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#hiii#i hit my lowest point this year#and so i barely read#finally asked for medication#maybe 2023 will be looking up#and i'll get the reading fire instead of these dim sparks i've had#i hope you all had good years and if you didn't i wish a great new one#thank you to all the writers for providing me the opportunity to get out of myself and my life for a few hours whenever i was able to#you all are the backbone of this world#thank you!!!!!!!!#see you whenever i feel like coming back to my dash and posting maybe in a few months or maybe in a year for the 2023 wrap up#❤️❤️❤️#fic rec post#2022 fic rec#28th appreciation#larry fic rec#hlficlibrary
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Thoughts on bidwell, Pauling and medic friendship?
I have an idea which they developed some kind of business partnership that might involve...organs trafficking
#tf2#ask#tf2 bidwell#tf2 miss pauling#tf2 medic#this ask have been sitting in my inbox for weeks finally i have a subtle amount of motivation to finish this#comic
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Was there ever a time when Sephiroth came really close to something similar to the Nibelheim incident?
One incredibly insomniac evening, Sephiroth takes to wandering around the lower bowels of the science department. Since Hojo isn't awake at this time of night, Sephiroth supposes now would be an amazing time to go snooping for classified information, if only to satisfy a niggling bit of curiosity before it's time to sleep for real.
This innocent inquiry quickly spirals into full fledged agitation when he happens upon an old collection of experimental video logs, each tape depicting various trials, surgeries, and testing scenarios performed on a very special young boy. Unsettled, but hungry for potential answers, Sephiroth snatches the collection and retreats to his room to view the tapes, knowing full well that he might relive the trauma all over again but too invested in Hojo's private findings to stop himself.
It is worse than he remembered. Far, far worse. Seeing himself, so small, so frightened, is bad enough. Hearing Hojo's various anecdotes on just how unique and durable he is... it's a whole other level of disturbing. And yet Sephiroth watches everything, every violation, every brutal breaking of boundaries. There are even things he was not conscious for--intense dissections, methodical reconstruction, stitch by precious stitch. Watching his tiny fingers twitch on the gurney, watching the fragile rise and fall of his little chest. Sephiroth watches until his eyes burn, until the room around him begins to jerk and sway. He's sick. He cleans himself. He's sick again.
And he doesn't stop.
Angeal and Genesis come to collect him days later, nervous and uneasy at the sudden disappearance. Genesis would normally jump at the chance to rub it in Sephiroth's face that he's now on probation for so many absences...but this feels different, almost dangerous. The room is cold when they enter, finding Sephiroth pacing, the scattered line of tapes torn to plastic scraps at their feet. Sephiroth is wild-eyed, disheveled, muttering incoherent nonsense over and over again, scratching at his arms. He refuses to let them touch him, nearly ready to fight them if not for his evident exhaustion.
The sight of him like this is so incredibly abnormal that Angeal has to push Genesis out into the hall before he has a panic attack. Angeal manages to coax Sephiroth back to a feasible level of understanding, taking his arm and gently guiding him into the bathroom. Genesis anxiously hovers outside the door, listening to their muffled voices in the stillness. They remain there for a long time, the faucet occasionally running, Sephiroth's voice gradually easing back to its normal stoic calm. When they exit the bathroom, Angeal orders Genesis to help him guide Sephiroth along to the medical wing, the two friends neatly and efficiency prodding and coaxing Sephiroth step by step.
Sephiroth remains there for several weeks, his treatment classified behind closed doors. Angeal and Genesis hate the silence but continue to wait for him day after day. By the time Sephiroth is back on duty, he is more detached than ever, seemingly uninterested in his surroundings thanks to the steady supply of tranquilizers laid out for his private use for the next six months.
All remaining intact tapes are subsequently confiscated and destroyed.
#asks#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#crisis core#sephcanons#sephiroth#genesis rhapsodos#angeal hewley#TW for medical abuse#Angst#Hojo#AU ish#But not really#Honestly I just felt like being mean#😈😈😈
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is it time to start treating adhd like the neurodevelopmental disorder it is instead of a collection of nasty habits and quirky personality traits or do we just wanna stay here for another 10 years
#the amount of bilittlement i get from nt’s and from adhders with mild adhd is#ive hit my limit boys#finally realizing that no i dont deserve to be treated like shit for not being on par with my peers#i dont deserve to get half assed care from every medical professional ever because its just trouble focusing#i literally have a disorder why was i taught that i should ignore that and that all my shortcomings were because of my defective personalit#i learned to stop asking for help early on bc i couldnt understand what was wrong#and when i tried to ask for help i was demonized for wanting to cheat#saying it wouldnt be fair to my nt peers#why do i think i deserve that?
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Got the 'tism
#i finally fixed his wheel yall#he can actually move now#wish i did that BEFORE i sculpted him but uurrrghhh#tf2#team fortress 2#tf2 medic#art#proto#medibot oc#ask proto#team fortress two#team fortress#medic tf2
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Do you hate humans?
WHAT M-MAKES YOU THINK I H-H-HATE HUMANS??? THEY ARE A GREAT SOURCE OF-OF FUEL!!!
#tf2#ask proto#proto#ask blog#medibot oc#tf2 medic#emotionally xyz mercs#physically xyz mercs#team fortress#yes we have finally got the budget for backgrounds
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OOOO OP DROP RICK AND MORTY OCS
OH BOY HERE WE GO.
so, I made these cute ref sheets in the shows style yesterday (and today), apologies if you cant decipher my scribbly handwriting, ill summarize below:
Rick (nicknamed on the citadel "Seven")
Rick's home dimension is M-121.5 but you could hardly call it a home. He left his Diane and Beth behind shortly after acquiring portal technology from Prime or one of his subordinate Ricks, wandering off to absorb himself in the vastness of infinity.
His original dimension never ended up birthing a Morty, since his Beth and Jerry had trouble supporting themselves and had Summer as their only child.
Rick, eventually growing lonely but refusing to admit it, joins the citadel in an effort to be useful and climb the ranks there with the hopes of living a fulfilling life in a safe, Rick-made bubble. He gets assigned a Morty as standard, but said Morty dies in combat on a riot not too shortly after.
Rick gets a (small) punishment, one you'd get for breaking a doorknob or forgetting to turn off the lights in the building before you leave; getting a Morty killed. He probably just has to scrub toilets for a week or something.
He gets his new Morty and resumes work on the teleportation deck as normal and lives with his Morty in a small apartment, until S301 where they manage to flee the citadel together.
Morty ("unlucky charm" / other similar insults behind his back)
Has forgotten his original dimensional code due to constant changes of ownership. Only the Morty databanks know it now. He took M-121.5's dimension as his and carries a small wristband with the code written on it.
This Morty has gone through a LOT of Ricks. Six in fact, which is why his new Rick is mockingly called "Seven" by others on the citadel, making fun of him for ending up with such a shitty excuse of a Morty. Asking him if he'd lost a bet.
Morty's left arm has been surgically altered to fit a tracker interface that'll show Rick's current position and vitals to Morty. Though he only gets this later, after they flee the citadel.
The jacket he is wearing was originally merchandise stolen from a small shop he worked in while living on the citadel. They later add patches to it in an effort to cover up the citadel logo, since Morty doesn't want to give up the jacket, and Rick is paranoid about association with the citadel after they've fled. Pretty rich coming from the guy still wearing his uniform under a stinky coat, but what can you do when those are the only clothes you've got.
They go through an intense period of struggling for survival, with the Federation collapse and chaos left behind, the two of them retreat to more desolate spots of the universe to wait for the dust to settle. After a bit of "holy shit we lived" euphoria, they fight a lot, with Rick slowly noticing the many flaws in this Morty he is now -- in his assumption -- forever stuck with. He also pushes Morty too far numerous times but reels him back in again anytime because what other option is there? Being stranded alone in an asteroid gas station restaurant?
Eventually Morty suggests returning to "their" home dimension. Rick's home dimension. He's reluctant but eventually (after a really long while and lots of convincing) does give in since their circumstances are dire and they could use a little civilization, even if it means returning to the family he abandoned.
I don't have much worked out for this Smith family, but I'd assume Summer is a good deal different from the Summer we know, due to being an only child. Beth's daddy issues are just as intense as Beth Prime.
This Beth and Jerry probably also never end up divorced and stay together for Summer's sake, honestly probably unhealthier than just splitting up for the time being and working out their issues separately.
Once they crash (probably literally) into their new "home" and everybody gets over the initial insanity of the situation, Rick struggles to confront the reasons he left and kind of just drowns himself in unhealthy habits. Besides the known drinking issues which is kind of the baseline, he makes sure to never let Morty out of his sight and pretty much makes a normal life for the kid impossible despite desperately promising it to him when they turned to move to Earth.
He builds a new portal gun out of scrap they've harvested while surviving and old things Beth never threw away because they reminded her of her father, and he's gone again. Gone with Morty. Gone God knows where. Except he returns at night to sleep in a shitty little cot and fuck he probably drags Morty's air mattress into his room with him without any explanation. Blames it on Morty not being able to sleep alone since they left the citadel. Blames it on anything but himself.
They go into what I'd describe as a narcissism-fuelled grace period, or honeymoon period, the more time they spend together off-planet after crashing at the Smith's house.
They go from Rick being very controlling and making Morty feel like an inferior sidekick, to Rick actually opening up and helping him become better. Very slowly and gradually, he realizes that, well, he's stuck with this Morty now. This is *his* Morty by all intents and purposes, and he doesnt have a fuckin replacement Morty ticket and after constructing and unregistered portal gun he'd not be let back into the citadel anyway even after reconstruction - so might as well invest his time and effort into this one Morty as much as he (claims to) hate it.
The kid is so broken already, having witnessed so many versions of his grandpa die, which Rick realizes after a while would just make it easier for him to reassemble him anew and mold him how he wants it. He's a sick bastard but if it aint broke dont fix it and especially dont fix it if it promises to always stay by your side and begs you not to leave
The whole "unlucky charm" curse only serves to fuel Rick's ego too because, unlike all these previous Ricks he only knows about on paper, *he* hasn't died yet with this shitty excuse of a Morty around him. which makes him better than all those before him. He's cocky, priding himself on living where those Ricks failed.
He gets too confident, as all Ricks do, and after a few too-close brushes with death he does decide to invest into various failsafes and "upgrading" Morty to a standard he sees fit. This is when Morty gets the tracker arm enhancement and various other augmentations that'll essentially turn him into a lifeline for Rick. He's driven by anxiety of his past mistakes, past deaths of Ricks, repeating. This time there'd be no scolding by teachers and new Rick two weeks later. There'd only be grief, and nothing.
Morty's trained not only in combat and survival skills but also shown how to reboot and even replace certain cybernetic parts of Rick's body.
surgery, baby!
Not on a clone, not a simulation, the real him. Train for the real deal.
They spend weeks in the newly constructed underground labs, Morty cutting him open and putting him back together; surgeries upon surgeries without any anesthetic so that Rick is fully aware and awake to guide Morty through it.
Eventually Morty does have to put those skills to the test when shit goes wrong on an adventure, but this is already so long so I'll spare you!! I'd be surprised if you read to here, if you did, thank you and I'm glad you're interested in my little guys !!
#hhooooo boy this is long hdnfhfnh and thats not even all#but it is 1:30 am so I should definitely go sleep#im super happy you wanted to know about them because this also gave me the opportunity to finally write down the happenings in#chronological order so this helps#my art#rnm#rick and morty#rick and morty oc#ill make a tag for them bc I don't think this is the last we'll see of them so I might as well keep it organized in here#M-121.5#Rick M-121.5#Morty M-121.5#tw medical#tw surgery#medical mention#surgery mention#ask#talks#selfshippinglover
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A to Z Lab Whump Prompts
Amputation
Biopsy
Cloning
Defibrillation
Experiment
Forceps
Gurney
Hazmat
IV drip
Jump
Keel over
Lab coat
Mortality
Needles
Operating table
Plexiglas
Quarantine
Reanimation
Scalpel
Toxin
Unconscious
Vivisection
Withdrawal
X-ray
Yell
Zapped
Feel free to send combinations of words; make things interesting!
#whump#lab whump#medical whump#prompt list#ask game#zipwrites#i did my best 😅#i may take some prompts but no promises#it is finals season rn unfortunately
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🙏Doth thou have eine liste of your OCs??? So we may ask questions about them?? bitte
I don't,,,, YET but this did give me a kick in the ass to put together a decently comprehensive one (bc I've been meaning to for ages)
if tumblr's search functionality works at all, I do tag all of my oc posts here and on ao3 as follows 💃 idk how populated these tags are but they're the ocs I think about the most
#leocs - is my catch all oc tag
this is my ao3 collection of fics featuring my ocs
star wars ⬇️
#clone medic nocte - is my most developed oc, he is corrie guard cmo
#arc trooper uj'alayi - he is arc trooper, he is mostly corrie guard but I also throw him at the shadows
#bastra vargdan - he is jedi investigator, he absorbed so much of my personality that he's almost a self insert
#lān'drien "lane" hurosa - they are journalist on coruscant
#clone commander bones - he is commander under bastra, he is severely underdeveloped
cyberpunk ⬇️
#desmond "eyes" gallagher - he is ripperdoc for maelstrom
call of duty ⬇️
#atama "nocte" te rangi - he is nocte starwars transplanted into cod, he is field medic with tf141
mortal kombat ⬇️
#danver "jag" hakka - he fell in with the black dragon and may or may not have a redemption arc, he mostly lives in my gdocs drafts
#tumblr finally let me edit this draft. hello. i wasnt ignoring you i just COULDN'T FINISH#leocs#asks answered#i did start on oc refsheets btw#they're slow going because i'm trying to be comprehensive but 👉👈#there are like. others i didn't like herr because tags are so empty. vio i miss you girl but i cant remember your tag#okay uh.#clone medic nocte#arc trooper uj'alayi#bastra vargdan#lane hurosa#clone commander bones#des 'eyes' gallagher#atama 'nocte' te rangi#danver 'jag' hakka
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Doctors visits as an AFAB person that have absolutely nothing to do with potential pregnancy and do not at all match symptoms of pregnancy be like:
Doc: "When was your last period?"
Me: "I'm currently on my period, it started (date)."
Doc: "And are you on any birth control?"
Me: "Yeah I have the nexplanon arm implant."
Doc: "And are you currently sexually active?"
Me: "Nope, haven't been for years."
~ Fifteen minutes later ~
Doc: "Well your pregnancy test (that we didn't tell you we were doing or ask your consent for) came back negative so it's not that."
No. Fucking. Duh.
#doctors who do this are pieces of shit just btw#if you dont believe me about my own fucking reproductive health why should i trust you to believe me about ANYTHING?#ndr#not dog related#there is literally no excuse for not asking for consent before doing that and not allowing me to say no you cant do that#its basically fucking ledger fudging through conpletely unnecessary insurance charges#denial of informed consent in medical care too#and yet it happens. every. fucking. time.#oh you're here because youve had heart palpitations and fainting spells since you were a child and you finally want them checked out?#oh you've had all over severe chronic pain and digestive issues since you were a teenager a decade ago?#MUST BE PREGNANT.#dont even need to do a pregnancy test as a precaution for ANY of the procedures or tests they did on me#its basically just saying “hi we dont believe you about your own medical history or value your consent at all”#i have such a big issue with consent in medical settings since being forcibly medically sedated without my consent or any warning at the ER#tell me what the fuck you are doing and ASK ME FIRST
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Valveplug thought.
Thunderclash has an adjustable valve that fits his partners, and he can "save" settings. He finally gets Rodimus to frag him and dazed saves the setting for Rodimus and never resets it.
Rodimus has a thing about this once he realizes, and Thunderclash is living his best life because he likes Rodimus being a little mean and pushy with him, and Rodimus likes how much Thunderclash likes it and praises him.
Rodimus, of course, can't let this go and has to be the absolute best at this because Thunderclash can not win at sex too. So he mods his spike to make it feel better for Thunderclash, gets Thunderclash's schematics to make sure he knows everything about him, and puts an intense amount of planning and prepping to make sure Thunderclash's "impossible fantasy" actually happens researching so much and kink and new sex stuff he voluntarily goes to Rung to make sure he doesn't suck.
He's got this.
Thunderclash is suddenly walking around on cloud nine and slightly wobbly and Rodimus is strutting constantly in an absolutely suspicious happy mood that always turns weirdly intense and smug when Thunderclash is in the room.
Only a few people immediately clock what happened because they are not making the connection. Ratchet, who is ignoring it and hoping it goes away; Whirl; and MiniMegs though Minimus is being willfully onlivious refusing to acknowledge it and Megs is hating the sexual tension.
Okay yes that's so interesting
Also more valve mods ftw
Just. Imagine accidentally hitting reset on your pussy and having to go to settings to fix it. Imagine someone who still isn't over their ex keeping their ex's favorite specs because they know. They know they'll come back (and they do). I am not taking this seriously.
Thunderclash is in pure fucking (pun was initially unintented but now it's intentional) heaven, and Rodimus is Having A Thing About This All. Because as he's seeing this, this is the one thing he is determined to be Better Than Thunderclash at.
Thunderclash cannot win at sex too
Exactly Rodimus exactly sfghl.
Rodimus: how do i win at sex
Rung: well there is a lot to unpack in that question but at this point I'm just glad you're finally coming to therapy
Rodimus:
Rung: even Megatron and Whirl have been coming more often than you do, and Whirl only comes to threaten my model ships.
I may distrust therapy but Rung is the second best therapist I've ever heard of and Roddie boy do you have issues to work through
But also cool that Rodimus might learn some unexpected things about himself in his research and stuff he might be able to bring up with Thunderclash (my mind first went to robots in clothes and temperature play sue me)
Slightly wobbly
Ratchet looks like Thunderclash and feels like it's med school all over again.
This is why i love the idea of em fields being able to convey emotion because I'm imagining that when Thunders enters the room Roddie's field just whooshes like a fire flaring brighter (if that's any explanation)
Minimus playing purposefully dense has gotta be funny
Megatron has opinions about this and Minimus is metaphorically (if not literally) holding his arm like "don't, not our business"
#valveplug#mtmte rodimus#mtmte thunderclash#rodiclash#mtmte whirl#mtmte rung#who sees the opportunity to finally bring up Rodimus's imposter syndrome and hiding of emotions under an illusion of grandeur#mtmte ratchet#who mildly disapproves of his former tutor's choice in men#we've also gotta remember Rodimus modded his spike. like. he had to have asked one of the medics to actually do the mod#i like to think he asked ratchet first who declined_ thought about it_ then ratchet said ''i am only doing this so you don't try yourself''#''i've seen enough dumb younglings try to mod their own array without any medical training and it rarely goes well''
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Hi! Can I ask about your, "how to perform a divine autopsy" tag? I was wondering the meaning behind it!
hi!! its in reference to this piece i made for my thesis
the tag is basically just a catch-all for anything that reminds me of/would inspire me with this story, so that i can look back on it when i actually want to start producing it ^_^
#asks#as you might guess its basically just a lot of#medical/body/anatomical stuff. idk what i want the final product#for this story to be but. we'll see!
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Can I have some dark hcs about Babyroth? For research purpose 😇
It's Sephiroth Hurtin' Hours. Let's do this.
Sephiroth was not permitted to get close to other scientists and orderlies after Gast leaves and Hojo takes over. Hojo does everything in his power to effectively isolate Sephiroth so he'll be more reliant on the things Hojo teaches him without outside interference.
As a result, Sephiroth is more than often achingly lonely, only having himself or Hojo to talk to. And since he's so strange and off-putting, most of the other scientists don't really want to talk to him anyway.
The constant isolation, procedures, and general antagonism through Hojo often gives way to terrifying fits of extreme rage and aggression within Sephiroth. While he is generally a skittish and polite child, he will sometimes lash out violently, not caring who he hurts. It doesn't satisfy him though. And he only just gets punished for it later.
There are days when Sephiroth simply refuses to leave his cell at all, lying under his bed balled up and not really talking or moving. He doesn't want to perform. He doesn't want to fight stupid training simulations. He doesn't want to get cut up on Hojo's table. He's just...tired. Tired and hopeless.
When he's in this state, Sephiroth simply withdraws from the world altogether, his eyes glassy and his body scrunched and fetal. He won't sleep or eat, won't really do anything at all. He simply....stops. As if he'd like nothing more than to just curl up and die.
Hojo often has to come to collect him whenever he gets like this, unless it's a severe emergency. There's been a few times where Sephiroth's symptoms have required the help of strong antidepressants, especially if he stops eating. Hojo MIGHT be a bit more lenient during this period, at least until Sephiroth perks up again.
Sephiroth often has periods of being completely nonverbal, mindlessly obeying as commanded, but not really engaging. He's more or less on autopilot.
Lots of the medications prescribed to Sephiroth as a child are further continued during his adult years, but at an even higher dosage. They are cyclical most of the time, per Sephiroth actually needing them.
He seems better when he's with Angeal and Genesis. And the fact that he's occasionally on any medications is kept a massive secret from the public. Not even a single leak on Silver Elite.
Sephiroth often has difficulties dealing with his body due to the many procedures he underwent as a child. Sometimes, he still does feel instinctual needs to react as he did in the past--nonverbal behavior, detaching. He has significantly more control over himself now, but the need is still there.
#asks#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#crisis core#sephcanons#sephiroth#hojo#babyroth#TWs for...MULTIPLE reasons#tw medical abuse#tw depression#tw child abuse
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#tis i! tragic daughter one of three!#motherless at age 26#the last wake was today and this was more fun than the 1st. more casual. my moms childhood friends were there#ans it was fun to catch up with my uncle and his side of the family#i feel so weird tho. bc ppl r asking how we r and like genuinely i feel fine most of the time#like my sister is like: i sacrificed so much for my mom and i saw her downslide into death#and im like yea i fucked off to [redacted state] and showed uo after the horrible part was over#and bc im finally on medication i really feel better than i have possibly ever. so its just weird#weird to br at my mother's wake and think: god ive wasted so much fucking time being miserable. i dont want to do that anymore#and i feel like thats an option now. i mean ill always be frustrated by the same things. the difficulty reading and focusing#and the lack of social ease. but it feels like less of a big deal now#i say that now before im entrenched in school again. but idk. its just weird#but idk i love my mom but there was distance there and i have weird insect brain which i think makes it hurt less#i dunno. maybr ill feel it more later. when im on my own again#its just that i never reached out to her. i didnt realy on her and she didnt reach out to me so now things won't change much#i dunno. well see#unrelated
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An aesthetic for a noncanon lab assistant clicker, who selfships with Moira (Overwatch) with themes of conditioning, rewards, feeling special, and codependency.
Mod Rook
#clicker#moira o'deorain clicker#moira clicker#overwatch clicker#purple#black#aesthetic#mod rook#tw blood#tw medical#tw unhealthy relationship#tw codependency#tw manipulation#If you want anything changed send an ask!! I still have the in progress saves bc I wasn't totally in love with the final version#./not actually wesker fronting l o l stealing his banner while i make mine
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post-vacation hangover except I didn't go anywhere I just spent 4 straight days with Sierra so post-Sierra's vacation hangover...has anyone ever had a guest visit them and you're showing off your boring cringefail city with great weariness and they notice five thousand beautiful and deeply stupid things you never noticed before and then they leave and you have a renewed appreciation for your city 😭
#they sell ESPRESSO MARTINIS AT THE TANK#downtown is DEAD#there are amazing vegan nachos downtown!!#there is a nirvana soul kinda close to the tank!!#veteran's day is on a FRIDAY#and if you're a 10 on the east coast you're 50 in san jose and a 1000 for the barracuda!!#i can't believe i got them to haberdasher i forgot that place existed until this week and then we were there until 12am talking abt keebler#god truly fuck san jose conceptually this place sucks but living in north county was so so so much worse and i'm glad i'm down here again#and i get to show my beautiful friends this town#and i get to experience with them how deeply stupid this cringe ass boring city with bad highways is but with a kind of appreciation#asking sierra 20 times yesterday when they are coming back. you wanna come back for the all-star and season finale sooo bad :((((((#now i have to write a sermon instead of being put in a medically induced coma or writing weird keebler/ekky all afternoon#which is a hell i think only methodists could design#fresno oilers.txt
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