And absurdly, that misunderstanding, that mix-up, has more or less altered the course of my entire life. There are always moments when you look back, these weak spots you realize your entire existence hinged on.

Joseph Knox, from True Crime Story

I always thought of myself as a "music buff". I loved music in so many forms. I obviously loved the music my parents brought me up with; which was their tastes I suppose. My Mom had a love for Neil Diamond and Elvis Presley. My Dad, I guess I never really knew back when I was younger who his favorites were. In fact, I am still not sure who they are. Perhaps I should look into that before I no longer can.

My taste in music was a wide variety though. However, what I lacked in, was a knowledge of the members of all the bands that I had a passion for. I knew songs, not always the titles. I knew a few lyrics, not always full tunes. I definitely did not know artists, singers, drummers, guitar players. I suspect when I was growing up I may have known more but as I got older and had children, I definitely became "absent" in the world of anything that wasn't in the life of a child. I am almost ashamed to admit that I barely knew who Kurt Cobain was when he passed away. I mean, of course I had heard of Nirvana, but to have known the whole story of him and his life and to have truly known him, I did not. I was too buy raising small boys to even entertain the idea of listening to anything other than Barney and Winnie the Pooh. I also think, at that stage in my life, I may have been listening to country music or going to dance clubs on the few nights I did go out. I knew the Macarena dance moves, and the lyrics to "Baby Got Back" but there were so few things in life I had time for truly.

When someone comes into your life and either introduces you to good music or perhaps they just simply take the time to teach you about music, artists and how to appreciate something that you once truly loved all over again, you will never forget that person. You also generally never forget the moment that they first made this happen.

For me it was when I was asked who my favorite artist was and I couldn't name anyone and he responded with Dave Grohl. I was so embarrassed when I didn't know who that was. Even more so now.

He made it my homework assitnment to learn who he was and to listen to the Foo Fighters. I will never forget. I took that assignment very seriously. I found a documentary on Netflix and watched it that night. I was sold. I fell in love with Dave and with Taylor Hawkins. I think perhaps I fell in love with all of them to be honest.

Since that day, the man that brought me to that moment has brought me so many more songs and artists and moments in those artists lives. I have looked at stories and documentaries. I know so much about Kurt Cobain now and have fallen in love with so much of his music and have cried about losing such an amazing talent. I will be touching on so many of these stories and songs and artists he has brought into my world. It's oe of the greatest gifts he has ever given back to me.

Dave Grohl. I can't believe that I ever said that I didn't know who that was. I am ashamed of the girl that sputtered those words. I knew a lot of music, good music before that day, but my true appreciation for it has never been what it is like it is since that day.

Perhaps we all have that defining music moment.

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Jonathan Harker: [bodyslams] Though I shan't let such a small matter stop me

Am I?

Rivalship

Defining Moment: Judeo-Christian Ethics— Hippocratic Oath

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20 years ago, Sonic X gave us the definition of love. Happy anniversary, episode 52!

there's a certain moment in ghost trick that hit me oddly hard when i first played it and that i keep coming back to. it's lynne's final death — when she jumps to save kamila from the explosion in the sub while yomiel is still possessing her. specifically, that moment from yomiel's perspective.

because, like. obviously lynne didn't (primarily) mean to save him, but... i can't help thinking how that might have felt for him. yomiel, a character defined by the trauma of having no one (left) who gave a shit about him after dying-but-not-really. yomiel, who has not had another person really "see" him or care about him for ten years. him, in a matter of seconds, going from threatening this girl with a gun (again), after everything that led the both of them to this point, to her, immediately, instinctually, leaping toward "him", reaching out to "him", trying to save "him".

(and of course, it wasn't "him". it's not him that she cares about (hah, imagine that!). it's not him that she saw. even if their eyes met. but, for those brief seconds... maybe some part of him believed that it was. maybe he let himself believe it.)

it's such a shame that he canonically doesn't remember it, because it sets up him saving her at the end of the chapter with the robo claw perfectly. ah well.

yeah overthinking prophecies is the mind killer but i have to say my piece re azor ahai, that is, if it's really meant to be one character, then the best narrative choice is dany. not only because she fulfills every word of the prophecy an entire book before we even learn of its existence. but also "no one ever looked for a girl," aemon tells us. in-universe her gender precludes her from being imagined as the saviour figure and on a meta level even the readers don't think the 16 year old girl with this much power (dragons) will be allowed to keep that power and fulfill an important narrative destiny as a hero of the story. the expectation is that the character will be brought low and/or surpassed by the classic warrior hero archetype of jon. which is why i think dany being AA is the most subversive choice. and would actually make jon the red herring.

the jaiden-roier-cellbit dynamic is so important to me because like. cellbit treats jaiden and roier's relationship with the same level of respect and importance that jaiden treats roier and cellbit's marriage. which may not seem like that big of a thing but like. platonic relationships are often seen as "lesser" than romantic ones, and that your romantic partner should come first before all other bonds in your life. and seeing cellbit treat jaiden and roier's bond and relationship with the same respect that jaiden treats his marriage. as an arospec person it genuinely makes me want to sob

some postcanon utenanthy stuff

thoughts on dave and aradia (<>)?

day 356

BIG fan tbh. in this house we love and respect timerails

truly yall read this log and tell me theyre not cute