HS^2 bloggin’ mainline 2020-03-12
I have been told only a few things about the upd8 that just landed, over Discord by two people:
upd19
feat. 4,901,157
read it.
now.
note: the featuring note is accurate if in a different base than what you might be expecting
What the fuck does that even mean.
Okay
Pretty good chapter.
...from another friend who VERY dislikes HS^2? Oh shit.
I also glimpsed a post that may or may not have been about Homestuck at all at the top of my Tumblr feed for an instant that said “YES YES YES YES YES” in huge bold print. I have no idea whether to be excited or nervous.
Okay, it’s not a Bonus update... let me comb through from an earlier page to be careful not to get a spoilerlook at the pagecount...
...huh. That seems... like a conversation that would be up my alley, but not necessarily unique so far or worth all this crowing about. I thought we were about to get Dirk-aliens with a full Horschestra backing... are we getting something else?
> CHAPTER 6. A Conversation Regarding Relevance
Hmmmmmmmm. With the contrast between their reactions and this ominous buildup, there’s got to be a serious fun-twist coming. Right? --I’ll stop with that talk for the moment though.
space is vast.
an unproductive statement, almost a tautology. [...]
Alright, that and the starry background are riffing the fuck off Star Trek. Nice homage to Andrew’s roots.
the lives of the many are far too volatile and instinct-driven
Alt!Callie what the fuck are you doing. This is intentional now. You can’t play this off as “what’s a Star Trek”.
tautologies are, in general, reserved for stories. for narrative device. for finding new and inventive ways to tell an audience that which they already know.
God damnit she’s still doing it
neither of us ever able to convince the other of the righteousness of our stance. we were never meant to agree. it isn’t in our blood.
Blah blah overanalyzing classpect blah
when they scoff at my tautology ‘space is vast’, what do they really know? nothing. as far as any of them have experienced, space does not exist.
It’s still nice to see some real personality leak through on Alt!Callie. We definitely know from her other self that she can develop quite a relatable and colorful one. Have the years helped?
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dramantic pouse... ........
Also,
-look at that collar. Damn, Callie, that is a collar
very few have stood and looked into the abyss, the true gulf of nothingness that spreads out around the single point of consciousness adrift in a constellation. all the combined weight of sentient endeavour would quail underneath that sheer, irresistible truth. the realization that they are so small, that the universe cares about their puny lives so very little. sitting in the glowing light of the stars this becomes even more apparent
In the official aspect quiz I never took the time to analyze, the aspects were put on a wheel where Space was a neighbor to Void, if I recall correctly. I wonder how much those aspects engender feelings of goddamnit I’m doing it again aren’t I
...
are we out of orange juice?
Yesss let more personality Alt!Callie bleed through, more of it~
Wait, does Alt!Callie even taste through Jade? Isn’t this remote control? Is she vicariously drawing pleasure from Jade’s not-just-meat-or-candy mostly-human taste buds or?
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JADE: are you talking to me?
JADE: because if you are i would like to remind you that i hate!! orange juice!!
OH FUCK YES!!! SHE’S IN THERE AND AWAKE!!! SHE STILL HAS AT LEAST ENOUGH AGENCY TO BE PRESENT AND ARGUE WITH CALLIE! YESSSSSS
no you don’t.
JADE: well i guess i never really had a strong opinion on it before
JADE: but now i cant stand it!!
JADE: its all you drink!
i like the pulp.
QUIT INADVERTANTLY FORCING SHIT ON JADE WITH NARRATIVESPEAK GIVE HER A BIT OF LEEWAY ALT!CALLIE YOU CONTROLLING--
JADE: its my body and i dont want orange juice!
JADE: i hate pulp, and i didnt just make that up to spite you
JADE: who wants strings in their juice?
i do.
JADE: ughhhhhhhhh
I have had friends hopefully fantasize about and/or therapeutically roleplay this exact situation with Jade breaking through and arguing with Alt!Callie’s control to make this all a fair bit more palatable but I didn’t dare to hope we’d get even THIS much
Maybe the HS^2 authors DO care about not leaving us wallowing in hopeless witness to the characters’ constant torture and existential turbosuffering!!!! :#D
i realize that jade’s situation is less than ideal from a characterization perspective, but i still politely point out that nobody likes a whiner.
Fuck you, this isn’t CALIBORN you’re trying to repress you asshole! Leave Jade some AGENCY!!!!! She deserves it!!
JADE: fuck you rude calliope inside my head!
YES EXACTLY
JADE: why dont you try being possessed by the spirit of some other version of a good friend of yours, and floated around a spaceship full of people you love
JADE: unable to affect anything or say hello to anyone!
JADE: then tell me about whiners!
i killed my brother and consumed him.
JADE: sounds like a you problem
Compromise and give her some agency finally come on compromise and give her some agency you red-text twatwaffle
i suggest to the witch that i have spent untold eons in the void between universes, waiting for the moment i would be needed to prevent the dissipation of reality as we know it. her appeals to emotion will not help her. i will remain unmoved.
Oh god damnit.
JADE: well i had to watch my boyfriend and my brother die in front of me on a tiny scaled version of a world that i shrunk for them!
JADE: and then spend the next three years talking to myself, wracked with guilt that id killed them!
Oh. God. Damnit. This had better not be where the Suicide trigger warning was coming from. Are there going to be any characters left who DIDN’T emerge from this mess feeling suicidal?!? (I mean if there were any understandable case it would be three years alone on the golden ship Jade but-- I mean COME ON, we have to discuss that in our FIRST GLIMPSE at her since the epilogues?!?)
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i remind the witch that my time was in the void, which is far darker and lonelier [...]
Oh fuck you don’t compare suffering as an excuse to COMPLETELY body-enslave and squash the agency of someone when you probably don’t have to. You’re just doing what’s COMFORTABLE alt!Callie admit it. There’s a way you could give her some leeway, I’m almost positive.
JADE: even if i had the powers of a first guardian, my brain still worked in modules of human pattern recognition!
JADE: three years is a long time for a human teenager, i dont care how many of her molecules are made of a god!
(i love it when jade talks smart, that bit of the epilogues was a treat too, plz reveal more of the big brain on jade)
It seems Jade can’t see or quite understand the full import of there being a “narrative”. Or THINKS she cant, because she still says:
JADE: your voice is impossible to read and i cant see your face
If she’s “reading” alt!Callie’s remarks, that means she’s breaking through to understand the narrative to SOME extent. She might be one of the ones who learns to do that a little more and better in the future, especially with alt!Callie almost unintentionally training her to see it.
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Oh, good. So A!C’s not above being considerate. That’s a step in the right direction.
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D’aww, Jade conceding and trying to empathize like her usual self. I appreciate it. :) --but Alt!Callie’s definitely in the wrong here.
JADE: but i think it is a very natural thing to be silly when you are used to being able to control your own body, but now cant
i will allow that, yes.
Thanks. Learn some damned reason.
jade smiles. dave and karkat will always be a source of pain for her, a low ache somewhere in her center of gravity, but she is happy for them. she knows that there is really no other alternative for how to be. they chose each other over her, and they always will. they are the two people who matter to her the most in every universe, and that will not change, no matter how much she wishes it would, no matter how--
JADE: do you actually know that?
pardon me?
Oh, shit.
JADE: do you actually know that im doomed to pine over dave and karkat across every iteration of reality?
JADE: like, can you actually see that?
JADE: because youre a space player, like i am.
JADE: i know that you are more powerful than me, but i dont think you can see other timelines any better than i can
JADE: so i think you are just being dramatic
JADE: for the “audience”, whatever the heck that means
i experience a moment of unease as jade looks at me. keeping her out of my thoughts is proving to be more difficult than i had first assumed it would be.
That’s a damned interesting question. I was giving the narrative the benefit of the doubt, but given everything the Epilogues warned us about when it came to the narrators and alt!Callie’s occasional slips into her own bias, I really should have known better.
i had begun confident that i could keep her consciousness sleeping peacefully inside the shell of her body, tamed and quiescent, but she has proved to be more irascible than i initially gave her credit for.
JADE: heheh
JADE: i have never been particularly tamable, and my consciousness is huge!
This might end up playing out more like my friend’s Jade-breaks-out roleplays than I initially assumed. (What does she mean “huge consciousness” though? Superpowered due to part-First-Guardian, like she alluded earlier in the conversation? That never got much play before, so it’s great to see that potential realized here a bit...)
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...I’m a fucking idiot. Of COURSE “huge consciousness” and the whole line around it was just an unsubtle double-entendre. A small part of me actually wondered if it was and dismissed it as a clumsy reading in an instant. How stupid am I? Jade is the best.
If only this sort of thing worked on Cherubs.
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Yeah. It really doesn’t.
...Alt!Callie, you are a fucking war-criminal for bottling all these double-entendres up where none of the others can appreciate them.
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JADE: you are a pretty tough crowd, evil callie
JADE: but yes, i can hear most of what you are thinking to yourself
JADE: it took a little while to separate it from my own thoughts, just like it did with dirk
JADE: because thats what he was doing the whole time, wasnt it?
JADE: controlling our thoughts
JADE: making us believe things we never would, things he thought we SHOULD believe
Fucking excellent. She’s definitely training herself on this shit. The more people who have a harder time getting fooled by this nonsense the better.
jade knows all of this, i don’t have to tell her. she is a very bright girl, and even if she didn’t have partial access to my thoughts, she is good at compiling data and using it to fill in gaps. as she herself had rather licentiously mentioned, her brain is quite large.
C:
and all of these reasons are why i know i can count on her to be reasonable and realistic about her situation. i need a body to continue interfacing with this timeline, and her body is the only one that will do.
Dammit. Trying to get her to logic her way back into keeping Alt!Callie in complete control. That’s a tactic that will probably work. :(
what about [kanaya], jade? she is a space player, it is true, but her powers are nothing compared to yours. for one, she isn’t god tier, and for two, she is dead. a living dead, but dead nonetheless.
Hm. Are you saying she maybe has less relevance, less of an effect on her surroundings because she spent some of her “cred” on unconventional partial resurrection? To the extent where she’d make a less influential vessel? Hmm.
For that to even matter, you have to be planning to use Jade’s Space powers too. Taking a far more active role in things than narrative beacon.
and a sylph’s specializations lie on a different end of the spectrum from my own. a witch is a far closer match.
!!!!!
Sounds like details of the classpect system that we don’t know will have relevance in HS^2, and we’re indeed gonna possibly get some actual new, clearer details about the system Andrew invented unlike the dearth of new info the Epilogues brought us. That is... promising.
no, jade understands and sympathizes with my assurance that her body, and her body alone, will do for my purposes.
JADE: um...no i dont!
YES. Jade is now officially immune to absolute command! :D :D :D
she does. after all, she would not wish this sort of state of being on anyone else, and especially not on one of her friends. jade may have undergone a lopsided number of narrative hardships in her life, but at least she is used to them. why spread that suffering to another?
What the fucking shit??? You’re using that on her? You think it’ll WORK?!
jade understands and accepts her place in the story, which has always been to enable events to play out around her, just as it has been mine.
..........yeah Jade’s gonna bust the fuck out on the very next page, isn’t she.
What the fuck is Alt!Callie thinking, here? Wasn’t the other Calliope the one to let us know that the Witch is one of the most active classes there is?? ...what exactly does a Witch officially do anyway, for Alt!Callie to think saying such a thing wasn’t dead wrong? This sounds MUCH more like the sort of statement someone might make after breezing through Homestuck and confusing the old Jade (cough) for the person she grew up into.
And the fact that you’re phrasing this as a narrative command to try and make her forcibly THINK this way deserves you a smack in the non-literal depictive face. Let’s see if you get one:
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Oh wow, no smack yet?! That’s some restraint!
because what is a story, truly? nothing but a series of misadventures and connections, actions spurring reactions, tumbling into one another, over and over and over. with so many competing interests, clearly the story cannot account for all perspectives, for all threads? it would be laughable, childish, even selfish, to demand that they do.
in other words, not everyone will achieve a happy ending. this is a truth that jade had come to grips with a long time ago.
JADE: wait.
JADE: stop.
JADE: why are you saying all of this?
Ohh. Because she still had even MORE smackworthy stuff left to say, to make the smack even SMACKIER, didn’t she. Alt!Callie you asshole. If this gets you kicked out of her almost entirely and jeopardizes the crew as Jade struggles to combat Dirk’s narrative influence on her OWN, then I’m fucking blaming YOU! Do you realize how horrible it’ll be if Dirk gets to almost singlehandedly write the whole story around her and the others for the first section of HS^2 with only one or two characters aware and trying to mentally avert it?? We already TRIED that in the Epilogues! It was awful!
jade’s body is my vessel, and it is through this realization that she will understand her true role in the story. her true relevance.
Go fuck yourself, Alt!Callie. Read the audience a bit!
if i released my hold on her consciousness, there would be no guarantee that i would be allowed in again. therefore i cannot permit her the control of herself that she so desperately craves, and she understands that.
THAT’S your reasoning your used-to-surpressing-Caliborn ignorant--!??
JADE: wait. so...you could give me my body back, and then just hop back in when you need to?
in theory, yes.
JADE: then what the hell callie!
because i don’t trust you to cooperate when the time comes.
MotherfuckerTheMusical.mp4
(or real existing equivalent that’s just off the top of my head)
JADE: why not?
JADE: i thought you said i was a reasonable girl with a huge brain!
you are, to an extent.
she is. but the truth of the matter remains that humans are capricious and emotional. and even jade herself can admit that she hasn’t been the most...committed example of her species in the last few years.
Oh my fucking god. I know they’re trying to make this more satisfying when she actually DOES take control in a few panels, but, Alt!Callie, seriously, get more on your other self’s level!!!
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Yes, please >:O some more
moving from lover to lover, job to job, interest to interest. over the last few years jade had found herself listless, unable to settle and unwilling to commit to anything or anyone. she knows there’s nothing wrong with that on a moral level, but on a personal level she’s always believed that she could be more, could do better. be better. and now, because of this, she realizes that sacrifices must be made.
and that she, as a space player, is uniquely built for sacrifice.
JADE: yeah
JADE: i guess youre right
JADE: i have been such a silly little slut!
JADE: hey callie
yes, jade?
JADE: oh my god, whats that!!!!
You are so fucking screwed Alt!Callie.
this space is utterly under my control. jade could control it too, if she had any access to her own powers. but with my grip around her cortex, there is no chance of that.
(Wait, there’s an extent to which this space is “real” and not imaginary? Or does holding her space powers in check also mean keeping her imaginary space powers in check?)
Anyway, here comes the smack. And, though Alt!Callie deserves this, I hope Dirk isn’t let in too often amidst the others as a result.
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Yup, poising to pounce...
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I thought there was a weird infinity symbol underneath them but it’s just two spotlights and a shadow cast by her head.
and here i make my first mistake.
No you made your first mistakes WAAAY earlier in this conversation. And what you did to Jade in general. She’s a hero/player for a reason, she doesn’t take stuff lying down forever.
but bringing her into a place where we can both physically manifest has left me, foolishly, vulnerable.
First, physically manifest? This isn’t pure imaginationspace? And second, she’s going to blame her polite concession to Jade for this and hold on even tighter the next time, isn’t she. God damnit, not looking forward to that. Alt!Callie won’t learn her lesson til the end, will she? :(
her fingers tear at my throat, trying to find purchase. she won’t be able to kill me here, but it is certainly unpleasant, and not to mention slightly repetitive. we just saw this in the previous chapter, although this particular fight will not end as amorously as the last one did. so don’t get your hopes up.
JADE: who!
JADE: are you talking to!
I really hope Jade ends up with full narrative powerOOOOOHHHH FUCK THEY COULD GO FOR THAT HUH
Dirk was able to become an Ultimate Self in his own body because it was the uniting of an irrepressible “self” that he always unbreakably represented. The others had more trouble.
But Jade
has a BIG PART-GOD BRAIN as reinforced in the narrative repeatedly!!
Meaning that later, SHE could Ultimate Self without ANY PHYSICAL CONSEQUENCE. :D
I was hoping Jade would end up with full narrative-dictating-and-reading power when she wants to use it, at some point, but I might’ve been aiming too low! :D :D :D
Yaaaaaaaaaaaay
Now all the playfully-horny omnipotent Jade fanfics are true, what that totally isn’t part of why I love this go ahead and admit she doesn’t deserve it
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Yesss flashy gif struggle against control! (Though, not as elegant as one of Andrew’s might’ve been. Gotta say.)
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Blinky-eyes about to resolve normal-Jade-colored....!
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Wait, what? I thought Jade was about to snap in and--
during the ship’s trip through space, there have been numerous experiments; modifications to the nutrition output of the various machines designed to create sustenance for the various species on board. i myself have been content with orange juice and synthetic proteins, but dave and roxy have both expressed longing for various ‘earth snacks’, and so the trials and errors began.
What the fuck? I don’t even know where this is going if it’s punways.
Is there like a dog treat somewhere that’s gonna push her over the edge? Where is this headed even.
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Wh...
WHa??????
the results were mixed. as roxy told us in a previous chapter, alchemized food all sort of tastes the same, although the visuals really help to bring about the flavor. and at the end of the day, isn’t it the journey that is more important than the destination? the stories you tell as you create the strangely flavored nutritional paste?
JADE: ????????????
Um?? What’s even going on.
so far, everyone’s favorite attempt has been a vaguely peanut-butter and chocolate flavored creation called "Rices'". nobody eats them really. they just sit in a bowl on the counter.
i’m not actually sure what the witch is trying to accomplish here.
Is Jade trying to humorously gross Alt!Callie out of her body with a candy she doesn’t like or? But, “suicide threat”? Why joke--
JADE: you dont?
JADE: really?
i don’t know what she is trying to accomplish, because surely she would not be doing what it appears she is trying to do. making such a meaningless threat.
JADE: meaningless?
JADE: do you even know anything about the body you stole?
JADE: shouldnt you have run some sort of psychic physical before you possessed it?
JADE: its definitely what i would have done!
Oh SHIT. You mean Jade has the same peanut allergy JOHN does?!?
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jade must know that i am well-aware of her family-wide peanut allergy. a story thread that has been extremely important and weighed in on in multiple parts of the narrative. how could i have forgotten such a key detail?
...yes, she totally forgot, but more than that.
I’m betting John is the ONLY one with a peanut allergy. That Jade is USING that fact to bluff like hell. :D
(Allergies aren’t usually inherited that way you alien!)
there is nothing remotely just or heroic about dying from self-imposed anaphylactic shock in the throes of a childish tantrum. at the most i’ll get a relaxing few minutes of sleep.
Is Alt!Callie bluffing now? Even a resurrecting death could throw her off.
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FUCK YES JADE.
JADE: do you really want to risk it?
what are you talking about, jade? i just said--
FUCK YES JADE, BE A HUGE WITCH
(i say in the most witch-connotatively and non-classpect-related way)
JADE: i dont know, callie
JADE: ive never really understood the rules that govern the death of a god tier, have you?
JADE: it seems pretty arbitrary from where im standing
JADE: who makes the decision whether or not something is heroic or just?
...that’s unclear. but it certainly isn’t you.
JADE: right, of course not
JADE: but are you so confident that youre a good guy?
JADE: are you sure that the alpha timeline WANTS you to be here?
...what.
JADE: youve done some stuff, callie
JADE: im only saying you shouldnt be so quick to assume that me killing you wouldnt be just
JADE: and that taking my own life to do it wouldnt be heroic
Even with JUST this one fucking situation Alt!Callie put her in, throwing off her control forever by dying would be shortsighted but HELLA JUST. What Alt!Callie is doing to her is a crime.
Oh shit!?!?
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What is this, HTML5? *clicks play*
...for a second, I thought this was gonna launch into a huge thing with that clock ticking song from the Felt album.
Having Rose and Dirk’s colors competing here really reinforces that... Prospit vs Derse vibe that was feeding the whole this-is-the-basis-for-the-game’s-structure-and-the-birth-of-Paradox-Space theory more earlier.
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i don’t let the witch manipulate me. i refuse to falter in the face of her whispers. without my careful planning and swift action, the prince would have taken full control over this timeline. none of my friends could even begin to imagine the turmoil.
In the end, you’re ignoring what’s right and brave in this instance to instead do something EXPEDIENT, to the exclusion of trust and compassion when things COULD work out just as well without taking the worst actions -- which is textbook villainous.
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JADE: they arent your friends!!
JADE: you took them from me!
Now isn’t THAT a way to put it. :D :D :D
Alt!Callie is sinning almost as badly as Dirk, here. Viewing everyone else as characters in a story, the only way she’s ever viewed “friends”, and her as the not-so-humble narrator doing what’s best for all of them. If she’s going to win against Dirk -- or if that victory is going to MEAN anything -- she will HAVE to realize that she needs to be different.
JADE: you keep saying that youre doing all of this for my own good, but youre just lonely!
JADE: i know you are, because so am i!
Ouch.
Will Alt!Callie force her to swallow it?
JADE: you said that being a space player is all about sacrifice
JADE: well
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JADE: bet
...I guess she really might have an allergy.
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Aaaand the candy drops. A W A K E ! ! ! !
Yaaaaay Jade is BACK and we’ll get to see even more of her!!!
...please tell me on the next page she grabs the candy, noms it, and mentions she doesn’t have a peanut allergy after all. That would be sweet.
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...
Nope, you just leave us on a sad. Dammit, why do you gotta be all adult and showin’ us both sides in a moment of triumph, HS^2. Shucks.
Anyway, YAY JADE! C:
I am happy by this, if slightly too emotionally-rollercoastered by the past 24-hours to give this the full-rejoicing it deserves. That, and worried about the openings Dirk will get because of this... joy now for potential frustration later, even if Jade tries her best to let Alt!Callie back in in-time.
See y’all next time! And, uhm. I guess I’ll comment on whatever other asks I promised to comment on another less-eventful day. Keep reminding me and holding me to it though!
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1. Last beverage:
water
2. Last phone call:
my best friend hehe
3. Last song you listened to:
All I want - Kodaline
4. Last time you cried:
last night, because i’m simpin lmao
5. Have you dated someone twice:
yes, kinda
6. Have you ever been cheated on:
yes
7. Kissed someone & regretted it:
yessss
8. Have you lost someone special:
yes
9. What are your three favorite colors:
pink, mauve, dusty rose/nude, lilac, white, black
10. Met someone who changed you in the past month:
yes, a boy on tinder lol
11. Kissed anyone on your friends list:
yes
12. How many kids do you want:
4-6 LOL
13. Do you want any pets:
yessss, dogs forsure
14. Do you want to change your name:
yes, my last name when i get married
15. What did you do for your last birthday:
went to soju belly LOL
16. What time did you wake up today:
i can’t remember, i sleep throughout the day.
17. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
to love and finally have that love reciprocated
18. Last time you saw your mother:
earlier before i went to target
19. Most visited webpage:
snapchat or insta
20. Nicknames:
ash
21. Relationship status:
single as fuck
22. Zodiac sign:
capricorn
23. Male or female:
f
24. Height:
4"11
25. Do you have a crush on someone:
yes, i do lolol
26. Piercings:
like 13? some are taken out though.
27. Tattoos:
7!
28. Strong or Weak:
depends on the situation
FIRSTS
29. First surgery:
kindergarten, i broke my arm lmao
30. First best friend:
jenn, nika, tiff, kat, etc
31. First sport you joined:
ballet, if that counts
32. First vacation:
prob vegas for my 10th bday lmao
33. First school:
post elementary
34. First pair of trainers:
i wore my first training bra in like 3rd grade LMAO and i got made fun of and i cried.
WHICH IS BETTER
35. Lips or eyes:
eyes
36. Hugs or kisses:
depends on which person LMAO
37. Shorter or taller:
taller, but i’m short so it doesn’t really matter.
38. Older or younger:
older preferably, but if younger by maybe 1-2 years but not any younger.
39. Romantic or spontaneous:
doesn’t matter as long as i’m with who i wanna be with
40. Sensitive or loud:
sensitive
41. Hook-up or relationship:
relationship
42. Shy or outgoing:
doesn’t matter, as long as we vibe
HAVE YOU EVER
43. Kissed a stranger:
yes, when i was drunk lmao
44. Gotten a speeding ticket:
yes smh LOL
45. Lost glasses/contacts:
contacts forsure, they get stuck on my acrylics without me knowing LOL
46. Sex on first date:
no
47. Broken someone's heart:
doubtful
48. Been arrested:
no
49. Have you turned someone down:
yes
50. Fallen for a friend:
nooo
51. Moved out of town:
not yet, maybe in the future
BELIEVE IN
52. Miracles:
yesssss, i do believe in them
53. Love at first sight:
i believe that a person can fall in love with the connection at first sight, yes lol living it firsthand right now
54. Heaven:
yes
55. Santa Claus:
no, my family was too poor for that lmao
56. Kiss on the first date:
i don’t see anything wrong with it, as long as you feel like there’s a second date too!!!
57. Angels:
yes, my denise esp <3
58. Yourself:
learning
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
59. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:
nope
60. Been in love with someone you couldn't be with?:
def lmao
61. Ever cheated on somebody:
nooo
62. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:
childhood, i would try to remember more of it
63. Are you afraid of falling in love:
never, only afraid of not being loved back
64. Was your last relationship a mistake?
like bf/gf? or just interest in someone? cause if so, no. just wish things could’ve been different. wish we could start over.
65. Do you miss your last relationship?
i miss the last guy i was interested in, yes.
66. Who did you last say “i love you” to?
my best friend, jenn hehe
67. Have you ever been depressed?
basically my whole life
68. Are you insecure?
def, isn’t everyone
69. How do you want to die?
peacefully and painlessly lol
70. Do you bite your nails?
if i don’t have acrylics, cause i have anxiety, thats why i have fake nails to prevent it
71. When was your last physical fight?
it’s been a while LOL
72. Do you have an attitude?
guilty
73. Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
twirl
74. Do you tan a lot?
i used to lol
75. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or you are driving?
yessss lol
76. Ever made out in a bathroom?
noooo hahah
77. Would you take any of your exes back?
the last guy i was interested in, yes.
78. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yes
79. What are your plans for this weekend?
bitch, we in quarantine.
80. Do you type fast?
yes
81. Can you spell well?
yes, most times.
82: What are you craving right now?
someone’s attention
83. Have you ever been on a horse?
nooo lol
84. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
yes
85. What’s irritating you right now?
i miss someone a lot but i’m too stupid and emotional and i fucked it up
86. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
yes
87. Does somebody love you?
hopefully lmao my friends and family
88. Have you ever changed clothes in a car?
yes hahaha
89. Milk chocolate or white chocolate?
milk!
90. Do you have trust issues?
no, and i think that’s my problem. but i also do get defensive if someone doesn’t text me back/open my snaps but their score is going up lolol so take it as you will
91. Longest relationship?
n/a
92: Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
a don’t have an ex
93. Have you ever walked outside in your PJs?
always LMAO idgaf
94. Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
i try to
95. Did you have dream last night?
yeah and i cried cause it felt so real
96. Have you ever been out of state?
yes
97. Do you play the Wii?
i used to have one!
98. Do you like Chinese food?
yesssss
99. Are you afraid of the dark?
YES LOL
100. Is cheating ever okay?
never wtf
101. What year has been your best?
i can’t even remember, but maybe 2017
102. Do you believe in true love?
yes, i think so.
103. Favorite weather?
cold cold cold, winter forever pls
104. Do you like the snow?
love it
105. Do you like the outside?
depends lmao
106. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
love ittttt
107. Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
with breaks in between
108. What makes you happy?
my loved ones
109. Ever been to Alaska?
no, but maybe one day!
110. Ever been to Hawaii?
no :(
111. Do you watch the news?
no, i don’t lol i prob should
112. Do you love MTV?
back in the day LMAO
113. Do you like subway?
yessss, i love sammiches
114 Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
no, but i wouldn’t care to
115. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
been there, done that, we’re still friends
116. Why did you decide to do this quiz?
because i’m bored as fuck in quarantine and i miss this shit lowkey LMAO
117. Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them?
always, i’m very shy and weird like that
118. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
yesssss, i’m v grateful
119. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
the guy that i miss lmfao
120. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my best friends, myself lol
121. Ever bought condoms?
no haha
122. Ever gotten pregnant?
never
123. Have you ever slipped on ice?
yessss, at work being a bobarista LMAO
124 Have you ever missed the bus?
yessss, in eighth grade, i had to take naother bus home, it was fucking scary LOL
125. Have you left the house without money?
yessss
126. Have you ever smoked cigarettes?
used to :(
127. Have you ever smoked a cigar?
noooo, sounds gross
128. Did you ever drink alcohol?
bitch plssssss
129. Did you ever watch “The Breakfast Club”?
yes!
130. Have you ever been overweight?
all my lifeeee, 4″11 gang
131. Ever been to a wedding?
yes, i fucking love weddings!!
132. Ever been in a wedding?
yes, kinda lol i was shy tho as the flowergirl
133. Have you ever been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
yesss, more so back then.
134. Did you ever watch TV for 5 hours straight?
yessss, binge watching everything.
135. Ever kissed in the rain?
yesss, it’s not as romantic as you’d think LMAO
136. Did you ever shower with someone else?
as kids, not w a lover
137. Did you ever fail a driver’s test?
nope, never
138. Ever been outside your home country?
no
139. Ever been on a road trip longer than 5 hours?
yesss, lake tahoe
140. Ever been to a professional sports game?
i don’t think so
141. Have you ever broken a bone?
yesss, my arm in kindergarten
142. Did you ever win a trophy in your life?
like a medal LOL
143. Ever get engaged?
nope, hopefully one day
144. Have you ever been on a diet?
i’ve tried many times
145. Have you ever been on TV?
no
146. Ever ridden in a taxi?
yessss, vegas baby
147. Ever been to prom?
yesss, junior and senior year hehe
148. Ever stayed up for 24 hours or more?
yesss crack head hours
149 Have you ever been to a concert?
so manyyyyy
150. Have you ever had a crush on someone at work?
never LMAO
151. Have you ever been in a car accident?
yes, i wasn’t driving tho
152. Ever had braces?
never
153. Did you ever learn another language?
nope
154. Do you wear make-up?
usually every day LOL
155. Did you ever have your wisdom teeth taken out?
neverrrr
156. Did you ever kiss someone a different race than yourself?
yesss lol
157. Ever dyed your hair?
too many times
158. Did you ever wear someone else’s clothes?
yessss
159. Ever ridden in an ambulance?
no
160. Ever ridden in a helicopter?
no
161. Ever caught the stove on fire?
no
162. Ever meet someone famous?
many people
163. Ever been on an airplane?
never
164. Ever been on a boat?
yes and i get seasick as fuck
165. Ever broken something expensive?
LOL, i’m sure of it
166. Did you ever kiss someone before you were 14?
no, my first kiss was at 15 i believe
167. Did you ever find something valuable on the ground?
a pack of cigs LMAO or the $100 bill my friend accidentally dropped and we finally found it like an hour later
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