY DID THEIR BEST to give us the best compressed version of what they initially had planned and I think THEY DID A FANTASTIC JOB!!!

I did NOT care for a Bosha-return however. I genuinely do NOT like her but I know that she served her purpose in this episode to once again piss of Willow, causing her to break down later on. Still, I'm glad if we don't have to see her again, she doesn't deserve any more of our scarce screentime in my opinion.

Also you have no idea how relieved I am that we got a break from any further Hunter-abuse, I am NOT kidding when I say "Thanks to Them" really messed me up emotionally for TWO WEEKS because of Hunters treatment from "boy is finally healing :)" to "actually let's make things WORSE" UURHGFDHGFHG ARRRGGGGGG

LOVE to see Belos suffer tho. Love that his past keeps haunting him. Yes...FEEL that underlying gUILT of freaking KILLNG YOUR OWN BROTHER and then 1000 CLONES OF HIM I am hoping for a full on mental-breakdown from Belos when he sees Eda next Ep with her Evelyn-Haircut and Hunter and Willow HOLDING HANDS HEHEHEHEHEHEHE That body-posession in his lab was FUCKED UP tho, I can't believe Dana got away with that hOLY CRAP (lovedittho)

Honestly the more I think about the episode the more stuff I remember that I absolutely loved I don't even know if I can write it all down it's just sO MUCH

BUT I ALSO REALLY LOVE STRINGBEANS SHE'S SO CUTE I LOVE HER COLOURS Dratini-cat-snake FUCK YEAH

And...THEM

oOooAAAAAHHHAAJGFDGJFDJFDJKJGFJF 🤩😍🥺😭❤️💖💕💞💖💖💞💕💖💕

THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPYYYY AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Just every Huntlow moment and every Emerald Trio moment they just fill me with joy I love these three so much

#TOH spoilers #the owl house #toh hunter #huntlow #TOH #HUNTLOW CANON!!!!!!!#HUNTLOW FRIGGIN CANON YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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soullikethesea · 2 months

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TW neglect, abuse, starvation, Ruby Franke

Yesterday I managed to get myself triggered by watching some videos about the Ruby Franke case. Obviously it wasn't my intention to get triggered, but I also feel like I could have known it wasn't a very good idea.

Anyway. Some things really brought me back to the past. E.g., how skinny the kids were: me and my sibling were that skinny. It shocked people in the US, but over here I don't think anyone was shocked (or at least I never noticed that response). I remember that my dad and stepmum got a talking to at some point about how my brother was underweight, but I don't think it made an impact on their behaviour at all.

The Ruby Franke case features extensive abuse and my parents didn't go that far, thankfully. But the purpose of it was similar: proving that they were in control, expressing furiousness (from having skewed beliefs), dehumanizing us, and domination.

I think my brother was worst off, because all four other siblings had another set of parents as well, where they could experience a different environment. So what we're seeing in the present is that he also struggles the most with denial/letting them go.

My sister realized that they were specifically targeting me. My stepmother valued her and our brother more than me, because at least they were *her* children. She thought that I would ruin her children. So she saw me as a huge dangerous threat.

And they tried to break me. I had a strong sense of what was right and what wasn't, partially because I was a vivid reader. By then I'd finished around 600 books at the library. It gave me a different perspective. I *knew* it was wrong for them to starve us and it was wrong to purposefully do hurtful things. It hurt so much when they "forgot" my birthday and my birthday specifically (my siblings had birthdays in the same week and they both did get a celebration).

The next year, my step-mother choked me. That's no longer Mae-territory, but Fox's. And perhaps unsurprisingly, I feel less anger and more shame about that. I couldn't help it happening, it wasn't something I did wrong (other than building a relationship with my brother). I was scared by what she did, but even more by what she said... which was that she could see how bad I am, even when I can deceive others. She can see I ruin people and should stay away from everyone.

See? That's Ruby Franke territory. She didn't exactly say that she thought I was posessed, but with a different cultural background that is what she would have said. I genuinely believe that she and my father thought they were doing the right thing by starving and punishing me. They were trying to make sure I wouldn't speak up anymore. Trying to control what they didn't like, what was confronting them with their weird behaviour. Diminishing me and thereby diminishing the threat on their other children.

So when I heard about the callousness of Ruby Franke's behaviour, it reminded me of those times and the callousness back then. Mae remembers it very well. She doesn't feel close to the pain anymore, but she does feel close to the anger and the lack of control. She remembers the dizziness and the nausea. The headaches. The stomach cramps. She remembers trying to eat very slowly when there was a little food available, trying to soothe the body into fullness (please let it be enough). The parents said it was about not having enough money, but it wasn't. It was about dehumanization and a deep lack of care.

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sennamybeloved · 8 months

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Sorry I know I already sent an ask but would it be possible to know some trivia about you and Mileena? As a fellow villain liker I am dying to know about you guys! - flowerhound

awww oh my god ;; these asks are so fucking sweet, thank you SO much for them. it genuinely means a lot that someone is this interested in what i have to say about my girl. of course you can have some trivia about us.

(also, i apologize that it took me a minute to get to this! wasn't ignoring it, just trying to perfect my answers :>)

this specifically discusses mk9 - 11 mileena! mk1 is excluded for now.

in mk9 - mk11, my self insert is a genetic experiment done by earthrealm's government, combining humans with animals to create ultimate war machines. however, very few of the experiments were successful, and those that were escaped when the laboratory they were created in fell apart. i was combined with a fox, of course :)

i joined the tournament to cope with how hollow my life had become after leaving the lab. i was raised to fight and knew nothing else, so, kombat soothed me. imet mileena around this time, who attempted to capture/kill me, but ultimately failed, because i won her over with flattery. more specifically, i called her face beautiful, which is something she'd never been called before. so, she spared me, and we began to talk.

at this point, i didn't have a name; only a subject number that was assigned to me in captivity. so, mileena named me "phantom" after my fur and uber-cool stealth powers. it stuck, sooo, self insert name origins!!!

other story stuff is kinda blurry. i aided her during her rebellion in mkx + the comics, helped her escape captivity before we got executed, and convinced her to "settle down" somewhere away from all the drama and politics. mileena's idea of settling down still involves terrorizing people, however, she isn't like... actively wanted for war crimes anymore. so that's cool.

on the topic of general realtionship stuff, mileena is..a lot to handle. she is aggressive and childish in the same breath, meaning that she deals with everything (both good and bad) in a way that is either inherently harmful or downright frustrating. aside from the fact that she is a literal murderer, she is bossy, whiny, petulant, and a couple other things that most people would find annoying--however, i absolutely do not find her annoying. in fact, i find all of these qualities extremely endearing! even the whole murder thing.

she's extremely clingy. she wants my undivided attention and doting affections all of the time. i'm busy? nonsense! there is no reason i shouldn't be paying attention to her.

[CW: POSESSIVENESS/JEALOUSY] not only is she clingy, but she is also protective, possessive, and a tad bit obsessive; she wants me and only me, and wants me to feel the same about her. fortunately, i do, however, that does not stop her from threatening to eat those who get sweet on me. she wants everyone to know that i am claimed by her for life, and she will stop at literally nothing to prove that.

she masks it pretty well, but she is actually extremely insecure about her appearance and origins. she finds her own face to be repulsive, hence why she always wears a mask, and envies those with traditional beauty, like kitana. i, on the other hand, think she's gorgeous just the way she is, and i am not shy about telling her that. she adores my praise, so, i keep it coming.

our primary love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. we are stuck to each other like glue, always purring compliments in the other's ear.

mileena has eaten people for me. she will continue to eat people for me. i cannot stop this from happening.

mileena loves all of my hobbies. every time i pick up something new, she wants to hear all about it. she's a great listening, surprisingly, but only when it comes to me. she has great retention when it comes to my hobbies and my hobbies alone. she loves watching me draw, adores listening to the music i make, loves proofreading my writing. she's even tried picking up some of my hobbies for herself!

i take her friendship in mk11 as canon. one of the few things she has patience for is sewing. she tailors her own clothes, fixes up my clothes, but most importantly, she makes teddy bears. she has an entire collection of teddy bears, both big and small, some created by her whereas others were stolen and scavenged. she adores them. me and her throw little tea parties with them sometimes.

she doesn't have lips, so she can't kiss me. instead, she licks me. like a dog. like this.

she also bites. it is NOT gentle, but it is out of love, so i don't really mind it.

she is actually pretty marvelous at helping me cope with my anxiety. this is because she takes everything i say at face value instead of second-guessing and trying to convince me otherwise, so she's able to meet me where i'm at.

we both kinda suck at singing, but we sing together sometimes. she has my very diverse taste in music.

#* 🥩 / want me down to the marrow .#augghh thank you for this again #you are so kind!#sso so so so so sorry for the late reply i was gen just stumped on how to structure this #but i decided a thought dump would work best #lotus answers #lotus rambles #self ship community #f/o community #self insert x canon

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vulturevanity · 23 days

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There is a warm presence living in my chest. It is a stranger.

I genuinely don't remember a time I've connected with my inner self. Though not officially diagnosed yet, I'm autistic, I'm pretty sure; and we sometimes tend to not notice our emotions until they burst out in uncontrollable storms, if at all. Mine don't do that, though, they're more like being plugged into an outlet with the wrong voltage that's constantly sending just a little too much power through the fuse until it blows and everything goes dark. It's the only outlet around, and I need the power, so all I can do is leave it there and use as little of the machinery as possible. But the cost of changing the fuses is starting to pile up.

I don't remember a lot of my teen years. The (not many) memories I have are descriptive -- I know they happened, I can recall them as faded photos in an album and warped voices in an old cassette tape. I wasn't there, though, I'm just experiencing them as if someone's showing them to me, reminiscing about embarrassing teen moments and music they used to listen to. Revisiting those songs, I find I don't much like the stuff.

There is a warm presence living in my chest. It is an angel or a monster, I'm not sure yet -- I don't know if there's a difference.

My deeply religious family wholeheartedly believes in the spiritual world. I'm not exactly a sceptic either; we've experienced some truly unexplainable phenomena that someone with a more solid understanding of the human mind would probably have words for, but I'm only a guy who likes to draw sometimes. My point is, I'm not sure if I can tell them about the warm presence. They might think I'm being called by the Holy Spirit, or compelled by an angel, or posessed.

I don't like going to church anymore. I was raised a fundamentalist protestant, which, if you're queer and were there with me, you know exactly how well that goes. Sundays feel unsettling and suffocating. The pastor's voice makes me squirm. The thought of going to them for help is a little terrifying and, I am aware, probably a bad idea anyway.

There is a warm presence living in my chest. It made itself known when I asked if anyone's there.

Last year I had a few sessions with a therapist my cousin managed to score for free. Honestly it was too brief to start unraveling the i-don't-know that's landed me where I am in terms of mental health nowadays, but it did open my eyes to a couple things. Most importantly, my inability to prioritize myself and my need to be out of the way of other people. Everyone is going through so much already, they don't need to deal with my problems on top of it. My family has an extremely turbulent history, it only makes sense that I wouldn't want to be a burden. I made myself walk alone when everyone else was busy trying to build a home out of shattered glass.

One of the memory albums in my mind is, strangely, of my childhood friends who didn't exist. I had imaginary friends until I was 12. Or I think that's what they were; maybe I was just playing make-believe with myself. Regardless, I was a lonely child, and my imagination kept me company, and since I was old enough to understand how weird that would look from an outside perspective, I'd only speak to them through thoughts. It was one of my most well-kept secrets. But eventually they had to go, I think so that I could "grow up". The strange part is, rather than just fade out of my mind, they formally said goodbye to me before they left. I don't really think that's supposed to happen. Maybe I really was roleplaying?

There is a warm presence living in my chest. It doesn't have a voice.

Last year, while I was seeing the therapist my cousin had arranged for me, we briefly talked about this sense of heavy derealization I feel toward my teenage years. That logically, I knew it happened, and I had the (not many, strangely fragmented) memories to prove, but emotionally I feel entirely detached from them. Nothing in particular can be pinpointed as the cause for it, as far as I can tell. Regardless, I became curious about different types, causes and symptoms of dissociation. In the end, I didn't really think much more of it, as I didn't believe my experiences overlapped enough with what I'd read about it to be worth looking further into.

Two months ago, I went to sleep on a Thursday. When I woke up again, it was Sunday; the weekend had happened, mundane and uneventful (as far as I recall), and I hadn't been there for it. It was a startling moment -- though the machine hadn't been running much lately, maybe another fuse had been blown. But this was different from a shutdown. I can recognize a shutdown. This -- being out for a whole weekend -- was scarier. Scary enough that I had to reconsider the possibility of dissociation. I'm no good at introspection, and I still don't think I fit any criteria for a diagnosis, but regardless, I was a little desperate, so I finally -- after 30 years -- tried to reach into my psyche. Awkward, embarrassed, like a newbie actor talking to a plastic prop, I asked in thought: "Hey, uh. Anyone there?"

There is a warm presence living in my chest. It doesn't have a voice.

It pressed itself against my ribcage with a strength that nearly startled me out of it. Now I have a vivid imagination; like I said, I had imaginary friends until I was 12. So I was terrified that I'd just manifested a new symptom out of nothing. Symptom of what? No idea; like I said, I'm not diagnosed. It's very likely that I'm autistic, and I have a lot of baggage to work through, but never had a chance to do it. All that aside, I decided to ignore the fear and investigate this new... thing that was happening. The feeling was a strange mixture of elation and desperate loneliness. As if it had been waiting to be addressed. As if the thing it wanted most was to say hello.

It didn't say hello, though. Or rather, the feeling was its way of saying hello. (Is that how you want me to put it? Okay.) It doesn't seem to use words. I realized it on that first time. I told him (oh? Him? Thank you!), tentatively, "hello. Is this real? Are you here?" And he pressed against my sternum again -- yes. He felt really happy, almost overwhelmingly so. But I asked him if he wanted to come outside, and he vanished. No. The sensation in my chest now tells me he feels anxious about it. That's alright, he shouldn't force himself. This is new for both of us. We'll learn together.

There is a warm presence living in my chest. This feeling might be me.

#babbles #this is wild. hello! if you have a name let me know #honestly the logical part of me is telling me this shouldn't be happening. like why even #we didn't really live through traumatic experiences commonly associated with this sort of phenomenon #like I said our teen years weren't even that remarkable #regardless he's here and he's sooo nervous about me writing this #he doesn't NOT want me to. he's happy being acknowledged I think #but this is uncharted territory and we have a lot to figure out #vent #(<- he wanted me to tag it and make this unrebloggable. baby steps. it's ok buddy i gotchu)

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RIP to my dhmis fixation, lets honor it with a bunch of stuff i made and either wanted to pretty up some more or add more pics to before posting but now thats not happening

first off some things that i dont think really need an explanation

first quick sketches of other arts that i just really like and wanted to keep (yea the playlist icons started out as pics for selected red vox songs for each of them)

roy at the very moment where he realises the nature of the world he's in. shortly after this he turns into a gangly beast

pic based on the INCREDIBLE fic "Three Friends, Three Foes, Three Names They'll Never Know" by Eliza Farrow, specifically the quote "Red is love, and rage, warmth and war, luck and passion. Everything was there, under a thick plastering of apathy, his feelings tangled and violent like storms within clouds." from chapter 2 (i actually wanted to draw many things based on moments from the fic because it REALLY sparked my inspo when reading it)

i looked up different hairstyles you can do with freeform dreadlocks like the ones i gave radley and i had way more styles i wanted to do, but these two on their own are also nice

my take on that AU concept where yellow has to dad the other two

was thinking about how naive all three of them actually are and had the idea of an AU where all three of them are children. it would make no sense but thats not what its about it was all about the cute kiddo designs

i actually spent a good few weeks fighting the internal battle of my fucking life on if i would maybe want to change my human designs for radley and quentin cause i felt like the ones here would fit their puppets' appearances better, but i had already grown so attached to my original designs,,, it was a struggle

also my take on the "who used the chainsaw" discourse

quentin would fuck his boss for a promotion. if he hadn't freaked out about how he was brainwashed he would have gone for the gilf

humanization take on duck putting the smallest toast in the toaster: just busting out a flamethrower

radley fighting quentin's internalised racism AND homophobia in one swift sentence

a silly idea i had for a claire humanisation. didnt go with it but the concept is hilarious to me. she just has horns

so the idea i had for the tourism teacher oc (that i didnt make) was that they take the gang to germany for some jokes a la "wow this place is so exotic and strange!!!" when it's just one country to the right. they visit a döner kebab stand in this pic

wanted to use this to set up an arc where quentin locks himself back up in the closet and have it cotribute to some major mental health deterioration. cause i love performing the worst psychological torture on my faves

this started out as "potential tv show season 2 design designs" and then quickly turned into "quentin but hes older,,,, and grumpier,,,, AND in the beginnings of a villain arc" (pure self indulgence)

a height comparison that was my main basis for the refs i made

that shrek AU i promised ages ago. like i said above i really waned to add more to it before posting, at the very least the "Who are you trying to keep out?" "EVERYONE, OKAY?" scene

deltarune AU!! the idea was that yellow is a human who gets posessed by a PLAYER SOUL (a green one instead of red tho) and he goes into a dark world that appeared in his school, but the janitor, duck, sees him, tries to follow him and then he's suddenly in the dark world too! also his mop has come to life and is ridiculousy handsome.

and finally, a little crossover picture i made just before getting fully sucked up by tf2. i genuinely think the two franchises fit each other really nicely tonaly! and also red would 100% play a living meat shield class like heavy and duck would be all insane and violently enthusiastic like soldier. just try to change my mind

#dhmis red guy #hc au radley #dhmis duck #hc au quentin #dhmis yellow guy #hc au gilbert #dhmis roy #doodles #i will add more to this in a second too but thats gonna need to be a reblog #this is a LONG BOY. i hit the 30 image post limit

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aegoniiwifey · 8 months

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Do you think if Aegon was married to someone who was by his own choosing he’d aloe her participate in a threesome?

I think he’d be down for watching his love fuck another women and he’d definitely enjoy the show they would put on for him, but I think he’d be to possessive to let another man putting his cock in his wife’s mouth or cunt

I mean, me personally, I like to see Aegon as incredibly posessive, especially considering if it's someone/something he actually, genuinely cares about... he's so used to having this handed to him, getting what he wants, that when he has this unfamiliar feeling of wanting to protect and care for, he becomes like an attack dog.

but I mean if we're talking freaky Aeg who doesn't give a shit, I reckon he switches, but tends to lean more towards his partner with women... he hates the idea of another man pleasing you.

#aegon ii targaryen #aegon ii targaryen thots

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I find it pretty funny that Keith David is a president/vice president in Rick and Morty and Saints Row 4. Do you think their universes could be connected?

To be honest with you, I do. ive thought about this since i was like 16, but i also thought the idea was slightly cringe (at the time, now i let my cringe free). i could soo totally see boss and rick getting along so well, the fact theyre both reckless and flirty, the way they both act like "im tough, i dont care about anyone" but in reality they care so much that theyre willing to sacrifice themselves for their loved ones. plus cmon, the fact they both can not only avoid authority so well, but the fact theyve both been able to get out of jail with little to no actual punishment for their crimes? oh thats best friends right there i think. plus we can imply that saints row has some sort of canon/lore connection to adult swim tv show lore anyways, since jimmy - the guy who makes Johnny tag in the clones dlc for saints row 3 - is clearly supposed to be the nerd from robot chicken (literally even featuring the same voice - which iirc is done by seth green)

additionally with the fact that a song from the tim and eric show (the sports theme) as well as the aqua teen hunger force them and a MF doom song being included on the radio sound track? i mean i know adult swim did contribute to the game, but its not entirely clear in what way the adult swim universe is tied into saints row. especially cos they drop nearly all references to it outside of the fact im pretty sure you can have johnny tag and clone aisha as companions in sr4 (not entirely sure though since its been months since i played sr4 last and you do have to unlock them).

plus the line that the president has in the "get schwifty" episode' "...I'm the goddamn president of the united fucking states"... totally sounds like something he'd say when being confronted by boss for his backstabbing...

which honestly not to be tangential but i have to talk about that now bc im sooo realizing how genius it is to make keith backstab boss.... especially because he does it right before you get put into a simulation where you have to fight Julius little? i may hark on saints row 4's writing but goddd the fan service they give to us can be soo good. It almost makes me wonder if keith david is a clone or hologram that zinyak made specifically to betray/trick boss - especially since hes the only one (other than Benjamin king, but this you could argue Ben wasnt immune to it, since it was teased in the cutscene, plus you could make the point that boss doesnt see Ben the same way they see someone like johnny whos been a long time friend and companion and even someone like matt miller, who may be a genuine threat - posessing skills boss doesnt have/understands - but boss still sees him as "lesser" or equal to them bc of who matt is outside of his keyboard) who rejects boss' advances in the ship. especially because his bitterness not only towards boss, but zinyak. He makes a mention of originally campaigning to be the president before "zinyak kicked the stool out from under him", and since hes aware earth is gone... why would he care abt being president of holograms? some of the plot points they make in sr4 are a tad annoying for the reason that they love to set up stuff like this, and the audio log collectables tell us so much, yet, they wont do anything with it unless its inherently funny.

dont get me wrong, love saints row's humor but i just wish they wouldnt sacrifice interesting plots and characters for it. And i wish they would solidify canon more.

TLDR; i do think saints row and rick and morty are connected in some way yes. the way i think the saints row universe is indeed intertwined with other adult swims shows due to saints row 3 giving us plenty of hints that the universe are connected in some way.

#saints row #sr #ask #i love getting questions like this tb #tbh

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nice

Ok, i think it’s totally fucking wild that my absolutely favorite “crack” (taken seriously) theory is somewhat coming true ?? like the one i feel kinda actually emotional about! Srsly!

aka the SMP multiverse

Like it’s def. not *my* version of the theory ofc, but *a* version! it’s the various creator’s version. but like good for them. and omg o m g.

cool.

(It’s the one i wrote a few bad double drabbles and the story “on the origins of lives” on ao3 about)

more rambling about “my version” under the cut

and rambling about why i get emotional about, the idea, at least my version (i don’t want to put any weird pressures on the SMP creators or their version) and why i get emotional about the story too.

and yes, i am thinking of a sequel

the story, https://archiveofourown.org/works/40205097

so, like, the crack idea (LOSAR’s version) is the idea that all the SMP roleplay servers are linked in a multiverse, though quite loosely. And also wrapped into my thoughts or ideas are some vague stuff about admin powers and mod powers and viewers - (and watcher / listener lore from Evo and 3rd Life being loosely tied to that)

so the main crack idea that’s kinda grown into this emotional thing, at least for me, (and it is Crack), is the whole joke bit video where Grian and Tommyinnit meet up, aka “I Tried to get Grian to Swear”, also known as “the one where they have a building competition” and also get weirdly posessively desirous about Mumbo Jumbo....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDBeFoZxhIc&t=4s

Anyway, the idea i had is it actually seems to fit well with other stuff with their HC and Dream SMP roleplay characters, and like they actually play off eachother surprisingly well there. And it’s a chance for both groups to see how “the other half” lives. and they have fun.

So the background of these people is that, oh boy, Tl:dr the relevant parts here is that HermitCraft SMP where Grian usually plays is.... you could call it upbeat, cheerful, and pranksterish but friendly, but not romantic at all. Pretty much anything of that aspect has to be Teen rating. And that includes explicit “straight” stuff too, btw. it’s like a friend molecule. Whereas the Dream SMP, where Tommy’s from, does have that aspect, many gay, straight, poly, marriages. and a lot of passion and genuine caring. also to put what you heard about bluntly, it may not be the worst.... Dream SMP is a hellhole. This is just to set the scene if you know nothing.

So anyway, (in the joke video i referenced, and in my story) this is a time when the two groups meet. And see how they live, and swap stories, and yes build a pair of cottagecore cottages for winner’s clout.

And (in my story at least) they see things in eachother. Grian sees how scarred Tommy is (and how annoying and weird to be around) but also how *passionate* and willing to express how he feels about Grian and Mumbo Jumbo, even if it’s in a little bit of a yandere stan way lol. (understatement)

While Tommy sees in Grian and Mumbo.... one: how absolutely power hungry they are. Like they really like to influence things, really. and that they are inhuman. And well... on the Dream SMP, neither fares very well really. If you’re power hungry (like Dream) you become everyone’s enemy. and there’s so many inhumans/part humans on the DSMP, but g d do they go through some hard times because of it, and can’t even talk to it with anyone. Ranboo is part enderman and has to deal with Follish killing other endermen in front of him and rain and snow burning hi,m. Philza is winged, but has his ability to fly stripped due to injury almost immediately upon joining the server. And yet - to Tommyinnit’s wise eyes - Mumbo and Grian are liked and respected on HermitCraft. wtf.

And ofc, the contest ends with Grian winning and taking Tommy’s prized elytra (a pair of minecraft wings) as a prize (this will be important later)

So just like Dream XD is Dream in admin form - a God in the minecraft world.... the two go off into Admin Mode (which side note, in my story is Watcher Mode for Grian)

And they go talk to Mumza.

And For the Third Life/Last Life/Double Life series - Grian institutes a loooot more passion. and also a LIMITED CANONICAL LIFE SYSTEM like they have in THE DREAM SMP. And finally gets a chance to cling to Scar and Mumbo (but at what cost? “I don’t feel too good about this”)

And for the ORIGINS SMP - Admin Tommyinnit, Tommy XD, institutes unlimited lives, sure, that dcan’t be understated, but also (maybe more importantly) free use of powers or abilities. yes! Elytras, shulkers, ender pearls, teleportation. Just like on HermitCraft. and also * the ability to talk about all this stuff *

(notice any patterns on what species people chose on origins? Tubbo starts as the most highly armed and armored species in the game, Phil has elytra wings, Ranboo is an enderman, Will a ghost, Niki was surrounded by fire, now she’s surrounded by water, Jack had to claw his way out of hell after dying in one of Tommy’s stupid wars on the DSMP and always resented him for it, now he starts in hell on the O SMP and has Tommy come to see him and help him get back.)

Anyway, and Tommy is an Avia, who doesn’t have full elytra and can’t fly but has (cute little) vestigial wings.

And who’s favorite jokingly annoyed phrase is “Phiiiil, i wanna fly like you phil!”

And Tommy’s also said that unlike the Dream SMP the disc thing doesn’t apply here.

So....

(now do you maybe start to see where the elytra comes in?)

On Dream SMP, Tommy gives his music discs away to Dream ( XD ) for everyone’s freedom. and constantly wants them back.

On ORIGINS SMP, planeswalker Admin Tommyinnit XD Gives his elytra to Grian (Watcher) for the ideas of the Origins SMP. And is like “I wanna fly like you Phil.”

(because if you notice, i think part of the “Tommy” personality in any universe, besides being selfish, and talking about girls, and talking shit to ppl, is being willing to give up things he cares about for his friends ).... (and oh boy, grian will take anything, anything that isn’t nailed down. )

But deep down I think he’s a little “happy” with both cases.

and i know this is a different multiverse thing. And i just like multiverses and planeswalkers in general.

But this is part of why i’m emotional about it, if i am.

(and why.... forget grian adopting tommy, how about i ship some Tommyinnit and Grian and Mumbo Jumbo) < 3

~Edit:

P S - and its a bit off topic, but let me tell you about Lifesteal SMP and what happens there since they have an airport to the Dream SMP.

#mcyt #the MCYT multiverse #potentially #my writing #3rd life smp #trafficblr #Dream smp #origins smp #osmp #grian #hermitcraft season 9 #hermitcraft

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contentcompendiumrw · 9 months

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Paranormal Activity Next of Kin & Tokyo Night Thoughts

Paranormal Activity: Next of Kin

I was dreading rewatching it because I just remember how absolutely dead I felt watching it originally but at the very least when paired with the rest of the franchise it feels different, as supposed to Ghost Dimension which lacked, any sort of uniqueness. The films scares aren't scary however conceptually the idea of being trapped in a vast snow filled forest with little to no technology to speal of or anyone to help for miles, it's pretty effective. It's effective only because the absurd, leap in technology allows that. While I feel the films attempt to maintain realsm and flow consistently while still giving that found footage feel, this film just straight up breaks that, in some areas it works such as the dinner chant scenes, and the actual interview segments but when it shifts during the scares, with an especially agregious example near the end, it's clear the only idea they had, WAS the bost in tech. Visually it's the most distinct film in the frtanchise, but perhaps for the wrong reasons. Speaking of being distinct, not gonna lie. They lost me. I understand this film's plot in isolation, however it acts as a weird sort of soft reboot and for the story to shift to another cult with another demon feels, insulting, like I had a firm grasp of what was up, and they just, gave up for a borderline wendigo posession sealer of the demon plot. It's odd. It was so, distinct from the rest I enjoyed it, at least more than GD and 2 however it just, wasn't a Paranormal Activity film, at least not enough of one. It was very pretty though.

4/10

Paranormal Activity: Tokyo Night

I mainly watched this one for the funny at the end of the day and, it just felt like a pretty good substitute for the first film, and admittedly a more compelling sequel than 2 was. It was a bit rehashy of the first but for esseentially an adaptation segmented off from everything it was good. Koichi gave the joyful snark I apparently need the protags of this film to have and Haruka being crippled for the whole film led to a lot of good tension based off her circumstances alone, as well as one of the most effective "character gets posessed and walks around" moments of the series. I really enjoyed the dual camera idea showing both rooms simultaneously, one of the main appeals of the franchise is frame analysis, just trying to notice what's going on, so to give you two shots, and on top of that add tension just through the character's personal lack of knowledge towards the other's situation is extremely effective. I just wish they did more with it admittedly. They do so many scares the original already did and I felt, especially with the ending they somewhat limited themselves because of that I'd not say that, unless you're absolutely starved for Paranormal Activity content it's fully worth the watch, but to be fair, it is also, perhaps the third best one I think. If you don't wanna watch it subbed, just watch the first, but it is genuinely on par I believe. Oh also to subvert expectations from 1 it has a slightly altered ending and, it's weird. In trying to not be like the original they flubbed it a bit at the end.

7/10

#film #cinema #letterboxd #review #thoughts #paranormal activity #film review #movie review

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hiding ur eyes in deltarune

random thought, everyone of the main team in deltarune hides their eyes or face in some way, except for noelle.

kris and susie have hair in their eyes, and ralsei has his hat. each of them also noticeably SHOW their eyes at some point.

my leetle mini theory about this is that hiding your eyes is equivalent to hiding your true self:

-susie’s eyes are shown late in ch1 when she starts opening up to kris and ralsei;

-ralsei takes his hat off at the end of the game, and it never fully hides his eyes. he’s been mostly honest, but he’s never fully revealed himself before

-kris is posessed BUT when they take out their soul you can see them for presumably obvious reasons

but my question is about NOELLE because WHAT THE SHIT IS UP WITH HER????

well i like to think noelle doesn’t try to hide stuff from people much. she’s genuine, especially around KRIS. in all of their interactions, which is a lot of noelle’s screen time in this chapter, we see her being real and so her eyes aren’t hidden. but what’s confusing is that, we know noelle isn’t being entirely true to herself around many other people. kris is the exception. so why arent her eyes ever hidden either????

anyone else have any ideas???

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edit: berdly

so i didn’t include him because he’s not a party member, and he’s the most complicated of all these BAR RALSEI so let me explain.

berdly doesn’t hide his eyes, but he has colored glasses. In a way, he’s not HIDING his eyes, only changing how they look. Berdly isn’t hiding who he is entirely, he’s showing everyone who he WANTS to be. It’s only dishonest by it being not who he IS. His glasses distort how he looks, and he distorts his image by claiming he’s better than he actually is.

He never takes off his glasses because he can’t admit to himself that he’s not perfect or special. Even when he’s being honest, he still inflates his image. When he describes how he’s not as smart as he says he is, he emphasizes the attention he got for WINNING and being SPECIAL. The glasses grab attention but don’t show the true colors underneath. He admits Noelle helped him study, but never says he isn’t smart.

If you want to extend the glasses theory to other characters, which I DO NOT BUT I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE, it would also apply to Ralsei. He’s been peeling back the layers of who he is, starting completely shrouded in a hood with nothing visible at all, and slowly working his way up to taking off his hat, but he still has his glases. They aren’t colored, they don’t distort him, which is why I DO NOT LIKE THIS, but it would also support the idea that Ralsei knows more than he’s letting on.

yes i did just write 2 paragraphs about berdly but whatever its fine

edit 2:

I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO MENTION THE ONE OTHER TIME KRIS SHOWS THEIR EYES AND THATS JUMPING INTO THE DARK WORLD

its only there for a second but you could use this for a ton of theories. my main one being that kris just prefers being in the dark world

in hometown, even if they’re not hated, not many people really like them all that much. almost every time kris talks to someone they bring up asriel and how great he was. i think kris might have a bit of resentment for that treatment

also in hometown, kris is significantly different, just for the fact that they’re human. this fact also probably makes them uncomfortable, as seen in the library when kris sees photos of humans in a book and immediately slams it shut. we can make the assumption that kris isnt even that big a fan of themself in the light world because of those things. its home, but not the best one

but in the dark world, those things dont apply. nobody there knows asriel, so they dont compare kris to their brother or bring him up all the time. kris isnt just a weird human there, they’re a hero and a lightener. people like kris and want to be their friend, which isnt a thing many people want back in hometown

in the dark world also, they do a lot of things independently of our control. they defend susie, they deny talking about susie with ralsei in snowgrave, and they show expressions that the others notice and comment on. kris, in the dark world, has more control. we dont see them do these things much outside of the endings where they physically remove their soul

kris is more comfortable being themself in the dark world, even if they can’t do it most of the time because of us. the dark world is an escape from comparisons and expectations where they can be a hero instead of the weird human next door who follows around their perfect brother

anyways kris needs a nap thanks for coming to my ted talk

#deltarune #deltarune theory #ralsei deltarune #susie deltarune #kris dreemurr #kris deltarune #noelle holiday #noelle is confusing #berdly #berdly deltarune

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prettyboykatsuki · 3 years

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what i want | s. todoroki

➳ tags ;; face-sitting, afab!reader, overstimulation, scent kink (?), smut, mdni 18+

➳ wc ;; 1.5k

➳ a/n ;; saw a tiktok + and read this shiggy drabble by @/saintdabi ‘s and now this concept wont leave me alone in anyway. literally wrote this like i was posessed...

➳ plot ;; midoriya sends a certain link in the groupchat. todorki gets curious and clicks. suddenly he wants to try seomthing.

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“Can we try something?”

The question catches you off-guard. Not because it’s a weird and kind of vague question (which it is) but because of who’s asking. Todoroki rarely ever brings things up out of the blue. You’re trying to make dinner so you don’t really have a lot of time to think about why. You dry your wet-hands on the front of your apron, stirring the pot.

You don’t bother to think twice when you reply to him.

“What do you wanna try?”

A silence falls. It’s just a beat too long, which isn’t uncommon for him but isn’t what you expect. You glance over your shoulder after salting the water, squinting. Todoroki almost mirrors you, reading something off his phone. He looks up at you after taking one last glance, as if to make sure he got it right.

“Face-sitting,”

You almost fall over.

He says it so nonchalantly, you’re almost sure you’re hearing things. You brace yourself on the counter and turn down the heat almost entirely, trying to ensure your house doesn’t go down in flames. You blink at him owlishly.

“Sorry.. can you repeat that?”

He looks confused. He was sure he said it correctly. He blinks a few times, glances at his phone again as he tilts his head to one side.

“..face-sitting?”

You think you’ve gone mad but he looks at you like you’re the one who’s lost it. Your skin grows beyond hot underneath your clothes - a vague emotion of arousal rolling through you. With your mouth agape, you decide that there’s no way you could continue with dinner so you turn it off and stare at him. Nervously, you cross your arms over your chest.

“.. Where did you..?”

Todoroki, stoic as ever, shrugs. He looks down at his phone and this time, you can hear the constant buzzing.

“Midoriya sent a link into the chat on accident. I clicked it,” ― he says, and then seemingly decides this needs absolutely no more explaining than that ― “It looked interesting,”

You stare at him.

“Were you... watching porn while I made dinner?”

He nods. You think you might lose your mind at this rate but you press forward anyways, eyes looking down at his pants. He’s as soft as can be, you’d know.

“You’re not hard..?”

He nods, again. Looks at you confused like he has some reason to be.

“I only get hard with you,”

You inhale a sharp breath. You think this man might kill you some day, but you’d probably let it happen. Shaking your head, you lean against the counter. With a smile of sympathy, you decide to be straightforward with it.

“..I’m pretty sure I’d crush you baby,”

Without missing a single beat, he shakes his head. This time, there’s a faint hint of a blush on his face.

“I don’t care. I.. really want to,” ― he looks up at you with the most curious eyes you’ve ever seen ― “Please?”

You’re not sure how to feel. The possibility of mishap is enough to make you want to reject him again but he looks so hopeful. The idea of your beloved boyfriend walking around sulking is guilt-inducing enough to make you sigh and give in. He smiles when you nod.

You walk over towards him, only really planning on giving him a kiss. You’d been out most of the day and were planning on taking a night-shower after dinner.

“Okay, well - let me shower first and -”

He shakes his head, almost petulant. Strong arms wrap around your waist as he drags you down to his lap with an urgency he can’t seem to contain. You yelp audibly, hearing soft breaths in your ear. Something twitches to life underneath you as soon as you sit, making your eyes grow wide.

“Can’t wait that long and..I like it better like this,”

Your eyes grow wide. The “this” remains vague but you’ve caught onto how Todoroki seems to like you more before you’ve showered than after. Still, it makes your skin hot. You want to argue with him - about to protest and struggle out of his grip but all of a sudden his voice goes raspy. Soft and low against the nape of your neck.

“Please, my love. I really want to,”

You swallow the saliva in your mouth, mind blanking at the sound of his voice. It goes right to your core, a pleasant throb in your shorts. You’re still wearing your apron and PJ’s. You agree maybe too easily, weak to him and his desires.

“Fine but how do you want to...? On the couch..?” Your words come out unusually meek. You’re never such a nervous person there’s something thick in the air. Palpable desire that makes you weak.

A warmth settles in your skin as he wastes no time, undoing your apron and letting it fall to the floor. Slender, pretty fingers go into the waist band of your shorts and without a second thought, he helps you slide them off your legs.

It’s almost like an inspection, how you’re sprawled over his thigh. It’s all happening so fast - your mind moves too slow to keep up. His pointer finger drags across your clothed cunt, chin resting over your shoulders. His brow furrows at the wet-spot on them. A whine leaves you in embarrassment that he ignores.

“You’re wet already.. sorry to make you impatient,”

The apology is so genuine you’re not sure how to reply.

“Here.. I’ll lay like this and you can rest your knees on the cushion,”

You move off of him and stand to see what he means. He gets himself comfortable, head resting on the armrest of the couch. You blink as he gestures to where you should place yourself. When he says sit on his face, he means sit . He means lean forward so your ass is facing him. The realization hits you like a truck.

Out of obligation, all the furniture in your house is lavish and this couch is no exception. All white and big enough that you could spread out on it without much effort. You know you’ll fit but you hesitate. Todoroki looks at you patiently but you can practically feel how much he wants it.

With a little help, you manage to get into position. It’s a little humiliating - the feeling of his warm breath fanning your cunt. You’re still just hovering above him, and you squirm around as best you can. So nervous you think you’ll pass out.

“Are you sure you want to ― aah!,”

Without a word of warning, Todoroki pulls you down until the full weight of you ends up on his face. Your panties are still on but he doesn’t seem to pay any attention, his tongue lapping at your clit with such fervor you can’t help but moan. The angle from which he eats you hits the spot so perfectly, works you up until your pussy is practically drooling on his face.

You let out a feverish squeal at the pleasure, still light but overwhelming enough that you’re wiggling away. Every now again between licks, he lets out a deep groan that vibrates against your sex so sweetly. Your stomach churns as your hands splay on his abdomen.

“Sh-shouto my, fuck - my panties, you’re gonna get them, hmph”

He lets you up, ever so briefly, just to whisper a hoarse “sorry,” move your panties just to the side before making you plunge right back down onto his tongue. You taste sweet and slight - but it’s better after a long day. So much stronger in his mouth, he can’t enough of it.

Saliva and slick drip down his chin and cheeks, further fueled by the way you whimper above him. He eats you out very often but it’s different like this - you can’t go anywhere because his arms are secure around your thighs and his tongue keeps slurping so greedily at your swollen clit. He’ll stop just to feel it pulsate before carrying on with incredible enthusiasm.

And he moans through it like it turns him on more than him fucking you. You’re honestly inclined to believe it might. His hands that rest on your ass, spreading you apart so he can go just that much deeper. Your nerves are being worked, the sheer stimulation is too much for you. He’s overzealous and shameless about it too.

“You taste so good my love, fuck”

Hearing him speak to you makes tears well at your eyes. He slides his tongue over your puffy clit over and over until he hits a rhythm. The constant feeling of pleasure sparks again and again and again until an orgasm so steadily builds in you.

“Shouto, shouto - baby, please! Slow down or I’ll c-cum,”

He heard you, he must have because if anything he goes that much faster. So fast that you’re practically sobbing his name, drooling and blindsided as the coil in your belly snaps. You cum so hard and so fast, you think you’re going to see your maker. Your toes curl and your walls flutter. A high whine leaves your mouth.

“Baby, no more - can’t anymore,”

He stops but only to speak with an almost delirious voice. Deep and possessive as his hands bury into your hips.

“I’m not done yet”

You realize a second too late what you’ve just gotten yourself into.

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