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[NSB IMAGINES] - "your anxiety is lying to you, my love"
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pov: you have an anxious day and justin is here to help you!
REMEMBER!! To whoever's doing anxiety right now or have anxiety, know that I'm so proud of you of how you become and how you became <3 you are doing so well, my love. a lot of people are proud of you and if you can't think of one, think of me. i'm proud of you! i know it's hard, i, myself, have anxiety but know that everything is going to be fine and everything will be okay, i promise. you can do it, i believe in you. you got this <3 please, continue to be strong, it'll be worth it at the end of the day, i promise.
warning: talk and mention about anxiety, anxiety attack, mention of being scared for the future, mention of toxic parents, unhealthy and hurtful comments said towards the parent's child (just to clarify: you are not a child in this imagine!!)
type: comfort!
member: justin phan
words counts: 15 249 characters
You woke up with a lump in your stomach at around 8:23 in the morning. You had been trying to breathe in and out for about 15 minutes trying to get your anxiety out and maybe feel a little better. It was a technique your boyfriend used with you on days like today.
You sighed, not able to get it out off your chest and turned to him.
Justin Phan.
He looked so peaceful, so relaxed, so... cute and adorable.
You wanted to wake him up and explain how you felt, how your anxiety were doing today, but you knew it wasn't a great idea. After all, it was only a little bit of anxiety and it would go away in a few minutes anyway. At least, that's what you hoped. You didn't dare disturb him just for that kind of thing. He had to rest after all the efforts he was doing for his work, for the videos he was making for the Stars and the meetings he had almost every day. He deserved the rest and the breaks.
You sighed again, then got up from the bed and put on a hoodie that was lying around. It belonged to your boyfriend. You loved wearing his clothes. They always made you feel good and comfortable in them, maybe it was for their warm or because they were a bit bigger in you, but you felt safe in those. You wanted to stay forever in his hoodies. It was like if he was hugging you. It screamed the word "comfort". You hid your hands in the sleeves of the oversized sweater and put them up to your nose. You smelled it and closed your eyes. His smell was so comforting and sweet. It always helped a little when you were having anxious days like this.
You walked down the stairs, then into the kitchen, seeing your best friend Regie on his phone, probably watching instagram's stories or liking some posts on the app.
-'Morning! Regie said without looking up. Sleep well, Y/N?
-Yeah, I think so! you said. How about you?
The truth was, you were up very late yesterday for no good reason. You weren't stressed or anxious last night. You were normal, calm, fine. Unlike the night before, you felt ugly, useless, stressed, nervous, anxious, but you couldn't explain why or how it happened so randomly.
-You think so? Did you fucked all the night with JP, bruh? he laughed.
You blushed and searched for words. That was Regie Macalino talking, for sure.
-I'm kidding, don't worry. I didn't want to know the damn answer, anyway.
He closed his phone and looked at you:
-I slept well, though. But I woke up super early, so I think I'm going to the gym a bit earlier today. Do you want to come with me?
Your relationship with Regie was remarkable. Of all the other members, he was the first one you started your friendship with, the one you started to become a real teenager, to become a young adult, now. You were friends even before NSB was formed and let's say that with the band, you followed Regie everywhere when he allowed you to. It was also with him that you met Justin and let's say… You fell head over heels in love with him. He was funny, he was kind, he was smart, he was always there to listen to you... Let's say he felt the same way towards you and that your friendship soon turned into a love relationship..
You and him had been living the perfect love for about a year and it was now a recurring thing to see you in the house with the boys. The boys really liked you and loved to see you around and to them, it was like you were their little sister (except for Justin, of course).
-Oh well… you said. I think I'll go later with Justin, but thanks for the invite!
-Ok ok! he replied, getting up from the table and showing you his arms. I'm going to go make myself hotter than I already am, bro.
You chuckled a little and saw him leave for his room to get his gym bag and personal products.
You were now alone in the NSB kitchen. You sighed and relaxed your shoulders.
"Come on, it's okay, Y/N. You're okay. There's no reason to stress."
You opened the dish cupboard and saw the only clean glass on top of the cupboard. You sighed, climbed up on the counter and hung on to the cupboard to avoid falling. You picked up the glass and were about to go downstairs when a voice startled you.
-Good morning, babe.
You dropped the glass in surprise and turned back to the person who had just startled you.
-Ah fuck! you said. No, no, no, no, no!
Your anxiety had just escalated. You had just broken a glass and god knows how much every single glass counted in this house. There were only a few for the number of people who lived in the house. You felt bad for dropping it. Normally you would have felt guilty for a little while, but today it felt like this accident was going to ruin your and everyone's whole day..
Justin came up to you and held out his hand so you could get into his arms to avoid touching the floor covered in glass.
-Are you okay, babe? You didn't hurt yourself, did you?
-I'm fine, but I broke a glass. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I'll clean up the mess, don't worry.
Justin set you down a little further on the floor and looked you in the eye.
-Hey, it's okay, we have a broom, we'll pick it up, don't worry. We've got plenty of other glasses and it's okay if you break one. Kane has already broken several and we're not angry with him, we know it's an accident. I caught you by surprise, too, sorry. I didn't mean to scare you.
You felt a little bit better. He always found the right words, always made you feel better and always calmed you down when you started to feel too anxious like this.
- I'll go get the broom.
You nodded and took a random glass from the dishwasher, washed it and poured cold water into it. You felt a little better as you drank the water. Maybe you were just thirsty?
-Do you want to eat something on the way? your partner asked you as he swept the floor clean of all the broken glass that was covering the ground. I'm pretty hungry.
You nodded and put the glass on the counter.
-Let me do it, okay?
He gave you a little smile.
-Nah, you're good, babe. I got this. I don't want you to get hurt, he smiled. Anyways, you want to go to the gym after breakfast?
You nodded.
-Yeah, okay, if you want.
JP looked up and gave you one of his smiles.
-Great! Go get ready! You can have one of my tshirts if you don't know what you want to wear…
You smiled.
-You just want me to wear one of your tshirts, JP.
-What can I say? You look fucking adorable and cute in my clothes!
You smiled, then went back upstairs to get ready.
Your anxiety had finally decided to let go of you.
Or so you thought.
Finally ready, you got into your boyfriend's car and saw him smile at you. You smiled back at him and looked at your phone to check your notifications and what you have been missing since yesterday. While scrolling, one picked your eyes: a text message from your parents who had called you the day before, delivered with a dozens of text messages.
You and your parents were never very close. The comments they made to you were either always hurtful or toxic positivity. Sometimes, just the fact that you were getting notifications from them made you shiver with anxiety. You didn't know what they were going to say to you, if they were ever going to apologize for their behavior, if they were going to ask you to move back home, if they were going to insult you..
-Babe, are you okay? I asked you a question! said your bf quickly
-Oh, uh… Yeah, I was in my thoughts. Sorry.
Justin sighed, then started the car:
-That's okay. Where do you want to eat?
-It doesn't matter where, I'm not too hungry anyways.
He nodded and put his hand on your thigh.
-You seem out of it, love. Are you sure everything's okay?
-Yeah, don't worry.
After about ten minutes, you and Justin had arrived at the breakfast spot.
-We're here, baby.
-Oh, okay. Can I stay here? I'm comfortable in your car.
-Sure. What do you want?
You weren't very hungry due to your anxiety, but you knew you had to have something in your belly, so you decided to have a pancake, which was one of your favorite meals and one of your go-to foods when you weren't too hungry. They were easy to eat, not too sweet, just perfect.
-One pancake, please.
-Okay! I'll be back in 5-10 minutes. Just stay there. You can change the controls if you're too cold or too hot, just try not to set my car on fire, though! he said laughing
You gave Phan a small smile and closed your eyes. A few seconds later, a sound was heard throughout your boyfriend's car. You sighed and opened your eyes to see who dared to disturb your precious rest.
Your parents.
You felt a lump inside you getting bigger and bigger. You knew you had to answer, you felt an obligation to do so. You'd been living with Justin and his best friends for a few weeks now and let's just say it only made your parents more aggressive. You wanted to block them, but you knew that if you did, you would take a lot of hate from them. You were so tired of being criticized from morning till night, of being put down and of always having to do your best because you were afraid that you might have a big impact on it in the future.
You were afraid of the future. You still didn't know what you wanted to do, you were going to college following your passions, but even still… You didn't know if you were going to be that interested to do this for the rest of your life.
You felt the vibrations of your anxiety and your phone mixing together. Without thinking, you pressed the "pick up" button and took a breath.
"Come on Y/N, maybe they'll apologize this time!"
You still had hope that they would. That they would apologize to you after your 19 years of existence. You were now 20 and let's say on your birthday, they just told you that you had to find a new home since you were starting to become delinquent and they didn't want to have you in their projects and in what they were doing. In truth, you were only starting to be friends with Regie's friends and starting to get happy without them.
-Hello? you answer with a weak voice
-Y/N!! Finally! You finally pick up the god damn phone! What's happening?! Are you deaf now? Are you ignoring us again? You didn't heard the ringtone?
You sighed:
-I-I was just being busy, sorry.
Your mother sighed loud enough for you to hear from miles away:
-Busy doing what?! You don't have a job and your boyfriend surely doesn't take up all your time, does he?
You shrug:
-I'm busy doing my college work and being with my friends. We're really close them and I.
-Your friends? Your boyfriend's friends are friends with you? Honey, you deserve better. You know they are bad influences, right? They don't have jobs (it literally hurts me to write this) and all they do is shoot videos on the internet and that's it! You're going to end up like them, out of work!!
You breathed in, hoping to calm down:
-Don't talk about them like that, it's their job and they do it super well. Their job is super hard and exhausting. They have a tons of meetings and projects they need to do. And I'm so proud of them because they manage their time to do it at the perfection. They've been helping me a lot in the last few weeks and I'm really thankful for that.
Your mother sighed again.
-Are you really defending them? My darling, don't be like them! You'll end up to jail, you won't have a real job and you'll do nothing! Don't come crying to your parents when you're poor! We won't help you!!
-Stop, I work hard and-
She interrupted you and began to shout through her phone. Tears began to well up, letting your anxiety do the same.
They were never going to apologize.
-No! You procrastinate all the fucking time, you do nothing but shit, you're just like your boyfriend: you do everything to have things easy. You don't even work! Take a lesson from us! Are we persistent? Yes! We are not fucking like you! We work hard while you... Y/N, god damn! You live with boys, instead of us and you dare to say that we treat you badly?! We could have thrown you out, but we kept you!
-You literally told me to leave as soon as I turned 19.
-You're disappointing me. You know nothing about your future life and you're going to fail miserably! You're only thinking about yourself. Not even about us! We were right to let you go at 19. I swear, Y/N, you're going to regret this one day.
You put your phone away and looked out the window.
"Come on, Justin, hurry up.."
You felt tears coming out of your eyes, falling down your cheeks, you could hardly control yourself, you knew what was going to happen. You closed your eyes and tried to breath in and out.
"Your mother is right: you've been in college for one year and you still haven't gotten a good grade!"
"You're just a coward… You don't do anything during the day, all you do is eat and be with your boyfriend"
"The boys probably don't even like you"
You curled up into a ball and kept hearing your mother's voice as she continued to insult you.
Suddenly, the door opened at last. Justin smiled, then put the bags on the back seats. He exclaimed:
-Sorry for the wait, a Karen was there. She was-Hey, hey, what's up? What's up? Are you okay?
-It's my parents, you whispered soflty
Justin knew about your parents. Even though they disparaged him, he still liked you. He knew how toxic they could be and you… You were anything but like them.
You tried to formulate a sentence, but failed. It broke Justin's heart to see you like this.
-Can I touch your hands? he asked
You nodded slowly. You liked it when he asked you before he did anything. He always wanted you to feel comfortable in the relationship.
He took your hands and made circles on them with his fingers, something you appreciated because it always helped you. He took your phone and sighed.
-Respectfully, go fuck yourself. You've been insulting her since she was born. Let her go, she's decided to make a life with me and the guys, let her go. She's in good hands with us. Stop fucking calling or texting.
Then he hung up and blocked the number.
-They'll never bother us again and if they do, me and the boys will start to get involved.
He sighed and gave you a hug.
-Hug me as much as you want, okay? You're going to be okay. I know it's not easy. Give me all your anxiety, I'll absorb it. You're in security in my arms.
You squeeze him a little tighter.
-Inhale, 3…2…1… Exhale…3…2…1…
You did this exercise a few times and started to feel a bit more relaxed.
-You are so not what your parents told you, babe. You are so much more than that: you are persistent, hardworking, so passionate about everything you do, you are so smart and so kind and so caring! I could never name all of your qualities, but know you are worth so much to me and the boys, baby… We love you so god damn much. Even the Stars love you. You're like our little sister.
He stroked the top of your head:
-Your anxiety is lying to you, my love. Don't listen to it. It's trying to make you think your parents are right. Focus on my voice and only mine.
He was so gentle with you. For the next fifteen minutes, he continued to comfort you and make you feel better.
-You did so good. I'm so fucking proud of you, my love. You are so strong. I knew you could do it!
He kissed the top of your head.
-How are you feeling right now?
-A little better. But.. Can we go home and watch something? I would like to cuddle you.
JP nodded:
-You don't have to ask me twice.
You smiled. Justin always managed to make you smile and feel better. You couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.
Hope you guys liked it! <3
#imagine#imagines#xreader#fem reader#female reader#north star boys#northstarboys#nsb#justin phan#jp#justinphan#comfort#anxietycomfort#anxiety#stresscomfort
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OC NAVAL WARFARE
/ -- Romantic
*-- Unlabelled/Other
+ -- QPR
& -- Familial
HG^2 (Charlie "Chuck" Beaumont/Octavian "Tavi Osborne)
Tavi is a cringe-fail loser spoiled rich kid protegy who never properly developed any social skills aside from making people swoon over them. They fell off their god-complex high-horse so hard it landed them in prison for their parents' murder. (They got better, though!) (Tavi, not the parents. The parents are still very much dead.) Chuck has extreme middle child syndrome and enough guilt to strangle the horse Tavi just fell off of (figuratively) .They were so desperate for outside validation that their old girlfriend straight-up poisoned them and they thought nothing of it. Grades and success always meant the world to them until they met Tavi and discovered that reputation wasn't everything. Sometimes being "evil" can be fun, too. Between these two they could fill a lake with their self-loathing, and then fill another with their love for eachother. They are in it together to the end, along with the children they somehow manage to pick up along the way. (These two are technically Marvel/Spiderverse OCs, though they are very separated from the Canon. My partner and I have gone kinda nuts with them over the years, and their story now includes elements/characters from: Ouran High School Host Club, The Magnus Archives, Danny Phantom, Ace Attorney, Supernatural, Harry Potter (as a parody), and many more that I cannot recall.)
Tavi (or Octavian [They/Them]) is the child of two multi millionaire parents. Though they had quite the god complex as a child it was slightly dampened by their roommate/rival/friend Chuck when they got to college at the age of 16. Though they had many wacky adventures during their four years together, that soon came crashing down when their parents were murdered during graduation. So like any sane person they cut off all contact to anyone that they cared about and started getting a Doctorate (after they were miraculously proven innocent). From their they spiraled until they turned 28 and started working at their parents' old company were they run back into Chuck. Chuck (or Charlie [They/Them]) is the middle child of 8, being sandwiched in-between two sets of twins and one set of triplets, wants to noticed within the family. This is achieved when they manage to graduate highschool early and get a huge full-ride scholarship to MIT. They are lead to be roomed with the other 16 year old, Tavi. Through their four years of people assuming that they are dating (they would like to date the but they definitely don't feel the same [they do]) their time together was cut off when their mother had to got to the hospital where she would die a year later. Gets into a toxic relationship, or should I call it poisonous?, relationship with a girl named Gray. That relationship ends and they get a job at a big science place where they eventually reunite with Tavi. Though their relationship starts off very rocky they find bonding time after becoming villains against a common foe and starting a twitch together. Eventually they find a bigger bad and adopt the first villain together <3 (Technically they are Spiderverse/Spiderman ocs but do NOT follow canon very well. Their lore goes further down the rabbit whole but I feel like this gives a good impression of them both haha [I kinda got carried away is what I am saying])
LuNal-Maisther (LuNal and Maisther)
LuNal (Luca/Nalis)
Luca (he/him) and Nalis (she/they) are two street kids, at 14 they’re the oldest of their group and take care of the others. Luca is a panromantic boy who crossdresses, Nalis is a genderfluid (fem to enby, rarely masc) genderqueer kid who’s usually something like a girl. Luca is a big bombastic personality, always there to make sure everyone is okay and come up with a plan of action; he’s also desperately in love with Nalis. Nalis calm, cool, and collected, keeps to herself, and hates relying on others but is smart, competent, and helpful herself. She makes a game of spurning with a deadpan attitude, but she’s just as attached to him as he is to her. They’re a power couple crossed with a vaudeville comedy duo. To Nalis, Luca is someone who won’t abandon her and says that maybe it’s okay to let her guard down a bit, that she won’t be burned if she does. To Luca, Nalis is an equal, someone he doesn’t have to take care of, and the funniest person in the world; no one else sees it! But her dry sarcasm sends him into a fit everytime.
Maisther (Esther/Maidy)
it’s a very simple ship I made up as a plot device for my novel but I fell in love with it. Two girls who are so so autistic in different ways and also are best friends are growing apart (projection time baby!) and go from besties-worsties-lovers essentially. Blah blah blah they forge a new bond through their struggling relationship .. I’m sure you’ve heard it before but these two freaks mean a lot to me and I’d be grateful if you could vote for them 👍
#oc ship tournament#oc ships#oc#bracket tournament#polls#romantic ship#maisther#hg^2#lunal#lunal maisther
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Would phan or carter consider themselves butch4butch
carter is in denial about liking other mascs so no. altho even if she wasn't she'd still be with mostly fems. phan is almost exclusively attracted to other mascs so technically that is what she is but I also don't think either of them identify as butch. phan is nothing and carter is a stud or a dyke but if you called her butch I suppose she'd be like yeah sure
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Fics Named After Foods (3) Masterlist
part one, part two
All It Took Was Ice Cream (ao3) - ExclusiveGorgeousGeek
Summary: Dan buys Phil some ice cream and things get a little....messy.
Apple of His Eye (ao3) - sundaechii
Summary: Floor 6 is a restricted floor with one security personnel that changes every few days. Everyone says that it is haunted and Dan and his friends made a mistake of going there.
Better Than Pizza - camisadan
Summary: Dan and Phil are sitting in their lounge doing their own thing, when Phil surprises Dan by kissing him, and one thing leads to another.
Cake (deviantart) - CassieTellsYourFate
Summary: Phil learns his lesson, never eat Dan’s cake
Cake In The Face - dxnhowell
Summary: It’s Dan and Phil’s wedding, and they have a little too much fun with the wedding cake, and forget that their friends and family are watching them.
Cereal (ao3) - nolifetrash
Summary: Dan punishes Phil for stealing so much of his cereal...
Cherry Pie (ao3) - GoodGollyMissYollie
Summary: Dan and Phil are on a plane with Ed Sheeran.
Cherry on Top - adayinthelifeofphan
Summary: Dan and Phil meet for the first time (set in 2009).
Chocolate - mermaidstailonmyface
Summary: possessiveness/collaring, Dan and Phil have a three-way with chocolate sauce.
Easter Candy - dxnhowell
Summary: Dan and Phil take their son Noah to an Easter egg hunt for the first time, and aren’t surprised when at the end of the day, he has a tummy ache from eating all of his candy. Plus, a kickthestickz appearance.
Ice Cream and Jealousy (ao3) - thatonereallyweirdlesbian
Summary: Dan and Phil go into an ice cream shop where Dan meets his ex, Chris. Phil isn't happy.
Midnight Milkshakes (ao3) - thelandofphan
Summary: "Well, this is a different first date," Dan initiated as they began to follow the sodden pathway ahead, "I turned up late, looking like a tramp then we ditched the original plan and now I've stolen your beanie when we've only just met. Sorry." He concluded, sucking his lip nervously, peering towards Phil.
Mint Chocolate Dick - chocolatesaucelester
Summary: Dan works at a small ice cream shop: one day Phil comes in and orders a vanilla ice cream cone, the seductively licks it and stuff - and then blows Dan in the back.
Nutella (ao3) - hshoecrab
Summary: Phil comes home to find a needy Dan and an open jar of Nutella.
Piece of Cake - linguistphil
Summary: If there was one thing Dan loved to do with Phil (besides sex, obviously) it was making bets.
Pumpkin Carving & Proposals - dxnhowell
Summary: It’s two days before Halloween, and Phil wants to carve pumpkins with Dan, but not for the reasons you would think.
Pumpkin Spice (ao3) - ThoughtaThought
Summary: Winter 2009
Something's Fishy Here (ao3) - emptyswimmingpools
Summary: In which PJ owns a restaurant, Dan just really needs to keep his job as a waiter there, Phil is a customer, and a lot of puns are made.
Something Sweet (ao3) - jfcmartin
Summary: Dan, Chris, and PJ celebrate Chris’ birthday in a fancy restaurant that gives cakes to customers on their birthdays, or maybe when the customer is cute.
Strawberries & Chocolate (fanfiction.net) - uhnonniemiss
Summary: Fem!Phan. Pippa thinks her sex life with Danni has lost its spark, so Danni decides to spice it up a little.
Toffee Sauce (ao3) - goldfishsunglasses
Summary: Dan thinks they're shooting a baking video, but Phil has other ideas
vanilla softserve sort of day (ao3) - zsunsetz
Summary: dan doesn't want to go outside today, but when his best friend and crush phil lester turns up at his doorstep...well, he had to change his plans a little
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I’m just curious
summary: Fiona and Dani run into each other at a party. Dani brought her boyfriend. Fi doesn’t like her boyfriend. Dani doesn’t like her boyfriend that much either.
songfic based on the music video for Curious by Hayley Kiyoko.
rating: M
wc: ~700
read on ao3 or under the cut
Of course Dani would be here. Of course she would be glued underneath her latest boyfriend’s arm.
Fi stared at her. Dani met her eyes briefly before turning away and dragging her boyfriend in the opposite direction.
So it was going to be that kind of day, then.
Oh well, no real loss to Fi if Dani wanted to spend the rest of her life pretending she wasn’t attracted to girls. There were other fish in the sea, as her mom would say.
And speaking of other fish, a girl tapped Fi on the shoulder. Fi turned around, recognizing a girl from her history class.
“Hey!” Fi said, desperately trying to remember her name.
“Fi!” the girl squealed, throwing herself into Fi’s arms.
Fi hugged her back- her hair smelled like cinnamon.
“How are you?” the girl asked.
“I’m good!” Fi said breezily. “How are you?”
“I’m great!” the girl half-shouted, trying to be heard over the music. She leaned in closer.
Fi felt a pair of eyes on her from across the room. She smiled, remembering the way Dani had arrive flaunting her boyfriend, holding him like a shield, to protect her, yes, but also, Fi knew, to make her jealous. Two could play at that game. And hey, the girl in front of her was cute enough. She wouldn’t be opposed to it leading somewhere.
She took the moment to play it up, leaning into the other girl’s touch, reaching out to tuck a strand of blonde hair behind her ear.
The girl smiled. Fi smiled back.
“What are you doing here?” the girl said.
Fi was in the middle of explaining how she got invited when she felt another tap on her shoulder. She turned around. So Dani hadn’t been able to stay away.
“Danielle,” Fi said.
“Fiona,” Dani said.
“I don’t see your boyfriend,” Fi said.
Dani angled her chin up, tossing her long, dark hair over her shoulder. It was glossy and straight- Fi wondered how long she’d spent straightening it.
Dani pretended to be so proud of her hair. Fi wondered what people would think if they knew she secretly hated it and wanted to cut it short, if they knew that Dani’s perfectly feminine exterior was just a shell.
“He’s in the bathroom,” Dani said.
The only place she couldn’t follow him, Fi noted with amusement.
What was the point? People were going to whisper no matter what, and everything Dani did to try to stop it would just make them whisper more. When would she realize that?
And oh. This was not helping. Fi felt like she was watching from outside her body as Dani took her by the hand and led her away from the rest of the party.
“Sorry,” Fi mouthed at the girl she had been talking to.
She really had to figure out what her name was.
Dani pulled her away and up the stairs, into a bathroom. She locked the door, and in one fluid motion, sat on the counter, pulling Fi up against her, wrapping her legs around her waist. “Fi,” she whispered, kissing her.
Fi leaned into it- she knew she shouldn’t, she knew Dani’s boyfriend was just downstairs, but she did, running her hands up and under Dani’s shirt, smiling at the quiet gasps Dani made in response.
Dani’s hands gripped the back of Fi’s head, trying to drag her even closer. She pulled her legs tighter too, rutting against Fi, whining when she pulled back.
Fi kissed up her neck, slow and sweet, stepping back when she reached Dani’s jaw. She tugged on the back of Dani’s rumpled, slowly curling hair, forcing her to look up at Fi. She rested her forehead against Dani’s. “He won’t last,” she whispered. “None of them will. When you get tired of him? Talk to me.”
She moved back, smiling in satisfaction at the look of shock on Dani’s face. She walked out without another look behind her.
Dani would come around someday. She had to. If she didn’t, Fi thought her heart might break.
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she keeps me warm
pairing: Dan Howell/Phil Lester
category: F/F
rating: explicit
word count: 5.3k
summary: Dani's first time meeting the Lesters.
beta and love by @amethysthollis. a massive, massive, massive thank you. <3
for @phandomficfests bingo. squares used: meet the family
[read on ao3]
#phan#dnp fic#phanfic#phan fic#pff bingo#femslash#fem!dan#fem!phil#fem!dnp#fem!phan#mine#i'm kinda really proud of this one
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#amazingphil#phil lester#daniel howell#danisnotonfire#dan howell#phan#pastel!dan#pastel!phil#pastel!phan#fem!dan#fem!phil#fem!phan#phan au#phan art#my art
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i think they look cute
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@31yin
我試試看ㄌ
#amazingphil#phil lester#daniel howell#danisnotonfire#dan howell#phan#pastel!dan#pastel!phil#pastel!phan#fem!dan#fem!phil#fem!phan#phan au#phan art#sai
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Don’t think too hard, it’s just ice cream
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title: candy crush
rating: M (for some nsfw-ish stuff in the future)
chapters: 1/?
summary: Second time’s a charm, right? (fem!phan)
[read on ao3]
#phanfic#fanfiction#fem!phan#FINALLY#honestly? you can pry fiona and yazi from my dead cold hands#i'm excited to publish the next chapters!!!!#i've been working on this for half a year now jsdksj#if... anyone wants to like... beta this for/with me..... just shoot me a dm.........
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fem!Phan au
It’s Fiona
#art#my art#digital art#fan art#phandom#phan art#phan au#dan and phil#fem!phan#phil lester#fem!phil#amazingphil#gender bender
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Inktober 7: an 80s biker fem!phan AU i thought of 💟🌈🏍
[reblogging is appreciated]
#pipzelinktober2017#artbypipzel#inktober#amazingphil#art#butch#phil lester#drawing#ink#au#phan#phan au#fem!phan#biker au#dan and phil#80s#cigarette#phan art#lesbian
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Any fics where only one of them is fem! and gets her period and the other one is really caring or whatever? Really need some period reassurance
Tysm in advance<3
There’s only one I can find with fem!phan in this situation (if anyone knows anymore, feel free to drop them)
with the flow (ao3) - waveydnp
Summary: fi has her period and dee wants her anyway
There’s a few more with this situation, but it’s trans!phan so if that’s interesting here’s a few
Fionna (ao3) - Phantisocial
Summary: "You listen to me, Philip Michael Lester. What's in your trousers doesn't define you; I love you for who you are. What's down there doesn't matter to me; I'm always going to love you, no matter how you identify."
Red, Lies and ‘I Love You’s (ao3) - philsdrill
Summary: Phil and trans!Dan are at Playlist Live and run into a complication when Dan gets his period during a meetup. Phil and Louise come to the rescue. Fluff.
The Problem With Sleepovers (ao3) - ellamillerali
Summary: Teenage FTM!Phil starts his period in the middle of the night, while sharing a bed with Dan - who doesn’t even know Phil is trans.
And if you need a bit more feel good fics, here’s the fics to cheer you up tag, comfort tag, and falling in love tag. Best of luck friend.
-Rae
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fem!phan
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92/100: I need you to be happy
Sentence included: I want you to be happy
Summary: Fem!Phan reconciliation
Words: 549
Warnings: Swearing
A/N: It’s not beta’d and English is not my first language, so there might be mistakes. This is dedicated to @drarina1737 because she is great and I love her.
Danielle and Philippa had been friends for a while… actually they had been more than friends for the last almost three years. But that last year, they had started fighting more often than not. It was over stupid little things, and they both knew it, but they couldn’t help it.
Both of them were really to blame, Dan would usually complain about something Phil had done, and Phil would just ignore her, hoping she would stop shouting. Of course, that didn’t happen and it usually ended with both of them saying things they didn’t mean, locking themselves in different rooms and crying themselves to sleep.
Now, after a horrible year, full of challenges, they were moving to London together. Their friendship was getting better, although they weren’t sure were the limits were. They still loved each other, but they didn’t know what the other would be comfortable with, so they didn’t say nor did anything about it.
However, Phil was tired; she wanted to know the truth. She wanted to know if Dan was willing to continue their relationship or she just wanted to be friends, because the doubts were eating her alive. She had come to a point where she couldn’t sleep, just thinking about her best friend.
So, that day, when Phil woke up, she went straight into the lounge, waiting for Dan to wake up. She took her laptop, and waited until she heard Dan’s door opening. She saw how her slim figure made her way to the lounge. Phil tried not to be so obvious, but she couldn’t help checking Dan out. She was only wearing a big shirt and her panties, showing her curves and her long legs. Her curly hair was messed up from sleeping, and she had a sleepy expression in her face, as if she was still asleep.
“Danny, we need to talk,” Philippa said, leaving the laptop on the table while Dan sat next to her. Then she yawned, stretching her arms, which showed her belly, making Phil’s heart race faster.
“What?”
“Danielle… really… I need you to listen.” Dan looked at her in the eyes.
“Okay, okay…” Dan said.
“Look. I want you to be happy. And I need to know if you want to be happy with me or not, ‘cause if not I’ll just continue my life and stop thinking that maybe we can be something else. But I do need you to tell me.”
Dan hadn’t been looking directly at her. She knew this was the last chance she would have for this. Phil had been clear, she only needed to know. She could actually say no and continue their lives like this conversation didn’t happen. However, she didn’t want to do that. She loved Phil with all her life, and it killed her to be angry at her. So she took the opportunity.
“I need you to be happy. And I want to go back to how it was. I’ve fucking missed you so much.”
Phil didn’t wait, she jumped into Dan, hugging her, and making both of them roll onto the floor laughing. Given that Phil was on top, she used this advantage to tangle her hands on Dan’s long hair and kissed her.
That would be their new beginning of a happier life.
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