Once again I need everyone to like me all day long so much and it's INCURABLE

Hi, i hope the request still open! May i request a romantic match up from Tokyo Revengers?

Im an INTJ, enneagram type 5, she/her, & straight. I like silence & being alone, my hobbies are reading and daydreaming lol. I hate closed minded ppl & sudden change of plans. Rlly introverted, i only have 1 friend whom i comfortable with. Many ppl see me as cold heartless just bcos i mainly use logic in every situation. Actually im pretty funny (with dark jokes). They also call me an old soul

I never date / like someone before (even tho im 19 & pretty :P). I just never find someone who got me interested. I also pretty romantic & love to being in relationship (i have a list of what to do when i have a bf!). Have good grades, but kinda lazy. I dont rlly like drama & other ppl's bussiness just bcs its tiring. Also, i have wild side where i like to do many reckless things (but i cover it up pretty well). Thank you sm for reading this :3

n.a.: hii! pls, I love your vibes, also I'm curious about ur list- I'm sorry for any mistakes! and I really hope you'll like it<3

I match you with ATSUSHI SENDO(Akkun)<3

- to this precious boy, it would take a while to talk to you, and it would be mostly thanks to his friends.

- maybe they'll even get along with your friend and if they see that you too have an interest in Akkun, they would try to get you two to talk more often ;)

- he loves your personality, and he also thinks that often logic is better:)

- here's how I imagine a day you two spent together: (you weren't together yet, he had a crush for you and you were starting to feel that maybe he wasn't just a friend;))

u were in high school together, and you shared many of the classes.

That day your desk-mate(?) was missing, so he sat next to you, he knew you were introverted and therefore you would feel more uncomfortable with other people.

You tried to follow the lesson but you often found yourself glancing at him(often he was already watching u)

in the end, he asked you for the notebook cause he didn't take any note. To thank you he invited you to sit with him for lunch. Despite wanting to be alone, he insisted, and he promised you that there would be no one else <3

school was over, and he insisted on taking you home (and getting you ice cream). HE WAS SO cute, he always maintained a very pleasant atmosphere and is great at making conversation!

"If you want this is my number, don't feel obligated but I'd really like to see you again but I've been really good with you" he said blushing just before stroking your cheek to "fixing your hair".

"s-sorry"

instead you took the note with the number and thanked him :)

And yes, you will see each other often

- loves talking about u to his friendsajja

- hang out with Hina and Takemichi<3

- he knows that you like to be alone, and he'll know when to give you your space. Absolutely no pressure with him:)

- he loves ur dark jokes pls

- sometimes he tries to hold your hand, but if you don't want to, he would just be fine with just taking you by the fingers <3

hi bubs congrats!so i’m an introvert but once i get to know u i’m an extrovert, i rlly care about my friends and family, i hate being alone but also love it at the same time? i do gymnastics! love volleyball, i like being outdoors cause i’m from florida so,ima pisces,vv sensitive,hella low confidence.i have strawberry blonde hair, green eyes,freckles, and pale skin w red undertones smh😤i basically just watch anime all day long,am an insomniac ugh, stay up till like 4 playing roblox, bad anxiety

i ship you with...kozume kenma!!!

you and kenma make the best match because you both vibe so well together

first kenma notices you in one of his lessons because you’re so nice and quiet. you do your own thing and don’t bother him which means that when the teacher tells your class to choose project partners, he’s the one coming to ask you if you’d like to be his partner

he really likes how you’re introverted because you don’t bother him or pry into his business because i feel like kenma is quite a private person and you don’t leave him feeling so drained after your study sessions

once you start dating and you become a bit more extroverted, kenma is endeared by it? he likes how you’re still independent but enjoy being around him, not always necessarily in person

you both facetime and call each other a lot, often spending hours on it and dipping in between conversation and silence because you like each other’s presence but also like being alone

when you two hang out in person though, you let kenma play his games or sometimes you play with him or sit on his lap so you can still feel interactive with one another

dates are very lowkey and peaceful, like getting food together or watching films at home together

animal crossing dates

lots of dates outdoors- kenma pretends not to like them but sometimes he thinks it’s refreshing to be having a picnic and enjoy the fresh air and sunlight

kenma thinks it’s cute how fiercely protective you are of him that you’re ready to defend him if anyone even looks at him wrong

once a fourteen year old kid called him an idiot when playing a game online and you literally hissed down the mic so harshly the kid was almost crying after

you and kuroo often go to play volleyball and force kenma to join. he grumbles about it but thinks you look very pretty and happy when playing

sometimes will randomly ask you to do the splits because he thinks it’s cool

once asked you in front of lev and lev got too excited and kenma got lowkey jealous >:(

because kenma likes to sit a lot playing games you force him to stretch for his own health and safety in volleyball. he almost cried

despite being kind of straightforward around everyone else, kenma is careful with his words around you because he knows how sensitive you are

if you’re upset, he’ll always make sure to hold you silently, stroking your hair till you feel better. if someone else upsets you, he’ll probably glare at them

once it was lev and he literally k i l l e d that giraffe

kenma understands you struggle with your confidence but he never gives you false compliments just for the sake of making you feel good. he always gives you proper, genuine compliments that leaves you feeling flustered because you know you can believe it

both of you have the most irregular sleeping schedule because you stay up till sunrise playing games or watching anime

*cue you both cooking pancakes at half 4 in the morning because why not?*

grocery shopping occurs between 2-4am

daytime naps together

kenma knows you have anxiety so he never tries to push you into awkward social situations- also because he hates them just as much

he knows his quiet and unreadable behaviour can make you anxious and worry so he tries to show you he cares for you as much as possible, sometimes with warmer smiles or ruffling your hair

My utopia is literally a place where I don't have to feel overwhelmed and overpowered when trying to express myself professionally or emotionally, because of overbearing aggressive forces of masculine energy. I want to feel at peace when I am outside, and I don't want to feel threatened or violated. I don't want to feel like it's my responsibility to educate men to be better, because it's emotionally exhausting and I always find myself doing that when I'm hurt.

Okay, so the space I would imagine is the wild from Madagascar where alex goes like who's the cat Im the cat. And there would be no gender like no dicks or vaginas, And anyone could fall asleep anywhere without any fear, And it would be summer all the time And everyone minds their own business and are introverts somewhat Also the houses should be made of clear glass

Earth’s balance has been restored. We accommodate/conform to nature rather than dominate it. • Live music is played in every restaurant • Artistic expression is seen as essential to childhood development • Education is provided to all who seek it wherein history is taught from multiple perspectives, science is taught as tried and true, and language is taught as adaptable and ever-changing • Homelessness eradicated. • Plenty of public spaces where children can run around freely and people can gather without fear & without having to buy something • Dressing colorfully isn’t deemed unprofessional • We can communicate with animals which allows us to respect their space and autonomy 4. I guess my version of a utopia would look kind of like a combination of nature and modernist architecture (visually). Like a bunch of glass and wood buildings with trees. And some luscious as fuck gardens. I don’t know I was watching this thing on Japanese homes so I’m kinda obsessed with that right now.As far as the values of the society, I envision a utopia where education of all kinds is accessible to all people. And, it’s mad cheesy, I see it as a society where acceptance and respect have more value than wealth. Where all people are considered equal, yet everyone is able to laugh at their differences without hate behind it. I imagine there would only be public forms of transportation, excluding bikes and the like. Or we would have at least developed some super modern version of a car that doesn’t run on fuel. I don’t really know if I am doing this right? But I would just want it to look real sexy with lots of glass, modernist architecture and nature. As well as a high focus on providing equal opportunity for all people. Where money doesn’t get you the education that all people deserve. 5. My utopia is a beautiful jungle with all my best friends, mother, khalas and my sisters. We are able to talk to animals, and for some reason I’m imagining the hybridity between humans and animals so I’m half  tiger, like the one from fantasia. Our main goal in life is to discover the rest of the world at our own pace, so we are travellers. We go everywhere and visit the sites and places that already exist in the world but there is no one on earth besides us.  6.  My utopia would probably be a world where I’m completely alone ... I think that so much of my anxiety about living stems from an inability to feel a true connection to anyone or anything. Which I recognize is an internal problem, hence the isolating factor of this dream. When I think of inner peace I imagine my body floating in a pristine blue lagoon, held by the cusp of a mountain range. Everything is kaleidoscopic; the veil between worlds is thin enough to transcend each plane (my personal philosophy follows 7 planes of existence but you don’t need to make all of those lmao) if needed. What is important to me about this utopia is being able to exist without any kind of surveillance. There is no entry point to/for the other; it’s simply a place to play and experience the corporeal body as it is 7. I think my idea of a feminist Utopia is firstly very green. It’s tech heavy but in a very green space in a perfect future where the world fixed climate issues- it’s a really integrated system like you know that one green skyscraper that they’re gonna make? And i think it’s just very tender and the world is large but made of small moments if that makes sense There’s no rushing, there's a real focus on process as we have moved from a capitalist pace and everyone creates because it’s a human urge  8. My Utopia is my abuelitas house, where the candles are always lit and it always smells like a restaurant. My sister is doing everyone's birth charts and my abuelita is telling us ghost stories. The recurring dream I have of this scene is a more dimly lit space but with more colors and with my dog chocolate who recently died.  9. I want my Utopia to be all pink because that's the utopic color I’ve sort of planted in my consciousness. It’s not just pink, but rainbow. There are butterflies and animals everywhere. When you zoom out of it, it looks like a doll house but we can use the sims principle to build our own little worlds for ourselves. We can walk into the little blocks anytime we want and we all help each other build these worlds (only females)  10.  Venus flytrap that sucks in rapists, A sky where you can actually see the moon. Clean air maybe? A truck which transforms your plastic into wax crayons, Wonder woman belts and capes, Virtual Lenses that let me see my notes when I'm going through social anxiety, Nails that transform into weapons, Fecal-matter vibes for humans 11. The setting of my Utopia would be set in a South Asian setting with the busy streets and markets and the same architecture. I would like to add gothic architecture in my Utopia as well just because I always felt like I wanted to see how those two forms of architecture would mesh. Except I would want to see all of this as a cyberpunk scene with bright neon lights and space shuttles at all times. So women actually could walk freely at night in the midst of bright lights and escape into space anytime they would want to on the streets of India. I would want to live in a huge castle with my friends and wear jewelry and bright clothes. I would want men to live in my world actually, but I don't want to be in proximity with them? And they would just live their own lives but with ‘reversed oppressed roles’ hah 12. My Utopia is like that crazy mixture of lisa frank/barbie fairytopia and hot topic. Except I can talk to my cat and only my best friends and mom exist in it. There is also nature but also robots. You can see the moon and the stars at all times 13. Firstly I think feeding and farming takes up most of people’s physical labor and time. I think the only reason we work is to feed ourselves thrice a day and that is super unnecessary. I wish eating wasn’t a thing in my Utopia, just to get rid of that excess labor. I do want fruit trees and nature to exist though but each fruit would have its own healing powers that came with it. In this Utopia there would be a Matriarchy. I would want my Utopia to look like the Botticelli ‘Birth of Venus Painting. I want to live in huge seashells as houses. There is romance, love and friendships but there is no monogamy, because I think monogamy instantly makes any world dystopic. I think female friendships should be celebrated more than the romance between a man and woman in Utopias. If there is that kind of hetero bullshit mentality there should be no masculine and femnine traits that can affect those kind of relations despite not being monogamous. I would also want to have contact with the other planets in my utopia. 14. Probably definitely no men. I don’t really care if they exist and aren’t here or if they don’t exist i just don’t wanna see one unless i wanna ya kno? Also any homophone or terf or anything is immediately comically ejected out of the city like with a big spring. Actually, they’re ejected directly into a classroom that teaches them to be nice, they deserve a chance i mean what if they’re like 11. I don’t really have any specific aesthetic ideas of what it would look like. God id love to be able to walk around without fear, especially at night. But like aesthetically ya kno ya girl goth. I want drama i want pizazz. I want houses with two long staircases inside. I want ppl out on the streets looking like those fecal matter fashion ppl. Just some wack ass hunger games body mods bcuz when women r left alone i bet they’d all go crazy go stupid. I want the Winchester house with doors leading nowhere and staircases that go into the wall. Not to sound cliche but i looove gothic architecture. Like all the spikes and arches and tall tall spires. I also rlly love the concept of New Orleans. I imagine irl it isn’t how it is in my head but in my head it’s so soooky and magical. Just like witchcraft and vampires and everyone’s wearing silk and velvet or grunge clothes or like chunky sweaters. But just everything is so so old and haunted but the ghosts are nice and the cemeteries bang 15. In my Utopia I would like to walk into my office space without my male coworker making a sexual comment to my face without me giggling at it so I can keep my job and professionalism. I would like to be able to walk at night without thinking where I kept my pen to protect myself if someone attacks me. I would like to go out in NYC at night with my female friends without thinking I need to bring a male friend so he can shoo away the men who don’t let us dance on the dance floor. I would like to be friends with more males without having my brain tell me he might have a different intention with me. I would like to live in a world where if I tell someone I got abused they would believe me and understand I would have no reason to lie about it. Since it's not that simple I would like to live in a world with no men. Women would have tentacles that slapped them out of present day earth and we elevated as a human species where we have wings and our own thrones. The children are generated into angelic creatures where they co-exist with older people and there is no hierarchy. We finally get to live in a world which we deserve. 16.  My Utopia is our current day world. Except I wouldn’t want my life to fall under this capitalist framework. There is Utopian socialism in my world. Everyone works together and there is no racism, sexism or xenophobia. Basically remove everything that is wrong with our modern day systems which is almost everything so i feel like i shouldn't even go there but you get the gist. There is no poverty, no diseases, no homelessness. 17. There is death but from a young age we learn to lose our loved ones and hopefully no one in this utopia will have to go through losing a loved one. Trauma and pain do not exist. I guess men shouldn’t exist? But they should! and they should learn how to be emotionally intelligent without having their mother/partner teach them. There should be no gender identity or internalizing the incarnation of heterosexuality. There should be more queer people out on the streets, if heterosexuals can show public display of affection so can queer people (but honestly lets cut the part out where I said hetereos can show PDA). There should be more celebration of friendships. Lets romanticize friendships instead of monogamy. That's my utopia itself. I guess in terms of my personal Utopia I would still want to be in my marriage (if men do exist) but I would want the narrative of co-dependency to disappear. I think in Utopias I wouldn’t want to live in the same house as my husband, at least not at 28. I need more freedom and independence spatially and I’m slowly preaching how marriages don’t need to be codependent and people need to have their own spaces and practices if they want to reach their ultimate utopian space. (idk how you can show marriage as an institution lol) Visually there should be no high rise buildings, and I’m sure there's space for every person in the world to have a home regardless. I would want to see coconut trees, gardens, and lakes around me, and everyone should have space to run around, play and swim!! 18. My Utopia is in the landscape of what hell looks like on Betty Boop and Looney Toons cartoons. There are gates to hell and only abusive men walk through it as we all sit on our thrones and play the role of God. We all hold our tridents with our pets sitting next to us. My cat evolves into a wild panther and eats the men who don't cooperate alive. But the only reason hell exists is to reverse the roles now. Men face the abuse and oppression we and our mothers went through on planet earth. They have a microchip inserted in their brains and play out the roles of everyday women's realities. If they finally learn and understand they can finally go back to earth and try to be decent human beings. If they don’t they are stuck in the role of an oppressed woman their whole lives. The surprise guests in this hell are slave owners and the microchip is inserted in their brains so they can experience what slavery was like as a slave. If they learn from the experience they have the option to set those slaves free and if they don’t they will be incarnated (Octavia Butler whomst!!) 19. My Utopia is Cairo, in that cliche Egyptian setting except with rainbow pyramids and a little more cyber-punk esque. We live in a middle eastern matriarchy. We ride our magic camels. I want it to be techno futurist? So there is technology but we aren’t addicted to tik-tok and instagram for gods sake. I want there to be lakes and oceans where there are mermaids and sea creatures and right now i'm imagining a huge octopus in the middle of the ocean with our houses built on top of the octopus. 20. We are all beings that can either choose to be corporeal and have a physical body or just be a floating consciousness. We can switch in and out of these forms. 21. We can modify our bodies in any way we please just by thinking about it. If you want to be a squiggly plant thing or a fucking circle or a humanoid, it’s up to you.   We can talk to/communicate with ‘animals’ and we live in an interspecies society without species hierarchy. Nature first Or better yet, we are indistinguishable. Gender does not exist. Money doesn’t exist. Healthcare is based on kindness. Everyone goes through an hour of ego dissolution once a week.  When you die, you acquire all of the Universe’s knowledge 22. utopia is onenessinterconnectedness of all beingsi ask ‘what can i give’ all animate beings, of all types, shades of colorsfruitsbeachi can be as femme as i want without threats of sexual violenceno sexual violenceanimacy of every being is respected + sacredcolor color color color color coloremotional intelligence, taught and centeredrelationship with the land, grown and inherentlive of, live from, live with the landeveryone is teacher and studenthierarchy is ok, as long as for function, not powerguided by the logic of loveheld in the story of abundancecreativity is the fabric of the world, color is the threadlonging for collective liberation is the needleutopia is the potential of knowledge we all have inherent to usround and full possibilitiesutopia is lacking the language to say utopiabecause the english language was not designed for liberation pleasurable freedombut i know it includesmy grandmalogic of lovegood boogie any time day or nightpracticing abundancecolor always aboundtropical beach, tropical mountainsqueerness, indigeneityreciprocal relationshipsspaces to listen and see each other in fullnessnon harmingsex without shamepleasure in the everydayit’s possiblein utopiautopia is the wholeness of all beings, seen and respected,voice of all beings, heard and heldbeing over achievingcreating over controllingfreedom in spirityearning for expansion satisfied by internal growthgains made creative and wisdommultiple realities coexist and respect each otherchoices made out of ever expansive possibilities for the present and futurecollaborationspatial awarenessflexible physics, flexible materialityflexible and humble realitycross dimensionalno hierarchy of beingsi tell my friends i love them and i mean itmy friends ask me if i need anything and they mean itUtopia is I bodyevery interaction informed by the dramatic improbability that i am conscious and the delectable sweetness that i am able to witness the worldThe mountains and the forest and the waterfalls and the blooming flowersall liberatedNonviolence non-entitlement Empowerment, self actualization, tenderness Shadow self held, not castawayAlignment and ritual with the cycles of the seasons, the planetsembodied knowledgecollaboration above individualismall abilities sacrednothing can inflate or deflate self worthdiffering opinions can move in the same directionno one needs power over anotherplentiful food, water, time, energydaily sunset and sunrisespatial awareness rooted in wholeness, interconnectedness with other beingstaught how to hold fear’s hand and bring it along with ussensitivity, vulnerability as valuesflexible appearance

I'm gonna just slide both tagged ones here in one honestly

Tagged by: @kirishwima

soft q&a

Rules: answer the q&a and tag 5 of your most recent followers and 3 of your biggest fans, fave users/blogs (I mean I break these rules cause I don't tag so yep)

What’s the smell of ur shampoo?

(This one is a tad weird 😅) *shrug* I dunno I don't really pay attention to it/don't always use the same one. Like most of the time I've either got a cold or just am out of it or trying to remember I have to breathe. (You think you wouldn't forget that and yet)

What’s ur aesthetic?

I've never truly got what aesthetic is which makes me sound stupid but yeah I have no idea

What’s ur favorite hour of the day?

Any time I'm basically home alone honestly

What do u like most about the beach?

I don't actually like the beach XD I burn and just I'd rather be elsewhere

What do u worry about constantly?

A fuck ton of different things I'm not getting into cause like the list would be huge and some probably make me sound like a crazy person so 😅

What is a song u cried before?

Off the top of my head I don't remember cause like for a while I haven't really felt much when it came to music like usually if it's a sad song I just end up zoning out and imagining stuff. It's hard to cry at songs now days I guess. If I do it's probably cause I've made myself via in///trusive th///oughts

what r some relaxing tips to ur followers?

Welp this is the wrong blog for that honestly what is relaxation?

So I have none 😅

What r some things that make u tear up?

Sometimes when watching crime cases and it's stuff with kids but like only sometimes. I guess it's more when you see the parents all heartbroken the reality sets in.

(Honestly cases don't really effect me much sadness wise usually like some just piss me off)

Also fucking the ending of f///f///x///v and Pr///yna (those made me cry though. Just I love my boys and doggos man)

what is ur favorite form of each of the five senses?

Honestly my senses are fucked like daily so I have nothing like if the world isn't muted or dulled it feels like nothing is real

what is one alternate reality ud want to be in?

One where I'm in a game with characters I like. Sounds odd but I don't like reality, never have like I always used to imagine being friends with characters I like and since all this m///ental bullshit it's more been I wish I lived there instead

what r some troubles u face daily?

Welp...One is I have ag///oraphobia bad. I got over it once but it returned so here we are. It's a fear of open spaces which makes no sense honestly to me. Also de//personalisation and de///realization.

I mean there's a lot of shit honestly just don't want to drag it out

what is one scene of a book that made u rlly sad?

I don't recall if I've cried or not reading a book. If I have it's probably Of Mice and Men when I was in High School like George having to shoot his friend Lenny is an ouch

say sth to ur followers

I dunno what to say 😅

Next one:

Rules: bold what you prefer and tag 10 people you wish to know better

1. Coffee or tea (neither)

2. Early bird or Night Owl

3. Chocolate or Vanilla

4. Spring or Fall (seasons bum me out so neither)

5. Silver or Gold (I honestly don't know 😅)

6. Pop or Alternative (I have no preference)

7. Freckles or Dimples (I just think they're cute and want them. Dimples I have one and just it bugs me cause there's not another like I smile and there's just one and T-T)

8. Snakes or Sharks (I mean I don't like either XD I just hate snakes more honestly. I don't fear them just really don't like them)

9. Mountains or Fields (neither)

10. Thunderstorms or Lightning (neither cause I'm terrified of both)

11. Egyptian or Greek Mythology (I mean they're neat and all but I'm not really interested in either)

12. Ivory or Scarlet (*shrug*)

13. Flute or Lyre (I dunno what the other thing is so XD)

14. Eyes or Lips (I don't really like people so honestly I don't have a preference there)

15. Witches or Fairies (Just witches make me paranoid and scare me a tad. Sorry 😅)

16. Opal or Diamond (I mean I collect gems so I like them all but like I'll never see a Diamond so)

17. Butterflies or Honeybees

18. Macarons or Eclairs (neither)

19. Typewritten or Handwritten Letters (neither)

20. Secret Garden or Secret Library

21. Rooftop or Balcony (I'm scared of heights so honestly it's a no if its high up)

22. Spicy or Mild

23. Opera or Ballet (neither)

24. London or Paris (Nope to both. I dislike travel and like just nope to them)

25. Vincent Van Gogh or Claude Monet

26. Denim or Leather (I say despite liking both. Granted I only have like one leather jacket)

27. Potions or Spells (I mean in a fantasy settingI like spells and magic stuff. But in reality I don't believe in such stuff/it freaks me out)

28. Ocean or Desert

29. Mermaid or Siren (gimme singing murder fish)

30. Masquerade Ball or Cocktail Party (*is super introverted* this would be my hell so neither)