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defschoice · 3 years

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His Babygirl - Park Jinyoung

Characters: Park Jinyoung, Jackson Wang, Lim Jaebeom, Reader, Kevin Moon

Genre: Smut

Warning: (bondage, spanking, dom, obedience, rough sex, lightly fifty shades of grey vibes)

Summary: Jinyoung, a cold hearted savage and spoiled fuckboy who gets everything he wants and gets his way with people as he wants it.

Word count: 1546

"Why do you have to leave Kev?" You sobbed as your brother package his suitcase.

"It's just a small tour to Europe and USA with my group" He said as he continued to pack.

"How long will you be gone?" You asked sitting on his bed

"Just a month or so but don't worry, I'll be back before you know it" He said as he patted your head and went down the stairs.

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As you stood at the top of the stairs you heard your parents talk with Kevin as you walked down the stairs and grabbed to jacket.

"Hey sweetie where are you going?" Your mum turned around and asked me.

"Over to Jun's place, I might stay there over night" You said as Kevin just chuckled.

"Okay but be careful sweetie, see you later then" She said as you walked out and about to close the door.

"Remember to use protection if you do anything" She added right before you closed the door. Is she being for real?

"Mum! No!" You yelled as you slammed the door and started to make your way to Jun's place.

You were walking down the streets of Seoul as you were texting Jun when you walked into someone and fell backwards.

"Hey watch were you walk!" You said as you looked up at probably the most handsome man you've ever seen.

Damn... and me who thought Jun was the most handsome man I had ever seen.

"The name is Park Jinyoung and who is this beautiful little lady?" He asked with a smirking but yet heartwarming smile as he reaches his hand out for you to grab.

You take his hand as you stand up and start to dust your pretty ass " My name is Moon, Y/N Moon" You said as you continued to dust yourself of.

"Here let me help you" He said as he lifted you up and threw you over his shoulder and dusted your ass that was already clean.

I bet you he just wants a reason to touch your ass and that's when you felt a hand of up under your skirt grabbing your ass or more likely caressing it a bit which was very weird. The only other guy who's ever touched your ass is Jun and don't question that.

"Hey this is private property" You said as he just started laughing and then slapped your ass so hard you were sure the whole town could hear it.

"Well i take what i like and make it mine and i like that pretty little ass of yours so don't get too surprised from now on, okay princess?" He said while smiling bright at himself.

After a good 20 minutes of Jinyoung walking with you on his shoulder while he had his hand on your butt you managed to text Jun saying you couldn't come obviously because Mr. Perfect over here decided to take you to his home.

We entered this big mansion as you looked around "Can you set me down now?" You asked he just started laughing again, I swear does this boy just find everything I say funny or what?

"Not quite yet princess" he said as he walked into another big room, closed and locked the door as he threw you on his big king size bed, as you bounced on the mattress.

"Want to have some fun? I wanna see more of you than just your pretty little ass" He said as you looked into his eyes which was full of lust. He looked you up and down as he licked his lips and stood up.

He's quite gorgeous and handsome you honestly wouldn't mind doing him plus it's been a while since last time you did something so why not.

"Yeah sure I would like to see more off you than just your face, back and that peachy ass of yours" You said as he started to unbuckle his belt and pulled his pants down along with boxers, you decided to be a little extra and tease him a bit as well cuz why not hahaha

God damn he has a gorgeous body, so muscular and ahhh it's too much he must be working out or something and you like it.

You just started at him in standing there as you stood up on his bed and put your arms around his neck as you started to rub myself up against him giving him an even bigger boner than he already has.

You kept teasing him until he begged you to fuck him which took shorter time than you expected.

Fuck he's needy lmao

"Just fucking do me like there's no tomorrow" he said as you kept going on with this for a little bit longer.

"What's my name?" You asked lifting his pretty face up by the chin that was resting on your shoulder.

"Y-Y/N" he said now stuttering.

"B-Babygirl" He said still stuttering.

"Good boy" You said going on my knees and grabbed around his hardened member and started out slowly as he grabbed your head to control and lead you.

After a good amount of time he pushed you down the bed and was over you and started undressing you while demanding you to turn around flat on your stomach as he made himself ready to go in.

He placed the tip at your entrance and started teasing you, now giving you what you gave him.

He started thrusting inside you hard giving you no time to adjust for his size

"J-Jinyoung I'm so close" you said grabbing on to this hair.

"That's not my name" he said as he started to go slower teasing you even more.

"D-Daddy" you said now stuttering as he smirked of amusement

"That's right babygirl" He said going faster again until you both eventually came.

"Baby?" He asked laying on his side looking at you

"Hmm" you said being really fucking exhausted right now. He's good and he definetly knows what he's doing

"You know that pretty little ass of yours? I'm not done with that or you" he said as he started laughing while walking out of the room.

A few minutes later he came back fairly more undressed than before with some handcuffs and foot lockers and started tying you up, then throwing you over his shoulder once again.

"May I ask where you're taking me?" You asked as he just smiled

"Just a little room I have" he said as you walked into the room that pretty much like something taken straight out of fifty shades of grey

As he was tyeing you up you suddenly heard 2 other male voices.

Short after he cuffed the handcuffs to your hands at the bed frame and walked out of the room.

As Jinyoung was tyeing you up to the bed frame with some handcuffs, two of his best friends Jackson and JB arrived cuz obviously I had to call them over about this.

"Oh it must be them" He said as he ran out of the room leaving you tied to the bed with your arms

"Yo wassup bro?" JB said as he bro hugged him.

"Where is she?" Jackson asked clearly excited to see you.

"Relax Jacky she's in here, but you don't get to see her " He said standing in front of the door to the room.

"Bro come on. Why not?" Jackson complained to Jinyoung.

"Because. Go make yourself home in the living room. I'll finish up here and come out soon" He said gesturing for the boys to go as he went in again.

He took his shirt and pants of again and proceeded to grab your waist as he started spanked you a few times.

"You want more?" He asked you as you nodded your head at him.

"I need words. Speak to me" He said slapping your ass again.

"Y-yes Jinyoung" You said as he took the order and started slipping his thumb in your pussy rubbing your clit slowly but hardly.

"J-Jinyoung" You said as he started going in and out with his finger in a rapidly pace.

"Hold it in for me princess" He said replacing his fingers with his hard cock as he started pumping in and out giving you no time to adjust again.

After you both came he lied down next to you for a few minutes before standing up to get dressed again.

"Get cleaned up and come out in the living room" he said leaving the room.

You got dressed and walked out in the living room to the the boys

"Sup?" You said looking at JB

"Not much, you're pretty nice. Should we head back Jackson?" JB said to you to then look at Jackson.

"Y/n you can leave again if you want to but here's my number so I can call you whenever I need you" Jinyoung said to you as you walked with JB and Jackson out

"Do you want to drive with us?" JB asked looking at you.

"Sure I just need to get dropped off at my friends house anyway" You said taking your phone out.

Not gonna lie she's pretty cute but I wonder who her friend is.

#got7 jinyoung smut #jinyoung #got7 #jaebeom #jackson wang #kevin moon

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hwangdol · 5 years

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n.jm: where are you?

summary: jaemin is just a little (very) misunderstood

pairing: highschool!fboi!jaemin x fem!reader

note: gUESS WHOSE BACK IN TOWN?!?!?!? y’all already know the routine: poor grammar, crackheads, a fuck ton of cursing i think, and drug references (*coughs* stoner-boi!haechan *coughs*). this isn’t the last part so theres def gonna be a part three, i just have too much to write for jaemin and i don’t wanna rush things too much, but i also don’t wanna leave you all hanging. so enjoy. but also make sure to read part one first so you can be in the know~

“because she knew that i was in love with you”

it took you a good m i n u t e to register jaemin’s words, not that you even comprehended the weight of his words either.

you didn’t know how to respond so like a normal person you started laughing awkwardly to ease the tension, “you’re joking right?”

he hAD to be bc there was no way in hell that the biggest fuckboy of the whole school, na jaemin once harbored a one-sided love for you, right?

a small flash of hurt flashed across jaemin’s eyes that you couldn’t catch since his whole demeanor immediately brighten u again and one of his signature playful smiles on was back on his face.

.“i can’t ever fool you can i?” he chuckled shaking his head.

“no but seriously, why didn’t you go to hoco sophomore year? you were supposed to be hoco royalty with ella,” you picked at the melting ice cream.

jaemin shrugged, “maybe i just didn’t feel like it.”

he seems so nonchalant on the outside, but on the inside, na jaemin is thinking of 1001 ways to disappear off the face of the earth.

what did he expect in the first place? that you would just accept his belated confession that quickly?

but he’s now big s a d, but he ain't going let that show. no, no, no, it ruins his go-with-the-flow personality and the “playboy” role everyone put him in.

“do you have something to do after school tomorrow?” jaemin asked once the two had finished your sundae and the two of you were waiting for your ride to come to pick you up.

you shook your head at his question, knowing that haechan would mostly like ditch your afterschool hang out to get high with mark or chill at that one girl's house

“why?” you asked.

“how about we hang out then?” jaemin asked so casually. he was just that good at hiding his real feels

“can i ask why you’re suddenly trying to hang out with me more often? its weird” you say back, not like the feeling that was bubbling in your throat. was he trying to mess around with you? did he run out of girls to play with?

jaemin pouted slightly, ‘i’m simply trying to reconnect with my old friend. besides, i need help with the prom decorations and since you already finished it, you should know how to do them quickly.”

“i’ll see” is all you say.

and you leave, not knowing what you did to his poor little heart.

poor jaemin got ghosted bc you never reached out to him in the days to follow to “hang out”. the two of you would make eye contact at school, but you always quickly looked away.

:( x 10

it wasn’t that jaemin was shock by your cold treatment, but he was holding onto the hope that you didn’t see him as na jaemin the resident fuckboi, but as na jaemin the boy who was once the prince to your little princess. except jaemin knew very well that this isn’t a fairy tale, just cruel reality.

life is a little bitch and it was messing him the fuck up!

however, na jaemin is a coward and he knows this.

which is why he feels more comfortable when he’s surrounded by others wearing the mask that was carefully crafted for him than when he’s all by himself.

bc when’s he completely alone, when no one is around, he’s left with no one but himself.

the one person he hates the most in the world.

when did it begin?

when did he care more about what others think than what he thought? when did he begin to follow the crowd?

when did he lose himself?

maybe it began around sophomore year, when he first agreed to date ella. something that he wouldn’t have agreed to if it weren’t for you asking that of him.

he could never say no to you. the one who held his heart in the palm of his hands.

did he ever like ella?

he tried to, but it was kinda hard when the only reason why he said yes to her confession was to make you happy. he remembered the way your eyes lit up in happiness as he and ella broke the news to you

you looked like the happiest girl in the world and he felt his heart race at the sight, but not when ella confess to him.

it was useless pining, he knew that. you only saw him as a close friend and especially now that he was with your bestfriend.

that was why he tried soooooo hard to get himself to feel things for ella.

he spent most of his time with her, even ditching his homie student-athlete!jeno (who he often found himself feeling jealous of when he found out that jeno crashed at your house to have a movie marathon with you multiple times)

but he just couldn’t feel anything for ella. so he began to lie.

the first time he lied, it ate him up inside. the simple three words, eight letters phrase was hard to say when you don’t actually mean it.

but as jaemin found himself repeating the lie over and over again, the guilt that was always lingering in the back of his mind slowly went away until he had gotten used to it.

it became natural for him to lie.

to everyone and to himself

people always told him that it must be nice having a face like his, but every time he looked in the mirror, he felt nothing but hatred for the person staring back at him.

at school, he did nothing but play the charming guy that everyone saw him as. he did things that would please the crowd and he felt good when they responded the way he wanted. he overlooked things that he once thought was wrong just to be in good graces with the others.

when donghyuck had his little altercation with jeno, jaemin never felt more jealous in his life. donghyuck chose to be himself, he broke free of the mold that everyone fit him in. he had the courage that jaemin doesn’t

if someone told him to take off his persona, he wouldn’t know what to do. he’s lived this way for so long that he had forgotten who he really was. what he really wanted in life. what truly made him happy.

was he even happy? jaemin didn’t know.

which is why he didn’t know what to do when he overheard ella’s conversation with one of her other friends.

“do we really have to invite y/n too? i don’t want her do come with us to hoco. she’s such a party pooper.”

“i don’t want to either, but i’m only keeping her around because she’s the reason why i’m with jaemin in the first place.”

“isn’t weird that the two of them have been close friends for a while and she hasn’t had any feeling for him?”

“she did,” he hears ella admit. “until i told her that i liked jaemin and then she totally dropped him like that for me.”

“she’s kind of annoying though, always hanging around the two of you. she’s kinda clingy too, no one even likes her in our group.”

“just deal with her for now and we can ice her out later.”

FAKE BITCHES

anyways, jaemin didn’t know what to do so he walked away and pretended that he didn’t hear the conversation. but there's only so much he can just ignore, and this is one of them.

the familiar guilt comes crawling up every time he sees you, smiling with the people that called themselves your “friends”.

it doesn’t take long for jaemin to come to the realization that he’s surrounded by liars. and enough is enough.

well, he still has an image to maintain.

so he chose to break up with ella and actually tell the truth for once, but only to her. to be honest, the truth was kinda forced to come out by itself.

“what do you mean that you’re not going?” he hears ella’s frantic voice and the music playing in the background. maybe it wasn’t a good idea to do the breaking up part the night of homecoming.

good work, jaemin.

“i don’t think that this is going to work between us. i’m sorry”

was he really?

“but you said that you loved me!”

that was just a lie. he thought to himself. “i just don’t feel the same anymore, ella, please understand.” i never did.

“it’s because of her isn’t it? you’ve been in love with y/n this whole time haven’t you?” and jaemin’s blood runs cold.

the music was gone, so ella must have gone to a more quieter, private place.

“i’m not blind jaemin. the way you looked at her, the way you always find yourself next to her; i saw it all,” ella begins “i knew ever since you said yes to me.”

“then why didn’t you say anything? you just let me lie to you like that?”

“lying is the best solution, jaemin, you should know that the best.”

lying is bad kids, don’t do - admin minnie

jaemin could already feel the backlash he was going to receive. he spent the entire hoco night at home preparing himself for the shit that was going to go down the next day at school.

except nothing happened to him.

you had received the hatred, the eyeing, the whispers. you were the one that was iced out, outcasted, not jaemin.

jaemin was too afraid for the same thing happening to him, so he turned his head the other way.

“i just don’t understand why everyone is giving y/n the silent treatment. why are they mad at her? what did she do?” jaemin shrugs at jeno’s angry rant.

jeno had the right to be mad, you were dragged in to be jaemin’s scapegoat.

“and why did you break up with ella anyways? i thought everything was going good?”

“i was bored.”

it was pure irony and the biggest bitch slap in jaemin’s face that you had befriended lee donghyuck, the one person that he envied so wholeheartedly.

jaemin couldn’t do anything, no, he didn’t want to do anything he didn’t want to step out of the little safety persona that he created for himself. he didn’t want to lose all the people that surrounded him. he doesn’t want to be alone.

he hates being alone.

he’ll much rather take on the role of the fuckboy that he hates so much if that meant that people would still stick around him.

which brings him to his current dilemma

“i don’t see why you don’t just put up the image and just go with ella to hoco,” art-hoe!renjun says as the two of them walk to english “the two of you are both going to be king and queen anyways, just go.”

“maybe,” jaemin says, eliciting in a pointed glare from renjun

“you can’t just ditch prom just because of her, this the last year and are you really going to go down as the prom king that didn’t show up to prom?”

“i won’t win for sure, so there's really no point in me going,” jaemin replies

renjun rolls his eyes, and he taps a random passing student on the shoulder, “who do you think is going to win prom royalty this year?” he asks the stranger.

without missing a beat, the student replies, “jaemin and ella, why?”

and renjun’s face is the exact embodiment of i-told-you-so

instead of that motivating jaemin to actually go, it actually made him WANT to skip out on the event even more

“y/n ask to me to ask you if you gave ella all of the decorations for prom or something like that,” jeno tells him at lunch, causing jaemin’s eyes to drift over to you and haechan.

he wonders what the two of you are talking about that has you smiling that hard. he wonders what haechan has that he doesn't.

maybe its his natural-born charisma? not the artificial type that jaemin has mastered the act of.

“earth to jaemin,” jeno waves a hand in front of his friend’s face.

“sorry, yeah, i’m turning it in after school,” he replies, eyes lingering on you for one more second before focusing on the food on his tray, “besides, she could have asked me directly.”

“she had dinner at my house last night,” jeno replies, “what’s got your panties in a twist anyway?”

“not all of us is about to confess our feelings to our puppy crush, lover boy,” renjun pipes in.

jeno’s ears turn a tinge of pink, but jaemin wasn't focused on that.

and jeno might be a bit slow academically, but jaemin is his best buddy, his platonic soulmate.something was up.

“you have three seconds to spill before i will actually expose where you were hoco sophomore year to y/n” jeno threatens

“tell her, it’s not going to make a difference anyways,” jaemin pokes at his food “she has no interest in me what’s so over. i’m just another one of those fuckboys in her eyes.”

jeno and renjun share a look, before renjun decides to break the news to jaemin

“you haven’t been talking to her lately right?” renjun starts and jaemin nods

“the last time we talk was two weeks ago,” jaemin replies “she doesn’t have any other reason to interact with me like she does with jeno”

“before we continue with this conversation, can the green-eyed monster please leave the room?” renjun takes a small jab at jaemin.

“i’m not jealous,” jaemin looks up with an irked glare at renjun.

“then did you really need to mention jeno?” renjun returns the look with an annoyed expression of his own

jaemin scoffs, “you don’t understand, so don’t say anything,”

“tell me what i don’t understand then? because right now i have feeling the only reason you’re so pent up and annoyed is that you’re jealous, jaemin.”

“shut up,” jaemin snaps. “i’m not jealous.”

smiley and easy-going jaemin is gone out the door. everything coming out of renjun’s mouth is making him angrier and angrier and jaemin didn’t even know why.

renjun was speaking the truth. jaemin was jealous, but was he going to admit that?

nope

“it’s okay to be jealous,” jeno says, meaning to ease the slowly growing tension, but jeno’s attempts to mediate the conversation made jaemin even madder.

“can the two get the fuck off my case and leave me alone? i’m not jealous so stop acting like you know how i feel,” jaemin clenches his jaw “it’s really fucking annoying.”

“oh really now?” renjun fires back “it’s really fucking annoying how you expect the two of us to have your back, which we always do, and be fully okay with you going around town acting like a man whore and then being prissy about how the girl you’re interested in this time isn’t interested in you. this isn’t some type of cliche teen romance movie jaemin, grow a pair and deal with it.”

“so you think i’m a man whore too?” jaemin says sarcastically, rolling his eyes, “nice to know that my best friends think so highly of me.”

“jaemin, you know he doesn’t mean it like that,” jeno says.

“then what? it seems to me that you guys have been having a blast talking behind my back and lying about it to my face.”

“when did we say that?” jeno’s eyebrows furrow.

“you don’t need to say it for me to know,” jaemin spits “it’s written all over your faces.”

“i’m done,” renjun stands up, “when you’re ready to grow the fuck up and stop being a fucking dick bag, then find me.”

jaemin doesn’t even bother watching renjun leaving the table, anger was still consuming him. was it anger or frustration?

there was scream lodged in his throat that he wanted to release to the world. a pained scream of helplessness.

“hey jaemin,” jeno has a hard look on his face. he too stands up and leaves with some hard-hitting words, “learn to get over that ridiculously big ego of yours. not everything is about you.”

and jaemin is left at the lunch table

alone

fuck, he thinks to himself. fuck everything.

yeah, no way in hell was jaemin going to prom. no fucking way.

“looks like there’s trouble in paradise,” haechan gestures with his head to the table, near the center.

jaemin’s table, except, it’s literally only jaemin sitting there.

out of the corner of your eyes, you could see and angry renjun followed by an equally ticked of jeno stalking off.

“looks like the pretty boy is left by himself,” haechan remarks. “i wonder what happened?

“why are you saying that like you know what just went down?” you squint your eyes at the boy, who merely shrugs.

“spill”

“give me fifty bucks.”

“fuck off”

not long after, you hear a loud slam. jaemin stands up, his eyes quickly met yours and he looked away, going with haste out the cafeteria’s doors.

and you’re left wondering what the fuck went down at the norenmin table.

“okay, i’m done with all the fucking vague answers,” you stare down haechan, trying to intimidate an answer out of the stoner.

“why the fuck did jaemin not go to homecoming sophomore year and do not give me a smartass answer because i will without a doubt flush your weed stash down the drain and break your juul pens to bits. now, spill.”

damn, y/n going in for the kill

haechan hesitates before a sigh leaves his lips, “i don’t pride myself on much other than my ridiculously good looks and my ability to bargain good weed deals, but long long before i became so awesome-”

“cut to the chase”

“chill, bitch, i was getting there. anyways, i was basically jaemin’s confide,” haechan admits. “that’s why he’s so awkward around me, i basically know all of his personal secrets and all that jazz.”

and you’re shocked bc haechan is really reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllly petty with both of the ts bolded, and he has not once let any private info slip about jaemin, like the kind of deep shit, you’d write in your diaries.

not once sober or faded or drunk. the loud ass himself kept his lips seals which is an incredible feat already.

“don’t look at me like that, i’m a dick, but i’m not that big of dick,” haechan mutters “we all have things we don’t want the world to know “

“okay i won’t question that, but why didn’t he just go? i mean it’s just a school dance, right? its not that big of deal,” you don’t understand the extreme mystery or drama around jaemin’s non-appearance.

haechan shakes his head, “jaemin isn’t a simple as people make him out as, sure he fucks around with girls a lot, but like me, he wasn’t always like that.”

you nod in understanding, agreeing with the point haechan made

jaemin for sure wasn’t the same person that you knew right now. he was always a sweet boy with sweet words, but before high school, he never went around messing around with other girls

“the only choice that jaemin ever made his sophomore year that was his actual choice for his own self was to not go to homecoming, for a good reason too”

“can you be a little bit more detailed?” you urged again, curiosity flowing through you.

“he didn't go because for once he didn't want to be associated with that crowd, he didn't want to be surrounded by people who hardly gave a damn how he felt, only who he was”

haechan’s words reside in you for the longest time and you finally got a glimpse of what your normally stoned friend meant through an accidental eavesdrop of a conversation

“im not going ella, it's final,” jaemin’s voice has no trace of the playful, flirty tone it usually held. he was stern and hard with his words.

“are you really going to embarrass me again, jae?” ella sounded desperate “its just one dance. all you have to do is stand by my side and smile until we get those stupid crowns and take yearbook pictures”

“if you think they’re stupid crowns then why are you making me go?” jaemin argues back.

“you should be glad that i even helped you with your campaign. why else do you think everyone is voting for you?”

and jaemin’s voice goes to a lower, warning tone, “i’ve never ask to be nominated for royalty much less fucking prom king. i don't care what you or anyone has to say, i’m not fucking going to prom.”

your eyes meet jaemin’s as he walks past the aisle you were standing at (totally not peeping into his convo)

he has an emotionless face on and doesn't say anything as he leaves ella quickly follows but stops when she sees you.

“forget everything you heard, he’s going to prom!”

jokes on you ella, bc hes not going anywhere

guess who joined the i’m-ditching-school-because-i’m-an-emotional-wreck club!!

the next three days were hectic at school, everyone was excited for the big dance on saturday. there were last-minute promposals and girls were showing off their sparkly, expensive dresses to each other.

however, the one person that was missing and had you looking for all week was, na jaemin.

where the fuck was he now?

“have you seen jaemin? i haven't seen him at school lately,” you asked jeno, who was sitting in the library diligently waiting for his tutor/crush to arrive.

the number of times you received an “idk” from one of jaemin’s other friends was ridiculous and it was like they didn’t even care that he skipped school for three days or where he was.

jaemin might be a bit on the wild side, but he’s not the type to completely ditch school for three whole days straight. that was haechan’s job.

the only people you could rely on was jeno and renjun, but the latter was more agitated at jaemin than jeno was, so you figured that the athlete was the safer option.

“i have an idea of where he is, but i have a feeling he doesn't want to see anyone, especially today,” jeno replies. news of the norenmin argument traveled quickly around the school along with the fact that jaemin had rejected ella’s prom request. there were some rumors that were being spread about the male and they weren’t all that nice.

you knew deep inside that the two of them weren’t actually mad at jaemin, they (especially jeno) was just frustrated.

“can you slide the address though?” you asked, sliding up next to him

“why would i do that?”

“because you owe me a solid”

truthfully, you didn’t know what you were going to do with jaemin’s address and it’s been weighing you down the whole day.

“you going to prom?” haechan slides into the seat next to you. for once, there were no sunglasses covering his eyes.

you shook your head,” i don’t have anyone to go with.”

“you should have just asked mark to go with you,” haechan pointed out to which you gagged loudly.

“as if i would bring an actual twelve-year-old boy to prom, he’ll probably say let’s get it every two seconds and then my hand might just actually slip and punch his face or dunk his head into the disgusting kool-aid punch..”

“damn, and i thought i hated him.”

you rolled your eyes, “what about you? did you plan to confess to mina yet?”

“i was thinking about going old school and do one of those typical high school romeo and juliet scenes,” haechan said smugly. “might throw a shoe or two if i have to.”

you shake your head in disbelief, “be civil at least.”

“but i also can’t leave my main bitch alone for prom night so why don’t go to prom or hang out with the biggest thot in town?” haechan suggested.

“haechan, ten graduated high school like 3 years ago. i doubt he wants to spend his free time on a saturday night at a high school dance with me.”

facepalm.

“i’m not talking about that ultimate thot.”

“jungwoo is also in college.”

another fat facepalm.

“honestly, i thought you had at least ONE functioning brain cell,” haechan groaned “i’m talking about na jaemin.”

“what do you want me to do with him? the two of us aren’t exactly friends,” you mumble.

“exactly, use this time to spend some time with him or something. get closer or get laid, i don’t care, just don’t be a loner tomorrow,” haechan replies. “i can’t be friends with a lameo.”

“he hasn’t shown up for school in like three days and tomorrow is prom night,” you argue “besides, i don’t know where he’s even at.”

“that’s the fattest lie i have ever heard leave your mouth and you told mr. moon that his moon tie looked good on him. i know for a fact that you have his address saved on your phone, which is kinda creepy now that i think about it, but that’s beside the point.”

“why do you care so much? i thought you hated him,” you eyed haechan weirdly.

“because that moron needs someone to help him out and whose more suited for the job herself than the girl that was hopelessly in love with him all sophomore year.”

you smack his arm,”i should have never trusted you with my diary. besides, i don’t like him like that anymore.”

“then why do you worry about him so much?” haechan pointed out. ‘why did you go to jeno for jaemin’s whereabouts if you supposedly didn’t like him anymore.”

“caring about someone is different from liking them,” you chided him “you should know best since it took you months to realize that you were in love with mina.”

“stfu i’m supposed to be the wise teacher and you’re the young grasshopper.” haechan shushed you with a finger which you swatted away.

“i’m not joking around though, just go see what’s up,” haechan nudged you. “trust me, it’s worth it.”

“wow did love turn the hardest bitch in town, soft?”

“you know, i might actually just push you off stoner’s cliff one day when you’re not looking,” haechan narrowed his eyes at you.

“lol, as if i haven’t noticed that you haven’t been getting high since mina left your pathetic ass,” you pointed out.

and haechan h i s s e s.

but your stoner friend did have a point and you decide to listen to his advice for the first time in your life.

letting out a nervous breath, you rang the doorbell, a plastic bag full of junk food in your other hand. it was currently 8 pm and prom had already started. jaemin’s car was parked in the driveway, proving that he really didn’t go to prom.

“what are you doing here?” were the first words out of jaemin’s mouth when he saw you.

you raised the bag full of snacks, “do you wanna have that hang out now?”

there's a nervous feeling in your stomach, bc you don’t know if jaemin was going to reject you or not. he doesn’t have his usual cassanova, playful smile on. his face is completely neutral.

“don’t you have better things to do? like, go to prom?”

you awkwardly laugh, “about that, i’m not going.”

“why?”

“why aren’t you going?” you countered.

fair enough, jaemin relents and moves aside to let you in. there’s some lo-fi music playing in the background and a couple of books and paper strewn about the living room floor.

“my parents are on a business trip, so it’s just me,” jaemin informs you.

“cool,” you internally smack yourself bc jaemin didn’t really seem happy with ur sudden appearance. “were you just doing ur homework?”

“yeah, i have nothing else to do,” he says, cleaning up the area for u to sit. you sit down carefully and placed the bag of snacks at the base of your feet.

“did you want anything to drink?” jaemin moved to go into the kitchen. you shook your head but jaemin still pulled out two water bottles from the fridge. (save the turtles)

you look around the house, taking in the family portraits and the minimal home decor. you’ve only been to jaemin’s house a handful of times as a kid, and a lot has changed in those past few years, but some things stayed the same. on the fireplace mantle, there was a framed picture of norenminhyuck smiling with the brightest grins.

“jeno gave me crap for weeks for not taking down that picture of us four,” jaemin followed your gaze as places the two water bottles on the glass coffee table.

“why didn’t you take it down, then?” you curiously ask

taking a seat on the couch, jaemin shrugged, “sentimental value?”

and the two left it at that.

cue the awkward silence.....

“jaemin?”

he looks at you with a questioning glance

“why exactly did you and ella break up?”

jaemin lets out a sigh. he’s been anticipating the question but not now and definitely not your sudden appearance.

“there's no point in making excuse to you,” jaemin pauses before continuing “i never really liked her in the first place.”

and you look over in shock? bc the two of them were literally the couple of the year, a model example of a high school relationship.

“then why?”

“why did i say yes?” jaemin’s gaze was focused on you, leaving you unnerved. there was no sign of the cheeky jaemin, he looked completely serious. something no one really saw that often. “because thats what you wanted me to say.”

????????? - y/n’s mind

“jeno had told me that ella had urged you to introduce me to her and had confessed to you that she liked me. he told me you felt tasked with fulfilling her wish and took it upon your self to set the two of us up. i’m not stupid, y/n. i could tell by the way you planned double-dates with jeno and ella and i,” jaemin explained. there was slight embarassment on your side, sophomore you was not the best matchmaker. “but i only showed up for you. i could care less that ella was there, the only person that i wanted to see and impress was you.”

“i-“

“and i knew that you liked me too. i was expecting for you to confess to me when you told me to meet you behind the gym, but you let ella take the chance.”

“because she really liked you a lot, jaemin, and she was a close friend of mine”

“so you were willing to give up your happiness for someone who was using you to get to me?” jaemin asked bluntly.

you looked down at your fingers, feeling somewhat ashamed, “i was only worried about fitting in with the crowd at that time. i wanted people to like me.” you confessed. “after the whole fiasco, i learned to live for myself rather than for others, albeit with a little help from haechan.”

“you see, i wish i could be as brave as you to do that.” jaemin meekly smiles at you “because i’m still people-pleasing.”

“i only said yes to ella to make you happy but then everyone was congratulating me and there were more and more people by my side. i thought jeno, renjun, and donghyuck were enough to last me through high school, but the attention got to my head. i knew that no matter how much i hated ella, i couldn’t break up with because i thrive off the crowd she brought me. i thought that if i lie enough, i could make myself gain feelings for her. she was a kind and outgoing person, so i didn't think it would be that hard, except it never did happen,” jaemin sucked in his breath “i overheard a conversation by accident to one of her other friends and it was about you, about how they just used to you to get to me even though the knew you liked me. i knew that then i was surrounded by so many liars all with the same goal of getting in good with everyone.”

he continued on “the reason why i didn't want to go to hoco was bc i felt guilty. i didn't want to be another person that lived for the crowd and i knew that i would've sealed my future if i did go and get crowned king with ella. for once, i didn't want to be a liar. i just wanted to be myself.”

and then he bitterly chuckled to himself, “which is ironic since the next day i chased after the crowd again. i let you take the blame for me just because i was afraid of being outcasted even though it was my fault you had to suffer the consequences of my lie.”

“jaemin-“

“and then i kept pretending to be that stupid fuckboy that everyone painted me as just to be in the it-crowd or whatever. i don’t have anything special like how renjun has art and jeno has his sports, even haechan had something special like choir back in those days. i had nothing, i wasn’t known for anything and i’m still not known for anything other than being a fuckboy. i’m just na jaemin at the end of the day, talented in messing around with girls.”

“do you feel happy?” you carefully asked after jaemin finished his rant.

jaemin’s barely smiling at this point, “what do you think?”

“you know, i was never really mad about you about the whole ella situation,” you scooted closer to him on the couch. “at first, i blamed you because that was the easier option, pin the blame on someone else. until a certain someone told me to fuck what they say and live my own way.”

“haechan?”

you nodded, “he was the first person that i didn’t pretend or try to cater myself to fit his needs. we’re alike in that department, jaemin, we both want to be liked. i’m not going to lie, the first few months of being outcasted was hard on me. sometimes, i still get sad when i think about the day where everyone just abandoned me.”

“i’m sorry.”

“there’s no need to be sorry, jaemin because i can hardly care about it that much anymore. do you know why?”

jaemin shook his head ‘no’

“because i learned that being by myself isn’t that bad. we’re all scared of being lonely, it’s human nature, but our fears often cause us to forget that we still have ourselves.” you placed a hand on his shoulder “once you learn to befriend yourself, no one’s opinion will matter more than your own. learn to cater to yourself, learn to live for yourself. don’t just be you, live as you.”

“easier said than done,” the remark left jaemin’s lips bitterly, causing you to slightly frown. “it’s hard to learn to be friends with myself when i’m the person i hate the most. i hate the person who looks back at me in the mirror. i hate just hate what i’ve let myself become.”

“it’s never too late to change,” you say.

jaemin shook his head, he blinked quickly to clear his now glassy eyes, “it’s to the point where i don’t even know i am anymore.”

“you’re na jaemin,” you say with a little more force this time. you didn’t like the defeated tone that jaemin was talking in, this wasn’t the confident and every positive boy that you grew up with. this wasn’t the boy that stole your heart in the third grade and kept it till sophomore year. “the boy that never hesitates to help someone else and can light up the room with just one smile.”

“you don’t have to pity me, it was a grave i dug for myself.”

letting out a harsh sigh, you moved to take jaemin’s face into your hands, staring deep into his doe-eyed brown ones, which widened in response to your sudden action.

big moves, y/n, big moves

“i know it may be hard to see, but jaemin you’re way more than what they think of you. you can always change as long as you have the will to do so,” you wipe away a stray tear that was falling onto his cheek. jaemin didn’t even notice that he was crying. “it’s a difficult and long process, but it’ll be worth it in the end. trust me.”

“what if no one wants to be around me anymore? what if i end up alone? “ doubt filled his tone, and your eyes soften at the vulnerability of the boy. he was scared, lost, and confused.

“i’ll be with you. anywhere you’re at, i’ll be there by your side even if no one else will. you’re a precious person, you don’t deserve any less,” you smiled. “i won’t let you be alone.”

maybe jaemin was just being emotional. maybe it was the contained feelings that he held for you that was being released. maybe it was the way you looked at him with so much concern and the way you delicately held his face.

whatever motivated him to do what he was going to do next, jaemin could hardly care less.

without any hesitation, jaemin leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips.

right now, jaemin didn’t feel lost or alone. you found him and he hoped that you’ll stay.

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soulwillower · 4 years

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sitting out the weekend • eddie kaspbrak

eddie kaspbrak x reader

requested: I’m so sorry I’m keeping you busy with request after request but you’re just such a good and quick writer 😩 Can you write a Eddie imagine it can be about anything, I feel like he’s not appreciated enough 🤧 Tyyyy

warnings: swearing, fluff, some underage drinking (but only bill), unedited shitty writing babey😚🤘🏼

i literally based this off something that happened to me junior year bc i feel like eddie would def do this lol love my boY

[losers + reader are 17ish in this]

(title from pleaser by wallows)

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"thanks for giving me a ride, eddie." you say as you buckle the passenger seat to eddie's car where you sit in derry high's parking lot. your football team had just won...or lost, you honestly didn't pay any attention to the actual game besides cheering for mike and ben. but eddie had promised you and bill a ride home after the game since you guys didn’t want to go out with the others tonight. you and eddie had stayed sober tonight, but bill had gotten considerably drunk before walking to the game and you'd lost him to the crowd of students on the way to eddie's car after the game so the two of you are sitting patiently for the dumbass to find his way to where you’re parked.

you poke the fanny pack that eddie has hanging from his rearview mirror before looking at his face. he looks back at you, starting his car. "i like this, did bev do it?" you ask, gesturing to the war paint in derry's school colors on his cheeks, poking him a bit. he laughs, "of course she did. you two are the only ones i'll ever let touch my face." he says, momentarily smiling before seeming to notice what he'd said. he blushes hard but you don't really notice that much, too lost in his honey eyes. "hey, you can touch my face too - anytime." you say as your stomach goes in swirls when he looks at you. he's so fucking cute.

he laughs nervously, a goofy grin on his face - the same grin that's been making you blush since you first met him.

"hey, y/n, i wanna t-" eddie starts softly, giving you a look that makes you blush, but he's interrupted by the backseat door opening. bill dives into the back head first, having been pushed by the others on their way to dairy queen. eddie looks at you with a tight-lipped smile, as if trying to say 'sorry' even though he doesn't have to apologize, especially not for being a good friend. you just smile back, trying not to wonder what he was going to say.

"o-oh, god. s-sorry to interrupt..." bill slurs, giving you a smile. you resist the urge to roll your eyes. "how you feeling, big bill?" eddie asks, handing him a water bottle. bill snorts, "oh, i'm g-great - just... p-pretend like 'm not even here. c-carry on." bill mumbles awkwardly, pulling his sunglasses onto his face.

you gulp back an awkward laugh as eddie leans forward to turn up the music. it was kind of obvious, how you and eddie feel about each other, but you'd yet to say anything to each other about it. you're not sure why, but you did know that you were very nervous about it, and eddie seemed like it too. it's pretty quiet after bill's comment as you drive away towards your houses. you pull your phone out, shooting a text to stan. stan oh my god bill's making this so awkward, kill me

you tuck your phone into your pocket as eddie turns onto your street. you watch him as he stares at the road, his jawline soft and pronounced, the light of the streetlamp lighting up his tan skin as he drives.

"so what are you up to tomorrow?" you asks meekly, wondering if there's a way you can ask him out without making him or bill feel awkward. probably not. eddie shrugs, "i don't really know. b-besides going to the quarry with everyone tomorrow, i think i’m just going to end up sitting out the weekend." he says. you nod, suddenly feeling too nervous and backing out - what if he doesn’t like you like that and he’s just being nice? you swallow dryly, fighting your chest as it pangs with anxiety, "oh yeah, me too. nothing planned at all."

it’s quiet in the car for a moment, until "oh, my g-god!" bill groans, "are you guys k-kidding?"

"shut up, bill!" "can it!" both you and eddie spit at the same time, still avoiding eye contact with each other. bill scoffs, "this is r-ridiculous."

it's quiet again after that.

you hear bill lightly mumbling to himself in the backseat as he plays with his phone and you turn your head to watch eddie, tired of watching the outside world go by. eddie looks at you, "what?" he asks with a small grin.

his eyes are so bright, framed with beautiful lashes that you'd kill for. god, he gave you butterflies. his shirt was more unbuttoned than usual, and you wondered if richie had anything to do with that. you liked it, though. you always liked him. you shake your head, "nothing. thanks for taking me home, though." you say softly, flashing him a grin that you know has a blush. he shrugs, "of course, y/n/n. it's no problem."

he pulls up outside your house and you feel yourself deflate slightly, unblocking your seatbelt and gathering yourself. you had hoped tonight would be the night that you and eddie talked about whatever was going on between you two, but perhaps not. you'd wait for him forever, though. you know you would.

"um, i guess i'll see you tomorrow or something..." you say, looking down. bill perks up in the backseat, staring at eddie with wide eyes. "wh-why didn't you take m-me home first, dude?" bill asks. eddie blushes. "uh, y/n was closer to the school." eddie says while looking a tiny bit zoned out, "so, um... yeah, i'll see you soon, y/n." he says. you smile, shutting the door as you hear bill yell, "dude what are you d-doing, w-"

and the rest of his voice is cut off as you walk from the car and up to your room. when you're finally settled in, you take off your clothes and put on sweats and a t-shirt, washing your face and brushing your teeth. you really thought something was going to happen with you and eddie tonight. but you know you were too nervous to make a move so you can't blame eddie either.

your phone buzzes and you pick it up, assuming it's stan responding to your earlier text. but as you look at your phone, your stomach drops. it was from eddie: i'm coming back. i have to tell you something.

you bite your lip, stomach rumbling with nerves, unsure what he's about to do. you think you know, but you dont want to get your hopes up so you reply with a quick 'okay' and frantically hop around your room, putting on deodorant and bushing your hair. you groan when you look in the mirror but decide it'll do. you didn't think eddie would mind.

you check your phone to see eddie again: i'm here

swallowing and feeling like your heart is going to jump out of your throat, you don't even put on shoes. instead, you jump down your stairs, unlocking your front door without a word of explanation to your family as you jog out of your house and down your driveway. your eyes fall on the familiar blue car out front and the figure leaning against it. "eddie." you call softly. it's very dark out, but he's back lit by a street lamp and he's glowing, almost like an angel. your stomach is swimming with nerves.

"y/n." eddie says, eyes wide as he looks at you. he seems just as nervous as you feel but as you finish your walk down the driveway towards him, he stands up from where he was leaning. he's still got the face paint on his face, and you feel insecure because he looks perfect, just like always. his hair is slightly wavy and you itch to run your hands through it. "what are you doing back here?" you ask shyly as you stand in front of him, rocking on your heels.

he just stares at you with unblinking eyes, biting his lip. you wait for him; you know how nervous he gets and you'd be willing to wait forever to hear him say those words.

"okay... i like you so much, y/n." he says sincerely, scratching his neck with one hand. a blush blooms on his freckled cheeks and you can't help but grin. "i-i like you too, eddie." you say, your voice coming out a lot quieter and shakier than you'd intended. he definitely heard it though, because his head shoots up and a beautiful grin covers his face. "yeah?" he asks, looking into your soul. you laugh quietly as you slowly close the gap between the two of you, looking up into his eyes. "yeah." you respond softly. his eyes trail to your lips and he quickly says "well that's a relief."

you nod, licking your lips on instinct, "yeah, no kidding." you laugh nervously and he grins again. "hey, y/n?" he whispers, and you lean towards him closer so your noses are almost touching. "yes?" you ask patiently, in case this is all too fast for him. "i want to kiss you." he says, and your throat dries up and your stomach almost explodes with butterflies as you nod because words are just completely failing you right now. his hand lands on your cheek and shoulder as he pulls you closer to him, pressing a soft kiss on your lips.

you're so nervous that you almost forget you can touch him, but you snap out of it and quickly press back, putting your hands on his shoulders to keep your balance. you hope he doesn't feel your hands shaking.

but he pulls back, a sheepish grin on his face, "will you go out with me?" he asks, still nervous even after you kissed and admitted your feelings. you grin, your stomach doing consecutive somersaults as you nod your head, "yes. of course, eddie." you say, kissing his cheek and continuing, "wow, i've liked you for so long - and i'm sorry i look like this, i was about to go to bed..." you mumble, looking down, suddenly shy. "wh-wait, what? you...you look amazing." he sounds completely shocked. you smile at the ground at his compliment, feeling elated. he softly cups your face, pulling you up to look at him. he just smiles and you smile back as you lean in to kiss him again quickly.

"i mean it." he says softly and you're both grinning at each other shyly.

eddie stays for almost another hour, the two of you sitting in your lawn. eddie rambles to you about grass allergies and then goes off on a digression about pollination, and you ask him all about it. he holds your hand after a few moments and you watch him intently as you listen, thinking you couldn't get tired of him.

#eddie kaspbrak #eddie kaspbrak x reader #bill denbrough #beverly marsh #richie tozier #mike hanlon #ben hanscom #the losers club #losers x reader #losers club x reader #my writing #eddie is the loml

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survivormetaverse · 3 years

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Episode 1 - "I know the game will pick up eventually" ~Shaad

chile lemme not get thrown out for making all these stan twitter bitch references I'M LICHERALLY HARMLESS I DON'T MEAN MOST OF WHAT I SAY DKJFHASJKLDG

ngl tho i'm kinda shitting myself over these challenges bc i don't wanna get tossed on the first round JKAHFSJKDGHJ my ant eye et tea is through the ROOF

oh girl, first impressions? ngl, the gays and girls here seem quite lovely, hopefully they won't have to carry me the entire time LMAO

Okay like the only person I like/talked to is Jodi but she seems like a smart cookie so ima sleep with one eye open. But idk I'm ready to put on my fake ass smile and my fake ass kind words and get through this part. It's interesting with 6 people per tribe like if we lose I don't have that solid "core" yet but theres a chance that it would be me, jodi, amy because we were the first three on and active so idk. the immunity challenge is cool, the hunt challenge is cool too. im not good at timed puzzles, so I don't think I'm gonna go for it but a part of me feels like everyone across the tribes isnt gonna do it becsuse theyre scared so thats a good opportunity to sneak in and play with less people against me? idk idk idk ahhh

🎶Oh my god we're back again🎶 Hey peeps!! :DDD Here I am againnnn, how fun! Tbh I forgot this was today lowkey and Dylan reminded me and I was like oop 😳 also I am so sorry to everyone that I cannot help but sprinkle the fact that we are now dating in all of my first convos bc IM VERY GAY apologies✨ for how often I'm mentioning it I mean 😂 My tribemates seems so cool, Jennifer and Babs are newbies but seem up to the challenge, Jay A and Colin already giving off immaculate vibes✨ Me and Dyl are hosting Ingary in a month and I do have like work and everything so I don't know exaclty how active I'll be in this game/ how far I'll make it but we'll see won't we!!

not me being a leader of whateva

it's the lack of reading comprehension for me (that was shade directed towards myself)

In the fools tribe !!! Moth is in my tribe which is good because we have played together before. The immunity challenge is divide and conquer! So I believe I will be doing the endurance one. I think I’ll be okay... and the hunt announcement is a good twist !!! I’m not sure if I’ll participate in the first one.. but I’ll probably change my mind. ANYWAYS, I’m ready to kick some ass

Hey guys it's me Brayden and I am so here. I'm so excited to be playing again and stuff and I have already predicted the future that I'll be the winner. Anyways I was at an award ceremony for like the first 3 hours of the game which is kind of scary bc I feel like I missed alot but I'm trying to talk to people and stuff and see what's going on. I've briefly talked to Jodi, Amy, and Ginnifer (who is so hard to talk to btw I like send her messages trying to start a real conversation and she will just respond being like same or something). Anyways the other 2 people on my tribe are offline rn so ig I missed my chance to talk to them tonight so I'll do that tomorrow. Anyways I signed up to do counting and I'm so excited bc I literally KILLED the counting challenge on Kyoshi Islands so I'm so excited to hopefully kill it again. I also decided to play the hunt challenge even though I only have 3 chances bc I'm hoping alot of people will be scared to use one of their three chances to play in the first round and I can have a better chance of winning it. But I think I'm bad at puzzles. I didn't think it through that hard I think I got excited to play a challenge but whatever I'll probably win the advantage then in a few weeks win the whole game anyways see u later.

SO its the morning after the premiere!! Everyone's settled in!! and I kinda don't know how to feel?? Overall the premiere was kinda quiet, nothing happened worth noting tbh. Everyone on the tribe showed up, so thats good, but i think we're all just feeling each other out at the moment as for the people on my tribe! everyone seems chill but also i can't put my finger on it but SOMEHOW this tribe radiates chaotic energy. I don't know HOW or WHY but I just know it DOES. The way we're interacting in the tribe chat it seems like there's a very wide range of personalities and vibes. They're either gonna complement each other or clash, and I guess we're just gonna have to wait to find out which one!!! here are my quick night 1 first impressions that no one asked for :) Anastasia - she showed up kinda late bc she had life happening, understandable. BUT she kinda just jumped right in and started vibing with everyone!! so I think she's gonna be a strong social player. I talked to her and she seems really funny, I think I might really get close with her if I'm able to talk to her more Babs - IF our tribe does end up being chaotic, it's going to be because of Babs. They're definitely the most talkative and prominent person on the tribe, but I think they might come off as messy to others. they're really funny though!! so again I can see myself wanting to work with them if I can get to know them more. They are the biggest question mark on the tribe for me currently Elle - AH. I LOVE THEM ALREADY. Within minutes of us talking they mentioned Dylan and then I found out that they're DATING and I was SCREECHING. cutest shit i've ever heard. I'm so excited to meet and play with them. Dylan is one of my fave people in the org community so ofc I wanna get to know Elle and connect with them as well!! Jay - I think Jay seems like just a very genuine open person?? Like we talked for quite a while yesterday just about games and he was asking me questions about my experience with them and all that. idk if it's because he sees me as a threat or if its because he just actually wanted to get to know me. He lowkey gives me heterosexual vibes and idk if thats true or not but idk how to bring it up. but I def wanna keep talking to him and getting to know him!! I think he might be someone I can form a genuine friendship with Jennifer - kinda have no opinion so far. I think shes the quietest on the tribe. at least for me I didn't get the chance to hear from her much. kinda gives catfish vibes. kinda gives early boot vibes. idk. we'll see what happens!

Not too much yet tbh. Just finding my footing. People are loving my energy so hopefully they’ll keep me around

So i realized Amy is runner up from the season before mine in another org and so we connected over that... of course we are not going to tell anyone else but we did have that going for us to get started. brayden is only 16 but he told me he loves magic and wanted to learn more about it so i told him id teach him some stuff! dennis and i called and connected well BUT hes kinda playing SUPER hard and wanting to throw challenges already to vote people out.. this has never worked out for anybody!! josh is cool, he works at a grocery store so he's gonna kill the "b" challenge. ginnifer has been the most MIA but i have faith that we'll work together well for the popularity contest. yall know i cant play the reverse flirt game i so badly want to coin, but i do have romance tea for yall tomorrow. stay tuned........

Jay and I talked last night so i guess we're best friends. We decided to make an alliance and try to get Elle in it. But everyone has been pretty inactive besides Jay and Collin. I've only slightly talked to Jessica this whole game and Babs hasn't even said one thing to me and I texted them hi. And apperently Babs has left Jay on opened too so they might just suck at talking right now. Hopefully Babs will talk to me they seem so funny and cool D:

I won endurance 👑!!!! Hopefully the fools tribe wins this!!!! I played against Jennifer and Dennis. I could see myself playing with Dennis down the line if we merge. I haven’t talked to anyone but Moth. So I messaged my whole tribe Introducing myself. Hopefully things work out for me!

Thoughts after the first 24hrs: https://youtu.be/I62bDSzgf68

You hear something ??? Same. Why is my tribe so quiet 😂😂😂😂 I’m trying to read off the vibes but I see nothing.

I really love my tribe and the fact that they don’t know I played last season is a good strategy to play on my end

tbh i wish we lost i wanted to go to tribal and vote one of these people out :(

Welp we got second place in the first challenge :| which isn't bad!! But it's not first place 😂😂. But I had a fun day taking pictures so whateverssss. I said I would be chaotic in this game but the opportunity hasn't presented itself yet... Guess we'll have to wait and see✨

I think at this point, my team is shady and won't say anything to me so I am nervous.

The challenges were way harder than I thought. I didn't do well at all and let my tribe down. I feel like I will be the first to get voted out if we have a tribal hearing.

We lost yay. I had a feeling. Hopefully the tribe will keep me around for now since I won endurance.... lhsisowjshwowpwpwheowowhfiwpqpqpjw. Jared thinks we can vote Bri out. Which I’m fine with, I haven’t really talked to her at all. Jared and I are going to message the others and see where everyone’s head is at. Honestly I don’t care who goes home as long as I’m safe. Everyone is quiet which is so annoying. Blahhhhhhhhhh

Well it’s my 3rd time playing and it’s not off to the best start, no one seems to be talking to anyone. And we lost meaning we are going to tribal council. So fuck- I have no idea what about to happen. I’m just hoping it’s not me or Jess

if i must confess, my strategy is to have a 4-3-2 alliance. i need a 4 to have a majority, but i dont have a 4 yet. within the 4, theres a three person alliance w me jodi and amy, but within that three i believe that the core 2 is myself and jodi. i really dont care who the 4th is. i like having jodi and amy as an alliance because theyre both doing wayy too much which is great for me :) i dont think any of these people have idols but who knows. i would love to throw the next immunity i wanna go to tribal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Looks like we’ve got something good. We’ve got an alliance that’s set to (hopefully) vote out bri due to inactivity. Let’s just pray it works

Trying to talk in this tribe is so difficult In both my other seasons I was pretty quiet all the time It is like that x10000 I was hoping to stay under the radar but that doesn’t work if no one talks at all I suppose it depends on if I’m being played or if everyone just doesn’t talk. I think there’s a plan. Let’s hope it goes well

OKAY SO. Moth, Jared and I have a little alliance going on. We are set on voting out Bri. I just talked to Danny and Shaad and they are down with voting Bri out. I have high hopes that I’ll be safe at tribal.

Better communication.. in sticking with that fact, our communication in my team could be better and we need to put more effort into what we do, I believe in us!

https://youtu.be/595h7hmL6VY

The start to this game has been a freaking snails pace...it’s unbelievable to me that these people do not want to talk that much, especially when it’s a tribe of 6. Colin and I talk the most, I’ve gotten a decent amount out of Anastasia, and to me it feels like those 2 wants to work with me and I am fine with working with them. Usually in a larger group you want to figure out who you can work with long term and use the first few tribals to establish trust, I may throw that out the window since there’s only 5 other people on this tribe. My strategy needs to be who the hell can get me past these first few votes before a swap happens, and I feel like I can rely on Colin and Anastasia for that. I’d like to pull in Elle, because she’s the one who’s talked to me the most out of her, Babs, and Jennifer. Everyone seems nice, but it would be lovely if people would be more active.

I’m enjoying the fact our tribe won the first challenge everyone is very nice I love it :)

This round has been pretty smooth sailing. I know the game will pick up eventually but for now, we are just going with the flow as a tribe

https://youtu.be/UZVzZ6d6GRU

ok so apparently ginnifer isn't famous. she's just a bit quiet and mysterious. ok with me, just gonna take a while because I'm a loud and outspoken person (and player). amy, dennis and I have an alliance called "fang gang" (it's really just 3 emojis of vampires) and we're going to run the premerge hopefully. I do like brayden a lot, and maybe I'll propose a 3 with him, amy and myself to have a solid 4 control the votes until a swap. round 1 not bad so far!

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Power Rankings:

Phantom

Jodi: I believe Jodi is thriving on this tribe. She is very obviously a social player who picks up on the littlest details. I’m sure she can sniff out a plot if it comes down to it. However, Jodi is the plot. She is the leader of her tribe and is easily the most active person in the game at the moment. So long as she keeps a smile on her face and doesn’t overextend to do something messy, she will find that she will make it safely to merge. Allying with Amy could be dangerous however since Amy has stated she needs to be voted out before a certain date. This means that Jodi needs to socialize with other members of her tribe and get new allies before hers will inevitably be voted out of the game.

Amy: Even though she wants to get voted out, Amy has set herself up perfectly at Jodi’s side. She can take the heat off of herself using Jodi and is able to hide better than others. As always, her UTR game has come out to shine. She hasn’t had anyone call her out and even though Jodi has seen her play she is still able to gain her trust.

Josh: Doing so well in the challenge has earned Josh’s place here. He makes his worth known early and has a great personality as well. This makes him very safe for any early tribal councils as no one is going to want to take him out; they want him on their side. Similar to Amy, he just seems to be using an under the radar social game which he is executing well at the present moment. And, as the star of the challenge, he makes himself safe for future tribals before the swap. However, I do fear that this early impression of competition prowess will come back to haunt him if he makes it to the merge.

Dennis: I would put Dennis higher, but Jodi, his ally, already is suspicious of him. She seems to think of him as a bit of a sneak and, as the tribe leader, her opinions matter the most. It is good that he is able to be Jodi’s ally so she might stray away from voting him out. However, his desire to go to tribal and play the game so early may bite him in the butt later down the line. I can definitely see him being called out for trying to play too hard too fast. At the moment, he remains high because he seems to be decently social and no one except Jodi has sniffed him out.

Brayden: There’s not much to say on Brayden’s game. He doesn’t seem to have any allies, his challenge performance wasn’t as good as others on his tribe, and he is not in any alliances yet. This spells disaster for Brayden if his tribe goes to consecutive tribal councils. Additionally, even though he was one of the few to play in the Hunt, he didn’t win and wasn’t even close to doing so. He even gave up part way through to do the immunity challenge. I would be saving them if I were Brayden, but hindsight is 20/20. If Brayden can squeeze into being the fourth of the Jodi, Amy, Dennis alliance instead of Josh then maybe his game forecast will be better.

Ginnifer: The thing that lands Ginnifer on the bottom is that she said that her tribe could vote her out if they lost the challenge. This primes people to already be willing to get rid of her in this game. Additionally, some people have expressed difficulty with talking to Ginny such as Jodi and Amy. The former still wants to give Ginny a try at being an ally while the latter was ready to vote her out if necessary. Ginny just needs to pick up social steam and outperform in the next comp if she’s going to have longevity in this game.

Fools

Jessica: In lieu of a clear leader, Jessica has stepped up as she started the first alliance on her tribe with Moth and Jared. No doubt, Jessica’s prior relationship with Moth helped facilitate. Additionally, this seems to paint them as the “active” members of this not active tribe. Therefore, it will be very easy for Jessica to dictate votes without getting labelled as a threat since her tribe is not active enough to do so. I can definitely see her leaning on Moth as a crutch, but for now she is the topdog of her tribe. Especially so since she was the only member of her tribe to win a challenge in Divide and Conquer.

Moth: As Jessica’s right-hand person, Moth is a secure spot. It also helped that they have played this game before and is on a not active tribe. This vibes well with Moth’s gameplay style since they aren’t a social powerhouse like Jodi or Colin. Instead, she keeps it more lowkey which makes this tribe in particular a great tribe for her to thrive in.

Jared: While he hasn’t provided a confessional yet, it’s clear he’s positioned himself well with Moth and Jessica. As the topdogs of the tribe, they are key people to get in with. Besides that, he seems to be a little more active than some others, but there’s not much else to say as of right now.

Danny/Shaad: Him and Shaad can trade spots on this ranking because they are playing similar games at the moment. They are both quiet and inactive, yet are not part of the core alliance of this tribe. This could spell danger for them in upcoming tribal councils if they don’t start working on people now. They seem to be safe for now based solely on Bri’s inactivity, but, otherwise, they need to pick up their socio-strategic game before it is too late.

Bri: She seems to be the most likely person to get voted out. She was not online at all for the first two days of the game and has since remained inactive. She is easy pickings for the top 3 of this tribe which really hurts my heart. I know her in real life and she is very sociable and easy to get along with. I have no doubt that in a real life game of Survivor or Big Brother, she would kill the social game.

S.E.E.S.

Colin: Similar to Jodi, Colin is the most social person on his tribe at the moment. However, unlike Jodi, he has not taken a leader position which works to his benefit. Despite being social, Colin has been able to slip under the radar of most people with a lot of them wanting to work with him. Colin is easily going to survive until the swap, but I will caution him from getting too many allies too quickly. This tribe in particular has a wildcard willing to blow things like that up so he needs to be careful.

Elle: Similar to her previous games, Elle plays an extraordinary social game and becomes very well-liked very easily. They have no problem fitting into any situation and I foresee them making it far if they gain the right allies. What puts her at number 2 as opposed to number 1 is that she hasn’t made any strategic comments yet. Instead, she is focusing on a social game which is not a bad thing. Colin has just shown more of his gameplay in these rounds.

Anastasia: Anastasia, despite being late to the premiere, has been able to socialize with key people such as Colin and Jay. Her prior connection with Elle has also sparked an interest in Colin in working with the two of them as an alliance. Overall, her and Elle sort of share the 2 and 3 spot since they are both well-liked, did well in the challenge, and are prime allies for Colin whose word will feel like law if this tribe ever goes to tribal.

Jay: Jay is neither here nor there. He isn’t in the bottom, but he is not calling the shots either. It is good that Colin wants him as his number 1 and that Anastasia likes him. Out of the three outside of this potential Elle, Colin, Anastasia alliance, he seems like he will be most likely to be saved until a swap occurs. His calls with people have certainly been helping with that as people are able to bond more with him through there. His activity could use work, but he doesn’t need to be active if he’s liked.

Babs: With another Jodi comparison, Babs has taken the leadership position of their tribe. However, they are not as social and, in fact, considered a big threat since they are so willing to talk freely and openly in the tribe chat. Their gameplay is going to be Messy, and people have already pointed that out, making them a clear target if this tribe goes to tribal council. Despite that, they aren’t at the bottom since some people, like Colin, have expressed interest in working with that kind of player as a sort of shield. If Babs were to tone it down and be more social with people (another problem with their game), they may be able to crawl up these rankings.

Jennifer: Sadly I have to put another phonetic Jennifer at the bottom. She did the worst in the challenge across her tribe and isn’t active either. For this round, it seems she would be the easy vote if this tribe had gone to tribal. She needs to start being more social and be more of a presence in people’s minds.

#episode #episodes

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WARNING i go into a bit of a rant about the area where Kokichi died and how it probably looked like (cuz it def wasnt just blood that not realistic at all) so skip it if that makes you uncomfy! Its nothing extreme though :D

ALSO if Kokichi is a bit less confident and Shuichi is a bit nore confident or pervertish it's cause i hc that after they woke up their personalities kinda melded together! And for their memories they remembered their pasts, what happened and their actions and stuff like that

some Saiouma headcanons ( post-game ) ; because i can

first thing Shuichi did after waking up is to go look for Kokichi. Thankfully they were in the rooms next to each other so it didn't take long. Kokichi was still in a coma from his "death" but for right now Shuichi just needed to see him, his body, his face, hear his heart beating and rising chest. He looked so pale laying in the hospital bed but at least he was there and alive and breathing and not just- not just a bunch of blood and pieces of muscle/skin or intestines splattered all over the cold floor and hydraulic press.

When Kokichi woke up from the coma he saw Shuichi at the door ready to leave since it was already the end of visiting hours. Kokichi tried to use his voice as best he could but after not speaking for around a week (not that Kokichi knew) he said something along the lines of "Shu..chi pl..a..e do..t" Shuichi froze and turned back to see Kokichi barely having his eyes open and a single tear threatning to fall. Shuichi dropped his case files (that were thanfully in a folder) and ran over to Kokichi gently taking his hand and asking him questions even if he knew that he probabably wouldn't get an answer. The only thing he got was a slight squeeze of his hand he barely notices and a sleeping Kokichis light snores. He laughed lightly out of pure relief and wiped the tear that rolled down Kokichis cheek.

Shuichi then tried to visit Kokichi even more (which meant that he was definetly not following the visiting hours, vut the nurses and doctors had gooten way too tired of him pleading for a vit more so they just left them be) and also tgought about what he said to Kokichi after Gontas trial. He wanted to apologise and readied himself to get a "i won't forgive you and i never want to see gou again" after he does apologise. He also wants to ask about Kokichis plan and how he did everything. But first baby steps

The road to recovery wasn't exactly the easiest and Shuichi didn't wanna burden him with even MORE problems so he waited until after the recovery. They realised that they lived together (in a decent apartment) as Shuichis parents were never home and Kokichis left him when he was young. Shuichi told Kokichi his apology before they got out of the hospital just so Kokichi can think on how and where to live

The apology went along the lines of Shuichi saying his apology, Kokichi saying that it's okay and thathe deserved it and then Shuichi telling him that it was DEFINETLY NOT okay. But Kokichi assured Shuichi that he wasn't mad or blaming him and that he should relax. Knowing it would be pointless to arfue Shuichi left it at that. He made a mental note to make sure he compliments Kokichi enough though

The confession wasn't anything grand since after they settled back into real life where they weren't in the danger of being murdered, they got even more comfortable with each other (got mistaked for a couple a lot too) and the confession was just them having their normal movie marathon and in vetween films Kokichi said "hey we should be boyfriends" Shuichi was calm about it at first "oh okay...wait really?!" but then he kinda realised what Kokichi just asked "you like me?" Kokichis eyes started to well up with crocodile tears as he spoke "i thought you would notice all the clues i left behind to show my love mister detective!" and yeah that was it. Some more srutters on Shuichis side and some teasing nicknames on Kokichis and they were officially boyfriends

Kokichi has no problem with showing affection (like kissing or hugging, being clingy) publicly when its just for the sake of being close and not for deeper affection

Saihara gets really blushy really easily during these moments since there's a lot of people staring and his anxiety gets to him. Ofc when he hugs or kisses back he relaxes

if Kokichi notices that Saihara is too stiff he let's go of him slow enough to give him some time to make a decidion. It doesn't happen that often after being together for a long time, but the times it does Kokichi knows. He always does

In private however it is the complete opposite. Every fleeting touch and sweet kiss means something. While it is for the sake of being close it's also full of meaning and intention, a way to get to know each other, to be themselves away from the prying eyes of the public or friends, to feel safe and calm and to just feel eachother in general. To know that Kokichi isn't gone and to know that Shuichi is not alone

Shuichi usually initiates these more private moments as he feels much more comfortable with only Kokichi and no one else. He simply rubs the back of Kokichis hand while they're watching a movie or places soft kisses against his collar bones and shoulders when they cuddle. He always wants to solve an another mystery involving the boy he fell for, the little liar that allowed Shuichi out of all people to get to know him better and he won't waste that opportunity.

On the other hand, Kokichi during these moments is the one that blushes most. His cheeks never fail to get red and Shuichi always compliments him in his "you're my whole world and more" voice when he sees his partner. It took time to get used to the feeling of being vulnerable with someone that isn't his family (D.I.C.E.). He just couldn't handle the pure amont of care and love in Shuichis voice and how the eyes of the detective were staring at him as if he was solving yet another mystery. However as time passed Kokichi got more and more comfortable with the idea of letting someone see the "true" him even if it's bit by bit

It is 1 am and i have school tomorrow so ill probs write more at school tmrw :D for now enjoy these and sorry for any mistakes :[

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Three Floors Up (College!AU Fic) Part 5

Here’s Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

Pairing: Peter Parker x Black!Reader; Bisexual!MJ x Black Fem!OC (Armani) (Armani face claim @cecewiththefro on ig)

Word Count: 2.6k

Warnings: Peter gets a bit sad, but really this is a bunch of cute

UNIVESAL TAGS LIST: @beautifulwisdom2001 @iamzion-therealhabesha @jetaimeamore @thottio @shakzer00 @mixedfandxms

THREE FLOORS UP TAG LIST: @lucifersnipnips @uhh-yess-its-a-fucking-bove-me

A/N: YAY ANOTHER PART!! So this is def not edited because I accidentally pressed post instead of edit, but yeaahhh! I just started school again today and felt inspired! Hope you guys enjoy! Love y'all!❤️💛❤️💛

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Masterlist

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"I like Y/N. She's nice." Ned grabs a piece of pizza from the box sitting on the coffee table then sits back on the couch and flips through channels, stopping on Food Network for a moment.

"Yeah, she is pretty great. Hey can you hand me my… Material Science notebook?" Peter asks from the floor, scrolling to something on his laptop that sat on his thighs.

"Yellow one?" Ned leans down to Peter's backpack reaching for a tattered yellow Medd spiral notebook.

"Green." Ned adjusts his target, now reaching for the green notebook in a similar condition, but with doodles of webs on the cover.

"Here you go." Ned pulls out the notebook and swiftly hands it to Peter, not breaking his focus from Food Network, which he decided to watch. "What midterms do you have tomorrow?"

"Just this, but Wednesday I have Physics and Computer Aided Design to worry about." He runs his hand through his already disheveled hair and switches his focus from his laptop to his phone, hoping it was you who texted him when he felt his phone vibrate. Instead it was name he, for the first time in a while, did not want to see.

Mr. Stark 👨🏻‍🏭

Call me.

Peter's heart starts to race as he stands from his spot. "Uh, I'll be right back. I need to make a call."

"Stark?" Ned let's his eyes follow his friend as he heads back to their bedroom. All Peter can do is nod before he turns into the room, closing the door behind him. Even though Ned knows about Peter's Spiderman occupation, they both agreed that it would be best for Ned not to know about his missions unless absolutely necessary. He pressed the contact and waits as the phone rings.

"Hey kid, you doing anything right now?" Tony cuts straight to the point. Peter looks towards his bedroom door, thoughts of his upcoming finals flooding his mind. The last thing he expected were the words that end up falling from his lips, words he'll end up regretting.

"Uh, I- no. I'm not doing anything right now." He rubs his neck and plops onto the bottom bunk in the room. "W-what do you need?"

"I need you to gather some intel on a group S.H.I.E.L.D told me to keep an eye on. You up for it?" Peter frustratedly runs his hand over his face, rubbing his eyes in the process.

"Uh, yeah. I can come." Peter stands up, looking over at the nanotech web shooter on the desk. He sighs, already feeling tomorrow's tire.

"You sure about this Pete? You sound like you need sleep." Tony's quizzical tone makes Peter second guess his decision and walk over to the door of the bedroom, peering out at his work and his friend on the couch.

"I'm sure. I'll-uh-see you later, Mr. Stark." Peter hangs up the phone and walks over to the bathroom to splash cold water on his face. He then makes his way back over to the bedroom to his shooter, appearing moments later in the living room.

"Got called into work, huh?" Ned infers, picking up the half full pizza box and making his way over to the kitchen to put it in the fridge.

"Y-yeah." Peter answers, quickly pulling on his jacket and using his web shooter to grab a backpack that sat in the corner of the living room.

"Don't you have more studying to do?" Ned gathers the stray napkins that were scattered around the coffee table.

"I mean yeah, but those exams are later in the week." Peter pats his pockets then frantically begins to search for his phone.

"I'm pretty sure Mr. Stark would let you sit this one out so you can study." Ned walks over to the table next to the front door and picks up Peter's phone from where he placed it moments before.

"Exactly the reason I didn't tell him." He takes his phone from Ned and turns to open the door, but turns back to Ned who was less the happy about the situation. "Listen, man. It'll be fine." They complete a quick but lack luster version of their handshake, then bid their last farewell before Peter was off.

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"Shit, shit, fuck." Peter frantically whisper to himself as he rushed inside the building where his Material Science lecture was, finding the room and quickly sitting toward the back, just after the professor began to review some material. He quietly drops his backpack on the ground and pulls out his phone from his back pocket to text you.

Peter:

Made it to class. If you see skid marks on the ground it was probably me.😂

A minute later he felt his phone vibrate as his professor began to go over testing procedures. He pulls his phone from his pocket and looks at the multiple texts from you.

Y/N👸🏿💞🤓:

Peter Parker! (Just realized I don't know your middle name 😬)

Y/N👸🏿💞🤓:

Don't you have an exam today!? What time did you go to bed?

Y/N👸🏿💞🤓:

Have you eaten?

Y/N👸🏿💞🤓:

Nevermind. I'll meet you with some donuts and a frap after your exam 😁

Peter grins, shakes his head and quickly types out an answer then puts his phone away.

Peter:

Benjamin. And thank so much ❤️😵

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Y/N:

Hey, where you be at? Your frap is melting as we speak.

You look up from your phone and take a sip from your drink, looking around slightly before recieving a text from Peter.

Peter 💋👨👅:

Look behind you 😁

Before you're able too, Peter placed his hands on your shoulders, making you jump slightly and quickly tuck your phone away. "You know you can't do that to me unless you want a black eye that matches the NYU purple of your sweatshirt. Here." You hand him his drink and a donut with chocolate frosting and rainbow sprinkles then grab a regular glazed for yourself.

"You're a saint." He takes a bite of his donut and savors the flavor for a moment then takes a sip of his drink, having the same reaction. You watch him, eyes scanning his disheveled appearence, a small grin growing on your face that is masked by your own drink when he finally looks back to you.

"I know I am." You sat in silence again for a moment before you spoke up again. "How do you feel you did?"

"Fine. Luckily before I...uh, fell asleep, I studied a good amount. I guess I just went a bit too hard with the, uh, studying because I woke up really late." You nod and take a bite of your donut. "What about you? Did you have any exams today? Or do you have any?"

You quickly swallow your donut, lifting your hands to cover your mouth before speaking. "I have my OChem exam in about 2 hours. I was going to just get to the building early and study and relax before my exam. But then you texted me and I thought that maybe you would want to hang out for a bit? Like walk around Washington Square Park for an hour before I go over to the building… I don't know." You look down and take a sip of your drink, avoiding eye contact until the silence from him became unbearable. You look towards Peter to find him looking at you, eyes sparkling in the morning sun and mouth turning up into an admiring grin. You focus on a curl of his that fell in front of his face for a moment, but eventually shift under his gaze, prompting his response.

"I mean, if you're fine with that. I could also help you study, too-before your test of course. My next class isn't until 11 so I have 3 hours to kill." Peter's nervousness flooded back to him as he reaches back to scratch his neck but forgets to set down his donut, close to rubbing chocolate icing in the back of his neck if you haven't have grabbed the donut from him before his hand reached its destination. "I don't know what I would do without you." He chuckles, finally resting his hand on his neck.

"I feel bad for your aunt. The effort she had to put into keeping you alive all these years." You stand up from the bench you were seated at and balance your drink on the box that now contained 4 donuts, and held out your hand for Peter to take. He stands and does so, but after he retrieves the box from you, now balancing his drink on it as he hugs it close with his left arm, then puts out his right arm for you to take. You interlock your arm in his and hold him close, then head in the direction of Washington Square.

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"Oh good, you came back." Ned walks up to Peter after seemingly pacing and engulfs him in a hug. "I was sure you would've been mad at me for telling him."

"Wait, telling who what?" Peter asks, still in Ned's grasp. A second later his phone begins to ring.

"I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm so-" Ned pleas as Peter escapes his hold the fishes out his phone from his pocket.

"Why is Mr. Stark calling me? Facetiming me at that?" Peter's glare towards Ned held a majority fear that was lightly sprinkled with fury, but nonetheless he answers the phone and heads back to his room. "Uh, h-hey Mr. Stark how's-"

"Were you going to tell me you had a midterm or was my only method of finding out your helpful but extremely anxious friend out there?" Even through the screen, Tony's disappointment burned a hole through Peter.

"I-i was going to tell you. Just, later." Peter avoids eye contact and goes to sit on the bottom bunk of the bed.

"Hmmm." Tony nods and rubs his goatee, this gesture being one that Peter hated because something drastic always followed after. "No more missions for the rest of the semester."

"WHAT!? Mr. Stark d-don't you think that's a bit...harsh." Peter's voice lowers to a whisper as he feels Tony's gaze intensify.

"No, I don't, since I seem to be the only one here that's thinking." Tony takes a deep breath and rubs his closed eyes. "I told you before this even started that school comes first. I didn't need you to come last night, I just thought that it would've been good practice for you." He paused a moment, which for Peter felt like an eternity. "I want your assignment schedules from now on, so you won't even have the chance to lie to me about your assignments."

"Yes sir." Tears began to prick Peter's eyes which causes Tony's stern facade to cave.

"Hey kid, come on. Don't look at it as a punishment but rather an opportunity to spend more time with your friends. And that girl you were telling me about." Tony grins as Peter wipes his eyes then turns around, appearing to be talking to someone off screen. "I gotta go Pete, I'll talk to you later. Now go get some studying done. Hey! Go study with that girl." He looks away again. "Alright, alright. Bye Pete." He smiles one last time before hanging up. A smile that instilled a sense of calm in Peter before his heart rate shot up again when he received a text from you.

Y/N👸🏿💞🤓:

How about traveling those three floors for a study sesh? Mj and Nini made cookies and I'm about to put a shit ton of chicken nuggets in the oven. Ask Ned and see if he wants to come too

Peter gets up from the bunk, grinning at your text as he makes his way out to Ned. "Uh...Y/N invited us over to study. You wanna come?" Peter starts to pack his notebooks, textbooks and laptop into his backpack.

"Uh-y-yeah, sure." Ned slowly gets up from the couch where he was worrying in silence moments ago to gather his things. "You're not mad at me?" Peter just shakes his head and purses his lips to form a sad but genuine grin as Ned approaches him. They do their handshake into a bro hug before finally exiting their place.

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"So, y'all make out, almost made it to the point where you and MJ would've had to disinfect the couch and now it's like you're just real great pals?" Armani mocks the recent development in yours and Peter's relationship as you pour the nuggets from the sheet pan into a large bowl.

"I don't know. Listen, we already were moving a bit fast, I guess I felt it was better to slow things down." You shrug and bring the bowl into the living room, placing it on the coffee table and swatting Armani's hand when she went to reach for one. "Not everyone can get to the perfection that is you and MJ so quick, ight."

"Girl, you don't see the way he looks at you ALL THE TIME. And the speed at which he answers your texts, or how fast you answer his. Just jump on each other and get it over with." Armani dips a nugget in the bowl of ketchup and pops it in her mouth just as you pop her upside the head. Not a second later there was a knock at the door.

"MJ, come getcho girl." You call to your roommate, who was currently in the bathroom, and make your way to the door. "Welcome to hell, we have nugs and cookies." You pull Ned into a quick, tight hug then let him pass. Peter takes a step towards you takes a moment to scan your face, seeming to sigh in relief at the sight of you.

"Hi." He lowers his line of sight slightly in order to make eye contact. You study his eyes, realizing a slight pink tint to them, as if he was crying.

"Hi." You grin up at him, surprised slightly when he pulls you into a tight hug, one of those hugs where the person hugging you cradles your head against their chest. You breath in the faint scent of what was left of his cologne as you wrap your arms around his waist.

"You ok?" You ask Peter, earning a hum of affirmation as he breaths in the scent of your hair, which was just in a puff since you were going to get it done after midterms week.

"How was your exam?" His words came out as a mumble against your head. He kisses your hair and pulls away, taking a couple steps into the apartment so you can close and lock the door.

"Fine, but you know how OChem is." You hesitate your answer, missing the warmth of Peter's body on yours. You turn around to walk to the couch, but bump into Peter's solid frame, making him chuckle, you joining a second later. Once the low chuckling between the two of you die down, Peter looks into your eyes for a moment then grasps both sides of your face and kisses you hard. In no time at all your tongues were intertwined, putting an immense amount of passion in the short lived kiss. He pulls away and smiles at you pressing his forehead against yours.

"What chapter is that in? I don't remember learning that!" You place your hands on Peter's arms to look around him at your sarcastic roommate who was smirking toward you two with one hand in the sky and the other around Armani.

"I think that's in a later topic." Ned responds, pretending to flip through his textbook.

You smile bright to Peter and shake your head, pecking his lips one more time before taking his hand, pulling him to the couch. "We better get studying before we get more sarcasm."

"I agree." Peter smiled a knee weakening smile and followed you to the couch.

Part 6

#peter parker x reader #peter parker #peter parker imagine #peter parker x black!reader #black reader #spiderman imagine #mj x fem!oc #marvel imagine #marvel #college au

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hello there my apricot! ☀🍄💗 oh goodness, what a long day it's been! it's good to see you darling!! i hope you're well today,, and it seems like we both have the same problem with waking up so late... ahh that warrants a nap day for the two of us in the future hm?? 😉 (1/7)

"despite today's slight negativity, i must say that you all never fail to cheer me up with your antics,, all of these kind things about me being "charming" and "flirty" and such... i could never! i actually never realized i was so bold in everyone's eyes!! ah that is embarrasing, no? (2/7)

😅 i don't normally flirt with people this much, as far as i can tell at least,, i didn't even realize this at all!!! i always thought of it as me just saying what's on my mind hehe, you must be very special then morgy!! always finding your way into my thoughts, you are clearly the charming one here! 😖❤ (3/7)

ooh, and oh my gosh!! gundhanon's art and those picrews,, so cute!!! everyone never ceases to amaze me with their sheer creativity,, all of the things everyone thinks up and creates makes me so happy!! thank you all for taking the time to do these little things 💓 (and gundhanon my dear, your art is so pretty, even if you doubt yourself 💖) and morg my dear, you seriously flatter me,, saying that you'd watch over me through my narcolepsy,, amore you are too sweet!! i don't deserve you 🌺 (4/7)

i saw an anon mentioned the song sleep thru ur alarms?? i thought i was the only one who knew that song!! it's actually the one of the only songs i can always cry on the spot to without fail ^^; it's nice to see that someone else knows it! (5/7)

today was filled with work under the hot sun, it greatly exhausted me but i was able to relax with my cats afterwards,, they were extremely cuddly for some reason! i was also able to practice my singing with some old french and italian songs since i went alone to the bunnies today,, they really seemed to enjoy it, one even sat in my lap while i sung!! 🌟 (6/7)

other than that, my day was quite frustrating and boring,, but i bet tomorrow will be better! after all, you can't have sunshine without rain!! (7/7̶ 8)

mamma mia, i feel my eyes closing as i type... i guess it's time for bed then hehe!! i apologize for the shortness of today's writing,, i think it's the lack of good sleep hitting me 😅 sleep well love, i'll be thinking of you! see you next morning 💘 - hugs and kisses from the dreamland, waifu xoxo 🌺☁🌠💖😘 ps: tipsy video game night sounds fun, lets add it to the list~ 👀❤ (8/8)"

Sounds like u had yet another full-ish day darling....i myself literally drew all day to the point where i got a headache shshxh

But again ofc ppl say nice things its only natural when ur so kind hearted as u are?? Kindness attracts kindness yknow and if anything i def had a feeling u werent the flirty type IN GENERAL so the fact that im the target of all of ur little remarks specifically makes me👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️

We really do b twinning with our wack schleep schedules (almost since my dumbass doesnt even schleep at night) and its why i would undoubtedly watch over u and ur narcolepsy as i stated before 👀 but ur def right we will have a tipsy videogame/marathon night o n g o d

#i also cant wait for u to discover more of our show and of aa👁️#the confessional

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Lineup Lamentations - GW13

Our Transfers, Captains, and Starting 11s for the week.

WALSH

TRANSFERS:

OUT: Mendy

IN: Seamus Goalman

I will be WCing next week so one week punt is in. Just trying to limp thru this post-IB weekend.

Need to remove my one million percent ded guy in Mendy over my 99% ded guy in Dings so fuck me. For the record I think Everton's defense is fucking bad and I don't think they are good picks. However, in my case, for just the one off there is not much else out there. No home bankers for a top side so I was forced to look elsewhere.

I already have Dock and while Wolves chance at a clean may be marginally better than Everton's this gameweek, there is no one else as fun as Coleman in Wolves defense. Does feel nice to welcome back a fun old friend who I haven't hung out with in a long time. Get in there Seamus lad.

GK:

Alisson in what will prob be a farewell game for me. He's been fine but it does not seem that he's worth the 1m premium over the 4.5 guys so far so will probably look to shift down on WC next week. TBD, but in the meantime, at Watford is a bit of a tricky one. Not having such high hopes for a clean.

DEF:

Big time Irish camaraderie and locker room bantz with Coleman and The Dock backing up 66% of my defense this weekend. Both nice solid shouts for a clean sheet this weekend which would buoy me. Really need them to come in and feeling pretty okay about it......because my third defender is Wannybiz.

Bit of a bunch of fuck and am stuck with a rough fixture at OT. Hopefully he comes in with two points. Dire times as you can see.

MID:

Frayzuh also prob farewell game for me this weekend. Hoping to get a lucky return out of the no necker. Bournemouth just have too rough of a run to really want me to keep him even though I have a decent bit of value tied up in him. I'd rather roll the dice somewhere else.

Sticking on the double Livp mids of Mo and Mane. Really no clue what to expect out of that game but I've made my bed with Mane in last week so might as well give him the game before their Darb. Completely over the barrel thinking about whether or not to keep Mo on WC but that is a decision for another day.

Finally, Haz is still in there. Seems to like to go against the Spuddypotatoes so meh idk whatever. He's great.

FWD:

Still have the same Arnie Kun combo since GW1.

As mentioned on last pod I am fairly terrified about Arnie with this pile up and I may bid him farewell on WC. Kun's fine.

Ings I am just throwing out there just in case he gets a late horse placenta injection and can make it. It is looking grim for him though from all news that's come out of there. Just don't want to hit in a striker in that price range (read: Rondon) for one week before WC. Such a low percentage of coming out ahead. Boo.

BENCH:

Billingz / Lee Peltz / :bulbasaur:

CAP:

I'm on Mo. Kun is fine but still don't think it's fine to cap a 70 minute guy. If their fixture was at home....I'd prob be on Kun. But as it stands, I will take my chances with Mo and a better shot at 90. I don't really have a strong feeling about it, but don't see any better option from my group. I think Raz is by far the best captaincy option this gameweek, and I'd cap him to fuck if I owned him, but I don't, so I can't. Big weekend for Mo here. Come on Mo.

ALON

TRANSFERS:

OUT: Mendy

IN: Balsamic Vinagre

I’m typing this poolside still on my family vacation with frankly no fucking idea what’s going on in the prem.

This break I’m more checked out then ever but hey I still like Wolves defense! I was about to do Mendy to Bennett and keep it simple pimple control but friends on our Slack reminded me about Jonny’s death and the sexiness of Vinagre.

I was also debating going with either someone to rotate with Doherty in and out like a Bournemouth defender for nice rotation or even an Everton defender but meh... I’ll pass on that and in the future (maybe next week?) I’ll probably upgrade Gerry D massively to Raz or something like that and switch to a 3-4-3 so I won’t need to start someone in Doherty’s place for the bad fixtures.

Oil and Vinagre in - let’s fuck.

...Ooo just typing this is really getting my juices flowing it’s good to be back :)... Gonna miss almost 100% of the matches tomorrow (Saturday) but when I land back in New York at night I’ll download the Liverpool match and download MoTD and pull the blinds and get the lube and have a fucking night to myself. Gonna be great.

GK:

Flappy hands vs Man. City oh boy. Watching this one from between my fingers especially with no City attackers. Bad job by me. Fuck my dick. If Fab gets 0 points I’m honestly happy.

DEF:

Rolling out five boys this week because that’s soooo Alon and I just can’t help myself.

Double Wolves defenders straight the fuck in with both fullbacks Dock and Vinagre how fun is that??? Home Huddy and the best Vegas odds of any team to keep a clean sheet this weekend; that’s a big yes please from me.

The other three are the same immoveable pillars of my backline with VVD / VVDue and Alonsinho and Laporte. Three boys you never bench.

MID:

Haz is weird guy because the “tougher” the fixture you almost feel better about him in FPL? I can’t explain it but that’s how I feel... I see at Spurs and I’m like cool an easy 15 pointer let’s go.

Mo is Mo and ducks are ducks.

And Tony M. in the form of his life home to Palace yeah ok I’m in on that and Tony’s fixture run that seems good to me this pleases me a lot. Maybe Tony will be the sacrificial lineup lamb for Raz eventually but I duno seems bad when he just scores every fucking match. TBD... But for now he’s a good guy.

FWD:

Starting just two guys this week and benching Arnie for Vinagre. Controversial gut move and I’m rolling with it. Love Arnie to death and he’s obviously first on my bench but against City is just meh, what’s he gonna get, one shot? Two shots? Realistic ceiling of probably six points while Vinagre’s is higher with more shouts at bones and an equalish shout of attacking points, for me.

Callum is in there home to Arsecast... Arsenal have shown defensive improvement but I still feel like there’s a lot of room on counters and Xhaka will probably make at LEAST one horrific back pass when put under pressure so hopefully Callum pounces on some stuff like a good boy.

And Murray in, in probably his last effort for me home to Leicester. At least it’s home -- Glenner loves scoring at home. Let’s do it Glenner come on bruh... What a fucking pick by me on wildcard.

BENCH:

Arnie / Gerry D / Stephens

Best bench ever?

CAP:

Also on Mo with Walsh which basically ensures an unmitigated disaster week for us... can’t wait.

No but seriously there’re no other shouts in my 11 this week -- I am not close to trusting Tony M. with a cap -- so Mo must go.

It’s not the best fixture but it’s fine and Mo, we say it ad nauseam, always puts up the underlying numbers to return against anyone every single week so let’s just fucking do that again and turn it into a haul. Go on Mo you sexy fuck.

#FML FPL #FMLFPL #FPL #Fantasy Premier League #Lineup Lamentations

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TEXAS

2022 Apr 15 (Fri) – We drove to Palo Duro Canyon. It is reputed to be a little Grand Canyon. The scenery was lovely. Going up the curving mountain roads, heading down to the canyon bottom, hiking some of the trails. It was all great. And I learned something new! In Utah, Nevada, Arizona and Colorado we have seen mountain sides that change in colors as the layers of the earth are exposed. The layers run horizontally and usually in individual formations. Texas call those layer formations Spanish Skirts. This is because the rock layers and angled slopes mimic a colonial Spanish lady’s flowing, striped skirt. Makes sense.

After the Canyon, we stopped at WalMart to pick up some DEF for the truck and rugs for the RV. We’ve been looking for a while ever since Bonnie had an accident and we had to throw out the rug. We finally found something nice as well as runners for the kitchen and a runner for the bedroom. Paul doesn’t like the produce at WalMart so we left to find a supermarket somewhere else. Unfortunately, they were all of a Mexican persuasion – Amigos, Fiesta Foods, etc. We wound up going back to WalMart. On the way back to the campground, we stopped to fuel up for tomorrow’s move.

2022 Apr 14 (Thu) – We went to the Jack Sisemore Traveland RV Park. It was a collection of old camping trailers, cars and motorcycles. Jack Sisemore was a racer and collected all the items that were on display. We were able to look inside the old campers and marvel at how things have changed over the years.

Next stop was at the Texas Air & Space Museum. They used to have the entire hangar but the company they rent the space from took most of it back and the museum is now squeezed into a corner of the hangar. There were 2 planes inside that were formerly in the military. Other artifacts were crammed into the area. After the docent told us about the collection inside, he took us outside to the tarmac where several other planes were parked. We were able to climb into a couple of them. One, you had to climb through the loading hatch and another, you could climb right up the stairs. One of the aircraft reminded me of the C-130s I used to fly when I was stationed in Iraq. We found some D-Day bags that we could give to our members during the WWII Reenactment Caravan in June. We bought all the bags they had – all four. It would have been nice if they had ten. Oh, well. We’ll give them as prizes.

After the two museums, we went to Tyler’s Barbecue for lunch. It was listed as #3 of 349 in Amarillo. It is a well-deserved ranking. I had ribs and Paul had brisket. Everything was very good.

2022 Apr 13 (Weds) – Since we only had 120 miles to go today, we left a little later than usual; at 10:15 a.m. The drive was only 2 hours from Tucumcari, NM to Amarillo, TX. We went through a time change from Mountain to Central Time. The campground is old and needs some TLC. There are 3 rows of RVs, many of them are long-term residents. The office was closed with notes on the door. One noted the cost per night. Another note gave instructions to put a check or cash in an envelope and drop it in the box. The WiFi password was also posted on the door. COVID might have caused this initially, but I think someone is now just plain taking advantage of not reporting to the office.

We drove in and chose a pull-through site. We have full hook-ups, which is nice since we have no sewer at the Elks Lodge. The entire surface of the campground is packed dirt. Our site is uneven, and Paul had to use blocks to level the trailer.

Bonnie has diarrhea again. It was boiled chicken and rice for her tonight. *sigh* At least there are no goats heads here.

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survivorunfinishedbusiness · 6 years

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Episode #3 - “I Stand For The Flag, I Kneel At The Cross” - Amanda

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175489103003/immunity-challenge-3

Moral of the story, never trust a weeaboo goombitch

Audaux or whatever that fucking tribe's name is is dead to me. They are worth nothing. SCUM. Scum is what they are. Liars. Their word is worth nothing in this game and neither are they. Unlike them I've got an idol. Time's ticking. And sooner or later their times gonna be up.

im overwhelmed

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175491921028/announcement

Amanda is removed from the game.

I’m not a Christian but I know who Monique Heart is. “Therefore whatever you have said in the dark shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private rooms shall be proclaimed on the housetops.” Luke 12:3

oh wow. This game really took a turn for the worst huh. Nicholas left, Dani exploded, one world and a swap happened, tea was spilled, my closest ally was removed from the game, and Athena is ending after this season. I would like it to be known that I had absolutely no idea Amanda was so problematic and would not have gotten so close to her had I known! I'm taking this whole night kinda hard because it's like a punch in the face for me, not only because it hinders my game but also because it's so sad that I had gotten so close to Amanda these past few days and it's honestly super tragic what happened. I literally had no idea she was problematic and I had grown to care for her. I'm def just gonna take the night off and try to gather my bearings before I try to focus on the game or anyone else in it for now. Today has been insanely exhausting. Tomorrow is a new day and I fully intend to play just as hard (if not harder) as I was before, but I'm probably gonna have to start back at square 1. Wish me luck!!

So, tribal went exactly as I planned, and the swap happened... just as planned. However, Amanda wasn't something I had planned or even considered happening. Like, it's crazy when you think you know somebody, but then it turns out they are actually a 180 of what you think they are... Naturally this throws the Night Owls into serious haywire, and honestly, it might as well be a new game only with less allies at this point.

Well, Dani as it turns out is the Abi-Maria type, you know "fuck with me, you're dead." Good news is that I'm on a different tribe. Bad news is that I went in that tribal with 6 people willing to work with me, and walked out with 2.

https://youtu.be/BKWTR3cUibk

As time goes on, I'm slowly feeling a bit better about my tribe, but we'll see how I'm feeling when/if we go to tribal. Bodhi surprisingly seems less upset than Dani, almost makes me glad I got him instead of Dani. (Though having Colin and Timmy would have been ideal for me.)

Hi hosts I haven't made a confessional yet. honestly last night was wild like. i was drinking because i'm on vacaytion and that's what you do and like i started drinking like RIGHT when ryan sent the letter so i knew this was gonna be an interesting night so i kept on doing it and i was definitely gone. so yeah my tribes cool i like dani a lot. hopefully her drama will keep us alive. i don't know who's from what tribe but i do know anna and i are the only ones from talio on a tribe of 8 so that's really cute!

Okay so... last night was a hot mess. We tribe swap but then get put on One World with a scary pairs challenge, but then everyone fights Amanda Lynn for blindsiding Nicholas, THEN she gets exposed and quits the game. Omg Dani’s mind... So now I’m on a new tribe so let’s assess them! Super happy Andrew is with me. My closest ally from the old tribe that I can trust. Nathan and Nicole are here too, but they seem like a tighter duo with each other than us. I just hope they don’t do any shady business. Super happy to be reunited with Bodhi, we were a duo in B.B. pokémon but it might be known with Julia on this tribe. Speaking of Julia, don’t think we’re on good terms. She doesn’t like me so I’m not gonna bother messaging her. I played furby with Colin, we didn’t talk much there though. He tells me he lead the blindside against Nicholas and Kori was with him too so they’re probably working together. And then there’s Isaac, don’t have an opinion of him. Let’s just hope this phase of the game goes swimmingly.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175509590398/immunity-challenge-4

OK WOW THAT AMANDA LYNN DRAMA I THINK SORTA SAVED ME! I WAS PAIRED WIHT JAKE! IN THAT PAIRED UP WHAT EVER CRAP TURN LEFT TURN RIGHT BULLSHIT! and well i was most definitely going to turn right on his ass. Bc i know for a fact he was lying to me i know he was also turning right. IM NOT DUMB JAKE! sooo i was shook! bc like i didnt know all that wud play out. BUT THEN QUEEN JAY B. EXPOSED AMANDA LYNNS ASS! WHICH GETS HER PRETTY MUVH REMOVED/WALKED FROM THE GAME! which means no dumb pairs! sooo now we r on this one world tribal beach for like no reason ! ahah. but yeah i pretty much trust no one on my tribe like at all. BESIDES DANI A FUCKING QUEEN ! DANI I FUCKING LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AN BACK! <3 well im on the ugly audax tribe now. and i need to make a video DR about other stuff

ali and emily TY TY FOR PUTTING ANNA on my tribe after the swap! SHE IS A GODDESS ON THE UNDERWORLD <3 (mean this in a good way) she is definitely a slytherin sooo cunning! ME AN HER BOTH BEING POTS AND VILLAINS OF OUR GAMES AND BEING ON THE SAME TRIBE <3 wow ty for rigging us together <3 SHE IS MY QUEEN! LIKE i hope she is bein genuine wiht me right now bc i want to work with her sooo bad!

Before my first tribal https://youtu.be/RfsGDjeD9_w After my first tribal https://youtu.be/NDCkPgw75II

https://youtu.be/M4bMaLxzwpY Update on what I said about Blake though: we both like the same shows so that’s amazing because they’re Netflix shows which are my favorite.

Ali won't tell me where the idols are. That fucking snake this is why I told the hosts I refused to play with him.

Well, now that the Amanda fiasco has been said and done, I feel good about AJ and Julia in my tribe, meanwhile I still have Colin and I'm trying to work on a potential 5th, if we can get 5 that's a majority in a possible vote, and then I can move through this tribe fearlessly.

I dunno how I feel about the challenge, because it feels like one that if I'm in, I could definitely drop the ball, and as a result be the target, which would SUCK like majorly.

Hi My name is john coffey And yes I drink coffee.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175523828513/immunity-results-4

Talio wins immunity, sending Audax is sent to tribal council.

I'm a little late with this confession but Amanda got removed cus sis, she's homophobic, bye.

17 more to go.

So theres some annoying beef going on between Timmy and Dani and I mean I might as well be annoying and call them out about it in the tribe chat. It's the last season of Athena we gotta spice shit up.

So much is happening, I wanted Dani out, Dani wanted me out, Mo was trying to instigate stuff in the tribe chat. Once the challenge results were posted Ryan was messaging me saying that we should keep the 4 of us who were in the challenge safe because we need strong competitors and I agreed. Then after that I heard from Anna that Dani was saying my name, which is fucked up because she (Dani) had just said last night that she wants to put the past behind us. But honestly, and this is going to sound really stupid, after the Mo thing in the tribe chat, I'd much rather have him gone. The way to do that is to work with Dani and just let everything out into the open. Especially since Mo said, both in PMs and in the tribe chat, that he is trying a more assertive and bold strategy. Don't reveal your strategy, that's stupid. So Dani and I have been talking and we want Mo out because that seems like the best idea right now because he is trying to personify that there is an issue between us. I can get Anna on board and she seems like she would agree to it based on a small talk about it and Dani said she got John. But also John hasn't responded to my last message so....that's something. Trusting Dani could be what gets me out of this game and I really could be booboo the fool, but sometimes risks need to be taken. I'm just hoping that I can convince Ryan that this is the smarter plan, or maybe he can talk some sense into me and then Dani goes. Either way I don't want to be the one leaving tomorrow and I'm going to try everything to make sure that that does not happen. But right now it is 1am and I can get nothing accomplished this late, so that will have to wait until tomorrow where hopefully I don't wake up to a tribe chat on fire.

ofc my tribe loses. Tribal council loves "ana" ;) @ emily anyway dani and timmy are fighting which makes it sooo easy to just sit back and vote one of them BUT i really like timmy. and Dani is close to Blake and Ryan who I have an alliance chat with so I don't think they will vote her. Naturally I threw out the idea to keep BOTH of them for the drama and since Dani is going to go after Colin, Kori AND Timmy she will make such a great meat shield even in the future. So I threw out Mo's name. We were originally not going to vote anyone who competed in the challenge but Mo took literally so long, 5 minutes longer than the person on the other tribe and Ryan had gotten him a beautiful lead. Ofc I was 2 minutes slower but hear me out. Apparently in the jeopardy challenge he had bad internet or something and flopped and let everyone down. So thats kinda 2 in a row. Don't get me wrong, I think he's a super nice guy and I get why everyone loves him BUT him and I's convo's seem to run dry. Compared to people like Blake or Ryan who I want to talk to all the time, I don't see myself working with him closely in the future. So we will see. Looks like its gonna be one of those three!

it's me again. SO last night mo was like stirring the pot or something and tried having like an intervention with dani and timmy. or like, relationship therapy i guess. BUT it seems like little mo's fun backfired because mr timmy came to me this morning and it appears he and dani have kissed and made up and now they want little mo out. gay gagging! anna's on board i think. and it doesn't seem like vindicta is united. i know john said he didn't really connect with everyone so that's good. and timmys gonna pull in RTP so we can vote out mo. so that's fun!

The numbers to get Mo out seem to be there so I am thrilled! We don't need someone who is going to try to cause drama just so they can then hide in the shadows. The difficult part comes next and that is telling Ryan that Mo is the target, but I am hoping that will go well because the numbers are already there, and I'll phrase it in a way that is me asking him rather than saying it is already happening...even though it is.

Kori is literally.... like... insane. Every single time I'm on a call with him and one other person he offers a 'voice chat' alliance to f3. We've had one with Timmy since night 1, made one with Nathan yesterday, and he also offered one to Isaac. It's literally too much I'm screaming. Straights are WILD.

LAST MINUTE DR.... I WON IMMUNITY WOOOO BUT I THINK THE FIRST TIME I DONT IM GONE GBVFDJGNVFD

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175556933558/tribal-council-4-audax

Mo is sent home by a vote of 6-1. You can watch his preseason interview here.

#writeanewchapter #episodes

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365-money-diary · 3 years

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days 63-69

day sixty-three [mar. 5]

8:00 am - Notice my tax refund has hit +$1213! Make a chemex. Try to be chill for this am’s call. It’s kind of a big one.

10:00 am - Well it went really well. I was asked to be a decisionmaker on the call so that’s a nice boost to my ego. Eat the final piece of pineapple pie to celebrate / also just to eat breakfast.

2:00 pm - I have a giant monthly report that I’m delivering next week, so I get started on that. I get ¼ of the way done and decide to cut work early to exercise.

5:30 pm - We try to order from Monroe’s – the hot chicken place I picked up food from for M’s birthday but it’s closed / not taking online orders. We decide to get Cornish Pasty instead. K gets a veggie Mexican and I get the vegan Guinness stew. We also share an order of oven chips with garlic & jalapeno. K pays for this one.

8:30 pm - I am so so full. I have a phone date tonight with C - I think in my last diary I referred to him as BFF? Either way, he’s moved to Seattle and we chat probably every month or so for a few hours. I am feeling so so full from pasty that I take a really long walk to settle my stomach. I walk to the lake and then across and down to campus. At some point I stop to buy a water from a vending machine but it gives me a Dr. Pepper. Find a different one and buy a water instead. $4.25

11:30 pm - Realize I need to go to bed and let C go.

day sixty-three total: $0

day sixty-four

8:30 am - Wake up and make a chemex. Read a few chapters of The Guest List and start to move all of the furniture in the living room into the center of the room for the trim. Spend the next hour cleaning/prepping while K walks to the lake.

11:00 am - Last time I did the kitchen my quads were so sore so I decide to do a pure barre class prior to starting knowing that I’ll be way too sore tomorrow.

12:30 pm - K and I are determined to get this hot chicken. We place an order at the downtown location and I go over there to pick it up. We both get vegans - extra hot + hot + fries + 2 orders of pickles. $48.18

3:00 pm - Finally start taping the living room.

6:45 pm - That took 400 years. Start the first layer of paint.

9:45 pm - Second layer of paint.

11:45 pm - Eat some chips and salsa. Manage to bolt the door closed and head to bed. What a day.

day sixty-four total: $48.18

day sixty-five

8:45 am - Wow my legs. I am so so sore. I want to try to get the living room put back together as soon as possible so I don’t delay in making my coffee and ripping up tape.

11:00 am - Why does this take 800 years? It’s not fair. Make us tofu/egg tacos for breakfast with low carb tortillas.

12:00 pm - K helps me put the room back together. We really take our time sweeping and dusting and even going through all of our things. He is a big help!

2:30 pm - The living room is put back together! Rejoice.

3:30 pm - K and I go hit golf balls. We both do a lot better than the first time we went out and have a lot of fun. He pays for the bucket of balls.

5:00 pm - Toss beans in the instant pot.

6:00 pm - Pour a glass of wine and meet with K’s family on zoom.

7:30 pm - Big burritos for din with beans, rice, lettuce, cheeze, & jackfruit with chips and salsa.

8:00 pm - idk what’s up with me but i am in a huge snacky mood. Eat chocolate and a few spoonfuls of peanut butter.

9:00 pm - K walks to the lake and I start scoping out clothes/sales again. I have a $100 gift card from Everlane for Christmas from K’s parents and decide to use that. I buy 2 dresses and a pair of pants. ($18.27) I also stumble across a pair of boots that are just beautiful. I want them so badly but they’re made of leather. I scope out Poshmark and find a pair in my size and they’re ACTUALLY used and in my size. They’re listed for $80 and I offer $70. The seller accepts ($83.12) $101.39

day sixty-five total: $101.39

day sixty-six

8:00 am - I am so sore still. Ugh. Pure barre charge comes thru. $15

10:00 am - Officially done with pie for breakfast so I eat yogurt instead.

12:00 pm - Finish the last of the BBQ chicken salad for lunch. Continue my shopping adventures and find a pair of mules from Madewell on Poshmark. Offer $50 and it’s accepted. $61.50

4:00 pm - I’m still pretty sore but I stretch out a bit and do a pure barre livestream.

5:30 pm - The weather is really nice out and so I decide to read on the porch. It doesn’t take long before K asks me to come with him to his office so he can clean out his stuff. Background: he was furloughed in August and the place he works isn’t renewing the lease.

7:00 pm - We arrive home. I think K feels defeated. I kinda do too.. Feels like the end of an era. He isn’t up for dinner. I heat up some pozole for myself.

8:00 pm - K decides to go for a walk and I want to finish Season 21 of The Challenge (Rivals) so I stay home. Make a rum drink with soda water, a tiny agave squeeze and some limes. It’s very good.

day sixty-six total: $76.50

day sixty-seven

7:45 am - up early today. I have a meeting at 8:30 today to pull some data/talk about KPIs for the project I’ve been put in “decision-maker status” for. The meeting goes well and I feel good about the data alignment.

9:30 am - I get sent a zoom link without any warning. I tell them to give me a minute so I can pee and heat up my coffee. On my way to the kitchen I knock over a glass and it shatters EVERYWHERE. I take a few minutes to clean it up and forget to pee.

10:45 am - run to the restroom. K asks me to join him in the spare room where his “office” is. I work on reporting for a while in there. Eat plant yogurt.

12:30 pm - i wait too long to eat and am feeling overwhelmed and stressed. K rubs my back and helps me clean the kitchen. I swear these dishes never end.

1:15 pm - i have to pee again and this time it burns. Fuck fuck fuck. Not sure if it’s yeast or urinary tract but either one can’t be good. I pay some more attention to my body and realize that i can feel my bladder swelling which means i’m in uti territory. I have a super sensitive bladder and this puts me in a panic. Change my underwear, dig through my supplies and find a test strip, and AZO. Pound a bunch of water to keep things moving.

1:45 pm - Fears are realized. At home UTI test comes back positive. I am able to land a prescription very quickly through undisclosed sources. In the meantime, I take AZO for my symptoms and advil for my bladder inflammation.

5:45 pm - Finish working for the day and all I want is a glass of wine but I know that will fuck up my urinary tract even more. Stick to water and such. Decide not to work out tonight either given I don’t have the antibiotics yet and any agitation to my bladder will harm my current state.

6:15 pm - Roast potatoes in the oven and the text from CVS comes that my prescription is ready. Roll on over to pick it up. $1.02

7:00 pm - Buffalo chicken sandwiches is the vibe for dinner. Continue drinking water, take more AZO.

day sixty-seven total: $1.02

day sixty-eight

8:00 am - wake up feeling like my body did some solid healing work. Make a chemex and QA some stuff for a 9:30 meeting where I have to present.

11:00 am - plant yogurt. Definitely feeling a lot better today already AND my calendar is clear for work aka def going to work out before 5.

11:45 am - Buy vitamin D on amazon but it’s free since I have the gift card from my boss. Eat leftover cauliflower fried rice for lunch.

3:00 pm - work is actually slow today and my urinary tract is feeling on the mend. Take a barre class recording and shower all before 4 PM.

6:00 pm - tonight we’re doing leftover big burritos with roasted potatoes. We’re out of tortilla chips and honestly dipping the potatoes in salsa is pretty dope.

8:00 pm - i kinda ease in and out of feelin’ tired. Read some of The Guest List before turning in.

day sixty-eight total: $0

day sixty-nine

8:00 am - wake up feeling again like i was in a deep deep healing mode sleep. Make coffee and get to work.

11:30 am - make pad thai for lunch.

2:30 pm - try on all of my clothes that came from ann taylor/loft plus the boss boot shoes from poshmark. Everything fits really well and I’m happy I took the plunge to figure out what my new sizes actually are. I am still really self conscious of my belly… it’s like a ledge and i really don’t get it because i am otherwise very thin. It could be a hormone thing or it could be a gut thing but i decide to try to tackle both at once. Vitamin d and zinc for horomones (which I already have on hand) i do some research and find a supplement from hum nutrition to try and decide to start taking ACV shots to see if anything changes. $25.45

4:50 pm - do a pure barre live stream recording. Shower and eat too many snacks.

7:00 pm - start a new season of the challenge while k goes to hit golf balls. Upon his return I make him a burrito with potatoes and myself some leftover pozole.

11:00 pm - finish the guest list. Didn’t see the ending coming at all! Get some sleep for vaccine #2 tomorrow.

day sixty-nine total: $25.45

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Episode 2 | “GET ME OUT OF HERE ” - Devon

okay so i filmed a video confessional earlier which is uploading where i basically talked about dealing with being a winner/the tomb and having an idol/potentially wanting to go to tribal pre-swap/deliberately choosing the puzzle/how much i love jake so that'll come at some point after this but just KNOW that came first. anyway just wanted to talk MORE because i have more thoughts. last round i was really conscious of needing to micro-manage my threat level and i think im putting in work to do that? im very concious that i cant play the same game as montenegro because im coming into it from a very different perspective/position. However, one thing I can do this season is transfer my prejury game, because i think it still works. What I need to do is to some extent take a backseat, where I'm not actively messaging people first, and keeping game talk kinda limited (but acknowledging it when people talk to me). Like I have the safety cushion of my idol, and my connection to jake/jordan, and to some extent dan and lovelis? like im not gonna be a target (touch wood) and hopefully if i am my men tm going to keep an eye out for me.... hopefully? it also means im not gonna be pushy about votes im gonna hear names and run with it (as long as its not jake/jordan, or lovelis tbh i get real good vibes from him). but yeah id really love the beauty tribe to go to tribal this round ive literally never spoken to a single one of them so i'd love one of that tribe that is a complete unknown quantity to go home DJDKLFSF. but yis so im feeling good taking a backseat but im gonna ejector seat myself forwards at some point, just got to figure out when to push the button

Okay so Bodhi left last night and that was really sad. We had nice conversations but i told him that if the rest of the tribe wanted him out i wasn't going to campaign for him. He ended up making his rounds but at the end of the day, no one felt strongly about keeping him. He speaks so well that it took me a night's rest to get my head straight. Also Trace got an alliance together of himself, myself, Scott and Isaac. Bitch i was SHOOK! I am so glad to be likable enough to be brought into someone else's core. So this kind of perfectly positioned myself and Scott between 2 alliances. I believe we're both more loyal to the one we formed before we found out we were going to tribal, but who knows. I did tell Autumn of the news because i figure if we were to lose again. Whichever of Isaac of Trace remains is going to feel on bottom and blow up that Scott and I were two-timing the DADS. Btw that is the dumbest alliance name I have ever been a part of but whatever. The rat pack has also formed and now him and I are in a good spot. I will say that i am nervous that MISS ALYSSA spoke the comparison into existence, but i really hope we don't continue to flop like Luzon did on Cagayan. But hey! If Denise can go to every tribal council in one season and win, maybe i can too. (PS i pissed myself with my score in winterbells but also F*CK WINTERBELLS, thats all, ty)

Honestly I’m really regretting not participating in this challenge because I feel like our scores are.......not great. I feel like I could have turned out the puzzle and even winterbells. The flag Lovelis made is super cute and i think will fair well bc it’s very clean and neat. It’s not super creative, but it’s definitely well made. I think even if we went to tribal I would be okay though. Liam seems like an easy enough boot for us. No one seems that dazzled by his contributions to the tribe.

i literally am the biggest clown who ever clowned for continuing to overdo it in challenges, if i'm allowed to make it to merge at this point it will literally be a miracle.

So Bodhi left on a unanimous vote yesterday and I'm glad that it worked out as planned! I definitely felt bad lying to him about it all and stuff, but I think it was the best for the tribe going forward. What does suck however is that we lost AGAIN! And it was actually close this time! I'm actually annoyed that we lost this time because I submitted my challenge at 4PM and the reason why we lost was because the last submission was at 8 :/ like... y'all couldn't get it in any earlier? Plus I'm annoyed because I find myself in the swing position between the DADS and The Rat Pack. Personally I don't trust Trace after finding out he tried to play the Rat Pack off as my idea when it was really his all along. To me, it shows that he'd betray me later on down the line. And the only purpose for "The Rat Pack" is so they feel like they're in the majority. So since we lost, I don't mind voting out Trace. Duncan and I called to confirm that we're on the same page. We also found out that Devon is telling us the same things about loyalty and allegiances and I don't like that. He also told Duncan that he would throw immunities and play idols for him if he needed it, and that Duncan was his number 1 ally. But he said the same exact thing to me. So... that has me a little sketch. But I also think that Autumn/Duncan are a close pair, so I may need to stick close to Devon for the long hall. But if Autumn/Duncan think I'm more with them than Devon, I'll take it. I'm supposed to go on call with the Dads soon. Duncan wants to tell them about the rat alliance so that Isaac doesn't use it as motive to get us out. Which i agree that it'd be a good idea as long as devon/autumn stick with us. Duncan and I both feel like Devon might be thrown off since he always likes to be in control, but not actually being in charge. So we'll need to do damage control when that happens. But for now it seems like Trace is going unless things change. If things go how I would want it to, then Trace leaves tomorrow.

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Omg!!!!! Another win that makes me so happy . The tribe is all getting along great and I couldnt all for better ppl. I'm hoping soon to get some kind of solid group together. Kendell adam and amiry are ppl I def wanna work with long term at the time. Just gotta see what happens.

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Not much has been happening lately so I might be able to keep this short and not ramble on and on like i usually do (ill still end up writing a novel probably) yippy yay it's day 5 and everything is still all smiles and giggles over here because we've won yet another immunity!! kinda boring tbh but obviously im happy we won immunity because now that buys me one more day and at the end of it that's all i care about. I kinda did want the brauns to go to tribal however instead of the brains because i just really would like my beauties to get a nice foot hold and a lead in the game, i actually enjoy taking to some of these people, and im trying my best to talk to as many people as i can, which anyone who knows me knows isn't the easiest thing for me, i was reading some of my old confessionals from both my past games and the one thing i consistently got dragged for was not being as present with people, which granted i did improve a lot on last time around for sure, but i still got work to do and im realizing that more each day when i have no urge whatsoever to talk to anyone (don't worry, it's not you, it's (crippling depression) me! I understand socializing is part of the game and i do think my social game is my strongest asset but to me i like to think of my social game as a more distinct kind, im more elusive and i like to be that, if you leave them wanting more dahling they'll keep you around, i dont like to show all my cards, and that's a quality that i reflect in both survivor and life, and it has advantages and disadvantages in both but ANYWHO despite all that dare i say i think im still doing *decent* ? I'm making it a priority to reach out at least once a day to *most people (AJ, Augusto, Amir, Austin) are the ones ive probably had some of the best conversations with where it was the most natural and just flowed you know, and still is on day 5, and with kendall ive had some talks with her i do like her but idk i get this vibe she's kinda holding back when talking to me, and ESPECIALLY same with connor? we only had one private conversation and he gave me about a 3 word response, and if you havent guessed by now i like elaboration or at least a lil bit of personality when you talk, no shade just an observation, so that's a small red flag im very much a person who matches energy, one of my go to's in survivor is being open to the possibility of anything, ill always work with anyone who will work with me, and i think thats how everyone should play so hopefully the people ive been talking a lot to feel similar but i guess we'll have to wait until a vote of some sort to see about all that.. I still havent heard any idol talk or even game talk quite frankly so im guessing people are just still keeping the friendly facade up..... or ...... is it me?? am i the one on the outs looking like boo boo the fool or is that just my paranoia getting to me??? im not gonna send myself into a tizzy about getting voted out when we're not even going to tribal i- lemme calm down. If i had to guess I'd say Kendall, Connor, or Amir have the idol probably but sounds like a mystery for another day because im DONE im clocking out for the night until other people wanna wake up and play the game too oop final note: ok but it would be sick and twisted if it turns out they are all playing the game just without me and im the first boot of the tribe

Waking up on this glorious Day 5 with a new perspective. I originally applied to be on the brains tribe and was shook when I got brawn because let’s face it, my arms are akin to overcooked spaghetti noodles. BUT my tribe is so much stronger than the brains. I’m hoping for a big name to go to shake things up. AND I’m not really looking to swap onto a tribe with Trace or Autumn due to our past game history. Love them both dearly, but it’s gonna be a no from me.

okie so! update from me is i think im doing okay. like i think the benefit of no dua lipa cave is you can just build connections with everyone, you aren't voting someone out every round so why not capitalise on that? i'm so afraid of the fact that i'm overdoing it in challenges like i really need to calm. down. but im reassuring myself with the fact that in the first challenge i only was top because i did like... one more thing than others like its not thattt big of a deal? my puzzle time was clownery but hopefully people don't pay attention to it? im getting very anxious about overdoing it in challenges, but my thought process now is like. i need to act like people have an awareness of it, without getting kinda consumed by my anxiety about it? idk im hoping since most of these people don't know me, they wont notice me doing good in the challenge but truly who can be sure also am really just liking my tribe? like jake is ofc a king, i love jordan (who im gonna talk to later, he is the only one i feel like i have to talk to today), i also really like TJ who i was super harsh on at the start for no reason, i get good ally vibes from lovelis, liam m is super sweet even tho he is kinda inactive and dan is so fun (plus he told jake that he speaks to me one of the most so we love that!!). i've been trying to figure out what i even do about a lot of the super old school players that i have no connection/point of reference with? like people like scott, adam, kendall, aj i have truly no basis with? thats whats so scary about a swap, is at this point in the game i know 10/20 people left aka the brawn tribe + duncan/isaac/autumn, and like 10/20 isnt bad... BUT then the other 10 aka the beauty tribe + trace/scott/devon i have literally no connection to which is super scary JAKSDFA. im just real afraid of a swap. just swap me with jordan/jake/autumn/isaac PLEATHE. im just a pile of anxiety this season idk what to do im like frozen because of how scared i am... maybe it'll be all fine

Well, that was a close one. I struggled with that comp all day and I feel like absolute shit that I only got our team that 1 point. To me, it's inexcusable not to have be able to help my tribe as I wanted to contribute and make sure I made my worth known. So now I'm just this paranoid mess that I would have been in trouble had we gone to tribal. It's been hard to talk to some of these people or for most of those who I do talk to, I just don't really know where there head is at. I'm not sure if this is just a really guarded tribe, or if I really should be concerned. So I don't know what to do just yet. And that's not a feeling I like when playing TS.

Not gonna lie, I’m pretty sad that Bodhi left the game like he was so active pre-season so I was expecting him to do his best to go super far and maybe he did? I don’t know, but I did want a chance to actually get to play with him in TS but we keep passing each other by! I hope he is doing good despite how he might feel being the first boot yknow but yeah <3

The way I absolutely flopped with the idol system stuff is all types of funny and sad at the same time like I REALLY thought I did something only for it to be part of the challenge… That being said, Amir did tell me that he has a theory the idol system might be based on numbers which is interesting! I am super thankful he decided to tell me and we went on this long talk about how we are each other’s #1s which is super cute! I really do trust Amir and I do want to go far with him because he’s awesome but that being said, my #1 is me like I promised myself that I’d be selfish this time around just because being the selfless person I am hasn’t gotten me a win but we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. We did go over a lot of stuff in terms of tribe dynamics and we both kinda agreed that AJ would be the first boot from the time if we went to tribal, we like our alliance with Kendall/Connor, we both like Adam and we both think Austin is sweet/genuine even if we don’t talk to him tons so yay for that too <3

I am SO trying to sell the fact that me and Kendall are a duo to Kendall which is funny to me idk hjfkds like she did approach me super early on about aligning but I do have the tiniest feeling she did that to mostly everyone but I’m trying to pin us with each other to her so she trusts me more, especially since I do feel as though she is the best connected on the tribe. I even called us Crystal Cox (me bc blazing speed and challenge flop ofc) and Ken(dell) ghfjdksl, I’m doing the most but yeah, I just want Kendall to see me as her #1 in the game on the off chance anything happens yknow?

Austin thinks I’m his #1 which is really sweet? I do like Austin even if it is hard to talk to him sometimes but hey, that happens. He told me that he’s really glad I’m on this tribe (which I have heard from basically everyone especially Adam and Amir which makes me feel cute omg) and that we might need to get a group going soon. I was like…. Tea but I also don’t know how quickly I want to get an alliance including Austin going just because it’s like… do I reveal that Austin and I are close-ish and be seen as a social threat? That just ain’t cute sis! But yeah, Austin told me he also really likes Kendall and Amir and that’s awesome that the two people I feel the closest to are ALSO doing THAT but at the same time, I want to be the one doing THAT the most because I’m greedy (by Ariana Grande) so it’s something to keep in mind!

The way I absolutely flopped at that puzzle… this is why I’m a Beauty cause a sis ain’t smart to complete a puzzle and I’m not brawn-y enough to do well in a challenge hgjfdk BUT that being said, Hagthor beat the thots and apiss and I couldn’t be any happier! I do wish Brawn lost over Brain but yknow, you can’t have everything go your way (‘: it’s funny how I slayed the last challenge and flopped this one tho like a bitch really lacks consistency huh ghfjndmks

Ugh fineeeee since I've been called out... by myself. I guess I'll do the bare minimum. So we won immunity!!!! Wooo!!!!!! Low-key though through out the entire process of making the flag, I just kept thinking darn I wish we voted out someone last tribal because drawing 7 people is annoying... watch me get voted out next tribal council lol. That would be quality foreshadowing. Today I have two goals. 1. Figure out what the method of entering the tomb. I intend on getting in contact with Augusto or Connor for that one. Augusto because he is low-key my number one. Connor because I feel if anyone can solve it he probably could. 2. Set up group chat with me, Augusto, and Austin. So Austin can feel a false sense of reassurance and Augusto and I have options. Write more later maybe.

Honestly im feeling kind of trepidatious going forward which is a little wierd, i just dont feel like ive gotten my footing yet in this game. I think like, im in a good spot to be fine on this tribe because of my social game and how I contribute in challenges, but I dont know if I feel good about anything longterm just yet. What really is bothering me is the tomb. Its gonna be round 3 tonight and I haven't made any more progress on getting in than I have night one. I feel like I have a lot of pieces to this puzzle but nothing is fitting together and its bothering me. I'm also a little upset that if we lose, I could see Liam being the target and I can't see my self risking my position to save him if he cant save himself. He has my name on his wiki page its an obvious association to me, and while I think hed be loyal to me, I'm just wondering honestly if him as an ally is worth the target it may bring. Im cautiously moving through the beginning of this game with a lot of unnease and hopefully I find some steady ground soon.

I am annoyed that we are yet again at tribal. I played so fucking hard at winter bells but of course someone on another tribe got like 238593277 billion which threw us back into tribal... So annoying truthfully. But it's alright, I should be able to make it out alive. I want Devon to go home. But I also don't want to let my guard down. This vote is important for a few reasons. The first reason is that our tribe is very close, so I am nervous that lines are going to be drawn in the sand. The second is that, after this vote, we will be down to five, making 3 the majority. We have an alliance of 4, and lord knows that when you are down to 5, whoever feels like 3 and 4 of the alliance are most likely going to try and rope in the 5th person to get rid of each other. So my plan is to make Isaac and Scott BOTH feel as though they are my number 1s so that they actually stick to our alliance of 4 thinking that I will be keeping them both if we lose again. This is the only way that i can see it working, but idk. I feel bad if Devon ends up going because he's a nice guy, but we have to make choices about strengthening our team, and then I have to make a choice about strengthening my place in the game. Hopefully this doesn't come to bite me in the ass.

Things have been going pretty well for my tribe! We won the first immunity challenge and that really seemed to boost tribe morale. Granted, these past couple of days I've been quiet since I'm trying to boost grades that are literally 0s into something manageable before I graduate hehe. I've tried to keep up with people through small conversations, which seems to work better for me at the moment until I get myself together. Adam wants to create an alliance with Augusto and Amir, which I'm totally for. I understand, though, that he doesn't wanna do it immediately since there's really no urgency to? We didn't go to tribal, so why did it matter! That excuse aside, I do hope that us holding our breath to say something doesn't bite us in the ass because these are people I want to work with! I wanna get something going with Kendall as well hopefully, since I adore her! Earlier, I stated that Adam and I (Adam, really) found our way into the tomb and both flopped in the questions. Adam took another stab at it and found out we've been bamboozled! Someone beat us to the punch and has whatever contents were inside the tomb. I'm assuming it was an idol, but who knows what else is in there! It kinda made me lose motivation to keep searching inside but when in Rome? I'll probably end up trying again despite knowing the end result just because I wanna prove I can be a smart cookie as well. I also didn't gloss over this but I'll mention it really quickly, but I'm sad Bodhi went! He was one of the few people I was familiar with on the other tribes so it's unfortunate we aren't going to be able to connect with each other this game. A king has fallen. In lighter and more recents events, my tribe crushed the second immunity challenge. Kendall stunned with her artistry and I'm still gushing over how cute everyone's character was. I kinda like decimated Winterbells, but I've always been good at the game, and Amir did really well in the scavenger hunt. Augusto and Austin did really well in the puzzle also, despite their lack of confidence in offering a strong performance. We appear to be THEE tribe to beat honestly and I'm loving that. I love our tribe! I LOVE OUR TRIBE! It really would be a tragedy if we aren't able to keep up this win streak we're manifesting.

Sorry for not writing this sooner! Been having a bad depressive episode for the last couple days and it makes me unmotivated to write c': I feel like a flop so far in this game, not because I submit shit scores, but because I find it exhausting to connect with some of these people. They're all very nice in their own special ways, but interacting w some is like pulling teeth, and I guarantee they feel the same about me, which I would expect. That being said, I hope we keep winning, cause I don't have the energy to go to tribal right now.

Heading into a second tribal council, there is becoming less and less room to hide. I am struggling to hold my own against the other tribes when it comes to competitions, but thank goodness it's a numbers game. If everything goes accordingly, I am taking a backseat this vote and allowing a 4-2 vote out when it comes to Trace. I appreciated Duncan coming to me with the alliance chat information with him/Scott/Trace/Isaac, but didn't like how Autumn needed to tell me first. Shows that I really can't trust Scott/Duncan after a swap comes up. In regards to Scott, he outright didn't say anything. I like him and all, but it was a slimy move to say the least. He only said something because he HAD to vote out someone in one of his two alliances. This group will be dumb as hell if they let me swap. I'll flip on them as soon as possible and invite anyone into my alliance. The tribe swap is where I made my 'Slithers' game infamous last time, so I'm hoping for a similar output. Don't forget: I swapped with the minority last time in Guyana (shout out to Jess), so I'm not worried about the numbers and how its split. ALL I NEED IS A SWAP OR TWIST. GET ME OUT OF HERE.

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Thank God we won that based on the tiebreaker, but yikes I didn't think my flag would've tanked so hard. Guess I've gotta get better at perfecting my craft huh, but at least we're safe. I feel nervous on this tribe to be honest, because I think I'm the second to bottom on the totem pole after the other Liam, so it isn't reassuring that if we lose twice I'll either be gone, or I could even be gone at our first tribal if he's got a solid alliance going...the only alliance I have right now is with Jordan and I don't really know where I sit with everyone else, but I'm afraid of overplaying... ugh so annoying! I think I just need to force a couple of game related conversations with people to build up some trust, just hope it wouldn't paint a target on my back for trying I guess...

oh gorl, some of these people on my tribe really think im just the clown of the tribe and cant put two and two together, well guess what, IM NOT. So Amir messages me, which nothing out of the ordinary there, ive been talking to him every day so far for the most part like i said we're a little familiar with each other from our pasts, but i was VERY surprised today at what had happened... what had happened was....he starts talking the smallest bit of game with me, basically he just said, "is it me or is everyone really quiet here?" and so i just agreed with him and i said yeah i dont think people are talking game yet which is a little weird, and then i threw the TINEST tea crumpet out there and i said "yeah ive talked to some people so easily like you, but then there's others who.....i cant say the same for" and i was absolutely hinting at connor/kendall just because i havent had the longest convos with them, which no biggie, but THEN about 20 minutes later i get a message from CONNOR of all people saying "hey adam!" ..... obviously im glad to talk to him and im all for getting to know everyone, but my instincts immediately went off and told me it's a little sus....how not even a few minutes ago i was saying how some people never talk to me and then out of no where the one person i was mainly talking about messages me?? Coincidences don't exist in survivor. Now I really have no choice but to think that amir in someway mentioned to connor that i said theres some people i havent talked to at all and that he probably needed to work on that.. which is true, but cmon. i know the tribe brain cell is missing but at least put a little thought into this and message me later tonight or not right after i say it?? I'm not sure if they have any type of past connection and while I definitely do wanna keep building my relationship with Amir, this will definitely make me question him a little bit at least until i see how some votes fall when we eventually go to tribal. Amir also told me he's had the most convos with Augusto, which is funny because thats exactly how both me and aj feel about augusto, which tells me augusto is really playing the game rn, and while thats someone i want to work with, it's also someone i need to be extremely careful with if we're still playing together down the road. plot twist: connor messaging me has absolutely nothing to do with amir and i just made this whole conspiracy for nothing but idk.... it's a conspiracy IM interested in.

***last add on because i forgot to say how the hell im gonna HANDLE this amir/connor situation... im keeping my eyes on it incase theyre in kahoots and also if they think im that dumb then clearly they havent watched me play before, which is great for me but bad for them, you cant trick a trickster try all you want, There's nothing I love more than being underestimated in survivor because it kinda makes it a little easier to play and gives me more options, so sure ill keep up my fake smiles and act like we're all fine and dandy, ill play dumb and wont even act like im onto them but i absolutely am and ill be ready to make my move the second it seems right

Ugh I feel so DIRTY. I feel so GROSS. Poor Devon, truly. I spoke with Autumn and told her about Devon, and she was in without a fight and told me that it should be 5-1. And then Devon came to me and was like... we all good for the vote tonight? And I'm like ................yes? Lol. I'm good, you're probably not. ugh, this is the part of this game that I hate. I want to never lose immunity ever again, let someone else break someone else's heart!

Something about Kendall is so chaotic and terrifying and I can’t put a finger on why.her aligning was her talking to me for the first time in a day saying “let’s align” and created an alliance chat without even asking who else should be in it which leads me to believe her Augusto and Connor already have a trio and I was the 4th. Are all these focking people playing me?? Like i still cant tell if this is a real alliance but i want to believe it is and not a bluff to vote me out. But also like why even do that, the only person on this cast that I trust and have played with, bodhi, has just been voted out. I’m a free agent and I can help that alliance make it far in the game, but they also have lots of relationships on other tribes so like I might not even be that valuable to them. I mentioned to Augusto about the numbers on the blog, hoping to create more trust because I really really love him and want to trust him but I’m still just so damn unsure. if we lose this immunity and I get one bad signal from any of those 3, if they slip up even once, I won’t hesitate to align and gather the minority. But if they are playing me properly, then kudos to them!

I am just happy i have the idol i am going to put it in my ass.

me when the brains tribe only has 5 members left http://prntscr.com/s8y76g

You know what? https://66.media.tumblr.com/b7b4accba586ad321141b6ba80d69044/tumblr_omule3fwZC1w1swfno1_250.gifv I'm mad but I'm not tight because that same alliance that Duncan and I orchestrated is the same alliance that will get us through. So do I enjoy going to tribal? No. And do I enjoy knowing that Trace created an alliance w/ everyone except me and Devon? No. But the Dads will prevail and I trust Scott and the gang. I mean Ducnan is family so as long as we don't go it's fine. But Devon is my baby so absolutely gotta kill for him. That's what keep em close hahaha But no the Trace vote is a dream come true that I only crossed my mind once and STILL got manifested. Like Duncan suggested it and I said you got it because Trace will be the FIRST to rally all the white boys against me in a swap. Cute or not, Trace will kill me I'm convinced. Like something in my spirit told me not to trust Trace and low and behold: Duncan reveals that alliance to me on Day 3. So confirmed, Trace is leaving so that I don't fall to the bottom of the tribe. But it's all good- Isaac listens to Fleetwood Mac and watches Schitt's Creek so he's a good guy. And Scott is literally a cinammon roll who's too busy to snitch or flip. I don't have time to discuss how much I love Duncan or Devon so we're tabling that. Anyway If y'all need me I'll be doing this 4 part immunity challenge that determines whether I make Final 3 in the other org I'm in so try not to need me lmao

okay so... we aren't going to tribal but its still kinda messy on brawn beach. i kinda have felt this energy for a while, but i don't think jake and jordan have enough trust between the two of them for us to be a continual three person alliance. jake is a very reactive, gut-impulse kind of player which is honestly to his benefit since he is super perceptive. however that also means he is quick to be anxious about stuff in the game, which is the same as me and that is why we click. BUT. he thinks something is up with dan/jordan and honestly i see that and feel it. jordan keeps hinting at dan being the one to loop in and i think that does say something about them having some sort of game dynamic. however, jordan is maybe downplaying that relationship which is scary KLAF tbh i still like jordan and wanna work with him, but i do 100% have to keep tabs on him, his social connections could definitely become a problem if he has other priorities over me! so i think i just have to make sure im a continuing priority for him, so i have to find some sort of information to bring to him (maybe when dan proposes the alliance of me/jordan/jake/dan to me ill run to jordan and be like hey did dan suggest this to you how do you feel) to solidify that sort of trust? idk... i want my j-men to stick together and they ARENT. maybe i need to solidify stuff with TJ specifically more, he gives good ally vibes? but ya... its a mess tm

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